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Posted 11 years agookay, so I've disappeared for a ridiculously ling time, but there are good reasons.
in October of 2012, I sprained my ankle while at work, and badly but was then misdiagnosed as a minor sprain when I had nearly severed a tendon, stretched one terribly and caused cartilage damage. I didn't get the first MRI until January 2013 and showed the amount of damage. multiple docs later and fast forward to August 2013 when I finally got my ankle reconstructive surgery and all was awesome...until December. the stitching he used was rejected by mo body and then we're trying to work their way out through the skin. very painful. On December 12 or 13 of 2013 I had the stitches removed in office. little did we know that he left a stray bit of it in my body. December 23, get the external stitches removed and later that day, the incision opened up and started leaking puss. I was ignored until the 27th and they prescribed an antibiotic without seeing the infection as a "this'll shut her up" maneuver. on new years eve, I had emergency surgery because the infection and had to stay the night in the hospital after finding out I nearly lost my foot to the infection. I then we're had to have another at the end of January, then another surgery on February 3rd to install a stray"wound vac" which suck excess fluid from a wound and promotes blood flow so it heals faster. it's now shrunk to about half the size it was when I got the vac installed.
then amidst that bullshit...
I broke up with my fiance a year ago after moving him away from his mommy in an attempt to make him back into the man I fell in love with, but he was a serious loser and thief at that, so he had to go.
I'm still dealing with the ankle injury and just had a surgery Friday to make sure it keeps healing at the rate of speed its going. anyhow...
I kinda stopped drawing, the place I'm living now zaps all drawing inspiration, but love gotten into jewelry making and a few other things, but nothing much.lol
anyway, I'm alive! :3
in October of 2012, I sprained my ankle while at work, and badly but was then misdiagnosed as a minor sprain when I had nearly severed a tendon, stretched one terribly and caused cartilage damage. I didn't get the first MRI until January 2013 and showed the amount of damage. multiple docs later and fast forward to August 2013 when I finally got my ankle reconstructive surgery and all was awesome...until December. the stitching he used was rejected by mo body and then we're trying to work their way out through the skin. very painful. On December 12 or 13 of 2013 I had the stitches removed in office. little did we know that he left a stray bit of it in my body. December 23, get the external stitches removed and later that day, the incision opened up and started leaking puss. I was ignored until the 27th and they prescribed an antibiotic without seeing the infection as a "this'll shut her up" maneuver. on new years eve, I had emergency surgery because the infection and had to stay the night in the hospital after finding out I nearly lost my foot to the infection. I then we're had to have another at the end of January, then another surgery on February 3rd to install a stray"wound vac" which suck excess fluid from a wound and promotes blood flow so it heals faster. it's now shrunk to about half the size it was when I got the vac installed.
then amidst that bullshit...
I broke up with my fiance a year ago after moving him away from his mommy in an attempt to make him back into the man I fell in love with, but he was a serious loser and thief at that, so he had to go.
I'm still dealing with the ankle injury and just had a surgery Friday to make sure it keeps healing at the rate of speed its going. anyhow...
I kinda stopped drawing, the place I'm living now zaps all drawing inspiration, but love gotten into jewelry making and a few other things, but nothing much.lol
anyway, I'm alive! :3
�_� disappearance
Posted 11 years agookay, so I've disappeared for a ridiculously ling time, but there are good reasons.
in October of 2012, I sprained my ankle while at work, and badly but was then misdiagnosed as a minor sprain when I had nearly severed a tendon, stretched one terribly and caused cartilage damage. I didn't get the first MRI until January 2013 and showed the amount of damage. multiple docs later and fast forward to August 2013 when I finally got my ankle reconstructive surgery and all was awesome...until December. the stitching he used was rejected by mo body and then we're trying to work their way out through the skin. very painful. On December 12 or 13 of 2013 I had the stitches removed in office. little did we know that he left a stray bit of it in my body. December 23, get the external stitches removed and later that day, the incision opened up and started leaking puss. I was ignored until the 27th and they prescribed an antibiotic without seeing the infection as a "this'll shut her up" maneuver. on new years eve, I had emergency surgery because the infection and had to stay the night in the hospital after finding out I nearly lost my foot to the infection. I then we're had to have another at the end of January, then another surgery on February 3rd to install a stray"wound vac" which suck excess fluid from a wound and promotes blood flow so it heals faster. it's now shrunk to about half the size it was when I got the vac installed.
then amidst that bullshit...
