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there goes my hopes of getting paid
Posted 5 years ago
so.. funny thing, i was getting hyped i got to sell some commissions and was gonna be able at least paying my meds and maybe buying some food
but western unions all on my city are closed.
mom and dad are scared they will not get paid, bills keep demading getting paid, my meds are epxnesive as fuck and im dependant on them, and all that i sold, i cant get it until all this whole pandemia passes
this will be some hard hard shit time , man, this is getting scary.
those of you who have animal crossing new horizons
Posted 5 years ago....
when you get tired of it and of the switch can you send it to me ? TTWTT
jokes aside, man that game looks so freaking adorable D:
if the nintendo switch didnt cost 50.000+ pesos i would get the hell out of it XD
i was very very hyped for it, with the 0.1% hopes it would come to the 3ds. man i have to be so dumb >;v
i also hope it could be emulable at some point!
not gonna lie, im feeling quite left out, is like 100% of the internet is playing it and having a hell of a time with it , i wish i could play it too ;w;
but instead it costs around the same as a motorbike XD
[EDIT] PROOF https://sta.sh/05mypxildny
sheesh man
and that VR gaming would be so cool to get too ;w;
thats what i get for being poor >;v
anyway i hope you are all doing decently fine on all this bullshit that is going on, i wish you all the best, please be careful D:
lockdown extended.. another 2 weeks of this
Posted 5 years agoto be honest im not quite sure if i can make it
i wish you all too good luck if yours get extended too
i wish you all too good luck if yours get extended too
so, this is going to happen for the long run... what to d...
Posted 5 years ago
really tho... this will be in for the long run...
I'm going to run out of money, you're all going to run out of money and that will be the lightest, i wish nobody will get ill, if i lose friends it will be stabs and stabs to my overall health
i really have no idea what will happen, people is saying we're all gonna 'run out of internet'
when that happens i bet there will be chaos out there and well this is the only world end that actually looks like it will make the world end
stress and a lack of a real bed (and maybe some meds) have been everyday a worse and worse flare of fybro so i am in inmense pain every single day
and it just seems to be getting worse every time
really what should i do? im so down to think on drawing something and i try and it just looks like shit
if we run out of internet and games.. i will have to draw but i will run out of paper
and then what?
idk maybe i could start a cult XD
im absolutely not charismatic so i have that off
also have no idea what to make it about, aliens? there are tons out there. finding happyness? if i dont achieve it myself how am i gonna convince others they can do it XD
anyway i just dont know what to do
i keep wasting time trying to play random shits but even that doesnt make me feel better
i know my only money income depends on other people, and im not even giving anything vital to anyone, is just some lines in a paper, you cant eat it, you cant breathe with it, i get that i will not be selling anything else, as people will be struggling to keep themselves up and going too, i wish i could offer something more useful so i could have some more hope of getting more money
my country only gives you money if you have many children to feed or are very very old, or if you have a job, or if you have a monotributo... which i dont fit in any category, neither anyone else on my family
so it's real the money is gonna run out eventually
i just hope we can keep going, i cant go out and build a chicken coop and buy chickens because nothing is open and heck i cant even afford it
i was stupid and didnt plant the end of year seeds of food i had to plant
man im just not sure of anything anymore D:
the only sure thing i had is my boyfriend, and i cant meet him for who knows how long
what are your plans if everything goes to shit and keeps going for long?
are you being careful of washing your hands and so?
is anyone in your family ill? you think they will get better?
i dont know any kind of small talk might help D:
i wish i were a doomsday prepper XDVery sexy PWYW ych , check this out!
Posted 5 years ago
right here
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35554670/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35554670/
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its from the awesome 
Ardrich_Keybus
please go check it out! he draws so awesome!
