For the past couple of years, my friend Ryan and his team have been working on an adorable open world collectathon game called FLY GUYS, where you play as the adorable owl Fly Guy (or Fly Girl) as you go around and fly from island to island in search of eggs that got scattered about in a storm! The game features incredibly cute characters and many different islands to explore, as well as lots of fun missions to tackle and lots of collectibles to gather!

If this seems like a game that you would enjoy playing then feel free to try out the demo over on Steam! https://store.steampowered.com/app/.....2040/FLY_GUYS/

If the game is up your alley and you would like to help with the game's development, then please conspider supporting the FLY GUYS team over on Kickstarter! https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sgame/fly-guys

I've been seeing my friend and his team work very hard on developing this game, so it'd mean a lot to me and the team if you guys gave your support for this game! There's only 14 days left to support the game, and the team is just a little over halfway with their goal, so please do consider supporting FLY GUYS! There's lots of neat rewards you can get for supporting the game as well, so do check out the Kickstarter link above!

Thank you for your time! Sheepy out! <3

Decided to make a Bluesky cuz Twitter is becoming even more unbearable than it already was https://bsky.app/profile/shayleaf22.bsky.social

I've also been streaming a lot on Twitch lately! Playing lots of different games and talking lots about fat and hyper stuff! Recently been playing Cult of the Lamb for spooky month! https://www.twitch.tv/snowballthesheep

The sheep is now 25! Ꮚ^ꈊ^Ꮚ

I wanna apologize to folks who have been wating for me to upload stuff, I've just been so lazy about doing it as of late. However, since I've been slowly weaning myself away from Twitter, I decided to try uploading stuff here again for the sake of prosperity. I'm not gonna do a massive upload dump, but instead imma steadily upload things in due time. I already uploaded a reference sheet of my human sona that I commissioned a while ago, and imma follow that up with some more human art and some other choice pics here and there!

I've also started streaming on Twitch again now that I have a better internet connection, so im gonna be making journals about that when I go live! Feel free to shoot me a follow over there if you're interested! https://www.twitch.tv/snowballthesheep

Hey yall! No, I'm not dead, I've just been really bad at uploading stuff here cuz I'm lazy lol

Anyways, my buddy Chasey over at  CWS is holding various Halloween/Day of the Dead comm sales! You can check them out at the links below!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53807739/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53807809/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53807880/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53807926/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53812660/

I'm 24 now!

My friend is currently holding two different commission specials, which you can check out right here

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48108606/

And here!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48108648/

Go and get yourself some thiccs ^^

I completely forgot to mention, but imma be headed off to Colorado for a week for vacaction! So if I don't respond on Discord or Notes, then I probably don't have signal. See yall later!

I know I don't post here often, but thought I'd let yall know that I'm going camping over the weekend! See yall Sunday evening!

I... haven't been posting here at all for several months, but thank you! Gosh dengit, I really gotta post here more often. I've been working on stuff, ive just been uploading on Twitter so much more cuz its so much easier @w@ (Speaking of, follow me there if you want to! https://twitter.com/Shayleaf22?s=09)

I've got a massive stockpile of both my own artwork and stuff I've commissioned over the past year, so hopefully I can get around to posting some of that later on! And pardon if I flood anyone's feed while doing so ;w;

But wow, 300 is a whole lot more than I viewer expected to get at any point! And im pretty happy about that! Thank you all again!

I'm never going to amount to anything
I'm never going to get anywhere in life
I'm a waste of space and resources
I'm not supposed to be in this world, yet here I am
I have no purpose in life
Thank my siblings for making that so well known to me today
Gotta love them ❤

I'm back earlier than I said I would be, I guess...

I'm going to be logging off any and all social sites for the rest of the year, and possibly a week afterwards. I have too many emotions and things that I have to set straight, as they've been getting out of hand. My jealousy from seeing gift art given to people I know and from people I know for others has been getting to me immensely. I know people are free to draw stuff for whatever and whomever they choose to, but when I see gifts getting exchanged amongst my friends left and right and gifts from people that I wish I could interact with for my friends, it all makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong and that im unwanted, like I'm just sitting in a cold, damp corner meanwhile everyone else is in a giant hot tub with enough space to accommodate new people except myself. This feeling started to become a lot more intense as my birthday rolled around and I only got one drawing from a friend as a gift, meanwhile said friend got so many more drawings, many of which even popped up on my feed here, leaving me with a sour taste in my mouth.