I broke up with my fiance a year ago after moving him away from his mommy in an attempt to make him back into the man I fell in love with, but he was a serious loser and thief at that, so he had to go.
I'm still dealing with the ankle injury and just had a surgery Friday to make sure it keeps healing at the rate of speed its going. anyhow...
I kinda stopped drawing, the place I'm living now zaps all drawing inspiration, but love gotten into jewelry making and a few other things, but nothing much.lol
anyway, I'm alive! :3
in October of 2012, I sprained my ankle while at work, and badly but was then misdiagnosed as a minor sprain when I had nearly severed a tendon, stretched one terribly and caused cartilage damage. I didn't get the first MRI until January 2013 and showed the amount of damage. multiple docs later and fast forward to August 2013 when I finally got my ankle reconstructive surgery and all was awesome...until December. the stitching he used was rejected by mo body and then we're trying to work their way out through the skin. very painful. On December 12 or 13 of 2013 I had the stitches removed in office. little did we know that he left a stray bit of it in my body. December 23, get the external stitches removed and later that day, the incision opened up and started leaking puss. I was ignored until the 27th and they prescribed an antibiotic without seeing the infection as a "this'll shut her up" maneuver. on new years eve, I had emergency surgery because the infection and had to stay the night in the hospital after finding out I nearly lost my foot to the infection. I then we're had to have another at the end of January, then another surgery on February 3rd to install a stray"wound vac" which suck excess fluid from a wound and promotes blood flow so it heals faster. it's now shrunk to about half the size it was when I got the vac installed.
then amidst that bullshit...
I broke up with my fiance a year ago after moving him away from his mommy in an attempt to make him back into the man I fell in love with, but he was a serious loser and thief at that, so he had to go.
I'm still dealing with the ankle injury and just had a surgery Friday to make sure it keeps healing at the rate of speed its going. anyhow...
I kinda stopped drawing, the place I'm living now zaps all drawing inspiration, but love gotten into jewelry making and a few other things, but nothing much.lol
anyway, I'm alive! :3
Possible later projects. : D - EDIT -
Posted 14 years agoSo yeah, the projects are indeed not the commissions... dunno how that replaced the stuff I typed up.. =-= but yeah... So I've been getting inspired by some new music that i actually love, but REALLY hate at the same time because they simply suck, but yeah. I was thinking about doing some song inspired pics? Dunno yet...
I was wondering, for a house party in this one pic, I need multiple characters in a party scene like one from Ke@ha's songs. Would anybody be willing to be in it...?
I was wondering, for a house party in this one pic, I need multiple characters in a party scene like one from Ke@ha's songs. Would anybody be willing to be in it...?
Free Wacom Bamboo Giveaway!! <3
Posted 14 years agoF5 and Icon cmmissions open!
Posted 14 years agoI haves a new icon now that Halloween is done and over with. : 3 bright and colorful and a cool plaid-ish background!
As for the commission status, it is open! Still icons of the entire head, profile, nose and up, or what you think would be best, I am rather open, though I am not yet that good with animated unfortunately, but that is soon being resolved
Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6790716
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6708394
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6790894/
As for the commission status, it is open! Still icons of the entire head, profile, nose and up, or what you think would be best, I am rather open, though I am not yet that good with animated unfortunately, but that is soon being resolved
Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6790716
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6708394
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6790894/
3 Zombie Icon Commission Slots Still Available! ! : D
Posted 14 years agoThere are three more slots available for the $5 zombified Halloween icons! Anybody want one? I can do gifts for other people from you as long as I have a reference! Gifts are awesome things to do!
