Here we are again.

How have you been? Well, I hope.

How am I? I'm glad you asked. That's thoughtful and kind of you. You didn't ask? That's alright. I understand. You read the question, and in your inner voice, it was asked clearly enough. Is that cruel?

Nevermind all that. I'm doing alright.

It has been nearly three years since I posted Let the end mark the beginning. Isn't that wild?

I should say that I've made no progress at all in those reflections. Instead, I got the degree, started another one, rolled down several life hills, and fell into industry to pay medical bills.

I'll go back to the academics in time. That's where the interesting problems live.

Anyway, a year or so after that long journal and the following mental exercises and reviews, I started therapy properly for the first time in over a decade. It's been very helpful. I can't recommend it enough to others. Please get help. Help is good for you - like water, but for your sanity. Don't think you need it? I waited too long to allow myself to believe it was necessary. There's cost associated with that. Save yourself the cost.

Much like she who keeps my heart and mind in check, I may soon start to participate here again.

Music? I've written some since then.
Pictures? I've drawn nothing of note, but I've ordered a tablet. When it gets here, I'll see about learning to use one again.
Writing? I haven't shared writing here before now, but it's tempting.

We'll see how it goes.

I'm back again. Whether it's for the moment or for many is as of yet unwritten.

I write to understand.
Yet as I begin to try,
the brush shakes in my hand,
and the ink begins to dry.
While clarity remains,
My mind prepares to fight.
So study I my stains:
to understand, I'll write.

There comes a time in the lives of many that an attachment both deep and profound is severed by the scythe of the collector. It is grueling. Wave after wave of fresh agony is sparked and spurred on by a myriad of unexpected and otherwise benign stimuli. A picture of someone smiling, or a kind remark made by passersby beget a fresh gash in the soul, and the eyes bleed their saline to vent the cortisol spike for which one would undoubtedly have been ill prepared.

"He's gone."

These two words have more power than I know how to express. Should I regret typing them? Should I regret them in other contexts? If I should be in a room at a common meeting place and get asked for the whereabouts of a friend of mine, should I regret using those words in reply? No, but I do. To say them, to hear them, or to think them is an invitation to revisit the grave and the recognition of finality.

To acknowledge that finality is to remember mortality's biting edge. Yet, it was never my death I feared. I could die at any moment, but it wouldn't hurt me. It would hurt others. Similarly, the death of others is the thing I've learned to fear. It's reasonable. Anyone that's humored the darker side of thinking for any length of time knows that to hurt someone, you get stronger, longer lasting results by doing so indirectly. Physical pain can be tolerated. Psychological pain can be eternal if it goes untreated by the rare few medical professionals of the world that actually understand parts of it. Psychological pain induced by the psychological suffering of those closest to us is particularly virulent.

Shouldn't it be a relief, then, to know that the suffering of that attachment is ended by death? It should be. Yet, my memories torment me. You see, they are rarely available to me, and their absence on the edge of accessibility is torture. I can almost remember moments throughout my life with him. I can almost remember parts of conversations, looks, expressions, goals, conversations, stories, ambitions, successes, failures, fights, reconciliations, but not one of them dares manifest fully save for when I know the words:

"He's gone."

Then, and only then it seems, I can see his face. I can hear his laugh. I can know that my promises to him were unfulfilled on his deathbed, but that they still have by the skin of their teeth the possibility, however small, of being realized. Should I show his grave the signs that I've achieved what it is that I've achieved? It would be symbolic, but it would show him nothing. I would have the gratification of presenting to a stone a piece of paper, perhaps several, to the sound of a gentle breeze brushing through trees at best. How could he hope to see it? Weren't the words true?

"He's gone."

Absent is the wrong word. He left the world on his own terms by the signature left in ink on the page for the hundredth time demanding that the doctors finally let him die alongside the signature of his wife left behind in a request not to be resuscitated. For months, he has sold off the difficult to sell possessions. For months, he has filed the paperwork. His widow had nothing to do but find a place for his clothes, and begin to adjust to a life without him for he had done the rest before he gave himself to death.

