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Where's the thumbnails and Vids?!
Posted 2 weeks agoHello gremlins!
SO! If youve been following me on the YOUTUBES then you would've seen that 3 days ago I made a post regarding my lack of vids.
Just in case you haven't here's what happened...
Early Sept i started experiencing back pain. Like a pinched nerve. Doc basically gave me ibuprofen and a list of back stretches. I did what I was told. Some days the pain would be manageable/mild, other days I would be rolling around the floor trying to make the pain stop. (Yes, I was literally rolling around on the floor). Then I just kept getting worse and lasted longer. I kept up with the stretches and over the counter pain meds. But soon the pain meds stopped working and the stretches were unbareable to continue doing. Excruciating pain radiated throughout my WHOLE ABDOMEN. Like every breath (in or out) was hard to do, was on the verge of throwing up constantly (like drooling as well like my body was prepping for the vomit), couldn't sit, stand, walk, stretch, NOTHING. I couldn't even tell if i had to use the bathroom or if i was hungry. So Rai brought me to the Urgent Care, where they confirmed that the nerve was severely pinched. Gave me heavier medication, and mentioned the possibility of physical therapy. I can no longer sit, lay, or stand in spot for long anymore.
Now, i just feel a soreness in my back, and an ache throughout my abdomen. PLUS I caught a cold. Sure why not?! Let's add fuel to the fire, right?!
So yeah... I know I'm behind on literally everything and have not messaged people back due to the "comatose" state the meds have given me a few times. I will be SLOWLY getting back to work on stuff, but will not be as fast to upload them for the time being.
SO! If youve been following me on the YOUTUBES then you would've seen that 3 days ago I made a post regarding my lack of vids.
Just in case you haven't here's what happened...
Early Sept i started experiencing back pain. Like a pinched nerve. Doc basically gave me ibuprofen and a list of back stretches. I did what I was told. Some days the pain would be manageable/mild, other days I would be rolling around the floor trying to make the pain stop. (Yes, I was literally rolling around on the floor). Then I just kept getting worse and lasted longer. I kept up with the stretches and over the counter pain meds. But soon the pain meds stopped working and the stretches were unbareable to continue doing. Excruciating pain radiated throughout my WHOLE ABDOMEN. Like every breath (in or out) was hard to do, was on the verge of throwing up constantly (like drooling as well like my body was prepping for the vomit), couldn't sit, stand, walk, stretch, NOTHING. I couldn't even tell if i had to use the bathroom or if i was hungry. So Rai brought me to the Urgent Care, where they confirmed that the nerve was severely pinched. Gave me heavier medication, and mentioned the possibility of physical therapy. I can no longer sit, lay, or stand in spot for long anymore.
Now, i just feel a soreness in my back, and an ache throughout my abdomen. PLUS I caught a cold. Sure why not?! Let's add fuel to the fire, right?!
So yeah... I know I'm behind on literally everything and have not messaged people back due to the "comatose" state the meds have given me a few times. I will be SLOWLY getting back to work on stuff, but will not be as fast to upload them for the time being.
Adopts?
Posted 4 years agoI've got some new adopts coming out soon. (As well as some new characters... >.>)
I was making some custom characters for myself and my hubby and that lead to A LOT of color palletes and patterns. So instead of trashing the other ideas... I want to give everyone a chance to get one of them.
I'm not done with them yet, BUT I will be soon and it'll be FCFS (first come, first serve) so be sure to be on the look out.
Those who get a character (or two) will recieve a ref sheet similar to these:
Examples--> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43852240/ https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43816787/
I will not make changes to the characters, and I will not be adding anything to them either. So please dont ask.
It's honestly been a while since I've done my own character creations. lol. So I do hope you guys enjoy them, once I release them. <3
I was making some custom characters for myself and my hubby and that lead to A LOT of color palletes and patterns. So instead of trashing the other ideas... I want to give everyone a chance to get one of them.
I'm not done with them yet, BUT I will be soon and it'll be FCFS (first come, first serve) so be sure to be on the look out.
Those who get a character (or two) will recieve a ref sheet similar to these:
Examples--> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43852240/ https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43816787/
I will not make changes to the characters, and I will not be adding anything to them either. So please dont ask.
It's honestly been a while since I've done my own character creations. lol. So I do hope you guys enjoy them, once I release them. <3
When you see Red
Posted 4 years agoIn regards to my last Journal. Yes, That profile on DA was taken down.
Now... I would like to explain something... When you go through so much and hold in so much sadness and anger and grief and just everything in the book... That one thing is the final straw. That day I was literally seeing red. I took out all my pain, frustration, sadness out on that person. Was I childish? Yes. And for that I apologize...
But, I would like people to see my POV for a moment... Im a mom who has is basically working around the clock, with practically no breaks. Cleaning, scheduling, hold back all my grief/worries. My husband is deployed in the middle east. I lost my dog that I've had for 13+ years. I watched and felt her die in my arms. That broke me. I can barely greive properly because my kids dont understand. I havent had proper sleep for worry about my husband and the one thing that I clung to is gone. Then multiple family members are having life-changing surgeries that may or may not help them live a better life. 2 of which may not live for much longer. One of my best friends passes away so suddenly, that it felt like my whole world was just falling down around me. Then to learn that someone stole not only my character BUT my art as well, creating a whole story about them, blocking me before I even had the chance to infestigate, which tells me that they KNEW what they were doing. I finally snapped. All of this happening within a 2-3 month period. Things constantly happening. THEN to have ppl telling me "to calm down" and "its just porn" just made it far worse. Because that's like saying, "Your time doesnt matter", "Your efforts dont matter", "Your feelings dont matter." All of it. Some artists may not care. Some OC owners may not care, but its about respect for that person. If someone flips their lid, maybe think about that person. What are they going through? Are they truly ok? Etc.
So yes, I saw red the other day... And I didn't handle it well. All the things bottled up just boiled over. I am sorry I didnt handle it well and when I read over it, I am disgusted with myself for not handling it in a more professional manner. However... I would like everyone to understand, that there is only so much one person can handle... That everyone has a breaking point. That, no, I'm not always happy or joyful. That I have sadness, grief, and anger too. And when people tell me to "chill", it's like... I'm not allowed to express those feelings. I'm only allowed to stay professional at all times, express happiness at all times, so on and so forth. That's why I stay quiet, that's why I don't talk to people, unless I've known them for a very long time and KNOW for a fact I can trust them.
