Y'all like shiny things? Chainmail?

I got you: https://bsky.app/profile/shiftychai...../3l36lbg4o4a27

This week I'm doing a 20% off my entire shop! :3

Fuck the American medical system.

Fuck the CEO's that kill people every fucking day for the sake of their own wealth.

I'm so sorry you had to suffer like you did...I'm so sorry you were scared...I'm so sorry this fucking place failed you and so many others.

RIP Neer - tell Sasha I said hello up there....

Who all am I seeing? :D

This'll be my first time attending and I am much excite!

Hey all!

I'll be in Japan from Feb 15th - Feb 28th!

The planned route is Tokyo -> Osaka -> Kyoto -> Back to Tokyo

I AM SO EXCITED!

Hey all!

I have finally opened a shop for my chainmaillie wares, come check it out :D

Ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/shiftychains

I don't wanna spam y'all here...

But I am having a chainmail sale over on Twitter and Bluesky

Twitter:

https://twitter.com/ShadowDragonKat.....65300757672054

BlueSky: (if you need a code lemme know)

https://bsky.app/profile/shiftychai...../3kcblp5ltnm2h

If you're going to BLFC I can bring it with to deliver :D

It has been many years since I've hit BLFC! SO who am I seeing? :D

I'll be running around in at least a neon saber.

With Twitter dying in a blaze of fire and ash may be more active here again...

What's up party fluffs?

Who all is going to TFF this year? >3>/

You'll be seeing this cat mowing around~

Felt like screaming into the void of life updates.

I think I finally hit my wall of "I need to fix my health." In 2011 I started my work on weight loss/being healthier. Between now and then a lot of shit has happened. After Sasha passed away, it kinda just stopped my motivation. Like i was still on the path but I wasn't trying to improve it. Around that time was when we also put the house up for sale in Vegas, I quit my Target job to focus on getting backed up and moved etc. At my best I was 193. I'm back up to 230 with horrid eating habits again. The other night, I went out with a school friend, over gorged myself and felt like absolute garbage for the next 24 hours.

In that moment I was sick with myself. I hated that I let me stress and life just make me stop trying on something I had worked. I had tried to use a weight loss method I knew wouldn't work for me "cause its easier" and it just caused me to rebound SO much harder than I thought it would. Today I'm looking at most food and I feel....disgusted? Which also isn't entirely good either. But this may be what I needed. I can now look at myself critically and see what my issues are. What I need to do. My general plan right now is this: my partner and I are going to pursue different diet types. He's going to test an IBS diet to see if it helps him. And I'm going to do what I did back in Vegas. Something akin to Paleo? Basically cutting down carbs, focusing more on proteins and vegetables, cutting out sugars. Also there is a rec center that just opened right down the street from me. (like literally 5 min walk) They have a wonderful work out set up. So I'm gonna bite the bullet and put myself into a gym like setting. I literally have no excuse not too. Its right there.

No I don't expect this to be easy. I expect to cry. To want to give up. That it's gonna be a fight. But Its something I need to do.

Otherwise, my spring semester is almost over. Should be maintaining my 4.0. Have 2 classes over the summer and then only fall and spring and I'll be done with my A.S. in Cyber Security~ Haven't had much luck, by that I mean none, on the job search. Though I did recently get my Linux+ certification. So yay?

Alright, done screaming into the void. Dragon out~/

So who am I gonna see there? o3o/

I'll be going around as this mage cat: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30621511/

Does anyone even read these? Idk anymore.

So a few things. I ended up quitting my job after Thanksgiving. I finally snapped and had enough. After everything I did, tried to do, it didn't matter. I was still getting walked all over, harassed, bullied...and to top it off we had a new manager come day side that essentially told me he would make me give up school if it made me have to change or not be able to change my work schedule. When this was brought up with my high ups, they just shrugged at me. So I made my choice. After working it out with my partner we determined I was able to quit and focus on school for a bit. It wasn't an easy choice, but I would rather do that than risk failing out of school again due to bullshit from a company that has screwed me over more than once. The sad part is? Everything else about that job was great. The pay, the benefits....just everything you'd look for. But I was literally driven out by horrid management and my mental health had taken a massive hit over the year and a half I was there. I've been out of there for about a month now and it feels like a damn wait was taken off my shoulders. I'm not as angry. I can get sleep again.

