Quocorya and I were there until around 11pm, wandering and exploring with a fox, a feline, and a pine marten. We met a whole host of familiar furs we hadn't seen in years! It was great to reconnect after so long--times really changed since anyone last saw us. We'll be showing up again today, too.

If you're there, I hope we get to meet and say hello, at least!

While there's much left to improve upon, the mere fact that I've reignited my desire to draw is greater to me than being proficient (at this moment in time)! I have no style or form--it just ends up being a pretty-looking mess of lines, lines, and more lines. Given the reason for resuming the effort, there will be furry art and humanoid work--which may actually go up somewhere else that accepts such things readily.

It's part of a webcomic idea I planned for more than two years, or so. All mental imagery and histories. I merely hope to present an intriguing perspective and storyline. I can't foresee it gaining much attention--not saying I will not be trying for it... :D

Things are moving along well and swiftly. Looking forward to the coming future years, furiends. :)

...to bake a pretty cake... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ryo.....9_I&fmt=16

September 2013 changed the game. I relocated to an apartment with my house-mate turned flat-mate, changed positions at work several times (promotions, that is...), and have begun to shift the events of the past in a different direction. Most of these past few experiences have been in my favor. I continue to improve over last year and the years before that...

The path is still unclear and uncertain, but, all will become clear in good time.

...and everything is fine--if not better than before. ^-^ I have continued to improve myself, this year, making great inner strides toward recognizing inefficient thought-patterns while recognizing stagnation in others. While I made promises to perform certain things last year... many did not come to pass. I will no longer endeavor--but, instead, actively correct this. It will also help cure some of the unhappiness coming from this feeling of accomplishing nothing remarkable--yet...

I'll persevere. My mind continues to assemble an idea of mine into reality... giving me time to refine it for true implementation. ^-^

A simple 'Merry Christmas' to all. ^-^

And I discovered how I could find him, but... I've decided: Revenge isn't worth pursuing. It's time to accept what happened as a fist from the Universe to my face and wake up. No, my ex is blameless (though he was the individual who found him for us). As much as I wish to bring harm to the perpetrator of last year's ruckus, I'm forcing myself to trudge away from that bloodthirsty path. Incase you're wondering: The fur in question gave me and my then-mate laced goods at FC 2011 (of which we were unaware). After we came back from California, they had the unusual effect of driving me temporarily insane toward the end of January on into February, where its effect culminated. The resulting chaos and stresses did more than just temporarily break me inside and drive away my mate...

Universe: I leave the meting out of justice in your magnificent hands. There's nothing I can do to make what happened to me go away, but, I know it's only a matter of time. ...and, Universe: Don't get me wrong. Giving up my desire for vengeance was a crossroads I spent an entire day thinking about.

I apologize for offending others who think reality shouldn't interfere with this furry community, but, after he glibly declared FC 2011 to be a "good times" event, blithely unaware of what his poisoned product did to me and my ex, the wolf in me snarled...

There's no believing how awesome things have suddenly started turning out for me! At the rate of progress and change that I'm going at, I'll have a new, modern vehicle to drive sooner--rather than later--and probably a promotion due sometime this year or early next! I'm driving myself as far forward, and at a faster pace, than I have before. If I'm going to redeem myself through taking this simple job, I'm going to take it and run like hell with it.

The store I work at has come to rely on me so much, they tend to command me to do as much of everything as possible. Maybe I'm perceiving it as such, but, whenever I'm around, my crew members know I'm typically the best operations supporter available. I offer my crew substantial efficiency benefits just because of my proactive behaviors. Things move smoother and easier along--and it's giving me the chance to learn Spanish with a plethora of native speakers! My father once spoke flawless Spanish, and so shall I.

I keep my Twitter and Facebook accounts updated a bit more often than this journal, but, I think I'll present my ambitions and other ideas here, more often, because I consider some of you in my crowd to be excellent advisors and motivators (primarily). Future updates may include a little more about what all I've been up to for the last couple months since my furiends last saw this wolf.