Yet here I am, explaining myself. Why? Because I just want people to understand why I reacted in that manner. If that is a problem... then I'm sorry. I don't know what else to really tell you.
Now... I would like to explain something... When you go through so much and hold in so much sadness and anger and grief and just everything in the book... That one thing is the final straw. That day I was literally seeing red. I took out all my pain, frustration, sadness out on that person. Was I childish? Yes. And for that I apologize...
But, I would like people to see my POV for a moment... Im a mom who has is basically working around the clock, with practically no breaks. Cleaning, scheduling, hold back all my grief/worries. My husband is deployed in the middle east. I lost my dog that I've had for 13+ years. I watched and felt her die in my arms. That broke me. I can barely greive properly because my kids dont understand. I havent had proper sleep for worry about my husband and the one thing that I clung to is gone. Then multiple family members are having life-changing surgeries that may or may not help them live a better life. 2 of which may not live for much longer. One of my best friends passes away so suddenly, that it felt like my whole world was just falling down around me. Then to learn that someone stole not only my character BUT my art as well, creating a whole story about them, blocking me before I even had the chance to infestigate, which tells me that they KNEW what they were doing. I finally snapped. All of this happening within a 2-3 month period. Things constantly happening. THEN to have ppl telling me "to calm down" and "its just porn" just made it far worse. Because that's like saying, "Your time doesnt matter", "Your efforts dont matter", "Your feelings dont matter." All of it. Some artists may not care. Some OC owners may not care, but its about respect for that person. If someone flips their lid, maybe think about that person. What are they going through? Are they truly ok? Etc.
So yes, I saw red the other day... And I didn't handle it well. All the things bottled up just boiled over. I am sorry I didnt handle it well and when I read over it, I am disgusted with myself for not handling it in a more professional manner. However... I would like everyone to understand, that there is only so much one person can handle... That everyone has a breaking point. That, no, I'm not always happy or joyful. That I have sadness, grief, and anger too. And when people tell me to "chill", it's like... I'm not allowed to express those feelings. I'm only allowed to stay professional at all times, express happiness at all times, so on and so forth. That's why I stay quiet, that's why I don't talk to people, unless I've known them for a very long time and KNOW for a fact I can trust them.
Yet here I am, explaining myself. Why? Because I just want people to understand why I reacted in that manner. If that is a problem... then I'm sorry. I don't know what else to really tell you.
I dont need more BullShit!!!
Posted 4 years agoI was just informed that a douchebag by the name of "thesneklover" has been uploading MY CHARACTER https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40127360/ onto his DA. They blocked me and the person who informed me. I tried to find them on DA and learned that they BLOCKED me. As if i didnt fucking KNOW!! Right now... i dont need this BS... ok... https://www.deviantart.com/thesneklover/gallery Spam them. IDC anymore. Because im sick and tired of the BS thats been going on. I've got enough on my plate! If one more thing happens, istg Imma just be a brat to everyone because apparently NO ONE can be trusted anymore. Annika belongs to me!! goddamnit! I may not be a "saint" but damnit... I treat ppl with the same respect that they treat me and if someone wants to STEAL MY CHARACTER then we gunna have issues! mkay?! I have already lost too many ppl this year AND last year. Ill be damned if someone takes MY goddamn characters! Spam them. Fuck their shit up. Idgaf anymore...
For all you SL goers and getters!! <3
Posted 5 years agoHello all you fine, fabulous people!!
I, just this week, started my dancing job at Dollz House in Second Life!!
I'm hosting a poll to see which gal is the "thirstiest" for Thirsty Thursday, today!!
You get the chance to vote which girl you wanna see dance at the club (only between my girls, but there are plenty of other dancers you can find at the club ;) )
Check out my twitter and cast your vote!!
https://twitter.com/ShiarahSilver/s.....798691328?s=20
There's only 7-8 hours left for the votes!!
I, just this week, started my dancing job at Dollz House in Second Life!!
I'm hosting a poll to see which gal is the "thirstiest" for Thirsty Thursday, today!!
You get the chance to vote which girl you wanna see dance at the club (only between my girls, but there are plenty of other dancers you can find at the club ;) )
Check out my twitter and cast your vote!!
https://twitter.com/ShiarahSilver/s.....798691328?s=20
There's only 7-8 hours left for the votes!!
Adopts!!
Posted 5 years agoAnyone looking for and adopt?!?! Check out these that are currently open!
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....er/266835/Open
https://sta.sh/2cj7is6eu6d?edit=1 Voo $65USD
https://sta.sh/215sufpip6nt?edit=1 Wolf $40USD
https://sta.sh/215wqsidbx7k?edit=1 Kristal Eclipse $40USD
If you have any questions please feel free to ask.
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....er/266835/Open
https://sta.sh/2cj7is6eu6d?edit=1 Voo $65USD
https://sta.sh/215sufpip6nt?edit=1 Wolf $40USD
https://sta.sh/215wqsidbx7k?edit=1 Kristal Eclipse $40USD
If you have any questions please feel free to ask.
School year... 2020 version
Posted 5 years agoSorry for being quite for a lil bit, but my oldest kiddo just started kindergarten this year and its been a new learning experience. Not just for my kiddo but for me as well.
things are a bit more complicated because of Covid. Not sure how my other fellow parents are fairing during this time. Considering the state difference. So i do apologize for not being on recently. We've been adjusting to a new schedule and honestly im not a morning person, so the usual time i get on here, is no longer valid. I have to get to bed early to get up early. Otherwise my kiddo will be late for school. If you REALLY need to get up with me for anything regarding commissions/SL photos. The quickest way to reach me is by social media. You can find me in my server, twitter, etc. So please check those out if i dont respond within 48 hours. If i still dont respond then it would be because i am juggling my kiddo's school stuff, plus my own, as well as a few other nessecitties that i need to do. Life has a way of keeping a person busy, but i will say that i will do my best to get back to you. If not on here, then it will be on another social platform.
