i just wanted to apologize for the lack of art lately, i've been really busy with quite a few things lately. my living situation has been kind of Weird since january but in september everything will be back to normal. ive also been making a pair of handpaws the past month !! so all my free time was going into that. but they're done now, and im back to having my free time dedicated to art again

i kinda had this realization that... im starting to get embarrassed of the kind of art i make? shameful, even? i don't know what happened. ive always been an open minded and enthusiastically horny person, and i found SO MUCH joy in making nsfw art. and i still do!!! i guess i kind of had a crisis about like... just *how* open i am. the anxiety walls are getting pulled up again, i went from being SUPER comfortable posting pretty much anything to hesitating over the "submit" button for an hour like when i was a teenager and posting art for the first time

making nsfw art is my actual favorite thing to do in the world, but at the same time it hurts to know that i can never show anyone what i make. i have to be very secretive about my hobbies around people in my daily life (aka coworkers and acquantences when im trying to normiemode)... i guess im having a hard time finding the pride in it? the creativity isnt clicking with me currently. i need to be resparked

i guess im humbly requesting art recommendations... any super creative furry porn art out there or even just anything that you really like style-wise.... and also if the artists following me have any advice for when this feeling comes up ;w; i know once im reminded of the beauty of it i'll be ready to draw again ....

tldr; i have SO MANY big ideas and so many projects i want to do but my mindset regarding making nsfw art is sooooo fucked rn and i just need art recommendations and advice to help me get back in the Artist mindset ;w; thank u for reading if u got this far ily

i have a simple ych open on my alt account with unlimited slots! have a look here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59040351/ (cw for nsfw feral art, of course)

it'll be done in a more polished art style of course, i can do any species any body type any gender this is just a vague placeholder for the pose

note me, comment on the post, or contact me on another site (twt, bsky, discord, ect) if interested!!

ive been on bluesky since last year, but since its really popping off now i figure i'll link my profile <3 i need to tidy up my account and make it look pretty still but im def posting my art there from now on!!

i hope it gets bigger than twt because ive had gripes with that app since i started using it in 2018 and im happy to see it go lmao

https://bsky.app/profile/shadyhouse.bsky.social

its finally actually happening, i have my ticket and airbnb booked and everything :3 is anyone else gonna be there? lets hang out!

i'm 26 now isnt that fucking wild!!!!!!!!!! here i am entering my late 20s o_o

if you follow my twitter or tumblr you probably know this already, but i started a part time job a couple weeks ago! and it's been going smoother than i thought it would (ive had really bad luck with jobs in the past couple years, but this is the first job ive had since 2019 where i liked what i was doing AND got along with my coworkers !!!! the pay isnt fantastic or anything but i dont care much because everything else is great)

so that's why art has been a little slower than usual! but now that i'm in the groove of things, i'm back on my typical schedule :3 my weekly goal is to get at least two commissions sketched out, and at least one finished (depending on complexity) my part time job is 4 days a week, with 3 days to work on stuff in my queue! on the days that i work i like to doodle after work to decompress, so when i post personal art it's from that

i appreciate the patience, thank you everyone for sticking around and supporting me!! 🐾 more art is on the way for sure! i'm hoping to open commissions again once i get through most of what's in my queue, and i'll be opening for around 4 slots at a time so i dont get too flooded with work. i kinda had no choice these past few months, but now that i've figured out a good schedule for myself and im in the groove of a set routine everything is gonna start to come together real soon ^_^

my roommate just opened up for ko-fi comms! i wanted to give her a little shoutout :) she has a really stellar art style, if you're looking for more realistic/painterly styled animal art you won't be disappointed!

if you're not already following her, you really should!  jekaldog

trade offer: you get cool art, we get our bills paid! :'D

so... i know this isnt really the place to ask for advice like this, but im really stumped and i dont know what to do or what my best course of action is at this point. i know some of my followers/mutuals are full time artists (or at least in a similar boat) so maybe someone can help me out??