I know im coming off as incredibly selfish and ungrateful, but thats the problem I have with trying to talk about jealousy in any shape or form: I sound like an ungrateful brat who just wants more and more. I just wish people would draw me stuff, without the need for a special occasion like my birthday to do so. I dont know what it is I can do to get people more interested in me, I just feel lost, and I feel like I need to be alone for a while to sort things out.

And with that, ill be signing off for the last time of the year. I feel terrible writing this on Christmas day, a day about giving and thankfulness, but I can't keep this bottled up any longer.

By the time you all read this, I'll have logged off

Till next year

-Snowball

Been a while since I did one of these so go ahead and ask me stuff you wanna know about me or any of my characters!

https://curiouscat.qa/Shayleaf22

totally not posting this journal to remove the vent journals off my front page either

I've caused a ruckus, ive caused people to worry, ive upset those who i care for the most with my most recent actions. Ive tried to shut these urges down, but they keep coming back. It's in my blood, and its not going away.

I must continue to create, not just for the sake of fame, but for the sake of my friends.

I'd be worse off i just stopped creating right here and now while I still hold potential. I have so much work to do before my skills get refined to professional levels. I cant control it, the urge to create art flows strongly within me, and to deny it qould be a great disservice to those that do care: my friends.

Fame will always be a big part as to why i make art, but that is achieved through baby steps. Sropping now means ill never reach that goal, I must continue on and hone my work to appeal to a greater audience. Everyone has to start somewhere, and i just so happen to be a very slow starter.

It might not happen soon, it might not happen ever, but i shouldn't forget about those that are dearest to me; my true fans.

I'm sorry for acting so irrationally, for being so immature and blind to what graces I have already. I was stupid to think that no one cared, but all of this showed me otherwise. I'm sorry for doubting myself so badly recently. I see now that I shouldn't give up so easily.

I won't let these years of practice go to waste. I shall continue creating and posting my own work. Fame is my goal, but its a distant one. Appealing and making my friends happy is what matters most, and is the more important goal.

Thank you, everyone, for your kind words and support...

I'm an easily envious bastard, that should be no surprise. Especially after that journal I made yesterday. The reason why I'm so impacted by the attention that art gets is due to the fact that i want to be capable of making a living off my work. I want to publicly open up for commissions of any kind and I want people who I can fall back on when things get rough. But after seeing how well a former friend of mine I mentioned in the previous journal is doing, sometbing in me snapped. Just seeing how they managed to go from mere double digit followers to almost 1,000 in just a matter of months, meanwhilve ive been trying my damnest to get my name out there for over five years now... it hurts. I've seennit happen time and time again where new artists come to the scene, only to get bombarded with followers right off the bat and only continue to grow steadilybas time goes on, meanwhile im stuck in a perpetual plateau no matter how hard i try appealing to my audience. Whether it be making art for myself, art for friends, or just trying to stay on top of trends, my work just gets washed away, making me feel pointless in the process. Ive been practicing and honing in on my art skills for years, only to get surpassed by a friend with no previous experience in making art in a matter of months. It leaves a bitter taste in my mouth and makes my heart ache. The form of art they make is something I had planned on trying to master for a long while now, only for them to take it up and surpass me in each and every way I can imagine. The attention they got was supposed to be mine. Of the people i hung out with, I was supposed to learn that program. If only SFM was a paid program...

Now you see why I feel so defeated? My drive to make stuff has come to a complete halt because of all this. I've tried everything I can think of to get my name out therw, only to always fall flat. This is why ive given up. This is why i can't move on. This is why im hopeless. You've all see the monster inside of me. I know jealousy is something that shouldn't get in my way, but I cant help it. I crave attention because it helps me keep going. Seeing myself get included in stuff, seeing people draw stuff for me, seeing people ask me for help, it drives me to go forward.

I really am a selfish, greedy bitch, you can all see that now. Taking myself out of the content community would be doing everyone a favor. I dont mean to sound ungrateful, I really do appreciate those that enjoy my work and who tried to make me feel better in the comments of the last journal, but my mind wants more than just those people. I want to be known, to be included, to have people say "Hey, thats Snowball's work!" As it gets shared around in forums or servers and the like.

