So, I'm not dead. YAY! But I'm finished my 3rd semester at SAIT, and I will be graduating this coming May.

Aaaand, I've also got my website up and running, if you'd like to check out my non-furry related work, feel free to visit http://www.jledinghamdesigns.ca
I try to do "regular" blog posts on there, so check 'em out!

Kay that's it for now!
Cheers,
Shadow

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I'll be making stuff for  JakeTiggy :3

Why yes, I am alive! :3
Watch me make a gift for my bestest best friend  P5yc0 c:
Commissions will be open for a few hours :3

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Wow, I haven't been active much lately.... Uhm, hey guys, I'm not dead c:

Gonna be taking in a few commissions/trades if anyone's interested :3

In exactly one week I leave to Las Vegas to get married to  mmprkiba! <3
When we return, I then start my graphic design course in University c: So much to do!

On another note, I'm currently unable to do any digital art, but traditional commissions, trades and requests are open! :D

Trying to become a Femboi certified artist on the page  femboi
Check out their amazing page for other certified artists, a chat room and info about fembois :3

Cheers,
Shadow <3

Getting married to my best friend and mate  mmprkiba this August in LAS VEGAS! :D
Gonna be taking commissions until mid July, and finish up all my trades I have on the go :3
Pictures will most likely be up on my facebook and deviantart (links are on my main page c: )

Gonna start on a new side-project soon c:

I'm already in the progress of makig a new fursuit head, but I'm also thinking of making 2 sets of Zodiac Bookmarks (Gemini, Libra, Leo, etc..)- Furry and human.
Maybe $2 each, or the set of 12 for 18... Need to know if anyone would buy them though c:

Gonna try my hand at making fursuit heads, I have everything planned out for it :D
As soon as funds permit, I'll start on it c:

Although I have yet to find where I can buy some Buckram o.o

Stolen from  mmprkiba <3

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes
02. Do you have a lot of scars? Good lord, yes -.-
03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? Mhmm
04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? I broke a girls femur and pelvis in rugby
05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? Actually, no o.o

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? Nah
07. Are you self conscious of how you look? A bit
08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? Not overly, usually only eyeliner and mascara, maybe some face stuff if I'm going out
09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? O.O no.
10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? Being beautiful on the outside iis all about feeling beautiful on the inside c:

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? 2 months
12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? I don't know
13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? Of course
14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? Taking away my mate
15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? A few things <.<

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? My body language gives me away
17. Name a time when you had to be strong. Not telling.
18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Yep, quite a bit of fighting when I was younger
19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? Pfff, story of my life until high school <.< I always ignored them
20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Far too many

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? 2
22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? Ask my mate <3
23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? *shrugs* I've gone through hell emotionally but life's had its moments
24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? I like to think so <.<
25. How old do you act? 18 with a hint of 12

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? A couple cousins, bevause they were assholes to me growing up and I haven't felt the need to talk to them.
27. If you had to choose, family or friends? Family, and the friends I have are like family
28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? Mother, my dad can be judgmental <.<
29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? Nope and nope
30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? Not as often as I'd like.

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? 5'9"
32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? Nope
33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? I'm mature when the situation calls for it, but I usually like to joke around and have fun.
34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? Scared? Nope. Not like you can do anything to stop it.
35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? Of course!

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? Real
37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? Optimistic realist.
38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? Your actions decide your fate.
39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? No o.o
40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? Just hearing my mate say I Love you <3

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? I had a baaaad bought of manic depression a few years ago, now it's just occasional twinges of sadness
42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? No physical ones c:
43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? Nope
44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? LOL no.
45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? No suicide thoughts or attempts as of late c:

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends. Panda Hat
47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? I make people laugh, mostly unintentionally
48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? I can't remember when I laughed that hard o.o
49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! The kid falling in his own pop at Bower mall and laughing my ass off with Kiba <3
50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? LOL always for talking or giggling during Psychology