"He's gone."

She must know worse pain than mine. She is alone, removed from all of her family in a wilderness of strange faces, surrounded by the deaths of all of her friends and the one she held closest. Her faith and a dream demand her keep her eyes on her life and the lives of those that remain. Her faith tells her that there will be a reunion. Her faith tells her that there's life after death. Her faith tells her that death is only the end of the suffering of the world for the faithful, and she has no room in her mind for doubt for his work was of the faith and has been for over seven of the eight decades he lived. She spent the same studying her scriptures and lessons

"He's gone."

I don't share her faith. He asked us all in the words he left behind to reflect on it. Here is the beginning of my reflection. I started young in the hands of the church. I was raised in part by the many, many services and mid-week meetings that being involved in every conceivable youth initiative permitted. I've been on mission trips, summer retreats, camps, vacation bible schools, church-related sports trips, and I became a leader in most of those areas at different points in my life. I can't count the bible studies. I can't count the conversations with teachers, guides, mentors, coaches, or pastors. At one point, I knew my faith very, very well.

There's a small problem. If biblical truth is truth verbatim, unchanged by the new testament in that no letter of the law was changed in the coming of the messiah, then why was I created? I am bisexual. I am related to a woman that leads spiritual discourse and teachings. I am born in a world of mixed fabrics. I am dissatisfied with platitudes and apologetics for the fallacies and inconsistencies that they fail to entirely address. I am medically compromised in a number of ways. I was raised on foods Leviticus forbids. Acts 10 tells us that the unclean was cleansed through conversion and crucifixion, but the words of the crucified in Matthew 5:17-20 tells me that the letters of Leviticus are unchanged for the work is not done, or should we overlook the work done in and by the church following crucifixion as detailed in the remainder of the new testament as being post-completion? How could we ask? He's gone.

Would you ask me to pray on it, and to meditate? I've tried. How should I distinguish the "Voice of God" from hallucination? How should I distinguish vision from delusion? I'm told that I will simply know. I guess the fact that I don't means that every instance in memory is not legitimate. Or is that my skepticism? How should I know the difference between skepticism and the devil's tongue? It's simple. I can't. Oh, but there is scripture: 1 John 4:1-6. Perhaps I should turn again to scripture, the scripture written in a hundred ways by a hundred hands over hundreds of years, curated by councils, governments, and denominations - divided deeply by philosophical interpretations and weighing of evidences. Is the Calvanist interpretation better than the Arminian? Should we pick and choose pieces to become Evangelists? It depends on which mostly-consistent subset of the scripture you wish to choose, but the divisions exist because the whole of the work contains enough room to be interpreted so wildly differently.

It shouldn't be taken literally. 2 Peter 1:20-21 tells us that prophets' interpretations of their prophecies are independent of their truth. Allegories and metaphors abound throughout the work, hinting at morals and ideals which set up some semblance of nuanced morality that eats itself alive in edge cases, but what would I know of such things? Hebrews 5:11-6:12 make abundantly clear the consequences of being immersed and falling away, do they not? I was told again and again that there was but one correct interpretation of the whole. 2 Peter chapter 2 is the warning. Jude 1:3-16 describes again the pain and vitriol faced by false teachers, relates those that have fallen from the path to irrational animals, and grumbling malcontents. Perhaps I am. 2 Timothy 2:16 - "But avoid irreverent babble, for it will lead people into more and more ungodliness," yet here I am, irreverent and babbling. The faithful have faith. What is it that my babbling destroys?

It is in 2 Timothy chapter 3 that more is found of worth to this reflection: Verse 16 declares even my babbling capable of profit for those pursuing the scriptures referenced in spite of my vivid resemblance to the first 9 verses of the same chapter. Titus 2 comes again, and I must know: What is 'sound' from the perspective of theologians? From the perspective of logicians, it is a type of deductive argument. When an argument should be valid and have all true premises, it is sound. It is valid if the conclusion is true under the assumption that all of the premises are as well. What are the premises of a sound Christian doctrine? How have we shown their validity? How have we shown each premise is true? These questions are bold and difficult to answer. One premise is that there exists a being called God with all of the properties ascribed to him by the text. His existence is totally unknowable by description, but partially knowable by experience. His existence is by its very nature unfalsifiable.