Its been only a day and my urges to draw and write are still there. I'm hoping over time those urges go away to just leave all this creativity nonsense. I have no place being here, as you can all see now.

As title of the journal suggests, I might just stop posting content here, on servers, on twitter, just anywhere, really. Just gonna stop making things. There are far better content creators out there, and me putting in my best efforts into every picture that I do and seeing it not get any attention just really hurts me. No matter how hard I try, my work just goes unnoticed and people flock for other pieces/artists. I've always tried to keep my mediums varied because I have so many interests, but ive come to realize that im just a speck in any of these communities and never will become anything more. This is further back up that a previous friend of mine took up using SFM and Gmod because of me, and now they're exponentially more popular than i could ever dream of being, leaving me in the dust and unable to catch up. My dream: stolen by a friend who had no prior experience in making art. After that. I've realized that im useless in just any sort of medium.

Drawing? So many more better artists out there.
SFM? So much more talent out there than with my mediocre stuff.
Pixel art? Thousands of people out there who can do better
3d modeling? I can't even create a simple donut, let alone rig something that can be usable.
Game streams? Who's going to want to listen to some rando play old games no one has heard of or has interest in?
Writing stories? Other can pump out book length stories in the time it takes me to finish a single page.

I'm just... tired of going unnoticed. I put my best efforts into everything and still nothing. The community would be better off without my guff. I'm not going to make stuff anymore if no one is going to acknowledge the stuff I make. I want an audience. I want fans. I want people who look up to me. I want to be included...

I know this all very selfish of me, but this isnwhat I've strived for since the beginning. I've always wanted to make it big, to prove people who put me down and told me I wouldn't amount to anything wrong, but it turns out they were right. I'm just a speck, a crumb, a pest. Im nothing important. If I dissappear from the creation scene, no one would care. And for those who are about to say, "Just create stuff for yourself" please don't. Thats basically what I've been doing all this time and im sick of it going under the radar. Whether it be for trends, for myself, or for others, no one pays attention to me...

So until further notice, im done making stuff. Whatever stuff that I've showed that unfinished will remain that way. I'm tired of going unnoticed. I'm tired of getting surpassed. I'm tired of having my dreams stolen. I'm just... tired of it all...

And with that, im going into "just adding stuff into my favorites" mode.

Hey everyone, been a while since I wrote one of these things, but I felt the need to do so. Long story short: my brother and quite possibly my mother both have been infected with the ongoing COVID-19 thats been spreading.

Short story long: my brother got his test results Saturday and he came up positive, and has been cooped up in his room since then to mitigate the risk of infecting everyone else. My mom took her test on Sunday, but has yet to receive her results back, though she has been displaying a few of the symptoms, mainly loss of taste. I'm doing fine myself and so is my father, but just as of today we're really starting to isolate from each other to really prevent ourselves from getting sick. So now Im all cooped up downstairs in my basement room while we hope for things to clear up on their own. We're all wearing masks at any given moment, washing our hands whenever we get the chance, and no really keeping our distance from ourselves. No one has been hospitalized yet and I hope it stays that way.

That being said, with everything thats going on, I've been debating on whether I should open commissions or do some kind of donation drive. Im really unsure as I dont know if anyone would be interested. If any of those sound like a good idea then let me know and i'll think of something up.

On a more positive note, I still have a lot of stuff that I need to upload, so keep your eyes out for that sort of stuff later on through the week. Just more commissions I got from others and crappy doodles of mine, along with some other Source FilmMaker stuff.

Well, thats all I have to say for now. Thank you for those that read all the way to the end and gave their feedback. I really appreciate the help.

I've been here, just... lurking, really.

No real reason as to why I've disappeared, I've just ve really lazy to upload anything, really. I don't like uploading stuff from my PC cuz I rarely have the thing on and I get easily distracted by other things when uploading stuff from my phone, so uhh yeah. I have been posting stuff on Twitter every now and then so give me a follow there if you wanna see some periodical stuff? https://twitter.com/Shayleaf22?s=09

I'll try to upload more stuff again here though, I have been drawing in my disappearance, though not a whole lot. With my ceramics class still going on even during this pandemic thing going on (I'm safe, we're just doing all our projects from home instead) I've been low on drawing energy/motivation. I have ideas, but not the energy to execute them, really.