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? I went for the company
52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? I got called a dumb ass a lot, but smart in Bio and Sports Med
53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? 98%
54. What was your last average? Like for the year? I think it was like 72
55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? Anything involving the human body, particularly Kinesiology c:

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? I sure am! <3
57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? My close people!
58. Is love worth it? It sure is
59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? Of course it does. It makes me wanna smack some sense into 'em
60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? When I say it to my mate I MEAN IT <333 A lot of my friends use it in a sibling sense with each other

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? I thought the sun's gravitational pull did o.o
62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? Average
63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? Yep
64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? The perfect person ie  mmprkiba <3
65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 7

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? No
67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? Nope
68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? LOL quite a few c: And there are somethings I'd just rather not picture as I type this <.<
69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? Oh fuck Yes
70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? Nice c:

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? Quite a while
72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? Honesty and understanding
73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? Yep, and paranoid <.<
74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? When I can look into their eyes
75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? Friends I try not to hold back, and family I leave my sex life out of the conversations xD

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? Keep the memory
77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? To a point, yes
78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? Optimistic reaist, and I try to be me.
79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? You're joking, right?
80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? Yep my mate is that proof :D

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? Try to figure it out myself c:
82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? Nope, I payed attention in science class <.<
83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? No, and I wouldn't particularily wan to.
84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? Confront them, then REVENGE >:)
85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? How did Stone Henge get there? o.o

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? By earning it
87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? Lie to me and go about behind my back
88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? Not if they don't deserve it
89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? Usually get swatted with a newspaper and yelled at for 2 hours <.<
90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? Kill them with kindness c:

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? Already graduated
92. When will you graduate high school/college? Already graduated high school
93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? Working, then post-secondary
94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? I hate grade school...
95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? Suspended and expelled X3

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? Of course...
97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? Yep, and Yep
98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Nope!
99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? Nope
100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? I like to think I'm strong-willed ._.

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? Not really
103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? I wear unique stuff c:
104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? I Smoke and Drink but I have lots of casual sex with my mate! :D
105. What makes you different from people your age? I don't know *shrugs*

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? My Shadow suit
107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? Lives of loved ones and I would die to protect them.
108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? My Mate! <3
109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? phone, charger and bag c:
110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? I put them at the same level.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? Happiness, and love <3 I don't need another wish.
112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? Loved ones.
113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? You have to be the change you want to see in the world
114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? *gigglesnorts* yeah, right
115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? Sure

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? Independent with social tendencies
122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? A lot?
123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? Sure c:
124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? Their personality develops based on their experiences.
125. Do you think people are generally good ? Nope

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Nope.
127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? Excuse me? O.o
128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? Excited for the adventure
129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? Sure!
130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? Yourself c:

Stolen from  yannarra

Where are you staying?
Nowhere o.o

What day are you getting there?
Saturday to Saturday xD Only a day trip

Who will you be rooming with?
Not getting one c:

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
The usual :)

Are you attending any stage or public performances?
Probably not xD

Are there any panels you might be attending?
*shrugs*

Will you be suiting?
Possibly? Most definitely will be rockin' my tail though!

Do you do free art?
Nope.

Do you do trades?
Sure c:

Do you do badges?
By commission or trade only for the time being.

Do you do commissions?
Sure do!

What is your gender?
FEMALE!

How tall are you?
5' 9"

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
Taken by  mmprkiba <33

Can I talk to you?
Sure!

Can I touch you?
Umm...... Hugs are fine, but that's as far as it goes o.o

How can I find you?
The girl with the loud, loud man LOL

Can I visit your room?
NO ROOM! sheesh <.<

Can I buy you drinks?
If you want? o.o

Can I give you stuff?
Stuff is good c:

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are good c:

Are you nice?
I like to think so :3

How long are you going?
Just for a day

Do you have an artist table?
Nope.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell my name or run up and poke me?