5 Dollar commissions still awesome and still $5 of sweet zombie gore!
1:
Zedia [ 
Kegawa ]
2:
LordEclipseShadowmane
3:
4:
5:
5 Dollar commissions still awesome and still $5 of sweet zombie gore!
1:
Zedia [ 
Kegawa ]2:
LordEclipseShadowmane3:
4:
5:
Considering streaming the commissions?
Posted 14 years agoIf I was to stream the commissions, what would people think? Like, once the slots are filled, do a group stream, or a couple stream sessions? I have the means to do it now, which totally rocks, and people seem to really enjoy watching their commissions be done... right? I mean, I'm still COMPLETELY new to it... >->; opinions?
Commissions open? oh! F5!
Posted 14 years agoI gots a new icon, so f5! >w<
Okay, so Halloween is right around the corner, and I have now done 3 Zombie icons, and was thinking of doing full open commishes? $5 a piece and maybe worth it? The person who bought them seems to think so, so they must be! XD They will be similar to mine with you as a gored up, pupil-less zombie with a random jack o lantern face in the back ground! Whatcha think? I've got a paypal now, so it's all super awesome and ready to go! <3
Starting off with 5 slots!
1:
Zedikia [ Kegawa ]
2: LordEclipseShadowmane
3:
4:
5:
Also, I now have an adult account! : D Yes! I did it!
NonomiIkari I unfortunately do not have anything up at the moment since I am still working on this one that I rarely get to work on now due to lack of time to myself where people won't freak out around me. I loves the icon for that account! it came out so pretty!! Oh, also, I'm using my old fursona for that account, Nonomi. She's a black wolfie with super long hair and a rather bitchy attitude most of the time.
: D Yay good news!!
Okay, so Halloween is right around the corner, and I have now done 3 Zombie icons, and was thinking of doing full open commishes? $5 a piece and maybe worth it? The person who bought them seems to think so, so they must be! XD They will be similar to mine with you as a gored up, pupil-less zombie with a random jack o lantern face in the back ground! Whatcha think? I've got a paypal now, so it's all super awesome and ready to go! <3
Starting off with 5 slots!
1:
Zedikia [ Kegawa ]2:
LordEclipseShadowmane 3:
4:
5:
Also, I now have an adult account! : D Yes! I did it!
NonomiIkari I unfortunately do not have anything up at the moment since I am still working on this one that I rarely get to work on now due to lack of time to myself where people won't freak out around me. I loves the icon for that account! it came out so pretty!! Oh, also, I'm using my old fursona for that account, Nonomi. She's a black wolfie with super long hair and a rather bitchy attitude most of the time. : D Yay good news!!
Pondering
Posted 14 years agoSo... i dunno how often I'd use it, but should I make an account for my more adult pics? like, the gory ones as well as the little bit of porn i draw?
Trying New Things
Posted 14 years agoSo lately I've been in a porn drawing mood, though it isn't happening as often as it used to... I was thinking of uploading this one when I'm done, seeing as what it is seems to be more accepted these days since I'm seeing it everywhere now days. I think it sounds like a fun idea, and it's going to be all digital media with an attempt at shading instead of solid colors, but I guarantee nothing since i do suck with shading. What is everybody's opinion if I do indeed start putting up some of my more adult commissions? It won't be often since I don't want my name out there for porn, but it's so fun to draw it sometimes...
Life - 8 word rant-
Posted 14 years agoIt can suck my dick at this point.
Again unclaimed
Posted 14 years agoWell... considering people lack of claiming ability, I'm thinking of stopping the watch/pageview thing. =/ yeah... The 500view/40th watch... people dun seem to care, so get rid of it, or save it until next time rolls around? Meh...