also my commissions are still open if anyone is interested
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30999765/
Ardrich_Keybusquarantine
Posted 5 years ago
so,
im healthy for now and im happy for it, however its going to be quite rough for everyone to not get out
they think with just 2 weeks of being in house (which nobody will do, heck i saw people licking their fingers and then touching the poles in the bus here, and it was an old lady)
that these 2 weeks will make the illness dissapear and after those weeks everything will be fine
i really doubt it, a lot of people might die a lot of loved ones will be lost and it will be hard for everyone
i can also die thanks to the asthma, i've been on anxiety attacks last week a lot every night freaking out, now i kind of accepted i will get ill of this at some point and im the only one truly endangered other than my mom and dad .. and brother
so at least some of the people i love will be healthy even if they get sick
is quite hearthbreaking
but i have some time to draw now
however i've been binging shitty games like war for the overworld a lot , and ton of picross games
i will do my best to draw you all cute things to look at ... once i can stop playing games XD
i wish you all the best, please do stay safe, this is a very rough situation and i would be destroyed seeing any of you die, please be safe
just when i thought summer was gone
Posted 5 years agoa freaking heat wave weeklong and still no end in sight what the heck
i swear summer hates me
taco loves the mosquitos but i loathe them >;v
I REALLY WANT COLD BACK
AAAAHHHHH
i rather complain of freezing than melting tbh X3
i swear summer hates me
taco loves the mosquitos but i loathe them >;v
I REALLY WANT COLD BACK
AAAAHHHHH
i rather complain of freezing than melting tbh X3
looking for pokemon go friends/trades
Posted 6 years agoi recentrly inherited a phone that can actually run pokemon go, and would love friends to play with even from very far
i dondt have many pokestops so i cant send varied postal gifts but i would love to send you some when i get them!
my name there is radiantskywyrm
also, can we trade pokemons from far?
would love to get mons from other places!
Please do PM me your friend code (username too so i know i added you well!)
28 years bearing with me
Posted 6 years ago
really man, i cant think how much people has to put up to deal with me XD
im really not the best of persons or the one with most emotional stability,
but im very thankful for all of you who bear with me and keep talking me from time to time and being my friends
i know is very rough for me to try to keep a conversation up, for lack of themes, and lack of english skills, but i always love when any of you try to talk to me and i apologize for not bein the most interesting person X3
this year im going to try to focus more on traditional artwork as is the one that i truly enjoy
but this day i wont be drawing, i will be focusing in getting cuddles from boltage, and eating a lot of yummy food, and of course, feeding my tacokila, which is already spying me right now from his fishtank
thanks to all of you, really ^w^
see you all soon!
3 weeks for my birthday ish +random crap
Posted 6 years agoso i am generally very hyped at this point of the year because the 9th of feb is my birthday
but this year started so terribly , this is quite a struggle, and i kind of realize whats the point of being happy for a birthday if it just means one year closer to death
i always love the gifts as they are the only thing that cheers me up at least for a bit, but family rathers i say nobody has to bring me anything so
hm
i am not quite sure what to do tbh
i did do a shitty amazon wishlist
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share
it was cool to pretend shopping some neat things like those anti stress dinosaurs
so it was quite fun while it lasted, however you realize i just press add to wishlist on random crap that catch my attention X3
i bet if i keep checking amazon from time to time by the end of the year you will need to download a 20 gb txt or something to get all the crap i added in one place X3
also i am kind of hooked into red dead redemption 2 , if anyone has it and feels like giving a try to play it online maybe you let me know if you want to play
anyway, family has been being rough, but i keep trying to cheer myself up doing random crap
....which most of the time means binging rdr2 and feeling not useful D:
also annoying taco and feeding him randomly because he just keeps staring at me and being adorable and demanding food
there is a small chance i might go ahead and get a new kitten, since i think i had been doing a good job in keeping something alive , fed, clean and happy with my taco
i already have the name chosen and all, i just hope it all comes out fine, with having more things to look after i can sucefully avoid spending time on myself, therefore making something else happy, making me feel a bit accomplished
anyway too much random words for now
i have made a new drawing , my scanner is not really being detected by my pc anymore, so i cant really scan it, but i took a picture with my phone, its on patreon for now but if anyone is interested in looking at it before i can scan it , i can try asking borrowed a phone with a better camera and taking a better picture of it to post until i can scan it
thanks for reading me for a while, remember i am always open for tradi commissions as its the only kind of art im enjoying... but it might take me a while to get to draw so maybe is not wise to promote much for now X3
i hope you all have a great day.
