Hey guys,

I know it's been a long time.
I have been living in Baton Rouge for a year now. I moved in with my brother and working on getting my own place.
I was really hoping things go differently this year.
It was okay so far, D&D, drawing, and working a decent job at the pizzeria.
Until this past late August, we got hit with another hurricane.
I had to head back to my hometown for a few days.
I have been lying in a bed for days until we go out to eat until my stepfather had a heart attack in a home depot.
He recovered and went into surgery for a pacemaker.
There has been so much I was doing just to pass the time, but I have been feeling really depressed.
It got better when we returned to our place, and I look forward to going to work.
A few close friends contacted me to make sure, and I appreciate them so much for it.

I had to postpone and make a few changes to my schedule.
I don't want to lose anyone or let anyone go through what I am going through.

I have even been reaching out to people to who I can relate. Just so I can have friends again on a physical level.
I feel like I am just waiting again for another natural disaster or pandemic to change my life.

I've been strong for so long...I am starting to feel weak.
I pray things will be better.

Hello everyone,
I've been doing fine as of these days.
I got a decent job and taking a break from art and a few games this month. January I will be pushing myself back into the projects.
I noticed the pause yet during these times of change and planning. I felt like the need to enjoy life was necessary before things turn out worse or different.
This year has been rough, and I even moved out with my brother. Yet I like to thank my players, and friends who supported me through these troubled times.
I don't have a purpose, but I know that I will continue to express what I like to do in a way I can.

Commissions are still open at my normal rate. Until I get more frequent clients will I decide to make special deals. I would like to post up more original works myself, but that won't be for a long time or until I make more money than what I need. Right now, I just want to be there for the people I care about and help them out as well.
One person in particular, but for now enjoy the season!
Thank you for reading and enjoy.

Hello everyone!
I am back for now and I am back in the art business.
I am currently looking for work to pay for rent at moment. Building up my resume, updating all my sites.
Anything will help so I can recover all the hurricanes hitting my state.
It will also help me keep up with the D&D live show I DM on  Xizana youtube channel and twitch! We go live on Tuesday, called the War of Two Sons.
You can find the recorded sessions here!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCQ.....ilAmoptBzCX8QH
Right now I am looking for work! Full Time or Commissions for major paying products!
You can find the link here for my prices. We can negotiate if used for a business
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38877862/
Until then, I will busy and preparing for another storm...hopefully not another hurricane.
Thank you for reading and I look forward to producing more work!

Hello everyone.
Sadly things have turned for the worst.
My home town has been hit by the category 4 hurricane. We suffered minor damage and evacuated before.
My home has water damage with my stuff and car left behind.
There is no power, clean water or anyway of living there since last week. Most of these won't be restored for a month or so. I am now hearing about renting it to roof contractors for them to stay.
I am staying with my oldest brother with the dogs. Trying to figure out what to do next. I have no privacy or place to go. Let alone run the sessions or draw freely. For now I am fine, but I gave moving away due to financial issues and personal problems.
It will be a while until I recover.
I have decided to get a new computer from the savings to start working on new programs. 3D models especially. The internship has help, but it is the only way I can make money after this is done.
This is just an update and I will continue to do so more when I get the chance. Thank you for reading...

Hello everyone.

I know it's been a while, yet I been extremely busy.
I am back at work and taking a few breaks from a couple of games to work on a couple of things.
Alot has happened which is stuff I never thought would occur.
I rather not go into details about them because they are personal.
News of a comic I been working on called Merah Image, I colored will be posted at a later time.
Right now I can't sleep and have been quitting a few groups I joined.
A few discord groups I was no longer exist, yet I can't seem to think clearly with all the soreness.

I tried a few of the latest games, and may also be moving out by August if things go well. I figured it was best I take the next step of pushing myself. I am gonna keep up with my own bills and space for once. I will be close to home though and be there for my friends and family.

Sadly when it comes to my art, I have put that on the back burner. I did make a new Fursona, named Bruno. I'm still working on his ref for now. Not yet satisfied with the results so far...

Overall things are okay, and I hope everyone is getting by through this pandemic still.
Just because everything is opening up here, doesn't mean the danger is over. We're still at risk.
So please be safe, and take care.
Until next time...