I'll explain in a later update, sometime. As of now, I need to consider getting fed and, in a few hours: To bed! Or maybe, I'll just go to sleep now and eat after I take my house-mate to work in two hours... yeah*yawn*... zzz... zzz... *tail twitch*

I needed him, but, now, when he needs me most: I'm never home. Work is all I live for, now. I used to think I would always be able to make him feel happy, but, all I can think about today is getting back all the time I lost, just so I can devote more attention to him... in the future...

...like I always dreamed of, in the past...

I miss what we used to be, when you used to smile so freely at me... I vow to do better. I just need to remember...

Sure, I have some rough spots along the way, and once in a while someone has a small issue with me, but, they end up being resolved amicably. All things considered, my world was destroyed and reborn, and I'm finally back on track again... sort'a. I'm making good progress at work. Hoping I keep getting good hours and earning enough to pay for last year's FC trip (having one half of your support withdrawn really left a dent in my recovery). When it looks safe to do so, I'm gonna search for a modern car (my 1973 Chevrolet Nova is still running, but, it needs some work to make it safe to drive). I'll be able to drive my friend to work in my own vehicle (as opposed to my older brother's), and vastly expand my ability to visit with other furs and possibly attend whatever meets still exist (just to catch up with everyfur).

Hoping all is well with everyone else! Pay Day is two days away! :D

I'm back in the workforce. Yesterday, I showed up to go through a job interview fifteen minutes early. The job is low-end--fast-food. Yes, it's nothing more glamorous than serving food to hungry people, but, it is a paycheck with guaranteed part-time hours--and the potential for more. I plan to prove I can rebuild myself from the ruins. Having a means to pay off the bills I've picked up over the year will help me bring about an immeasurable amount of relief and change. Once I get things settled with my bills, I'll start finding ways to re-invest my earnings into things which will return more on those investments. I always wanted to study how to make money from money. :D

My orientation finishes today, at 4:30pm. I get my uniform, but need to buy slip resistant shoes and shave down to a mustache... sadly. I took a few pictures of myself, which may never see the light of day, to remember my old look by. I look better with the 'chin-strap', but, if I must in order to earn cash, than I have no problem with it. Money solves more than keeping facial hair does. d:

Will continue to offer updates to the world as things happen! Hoping for the best. ^-^

A coronal mass ejection is already enveloping the Earth as we speak (according to www.spaceweather.com and www.swpc.noaa.gov). At 4:30pm AZT, I wander on down to have a chat with a potential employer, and... without having to say it, but saying it anyway: I hope I get it. A significant amount of change has taken place in my life, and this would be the first step toward correcting everything that went awry this year. From the good to the bad, let today be the day I make it happen. ^-^

When the one came back, I knew our interactions would be this way. We wouldn't have time for many pleasantries, and few meaningful interactions. Still, it is the best one can get when you mean nothing much else to the other person. I mean, there may yet be something, somewhere, but, it will never be the same. We are just living side by side, keeping the other person company until the 'next best moment' nears. That's perfectly fine by me!

In a few months, I'll have a choice of whether I go or stay. I can't expect that to mean anything to anyone in particular. :D Arizona just does not hold the same magic it used to, years ago. East Coast sounds a bit more exciting.

Things are suddenly back the way they were before May, 2011. It's a little odd... but, for the sake of my goals and all that I stand for, it's necessary. Like putting together a fractured puzzle, and nearly getting it right. :D I'm rebuilding the life I lost, and plan on getting things back together again: Job, car, friends. I'm a different kind of wolf! You'll see...

On another note: I've begun producing very simple musical creations. They're all practice so far, but, they're better than the nothing I was putting out earlier! :D I'll upload my tunes as I complete them, and showcase my talent to the world! Told'ja I'd try my hand at music making, sometime. ^.^

I used to write a lot, back in my school days. Discovering furs did nothing to prevent me from eventually trying to write stories centered around them. One of the things I have wanted and felt the need to do, however, is write something to get certain issues off my mind. Things which hit close to home, recently. I'm going to experiment with music--the muse which often helps me form a storyline based on the content of music. If I produced my own, then it'd be even better (and I plan on trying to produce music, too, in the near future). First, however, comes some experimental writing. I'm no gifted wordsmith yet, but, given time: I'll begin studying proper writing technique.

