I'm gonna upload a couple art pieces here soon. Like in the next few days.

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So ...I need to stop doing this. Leaving for super long periods of time and then wandering back. >_> *sighs* Lets see if I can stick around this time.

So. I'm back? Again .... >_>

My last six months have been a mini Hell.

I was in a poly relationship in real life with two males and a female. Based on continued piling stress though things fell apart when no one was quite willing to stick to working on issues we were all having. So with so much stress and other variables I was kicked out ...again. And then I had a break up with both males within a couple weeks of each other. God that sucked. So now having gone through my first ever break up ...times two in quick succession. I'm kinda a bit broke on and off. *sighs* Oh well. I'm slowly getting over it. And I still wish my pack well in life. I just wish the break up's didn't have to happen. I love them,and still do.

So that's the tip of the ice berg on why I've been gone ...pretty much all this last year in time. I was focusing on my relationships with my pack.

I might get back to drawing eventually. I have my tablet with me here at my boyfriends. We're still together as we have been for almost four years now. ^_^ But my computer is still at the packs house and I cant quite get it back yet. And all my drawing files are on that. So things I still owe people will still have to wait till I can get that back someday.

Hello once again. *waves a paw*

Soooo~ Once again I've kinda poof'ed away and returned again. Things have
changed a little bit,but not too terribly bad. Since my last journal I did end up
helping my dear friends move. They ended up living at my boyfriends place for
about a month. It was a bit cramped. (I was told) But I actually enjoyed having
them so close. But that was my personal feelings on it. I kinda enjoy having the
pack all in one place and not having to drive near forty minutes between their
house and my boyfriends.

But they wanted a house to their own again. (completely understandable *nods*)
It worked out that they literally moved next door to my boyfriend. ^_^ So I still
get to see them quite regularly. They're settling in fine so far. I think they've been
in the place something like three weeks or so. Or close to it in any case.

Since I was living with them up till now for the most part. I still bounce between
their place and Cy's. And I love that they still let me do so.

I've slowly been moving a bit more seriously out of my mom's. I finally took
out my main desktop computer and moved it to my friends house for the
moment. Because till that,I was just carting things in and out of my car.
Hell,my car had become like my dresser/closet. It was a commitment thing.
So long as I had the bulk of my stuff in my car. It wasn't serious in my mind.
I could still pack it up and go back to my moms. It was a slow decision to let
that go,and actually bring the stuff in the house now. There's alot to still do before
I'll move alllll~ the way in with my boyfriend. But it's moving in that direction ^_^

I'm still looking for a job. But that's how it is it seems. *shrugs* All I can do is
keep putting in the applications and hope for the best.

I've been feeling more motivated to start my art back up a bit more seriously.
I've also been wanting to do crafts again. Mostly the crochet again,and maybe
some sewn plushies. I want to give some away to friends as a gift. ...Kinda to
test that I can actually use the patterns correctly lol. I've only ever made one
sewn plushie. And it turned out alright. But it was very frustrating to say the
least for me.

*cuddles up in her blankets for warmth* It's getting colder. But I hope to keep
busy this fall/winter with a few things. I hope you'll stick around (whatever
your reason for doing so :P ) ^_^

Hello all. I've still been away from my home. Staying with friends. Of who have no internet still. So I'll probably not be replying for a bit to this on any comments. Though I'm still doing alright. Though also not able to work on any digital drawings at all.

I'm trying to work on getting a job again. Signed up for some job searching sites. So I'll have to see how that all goes. I'll also possibly be helping some dear friends move here in the next week. But it's not set in stone quite yet. But likely will happen anyway. It's kinda sad how they had to move. The landlord kicked them out and wont even return their calls. They had an agreement as well. Verbal,but still an agreement non the less. Oh well. Life goes on I suppose. I just hope things go better then this surprise upheaval that has happened.

*hugs everyone* Maybe sometime I can be around internet more often again. But until then I hope everyone is well enough off and feeling alright.

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*stretches and falls over onto something soft*

So~ It's been a long time hasn't it? About two months according to my
last journal.

I've been taking time to work on my relationships and the such,and kinda
hiding out with my pack for the most part these two months as well.

I haven't really been home much,since I'm at their house(which has no
internet really at the moment) or at my boyfriends house.

I've been learning the card game of Magic in this time .... It's interesting
to say the least. It's not really my kinda game,but all my close friends play
it,and I'd like to have a bit more of something to do with them from time
to time,and they wanna teach me anyway. So I'm slowly learning. The deck
I was given to practice with was ok to start out with,but then it was changed
because they said it'd be easier on me,but that just made it harder for
me to understand. I had to end up asking it to be changed again,and
now I like it much better in the end. ^_^

I've also been working a a crochet project for a friend. ....(Though I tend
to have a bunch of those going all the time. I love making gifts for
friends.) Of course I'll post the pictures when I'm done,though this
project involves ALOT of sewing as well as the initial crochet for the
plushie I made from the pattern I got. But the sewing wasn't actually
required,I just decided to added it afterwards. So that's on me,it's just
gonna take a long while to finish is all.

