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Oh right, birthday, again
General | Posted a year agoYup just turned [OLD] today here, imma be with the Senior Discount Club very soon so hope y'all are having a good day today
Lyorenth’s 5K bonanza franza
General | Posted 2 years agoSurprised they don’t have a lot more considering their work, but hey it’s still a step up then just nothing by the end of it all, other then 30k on Twitter but that’s a whole different story altogether xP
Give ‘em a watch and love (and watch out for that left hook)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54670334/
Give ‘em a watch and love (and watch out for that left hook)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54670334/
Helping a friend in need
General | Posted 2 years agoHello peeps, I've come to you in a time of great need: There's too many filthy GOBLINS around and they've taken my friend's money to put him in some serious debt, so if you all like to help me just slaughter all these disGUUUUSTING and FILTHY GAWWWBLEEEENS...!!! Then look down here and help him as much as possible, I know I will every month so he doesn't have to suffer from them always GOBLINATING everything they touch, especially his bank account.
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
I like to spread the word around to help out
bear213 as he's been a good pal and he and I have a lot of plans other then slaying those GAWBLEENS...!!! But also a comic series he and I are making together so we can share the creativity to everyone to enjoy
Thank you for coming to my TED talk and hope this'll help him, cause I ain't gonna back down despite the odds
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
https://t.co/59PwPSCs7m
I like to spread the word around to help out
bear213 as he's been a good pal and he and I have a lot of plans other then slaying those GAWBLEENS...!!! But also a comic series he and I are making together so we can share the creativity to everyone to enjoyThank you for coming to my TED talk and hope this'll help him, cause I ain't gonna back down despite the odds
Oh right, birthday
General | Posted 2 years agoYea it might be too late to some, but better late then never really
Birthday, today, cool enjoy your day everyone. Stay safe
Birthday, today, cool enjoy your day everyone. Stay safe
Hello 2023, I'll drop off something from 2022
General | Posted 3 years agoSo... Since the new year is upon us soon, I thought I'd say some things I've been holding for a very long while, I was thinking of saying it all out when it was my birthday, but instead I'd thought I'd say it on the last day of the old year before we reach the new year. Keep in mind: this is from myself from whatever effort or critical thinking I've been doing and if it 'triggers' or offend anyone... well that's too bad for you because I'm expressing my thoughts I want to share even if it makes people have an odd need to try and make themselves not feel inadequate as their first response. In any case:
The first thing I want to bring light to is I've dealt with specific people (won't be naming any names here) from FA and also in Discord who are not only the type of people to turn their backs from me as well as stab me in the heart and back from their apparent faux-friendship, but they also had the gall to essentially lie to me and to others to make themselves feel like they're the good people or how their reasoning is justified while I'm the one left to suffer with the mental damage I've had to go through. I tend to not say anything because I feel as if I begin to speak up, it'll become something catastrophic in a sense where it'll only be drama left and right as I've had the bad habit in the past to cause a lot of issues on both parties. But even when I don't say anything, I'm the one that gets hurt in the end while the other party just move on with their life with their excuse of "I will forgive you and show you another act of mercy by giving you one last chance" when I made only 1 mistake, or how another would make up a disgruntle lie painting me as the bad guy for something that was mutual just to save face or whatever. Point of the matter is: there are people who done me wrong and in conjunction to that also caused other mutual friends and associates to diverge away from me without showing any real regard to my situation as all I've been seeing is them mostly orbiting around them, giving me such a black view on being good friends. I'm only thankful I found a good set of friends that help me find myself and be myself in a way where I am happy to be me and not try to bend or change myself to appease others, accepting me for myself. And to that I have to say, thanks Bear213 for being that stable foundation to help me find my footing to enjoy being myself.
The Second thing isn't as long as the First, but it's more or less a rant and something I find somewhat annoying when I talk or witness people speaking out about 'Lucario' in general, pretty sure what people will say is usually the same on how "Lucario replaced Mewtwo, therefore we should hate on both the company and people who have one as an OC because we don't need Non-Legendary Pokemon to speak telepathically in movies for the plot" to that I have to say..... That's honestly without a doubt stupidly and kinda retardedly wrong, because 'technically' it was actually Pokemon Trainer who 'replaced' Mewtwo due to the connection that Trainer Red is the protagonist the player controls and could go and capture Mewtwo if they so wish. While Lucario actually replaced Pichu as the gimmick is their mechanic revolves around damage, with one being the type to do self-harm while the other is high risk-high reward in battle. Sure Lucario and Mewtwo have only 1 similar quirk being their neutral special..... So how many other characters in the roster have a very similar quirk to another character, not even counting DLCs since there's plenty of similarities they share with others. So the way how I see it; people just jumped on the Hate-Train, but their apparent destination was at the wrong junction if you look at the mechanics to it's core. Plus the 'Mewtwo' we have in Smash 4 and Ultimate is technically 'Newtwo' since the color schemes, body style, and even Mega-Y form is from the Genesect movie as the one from Melee is from the First and Return movies so if you wanna be even more technical then that: we were given another Mewtwo Pokemon but not THE Mewtwo back.