Hume gives us remarkable tools to use in examining the reasoning of others. Among them is his fork, separating clearly relations of ideas from matters of fact. The existence of a thing is a matter of fact by class, and should be independently determinable from relations of ideas through experience. This seems at first perfectly amicable to the existence of a god that can be partially knowable by experience, but what of those that only have the hearsay of their peers? How can they know the ways of Christianity are true in light of a world of religions and ideologies that vastly differ from it claiming likewise that they are true? How can they know that one denomination of Christianity is true, and how can they know which one is? If it is by experience, why are so many led to different conclusions by their experience?

Hebrews 2:1-4 begins to attempt an answer by starting with the observations of others. The testaments are the works of the witnesses to wonders and miracles, as are the books of other faiths likewise. Why this one?

Reflecting on the scripture will take more time than I have. There are projects coming due - large ones that make or break my degree - that determine the validity of my next steps in academia or the work force - that decide the course of my life on Earth, whether or not there is one after it. There once was a child with my name that grew up believing for 12 or 13 years the truths taught to him by his grandparents and parents, by his peers and teachers, and by his church. Like my grandfather: He is gone.

I write to understand.
Yet as I begin to try,
the brush shakes in my hand,
and the ink begins to dry.
While clarity remains,
My mind prepares to fight.
So study I my stains:
to understand, I'll write.

My wife elected to fill one of these out.

- Name: Shenzao
- Single or taken: Taken
- Gender: Irrelevant.
- Birthday: When the cold of winter meets the darkest nights, and death encroaches on the plants, I am born.
- Sign: Scorpio
- Hair color: Black, with white streaks.
- Eye color: Hazel
- Height: Not short.
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Bisexual

____________________________________________________________________________
S P E C I F I C S
____________________________________________________________________________

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: The kind that requires a shower.
- What are you listening to right now?: The conversation between my wife and her best friend.
- Who is the last person that called you?: A telemarketer shilling refinancing and consolidation of loans.
- How many buddies are online right now?: Enough of them.

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F A V O U R I T E S
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- Animal: Wolves.
- Colour: Black.
- Drink: Water, and the blood of my enemies.
- Element: Water and shadow.
- Food: Sushi.
- Game: Go. Not CS Go, the ancient chinese board game. 囲碁
- Movie: [Redacted]
- Subjects in school: Mathematics
- T.V.: [Redacted]

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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath?: [Redacted]
- Smoked?: Nope.
- Bungee jumped?: [Redacted]
- Made yourself throw up?: Nope
- Skinny dipped?: [Redacted]
- Ever been in love?: Absolutely.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: That seems inefficient. It would be better to avoid trouble in the first place.
- Pictured your crush naked?: もちろん。
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Many times.
- Cried when someone died?: It is human.
- Lied: Never.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Married her, actually.
- Used someone?: Many times, for many reasons, and more often than not in mutually beneficial ways.
- Done something you regret?: Such is life.

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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: The kind made of various, well-mixed fabrics. scandelous
- Desktop picture: Messy
- CD in player: NSP, I think. I can't be certain.
- DVD in player: Last one was probably the last Hobbit movie. Can't be sure.

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L A S T | P E R S O N
____________________________________________________________________________

- You touched: My wife.
- Hugged: My.. wife.
- You kissed: The girl I married - aka my wife.
- You IMed: A group chat containing my wife.
- Talk to online: We're not getting anywhere with this, are we?
- You sexed it up with: Bruno Mars - - My fucking wife, dingus.

