I'm finally doing them! Click over here for more detail. (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43255102/)

Just mass uploaded a whole bunch of art I made. Though honestly, who even is bothered by that? Does anyone here even follow me still? XD

And there's still more to come. Stay tuned, I guess?

:D

I got Minecraft, Final Fantasy X/X-2 HD, Dead Rising 2, GTA V (haven't started with it yet), BlazBlue: Chronophantasm, and Tales of Xillia. My PSN account is silver_light97.

After about 2 years of inactivity on the channel, I finally uploaded a video.

It's just a compilation of my unfinished stuff, things I won't be completing anytime soon due to reasons. Fans of Final Fantasy and/or Kingdom Hearts might wanna watch it. There's also some out-of-place RWBY somewhere in there. So... yeah, go check it out if you like.

https://i.ytimg.com/vi/khA3Lt7yAsE/hqdefault.jpg

This chapter. This freaking chapter. I am stuck at this freaking chapter. Chapter 10: Noel Canyon.

This chapter is the first in the game to have ballistae. And ballistae, at least in this game, are the freaking worst. Not only can they snipe at your units from afar, the ones in this chapter are placed in f***ing mountains, meaning it's harder to destroy them, let alone even get a hit on them. What makes it even worse is how they have a chance of critting.

But what makes this chapter even WORSE is the lone mage/bishop near the northwest corner of the map. It has Bolting which, if you are not aware of, can allow him to attack from a huge distance at your units. Normally in other games, this wouldn't be that big of a deal, but what makes it so aggravating is that it has a 20% chance of critting. That spells insta-death to almost anyone who's not immune to criticals.

I just hate this so much. I've restarted so many times already. No matter how well I'm doing, or how well I think I'm doing, something comes along to f*** me over, causing me restart. Words cannot describe how I almost tore my hair off each time I screw up.

Oh Dog... just needed to get this off my chest.

Credit to ModelOmega for the picture.

Did anyone miss me?

...

Or at least, noticed I was away...? Er, never mind. Anyways, I'm back from Singapore and man I had a blast there!

From riding the awesome rides at Universal Studios, to seeing all the lovely birds at the Bird Park, and went shopping at around Chinatown. And oh, we also went to IKEA, cause we don't have that here in the Philippines.

I'm gonna miss it there. Heck, I'm missing it right now. It's just soooo much better there than here. Then again, I'm sure a lot of tourists would say that. I wonder if the locals say the same thing too.

On the topic of missing stuff, it seems I missed out on a lot over here on FA. I got over a 150 notifications of new submissions and stuff. Gonna have to go over that in a bit.

Anywho, hope you all had a nice New Year!

As you can see by the title, I'm going to Singapore tomorrow!

Sooo... yeah. Yay!

I hope you all are having a good one (though chances are you're probably just waking up or something).

To be honest, I'm not really in the mood to be celebrating the holidays. There are a number of reasons. One of them being that I failed a class in the previous term, and I have yet to give the bad news to either of my parents. I know they're gonna be pissed. And I know the longer for me it takes to tell them, the angrier they'll be when they find out.

Also, I haven't really done all that much during my Christmas break. I had plans to do all sorts of stuff, like getting to draw some more and stuff. I mostly just did nothing at all, wasting away the days as they fly by. Well, at least I got to finally finish The Legend of Korra. I guess that's one good thing I got to do this month.

All in all, I just wish I got to do way more stuff during my break. Oh well... guess I'll just have to tell myself "It's alright! You'll get to do them stuff some other time!". Bleh :P

Anywho, Merry Christmas to all you wonderful people. I know I'm not gonna be all happy or excited about it, but I hope that won't stop any of you from having a good time. See ya.

Not sure if I'm feeling down, or I'm just tired. Probably both, hehe.

I've been getting that feeling again, like I'm being left out of a lot of things. I guess that's really my fault though. If I really wanted to, I'd try to get along and become a part of something. I dunno... I just don't feel like doing anything right now.

Someone once told me I may have depression. I've always thought about it that maybe I do, but more often than not I just brush it off. I know I get sad a lot, and it affects my being significantly, but I never really thought it to be something as severe as depression. Who knows, maybe I do, maybe I don't. I wouldn't really know.

Jeez, I hate having to rant like this. I feel like I should be a little more positive. Maybe smile a little. It'd be nice if I had someone to talk to about it, like a friend. Sigh...

Hahaha... only about a few weeks left for this trimester. I'm so tired. I just wanna sleep till the world ends. That'd probably a long time. But it sounds worth it, hehe... phew.