Hello everyone.
As you may know, we are still going through "social distancing" and well I have been home either cleaning or working on a few things.
Along with the assistance of a few friends, things have been okay. Though I won't say being cooped up in the house all the time does leave one very unmotivated.
First off, I am currently working with  xizana on Merah Mirror, a short D&D comic explaining her character's backstory. It is a collaborative experience and we're still in development. Along with doing live sessions of our campaign on Tuesday nights. I am having fun with it and getting back into the artistic field again.
Second, actually decided to come up with a real "Fursona." I love using Shadi, and he will still be the mascot for this account. However, I figured I get to show myself in another way. Allowing my characters to grow in their own way. Bruno is his name, and he will represent me as of this point as part of the furry community. I haven't really done a full fur character before, and I hope he suits me well.
Third, even though we had the second extension until Mid May or maybe longer; I shall take this time to work on other stories or post up summary scripts of my campaigns to share.
Last but not least, by the end of this quarantine, my computer will be upgraded and I will finally be able to do more things that I wish. I have been saving up for many things and may look into moving out on my own, or with a roommate. Though if you wish to help, I will be posting commissions in the near future. Not now as I have other plans set in motion.

I do hope everyone comes out okay in this and everyone is washing their hands.
Please be safe and thank you for reading!

Hello everyone,
I hope you are all enjoying yourself.
I have been hard at work and looking to upgrade my stuff this month, along with spending time with my family.
I am not be going to my local con this year, due to personal reasons. Even if it's the 10 year anniversary. I have more important things to handle, besides the changes, I have seen them do to the character I designed for them has left an odd taste in my mouth. It's just hasn't been the same since.
Also, for those who don't know or saw from my last post. I am doing a Twitch stream with my friend Xizzy and her friends. I like would make a statement on a few things. Mostly dealing with my D&D concepts.

1. This is all just for fun. I am not looking for money or anything out of this other than entertainment. I earn enough money from doing commissions or my full-time job. Nor do I seek any funding other than to get stuff on Roll20 to make the game more easy to make maps and effects for the game. I appreciate everything my players have given me and do my best to make sure they have fun.

2. I make disclaimers of the art for my games, because yes I do use some other art found on Google search. Most have also been altered to a point of my own design, yet I make no claim to them. I use them for visual aids, because would like my players to see a face with an NPC. I am used to this not being streamed, nor do I try to use copyrighted characters from main media sources. If I was ever was contacted to change an NPC image-based from personal art I found. (No I do not go to their pages and take their art.) I am willing to change the image or draw that image with a basic sketch. I don't have the funds to get art myself from another person. I found all of my images on google. I do not have the time to draw out all the characters, even though I would love to do so myself to give them more precise details. I do not have the time, considering I run 3 games a week, most are bi-weekly. So I do what I can in such a short window.

3. I do not need help running my games, assisting me when it comes to my story or being hired as a DM. There are people who do this for a living, and I do this as a hobby to help me write stories. The only way I would consider being paid is if I had to run a module from people who are willing to pay me to take the time. All of the campaigns I made are homebrew and under my management. I am not here to be the next Critical Role, Unexpectables, or other popular D&D groups online. They do an amazing job, but they are most close to theater work from what I can tell with advance settings. I hang in their discord in some discussions on fun topics or recruiting players when we are low on players.

I wanted to get this off my chest and in the future. I would like to work on something more original outside of a popular RPG media. I do enjoy those who come to watch, play and take the time to just chill. I would rather help be given out to my players more than me. I love making these games for my friends I made in the years.

I also do some basic coloring work for certain works, but for commissions, personal work, or for businesses. I would like to get paid.
I will try to post more often but thank you for listening.

Our D&D Session , first campaign!
https://www.twitch.tv/jyinxxed
We'll be starting in 30 minutes!
Yourstruely as the DM~
Starring  Xizana & Friends
Come watch and enjoy~

Hello everyone, I hope you're enjoying yourselves.
I have crazy news! Other than the fact that I been super busy while promoting aid to some of my closest friends around.

Sadly I have only been able to do some sketch work for personal stuff, yet I won't be posting those unless it's necessary.
I have mainly focused on earning money on the side of my normal job during the mornings, and maintaining my data on my computer.
Apparently I did not get the bonus I thought I was going to and spent a lot more on my budget for Christmas gifts. ^^;
I am fine though and may take up special commission offers or collabs.