And the Final thing I want to share: I usually see artists left and right get so much backlash or shade for one drama or another. Either personal drama or business drama, it's always something I see around when artists are shoved into the spotlight to vilify them. It also doesn't help that when I try to be a nice guy to some of the other artists who don't have a drama file on them, they for some reason block me and make up a really huge level of a lie on "why we block you and don't want to do anything with you" without giving a proper and mature conversation to understand a reason why they block or clearing the air if they're mistaking you with someone else, or if they DO have a reason why but without any substantial evidence to back up their claims then it only makes them look even more petty and it doesn't go well with whatever image they're setting themselves up for. A wise artist once told me: "Artists are still people, they're human beings and should treat them as normal people." along with another wise artist told me "A good artists are the ones that are both respectful but firm with their clients as drawing is more or less a business to help sustain themselves." So to the people who just disrespect the artists for petty or personal reasons, you're doing yourself a disservice of representing yourself as a decent human being. As for those particular artists, or some who see themselves as a weird form of being a content creator, either be more civil with your future clients or don't bother if you'll only be cutting your own lifeline if you choose drawing as a business to sustain yourself.
With that being said; this is what I wanted to say, and to say it out because I want to freely express myself, be given a chance to say what's on my mind instead of silencing me or bringing up a mountain of pride to prevent me from being an individual to say what I want to say. Share what I want to share. I'm not perfect, no one is, but I won't be trying to let my voice be muted and just tossed around like a puppet as if I don't matter to anyone. Hope you guys have a good day/night, and stay safe.
See you in 2023, let's make it better
The first thing I want to bring light to is I've dealt with specific people (won't be naming any names here) from FA and also in Discord who are not only the type of people to turn their backs from me as well as stab me in the heart and back from their apparent faux-friendship, but they also had the gall to essentially lie to me and to others to make themselves feel like they're the good people or how their reasoning is justified while I'm the one left to suffer with the mental damage I've had to go through. I tend to not say anything because I feel as if I begin to speak up, it'll become something catastrophic in a sense where it'll only be drama left and right as I've had the bad habit in the past to cause a lot of issues on both parties. But even when I don't say anything, I'm the one that gets hurt in the end while the other party just move on with their life with their excuse of "I will forgive you and show you another act of mercy by giving you one last chance" when I made only 1 mistake, or how another would make up a disgruntle lie painting me as the bad guy for something that was mutual just to save face or whatever. Point of the matter is: there are people who done me wrong and in conjunction to that also caused other mutual friends and associates to diverge away from me without showing any real regard to my situation as all I've been seeing is them mostly orbiting around them, giving me such a black view on being good friends. I'm only thankful I found a good set of friends that help me find myself and be myself in a way where I am happy to be me and not try to bend or change myself to appease others, accepting me for myself. And to that I have to say, thanks
Bear213 for being that stable foundation to help me find my footing to enjoy being myself.The Second thing isn't as long as the First, but it's more or less a rant and something I find somewhat annoying when I talk or witness people speaking out about 'Lucario' in general, pretty sure what people will say is usually the same on how "Lucario replaced Mewtwo, therefore we should hate on both the company and people who have one as an OC because we don't need Non-Legendary Pokemon to speak telepathically in movies for the plot" to that I have to say..... That's honestly without a doubt stupidly and kinda retardedly wrong, because 'technically' it was actually Pokemon Trainer who 'replaced' Mewtwo due to the connection that Trainer Red is the protagonist the player controls and could go and capture Mewtwo if they so wish. While Lucario actually replaced Pichu as the gimmick is their mechanic revolves around damage, with one being the type to do self-harm while the other is high risk-high reward in battle. Sure Lucario and Mewtwo have only 1 similar quirk being their neutral special..... So how many other characters in the roster have a very similar quirk to another character, not even counting DLCs since there's plenty of similarities they share with others. So the way how I see it; people just jumped on the Hate-Train, but their apparent destination was at the wrong junction if you look at the mechanics to it's core. Plus the 'Mewtwo' we have in Smash 4 and Ultimate is technically 'Newtwo' since the color schemes, body style, and even Mega-Y form is from the Genesect movie as the one from Melee is from the First and Return movies so if you wanna be even more technical then that: we were given another Mewtwo Pokemon but not THE Mewtwo back.