Now onto the banner... >[ very unpleased. I hate MLP and want to burn the banner to ashes and have something defecate on it. No offense against the artist, ... I just LOATHE MLP, and all the people going OHMIGOD! OMIGOD! IT'S MLFUCKINP! just makes me disgusted in the fact that I enjoyed the show as a child and played with the toys. DX
People keep saying "i just need to watch it." well why would I want to watch it when it's getting crammed down my throat every where I go, and I can't find ANYTHING without another fucking pony ruining something else I like? =-= If I do watch it, I am waiting until the fad dies down.
PS if you're a brony and get offended by this, get over it. I'm entitled to my own bitchy opinions, just like you're entitled to like a show that rapes my childhood memories.
Ahhh... MLP rant over. : 3
Now onto the banner... >[ very unpleased. I hate MLP and want to burn the banner to ashes and have something defecate on it. No offense against the artist, ... I just LOATHE MLP, and all the people going OHMIGOD! OMIGOD! IT'S MLFUCKINP! just makes me disgusted in the fact that I enjoyed the show as a child and played with the toys. DX
People keep saying "i just need to watch it." well why would I want to watch it when it's getting crammed down my throat every where I go, and I can't find ANYTHING without another fucking pony ruining something else I like? =-= If I do watch it, I am waiting until the fad dies down.
PS if you're a brony and get offended by this, get over it. I'm entitled to my own bitchy opinions, just like you're entitled to like a show that rapes my childhood memories.
Ahhh... MLP rant over. : 3
So close!
Posted 14 years ago19 more to go at the moment that I post this! So close! Who will be the second 500 page viewer, and will they claim their prize?
ONE VIEW LEFT! [EDIT] [37 Say wha?!]
Posted 14 years agoWho's next? : D
...Well something happened and now my page views were bumped down to 462.. tried doing a bunch of stuff to fix it, but no go... ._. so confused.. anyway, I guess there's gonna be 2 winners for the 500th view... ._. still so confused, though.
Yeah... so uh... 37 page views left...? ._.
...Well something happened and now my page views were bumped down to 462.. tried doing a bunch of stuff to fix it, but no go... ._. so confused.. anyway, I guess there's gonna be 2 winners for the 500th view... ._. still so confused, though.
Yeah... so uh... 37 page views left...? ._.
6 page views left! : D
Posted 14 years agoSo few left... who will get it...? : 3
[EDIT] 7 page views
Posted 14 years ago7 page views until I hit 500! Who will it be who get it? What will be their request? I so can't wait! >w<
Politics
Posted 14 years agoI won't talk about mine since most of the people I know have rather different views.. but my god, some people.. I know I get upset sometimes when people have differentiating views, but some people. DAMN! I was on facebook. and my uncle posted something about some racist black people [there are racists in every race] doing a "beat whitey night" at a fair -- BEFORE YOU THINK THIS IS A JAB AT BLACK PEOPLE, EVERY RACE DOES IT TO ANOTHER, IT JUST HAPPENS TO BE THE EXTREME JERKS WHO DO IT!!! -- Anyway, I made a point that was a simple observation of mine, and it finished up with -- sarcastically mind you -- "After all, white people are the devil, don'tcha know"
...He thought I was attacking him. Dead serious. Keep in mind, that I am pretty friggin' white. So much so, that I glow in the moonlight... He thought I attacked him personally... Here, I'll even post what I said:
Him:My point is that some blacks do get prosecuted for hate crimes.
Me:
Not as much as white people. A white guy could beat the crap out of another white guy for pissing him off, it's just assault. If a white guy beats the crap out of a black guy for pissing him off, it's automatically assumed it's because he was black. A black guy beats up a white guy simply because he's white, well... the white guy must have dome something to deserve it. Seen it happen all too much. After all, white people are the devil, don'tcha know?
Him: Yes, I know, [your uncle] and his friends call me that all the time.
Now if you have differing views, i don't care. I'm sorry, but this is not a journal about views, just how this guy is retarded. If you try arguing, you're just gonna get your post hidden, and you blocked for not paying attention.