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A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________

- Understanding?: How do you define understanding?
- Open-minded?: I will hear any argument, and weigh it for what it's worth.
- Arrogant?: No. Of course not. I'm beyond the gods, I don't have time to be arrogant.
- Insecure?: Hmmm...
- Random?: Nothing is random.
- Hungry?: Is a black hole hungry? ...Can black holes feel? ...Do shifts in super symmetries on the event horizons caused by interactions with incoming or outgoing particles have similar enough patterns to the firing of neurons in human brains? ...I wonder how we could model that...
- Smart?: No, I'm not. I know smart people, but I'm not smart myself. I know enough to know that I know nothing.
- Moody?: I'd need moods for that.
- Organized?: [Redacted]
- Shy?: Not in the slightest.
- Difficult?: Of course.
- Bored easily?: Depends, what am I doing?
- Entertained easily?: ...
- Obsessed?: Absolutely.
- Lazy?: Of course.
- Angry?: Rarely.
- Happy?: It is more frequent the more time I spend with my wife.
- Hyper?: That is an unusual event.
- Trusting?: [Redacted]

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R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________

- In the morning: “I go back to sleep, or I'm just going to sleep” - himouto Yeah, me too.
- Love is: a vacuous concept contextually constrained and abundantly applied.
- I dream about:
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Their speech patterns or their body language, whichever applies first.
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W H O
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- Makes you laugh the most: himouto
- Makes you smile: himouto
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: What does this mean?
_____________________________
D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: I sit on the internet all night.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: I've contemplated that existence deeply. I doubt that we would be the same.
- Wish you were younger?: I would like to be perpetually 21.
- Cry because someone said something to you?: I've been told that family members have died. I've been told that relationships are ending. I've been told that friends long missing and presumed dead still lived. These were emotionally charged moments, and crying is to be expected. It can be strange how powerful words and context can be.

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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: [Redacted]
- Of Cd's: [Redacted]
- Of scars on my body: More than I'd like.
- Of bones I've broken: A couple.
- Of car accident you've had: More than one, unrelated to the above.


Thank you,  himouto. This was fun.

1. What is your favorite subject of study? (science, literature, math, history, etc.)

Mathematics.

2. What is your favorite season?

Winter or Autumn. Hard to decide. Both are cold and symbolic of decay.

3. Who is your biggest inspiration?

I'll get back to you.

4. What's your favorite video game? (or board game!)

FUCKING GO! Listen guys, every person reading this needs to take 5 minutes and play through this tutorial. It'll open your goddamn eyes. (If the link is broken, go here: https://online-go.com/learn-to-play-go/ )
5. What time of "day" do you prefer: dawn or dusk?

Dusk

6. What is your opinion of "white knights"? (People who kiss a popular entertainer/artist's ass and go after people, rabidly, for anything that somehow disagrees with or affects the entertainer/artist)

The grand majority need to first be taught logic before attempting to defend anything with words. Further, they have little authority over the materials they defend, so they're too limited to be an effective defensive or offensive unit for an artist of their choice.

7. How did you come up with your fursona or main Character?

That's a long story.

I didn't even really start off as a furry. I started as a lich. Later, in SecondLife, someone who would come to be known as a sister of mine gave me a furry avatar for the first time. I wore it everywhere. It was a blonde puppy. I forget the creator. Shortly thereafter, I forged a large group of people, and within the role-plays of that group, I slowly migrated from a lich to a void-ling, and from a blonde puppy to a racoon. The racoon shifted to a fox. The fox shifted to a jackal. The jackal shifted to a wolf. The jackal and wolf blended together with the fox. The mixture became a bat, and then the ears blended backwards into the 'sona. Always, it was shadow-black following the puppy. The eyes were symbolic amalgamations of characters who, at the time, were very real to me. They stuck, and are now the sole defining characteristic of my character. They're a reflection of who I am, and who I was. To some extent, I am that very amalgamation, and since I persist forward, so too do they in representing me in the future.

I am Shenzao.

8. What animal do you think represents you the most? (This can be different from your sona, as I've seen)

I don't think on it too much. I always see Shenzao when I think of myself. The species varies. The eyes remain.

9. Do you enjoy debating big (or controversial) topics with other people?

Hell yeah.

10. How has the internet affected you and the way you live your life?

It's consumed absolutely all of it. The internet raised me to some extent. I live here, now.