Thanks for your understanding!!
things are a bit more complicated because of Covid. Not sure how my other fellow parents are fairing during this time. Considering the state difference. So i do apologize for not being on recently. We've been adjusting to a new schedule and honestly im not a morning person, so the usual time i get on here, is no longer valid. I have to get to bed early to get up early. Otherwise my kiddo will be late for school. If you REALLY need to get up with me for anything regarding commissions/SL photos. The quickest way to reach me is by social media. You can find me in my server, twitter, etc. So please check those out if i dont respond within 48 hours. If i still dont respond then it would be because i am juggling my kiddo's school stuff, plus my own, as well as a few other nessecitties that i need to do. Life has a way of keeping a person busy, but i will say that i will do my best to get back to you. If not on here, then it will be on another social platform.
Thanks for your understanding!!
Whispering Willow Inn Server
Posted 5 years agoThis is the name of my Discord server - https://discord.gg/xryWPwS
Please read ALL rules before making comments/posts.
Doing so will help not only yourself but other who are in the server to be on the same page.
This is to help/support many artists and not just myself.
Everyone is welcome within reason. SO long as you follow the rules, then there should be no problems. Thankies for reading.
Please read ALL rules before making comments/posts.
Doing so will help not only yourself but other who are in the server to be on the same page.
This is to help/support many artists and not just myself.
Everyone is welcome within reason. SO long as you follow the rules, then there should be no problems. Thankies for reading.
New Project
Posted 5 years agoAs the title says, I've started a new project.
I have decided to try my hand at comic making. Sort of. It's not the traditional manga style. SOOOOO... I decided to go with a cell shaded/smooth shaded type comic. Landscape is mostly smooth shading. Characters and industrial landscapes are mostly cell shaded.
It takes a bit longer to make one panel. A lot more shanges to rough/final sketches, plus linework (with added and subtracted changes), PLUS color and shading. It's worth it to me, doesn't mean I'm not gunna complain about it though. LOL.
I have the first 3 pages up and will upload at least 1 to 3 pages per week. or I'm going to try to. The pages I did get done took me a month to finish (first 10 pages by the way). I hope that this gives you guys something to look forward to what with the quarantine and everything else going on.
Please let me know how you guys like the comic and if you want to see more of the story. I am taking my time with it, because I only had the beginning worked out and not really much else. So I'm sort of wingging it. Hope ya'll don't mind. Also, If you guys have a better title for this comic send me your ideas. <3 The title is still a working title. heh...
Wand's Eternal Page 1
ANYWAY, I hope everyone is doing ok in these hard times. I know it's been hard and stressful for my family. So, with that, I hope everyone stays safe and stays sane (especially for all you parents out there.)
I have decided to try my hand at comic making. Sort of. It's not the traditional manga style. SOOOOO... I decided to go with a cell shaded/smooth shaded type comic. Landscape is mostly smooth shading. Characters and industrial landscapes are mostly cell shaded.
It takes a bit longer to make one panel. A lot more shanges to rough/final sketches, plus linework (with added and subtracted changes), PLUS color and shading. It's worth it to me, doesn't mean I'm not gunna complain about it though. LOL.
I have the first 3 pages up and will upload at least 1 to 3 pages per week. or I'm going to try to. The pages I did get done took me a month to finish (first 10 pages by the way). I hope that this gives you guys something to look forward to what with the quarantine and everything else going on.
Please let me know how you guys like the comic and if you want to see more of the story. I am taking my time with it, because I only had the beginning worked out and not really much else. So I'm sort of wingging it. Hope ya'll don't mind. Also, If you guys have a better title for this comic send me your ideas. <3 The title is still a working title. heh...
Wand's Eternal Page 1
ANYWAY, I hope everyone is doing ok in these hard times. I know it's been hard and stressful for my family. So, with that, I hope everyone stays safe and stays sane (especially for all you parents out there.)
Under quarantine
Posted 5 years agoIt's been a while since my last journal.
I've been hard at work, creating art and studying and whatnot. I have quite a few pieces finished, but i wanted to get my other sketches done and add those to my upload list.
Since the "stay home" order has been in effect, I've had to also put a hold on some of my own stuff, because my kids have been going stir crazy being kept at home... But i still draw after kiddo's bedtime as long and as often as I possibly can. :3 But if enough people comment on this journal, I will upload what I already have ready. If you guys want me to of course. So, yeah, we've been doing some home schooling (basically), playing out in our backyard, gardening, and whatever else i can come up with to help them stay active and occupied and just in general having fun at home.
ANYWAY
There are a lot of people out there who aren't taking any of this CORVID-19 stuff seriously and arent following protocols. Not only do young babies and elderly folks catch this virus, but so do our pets, and other animals. There are plenty of places that people can go to outside, where there arent large crowds. Then just keeping up with your hygeine is just as good. Wearing a cloth mask when you are in a public is also a good way to prevent spreading the virus if you are a carrier or just simply dont want to get sick (as stated by the CDC). No hand sanitizer? Rubbing alcohol and peroxide, work just the same, if not over killing germs... >.> Our medical practioners are at high risk as well, because they are the ones who have to work in the heart of it all. And not only them, but other people who have to work at neccessary jobs are at risk as well. My point: please take this seriously. It's not just about one person or one family, Its about every living thing. Naturally, we want to protect ourselves and our immediate family, but to help keep yourself and those you love safe... maybe its a good idea to listen to the CDC, governors, and other higher-ups. If you don't like it then you should probably think about relinquishing your right for COVID-19 medical care... but thats just me... >.>
Also, since all this started, the environment has been healing. baby turtles can reach the oceans, the o-zone has cooled down. I'm not sure about global warming... i haven't researched that... But anyway, Isn't this a good thing? Yeah it sucks staying home all the time. Yeah it sucks to only talk to friends and family ove voice chat, vid calls, texting etc, BUT IT'S SAFE FOR EVERYONE. Even some youtubers go out to places on their own and wear masks and gloves... Can't say the same for celebrities, because i don't keep up with their gossip... All Im saying is that the faster people take this seriously, the faster the virus can go away... and the faster all impatient people can go back out and have a big party in the mall...