And the Final thing I want to share: I usually see artists left and right get so much backlash or shade for one drama or another. Either personal drama or business drama, it's always something I see around when artists are shoved into the spotlight to vilify them. It also doesn't help that when I try to be a nice guy to some of the other artists who don't have a drama file on them, they for some reason block me and make up a really huge level of a lie on "why we block you and don't want to do anything with you" without giving a proper and mature conversation to understand a reason why they block or clearing the air if they're mistaking you with someone else, or if they DO have a reason why but without any substantial evidence to back up their claims then it only makes them look even more petty and it doesn't go well with whatever image they're setting themselves up for. A wise artist once told me: "Artists are still people, they're human beings and should treat them as normal people." along with another wise artist told me "A good artists are the ones that are both respectful but firm with their clients as drawing is more or less a business to help sustain themselves." So to the people who just disrespect the artists for petty or personal reasons, you're doing yourself a disservice of representing yourself as a decent human being. As for those particular artists, or some who see themselves as a weird form of being a content creator, either be more civil with your future clients or don't bother if you'll only be cutting your own lifeline if you choose drawing as a business to sustain yourself.
With that being said; this is what I wanted to say, and to say it out because I want to freely express myself, be given a chance to say what's on my mind instead of silencing me or bringing up a mountain of pride to prevent me from being an individual to say what I want to say. Share what I want to share. I'm not perfect, no one is, but I won't be trying to let my voice be muted and just tossed around like a puppet as if I don't matter to anyone. Hope you guys have a good day/night, and stay safe.
See you in 2023, let's make it better
Crushing 30's -Birthday-
General | Posted 3 years agoNext week on Sunday, I'm gonna be Crushing in my 30's, as I'll become that age soon enough. Being one of the earliest 90's kid soon turning in the first step of being 30.
Ask any questions as many things has happened coming up to this point to share.
Ask any questions as many things has happened coming up to this point to share.
13 Years, interesting
General | Posted 4 years agoI've been a member of this website for 13 years at this point, gotta say when you've been around for a long time and gone through some crap like self-righteous former confidants to self-absorbed individuals to even some people believing anything is offensive or supporting others who are more toxic while keeping their common sense to an all time low until finally finding some legit good people... Yea I have to say it feels pretty nice by the end of the day, so yea.
13 Years, a year short of having two lifetimes with friends since it is said "being friends with someone for 7 years will last a lifetime" so kinda sad for those who don't experience it well enough to really appreciate people who are open minded to you and your quirks; If they cannot accept all of you and would rather change you or silence your difference in opinion, then yea they aren't even good friends to begin with.
Have a good day folks
13 Years, a year short of having two lifetimes with friends since it is said "being friends with someone for 7 years will last a lifetime" so kinda sad for those who don't experience it well enough to really appreciate people who are open minded to you and your quirks; If they cannot accept all of you and would rather change you or silence your difference in opinion, then yea they aren't even good friends to begin with.
Have a good day folks
So, April Fools ey?
General | Posted 4 years agoYea it's today, honestly you know how this schtick is: crack jokes, we laugh, we move on to our day. A prank is good but know when not to take it too far, and know what is a joke instead of going Cancel Culture on us.
To be fair, there was a joke I always will be looking back on February and laugh at how funny it was, cause of how much of a meme it is at this point.
Anyways; joke well and grow some thick skin to know what a joke is
To be fair, there was a joke I always will be looking back on February and laugh at how funny it was, cause of how much of a meme it is at this point.
Anyways; joke well and grow some thick skin to know what a joke is
Boost to help a friend
General | Posted 5 years agoI wanna help my pal out as much as possible, any amount is helpful to him so please anyway you can would be greatly appreciated:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9688772/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9688772/
Happy Hallow’s Eve
General | Posted 5 years agoI hope everyone are doing well this spooky year, things have changed for me for a long time, like losing my best friend and many bad luck that has happened to me at home among other things lesser than it should be mentioned.
But I’ve moved on, became stronger on the way, and put all my emotion out on paper. Then more on paper, and then typing it out, and eventually I’ve made a paragraph of it and been told “This feels like a Gothic-Horror story” and from hearing that I felt inspired to try and write everything I’ve felt down as that type of story as much as I could for Halloween here, I hope you guys enjoy it since I put a lot of effort into it despite how at least ~85% of people don’t care about reading and more into art but Eh that don’t bug me none. I’m proud of it and I feel the need to share it in the spirit of the holiday and a milestone for me to move on and become a stronger person.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38968694/
I hope you guys who have shown me such positive traits deserve to have a good year and stay cool
But I’ve moved on, became stronger on the way, and put all my emotion out on paper. Then more on paper, and then typing it out, and eventually I’ve made a paragraph of it and been told “This feels like a Gothic-Horror story” and from hearing that I felt inspired to try and write everything I’ve felt down as that type of story as much as I could for Halloween here, I hope you guys enjoy it since I put a lot of effort into it despite how at least ~85% of people don’t care about reading and more into art but Eh that don’t bug me none. I’m proud of it and I feel the need to share it in the spirit of the holiday and a milestone for me to move on and become a stronger person.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38968694/
I hope you guys who have shown me such positive traits deserve to have a good year and stay cool
... I’ll miss you, my baby boy, my loyal best friend...