but this year started so terribly , this is quite a struggle, and i kind of realize whats the point of being happy for a birthday if it just means one year closer to death
i always love the gifts as they are the only thing that cheers me up at least for a bit, but family rathers i say nobody has to bring me anything so
hm
i am not quite sure what to do tbh
i did do a shitty amazon wishlist
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....?ref_=wl_share
it was cool to pretend shopping some neat things like those anti stress dinosaurs
so it was quite fun while it lasted, however you realize i just press add to wishlist on random crap that catch my attention X3
i bet if i keep checking amazon from time to time by the end of the year you will need to download a 20 gb txt or something to get all the crap i added in one place X3
also i am kind of hooked into red dead redemption 2 , if anyone has it and feels like giving a try to play it online maybe you let me know if you want to play
anyway, family has been being rough, but i keep trying to cheer myself up doing random crap
....which most of the time means binging rdr2 and feeling not useful D:
also annoying taco and feeding him randomly because he just keeps staring at me and being adorable and demanding food
there is a small chance i might go ahead and get a new kitten, since i think i had been doing a good job in keeping something alive , fed, clean and happy with my taco
i already have the name chosen and all, i just hope it all comes out fine, with having more things to look after i can sucefully avoid spending time on myself, therefore making something else happy, making me feel a bit accomplished
anyway too much random words for now
i have made a new drawing , my scanner is not really being detected by my pc anymore, so i cant really scan it, but i took a picture with my phone, its on patreon for now but if anyone is interested in looking at it before i can scan it , i can try asking borrowed a phone with a better camera and taking a better picture of it to post until i can scan it
thanks for reading me for a while, remember i am always open for tradi commissions as its the only kind of art im enjoying... but it might take me a while to get to draw so maybe is not wise to promote much for now X3
i hope you all have a great day.
maybe i should force myself to take my time //rant //tmi//
Posted 6 years agoi feel like shit because i am really not winning money im not doing drawings im not doing shit and therefore im being useless
but i just feel so massively like shit, i went back to bad coping ways after around a year
everything is going to shit and its so hard on me and i just want to die. i cant find a way to get me out of this i just keep in a circle of depression feeling worse and worse for not earning money and being useless
i have to but i just cant
i deeply apologize for all the rants and so
i have to force myself to wait it out and just waste more lifetime being useless until my brain decides i can go back to making worthless shit i might be able to sell for a cent.
i hate this and i feel so useless
but i guess i just have to wait. very sorry for everything and for not being active, i really apologize
[OFFER] really crappy tradi drawings for PWYW
Posted 6 years agoso i am struggling a lot to be .. motivated to keep myself alive. and i am lacking MASSIVELY in creativity and i havent been posting shit
so i am making this lame journal to do some really crappy pwyw
which really never work anyway, but why not try again
you can give me any amount of money to here https://www.paypal.me/RhunenStaldrad
and comment/note me for how much you gave me (which wont really matter, is just to know you did it) and give me a ref sheet and i will draw you a headshot likely black and white or whatever bodypart shot you want
i still have these open btw
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29961113/
i have no example it will just be a doodle..
its ok if this doesnt work too.
really sorry for everyone for not posting anything
really everything is hard and i just want to sleep all day.
see ya sometime soon!
99.999% done
Posted 6 years agofinally this year is over
i realize it means nothing as it instantly starts another yet harder year
life is going quite downhill it feels
i just hope we all have the strenght to get trough another year of life
i wish you all the best
i realize it means nothing as it instantly starts another yet harder year
life is going quite downhill it feels
i just hope we all have the strenght to get trough another year of life
i wish you all the best
wow holidays are exhausting huh?
Posted 6 years ago really, i love christmas *cough*gifts*cough*
but i feel like im doing absolutely nothing, yet im very busy
i do things that dont get me money therefore i feel im being useless D:
yet i feel like i have to do them, crap like, idk , self care and getting myself trying to look pretty for X day because i have to go to X place
but im getting no revenue for that then i feel im doing actually nothing that is worth doing X3
anyway
we have new year coming D:
i dont quite enjoy it as christmas *cough*nogifts*cough*
but i hope is an alright day night
for all of you, for the people i love, and for me
this isnt new year journal! more like a small rant
and thoughts of uselessness
things are kinda rough these days arent they?
i hope we can all go trough this all fine :)
but i feel like im doing absolutely nothing, yet im very busy
i do things that dont get me money therefore i feel im being useless D:
yet i feel like i have to do them, crap like, idk , self care and getting myself trying to look pretty for X day because i have to go to X place
but im getting no revenue for that then i feel im doing actually nothing that is worth doing X3
anyway
we have new year coming D:
i dont quite enjoy it as christmas *cough*nogifts*cough*
but i hope is an alright day night
for all of you, for the people i love, and for me
this isnt new year journal! more like a small rant
and thoughts of uselessness
things are kinda rough these days arent they?
i hope we can all go trough this all fine :)
merry christmas tonight!
Posted 6 years ago
just got up, have a LONG day today, but stuff happened and it switched my mood from grim and depressed to quite alright X3!
was i feeling good or not, all i wanted to do was to wish all and each everyone of you a VERY happy christmas or whatever you celebrate!
i hope you all have tons of yummy food and have a great time!
if anyone needs to rant or vent or anything, my notes are open, i might not be able to read them today, and i might not reply because i am terrible at giving advise , but i will be happy to read you if that makes any of you feel better ^W^
again, thanks everyone for watching and supporting me, you all keep me going ^W^
thanks!!
merry christmas!!
merry christmas tonight!