To be honest this hasn't really effected my lifestyle all that much, other than i take the extra precautions when going out grocery shopping. I don't know how many people are taking all this seriously, but I sure as hell am. I have 2 kids, 3 dogs and 3 cats that can potentially get this virus. My husband is a potential carrier (dont misread, he does not have the virus nor is he carrying it right now... So I try to keep him home when I can... Since we live on base, everyone is following the protocals and *knocks on wood* we haven't had any cases on our base, but the town nearby has at least 40 cases...
Wow... sorry, this turned into a rant... but yeah... I hope that everyone out there is staying safe, staying clean, and isn't going to stir crazy. If you are, then talk to people and see what they do to keep themselves sane. A little talk can go a long way. With that, merry meet and merry part, until merry meet again.
I've been hard at work, creating art and studying and whatnot. I have quite a few pieces finished, but i wanted to get my other sketches done and add those to my upload list.
Since the "stay home" order has been in effect, I've had to also put a hold on some of my own stuff, because my kids have been going stir crazy being kept at home... But i still draw after kiddo's bedtime as long and as often as I possibly can. :3 But if enough people comment on this journal, I will upload what I already have ready. If you guys want me to of course. So, yeah, we've been doing some home schooling (basically), playing out in our backyard, gardening, and whatever else i can come up with to help them stay active and occupied and just in general having fun at home.
ANYWAY
There are a lot of people out there who aren't taking any of this CORVID-19 stuff seriously and arent following protocols. Not only do young babies and elderly folks catch this virus, but so do our pets, and other animals. There are plenty of places that people can go to outside, where there arent large crowds. Then just keeping up with your hygeine is just as good. Wearing a cloth mask when you are in a public is also a good way to prevent spreading the virus if you are a carrier or just simply dont want to get sick (as stated by the CDC). No hand sanitizer? Rubbing alcohol and peroxide, work just the same, if not over killing germs... >.> Our medical practioners are at high risk as well, because they are the ones who have to work in the heart of it all. And not only them, but other people who have to work at neccessary jobs are at risk as well. My point: please take this seriously. It's not just about one person or one family, Its about every living thing. Naturally, we want to protect ourselves and our immediate family, but to help keep yourself and those you love safe... maybe its a good idea to listen to the CDC, governors, and other higher-ups. If you don't like it then you should probably think about relinquishing your right for COVID-19 medical care... but thats just me... >.>
Also, since all this started, the environment has been healing. baby turtles can reach the oceans, the o-zone has cooled down. I'm not sure about global warming... i haven't researched that... But anyway, Isn't this a good thing? Yeah it sucks staying home all the time. Yeah it sucks to only talk to friends and family ove voice chat, vid calls, texting etc, BUT IT'S SAFE FOR EVERYONE. Even some youtubers go out to places on their own and wear masks and gloves... Can't say the same for celebrities, because i don't keep up with their gossip... All Im saying is that the faster people take this seriously, the faster the virus can go away... and the faster all impatient people can go back out and have a big party in the mall...
To be honest this hasn't really effected my lifestyle all that much, other than i take the extra precautions when going out grocery shopping. I don't know how many people are taking all this seriously, but I sure as hell am. I have 2 kids, 3 dogs and 3 cats that can potentially get this virus. My husband is a potential carrier (dont misread, he does not have the virus nor is he carrying it right now... So I try to keep him home when I can... Since we live on base, everyone is following the protocals and *knocks on wood* we haven't had any cases on our base, but the town nearby has at least 40 cases...
Wow... sorry, this turned into a rant... but yeah... I hope that everyone out there is staying safe, staying clean, and isn't going to stir crazy. If you are, then talk to people and see what they do to keep themselves sane. A little talk can go a long way. With that, merry meet and merry part, until merry meet again.
Happy New Year's!
Posted 6 years agoHappy New Year's everyone. (even though its a few hours away for me...)
I wanted to say that I will do better in keeping up with my social habits... As in try to be more active and lively on my twitter and FA and other social media's. Mostly because I know I haven't been the best at keeping up with the artsy trends and whatnot. I think I finally found a balance? between school and art anyway.
I know I've said this before and then I tend to fall back into my old habit of being a hermit... lol. but I'mma try to do better this year. Hoping to reach 1500 watchers and then hold a big raffle and have more raffles afterwards. Maybe have some art streams. Not sure on that though. So we will see how the new year starts. Usually January is the hardest month for me in the beginning of the year... I'm not exactly sure why, but it is. Maybe I'm just feeling old? lol. Hope im not the only one. Anyway... I'll try to do more IRL updates and art updates on my twitter. So feel free to follow me there. or whatever works best for everyone.
Also not really having a new years resolution. Since it hasn't really changed from other years. All I can say is that I do better this year than the last. That's all any of us can do, really. If you think about it.
I wanted to say that I will do better in keeping up with my social habits... As in try to be more active and lively on my twitter and FA and other social media's. Mostly because I know I haven't been the best at keeping up with the artsy trends and whatnot. I think I finally found a balance? between school and art anyway.
I know I've said this before and then I tend to fall back into my old habit of being a hermit... lol. but I'mma try to do better this year. Hoping to reach 1500 watchers and then hold a big raffle and have more raffles afterwards. Maybe have some art streams. Not sure on that though. So we will see how the new year starts. Usually January is the hardest month for me in the beginning of the year... I'm not exactly sure why, but it is. Maybe I'm just feeling old? lol. Hope im not the only one. Anyway... I'll try to do more IRL updates and art updates on my twitter. So feel free to follow me there. or whatever works best for everyone.
Also not really having a new years resolution. Since it hasn't really changed from other years. All I can say is that I do better this year than the last. That's all any of us can do, really. If you think about it.
Semester Finals
Posted 6 years agoSo I have been stuck in my studies for the past 2-ish weeks. I am on the last 2 courses of my courses. So I've had exam after exam that are like a week apart from each other with so much material to read (I'm talking like 2 chapters per lesson, plus reviews.) I admit I am having fun with my studies, but I also know that I have been neglecting my artwork.
I had to choose which was more important and, for me, it's my dream job as a Veterinarian. It's hard work and I am mentally exhausted but I will be taking a minor break to get you guys some more artwork to gush over. lol. All I ask is for some understanding and patience. It's also the reason why I haven't been active on FA and other social media. I have not forgotten anyone or anything, I just have a higher priority that I am working on atm. I'm sure many people feel the same but with different circumstances.