...many, many things.


This is mostly a placeholder journal to remove the massive one that was here from the face of my page. It's ridiculous to scroll down.

I never thought I'd do one of these.

1) Are you really ready for 125 questions?
We shall see.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
The one with Joy? I wouldn't call it a mistake, but a learning experience.

3) Do you believe in God?
Sometimes.

4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
She who holds my heart.

5) Do you regret it?
No xD

6) Have you ever been depressed?
It's a thing, but it's been a good long while, I think.

7) Have a best friend?
Evseihjo.

8) Are you a boy or girl?
I - - Well, lemme look. One pants check later: I believe I am a boy.

9) What is your relationship status?
I am thoroughly and happily mated.

10) How do you want to die?
Ooh.. You ask a tough question. Realistically, I'd rather simply not. However, if I must, I'd rather it be in a way that satisfies my interests at the time.

11) What did you last eat?
Microwaved McDonald's.

12) Played any sports?
Yeah, but I'd rather avoid doing so again.

13) Do you have a phone?
Of course.

14) When was your last physical fight?
High School.

15) Do you have an attitude?
When I need it.

17) What is your real name?
Chandlor.

19) Are you gonna get high later?
Need I remind anyone reading this page that I prefer to remain absolutely in control of my mental faculties?

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Probably. I'm not thinkin' on it too hard, though.

21) Do you miss someone?
There is no one for me to miss when everyone I wish to speak to is but an IM away.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
I twirl the SHIT out of it.

23) Do you tan a lot?
What is this tanning? Does it involve sunlight? If so, I'd rather avoid it.

24) Have any pets?
Indeed.

25) How exactly are you feeling?
Yes.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Both of those things have happened.

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Nope.

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
It's extremely doubtful at this point. I'm with someone else, and I've moved on from them.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
Nah.

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
It would be an interesting way to observe things, so probably.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
I don't believe so, but I could be wrong.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
What are plans? How do I get them?

33) Do you want to have kids?
Perhaps one day, but not now.

34) Ever kissed somebody that name starts with an M?
I have.

35) Do you type fast?
I suppose so.

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
Netaiveg.

37) Want any more?
I'm certainly considering a few options.

38) Can you spell well?
With exception to the intentional misspelling of negative in question 36, I generally don't have an issue with spelling.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Rarely, but most I have contact with.

40) What are you craving right now?
I'm not.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
Yep. The beach will never be the same without fire.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Many times.

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
Not that I have memory of.

45) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
It's very likely.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
I have, yes. I've also been the secret of someone else. However, I've never, nor will I ever, commit such actions myself. I outright refuse.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I have.

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
I don't see why not.

50) What should you be doing?
I have no obligations at this time to do much of anything.

51) What's irritating you right now?
Something's irritating me?

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
To tears, yes. I refer you to my current relationship. I've never felt so strongly for someone before.

53) Does somebody love you?
Yes. I am aware of it, and it pleases me greatly.

54) What is your favorite color?
To some, I'd say black. To those who maintain that black is a luminosity level, I argue that all colors are defined with hue, saturation, and luminosity. Hell, using the RGB model, I can still get black. It's a color because it can be represented as one. NOW! When it comes to those who say "Well, the color spectrum of light doesn't have black," I generally respond "What color is a material that doesn't reflect anything within that spectrum?" The answer is black! xD

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yep.

57) Do you have trust issues?
That question must be asked on a very individual basis.

59) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
Not that I can recall.

60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Fairly.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
She who holds my heart.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Depends entirely on the person, the circumstances, and what's going through my mind at the time.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
I was raised to forgive, and forget. Unfortunately, I can't control the forgetting bit. I forget somethings unforgiven, and I remember things that I forgave long ago.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
Mayhaps.

67) What was your childhood nickname?
ChanLord, or C. It really depended strongly on whether or not you knew how to spell my name, or if you bothered to waste time with nicknames on me in the first place. x3

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Probably. I don't recall the event, though.