General | Posted 5 years ago... on December 7th, 2011... a sweet lil pure bred boxer puppy was born...
... on December 24th, 2011... we’ve adopted the sweet lip puppy into our family, named him “Seven” for his birthmark on his torso, being a large white ‘7’ symbol...
I went away to Mexico around December 28th, 2011... and when I came back 3 weeks later on January 18, 2012... he was a taller very active and happy puppers full of energy...
From then on, I’ve loved him and cared for him for walks, feeding, water, those impossible baths he disliked a lot, even sleeping on his back like we do since my brother had him sleeping right next to him in bed to keep him company... the years went by, I’ve made some friends, and I’ve lost some..... but no matter what, he was always there, always to keep my spirits up even in my dark days... and I’ve always been calling him “My beshtesh behbii boui” everyday when I come into the room and see him just chillin and relaxing...
I was scared when he started growing a tumor, but it was from a nasty bug bite that kept growing from the pus and when we got him to surgery to cut that skin off entirely, he was a silly loopy puppers by the age of 5 by August 24th, 2017, and still pulls all of us when we go out for walks from how much muscle he has on him... His energy was always so high we had to take super long walks until he was satisfied.
Then... On November 11th, 2019... he was starting to bloat, he was sluggish, and had a seizure... we got him to a doctor a few days later and came up nothing... he was still, 7 years old, our Seven... and by December, he became 8... on January 5th, 2020... we took him to a doctor to give him a full check-up... since he was 2 he hated all doctors and would snap at them if anyone tried to reach out to him... he was mellow and calm when they gave him the whole check up.....
They told us, he has Heart Failure... his heart was too big and stretched out that it makes it difficult to pump blood around, and because it’s so big it would hit his Trachea a lot which explains why he coughs a lot and gets super exhausted cause he was short of breath... they gave us between 1-3 months for him to live... I was scared, very much so... but I had to bring myself back up and stay determined, stay courageous, and above all... I stayed smiling, no matter How much the dread felt of his time running out...
Every since then, I stayed up late to make sure he takes his medicine, and then take him out to relieve himself since most of the pills are diuretics and makes him drain his system to prevent himself from swelling so much due to the heart failure making him build up excess fluids in his waist... he didn’t hold it sometimes, I was annoyed yes, but I still cleaned it up as much as I can and stayed up late enough so he gets his medicine right on the dot and taken outside to have an empty bladder when he sleeps...
... March 20th, 2020... Covid19 lockdown and social distancing was in effect... everyone was trying hard to adjust and take extreme caution in the world at this moment, and I was still focused so much on my dog and him being around help soothe my sadness... the pain, anxiety, and depression I’ve went through since December 7th and even worst by February 15th... he was not just my best friend, he was my stable rock to ease me enough to ask for some help by true good friends and family... so when lockdown happened I had to not be afraid and still smile through it for my dog, because if he’s happy then I should be happy for him too...
April... between the 6th to 24th, he had a couple seizures, and my family were thinking of putting him down so he won’t suffer from it... me... I, NEVER backed down and refuse to let that happen, they got mad yes and they say it’s inhumane and making him suffer, but I stood by my resolve to refuse to put him to sleep, and hoping he can stay and hold on just a bit longer, just a little more...
May 1st, 2020... my birthday... he was still alive, and still active no matter what, the true friends I still have wished me a good birthday, but I was the most happiest to know my dog, ‘Seven’, was still around... and I couldn’t be any more happier in my life knowing he was still with us... the doctors were even baffled he lasted 5 months which they did not expected, but it did happened and by then, I had to try and steel my nerves for the potential of him probably giving out...
July 4th, 2020... it was Independence Day, and normally he would freak out from the fireworks, but due to the social distancing it wasn’t as loud as the previous years, so he stayed in the room with us by our feet and lay there relaxing, even taking him out he was calm and just came back in after relieving himself, we’ve fed him fat pieces of steak and a huge juicy bone from a cow so he can chew on it and enjoy it to celebrate it... I still smile even then seeing how happy he was and always spoiled him since my birthday to show how much I was willing to go above and beyond to give him all the treats and attention he deserves and live it up like a king...
......................it’s hard to type this down, hard for me to get this far... but, it’s also hard to keep a smile, while letting the tears flow down... but I still promised, to go above and beyond for him, so while I can, just right now... I’ll smile till the end of this journal, because I stayed that way for his sakes, as he always did for mine...