Going back to my PC, I've been steadily getting into working with Source Filmmaker for another type of medium! It really only works when it wants to since I don't have a powerful enough computer, sometimes freezing entirely after just booting up the program, but on the days it does decide to work i make sure I pump out a good 2-3 pictures/posters, so I'll make sure to post a few examples of my SFM work pretty soon. Its nothing groundbreaking, but I at least want to be able to create short animation with the program at some point, and there's still so much I have to learn about the program, but its been a fun journey thus far!

Well, I don't have much else to say, just thought I'd make this journal to let yall know I'm fine. Work and ceramics has been keeping me busy, but I plan on coming back real soon! Hope everyone is staying safe during these tough times, and always do your best to look at the bright side of any situation!

Got some spare time at work, so I'll be accepting questions here and on Curious Cat and answering them when i get the chance!

https://curiouscat.me/Shayleaf22

So, as the journal suggests, I have decided to enable the Shinies donation system! Seems like a pretty neat and secure donation system from what I've read, so I decided to open it up! If you wanna donate a smaller amount however, I also have a Ko-Fi page as well, right here https://ko-fi.com/shayleaf22! Donations of any kind are appreciated~

In other news, I'm very sorry for the lack of content here. College has been keeping me busy and I've just been very lazy to upload anything I draw. Thankfully though, I'm on summer vacation now! As of late I've really been pumping out drawings more consistently and I hope to finally get back into uploading more of my stuff and commissions that I've gathered over my absence.

Well, that just about wraps things up. Oh, right, that Sizing up Shayleaf comic. Umm, sadly with college really taking up my time, I really fell behind on the comic pages and drawing these pages by hand over and over again with little variation was really getting tedious to me, so consider that series cancelled. Sorry folks, but I do intend on keeping Shayleaf at his current state for the rest of the year as compensation!

Okay, now that was the final news. That just about does it for me here, I'll probably upload a few things tonight if I have time, and if I dont then I'll definitely get to uploading works new and old tomorrow. See yall later!

I recently went ahead and made a Ko-fi page, for those that wanna support me with small amounts of money. Thibk of it more like a tip jar I guess, if you wanna give me money for all the weird things I draw.

Ko-fi page here-> https://ko-fi.com/shayleaf22

Since the end of February is almost here, I set up the poll for what part of Shayleaf is gonna be inflated up for the next page of the comic! The poll can be found in the tweet below!

https://twitter.com/Shayleaf22/stat.....877575168?s=19

Whatever gets the most votes out of these options will be inflated in the next page while still maintaining the inflated head~ Happy voting!

So, another year has gone by, huh? Gotta say, a lot of stuff has happened that year. I found out I was transgender, had to let go of a longtime friend for being a real asshat as they began to turn into a flat out typical popufur, and I can say that I've made some big improvements in my art! Oh, and I made a whole lot of new characters so theres that too xD.

On another note, remember when I said that I had a whole bunch of stuff I wanted to post? Well, imma get to that tonight, I got lazy before so everything I'll post tonight will be stuff from the previous year. Look forward to that!

As per every new year, I've come up with a few resolutions for myself to keep:

-Start streaming video games over on Twitch
-Learn how to do little animation, preferably pixel animations
-Start using Twitter more often
-Buy myself some more dresses and such to satisfy my urge to crossdress
-Gain confidence to talk to people that I look up to for inspiration and possibly make friends with them
-And watch what I eat for the sake of my health, as it has started to become a bit of concern to me.

Hope everyone has a blessed year, and remember to keep your head held up high through the thick and thin of life. And thanks to all the people that have stuck with me all through the year!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful Christmas, or whatever it may be that you celebrate today!

As the journal states, I'll also be posting some artwork later on in the day! Both of stuff that I've draw, as well as stuff that I've gotten over the last few months such as commissions, gifts, and adopted characters!

And on a final note, as today is Tuesday, feel free to ask me stuff and I'll be sure to respond when I get the chance! And it doesnt just have to be me you're asking questions to, but any of my current characters that I have posted in my gallery as well! I eagerly await your questions~ Ꮚ^ꈊ^Ꮚ