Yea check it out some time. its  spiderwickwhitewolf. And I will be excepting requests and art trades on my new page.

hey people,

i just got Daz Studios and im having trouble exporting the image out of it.

yesterday, i was at the gallery in philly and we at MD's, and i ordered a large fry. THEY TASTE SO DIFFERENT!!!!!!!!! LMAO!!!!!!!!! XDDDDD

i finally realized some thing today... i was walking home from a friends house, steaming mad that some one that i care about very deeply took me off their watch list then after we made up, ya know, hug hug kiss kiss shorta thing, he puts me back on. now you would expect me to be happy about that but im not. REASON: i feel like im the bad guy here when im not! AND FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT STILL READ MY FUCKING RANTS, HERE'S SOMETHING FOR YOU: I GIVE UP! NO LONGER SHALL I POST MY ART HERE! SO GO AHEAD AND TAKE IT ALL YOU WANT BECAUSE I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN WHERE IT GOES!!!!!!!!

Thankyou and HAVE A NICE FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!

For those that wish to contact me here you go:

Yahoo: onewhowalksthenight[at]yahoo.com
MSN: shadowbtch[at]hotmail.com
AIM: shadowrider3434[at]aol.com

Yea I finally got my first lesson done in my art course. It took me quite along while to get there but I got there.

yea i kinda broke my scanner so artwork will be rare. (meaning that i will have to use my mom's comp and she doesnt let me on it very much...) anywho i gave Shadowcon two new forms. you'll have to hold onto your breaches for a bit until i convince my mom to let me usse her comp.^.=.^;;

yea...*scratchs head* i dont know if i should jusst give being an artist for sure or not... i know what you are going to say,  PhantomLion , "dont give up, just press on". but this time i really dont know what to do. i have no isparation.



PS. i got kicked in the face by a horse. my lower jaw is fratured and i'm missing four teeth. send me a note if you want to know what happened.

yea i got more stuff on the way. its just that i have to get my scanner working again. so for now please bear with me.

blah... i feel like crap... its to the point where i dont want to draw, but i force myself too anyway. it keeps me as sane i can be... yes i have lost my sanity along time ago... i just got shit on my mind and i really need to get it out somehow but i dont know how... i mean i've tried talking to someone about it but it only ended up in a fight... maybe im just no good in life... maybe my life's worth did end at my birth... oh well, disregard the last two statements, i just had to get that out... well enough for now... *walks away*

well the title says it all. if you want to know more send me a note.

yesterday i met  PhantomLion's dad. that was nerve racking. but in all i had a good time in the city. you im from the suburbs and i dont get to go into the city all that much, so it was a treat for me. well enough for now.

TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! WOOT!!!

today i was reading over my past blog entries on xanga.com and i realized how angry and sad i really am. it hurts because i thought that i was getting better with things and that yesterday's set-back was only that and nothing more... but i now realize that i am still falling into an abyss of chaos and pain. my personal hell is becoming my reality very quickly. and as much as im fighting to control my life, its getting to be like a greek tradgey. as im typing this, im listening to a song that fit this journal entry perfectly. it's called "Ground Zero Funk" from the Tekken 5 OST. the reason why it fits this journal entry, well atleast to me it does, is because it gives you a sense of falling into an abyss. a sense of tumbling downward, trying to spread your wings to save yourself from falling, but cant. maybe i'll post the song on here one off these days... i dont know yet... well enough for now...

well here i am, an artist without any motivation and im still working on crap. that makes no sense to me at all... *sighs* i wish that i knew where i was going in life so that i could just get there and be happy with myself. cause this depression really does suck... and i constantly lie to people about being fine when im really not. i'll say things like "im ok" or "yea im fine" but half the time i dont mean it... *sighs again*

fuck you god!

well thats enough pain and anger for now... peace...

ps. i am taking requests if any one wants any...

well i got my glasses today... woohoo...

I GOT PHOTOSHOP FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! sorry had to get out.........ahem, i'll be leaving now......*runs into the distance*

well here i am at Fur Affinity.... no i havent left Deviant Art for good, its just no one ever comments there and i need support and tips to make my art work grow... i want to get as good as a couple of friends of mine and they've been great by refering me to here. well wish me luck cause im going to need it, and by the way has any one seen my pencils?