Yet to the main event.
I will be doing a live short streaming session with  Xizana & a few of her friends on Tuesday nights for the start of a new D&D campaign.
But no~ I am not pulling a critical role, the sessions will be 3 hours long, and she will be streaming it on her own channel.
It will be a homebrew campaign known as "The War of Two Sons." an old story I wrote up while I was making Vizion over 5 years ago.
Please note the character arts being used is from the internet, so I do not claim the art, but the story is of my own making. I would love to draw out all the characters myself, but I need time to work up the narrative, & music, and maps...ooh so many maps. X,x

This will not take away my time from my fun campaigns bi-weekly on Friday and Monday, those have already been prepped for more theater of the mind.
I am mostly doing this Tuesday session to get them into the game, and make a fun story for everyone to enjoy.~
Yet you can go to her page and support her comics and art! Which she often takes orders from time to time.
I will ask for a link and post it here when I can, but the times will be between 8:30 PM-11:30PM US Central Tuesday this month and next.

For now, I am going to be very busy, yet don't feel afraid to contact me.
Until then, Thank you for reading!

Hello everyone,

Man, it's already a new year. Time does fly.~

Though this will be for both December and updates for the next month.
While the holidays have been great, I am going to come clean on something.
This is personal and I figured I state it as such.
I made a lot of mistakes, ones where I look at myself and think that I have been hurt or angry inside.
A face I don't show to anyone unless they know me on a physical personal level.
Actions I took way too far, and even hurt my family which almost caused them to become distant.
To the point, I decided to speak to a professional therapist. Though I was open to my close friends about it, there was always this feeling I kept.
It still haunts me to this day, and get constant reminders from time to time.
Yet, I feel like it's on a thin line of just crossing that point and snapping to do the worse thing I can come up.
Still, that line is just a little respect I had for back then, thinking of the good times.
I don't need a second chance, I don't need that in my life, and I most certainly can do better if I put myself to the task.
I've been proving this since 3 years ago since May.
I am contempt and will look forward to what brings me.
It's not because of the New year though, or some kind of resolution, just something I like to share for those reading this.

Don't get me wrong, this was a pretty good year for me. An awesome group of friends online for art and my guild on D&D.
The times I took to write a few stories and concepts. Working a job where it doesn't put me down but feels like I am needed, and works with my hours. *Best Christmas party and Bonus~*
A Christmas I got to get my family gifts and enjoy ourselves.

Yet I am not gonna lie.... there is something I really want, and will never get ever again.

The point is I am still here, and for those who want to chill and hang out are welcome.
Just give me a heads up ^^;

Also, call out to my close friends in my profile, go check them out! They could really use the support.
I won't be updating as much, because I would like to relax more before the next holiday, but you can still find me on Discord.
Until then, thank you everyone for reading.

Hello everyone.

I just want to say Happy Veteran's Day to all our former men and women who served.

Also, please pardon my absence. There has been a lot going on in just the recent month.
Besides a lot of parties and new people, I am dealing with at work. Not to mention my right heel is starting to hurt a bit from standing over 6 hours a day on it, with extra shifts I took to help out.
Thankfully I will be getting a bonus this season to go see a damn doctor yet no vacation.

Art updates!
...I have something *hides the boxes of scrap paper*
Though I been more focused on story and lore, along with saving my money for emergencies.
My phone died on me and I got this cool new Samsung e10A, which apparently has over F*cking 18G compared to my little 3gb phone. *sigh* I am so stubborn on things over transferring my data, that I am needing to do more research because of the offered upgrade I got last year. In short, I got a good deal and love playing Raid on this bad boy.~
I could be playing Hearthstone on it too, but I prefer sitting in a quiet place at home doing that rather in public.

Oh right...art update.
I am working on my player's new updated looks for both campaigns. Simple tokens I will design and "HOPEFULLY" get done before the Christmas holidays. It's rare I get two days off now, considering how much I get asked to work....yay -_-;

As for my own OC's and stories. Well, I just need a good reason to share them.
I still offer commissions, but I mostly do it to help either way. Art is becoming more of a hobby now then work, which I like it that way for me personally. I enjoyed doing gift arts, and it lets me vent out any ideas I got stuck in my head.~

Overall, I am fine, worried a bit about my health. I am becoming a gray fur beast with a jolly gut. I hope I am not turning into Santa like some Tim Allan Christmas movie.
There will be more to come soon, you can find me on discord. I Mod for a few people I adore and admire, so send me a note if you like.
Otherwise Take care!

Hello, I am not doing so well this morning. I woke up to something horrible that I would not want to repeat ever again.