But on a happier note, got all A's for my first semester! Next semester is going be be a bit heavier, but I gots this~ So there's that! I'll be going to Vegas in January for my best friends wedding, which MAY be a bit weird...said friend was my crush as a kid and as any demi will tell ya, crushes NEVER GO AWAY HOLY HELL. But I've known her for years, like since 3rd grade, so yes I'm going to be there for her.

We're still going to be going to TFF, going to meet a friend I've never met in person and do all the suiting.

SO YEA that's my life right now! How are you guys? :,3

This year for me will mark the year that I start a LOT of self improvements.

Today I started Invisialign to fix my teeth and bite. I've had jacked up teeth for years, my mom never cared to keep up with it when I was a kid. So on and so fourth. So I finally, after all the other dental crap I've had done, I took the leap and invested in this. It was a LARGE chunk of change but, I know I need it. It's gonna be annoying and uncomfortable, but I need to do this. I've never had straight or even remotely straight teeth.

Starting August 20th, I'm going back to college to get my 2 year for Cyber Security. And from there I wanna take that to WGU (Western Governors University) which if your looking into business or IT, seriously look at that school, I LOVE that model they use. Now most of you know that I've struggled with choosing a career path but that was because I was struggling with what I wanted out of life. I hadn't figured out what I wanted overall. Basically the mix of money stability and happiness with the job, but also how much do I wanna deal with people? What are my goals outside of work? How much freedom to I want? And so on and that's why I choose to go on the IT route. And I'm going it stick with it and make the most of that choice.

I've also invested in hobbies outside of furry. I got myself a nice camera that I wanna use more. Once time allows, I wanna get out and go hikes and things (currently hard since me and my boyfriend don't have the same days off) With the fact I now have Invisialign I wanna refocus food and weight loss. Cause I can't eat with these fuckers in anyways, SO might as well tweak some things. I'm gonna cut down and out caffeine cause I've grown to reliant on it. I have 2 suits being done that I look forward to using and maybe even get into dancing.

But yes, 2018 shall be my start to self improvement! By the year 2020 things are gonna be so much different! :D

So! If all goes as planned I'll be going to the local community college starting this fall to get my 2 year degree in Cyber Security. From there I'm gonna attempt to get a job in said field and finish my degree at WGU. Now why you may ask? Cause I think this is what I need to do. I think I have found the balance I wanna do with my life and this is the path I want to take with it. Now this does mean I'm gonna be missing MFF this year, possibly BLFC next year, not sure yet. But life happens and I'm hoping I'll get this all done Fall 2019 since I already have some college done.

The other reason? My current job is quickly sinking and I honestly even if it wasn't, I'd be looking to get out anyways. I hate and loathe that place and it's about as good as retail ever will be. So time to move up and out.

SO YES THERES THAT. Full time work and full time school :,3

But here gotta start right? I don't wanna end up old and bitter bout only working in retail store the rest of my life.

Not gonna bother with the typical...

So, WHO AM I GONNA SEE?

No suit for me this time, which is fine. I have a new camera to play with!

Hi!

So a few updates. So as you've seen I'm sure I gotta new character, Terra. She's going to be made my SplinterFox and should be done this summer :D I am excite. This will also be the first BLFC where I don't have a suit to run around in which is gonna be weird for me. I have sold Flurry and he is happy in his new home. I'm glad I found someone that is going to fully enjoy the suit and character.

In other news, I bought my first DSLR camera! :D Picked up a NikonD3400 and I'm super excited for it. So I'll be running around taking all the pics at BLFC instead this year~ I'm still gonna be very much newb but hey it's mostly for fun for me. I shall be taking pics of all the things~

Otherwise still playing Monster Hunter World, is you want a new hunting buddy hit me up o3o/

Haven't Posted since before MFF so why not.

MFF was fun! It was kinda awesome to be apart of the largest con in the world, I'll say that much. I will say that my social anxiety got to me a bit, I wanted to hang out with people but I just...couldn't bring myself to make myself? Idk
Otherwise typical can, much suiting, much merch bought, my wallet is still crying but meh.

Otherwise I came back to a job that I still hate. Literally while I was gone, no body bothered to cover for me, leaving me to come back to a mountain to try and fix in a week. Which didn't happen. Management doesn't care. I'm beating myself up at this damn place...so I'm gonna be updating my resume and go from there. Along with the fact that my job may not exist much longer. Still stressing over career things...yea that hasn't changed much and frankly I hate it.