Where will you be most of the time during the day(s)?
Wandering about aimlessly :)

What/where will you be eating?
Food? o.o;

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure..?

Can I look in your sketchbook?
If you want c:

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Sure! :D

Can I take your picture?
Okay c:

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have a grand ol' time

Listening to: Why Do Good Girls Like Bad Guys-Falling In Reverse
Watching: Criminal Minds <3
Drinking: Ginger Ale

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[X] You have screamed at an inanimate object for "hurting you."
[X] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[X] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[X] You have run into a tree/bush.
[X] You have been called a blonde.
so far: 6

[X] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[X] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[X] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[X] You just sang them to make sure.
[X] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[X] You have choked on your own spit.
so far: 12

[X] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[X] You type with three fingers or less.
[X] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[X] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[X] You have caught yourself drooling.
so far: 17

[X] You have fallen asleep in class.
[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[X] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[X] You are often told to use your 'inside voice'.
so far: 22

[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math. (I never remember what 8 plus anything is)
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[X] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[X] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[X] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.
so far: 25

[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[X] You break a lot of things.
[X] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[X] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[X] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
so far: 29

[X] The word "um" is used frequently.
[X] You don't know what "um" means.
[X] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[X] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.
Total: 33

Now you multiply it by 3 for your score.
33 x 3= 99
And write as your journal title "I am __% Insane

Doing some character designs to auction off c:

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What is the time? 10:59PM
Where is your cell phone? Beside me
Your hair? is damp
Your father? Upstairs?
Your favorite thing? My squeaky alien I got from Con*Tact at RF last year c:
Your dream last night? None
Your favorite drink? White Russian and Paralyzer
Your dream/goal? To be Happy
The room you are in? BedRoom
Your fear? Being alone, eaten alive, clowns and spiders *shudder*
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Living normal life
Muffins? Yes please c:
One of your wish list items? I have one?
Where you grew up? on Earth MuthaLicka
The last thing you did? Draw a picture for a new friend c:
What are you wearing? Sweats and a BatMan shirt
Your TV? Ummm..... a big one? I don't fukken know!
Your pets? A bordercollie/german shepard and my alien c:
Your computer? HP G60, soon to be MacBook Pro
Your life? *shrugs* It's going?
Your mood? Content
Missing someone? My mate
Your car? Non-existant
Favorite store? Oh goodness... Murdawg, Sanctuary, Millenium, Spencer's, Hot Topic
Your summer? Isn't here yet ._.
Your favorite color(s)? Look at my fursona.
When is the last time you laughed? Last night playing Nightmare with the furries xD
Last time you cried? Friday
Three people who email me? *checks* Tumblr, DeviantArt and Starbucks o.o
Three of my favorite foods? Bacon, Burritos and Grilled Cheese
Three places I would rather be right now? in bed with my mate, in LA (none of this "snow" nonsense) and in Germany
Three people I think will respond? Don't really care
100 TRUTHS:
001. Real name? Not tellin'~
002. Nickname(s): Shadow, Toxic, Hey You!
003. Age: 18
004. Zodiac sign? Libra
005. Male or female? Female
006. Elementary? Can't remember <.< I had 3
007. Middle School? Crossing Park Junior High, Calgary, AB
008. High School? James Fowler High School, Calgary, AB
009. College? SAIT Polytechnic, Calgary, AB
010. Hair color: Right now, brown, black and an odd copper-y color o.o
011. Long or short Hair? Mid-Shoulder blade? Soooo long-ish?
012. Loud or Quiet? Fairly quiet, unless we're discussing something I'm passionate about c:
013. Sweats or Jeans? jeans
014. Phone or Camera? Both
015. Health freak? Pffffff. Yeah, right. Do you know me? Oh wait.
016. Drink or Smoke? Yes and yes c:
017. Do you have a crush on someone? I have a mate ._.
018. Eat or Drink? Isn't that necessary to live?
019. Piercings? Stretched lobes, left nostril, right side of lip.
020. Tattoos? Ankh with scarab on left foot, and Nothing is True, Everything Is Permitted on my right Ulna bone :)
021. Work at: Michaels
022. Single or relationship? Mated to my Kiba <33