I also will be having another tooth removal surgery (having 4 main teeth pulled). This will help my braces align my teeth more properly. So thats about 2 days of me being on meds, but I will sort out my time a bit more so I can do both my studies and artwork. Just a matter of how... lol. Anyway, I hope everyone will be having a marvelous holiday and an amazing start to the new year of 2020.
I had to choose which was more important and, for me, it's my dream job as a Veterinarian. It's hard work and I am mentally exhausted but I will be taking a minor break to get you guys some more artwork to gush over. lol. All I ask is for some understanding and patience. It's also the reason why I haven't been active on FA and other social media. I have not forgotten anyone or anything, I just have a higher priority that I am working on atm. I'm sure many people feel the same but with different circumstances.
I also will be having another tooth removal surgery (having 4 main teeth pulled). This will help my braces align my teeth more properly. So thats about 2 days of me being on meds, but I will sort out my time a bit more so I can do both my studies and artwork. Just a matter of how... lol. Anyway, I hope everyone will be having a marvelous holiday and an amazing start to the new year of 2020.
Lemme Clear the air here
Posted 6 years agoOk, so as many of you all saw in my scraps post: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/33416580/ That ive been a bit busy.
So, I've also been having issues with trades. The only trades that have actually been worth a damn are ones with well known friends. Which there are now a handful of people that i will do an art trade with. I am tired of spending a week of doing nothing but drawing to make sure that the person i am trading with gets their fair share. Then make me wait months and months. I understnand a month. I understand life gets in the way. However, if there is no communication or no updates I will assume that I've been taken advantage of and have had my time wasted. I hear excuse after excuse, to the point where i have no sympathy left. I can relate but theres no excuse for breaking a promise. So I will not be doing any trades with anyone other than the select handful of friends.
If you want art from me then you can find my price sheet on my page. I am sorry for sounding harsh, but thats how it is now. Once you've been taken advantage of several times then you'll understand. Those who've been taken advantage of already know how I feel and why I have decided this.
If you want a new character i have a few adopts open:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32306423/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32535706/
So, I've also been having issues with trades. The only trades that have actually been worth a damn are ones with well known friends. Which there are now a handful of people that i will do an art trade with. I am tired of spending a week of doing nothing but drawing to make sure that the person i am trading with gets their fair share. Then make me wait months and months. I understnand a month. I understand life gets in the way. However, if there is no communication or no updates I will assume that I've been taken advantage of and have had my time wasted. I hear excuse after excuse, to the point where i have no sympathy left. I can relate but theres no excuse for breaking a promise. So I will not be doing any trades with anyone other than the select handful of friends.
If you want art from me then you can find my price sheet on my page. I am sorry for sounding harsh, but thats how it is now. Once you've been taken advantage of several times then you'll understand. Those who've been taken advantage of already know how I feel and why I have decided this.
If you want a new character i have a few adopts open:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32306423/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32535706/
Life Update
Posted 6 years agoAs of Monday, I officially have my braces!! Im excited but it kind of sucks... Wax for braces is my new best friend... as well as ibuprofen... >.>
I haven't been drawing lately because ive dived into my studies and am ahead of the game and am trying to keep it that way. I usually finish off my evening with WoW as a stress reliever. It's not as bright on my eyes surprisingly and doesnt give me a headache... also i get to fight stuff and have been hanging with friends that i havent hung out with in what feels like forever sometimes. lol.
Anyway, Just letting everyone know that i havent given up on art, just don't have the time like a used to, but i do draw here and there. Just on my sketch pads. lol. Oh and also i am still alive. XD
I haven't been drawing lately because ive dived into my studies and am ahead of the game and am trying to keep it that way. I usually finish off my evening with WoW as a stress reliever. It's not as bright on my eyes surprisingly and doesnt give me a headache... also i get to fight stuff and have been hanging with friends that i havent hung out with in what feels like forever sometimes. lol.
Anyway, Just letting everyone know that i havent given up on art, just don't have the time like a used to, but i do draw here and there. Just on my sketch pads. lol. Oh and also i am still alive. XD
Life Updates!!! As well as some encouragement! <3
Posted 6 years agoAlrighty, soooooo my trip to cali was ok. I got to stay with my brother and i repaid him with my cooking... lol. He showed me his favorite place to go which was fun. The rest of that time i spent studying and training my dog, Taser, until It was time for my hour drive to my appointment.
Also, Does everyone in cali love ass? Because everyone was on mine on the road... >.> lol.
Anyway, Doc got xrays, mould castings, measurements and external pictures of my whole mouth. He triple checked everything because if he missed something I would've had to drive all the way back there, which would not have been fun... >.> that and i spent the last of my savings to get there and back with just enough for food in between.
So, the plan is to go BACK to my Orthdontist and get temporary braces. Just to see how my teeth will align. THEN I have to have ALL 4 PREMOLARS removed. Yup, thats right, gotta have ANOTHER teeth extraction. And this one is going to suck more because the premolars are rooted in.
Once that's done, I can have the jaw surgery. However not only am I getting my bottom jaw worked on, but Im also getting the top of my mouth worked on as well and WILL be wired shut for an extended period of time... Luckily this wont happen until next year because of the previous stuff i had mentioned. This is going to be a very long journey. However all of this will be worth it. I have waited so long to be able to have a normal mouth and everything is slowly falling into place.
Plus i have my school and working towards my dream job(s). I will still be drawing as much as i can whenever I can. In all honesty when I have my jaw wired shut i wont have much to do other than study and draw. maybe play a game or 2. lol.
I also wanted to mention to those of you who are feeling down about your job, school, etc. Listen, anything is possible, however you cant just sit and wait for things to happen, you do have to work for what you want. It takes consistency, self discipline, time, and most importantly patience. Things dont happen right away, and sometimes thats a good thing, but when things are FINALLY starting to progress, you're reward will be whatever you make of it. Like a dream job, or graduating school, or losing the extra weight or gaining the extra weight. All things are DEFINITELY possible. If my journey isn't enough to convince you, then try it for yourself and get your own results. :) Just remember that you don't have to face it alone. If someone doesn't like that you are self improving yourself/your life, then that means they don't accept the new you and their image of you is about to crumble. Those are toxic people, even if they are family... >.> (had that experience and it's the reason i deleted my FB) It's ok to cut out that toxicity.