I'm home alone with my mom right now and... I've been thinking that maybe now's the time I let her know that I'm gay. I'm scared right now. I'm not even totally sure if I'm gonna go through with it. My mind's just constantly racing about what she'll do, or how she'll react. I'll update on how things will go.

Update: I told her. She wasn't mad. Actually, if anything, she sounded really concerned. She told me how she, and a lot of others, knew, or at least had a feeling, about me. She went on and on about how worried she was because of all the things she heard how gay people are being treated lately, about the stereotypes and such. But, behind all of it, I knew that deep down she was just concerned about me. She accepted me for who I am, and that she can do nothing to change that. She said she just wanted to keep pushing me to excel and do what I can, so I can help break all the negative stereotypes about homosexuals.

It made me feel good. I didn't know a lot of my relatives knew about it, and that a lot of them were actually accepting to the idea. Even some of my aunts from abroad said they'd be willing to take me in, should the need arise. I was really touched.

Even my dad knew about it, but I still haven't confirmed it to him yet. I talked about it with my mom and she said maybe I should just hold it till I graduate college. I'm not so sure myself. I mean, she said he wasn't mad about it. At least not for long. Either way, he's tired right now. Maybe I'll just let him know another time. Unless mom decides to tell him herself.

All in all, I'm glad I got to tell her. It got a lot of things off my chest, and it even got me to realize how much she and my other family relatives care about me. Now, I'll keep her promise and excel in whatever I do, and prove to everyone that not all gays fall into the stereotypes.

I've always hated feeling left out, to the point where I'd say it was one of my worst fears. Actually, I don't like being alone in general.

Sometimes I'd just imagine waking up one day and finding out that everyone I'd ever known and loved have forgotten about me, leaving me all alone.

I mean, I never really paid attention to it before. Back in high school, I didn't mind it at all. I actually liked being all by myself. But now... I just hated it. Not just being alone, but feeling alone too. I don't have that many friends, and to those few who are, I never really get the chance to talk with them much. Most days I'd just find myself alone. Of course, I enjoy it and do whatever I like doing whenever those times come. But on some occasions, I get left with an empty feeling. And that feeling comes a lot, at the most random times.

Sometimes I'd just lay down and imagine what it'd be like actually having friends, hanging out with them and doing stuff. It's something so simple to a lot of people, but to me... it's something so far off and not likely to happen. Ever.

I was supposed to be productive and do some of my assignments today, but instead I basically not did all that and just screwed around doing whatever cause I'm a stupid stubborn fosky. Hahaha... I hate myself.

I wonder if anyone actually gets to read my journals. I feel so lonely lately. Must be cause of lack of sleep. I feel like I'm blaming a lot of my problems with that. I can't really say I'm wrong though. When you don't get enough rest, you become tired and it affects your mind badly, most of the time. You can't think properly, you get irritated by every little thing, you start to lost control of your emotions, you basically start breaking down inside.

And, I guess, that's how I feel whenever I get less than 8 hours of sleep. Which is almost everyday, sadly...

It's nobody else's fault but my own. I can't pin the blame on anyone. That's not a good thing to do.

Gosh I'm so problematic. Here's to hoping I'll possibly get enough rest tonight.

You wanna make an art, but you don't have the motivation and/or the time to do it. I hate that feeling. 'Specially when that feeling happens a LOT to me. :P

I've been thinking about shifting from a different degree program in college. Currently, I'm taking up Accounting. I've talked it over with my mom and older sister, and so far, they have no qualms about me changing my career path. They're just worried that I might have trouble landing a job with whatever degree I'll be taking up. I said I wanted something that had something to do with writing, like maybe Journalism. The problem is that, like they said, it would have been really hard to find a job here.

Ugh, I've been thinking about it lately, to the point where I'm just worried a lot about it. Sigh...

Uhh... scratch that previous journal, as it turns out that both our wifi and computer is slow. They're so GODDAMN slow. I cannot emphasize this enough.

*siiiiiiighs* Someone kill me... :'c

I hate our computer. It's so freaking slow. I used to think it was our internet that was causing problems, but I could use our WiFi just fine in my phone and other devices, so it's GOT to be our computer. Our decade old piece of crap computer. I can't even turn on Skype while browsing without either or both going crazy. Heck, my browser alone is having issues. I can't open certain websites, for whatever reason, but I can open and surf through others. Like what the hell??

*sigh* Hopefully we can buy a new one soon. Cause I don't think my sanity can handle this anymore. >:c