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing: Ear
024. First best friend: Janakee
025. First award: High jump in Track & Field in Grade 7
026. First crush: sometime back in elementary school
027. First pet: A goldfish named Fred
030. First big birthday: Umm...my first? I dunno

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating: Nothing
050. Drinking: Monster Import
052. I'm about to: Finish this damned thing then go to bed
053. Listening to: Party Like A Millionaire - the Millionaires
054. Plans for today: Fuck all, there's only an hour left of it anyways xD
055. Waiting for: School to start up
056. Looking forward to: School and getting a real job c:
057. Loving: My mate <3

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? Fuck no
059. Want to get married? Yes
060. Careers in mind? Illustrator

WHICH IS BETTER?
068. Lips or eyes? Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms? Stomach
074. Sensitive or loud? Either or c:
075. Hook-up or relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble Maker
077. Skinny or muscular? Muscular
**Jeebus I feel shallow xD But my mate is everything on the afore mentioned list <3 **

HAVE YOU EVER:
078. Been in love? Yes
079. Cheated on someone? Nope!
080. Lost glasses/contacts? Yup, lost my glasses at a concert and lost a contact in the pool xD
081. Ran away from home? Nope
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense? Yep
083. Killed somebody? Nope
084. Broken someone's heart? Probably :D
085. Been arrested? Not yeeeeet~
087. Cried when someone died? Of course!
088. Kissed someone when not in a relationship? LOL guilty as charged

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself? Not 100%, only in a few aspects.
090. Miracles? Nope.
091. Love at first sight? Yup
092. Heaven? Nah
093. Santa Claus? Used to <.<
094. Sex on the first date? Nope
095. Kissing on the first date? Depends on how it goes :3
096. Tooth fairy? Nope

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes my mate of course
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Few people are.
099. Do you believe in God? Nope.

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Gonna be doing a trade from DA and some practice sketches c:

Doing some adult (or not) Christmas-themed commissions, full body, colored and shaded pieces cgoing for $20! :)

Let me know if you`re interested

Gonna be sending a few out to my lovely commissioners, if anyone wants one, shoot me a note with your mailing info <3

Let's start with 10 slots for now, just to see how quickly they fill up.
$5 CAD a piece. Full body line art with a simple background color of your choice. :)
Kay? Go! :D

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Worked today 6-10, won $23 on a scratch lotto ticket from my mate  mmprkiba, went out fur supper with my mate and my parents and just all around had fun! <3 My facebook wall got raped with birthday wishes and comments about bar hopping too XD

Wooo, 18 tomorrow! Aaaaaand I have to work. <.<

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Pictures of Me, and some other random furries <3

Gotta sleep, like right MEOW~ So much stress today OMG... 25 people from head office AND the president of the company came into my work for a visit/inspection...Everything had to be perfectly clean, organized and by the book. BAH! In the hour and a half it took me from leaving my house at 7 am and getting to work at 8:30 am, I had 10 cigarettes..good lord. But anyways, got like 4 hours of sleep last night and now I'm living off oreo pop tarts and a big ass can of Mountain Dew. I'm just so dead right now, I can't even bother to plug in my table to color a ref I've been working on.. <.<


On the plus side, I did manage to recover over 100 RF photos! :D I'll try my best to upload them to photbucket sometime soon. :3

Cheers,
Shadow! <3

So out of 200 photos of RF, I only managed to recover 15... There's always next year I suppose.. ><

Well fuck, I was gonna upload the photos to photobucket, but my laptop deleted the files! D:
I'm working on recovering them right now though. I'll keep y'all posted <3

Now doing 5$ sketch or line art commissions at RF! Full body pieces of course .:3

Comment here if interested :)