I don't care if he's a troll... it takes SOME intellect to be one... Oh, and did I mention I'm half his age? He later goes on to attack me personally because on my family FB page, I have my name, then Panda, and he tried making fun of me for that... i mean... THIS GUY IS 45 YEARS OLD!!! You think he'd at least TRY and act more mature... right?
So sad...Ref Sheet Templates and Free Line Art Requests?
Posted 14 years agoYeah, so I found some, and I've been messing around with coloring them lately... yeah, bored with a broken tablet and no scanner... I'm thinking of making some traditional art Adoptables. I dunno, something to get some money in for stuff i need like a new tablet and such. =-=
But yeah... just out of boredom, if anybody wants me to color them some random template/free line art, NOT STOLEN, but free from the artist, feel free to give me the information they request to be with the line art and the pic itself, or a link to it, and if you want me to color it for you, and i can try different ways to do it, like i can try cell shading, smooth and stuff like that. I'm not gonna have any good stuff digitally yet.. No scanner, and can't draw on this computer, but I found out that I can indeed color. : 3 I need to work on shading.
Yeah, I know it sounds retarded, but it's something to do. : P If ya wanna help me you can, if not, whatever. It's fine, though the former would be much preferred over the latter.
Thank you! ^0^
But yeah... just out of boredom, if anybody wants me to color them some random template/free line art, NOT STOLEN, but free from the artist, feel free to give me the information they request to be with the line art and the pic itself, or a link to it, and if you want me to color it for you, and i can try different ways to do it, like i can try cell shading, smooth and stuff like that. I'm not gonna have any good stuff digitally yet.. No scanner, and can't draw on this computer, but I found out that I can indeed color. : 3 I need to work on shading.
Yeah, I know it sounds retarded, but it's something to do. : P If ya wanna help me you can, if not, whatever. It's fine, though the former would be much preferred over the latter.
Thank you! ^0^
Tablet issues
Posted 14 years agoYeah... so uh... it's not even working as good as it was a few days ago... It's really sucking ass, and it pisses me off. Died on it's 4th or 5th day of my ownership, and VisTablet sucks ass. I hate it. I don't have a phone to call on, and don't want to be a bother to my friends. The only thing I have to call on is my computer through gmail talk... =-= When I call the company I get a message saying they're on the phone helping other customers, and to leave a message so they can get back to me... Issue is that I have no phone number. =-= Sad.
Anyway, the point is...
I don't want Vistablets anymore, and I don't want to recommend it so far. When I actually get a hold of them, I'm sure my opinion will change.
I apologize to the commissions I have. I feel super bad. I finally do commissions and my equipment dies. =-= It makes me feel like a flakish bum. Oh well... I'm hoping to solve this issue soon. Please excuse the delay.
Anyway, the point is...
I don't want Vistablets anymore, and I don't want to recommend it so far. When I actually get a hold of them, I'm sure my opinion will change.
I apologize to the commissions I have. I feel super bad. I finally do commissions and my equipment dies. =-= It makes me feel like a flakish bum. Oh well... I'm hoping to solve this issue soon. Please excuse the delay.
10 Free Bust Sketches [No more canines please]
Posted 14 years agoSo I have decided that now that I have my tablet, and I can actually save my doodles to the computer easilly now, that I would do 10 Free bust sketches, sort of like my practice ones on here. All you need to do is pimp me out by making a journal post and give me some references. They may be cleaned up or sketchy depending on how i feel or how much it's frustrating me. The turn out should be pretty fast, unlike the couple commissions I have [I'm sorry again! I've finally got all the right stuff to deal with it and make better versions of my crappy ones].
But yesh. First 10 people get to get one. Remember to make a journal post about this lil thing going on and give me a ref. I don't want to go to your page and look since I am super lazy and you didn't follow directions.
You might get a black background by the way....