But otherwise I gotta question, who here is getting Monster Hunter Worlds for the PS4?! (I'm also getting it for PC mind you but my and my mate didn't wanna wait >3>) I wanna add peeps to my PS4 list thing! Comment with your PSN or note me :D I wanna hunt all the things come January!

I feel like I needed to write this down.

Now about a month ago, I decided to try therapy. I have had depression issues and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I'm better than I used to be, but I felt like I could get a bit of help. After my thing last night? I am not thinking differently. Now before anyone says it, yes I know not all therapists click. I know that it won't always work.

A bit of background on myself. When I'm around someone new, I get fidgety, I talk faster than normal, and I stutter. I'm shy and not good in brand new situations. I made this known to her. I don't entirely know even what I want to get out of therapy, and this is also known. Now moving on.

So the first session it felt....odd. I kinda shrugged it off as a new thing and that was it. The only thing she told me to do between the first and second was to make a list of behaviors I want to focus on. Those being as follows 1) Being to hard on myself 2) Being overly critical of others 3) My fear of failure 4) My own negative self image.

So upon going in, she had completely forgotten what she had told me to do previously. Okay whatever. I remind her. She asks where I want to start, which I honestly had no idea. I stated that and she got snappy with me in a "Oh just pick one" tone. So I told her the two that have been bothering me most. Which lead to me having anxiety over career things and such in which the irritated tone came back.

Now as far as careers go, yes it's been bugging me. I don't have one that super stands out to me. I'm currently at a job I hate, which gives me more pressure. I don't wanna go into insane amount of debts going to school, so I do have a school in mind but I don't know what area I'd wanna do...it goes on and on.

I begin to tell her this, before I could finish my reasons of why I'm torn, she cuts me off, "Well which two are you interested in most?" And I say the two I've focused on most what Psychology (which I'm about half way done with a degree) and IT because I feel like it's one of the more stable things I can try for. Once again cuts me off and asks, "Well why those too and why don't I feel like I could do either of those" And I say because I feel like I'm behind. I feel like because I'm 25 I feel behind everyone else. (Yes I know that's a wrong assumption but besides the point) In which I was basically lectured on why that's wrong and basically stupid. Which, yes I know it's wrong, but that doesn't stop my crippling anxiety from STOPPING ME FROM LOOKING FARTHER INTO IT.

Okay so what other interests do I have, I told her before hand my mother stopped me from perusing a lot of my interests as a kid, so now that I'm away I have dabbled and looked into a few things but never settled on one because fiances and stress at work. But I have tried chainmail, drawing, writing, etc and I have interests in crafting things, photography. Cut off, again, saying that it seemed odd that I was all over the place. Then asked if ADD/ADHD runs in my family. I said it wouldn't surprise me, but I also said that teachers and such have tested me and I never popped. I never had issues with focusing in school. The only subjects I avoided where ones I didn't get or like. But things like English, Psychology, and stuff like that I never had issues with. That I don't feel like its focus I have an issue with, but the feeling of dread and anxiety of certain things that stop me. Here's where thing made me cringe.

After I said ADD/ADHD MAY run in my family that is ALL she focused on. I even scored stupid low on her little test of it, but yet that's ALL she focused on. She shrugged off my questions of counter points. Told me that the reason I was having career issues is because I wasn't working hard enough towards them and it may be fixed through meds. Now I do NOT doubt the existence of ADD/ADHD, I KNOW it exists, and I know that meds DO help it. BUT what I wasn't okay with is the NOT listening to my concerns on why I thought this may be wrong. How all of sudden this is the end all thing that must be the issue. Only at the end of this bs did they say, "Oh WELL if you don't test for it, which I highly doubt, we'll try this from a different angle." Followed by, for my anxiety and depression, I'm already doing everything she would suggest, so what the fuck do I need then?

All in all, it left a very sour taste for me. I would rather fucking figure this crap out on my own then have a label slapped on me and that's just it. Part of me, the skeptic part of me, is saying they're just trying to sap money out of me just because they can.Like I said, sure it could be a possibility, but a SMALL one because, yes, I have gone through testing before and nothing ever popped but public school sucks. But if she had listened instead of forcing this down my throat, I wouldn't have been so sour about it. At this point I'm not going back, I feel like I can just figure it out on my own as this point.