Speaking of studies: For those of you seeking free education, I'd suggest taking a look at Khan Academy. Help yourself learn new things and get somewhere in life!

Anyway... Been a long time since I provided a new journal entry for the world to see. I suffered through a tremendous upset in my life, and am back to 'square one'. It has not been something one could classify as 'easy'. However, I refuse to give in and give up. My will to fight has come back thanks, owed to someone who will remain nameless... I plan to provide some greater details as it concerns the events which transpired in past months, but, not too much. I don't see a need to turn this into a dramatic circus. I simply want to stop thinking about it, make amends and resolve grievances, find the positives from having suffered through it, and track forward.

Until next time. *woofs*

What an event! Had to be the best and most freeing event I have ever been to in years! Quocorya and I got to meet a greater deal of furs out there who were both friendly and helpful! We were even able to enjoy a large variety of new experiences, though some were more memorable and others less worth remembering than others...

Due to the generosity of my vulpine friend, and an old offer made to me long ago, I am reporting this from an old laptop--my first useful, portable computer I have ever owned! :D It's amazingly freeing! Many pictures were taken, all while we visited the Great Mall, toured San Francisco, shopped our tails off, and unfortunately lost expensive stuff along the way (new purchases, eh, we were really tired--I'm not sure how they got lost), all while meeting countless new people. Just as we were able to meet so many new furs, we also bumped into several others we know and sometimes see from down here in Arizona. We shared a couple of good times together, I was glad to see you all. ^.^

I won't guarantee the posting of pictures anytime soon (usually too busy or working, if not lazy about it). What made the event so enjoyable was a new suit, picked out courtesy of the fine eyes of Akalalis and Quocorya, which made the event a truly... different adventure. Dressed in business formal attire, buzzed haircut, tie--eh, too many people looked like me. I was like Agent Smith. d: It really brought out a side of me I'd never really explored. In all, it was fun, enjoyable, but... we'll see what happens next year.

A wolf should never find time to rest on their laurels, but this one--myself--I've had far too much time to do that. It's been such a long time since I centered myself and looked through my own eyes again--meaning, I lost myself to the ebb and flow.

...to be with you is easy...
I made mistakes, that much I'm ready to admit. How many I have made, how many people have been witness to: My god, what a fool I have been... but now? No more of these silly games. I was destined to be a man born by the sword, and by it I will stand: All cutting edge and no quarter; a protector to his wielder.

...you're good for me...
My father once told me the meaning of my name was, "Son of My Right Hand". I lament his departure from this world inside, striving instead to show it the strength I have gained through my force of will alone (through my cutting edge). Could it be that the hell I went through was more like a forge, to temper my desires? I sometimes wonder...

...so good for me...
I have always been a dreamer, born in the Piscean month in the Western Zodiac, and the Year of the Dog in the Eastern. My world is apart from others, and I find myself wishing to protect those who exist within its influence from threats generated by our own. Afterall, my father would often tell me I would be his bodyguard when I matured, and losing him has only left this protector--this "son" of one's right hand--without a wielder.

"I know you're good for me."
We will all come to a point when, someday, the choice to transform ourselves is offered. I have been given the temper to my edge, to shape myself through the eyes of the world, but it was my failure to recognize this that led me back into the fiery forge. I am imperfect, but, I--through will, alone--resolve to accept transformation, to change into the protector I was meant to become. I realize that many of the actions I have taken to save those closest to me, has been my duty since birth, to ensure they are protected. Instead of succumbing to this world's purity-depraving onslaught, I will manifest my strength through potency.

And it's just a beginning, written in a symbolic creed, likened to the tracks and marks left by a wolf on his passage through a territory of words. Bear with me as I become what I had meant to be. Now, back to your regularly scheduled mundanity. Move along now, y'hear!