I love my dogs very much, yet they can be a handful at times.
We don't have a big place, but we got a big fenced-in area for them to run around and play in.
They are happy, cunning little beast and I adore them to death.
The youngest is a Black Retriever named Pepper who is the smartest of them all and also the most hyper.
She has been getting into trouble lately like taking a whole rotisserie chicken from the countertop. We usually just put her in the pen up part of the house as punishment with pap her nose, not hard just enough for her not to do it again.

I usually play with them, but I been so busy this week and tired from work.
Helping my mom cleaning for her meals, and saving up for the new things to come out soon.
Just average normal things...

Until I hear a scream from my mom, and she tells me that Pepper is in the pen eating a rat.
I hurry up to get dressed, find a glove, and a treat for her to spit out the diguesting thing.
When rushing outside, the other dogs came in up the steps, and I saw Pepper with something with grey/brown fur in her mouth.
She didn't move and was still chewing on it.

The closer I got to it. The sooner I realized it wasn't a rat, but a baby rabbit.
I yelled at her to drop it, holding a broken broomstick to slide it away from her once she did.
It took her a minute to let go, and she took the treat instead.
After getting her far away from it, I noticed that it was still alive.
The poor thing was the size of my hand, and the fur on the back of it's legs was chewed off.
Both it's back legs were broken, enough where I could easily just left them and they snap off.
I didn't though, but what really got to me was the fact its head and front paws were still okay.

This wasn't the first time, considering a few months ago, I found her and my other oldest dog, Sugar with half a rabbit carcass they ate. The back legs and all, but it was easy to dispose of a corpse.
Yet I didn't deal with a barely living rabbit before, and the first thing I did was brought it to the fence and put it on the high end of a shelf to take it out of the pen. I couldn't bring it inside, my mom would freak out or cry at the sight.

So I went back around, took it to the back area of the yard, under my old wooden play fort when I was a kid.
It was quiet, and I could see it still breathing. It could still move and was probably afraid of me. Maybe even coming out of shock. I read some animal's system go numb when predators attacked them while they were getting eaten to make it painless for them. I didn't know what to believe.

I soon set the baby rabbit in a small patch of weeds to lay down for a bit.
I broke my heart seeing it's front paws moving as if it was trying to move on it's own. It's entire back half was chewed up and ravaged. The first thing in my head was to put it out of the little guys misery. I knew logically what to do, but for some reason every time I looked at it. I suddenly got super depressed, and I don't know if it was just from waking up.

I had to figure out how to end this little creature's life without pain. The twisted part I thought of was thinking like a hunter, and putting a knife through it's chest into it's heart. It was too small though and I didn't want to see it suffer. I figured the best next thing was to get a shovel and smack it's head in, but I was so drained I couldn't think I would make a strong impact for a killing blow. The little creature didn't make a sound. I petted it's head, seeing it was scared and confusing, it was so cute if it wasn't for the fact my dog did this.

I couldn't blame Pepper though, she's a dog. It's in her instinct to hunt rabbits. My room was next to the pen with my window facing that direction, yet I was too asleep to even hear what was going on outside. I wonder why rabbits would even go in there with large beast inside! I didn't want to wake up to this! I dealt with dead critters before, and even with pups I raised dying at birth. Yet I couldn't keep stalling. I let it rest, but before I could go inside for a moment. I saw two older rabbits rush out to the nearby neighbor's shed. One of them looking at me scared. That feeling or wheter it knew what was going on, or was just scared of me by instinct. The fact that this little guy could be it's kid who wondered off from it's folks.

We get a lot of rabbits around, and I always say hello when they hid under my ride. This whole mess felt like it just a horrible day. I even consider leaving it outside alone, but I knew very well it wouldn't last in it's condition. Right before I went back into my home. I saw a large cinder block. The block was still in good condition and heavy enough for me to carry and make a huge impact. First I went inside, told my mom what happen. I was trying to get this over with, but I kept pacing thinking about what I had to do.

When I finally brought myself together, and quickly looked for a shovel. I went up to the cinder block and picked it up, carrying both to the back. Along the way, I would hope it would just disappear. That the rabbit would just not be there when I was gone, hoping something else may have taken it or whatever I was hopelessly wishing to occur. Sadly it was still in the patch of weeds I placed it in, still laid there with it's eyes half shut. Still breathing slightly.

I set the cinder block and shovel aside. I kneeled down to it, and pet it's little head. I even thought that maybe a baby carrot would be nice, but I didn't even bother to bring it. I figured why to bother because it wouldn't have a chance to enjoy it or it would be in too much pain to eat. In that moment, I couldn't stop thinking and in a long time. I began to cry for the little guy.
I literally was apologizing for what had happened to it. I hated what I had to do next...