Just wanted to ramble. Thanks guys.

ITS MY FIRST TIME GOING TO MFF AND I'M SO EXCITE

Where are you staying?
Not the main hotel sadly, but right across the street

Who are you rooming with:
 Sneaksy  KarmaAi  TheKinkyKirin  SoongDae

What days are you attending?
Thursday - Monday

How are you traveling?
Roadtrip yo!

How is the best way to find you?
Twitter: @ Shadow_Fluffz

Are there any panels you might be attending?
No idea

What do you look like?
Look for this thing: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25058039/

Will you be suiting?
Yissssss

Are you taken?
Very much yes

What is your gender?
Female, but very much tom-boy

How tall are you?
5'7"

Can I talk to you?
Sure

Can I touch you?
Do I know you? if the answer is not, back up

Can I visit your room?
Nuuuu

Can I buy you drinks?
Srry don't drink xp

Can I give you stuff?
Nah

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs sure, snugs you have to make a 6 month reservation in advance

Are you nice?
I like to think so

Will you be going to parties?
Not really my thing

Will you be performing?
nah, just derping

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
I answer to Flurry, Derp, but mostly Shadow

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
No idea

What/where will you be eating?
ALSO NO IDEA

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Only if invited

Can I look in your sketchbook?
I don't have on ;-;

Can I take your picture?
In suit, yes.
Outta suit: why?

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
HAVE ALL THE FUN!

This has been a really interesting few weeks mentally for me. While I know you never stop learning things about yourself, I thought the majority of "discovering" myself was pretty much done. Little things I was expecting, but the big "Oh now that makes sense" moments I wasn't expecting. Now given my past, I really shouldn't be surprised but...you know. Meh.

So what are these, "Oh shit moments?" Well he's an example, I was convinced that I needed to be social to be happier. My mom never let me out and socialize as a kid. I had one friend growing up that I was allowed to hang out with. And when I got older me getting out of the house was...well amazing. I hated being home, I hated being around my mom and her girlfriend, I hated the fighting etc. So I started associating being social with being happy. I kept this belief for a long time. This has lead to a lot of frustration though because I'm not all that good at being social. I don't do well with small talk. I don't do well with introductions. I stutter when I speak. I get easily flustered around a lot of people. I get mad/angry when people don't hear me in conversations. So on and so fourth. I forced myself to go to social things, and honestly I spent more time counting down the time till I could go home and play games. And one of the things that clicked with me is that, I'm NOT a social person. I cherish and love the handful of friends I can hold long, in-depth, conversations with, but I don't do well with just socializing to socialize, and that's fine. I just made an association with "social" = "happier" because of my home life at the time. So that's one.

Another, fairly big one, that I've come to relative terms with a bit ago is I don't need a career that "cares/helps people" now lemme explain that a bit. My first career choice was a trauma psychologist, so helping people with bad pasts/abuse/ etc. Now growing up It was shoved into my head that I needed to help people in order to feel fulfilled in a career. Money didn't matter, happiness didn't matter, I just needed to help people. I needed to help people around me. Now while that sounds wonderful and all, not everyone CAN do a career like that. Well apparently the idea still lingered in my head. Do you all know of personality tests? For the longest time I was ISFP, it hasn't changed since high school. I recently retook it, but I listened to my inner self and not the voice of, "You have to care/want to help people" and the results were VASTLY different. I now sit in the INTJ spectrum. Which, when I read it, sounded so much more like me. Now some of you may be saying, "oh those things are junk..." try taking it, it's actually very insightful, I'll provide a link to the one I took.

This also helped me realize that IT may not be the career field I want to do. I'm highly considering going back and finishing out my B.A. in psychology, but not for the career I was first considering. It would honestly more be for interest as well as to HAVE a degree to use. A part of me still wants to try and get into working with exotic animals and such(such a typical furry I know).

And another that has stood out to me, also related to the personality test, is what I value in friends and what I look for in friends. Now first lemme say, it is impossible to be good friends with everyone, and thats okay. It's okay if you find yourself thinking the current friends you have just don't match, that is also fine. Sometimes opposites help. Sometimes they don't. Sometimes you need commonalities over differences. Sometimes you need that difference to balance you out. It all depends. Personally I have figured out that in friends I more prefer if out core values are about aligned or I just become very very frustrated with the person in question. Before I wanted to be friends with all the people, but I've learned it's okay for me to be picky. It's okay for me to have a small handful of good friends. Because honestly I just get frustrated otherwise.