Quocorya and I will be among the many party furs present at this year's Mesa Fur Den Halloween party. We look forward to seeing our furiends and meeting new furs, of course. Perhaps this event will be more engaging than the last? Regardless, I expect it will be a worthy night, since the both of us have Saturday and Sunday off. ^-^

See you all there!

Was a fine party. Quocorya & I are all well and in good health. For any of you who were concerned last night: Don't be. ^-^ He's up and awake right now, playing on our PS3. If anything, we're more interested in doing something than recuperating.

Until next time!

Though my first job has been a joy to have, I've been considering a second one. This city has work opportunities all over, but finding who is willing to hire people is the whole effort (that I can't imagine other cities aren't suffering from, either). The need for another stems from the needs of my car, which needs interior, minor exterior, and several important component repairs I can't pay for with a part-time job paycheck. If I could find a reliable, well-paying job elsewhere, I wouldn't consider this thought...

Still, it's a thought, not a plan yet. I'd lose my freedom to enjoy a great deal, if I pursue this course. It has other potential to make friction in my life that I don't want. At present, I'm concentrating on improving my position and stability with the job I have, and biding my time.

Significant events have been numerous this year. Personally, I can say the same for my own life. A new car, a new mate, a new experience out here in Arizona. In comparison to my years in California, I have made more progress out here than I had before I was picked up by my older bro. There are so many things happening, I don't tend to keep my journals updated anymore. Infact, this is the only one that I've really decided reaches more friends, anyway. :D

So, as I can, I'll try to keep everyone who's interested informed.

Continuing forward with the effort to get the Nova street-worthy (and legal), I've taken it in to a shop my mechanic/housemate used to work at. It's receiving a used, but clean 'Edelbrock Performer' intake to replace the stock, ultra-heavy intake it came with. They all say there should be an increase in power coming from this...

It's also coming out to be ~$260 so far, which--for as much work as they've put into that car (several days)--is a really amazing price, so far.

I'm gonna buy'em lunch and make them feel appreciated for all this. Also, this may not be the only journal entry I post from here on out. I figure it's not such a bad thing to be chattier around here.

Tonight, I'm looking farther ahead into the future than I have before. Earlier today, the question of, "Where did the checks I ordered months ago end up at?" netted me an unexpected windfall. Through all the conversational blather and wait, the bank employee I was speaking with informed me of a pre-approved credit card offer from them. Figuring I could use a new line to help improve my score, I hesitantly accepted the hard inquiry and waited about thirty seconds before I heard words which would make some people mad.

I have plans to fulfill! Less detail than usual to follow in the coming days, as usual.

I've been enjoying my time as a team member on the flow-side of things. We're the ones responsible for restocking the store's shelves with new product and preparing the store to open for the morning crowds. It's a part-time position, which means we don't get much more than eighty total hours between two weeks time (40 hours a week). Regardless, my motto stands: "This paycheck is better than the nothing I was earning before I got the job."

There is such security and control over one's destiny in holding a job. I aim to take advantage of the situation by striving to consume power in and over the store. Ideally, I want to gain as much experience performing as much as I can. The reason? I want to be promoted to something higher than a peon--get to staff-level, and then work my way into far greater levels of achievement on the side. It's gonna take more than a few shiny pennies...

THe Era of Dreadlord Sharek is coming. Consider yourselves informed. :3
Now go jerk off to some furry porn or something. >:(

The store Quocorya works at was hiring. Quickly seizing the opportunity, I applied and sold my abilities to'em like the Main Street whores I see walking the sidewalks at night during warm evenings. They bought it all. Infact, they wanted to have me hired and working the day following, by the time I was through with the interview. Of course: It's retail. I know what retail stores want in an employee, so it was a cinch to tell'em what they wanted to hear (not that I was lying to'em, either).

However, I won't be able to drive my Nova to work. Yet. The brakes are spongy and incapable of stopping the vehicle were I to try traveling at highway speeds. My housemate/mechanic is willing to offer his automotive familiarity to the repair efforts, but it's been two weeks. Pulled the car into the carport and left it there until we get this done.

So: Infuration #1: Job Search, is truly solved. Now, I better get some sleep before I go to work tired.