..... July 8th, 2020... at 8am, he was whining to go out... gave him his medicine and let him relax outside in the sun as he always does, laying on his back... rolling around, making those weird faces like he’s saying “ohhhh yeeeeaaaa this concrete ground under the sun is reeeeeaaaaaal nice.... the F$&@ you guys looking at?” That silly dog... at around 12pm to give him his medicine, I snuck in not one, but TWO whole cans of wet dog food just for him since I felt today he should be given extra juicy food... I went to help out my step dad and brother with some work and when we came back it was 2:20pm, he knew we came back cause he was staring, and judging us, from the window and was happy to see us back. At 3pm I gave him his next medicine and let him relax in the room with us before I left with my siblings to go out and get something to eat and do a little errand for our mother... 6:50pm, he wanted to come inside, so we open the door so he can walk around in the kitchen with me and my three siblings, all laughing and happy and poking fun at one another, even fed him some juicy fresh meat from the place we went since he always loved to be spoiled... it was so happy, he was so happy, he loved getting pet and be given all the attention from all four of us at once... it was such a beautiful sight to see how content he was, so... beautiful........ so...... happy.....
....................
....................
........ 6:55pm
.................... he had a sudden seizure, he collapse and we got up to tend to him.... he was jerking around, unresponsive, this one was big..... I held his paw and rub his chest to make sure he knows we’re all here... we held his head to make sure he doesn’t hit it on the floor while minding his mouth..... he was slowing down, he was still not responding..... those were the most stressful 5mins, in my entire life.... he wasn’t responding, he was gasping for air slowly....
and again.........
and, again.........
and...... again......................
.....and again........
....... and, one more, time.....
....... on 7pm, during a sunset here in California... on July 8th, 2020..... in a kitchen with four loving siblings....... ‘Seven’, our precious baby boy of 8 years old... he has passed away, taking his final breath... surrounded by all four siblings who all love him, so ever much... his last meal was large pork slices from a ramen bowl with extra fat in them...
his breathing, still...
His heartbeat, silent...
His body, slowly turning cold...
..... we all held onto him, knowing in his absolute final moments..... he can now rest, without pain, without the urge to relieve himself from the medicine... he’s now forever resting, as we put him on his favorite blanket, wrap him up... and took him to a pet hospital... his body will be cremated, his pawprint will be molded on clay, but our love..... our love for him will never, ever, go away... on the car ride there, I still talk to his body, knowing he always loved car rides and looking out at his favorite window so at least his body can enjoy what I can still spoil him with... and before his body was taken away... I lean down, kiss his head and press my face on top of his head, resisting but failing to hold back any tears... after I take a hard breath, I smile down and just let the tears fall...
My last words to him... “you have, and always will be, my bestest baby boy... and no one in the world will take that away from you... Here’s to you, rest forever, in our Hearts... our Lucky Seven...” they took him inside, and within 2 weeks, we’ll have his ashes in an urn and his pawprint on clay with it so we can always remember him...
Our time together, was short, sadly less then a decade with us..... but, I’ll still smile, for you bestest boy... because to us it was a short 8 years, but to you... it was your entire life when we picked you up as a baby, and came together to see you off... I just hope, that throughout your life, you were always happy to know this family loved you so ever much... and no one will take away those memories we’ve had with you... and someday, when my time has come, I want to see you again... and tell you again and again, you are and always will be: Our Lucky Seven, The Bestest Baby Boy...
Rest Forever, In Our Hearts... Our Bestest Baby Boy...
... on December 24th, 2011... we’ve adopted the sweet lip puppy into our family, named him “Seven” for his birthmark on his torso, being a large white ‘7’ symbol...
I went away to Mexico around December 28th, 2011... and when I came back 3 weeks later on January 18, 2012... he was a taller very active and happy puppers full of energy...
From then on, I’ve loved him and cared for him for walks, feeding, water, those impossible baths he disliked a lot, even sleeping on his back like we do since my brother had him sleeping right next to him in bed to keep him company... the years went by, I’ve made some friends, and I’ve lost some..... but no matter what, he was always there, always to keep my spirits up even in my dark days... and I’ve always been calling him “My beshtesh behbii boui” everyday when I come into the room and see him just chillin and relaxing...
I was scared when he started growing a tumor, but it was from a nasty bug bite that kept growing from the pus and when we got him to surgery to cut that skin off entirely, he was a silly loopy puppers by the age of 5 by August 24th, 2017, and still pulls all of us when we go out for walks from how much muscle he has on him... His energy was always so high we had to take super long walks until he was satisfied.
Then... On November 11th, 2019... he was starting to bloat, he was sluggish, and had a seizure... we got him to a doctor a few days later and came up nothing... he was still, 7 years old, our Seven... and by December, he became 8... on January 5th, 2020... we took him to a doctor to give him a full check-up... since he was 2 he hated all doctors and would snap at them if anyone tried to reach out to him... he was mellow and calm when they gave him the whole check up.....
They told us, he has Heart Failure... his heart was too big and stretched out that it makes it difficult to pump blood around, and because it’s so big it would hit his Trachea a lot which explains why he coughs a lot and gets super exhausted cause he was short of breath... they gave us between 1-3 months for him to live... I was scared, very much so... but I had to bring myself back up and stay determined, stay courageous, and above all... I stayed smiling, no matter How much the dread felt of his time running out...