{EDIT}
Say what species you are too, please! ;-; It makes it so much more simple because depending on the breed i may need to look up reference pics of the actual animal/animals. I am doing this to try and help improve my style and make it to where i can draw more than my sona and canines.
{EDIT} I'm sorry to not do any dogs anymore, but I have no issue drawing them and I'm trying to expand on what all I am drawing, and
But yesh. First 10 people get to get one. Remember to make a journal post about this lil thing going on and give me a ref. I don't want to go to your page and look since I am super lazy and you didn't follow directions.
You might get a black background by the way....
{EDIT}
Say what species you are too, please! ;-; It makes it so much more simple because depending on the breed i may need to look up reference pics of the actual animal/animals. I am doing this to try and help improve my style and make it to where i can draw more than my sona and canines.
{EDIT} I'm sorry to not do any dogs anymore, but I have no issue drawing them and I'm trying to expand on what all I am drawing, and
I is back! <3
Posted 14 years agoHey! So I am back in boise... well, meridian, but still. I am back and i has internet connection and a tablet now so i is mucho happy. should be able to do better commissions now ans actually be able to improve the issues that I've had before with the ones I've been working on. I apologise for being gone for long, and I hope you all forgive me. I should be adding more things on here in the next day or too. Working on practicing with my tablet... my god I love it
MIA
Posted 14 years agoYeah, I know it's been a long time since I've done anything on here. No scanner, printer, or paper to even draw on. I'm supposed to be getting a laptop and tablet soon, and I soooooo can't wait. I'm heading to Oregon for a month here in less than a week, also, so I'm really frazzled and impatient. >.< Sorry I'm so bleeh with everything on here. Just please be patient.
Mrow?
Posted 14 years agoOkay, is it just me, or is Furpaws really not wanting to load or even recognize as a real website? It's annoying, but I understand if it is since it's in it's beta testing, but still.... Grrr... Confuzzlement. >.<
Woo!
Posted 14 years agoFirst of all, thank you everybody who was helping me out with my last journal. I really appreciate it and It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Thank you again.
Second of all, I went to my second furmeet today, and it was a lot of fun. Saw some people I haven't seen in years, and others I just haven't seen in a couple of months. lol I'm still trying to get my mate to go to one, cause I think he may actually enjoy it.
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HINT HINT
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But yeah. lol Lots of fun. ^-^ Feel loved and warm and fuzzy. Thank you again, everybody!
Second of all, I went to my second furmeet today, and it was a lot of fun. Saw some people I haven't seen in years, and others I just haven't seen in a couple of months. lol I'm still trying to get my mate to go to one, cause I think he may actually enjoy it.
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HINT HINT
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But yeah. lol Lots of fun. ^-^ Feel loved and warm and fuzzy. Thank you again, everybody!
Hmmm... I Need Advice
Posted 14 years agoUgh. I dunno why i'm so grumpy and impatient lately. It's killing me and kinda actually worrying me. I allowed bad people to push me from my love of anime and now i'm allowing other people to push me from my other geeky/nerdy loves. I'm trying to not allow it to happen, but it just is. The people are frustrating me, and I'm getting more frustrated at that frustration! It's a horrible circle. I feel like I'm in high school again, wanting to just beat the living crap out of EVERYBODY but a small handful of people that I really care about. I dunno why it gets to me so much, and hat too is bothering me. What should I do about it? It's beginning to seem that maybe, being stranded from civilization really is a good thing for me. It sucks, but I'm not so tense from CONSTANT frustration that makes me wanna simply rip out all of my hair and beat my head against a wall.
I dunno what to do anymore. I need help, and I don't want to have to go see a professional about it. That scares me that I even think I'm to that point. My temper scares me. I don't want to lash out at the wrong person and hurt them. Does anybody know anything I can do that may help?
I dunno what to do anymore. I need help, and I don't want to have to go see a professional about it. That scares me that I even think I'm to that point. My temper scares me. I don't want to lash out at the wrong person and hurt them. Does anybody know anything I can do that may help?