With that, I hope that everyone's journies are well rewarded accordingly. I hope everyone can find this confidence and courage to take that leap to a brighter, healthier future. You do you!! You got this whole "life thing"!!
Also, Does everyone in cali love ass? Because everyone was on mine on the road... >.> lol.
Anyway, Doc got xrays, mould castings, measurements and external pictures of my whole mouth. He triple checked everything because if he missed something I would've had to drive all the way back there, which would not have been fun... >.> that and i spent the last of my savings to get there and back with just enough for food in between.
So, the plan is to go BACK to my Orthdontist and get temporary braces. Just to see how my teeth will align. THEN I have to have ALL 4 PREMOLARS removed. Yup, thats right, gotta have ANOTHER teeth extraction. And this one is going to suck more because the premolars are rooted in.
Once that's done, I can have the jaw surgery. However not only am I getting my bottom jaw worked on, but Im also getting the top of my mouth worked on as well and WILL be wired shut for an extended period of time... Luckily this wont happen until next year because of the previous stuff i had mentioned. This is going to be a very long journey. However all of this will be worth it. I have waited so long to be able to have a normal mouth and everything is slowly falling into place.
Plus i have my school and working towards my dream job(s). I will still be drawing as much as i can whenever I can. In all honesty when I have my jaw wired shut i wont have much to do other than study and draw. maybe play a game or 2. lol.
I also wanted to mention to those of you who are feeling down about your job, school, etc. Listen, anything is possible, however you cant just sit and wait for things to happen, you do have to work for what you want. It takes consistency, self discipline, time, and most importantly patience. Things dont happen right away, and sometimes thats a good thing, but when things are FINALLY starting to progress, you're reward will be whatever you make of it. Like a dream job, or graduating school, or losing the extra weight or gaining the extra weight. All things are DEFINITELY possible. If my journey isn't enough to convince you, then try it for yourself and get your own results. :) Just remember that you don't have to face it alone. If someone doesn't like that you are self improving yourself/your life, then that means they don't accept the new you and their image of you is about to crumble. Those are toxic people, even if they are family... >.> (had that experience and it's the reason i deleted my FB) It's ok to cut out that toxicity.
With that, I hope that everyone's journies are well rewarded accordingly. I hope everyone can find this confidence and courage to take that leap to a brighter, healthier future. You do you!! You got this whole "life thing"!!
WHOOO!!! A lot to expect soon
Posted 6 years agoAlrighty, so I have been working very hard on multiple adopts and YCH WIPs. But most importantly I have been working on the current YCH that just ended. I have a few more pieces I am working on as well.
On July 21st-24th I will NOT be at my computer. I will be going out of town to go to my jaw surgery consult. As most people know, this is not just a cosmetic surgery, but it is to better help me breath properly (apparently i have been doing it wrong my whole life. go figure... >..>) But again this is just a consult, not an actual surgery. I will be bringing my doggo with me and crashing at my brother's place for those few days. The my in-laws are going to be in town the rest of that week. So I will be spending time with them.
Now, If any of you are interested in joining in on my AWESOME journey, send me a note asking for my discord server invite!! There are some awesome people who love to meet new people (myself included) as well as other artists (other than myself) who share art frequently. This also allows me to see how many people would like to see more art from myself. But we talk more than just art. There are other's who play Second Life, World of World craft, Pokemon, and so much more.
Thank you all for taking the time to read my journal! I hope to see you all in the discord server. <3
On July 21st-24th I will NOT be at my computer. I will be going out of town to go to my jaw surgery consult. As most people know, this is not just a cosmetic surgery, but it is to better help me breath properly (apparently i have been doing it wrong my whole life. go figure... >..>) But again this is just a consult, not an actual surgery. I will be bringing my doggo with me and crashing at my brother's place for those few days. The my in-laws are going to be in town the rest of that week. So I will be spending time with them.
Now, If any of you are interested in joining in on my AWESOME journey, send me a note asking for my discord server invite!! There are some awesome people who love to meet new people (myself included) as well as other artists (other than myself) who share art frequently. This also allows me to see how many people would like to see more art from myself. But we talk more than just art. There are other's who play Second Life, World of World craft, Pokemon, and so much more.
Thank you all for taking the time to read my journal! I hope to see you all in the discord server. <3
I want your opinions and input, please!!
Posted 6 years agoOk, So to all my watchers, i would like to know what kind of YCH's youd be interested in?!
What are some kinks ya'll enjoy? How many characters you wanna be with in a YCH? Do you want it to be something SFW or NSFW? What kind of backgrounds you want to see? Do you want some simple?
I was thinking about a comic YCH, but am unsure as to how to pull that off... >.> So I'm going to hold off on that until i figure it out.
Please keep in mind that i do have my limits as far as kinks/fetishes go: I WILL NOT DRAW--> Gore, Cub, Scat, Watersprts, Rape, and other extreme fetishes. No Macro, No more Vore (I find it a little difficult). No feral NSFw
Other than these, I am open to ideas.
If I so happen to choose someone's idea for a YCH, I will give you 2 options. OP1: You can get a 10% discount on one YCH slot (the YCH that was your idea) OR OP2: You get a 50% discount on one commission. You can only choose one. You DO NOT get both options (just so we are clear)
If you'd like to take a look at my prices, here they are: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27167645/ Me choosing an idea will not be determined by the actual person, but rather the idea. I will consult the ideas with my Mate and see which ones he likes and narrow down the options. I can't say for sure how long I'll leave this Journal open for the ideas. Who knows, i may just pick more than one. However the YCH's WILL be done one at a time. So keep watching me for any updates.
Thank you so much for your help and cooperation!! I can't wait to hear everyone's ideas. :3
What are some kinks ya'll enjoy? How many characters you wanna be with in a YCH? Do you want it to be something SFW or NSFW? What kind of backgrounds you want to see? Do you want some simple?
I was thinking about a comic YCH, but am unsure as to how to pull that off... >.> So I'm going to hold off on that until i figure it out.
Please keep in mind that i do have my limits as far as kinks/fetishes go: I WILL NOT DRAW--> Gore, Cub, Scat, Watersprts, Rape, and other extreme fetishes. No Macro, No more Vore (I find it a little difficult). No feral NSFw
Other than these, I am open to ideas.