But yea, those are some things I've thought of, come to realizations of over the past week or two. Its amazing what happens when you have literally nothing to think about at work.

If you wanna take a pretty accurate personality test I suggest this one: https://www.16personalities.com

So I've been digging through makers all day, and so I'm curious~!

Who are your some of your fav toony makers?

For who in question? Shock

Ref: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24513677/

Some I've looked at/considered:
Twinky
Battitude
Thatsfurredup
Furzombie
LuckyGumFursuits

Plus a handfull more~

Some news and things! Today, 9-12, is the last dentist appointment I'm gonna need to get caught up! Today is the last 3 cavities I need to get fixed. The only other thing I may need to do later is braces, which would require me to remove a baby tooth and the one wisdom tooth i have. But that isn't gonna happen till at least 2019. So 12 cavities, a root canal, a crown, and 2 deep cleanings later, I'm caught up. And about $2,600 in the hole (that's with insurance folks!) I'm pretty much caught up.

In other news my medical insurance through work kicked in! I got my general scheduled as well as my first therapy appointment set up. Now general doc wise, I know I need to work on weight. I need to rework my diet. But the last first times I've had my numbers checked, I've been fine. So I'm not horribly worried. The only thing I wanna ask em about is my knees cause they've been an issue with me for a while.

Bigger news is first therapy appointment. I have been struggling with anxiety, depression, and who knows what else for years. Granted, I have gotten better over the years thanks to my mate and friends. Along with the fact that I moved away from a toxic family/environment. But I know I still have issues. I have 0 motivation most days, I have depression spikes, I have stress issues. I feel it in daily life and it's why I need to get it fixed. I wanna feel motivated. I wanna be able to get things done I need to get done. I really really want to try and fix my self image issues. I wanna be able to feel proud of things...I've needed this for years and I haven't been able to get it done. So I'm hoping this will finally help.

Now for those who may wonder, I do want to try and avoid medications. Now before anyone attacks me for that, I completely understand that meds help. They do have their place. But given my issues have lessened without them, I believe that it's nothing meds can fix for me. I honestly believe it's past traumas that are effecting me. Now if things boil down to it and I need them, fine. But I do wanna try and go without.

But yea, there's all that.

Root canal done. Crown done. Still have 6 cavities to go but I'm slowly knocking out the dental bs. Though already $1500 in the hole for it all and I'm not even done yet, and that's WITH insurance. So if anyone is interesting in chainmail things, Yu-gi-oh cards, Naurto cards, Inuyasha cards, handful of plush....lemme know! I have shit luck selling anything though...so yea. I have another appointment this month too wheee.

As far as work...its work? Things haven't gotten worse or better. -_- I don't expect for my coworkers to get any better honestly. But I'm there for a paycheck and I would never be able to find something that pays as well as this does at the current moment. I'll keep doing my job, making em look bad,and collecting a paycheck. Not sure if I said here, but I did get time off for MFF approved! So theres something to be excited for! :D Just well have Flurry this around, but given the time of year, he'll thrive I'm sure.

Still having career anxiety....working on the weight lose thing again. Hoping since I can eat things normally again I'll be able to revamp my diet, again. I'm back up to 216 and that depresses me greatly. I wanna try and get under 200 again by the beginning of 2018.

How are you guys doing?

So how many of my followers are female/identify as female? Of those, how many of you see the ever present comments/jokes/memes etc with the term "Ewww Boobs" or "Ewww Vagina" (telegram, skype, wherever). Now of those, does it bother you? Are you so used to seeing it you don't care? Do you think its funny? If your a male or identify as a male, what are your thoughts on this? I ask because I am very much curious.

Now what brought this up? One of the telegram groups I'm in had this come up. And the backlash both ways was very very strong. Now so for myself, I am female, I identify as female. I do NOT consider myself feminine though. I am a tom-boy through and through. I am also pansexual, so gender doesn't play a role in who I'm attracted to. So not that I got that all laid out, my thoughts on this subject. Now there is nothing changing the fact that I have lady bits. I have boobs, shocker. I don't want to change that part about me. These are things that are attached to me. Same goes for the lower lady bits. I have them. It's there.

