Yeah its me again putting my self back on the map of the world, Sorry for keeping you guys in the dark for so long im just trying to get my life back in shape so i kinda dropped off the world for a good long time, but im back still kicking and breathing. Just wanna post this journal out to let everyone know im still around. Hope to hear from all my old friends soon, and sorry for keeping you guys in the dark.

X Fang C

MY surgery is over and im in recovery right now just glad this day is almost over i'll give you guys details later when im able too

Well i managed to expedite my surgery date to tmr on teh 21st so i can get through it faster, im going to be offline and inactive for a day or two depending on how long it takes and for me to recover. wish me luck

i know i have been off the grip from time to time for good reasons though, i needed time out from the fandom to deal with life BS and stuff like finding a job and getting out of this house. That being said in Early February im going for lung surgery due to the fact of an infection that i had no idea of having, i just thought i had a bad cough but having it for a long time and nearly passing out from the coughing i finally got it checked and im going into surgery soon which is already scaring me to shit. so thats pretty much it i got on my mind just trying to stay sane as much as possible before February comes around.

Okay this game is great for coming out but bad for me im logging so many hours on this game its not even funny I need help lol

Yup i busted my knee pretty good today on my desk and this was my bad knee that can be easily broken, so yeah i was lounging at my desk and went to stand up pretty fast and smashed it hard against the hard wood desk so right now im fine just limping alot, i just need to wear a brace for a few weeks to see if its badly damaged or not. wish me better guys life is getting crappier each day -hugs you all-

I just cant i applied to over 20 places in my town and surrounding areas for jobs and got the same, Sorry some one with a better app beat ya....how how can that be fucking possible especially when i applied for burger king and MC D's.....i feel like i just wanna fucking cry i just cant fucking win....i should just fucking give up....its no worth the stress and emotional rampage im getting right now, just to find one fucking job....-sniffs-

So yeah ignore my last journal about me having a temp phone, that phone aint working either so im stuck without a fuckign cell phone....i fucking hate my life not one shread of good thing happening to me at all

Im off to Boston for my tennis tournament at Harvard university this weekend wish me luck everyone kinda nervous going into this tourney

alot of my friends are wondering if im still active and alive and yes i am just trying to get my life back in order ever since my last journal post i decided to you know take some time off from the fandom again so far things havent changed still unemployed trying my best to get out of the house to hang out friends but most of them are in CT and i have very lil friends down here so yeah...ims till surviving just after reading some of the comments of myt last journal post not going to lie i cried reading what you guys responded and thats pretty much what i gotta keep in mind that i have ppl that care for me and want me to do good in life, and i pretty much wanna say thank you all for looking out for me in this difficult time im going through but least i have you guys to help me through it...and in other news no i wont be going to AC2014 i had friends asking me about this and i cant im still broke and tried everything butim hoping to be their next year..and oh yeah i got a new phone to replace my other one cause my old phone i dropped cracked the screen so my family got me a new one but it didnt save all my contacts if you have my number text me your name so i can save your number and for ppl that what my number note me and i'll send it to ya...and i think thats it, im trying to be more active on FA but no promises and if anyone can drag me out of the house that would be great it will get me out of the basement...so yeah hope to see you guys in the near future

that's the question I keep asking myself everyday while im pretty much living in my basement 24/7 bearly seeing my friends anymore cause they're busy with there jobs and I keep hearing them and there success and im just sitting down in this hole nearly in tears, getting no replies from jobs....no good news for my future....last week I nearly ended it cause I just finally had it...so I keep asking myself this question everday is my life worth living anymore?......

No matter where i look for a job all im getting is the words "experience needed" and "Management" i swear no matter where i look i can find a simple grunt work job and im already on my year in a half unemployment and i cant get my unemployment benefits so im fucked on cash, that means no driver license no car, no life.....im pretty much scraping he bottom the barrel here and nearly hit rock bottom again. If there is anyone ANYONE that can help locate a job or help me get out of this town i live in and more into a job enriched area please let me know, ive been just gfetting by from old birthday, christmas card money, Selling my guitar and AMP and about to sell my fursuit if need be...so if anyone can help me get a job please let me know im about to loose my damn mind

Yup just got the call didnt get the job cause of better fucking applicants so fuck you life

This waiting around waiting for that one important call to see if I have job or not, is killing me to the point im going crazy, all my emotion are running wild, thinking of the good things that I did in the past that can nail the job easily but then the bad shit starts flooding my brain and brining me down hard....im trying to stay positive but I just want to have this answer soon to put my mind at ease right now cause im just sitting around the house staring near a phone and every time it rings im praying its the call im waiting for...if anyone can do anything or give me ideas to help me calm down please let me know cause I pretty much tried everything...

Yup i got an interview for a job in so long so yeah im really excited, and the best part is for those who heard i got fired from my previous job last year at the airport well a diffrent company that does the same thing and my friend from the last company is no manager at this new company at the airport that does the same thing as my last job is going to give me a interview and a shot of redeeming my old job back. fingers cross guys and hope i get my old job back

well its that time of year again im heading to my basketball tournaments for the weekend, i'll pics up through out the day and im bringing my fursuit along so its going to be a fun weekened. wish me luck

yes yes i know its been a long time since i was somewhat active on FA but im back now just needed to take a break for the fandom to get my life straighten out so far meh its as good as i'll get it to be. so yeah im not dead or anything i'll try to be more active on FA so yeah catch ya guys later

that is all

oyyyyy as soon we were getting rid of the snow we get more much more, i dont mind snow and winter just i hate to be the one that cleans it all up oy its going to be a long day when i wake up

im fucking done with everything im half a heartbeat away from shooting myself right now, im starting to hate my life, family im just about to fucking loose it big time now what away to start off that new fucking years today

finally got a new phone i got a moto x for my birthday last week and yes i have all of my previous numbers and have my same number

I should have posted this journal sooner but heres the deal when i was at furfright my phone got vodka spilled on it it still works i just cant use the phone function anymore cause i can bearly hear anyone on the other in and ppl have a hard time hearing me so im reduced to texting now so unless its really important then call my phone i'll find away to make the phone work but if its not important please text me or note me on FA. idk when im going to get a replacement phone so yeah hope i can get one soon.

im fucking done with life, family, my bull shit human friends, im done with everything , cant find a fucking job in my state, my family is pissing me off to know end to the point i might do something fucking stupid, and my human friends pretty much just told me to fuck off from the group so fuck it im done its over im might be dropping off the radar idk what to do anymore can anyone please help me get out of this house before i end up doing something stupid and help me get my life back on track cause my family aint going to help neither my human friends...please anyone help me get out of here....

Well i just got ghost and been ramping it up in multiplayer and extinction and decided to see if i can get a clan back together so if you wanna join the shadow wolf clan message me on XBL at FangClawson thats my gamer tag and send a request message to join the clan. if you going to join the clan please have a headset i cant urge people enough to have a headset. see ya on the frontlines

~FangClawson

Like the journal says im going to be taking a week or few weeks off just to try to get my life and shit back together. and thats it cya guys later hopefully