Every since then, I stayed up late to make sure he takes his medicine, and then take him out to relieve himself since most of the pills are diuretics and makes him drain his system to prevent himself from swelling so much due to the heart failure making him build up excess fluids in his waist... he didn’t hold it sometimes, I was annoyed yes, but I still cleaned it up as much as I can and stayed up late enough so he gets his medicine right on the dot and taken outside to have an empty bladder when he sleeps...
... March 20th, 2020... Covid19 lockdown and social distancing was in effect... everyone was trying hard to adjust and take extreme caution in the world at this moment, and I was still focused so much on my dog and him being around help soothe my sadness... the pain, anxiety, and depression I’ve went through since December 7th and even worst by February 15th... he was not just my best friend, he was my stable rock to ease me enough to ask for some help by true good friends and family... so when lockdown happened I had to not be afraid and still smile through it for my dog, because if he’s happy then I should be happy for him too...
April... between the 6th to 24th, he had a couple seizures, and my family were thinking of putting him down so he won’t suffer from it... me... I, NEVER backed down and refuse to let that happen, they got mad yes and they say it’s inhumane and making him suffer, but I stood by my resolve to refuse to put him to sleep, and hoping he can stay and hold on just a bit longer, just a little more...
May 1st, 2020... my birthday... he was still alive, and still active no matter what, the true friends I still have wished me a good birthday, but I was the most happiest to know my dog, ‘Seven’, was still around... and I couldn’t be any more happier in my life knowing he was still with us... the doctors were even baffled he lasted 5 months which they did not expected, but it did happened and by then, I had to try and steel my nerves for the potential of him probably giving out...
July 4th, 2020... it was Independence Day, and normally he would freak out from the fireworks, but due to the social distancing it wasn’t as loud as the previous years, so he stayed in the room with us by our feet and lay there relaxing, even taking him out he was calm and just came back in after relieving himself, we’ve fed him fat pieces of steak and a huge juicy bone from a cow so he can chew on it and enjoy it to celebrate it... I still smile even then seeing how happy he was and always spoiled him since my birthday to show how much I was willing to go above and beyond to give him all the treats and attention he deserves and live it up like a king...
......................it’s hard to type this down, hard for me to get this far... but, it’s also hard to keep a smile, while letting the tears flow down... but I still promised, to go above and beyond for him, so while I can, just right now... I’ll smile till the end of this journal, because I stayed that way for his sakes, as he always did for mine...
..... July 8th, 2020... at 8am, he was whining to go out... gave him his medicine and let him relax outside in the sun as he always does, laying on his back... rolling around, making those weird faces like he’s saying “ohhhh yeeeeaaaa this concrete ground under the sun is reeeeeaaaaaal nice.... the F$&@ you guys looking at?” That silly dog... at around 12pm to give him his medicine, I snuck in not one, but TWO whole cans of wet dog food just for him since I felt today he should be given extra juicy food... I went to help out my step dad and brother with some work and when we came back it was 2:20pm, he knew we came back cause he was staring, and judging us, from the window and was happy to see us back. At 3pm I gave him his next medicine and let him relax in the room with us before I left with my siblings to go out and get something to eat and do a little errand for our mother... 6:50pm, he wanted to come inside, so we open the door so he can walk around in the kitchen with me and my three siblings, all laughing and happy and poking fun at one another, even fed him some juicy fresh meat from the place we went since he always loved to be spoiled... it was so happy, he was so happy, he loved getting pet and be given all the attention from all four of us at once... it was such a beautiful sight to see how content he was, so... beautiful........ so...... happy.....
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....................
........ 6:55pm
.................... he had a sudden seizure, he collapse and we got up to tend to him.... he was jerking around, unresponsive, this one was big..... I held his paw and rub his chest to make sure he knows we’re all here... we held his head to make sure he doesn’t hit it on the floor while minding his mouth..... he was slowing down, he was still not responding..... those were the most stressful 5mins, in my entire life.... he wasn’t responding, he was gasping for air slowly....
and again.........
and, again.........
and...... again......................
.....and again........
....... and, one more, time.....
....... on 7pm, during a sunset here in California... on July 8th, 2020..... in a kitchen with four loving siblings....... ‘Seven’, our precious baby boy of 8 years old... he has passed away, taking his final breath... surrounded by all four siblings who all love him, so ever much... his last meal was large pork slices from a ramen bowl with extra fat in them...
his breathing, still...
His heartbeat, silent...
His body, slowly turning cold...
..... we all held onto him, knowing in his absolute final moments..... he can now rest, without pain, without the urge to relieve himself from the medicine... he’s now forever resting, as we put him on his favorite blanket, wrap him up... and took him to a pet hospital... his body will be cremated, his pawprint will be molded on clay, but our love..... our love for him will never, ever, go away... on the car ride there, I still talk to his body, knowing he always loved car rides and looking out at his favorite window so at least his body can enjoy what I can still spoil him with... and before his body was taken away... I lean down, kiss his head and press my face on top of his head, resisting but failing to hold back any tears... after I take a hard breath, I smile down and just let the tears fall...