Posted 6 years ago
just got up, have a LONG day today, but stuff happened and it switched my mood from grim and depressed to quite alright X3!
was i feeling good or not, all i wanted to do was to wish all and each everyone of you a VERY happy christmas or whatever you celebrate!
i hope you all have tons of yummy food and have a great time!
if anyone needs to rant or vent or anything, my notes are open, i might not be able to read them today, and i might not reply because i am terrible at giving advise , but i will be happy to read you if that makes any of you feel better ^W^
again, thanks everyone for watching and supporting me, you all keep me going ^W^
thanks!!
merry christmas!!
my country is exploding (rant)
Posted 6 years agoim genuinelly scared about whats to come, it has been barely 3 days ish since FF became president and they already fucked up relations with many places and are releasing corrupt and dangerous people from jail and so many stupid choices.. i really want to get out of here
if anyone has a job or something anywhere , letme know D:
if you had to be in a nsfw picture with one of my sonas...
Posted 6 years agoof course not counting my plaguedoc shape
who would you be interested to be with?
just curious X33
if i ever be desperate for money i should know which of my shapes to sacrifice X3are all of you dead?
Posted 6 years agonot to sound rude but... i only hear from one or two of my watchers only... no other things no other comments no other anything
am i doing something wrong?
DISCOUNTS ARE BACK!
Posted 6 years agobecause i love drawing on tradi! >w<
please do check out for getting your art cheaper!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/34063247/
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here are some examples
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/33972790/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/33239507/
how can you miss your chance to get something like this for cheaper? ^W^
feel free to promote this!
happy turkey day!! ^W^
Posted 6 years ago
i dont have much idea about what it involves but i know it means LOTS OF YUMMY FOOD
so i do hope you all have a very neat and filling day ^W^
eat some yummy things for me too >w<!!
pokemon tcg!
Posted 6 years agoso i used a bit of my free day for getting into pokemon tcg online, and now i love it X3
i always quite liked pokemon and hoarding all the cute ones
the booster packs are impossibly expensive here tho, so ... how about we trade some art for some emailed booster packs? X3 maybe it wil work X333
or even online codes X3
also i cant do battles yet because i massively suck at it .... also im a terrible loser ;w;''''
note me for anything ^w^
a free day, then back to work
Posted 6 years ago
so, i really need a small break
i will take today off and then tomorrow i will get back to work on art with my 100% ^W^
i want to thank all of you for being so patient with me being so busy lately!
you are all awesome people and i do really like all of you, even if im not too talkative i do always appreciate every fav and comment you all do to me ^W^
thankyou all again!
the con was really cool, i melted pretty hardcore due to lack of ventilation in the gym court thing , but i saw so many cool cosplays!! it makes me want to go back to sewing and make my own cosplay and hoodies and so!!
maybe someday i will!!
i hope you all are having an awesome day! <3<3<3
small reminder of my pages and instagram where i posted some pics and specially my stand pics!
https://www.instagram.com/rhunenstaldrad/ instagram mix personal mix art
https://twitter.com/RhunenStaldrad twitter mix personal mix art
https://www.facebook.com/gato.negro.nya/ facebook of crafts
https://www.facebook.com/RhunenStaldrad/ facebook of art
the day of the con
Posted 6 years ago
so is 8 am, i have to go there at 10, but anxiety made sure i cant sleep anymore, so im looking forward to a very very long day,
i am likely going to post some updates on my instagram
https://www.instagram.com/rhunenstaldrad/
https://www.instagram.com/rhunenstaldrad/
will try to take some pics that internet can see (aka, hiding my dumb face XDDD)
i hope it all goes well!!
aahahhhhhhh i already want to be there XDDDDD!
absolutely exhausted
Posted 6 years agoso lately i've been being pretty much alone at my house, doing all grown up stuff
plus im working my ass off making stock for the anime con im going on this 17
i post some updates (in spanish) on my craft page on fb
https://www.facebook.com/gato.negro.nya/
plus i've been sleeping little to nothing, and what i sleep i sleep really bad DX
health hasnt been cooperating for most time but i have some days where its alright at least X3
so i am so freaking exhausted all the time
i apologize because i cant find time to do some drawings, im having some job interviews, delivering curriculums on everywhere, and gathering cans to sell for money
i think im overworking myself a little ;w;
anyway please be patient! when the con is over i will go back to drawing as much as possible!
see you all soon!