TL:DR version - I'm doing better. Though away from home alot. *nod nods*

I'm feeling marginally better today,compared to all the past six days
or so. Been fighting with my boyfriend,and had a disagreement with a
good friend because I was so stressed with the boyfriend fights. Thanks
to the disagreement I've been feeling apologetic to nearly everyone,but
after sitting down to talk with him in full things were cleared up. (With the
friend I mean. Boyfriend and I are still working on stuff,but it isn't as
tense as before.)

...I've also lost my job. I wasn't able to keep up with the physical aspect
of running around for ten hours a night for four days in a row. But it's ok.
The way I see it,I had the job for when I needed it. And I did need the
money I had earned to help friends get out of some minor stuff that
happened. This is just a transition point in my life is all. Something will
come up again,and I can look for another job. ^_^ One not as hard as
the one I just had. *nods*

So for now I'll get to some projects that really needed my full attention
anyway. I have a few birthday gifts to make for friends here this month.
I hope I can get them done to at least be close,if not on their birthdays.

I'm also a bit anticipatory for my own birthday this month. ^_^
Tis on an unlucky day to some. But I don't mind it being there this month.

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I still need to be around friends right now.

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Hello all.

Things have been up and down for me lately. Up because I have a job
and all that,but a bit down because it leaves me so exhausted,or close
to it the days I'm working. And then on my days off I still go running off
an hours drive away to hang out with friends and my boyfriend. I've been
a bit emotional,so being with them has been helping me stay grounded.
Though in running off,and being tired the other days. I'm neglecting
my commissions.

So I'm offering refunds at this point for the two commissions I have to do.
Get in contact with me here or in a note to discuss this further. Though if they
still want to wait on the commissions I'll still try to find time to do them at
some point as well.

Thank you,for your continued patience with me in any case. *bows*

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Can is be sleep in Tuesday? Is tired ...but is can't sleep in. That's what
Thursday is for one supposes. *shuffles off to get ready for work again*

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Tonight is the last day of work for me for the week.

Yay *spins a sparkly flag around for no reason*

I hope by tomorrow morning when i get off of work I feel not to sore.
I was hoping on going up to visit friends if I felt up to it Thursday and Friday.
But I'll have to see how I feel. I can be pretty sore after work.
It may be that I have to wait a few more weeks before I'm more used
to work to where I can manage to go visit friends over my days off and
still be rested enough for work again.

Oh well. What happens will happen. I'll just have to go with it depending
on what it is.

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*falls into bed and tries not to move*

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It's been two days now that I've been off work. I'm recovering from the
long hours. I can more or less walk with minimal pain now. Yay.

I go back on Sunday to start a full four days of work. I hope I can hold
out ok. I'd like to get used to it and keep the job. It's hard to get jobs
now-a-days.

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As the title says. I start my first night of a full shift tonight.

From 6:30 at night to 4 in the morning.

It's gonna be a possibly long night. Training and safety stuff tonight. But the first step to a process of getting used to working such long hours.

Orientation yesterday was alright. The going over of some paper work and the showing of some diversity and such videos. As well as one on health plans we can sign up for in a bit.

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~_~ ZzzzZzzz

Yeah,so I've been up All day till now and the such. I've been staying up all night and sleeping during the day ...kinda bad since I have orientation tomorrow st seven in the morning. So this morning I went to sleep at seven in the morning and woke up at 10:30am. So hardly no sleep and up all day to quick switch my sleep schedule around. ...Though I have night shift at my job. Sooo~ I'll have to switch back over again when I actually start the job ...when ever that is. I hope to find out after tomorrow.

I've checked some last minute stuff and can thankfully go to bed in a few minutes. Hopefully at least. :3

*waves a paw goodbye/goodnight* I'll be gone All day tomorrow. So I hope to check messages either later tomorrow late night,or the next day after tomorrow.

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AmpDragoness is in need of some funds in helping to get to see her grandmother who is really sick. Have a look see at her journal.

Link to original journal -> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5723137/

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I've been a bit up and down as of late,not in bad mood or anything.
Just nervous and excited in turn. I've been filling out some documents
for my new job. And also anticipating my orientation on Monday. So
I've been jumping about as it were between focuses.

Today I went out and got some bank information that they asked for
for orientation. Since it's a paid all day thing for training and what not.
I also got my hair trimmed about five inches and added some layering
to the front. I liked it really long,but it was getting bad split ends,so it
was time to trim it it seemed. It'll be easier to manage now as well. Since
the job required that hair be kept above the shoulder somehow. I'm gonna
keep it in a bun ^_^ My hair had been down to my butt nearly. And now
it's between my shoulder blades. I'm kinda sad about the loss,but I'm
happy that my head feels lighter.

I still don't know the day I start work,but it's getting closer and closer ^_^

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Since I'm back from the Land of Apples. I'd like to answer questions or
the such on this Tuesday. That is if anyone wants to ask something or
talk in general. ^_^


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EDIT: I'm back. ^_^ Had a good time visiting and am back for a couple of days. Then I get to go back up again.
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I'm leaving for a few days and the such. A friend is coming down from
Northern California and I'm gonna be picking him up later today to take
up by my boyfriends place,then sometime around night time I'm gonna
be taking him to our other friends house where he's gonna be staying for
a week or two.