My last words to him... “you have, and always will be, my bestest baby boy... and no one in the world will take that away from you... Here’s to you, rest forever, in our Hearts... our Lucky Seven...” they took him inside, and within 2 weeks, we’ll have his ashes in an urn and his pawprint on clay with it so we can always remember him...
Our time together, was short, sadly less then a decade with us..... but, I’ll still smile, for you bestest boy... because to us it was a short 8 years, but to you... it was your entire life when we picked you up as a baby, and came together to see you off... I just hope, that throughout your life, you were always happy to know this family loved you so ever much... and no one will take away those memories we’ve had with you... and someday, when my time has come, I want to see you again... and tell you again and again, you are and always will be: Our Lucky Seven, The Bestest Baby Boy...
Rest Forever, In Our Hearts... Our Bestest Baby Boy...
Birthday, became 28 today
General | Posted 5 years agoAnother year has passed by, I wanted to say things has been good...
But nope, December was when things went downhill due to multiple factors. All I can say is those that have wronged me lost something very important I was willing to go far and beyond for, others feel like a sense of protecting their pride through discrimination is the best way to make yourself feel superior, and I’m on borrowed time as my most precious friend is going to pass away this month at most.
And yet, I’ve been thinking so much throughout half a year at this point that I’m going to appreciate those that are truly loyal and of high quality that I would risk myself for their sake for being true of themselves as I will be more then willing to sacrifice for their happiness
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But nope, December was when things went downhill due to multiple factors. All I can say is those that have wronged me lost something very important I was willing to go far and beyond for, others feel like a sense of protecting their pride through discrimination is the best way to make yourself feel superior, and I’m on borrowed time as my most precious friend is going to pass away this month at most.
And yet, I’ve been thinking so much throughout half a year at this point that I’m going to appreciate those that are truly loyal and of high quality that I would risk myself for their sake for being true of themselves as I will be more then willing to sacrifice for their happiness
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General | Posted 6 years agoYup exactly 27 years when I was YEET into existence by my mom and dad or probably when they type into the computer back in ‘92 “player.placeatme” and poof I was here, anyways best wishes to you guys hope you have a good day
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the_furfather fisk rohan_scribe mutsurf dulcine herro xpray ICEman superbabsy123 kadath skykain basketgardevoirWhat day is today? It’s...!
General | Posted 7 years agoBasically a Tuesday, Yup pretty much, oh yea and my birthday so...
Toot Toot
Another age here, so thanks in advance for the birthday wishes
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Toot Toot
Another age here, so thanks in advance for the birthday wishes
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General | Posted 8 years agoI know this is really bad of me to ask especially since this is something I don't do at all throughout my time here in FA, but at this point I'm running out of limited options I'm stuck with for the time being, so... I'll keep this brief:
I was fired from my job, big whoop, it's Walmart so that isn't something to expect from their reputation. Reason is because despite being told of my disability to the Main Manager, the Overnight managers decided to save time and money by treating me like everyone else and expect the same expectations from me as the rest of their employees. Well anyways...
They gave me a paycheck with money in it as my final payment for working there and despite how much I've been paying off the debts I owe here, I'm running out of what I have left of it and I can't go apply to another job for a while until my case with Walmart is finished since I filed a claim to set the record straight they got rid of me because of negligence of information about my disability rather then being a bad co-worker they wrote down.
So at this moment, I'm opening up a donation jar to my paypal to see if any little amount of money can help, I wanted to open up a Patreon but I am pretty retarded to think it's for donation drive since it's a main focus on artist-wise reasons then charity reasons. Instead I'll just leave the link to my paypal here and let you guys decide if you like to donate me any small change you like.
Donation Jar
And furthermore; you are all not obligated to give me anything against your will or budget, even a nice comment I can still appreciate from you guys while I try to figure out this conundrum I'm put in, Thank you for listening and I hope you guys have a good day.
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I was fired from my job, big whoop, it's Walmart so that isn't something to expect from their reputation. Reason is because despite being told of my disability to the Main Manager, the Overnight managers decided to save time and money by treating me like everyone else and expect the same expectations from me as the rest of their employees. Well anyways...
They gave me a paycheck with money in it as my final payment for working there and despite how much I've been paying off the debts I owe here, I'm running out of what I have left of it and I can't go apply to another job for a while until my case with Walmart is finished since I filed a claim to set the record straight they got rid of me because of negligence of information about my disability rather then being a bad co-worker they wrote down.
So at this moment, I'm opening up a donation jar to my paypal to see if any little amount of money can help, I wanted to open up a Patreon but I am pretty retarded to think it's for donation drive since it's a main focus on artist-wise reasons then charity reasons. Instead I'll just leave the link to my paypal here and let you guys decide if you like to donate me any small change you like.