The moment I saw it's eyes open and it's front paws start to move. I moved it over to a more flat area of the ground, pulled some weed to cover it's face. I couldn't bare for it to look at me, as the cinder block was soon lifted high over my head.
I actually scream and used all my force in one drop... it was silent for a moment. It never made a sound at the struck.
I left the block there for a few seconds, and when I picked it up to make sure it was no more.

I took the shovel and buried it near a tree, deep enough for a good foot underground.
I felt like shit finishing the grave for just a random baby bunny, yet this wasn't the first death I dealt with.
It just felt so tragic to me because it was so young. I know critters like that get run over, eaten by a wild beast, or other stupid things.
Yet when you have to take that step to decide it's faith, thinking to end a life so it would stop suffering. It put me in a position where having that control over it's life was critical. Death is never an easy thing to deal with.

So when I got inside, I soon thought, even more, wiping the tears in my eyes. "Was I a monster to that little guy." I saved it from being torn to bits from my dog, in exchange to being crushed to death by me. Did I really do the right fucking thing?
Even after burying it, I prayed to god for it not to suffer anymore and asking for forgiveness for what occurred.

I woke up this morning, hoping just to go to work...instead I woke up like shit, and still have to go to work.

*To the part of a character redesign, I wanted to add something to Shadi that I was drawing for him last night.
I know you guys don't see much character development in my stuff, mostly because I don't post them. They are just saved in a file or a folder on my shelf.

Yet after what happen this moment, I am determined to give him something to reflect this.
I already have it done, but right now I got to get going...

Thank you for reading this, and I hope to post something more art-wise for the next journal.
Take Care

Hello everyone,

So this month has not been too great in all sorts of ways. My work has been the same, except for the new management has been making things tougher for us. The food and place have improved, but I've been working hard just to catch up on the adjustments. I will also be getting some time off for the renovations over in the week. While having to leave early just to help relocate my mom's restaurant because the one in charge of the lease is a dick who didn't keep his end of the contract. Health Inspector came complaining about the place even though we spent days cleaning it up. We couldn't even keep help because they caused problems without customers. One even tried to sell drugs and we kicked her out as soon as she was caught.

Yet now this brings to the biggest news of all.
I will be living on my own by the end of this year and taking over my home. Family issues have made my mom decided to move to Houston to expand there, and I get to stay here to keep up with the place. Yet those talks are still up in the air because I will need to find a roommate they can agree on. Still, all my savings may end up in the drain if I have to take over the house note if this becomes permanent. I thought it would cool, yet I recently found out I won't have full control as I thought I would. --,

Yet what does this have to do with my art or projects?
Well...it means I am gonna need to earn more money to make this happen. My players have been very generous with gifts in my D&D guild and we are still getting new people to join. I am thinking of starting one campaign on Saturdays to pay to see how that goes. I would be based on a module, and I would be willing to do commissions for pictures for their characters. Just extra money I hope to earn to cover my school loan which should be gone in the next year.

So if anyone is in need of help for projects, I will be looking for work for colorist, inking, or even storyboard editing. I am keeping my own personal art on hold. I don't even upload my sketches due to personal reasons.
Overall I am exhausted from nearly every moment of my life with constant work and very little time to spend with my friends.
I am not in a bad place, yet I don't see this end of the year being any better until the big changes come.

I may even regret doing one thing in the future I am holding back on.
Yet if you're interested, just note me and I'll give you my discord to talk.

I will update again if anything urgent happens, but for now, thank you for reading sorry for the lack of updates.

Hello everyone.

As I mentioned in my last journal. I have been under hiatus from allergies, work, and personal off-site projects. I would personally like to let everyone know that I am still around watching. Though, my current projects and games I been running are all I do nowadays.
I have even considered getting Arkenforge to design custom maps for people, however, I need to solve a space issue for my files. Most of my time has been spent working, which I have been given a raise and possible candidate for employee of the month. It pains me though due to new management that things will be changing at my job. I had to say a heartful goodbye to my dear former Kitchen manager, and maybe half the crew I been working with. Things won't be the same, and they are not looking any better.
Besides the fact, my sister moved back in for a few months, and I may also be getting the place to myself by December. This, however, is still as a MAYBE. Healthwise I have been doing well, and no longer suffer from Summar/Spring weather since the storm season passed. Artwise, I have been helping out with others with basic concepts, which nothing is interesting to post here.
Along with a few busts for a couple of NPCs, I have been designing for my campaigns on Roll20. My a couple of my players have even showered me with gifts which improve on so many things.