Here is where I have my issue with the phrase/meme/statement/ what the hell ever, "Ewww *insert body part here*" with or without a disgusted furry attached to it. When I hear this, you are calling me disgusting. When it implies to me is that I am someone defective to whoever is making this statement. That I am some sort of weird thing that they would rather not deal with. And I do not accept the excuse of, "Oh well I'm gay." That's fine, more power to you! I get it, you are a dude that likes other dudes, fantastic for you. That already tells me your not interested in lady bits. Also fine! I'm not saying you need to like them. BUT I still do expect some level of respect. If I respect your choices and lifestyle, then same should go the other way around. If you do not like seeing that type of deal in furry porn and such, you can do one of two things, ignore it and scroll past, or if you are THAT uncomfortable with it, leave that chat. There are a ton of em at this point. And a lot that are exclusively gay/lesbian FOR the reason of people feeling not welcome/uncomfortable with one subject or another.

When you're in a mix 18+ chat, I don't think its appropriate to post things of that nature. Because yes, it does make females uncomfortable at times. With me, I'm so used to seeing it I don't respond. I roll my eyes and ignore it. But last night I saw, well, that not everyone is. And I'm kinda happy for that.

The backlash though for simply saying, "hey, that's offensive to women." was astounding. Not all mind you. But the amount calling the few bringing it up, "Oversensitive" "It's just a joke, get over it." etc was kinda...disheartening? Though I also feel that way when I see comments of the like on straight or lesbian porn, when people make those comments on just female characters in general. I understand not everyone likes chicks, that's fine, but do you really have to shove it at us every turn? I see it so much that I'm jaded to it. Hell I get that comment from friends and while I still cringe, I don't fight it because I don't want to fight people on it because I'm tired of that fight.

Someone made the comparison, "Well have you ever played CAH?" Here is where we talk about a few issues with that. When you play a game like CAH with friends, you KNOW what you're getting into. You are with friends. You know their intentions, hopefully. The jokes on the cards are not directed at you. Versus having someone you don't know in a chat or online, spewing this, what are you suppose to think? You don't know their intention. You don't know them. All you see is someone calling a body part that you have gross/disgusting. And you see a whole bunch of people laughing and agreeing with it. Yes it hurts/annoys/bothers you. At least for me it does. I'm self conscious as it is, that doesn't help at all.

Then came the lovely, "Oh we got some SJW's over here. And man haters to boot"

First off, as soon as you make that statement you lose ALL validity to me. Second off, how is asking someone to not make rude comments man hating? I didn't know the gender of who posted the damn thing, nor did anyone attack "men" as a whole. No one said, "Well your a man and your dick is weird and gross. You're only saying this cause your compensating for something..." or anything like that! And if someone had, I would have said the exact same thing to them!

And I'm fine with jokes. I fine with stupid memes. I'm fine with all that. And the others who were hurt by this, I joke with them all the time! But making someone uncomfortable. That's not a joke. Calling someone over sensitive for giving a logical argument? Not a joke. Does this mean you can't joke around? No. But consider the who, what, and where your saying this. BE FUCKING CONSIDERATE!

In summary, I can be a "horrid" person. But I know when to be like that. I know who I can make "sketchy jokes" around. And if they don't like something I say, I encourage people to TELL ME so I know why and to make sure I correct it. Online, you don't know how someone has been hurt. How they think. What they feel. There's no reason to take away their validity. And just because you may not agree, doesn't mean you should keep doing the thing your doing. Put yourself in the other persons place. Put yourself in a place where you were called disgusting, where a part of you was called gross for...no reason. Just keep that in mind. Both sides, male and female. Granted it's been rare where I've seen it the other way around, but yes. If your not interested/don't wanna look? Look away or find another chat.

Just rambling dragon thoughts, I wanted to spew this out somewhere just cause mostly.

HAPPY FREAKING DAY I'M GOING TO THE DENTIST TUESDAY~

I found a dentist with glowing reviews via a few sites. But I've been in pain for 3 months via needing a root canal thanks to my last dentist/his assistant being an idiot. I finally got dental insurance to help take some of the bill away, though I'm still expecting to drop at least 3-4 grand to get everything fixed :,3 Yay catching up on years of neglect.

Hopefully I'll be fixed up soon. I am so tired of being in pain.