Donation Jar
And furthermore; you are all not obligated to give me anything against your will or budget, even a nice comment I can still appreciate from you guys while I try to figure out this conundrum I'm put in, Thank you for listening and I hope you guys have a good day.
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the_furfather fisk rohan_scribe mutsurf dulcine herro xpray ICEman superbabsy123 kadath skykain basketgardevoir*blows party kazoo*
General | Posted 8 years agoYay birthday, whatever, I'm working an extended shift tonight..
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General | Posted 9 years agoJesus Christ! I left for about 2 days after my upload and my profile exploded in my face of all these Favs and Watches!?
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General | Posted 9 years agoHoly damn it sure has been a while, but within time I seem to reach such a number, it may not be much for others but it's pretty much a lot to me too
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General | Posted 9 years agoSince FA doesn't have a Poll voting system here, I might as well use a journal for this:
Should I buy Castlevania or should I not? It's been a long lingering question if I should get this game or not
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Should I buy Castlevania or should I not? It's been a long lingering question if I should get this game or not
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the_furfather fisk rohan_scribe mutsurf dulcine herro xpray ICEman superbabsy123 kadath skykain basketgardevoirCommissions for everyone!
General | Posted 9 years agoOk dudes and dudes with boobs, my buddy---> Buru <---is opened up for commissions here at a good price with good quality, he's pretty much a great dude who I know personally -but not in person face to face- and if you got the cash then he's gonna draw it in a dash #BadRhymingIsHorrible, anywho here's another sweet thing; I am also his cashier only I'm not wearing a paper hat nor an apron who'll take your order =3
If you like art at an affordable price then he's your man, hope you guys give this dragon a shot, he's one rising star
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If you like art at an affordable price then he's your man, hope you guys give this dragon a shot, he's one rising star
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the_furfather fisk rohan_scribe mutsurf dulcine herro xpray ICEman superbabsy123 kadath skykain basketgardevoirDiagnosis, Anu is DEAD!
General | Posted 9 years agoVideo says it all:
https://youtu.be/8aqPgnD0cmE?t=3m5s
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https://youtu.be/8aqPgnD0cmE?t=3m5s
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General | Posted 9 years agoF-List: https://www.f-list.net/c/anu%20the%20lucario/
Ticket #64987
Filed a Take-Down Request for Stolen art at the moment
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Ticket #64987
Filed a Take-Down Request for Stolen art at the moment
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General | Posted 9 years agoBirthday Today, wee, how am I gonna spend it today? simple:
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F-List: https://www.f-list.net/c/anu%20the%20lucario/
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Birthday Inbound -Update-
General | Posted 9 years agoIt's still a longs way, but it'll be on May 1st, how am I feeling about it? Simple:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KufJZh1KZTs
-UPDATE-
Every time it's been my birthday, I might not be in a happy mood since lots of my expectations hasn't been so high, in fact it has been quite low to a point where I could expect like a few Happy B-Days from friends and a couple people who likes the stuff I post up. But this year since my dad is out of jail, I'll be spending it with him all day just being with him since he left to jail on the day before my birthday, so expect me being less enthusiastic at times here.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KufJZh1KZTs
-UPDATE-
Every time it's been my birthday, I might not be in a happy mood since lots of my expectations hasn't been so high, in fact it has been quite low to a point where I could expect like a few Happy B-Days from friends and a couple people who likes the stuff I post up. But this year since my dad is out of jail, I'll be spending it with him all day just being with him since he left to jail on the day before my birthday, so expect me being less enthusiastic at times here.
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A Public Apology
General | Posted 9 years agoI want to say this out to 2 specific people here in FA, one is Cherry and the other is Vetom.
To Cherry: I am sorry that I pissed you off back then, like over a year ago at this point. I know I overreacted to it and instead of accepting what I got, I bitched about it and even drag Vetom into it and cause this whole issue to crash down on me. It wasn't your fault or his who caused it, it was surely me who caused it before all of this has happened in the beginning.
To Vetom: Instead of leaving the business alone I drag you into it and made your life a bit more difficult, as well as causing more annoyance to you indirectly by confronting your friends who are close to you. I'm sorry I caused you so much trouble with you and Cherry.
I hope you two can understand this and I will be more then willing to admit that this is all my fault from the start.
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To Cherry: I am sorry that I pissed you off back then, like over a year ago at this point. I know I overreacted to it and instead of accepting what I got, I bitched about it and even drag Vetom into it and cause this whole issue to crash down on me. It wasn't your fault or his who caused it, it was surely me who caused it before all of this has happened in the beginning.
To Vetom: Instead of leaving the business alone I drag you into it and made your life a bit more difficult, as well as causing more annoyance to you indirectly by confronting your friends who are close to you. I'm sorry I caused you so much trouble with you and Cherry.
I hope you two can understand this and I will be more then willing to admit that this is all my fault from the start.
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