It's gonna be nice visiting with him while he's down here for a bit of a break
from his own stuff. ^_^

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*stares at my phone,blinking when I have to* Two more hours to go.

*gulps and tries to distract myself from it by surfing the internet*

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I'm so happy. I just got two new patterns for those crochet animals I make.

One is for a regular horse. And the other is for Big Macintosh of mlp.

I've had both patterns favorited for awhile now,but decided to buy them
a little bit ago.

Depending on what comes up and other projects I have going on the side
we'll see when I can get to trying to make them. ^_^

I'm gonna attempt to make a unicorn out of the horse pattern when I do
get to it though.

*goes off to do something else after sharing the small news just to share it*

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I've seen a few journals of this meme,and decided to answer the questions. ^_^

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1. What made you choose the species of your main fursona?

- I had wanted to do a fox fursona for a bit. Having had a wolf one,and
liking canines in general. But Shadow came about completely after I
started getting together with my boyfriend and he called me foxy. ^_^

2.Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?

- In many ways she's like me. And there are some differences. And in
some ways she's how I want to be,yes.

3. Does your fursona have the same personality you have?

- Kinda,and kinda not. Again,she has aspects.

4. Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?

- For the most part,yes.

5. Does your fursona look like you at all?

- She has the same brown hair and eyes ^_^ Though my eye color is
a darker brown.

6. Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?

- Yeppers,same gender. I haven’t wanted to have a fursona that has
a different gender than me.

7. Do you have more then one main fursona?

- Sorta,and sorta not. I have Shadow now. But I did have three others.
And I do still consider them a part of an aspect of me.

8. Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?

- Shadow does have a back story. And it has nothing to do with my own history.

9. Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?

- In roleplays she can be mated to others in that storys context. So far
she has no 'global' mate that would be a fixture in her history. And also
no,it's not my real boyfriend either.

10. If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?

- Shadow in roleplays isn't opposed to mates. Or is she opposed to many
mates at the same time. So she can be a swinger,and always wants to
have her relationship be an open one before she'll commit to a particular mate.

11. Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?

- Nothing super special. She is who she is,and looks how she looks.
Plain old Shadow.

12. Do you have much art of your main fursona(s)?

- I have a fair amount. ^_^ (of Shadow at least)

13. Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?

- I might consider putting her in retirement if things went super down
hill with things as they were in my relationship and her involvement
was too much of a bad association. But as things are as they are now.
I don't see that happening.

14. If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?

- I don't have any fursuits. And thinking of having one is a far off thought.
Fursuits are too much of a luxury for me to have.

15. Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?

- I of course roleplay with her,no problem. In fact,I set up a f-list listing
of her. Lol If I didn't want to role play with her I'd of said so clearly in
posting of her art.

16. Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?

- ….No. Not in the way of I think of her AS me. Though I consider her a
reflection of some aspects of my personality and preferences. She's
foremost a character I created. I am me.

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Raffles I'm entered into

- 's raffle ends on the 23 of May. Link to the raffle -> RAFFLE


Art and Things I'm waiting on

- Art Trade from - _{my half done}

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This is just to re-clarify my commission prices and some examples for most of them.

Link to my Commissions -> Link

Sketches/Linearts will be done in photoshop.
Flat Color is also done in photoshop.

I only take payment through paypal. In USD.

Sketches

~ $3 for part body(chest up). Example 1 (the top one)
~ $4 for full body. Example 1 - Example 2 - Example 3

Lineart's

~$4 for part body(chest up).
~$6 for full body. Example 1 - Example 2

Flat Color's

~$6 for part body(chest up).
~$8 for full body. Example 1 - Example 2

Chibi's

~$4 Lineart. Example 1 - Example 2 - Example 3
~$5 Flat Color. Example 1 - Example 2


An added character is just $1 - $2 more depending
on the pose and interaction going on with the first character.

Also,unless given $1- $2 for a Simple background.

I'll do a solid color with a pattern like -> THIS. automatically.

Character Sheets
~ Front view + Back view + Head shot - Colored $13 - Example 1 (nsfw)
~ Front view + Back view + Head shot - Lineart $10

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Will Do - Anthro,Human,Some sexual themes,Feral.
Anime characters as a second character in the drawing.

Won't do - Detailed muscles,Super/overly
muscular. Scat or excessive gore. Minors in sexual situations.
Drugs being used or mentioned.

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Please contract me via note or comment for additional
information or questions. Even questions on 'Will I' or
'Wont I' draw something. I'm very open minded and will
answer to the best of my ability.

Check out my gallery to see what sort of things I've done
and my drawing style as well. ^_^

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I'm not to excited about christmas in general. But I saw this video
and decided to share. ^_^



Please check out my Commissions Tab for everything I have up for sale.
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Including commission prices and YCH's,as well as special offers.

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