69) Do you think you're a good person?
I disregard the notion of good and evil, and simply accept that I am a person.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Every effect has a cause, and some things were caused to create an effect. Yes, everything happens for a reason.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Conversation with she who holds my heart.

72) Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Who?
One way or another, I will and won't.

73) What is bothering you?
I'm bothered?

74) Have you ever been out of town?
I've been out of country.

75) Do you play the Wii?
On occasion.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
Nope.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
Yep.

78) Do you know your father's b-day?
Yep.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope. The shadows and I are rather close.

80) Is cheating ever okay?
To me? No. I'm not a fan. It's a culmination of dishonesty and betrayal.

81) Are you mean?
I have that capacity.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
No.

83) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal?
Is it?

84) Do you believe in true love?
Certainly.

85) Are you proud of the person you've become?
I am proud of who I am, and I suspect that can be said of any version of me at any time.

88) Do you like the outside?
No. It hates me.

89) Are you currently bored?
I'm focusing on answering these questions, and listening to the love of my life do the same in my ear. No, I'm not bored.

90) Do you wanna get married?
Y-Yeah. That I do.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Only one person has that ability, and she uses it sparingly.

92) Are you hungry?
I am male. When am I not?

93) Do you have a bank account?
Yes.

94) What makes you happy?
She who holds my heart.

95) Would you change your name?
It's possible, but Hailee likes it well enough.

96) Ever been to Alaska?
Not yet.

98) Do you watch the news?
On occasion.

99) What' s your zodiac sign?
Scorpio.

100) Do you like Subway?
Eeyup.

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
We're already dating. I hope she likes me. xD

103) Do you talk like your friends?
That is an unstoppable phenomenon.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
I have.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
Yep.

107) Who is the last guy you talked to?
My brother, most probably.

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
What they do to their lungs is purely up to them, however I must request it not be done around me. My lungs will seize, and I will die. Asthma's a bitch.

109) Do you go to church?
Not at this time.

110) What's going on between you and your best friend?
We are currently very happily mated, and we're doing a questionnaire.

111)Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
She who holds my heart.

112) Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
It has not been a thing to regret, for letting someone go generally is done with cause. In any relationship, my goal is nigh constantly to prevent it from breaking down.

113) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
I like the idea, but I've yet to follow through with that.

114) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, pants, or shorts?
Jeans.

115) You're a Sharpie marker, what color are you?
Black.

116) Where do you go if you are butt naked and locked out of your house?
The nearest phone, perhaps?

117) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
What is this thing you call "shower"? It sounds painful.

118) Have you ever said you'd never love again?
No.

119) Do you want to please everyone?
No.

120) Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
I haven't listened to music today.

121) Has someone ever made you a promise & broken it?
Yep.

122) Are you alone?
I am never alone.

123) Do you have any older siblings?
They're dead. Do they count?

124) Fave film you seen lately?
OH GOD That Geek movie from Disney. Geek Charming, or Treasure Planet, I'm not sure. xDD

125) How many months until your birthday?
I have a birthday?! O_O;; I THOUGHT I WAS ETERNAL! WHY WOULD YOU SAY I WAS BORN?! T~T

Whelp. That happened. xD

...Not enough Minerals.

For those of you who play or have played Starcraft or Starcraft 2, the all too familiar cry for additional structures or units followed by the dreaded announcement that you can't afford to do what you need to do rings like an unending bell in your mind. It's awful. What could make it worse, except to say that those statements aren't pointed at StarCraft, but the needs of an individual. Let's not get too hasty, though. No one likes begging. The individual in question is willing to work for all of the money that they need in the form of commissions.

I figure some of you watch me because I draw. I know a couple of you by name are looking for pictures to be done of your characters. I have an artist in mind. Examples of their work can be found in their gallery, and the pricing information can be found in their S.O.S.

This information is brought to you in part by a boosted signal, received from a # of theirs.


The links throughout will take you where you want to go, and I know you want to see your characters drawn by someone with skill. Go throw your money where it'll make a difference.

Maybe you can't contribute financially. Act as a buoy for the signal as I have. It will help the word reach those who can help.