If I so happen to choose someone's idea for a YCH, I will give you 2 options. OP1: You can get a 10% discount on one YCH slot (the YCH that was your idea) OR OP2: You get a 50% discount on one commission. You can only choose one. You DO NOT get both options (just so we are clear)
If you'd like to take a look at my prices, here they are: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27167645/ Me choosing an idea will not be determined by the actual person, but rather the idea. I will consult the ideas with my Mate and see which ones he likes and narrow down the options. I can't say for sure how long I'll leave this Journal open for the ideas. Who knows, i may just pick more than one. However the YCH's WILL be done one at a time. So keep watching me for any updates.
Thank you so much for your help and cooperation!! I can't wait to hear everyone's ideas. :3
YCH Update
Posted 6 years agoI am starting the sketches for the chibi characters for my recent YCH.
I apologize for the late start. I ran behind on my studies because i got my exam dates wrong so now im playing catch up, PLUS i had to go to the ER today due to extreme abdomine pain (idk wtf my body is trying to do to me recently) and turns out i had an ovarian cyst that burst... yay me... but ill have my YCH done within the week at most. ^^ just a tiny update.
I apologize for the late start. I ran behind on my studies because i got my exam dates wrong so now im playing catch up, PLUS i had to go to the ER today due to extreme abdomine pain (idk wtf my body is trying to do to me recently) and turns out i had an ovarian cyst that burst... yay me... but ill have my YCH done within the week at most. ^^ just a tiny update.
Feeling much better
Posted 6 years agoAlrighty... So after going through the pains of dry socket... I am not completely healed, but i have no more pain, thank the gods.
I have a few art trades i am doing. So once i am done with that, ill take commissions. ^^ I am not accepting anymore art trades at the moment. as i've got 3 to do already.
If you are interested in commissioning me, please see my prices (located on my page or you can just go here ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27167645/
Once you've decided, comment on this journal that you are interested and when I comment you back, expect a note. However, This will be first come First serve. and i will be taking... 3 commissioners. If you just want to get an estimate, I can provide that as well. This does not mean that you have to go through with the commission, but it will just give you a general idea.
If you have any questions, I would rather you ASK IN NOTES, that way this journal doesnt get drown out those who are interested.
I have a few art trades i am doing. So once i am done with that, ill take commissions. ^^ I am not accepting anymore art trades at the moment. as i've got 3 to do already.
If you are interested in commissioning me, please see my prices (located on my page or you can just go here ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27167645/
Once you've decided, comment on this journal that you are interested and when I comment you back, expect a note. However, This will be first come First serve. and i will be taking... 3 commissioners. If you just want to get an estimate, I can provide that as well. This does not mean that you have to go through with the commission, but it will just give you a general idea.
If you have any questions, I would rather you ASK IN NOTES, that way this journal doesnt get drown out those who are interested.
Doped up on Meds
Posted 6 years agoSo Friday morning i got my wisdom teeth pulled. Apparently I told the nurses to watch out for the blue dragons and dwarves that lived in the mountains. That I love dragons but everyone needs to be careful. I do remember dreaming about blue dragon and dwarves though. *shrugs* i only remember bits and pieces of convos. But anyway... We werent able to make a payment because someone stole my card information and decided to order pizza, pay over a $100 bucks for crunchyroll, and then paid 2 dating service websites.... >.< I am pissed. I honestly want them punished... Like i want to ruin their life... But ya know... that wont happen considering the bank cant give us any information about the person.
Anyway, I do have multiple works of art that i am working on. however i am not in my right mind to work on anything... I am doped up on oxycodonx. which is fun. >.> lol. Im surprised i was able to give everyone an update through here...
Anyway, I do have multiple works of art that i am working on. however i am not in my right mind to work on anything... I am doped up on oxycodonx. which is fun. >.> lol. Im surprised i was able to give everyone an update through here...
Who wants art?
Posted 6 years agoI am officially announcing, that i am open for commissions. I finally got everything nice and ready. So i will be taking 2 commissions for cell shading.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27167645/
send me a note if you are interested. this is first come first serve!! *smoochies*
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27167645/
send me a note if you are interested. this is first come first serve!! *smoochies*
Second Life
Posted 6 years agoSo i started getting back into second life after... 3+ years of having an account and have finally asked a friend to make my sona on second life. i mean right now im as close to my character as i've ever been in my life and its just getting better. lol.
so imma post some second life pics of my current sona. lemme know what yall think?! lol. Ill have a new folder in my gallery for second life. i lovew taking pics on there and it may become a regular thing. i spend maybe 30-60 mins taking pics and adjusting stuff to make the pics look good. I honestly didnt think this was possible. lol. so i hope that when you guys see my sona you'll like her for now. The current sona is only temporary so ill have my really sona soon. dunna when. as these thing take time.
so imma post some second life pics of my current sona. lemme know what yall think?! lol. Ill have a new folder in my gallery for second life. i lovew taking pics on there and it may become a regular thing. i spend maybe 30-60 mins taking pics and adjusting stuff to make the pics look good. I honestly didnt think this was possible. lol. so i hope that when you guys see my sona you'll like her for now. The current sona is only temporary so ill have my really sona soon. dunna when. as these thing take time.
OMG IM ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 6 years agoOk y'all!!! I built my new computer tower!!!!
With the help of my amazing hubby. lol. I finally have everything uploaded onto this computer. It took a bit longer than expected, but i got it all down now.
I just need a longer cord for my tiny art tablet. lol. It one of those small bamboo tablets that has to be plugged in. XP
Anyway, life update!!!!
While my hubby was gone for a military thing (about a month) I have been working on bettering myself. I want to feel good and happy agqain. So i am on anti-anxiety/depression meds which have been working out great for me. Getting new glasses so i dont get headaches while drawing. I have been taking multivitamins and those fat burner shakes to help me lose weight. I will be hitting the gym after i get all these appointments out of the way. Im going to a consult about getting my wisdom teeth pulled soon. And once that's paid off and i am healed, ill be getting braces (hopefully). Lastly I am currently in college now for veterinary technician. So lots of stuff has been going on.