Though, I just turned 30 this past Sunday on the 28th. I still feel the same way as before, just more grey hair. :P
Yet everything else is very different, with a lot of burdens to share. If they continue to change at this rate, I may have to resort to other methods for my upkeep.

Overall, I am fine. Though there is still something missing I like to do, and it gets harder every day to think about it.

For those who still read these, I am still looking for potential players to join on my D&D guild on Discord! Just message me if you're interested and we'll take it from there.

I won't say I can update as much as I like, I rather do so when I have something to post on the fun stuff I am working on. Yet it's just best to still leave things the way they are for now. Until there, thank you for reading and I hope ya'll Enjoy!

Hey everyone,

As the title says, I have been dealing with some serve allergy issues. It even has affected my breathing and gave me major headaches. Though I am just currently writing on my free time, and I have been more active in the D&D works. My Friday games are so insane now, I put an entire night working on maps and such. There was even the issue with Fanburst going out of business for Roll20, so now I have to find my own kickass music.
Mardi Gras holidays also kicks my ass during work. There is just so much, but you can still find me on discord or online in general.
So please feel free to contact me here or note me if you got any questions or just want to chill.

Now if you excuse me, I need to swallow a whole bottle of allergy meds and cold meds so I can finally stop coughing out a lung.
More to come in March...

also call out to the Vox Machina Kickstarter for their animate movie project!
HEre's the link -https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....ina-animated-s
*achoo* Enjoy

Hello everyone!

I have been very busy lately. I finally got the issue resolved from Twitch and a full refund back from the fraudulent charges. Though I won't be supporting subscriptions anymore for a while. I have also been working on some art for my players for my campaigns on Roll20 and helping a few other artists.
Not to mention, adding new characters I been meaning to put in my profile, or updating them. There are quite a few designs with different varieties I want to practice first before getting back to comics.

Reason being is that I do plan on starting D&D commissions portraits for people. They will be cheap at standard rates, and I will post that at a later time. There have also been some conventions I been wanting to go to, but that won't be an option for me at this rate. My family finally got a small business up and running again. We're just about to open, and I have to deal with making their logos.

I have met a lot of great people this new year, and oddly some old ones I haven't seen since high school. I may not post much here, but I still am working on my craft. If anyone wants to get in on these projects, feel free to contact me through Notes, and I'll give ya a link to my Discord.

I will possibly be getting a table at Cyphacon this year, but that won't be 100% sure on when I get this work done. Though I will still be attending the evenings. No other plans for this summer after.
I still like to thanks those for watching and checking up on my journals, and hope you all have a good winter!

It would be if I didn't get hacked and someone stole $200 dollars from Twitch. --;

Their support is really not helping either with a 5-7 business day wait while I am partially broke.

Fuck this new year, but hope you all enjoy.

Also, doing another D&D on Fridays, I'll post it later.

It's too cold to give a crap.

Enjoy

Hello everyone,
just a quick up, I am currently in bed in horrible condition.
I threw out my back yesterday at work, after working non-stop. I got it all covered, just hoping I get better for tomorrow, still no heavy lifting.
I am also helping Mod a couple discord for a few friends online, and have been super busy. I did manage to do some drawings or quick profiles over this month for a couple of new games. I also met a couple of younger furs who are really fun and great. Even though I don't consider myself a fur much anymore, just a grumpy monster who knows too damn much.

I will update more after the holidays, right now I just wanted to post up that I am still alive and hoping every one enjoys their Holidays.

Also....happy Birthday.

Take care, and see you in a week!

Hey everyone.
So it's that time of cold weather, early holiday spirit, and another month of expenses to save for.
But first I would like to savior the sad loss of a great man, Stan Lee.

I wasn't much of a comic book fan of the Golden age series but when I saw those heroes and stories he made in the Marvel series and his influence on DC. All those cameos in all the superhero movies for years of my life, and even an inspiring to some of my superhero/villain tropes fora few my characters. He brought a new meaning to superhero lore in all varieties, and that is not an easy task. Though, I never met him, nor do I ever believe I would, sadly with a lot of celebrities I hoped to meet. I enjoyed his work greatly and many would feel the same.
He lived till 95, and we hoped he last a bit longer. For the least, I would say he must of lead a very long enduring life of imagination and excitement for many to support him. A true icon of comic creators alike. He will be missed, but not forgotten.