as you may know, ive been relying solely on commissions for my income for the past month and a half. i got screwed over by a job opportunity that ended up terminating me on my first day back in the beginning of april. ive been trying to make this work but... i'm only one person! i can only work on so much art at one time before i start getting burnt out. im also very unmedicated thanks to the adderall shortage so it's been a lot harder for me than it should be...

ive been considering getting a part time job so i have a bit more of a more reliable income, but im also scared that if i do that i'll lose all motivation to work on art... this is what ive been working towards for years now!! i want to be able to live off of my art and be comfortable. right now i'm just barely staying afloat, and it's been stressing me out wayyyy too much. im a lot happier overall, but i've also been trapped in my house on most days (i was working towards saving up for a car but........ unemployment is agony :') )

also, if i do get a job, i was thinking of doing it through a temp agency. there is nothing that feels worse to me than having to sell my soul for a specific company. ive been having a hard time just HOLDING a job to begin with because of adhd/mental illness/overall stubbornness, and trying to apply for jobs when you're visibly trans and don't have your name/gender legally changed is a FUCKING nightmare if im being honest. id rather just do something that i dont have to pretend to care so much about, something with a deadline in sight and i can just move on to the next job/project/ect, thats the kind of thing that gets me by the best ive noticed.

tl;dr im trying to figure out if its worth it to get a part time job while i build up my art career, or if i should put all my eggs in one basket with this. i need a plan b for when i have slow weeks, but part of me knows that if i just put more effort into art i could really make it work. unfortunately i have bills to pay and debts/owed money... maybe i could just get a job until my debts are paid? that way all i have to worry about is bills? i can handle my normal bills with commissions, it's just the debt and lack of an emergency fund thats really stressing me out x_x

full time artists, how do you do it?? is it really one of those things that you have to live at home/with a partner w/ double income to pull off?? is it possible for someone like me who is just one person trying to survive while doing what i love?? i really need some insight about this...

ALSO don't be alarmed, i will still be working on commissions through all of this. no matter what, i will be working on my art because that is forever and always my main priority in my life!!

im officially in the part of my queue that starts the comms i took on at the start of april!! thank you everyone for the patience, most of them are sketches so i should be getting through them pretty quickly :3 if youve commissioned me in april be on the lookout for dms from me with your wip in the coming weeks! and as a reminder i'm open indefinitely so if you're interested feel free to note me and we'll discuss something

i dont know how i missed it but i reached 400 watchers here recently :D it seriously still feels crazy that so many people are interested in seeing what i make, thank you all so much for the support 💕💕

I was supposed to start a new job today but they terminated me 6 hours into my first training shift because of my computer specs. so... i'm going to be opening for comms again!

i'm only going to be taking sketch comms and simple illustration comms (the top two options on this sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50043703/) so i can get through my queue faster

i have a few slots already taken that i need to work on first, so please keep in mind that the turnaround time for these will be 2-3 months.

feel free to comment here, note me, or dm my twitter @/SHADYH0USE (the 'o' is a zero) to discuss with me further :)

or if you'd like to simply donate to me, you can ask for my paypal or venmo

i hate to use journals as a vent space because really it's a personal thing i should be trying to fix on my own but idk. sometimes you need to ask for help and that's okay, there's nothing wrong with needing some validation or advice

i'm just in a really low spot mentally, along with going through the iconic identity crisis you get at 25 apparently, but i'm kinda starting to feel shameful about the stuff i like to make, i've never felt this so deeply before now and i dont know what to do or how to cope with it

i really enjoy drawing porn! and furries! and i'm proud of the art that i make and it makes me happy! but i'm afraid that i'm not "living up" to my "full potential"... like, i hate feeling like i need to hide what i do from people. i don't ever show people my art unless i know for CERTAIN they're going to be cool about it. especially being queer i feel like this is another case of internalized shit that i'm terrified to confront...