I will make time for art. I know i havent been consistent with my art lately. I have no excuse that everyone hasn't already heard. From now on, i will not be making excuses for myself. Just because ive had my depression days (dark days as i call them) should not have been my excuse for anything, but at the time and in those moments, i dont really think realistically. if that makes sense. So my only excuse nowadays would be school. which is better than saying i was too depressed. >.>
I've got big plans for a lot of different things. Considering i've been feelling great about myself for the first time in a very long time. I feel a bit more confident and happy. I feel more active and ready for whatever comes my way. Most importantly i have been feeling more optimistic about things and have been handling situations a lot better than i have in the past. :)
So yeah, a lot has gone on in the last month. If you want things to change, you have to change yourself in a number of ways. Admiting to yourself that you do need help and sometimes its ok to ask for it when its needed. The rescources are mostly unlimited. Things get better. I can say that to the fullest now. So for anyone who feels down, depressed or has anxiety, don't be afraid to ask for help. Sometimes we all need a little nudge to get in the right direction and to be happy and confident with ourselves. You must love yourself if you hope to love the world around you.
Sorry for that little rant. Im sorry i havent checked FA in a while and i've been so quiet. but as ive said, sometimes you have to concentrate on yourself. Ya know? So with this i will be getting back to art shortly. and firstly ill be finishing those synth headshots. ;) Love and missed you guys. <3
With the help of my amazing hubby. lol. I finally have everything uploaded onto this computer. It took a bit longer than expected, but i got it all down now.
I just need a longer cord for my tiny art tablet. lol. It one of those small bamboo tablets that has to be plugged in. XP
Anyway, life update!!!!
While my hubby was gone for a military thing (about a month) I have been working on bettering myself. I want to feel good and happy agqain. So i am on anti-anxiety/depression meds which have been working out great for me. Getting new glasses so i dont get headaches while drawing. I have been taking multivitamins and those fat burner shakes to help me lose weight. I will be hitting the gym after i get all these appointments out of the way. Im going to a consult about getting my wisdom teeth pulled soon. And once that's paid off and i am healed, ill be getting braces (hopefully). Lastly I am currently in college now for veterinary technician. So lots of stuff has been going on.
I will make time for art. I know i havent been consistent with my art lately. I have no excuse that everyone hasn't already heard. From now on, i will not be making excuses for myself. Just because ive had my depression days (dark days as i call them) should not have been my excuse for anything, but at the time and in those moments, i dont really think realistically. if that makes sense. So my only excuse nowadays would be school. which is better than saying i was too depressed. >.>
I've got big plans for a lot of different things. Considering i've been feelling great about myself for the first time in a very long time. I feel a bit more confident and happy. I feel more active and ready for whatever comes my way. Most importantly i have been feeling more optimistic about things and have been handling situations a lot better than i have in the past. :)
So yeah, a lot has gone on in the last month. If you want things to change, you have to change yourself in a number of ways. Admiting to yourself that you do need help and sometimes its ok to ask for it when its needed. The rescources are mostly unlimited. Things get better. I can say that to the fullest now. So for anyone who feels down, depressed or has anxiety, don't be afraid to ask for help. Sometimes we all need a little nudge to get in the right direction and to be happy and confident with ourselves. You must love yourself if you hope to love the world around you.
Sorry for that little rant. Im sorry i havent checked FA in a while and i've been so quiet. but as ive said, sometimes you have to concentrate on yourself. Ya know? So with this i will be getting back to art shortly. and firstly ill be finishing those synth headshots. ;) Love and missed you guys. <3
Synths, Yall!!!
Posted 6 years agoOk, so I am up to 6 batches for characters turned to synths (headshots) Im almost done with batches 3 and 4. Have batch 5 sketched out and havent started on batch 6. So with that, I have 2 slots open for batch 6. Then i will be pausing the synth headshots, so i can catch up. Send everyone their headshots and then not get confused later (which will probably happen anyway, who knows. lol. )
So everyone can still comment after the last 2 slots for batch 6. however i will not make a comment or add you to a batch just yet. I need to take care of what i got first. :) Then i will add ppl to batches once again. I might do 4 more batches and then take a break to work on some other stuff. just keep an eye out on twitter and FA journals.
Age of the Synths Journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9054580/
Comment here for a chance at changing your character to a synth.
So everyone can still comment after the last 2 slots for batch 6. however i will not make a comment or add you to a batch just yet. I need to take care of what i got first. :) Then i will add ppl to batches once again. I might do 4 more batches and then take a break to work on some other stuff. just keep an eye out on twitter and FA journals.
Age of the Synths Journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9054580/
Comment here for a chance at changing your character to a synth.
Age of the Synths (if you want free art check this out)
Posted 6 years agoOK, so i honestly didn't expect everyone to like the headshot synths. I started doing it because i love the faces (to which i made it obvious) I am so thankful to 
who allowed his species to be open to everyone. He deserves all the credit for this amazing species!!
So with everyone liking them so much and considering I am more than happy to draw them, I will take on anyone who wants in on a headshot of their character turned synth. However i would really like everyone to check out VaderSans Twitter account and read about them on the posts he did about them. This way if you want one created you know the does and don't's. Also ya'll should totally follow him on twitter and FA.
I have 3 slots left on my 3rd batch, but this doesnt mean ill stop there. Ill keep doing the synth headshots until im tired of it honestly. So leave your ref sheet and ill work on them. These are completely free. Ill even send the character owners a small pic with just their characters face.
Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30530806/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30531306/
VaderSans Twitter: https://twitter.com/VaderSan (to take a look at the species info or go to his FA page)
who allowed his species to be open to everyone. He deserves all the credit for this amazing species!! So with everyone liking them so much and considering I am more than happy to draw them, I will take on anyone who wants in on a headshot of their character turned synth. However i would really like everyone to check out VaderSans Twitter account and read about them on the posts he did about them. This way if you want one created you know the does and don't's. Also ya'll should totally follow him on twitter and FA.
I have 3 slots left on my 3rd batch, but this doesnt mean ill stop there. Ill keep doing the synth headshots until im tired of it honestly. So leave your ref sheet and ill work on them. These are completely free. Ill even send the character owners a small pic with just their characters face.
Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30530806/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30531306/
VaderSans Twitter: https://twitter.com/VaderSan (to take a look at the species info or go to his FA page)