Alright, but now I just wanna thank everyone who is still with me throughout this year. My friends who support my game creation, and side commissions. The people I support and watch of Twitch and personal Streams. My family who still manages to stay together through tough times. Also my players for all the games I have run on our 1 year anniversary of D&D.
Even though I haven't posted much though it still lingers within me to do so.
I still sketch and work out designs on the side, but I feel those are more private and need to be worked on more before publishing.
It makes me wonder if a few who are about to go into the end of the year I used to be with, but that's not my concern anymore.

Besides, with all the new character adopts I gotten, I may need some help fixing them up more. :3

I like to thank all those who still read my journals, and sorry for the unkept promises and delays.
Things sometimes get in the way, but I am fine for now.
Feel free to contact me on Discord or just note me if you can. ^w^ I won't shy away.

Happy Holidays and I'll be back around December :D

Hey everyone.

I had to delay the commissions for 2 reasons. First, I had an issue with my jaw a few weeks back. I wasn't feeling too good, and well I went to the dentist. All is good, just need to let it heal.
Second, I had to push back my family trip until this upcoming weekend to Houston. Which I had to take extra shifts to make up for the hours lost.

I recently joined a local D&D group who are trying to build up the community, so yeah, my hands are tied.
My latest adopt will probably be last purchase as well. I just got back from a printing company, and the pricing they are going for on the standards I need are very steep.

I may or may not be drawing this month. I have been privately rewriting KPR again, and sending it to a new publisher. She takes her time, but so far I have been getting my practice. Overall, the situation has left me drained, and I just can't get myself a break.
I keep thinking of certain things I wish I could do, but I pushed that aside for now.
I really thought I had free time, but things just keep stacking on top of one another on my agenda.
You wouldn't believe how old things have come back from the past after my school reunion. Most of it was not in a good way either.
Welp, that's all I have for now. I'll keep myself busy until I actually have something to post about.

Thanks for reading, hope everyone enjoys the up coming fall!

Hello everyone,

I can gladly say....fuck this month.
Seriously, I need a vacation from the bullshit.
I have been working overtime, but that brings me great news to save up for a lot of stuff.

First off, I am proud to say that I have been writing the prologue stories for KPR again while working. Along with my past stories for my D&D homebrew campaign. The Order of the Gate.
Which I am still looking for at least 1 new person to join in on Roll20.
We got a lot of new members, and they seem to be enjoying the setting so far.

Second, while designing new tokens. I figured it would be fun to make custom avatar tokens for Roll20 or in simple use for people here. I'll be making a separate journal post about that another time after the weekend to settle off prices.

Third, I will be out of town by the end of the month to go to Houston with my family to celebrate my brother's late birthday, along with going to my High school Reunion tomorrow night. I got invited last month and agreed to make a deal to design their shirts. Sadly my friend couldn't make it with me due to car issues, but I'll be going alone to meet my old classmates....swell. -,-;

I wonder how they will remember me, but the most important thing is just to have fun.
I'll still be online during the evenings, if you got any questions, just message me here, or catch me on Discord!

I would stay and talk more, but I got an event to cater later tonight. Oh those...extra hours.

Also, I got me a new adopt, which is being designed by Luthy! She'll be posted on the board soon when she's done.
So please enjoy everyone, be safe from the hurricanes and storms.
I'll be posting more soon, I hope.

TAKE CARE *Explodes!*

Hey everyone,

I'm still not in a good mood.
Works have been very demanding yet we keep losing people who don't wanna work their shifts. Two of them got arrested out of town for shit, and that just pissed us all off.
Also very short on cash, because I had to repair my car. I am still able to pay for my commissioners.
Otherwise, I can't loan or do excessive stuff right now.

As for everything else. It's put on hiatus until I get out of this hole.
I can't even go see a doctor for all these issues I got.

No time...just no time right now.

I'll still be online though, got a lot to think about adding new people to my campaign and changing up groups.
Not to mention our dog is completely driving me nuts with her barking.

Things will get better by the end of September. It's mostly because school is starting again, and we haven't found any new people yet. So I am responsible for a lot of things.

Sorry if there is no exciting stuff going on, that's what happens in Fall. Just boring bullshit.
Anywho, I'll be updating after my brother's birthday, working on something for him, if anyone knows good ideas for a gift. Just comment below.

Until then, Thank you for reading.