my internal monologue when i think about art lately is just... i COULD be making personal projects and profound stories and really meaningful things that make a lot of people feel seen. but instead i'm drawing porn. and i like it that way? why do i like drawing porn? is there something wrong with me? i'm definitely not the only person in the world who feels this way, but does anyone else have the same battle with themselves over this stuff? how do i stop caring what other people think?? i'm trying SOOO DESPERATELY to stop caring about what other people think!!!!!

it's really hard to feel like im being "creative" as a porn artist. the internet isn't very kind to artists like me either. we're just seen as weird shut-in perverts or porn addicts. not to get too deep here or anything, but i started drawing porn because i'm hypersexual but i'm Definitely on the ace/aro spectrum somewhere (and neurodivergent so. sensory issues) so having sex irl is actually Too Much for me a lot of the time which is something i've had to figure out on my own as i got older, i just needed a release. it's my escapism, my fantasies come to life. i feel like that alone should make me feel like a true artist, i'm soothing my tortured soul that craves intimacy but can't have it. but there isn't much positivity out there for porn artists, regardless of Why they make what they make, seeing what people have to say about porn artists a lot of the time makes me feel like im making the situation Worse, even if it's a healthy coping mechanism

sometimes i try to rock it, i'm a weirdo and i know that! i love being a weirdo furry porn artist who happily draws weird shit! there's nothing you can do to stop me from being that way! but sometimes... it's hard for me to keep up that attitude. i know i shouldnt be sitting here questioning *why* something makes me happy when i previously haven't had issues with it, but it's really getting to me as i start to explore my artistic side a bit more and wonder why i've been dealt this hand

i dont really know what i'm asking here exactly. to the other porn artists following me, do you ever feel the same or similar? how do you cope with these feelings? do you have another mindset entirely? will this line of thinking ever end?? i'm sick of it

thanks for reading if you did, i feel bad about venting on here, i try not to get too personal (for some... reason... i dont know why) but i hope this isnt too much to take in. and just to clarify i only feel this way about MYSELF, i look up to so many other porn artists online and i wish i could have the confidence that they have with their art. it's literally something that i aspire to do full-time and i'd be happy to do so. but i have my own demons i need to tame before i can really start a "career" doing this :( i just don't know where to start and i'd love to know about some proper coping mechanisms to get over this train of thought

i have a week off until i start my new job so i wanted to spend a day uploading all my stuff on e6. i'm only a lurker right now, i've never uploaded any of my art there but i do have some reuploads from others on the site. what would you say is good to know for a beginner like me? honestly that tagging system is overwhelming as hell but i figure if i miss something another user will help me out and add it themselves

im trying to get back in the swing of drawing stuff regularly but commissions are too stressful atm 😅

if anyone wants to do a trade with me hmu! nothing too advanced or complicated please, i'm looking to draw just single characters :) i would like art of either Roux or Toby bear in exchange!

also i'd like to trade with people who are at least near my own skill level in art so it's a fair tradeoff for both of us, i hope that's understandable haha dont be afraid to ask though!! more than likely i'll be down to trade ^-^

so I made a new NSFW twitter account, im pretty sure my old one got shadowbanned or muted by the algorithm or something because i was getting very very very minimal engagement on my posts no matter what i did.

I decided to just start from scratch because i was uncomfortable using my old account anyways, and i wanted a fresh start. ive been resenting the art journey i took in the past couple years and i want to go back to my "roots" of furry art!!!!

you can follow me at https://twitter.com/SHADYH0USE

it's still a work in progress, i'm reuploading my art incrementally so i can make the algorithm happy with me again lol

but yeah if you want to stay updated on my art, this is the way to go!!! i plan in posting sketches and wips more often so >:)

you read the title. i just dont wanna be associated w that fandom anymore but i know a lot of people like the stuff ive made so im not going to delete it, just moving it outta the way. just a heads up!

hiiii im 22 now!! and im also sick .... wonderful gift from my body

im gonna celebrate by being in a nyquil trance all day instead of going to work, im excited 😴

im 21 now!! wahoo >:)