So,...yeah
This month has not been too kind to me.

I work hard, and I do my best.
I don't look forward to my birthday, not because I get older.
It's because bad shit happens now when it comes around, like me getting sick last week, or like how just now my car decided to die on me because of electrical issues. Not to mention my damn headset is messing up again due to a fault wire...fuck my life. Everything breaks down around this month. :/
Especially when I save files in a spot and I can't find them due to the damn updates!

Am I just unlucky or is there someone vexing me?

On the positive note, I canceled my plans and will be drawing this weekend.
I figured if since I got new large size paper, I have to scan both sides and edit them, but heck it's best to do that for refs anyway.

I'm tired of just seeing a folder of stuff not getting done, but hey that's what happens when you work for a living.
What kind of artist am I if I don't complete at least 1 thing a month.
Seriously, I am worse than a grammar nazi procrastinator which are the worst to deal with.~
Not me, nope, I am much better than that.

Anyway, my game is almost finished and will be presented with more art in the middle of August.
I might be stuck with a huge bill for my car, so commissions may also turn cheap as well for a limited time. (Pricing may go up later)

In the meantime, feel free to come to chat with me on Discord or Skype in the evenings.
Posting another journal at the end of the month.

OH! One more thing, I will be doing a Shadowrun FURRY edition with a slight homebrew to it. Yes, I have been reading the book I got last month and look forward to running it. Let me know, and I'll add ya to the list.
Take care!

Hello everyone.
It has been a while, and yes I have not shown anything as of late.
Yet work and so many side projects that still need fixing.
Considering I usually do this all by myself.

Yet a lot of my friends have been asking me about Anthrocon...
So for those who don't want to be hurt about what I say, please leave the journal now.

I do not care for Anthro-con.
I do not care to go to any furry con.
This has nothing to do with furries because this has something to do with me personally.

I am NOT a furry, I have always been a werewolf at times yes. Yet to me, that just makes me more of a monster.
I respect a lot of furries and their belief in some ideas.
I watch a lot of furs and support them, but I have no care for where these events take place.

Also to be fair, I have a restraining order on me from Boredkomixs. So yes, that's also another reason why I don't bother to go to
those kinds of events. If I had a business, then maybe I would to promote my stuff, but on a personal level. I rather not go, and deal with half with the people on my shit list.
I do hope they enjoy it, but I have more important things to do...so thank you.

On another note, I will try to post up some commissions I got, and more personal art later in July.
Overall, I am a very tired monster, and saving up those take a lot out of personal times.
Also, go check out on Steam for a game called Monster Prom! I absolutely love this game and would like to play with my friends to try it out for laughs. :3
Link: https://store.steampowered.com/app/...../Monster_Prom/

Feel free to talk to me on Discord or Skype. I'm on in the evenings.
If you have any questions, please feel free to send them to me.

Take care, and see you next time! ^^

Hey Everyone, still around in the shadows lurking...

So where do I begin?

Well first, I've been doing okay...until this past week came by.
I've saved up a lot of money, yet when that happens. Shit starts to hit the fan.
1. My car AC went out, and I can't find a damn mechanic available to fix it during my days off.
2. My backup jumpdrive decided to go corrupt with some of my recent year files on it, so I have to either save up to get it transfer to the company or pay 100 to get the stuff out. (Happened because of the damn Windows Update forcing fucking Micro edge on my stuff,)
3. My hours have been crazy and apparently, I can't get my crew to listen and stop breaking the stuff I buy for the kitchen. Literally drains and pans are not cheap.

But that's mostly the bad stuff, otherwise, I have been good.
I've been game testing my prototype and almost got the balancing issues done. Soon, I will be able to FINALLY work on the art.
Speaking of art...I am gonna do a late post tomorrow of all the stuff I got from dear sweet artist. Beware...some of it may be disturbing, but I have gotten the permission to post. This also has to do with a new character I adopted which will be shared.

I do feel bad not drawing most of the stuff I been wanting to, yet someone has to pay the bills and keep things settled.
You still can find me around, I'm mostly online in the evenings.
I may be joining another D&D group or starting another online depending on how things go. The one I am playing in decided to change times. I even got the new Mordenkains Tome of Foes. Dear Lord.....I love this book, it's so evil and brilliant. My favorite little grimoire to use as a DM. >83
*clears throat*

I'll update more by the end of the week once I actually have the stuff to post about, until then.
To all my lurkers, watchers, and friends. Thank you for reading~

Take care ;3