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Posted 5 years agoPlease go to 
shortybat instead
shortybat insteadI'M NOT HEEEEERE
Posted 5 years agoThat time again to remind you all I don't post here! Got two more watchers I see. GO HERE INSTEAD: shortybat
I'll make a submission as well. lol
shortybatI'll make a submission as well. lol
NOT HEEEEEEEEEEREEEEEEE!
Posted 5 years agoYet another reminder that I don't use this account! Got another three new watchers for some reason. :v
I am here instead: shortybat
Poofing again for another month!
I am here instead:
shortybatPoofing again for another month!
Reminder that I don't post here anymore!
Posted 5 years agoAS A REMINDER: I DO NOT POST HERE!
Posted 5 years agoPlease watch my new account instead: shortybat
I've been pretty confused on why I'm getting more watchers here. lol...
shortybatI've been pretty confused on why I'm getting more watchers here. lol...
All moved over! New Account!
Posted 6 years ago shortybat is where I'll be now!My next step is slowly re-watching people (though won't watch friends yet until after a personal hiatus) and then gotta dewatch people here!
In a few more days I'll post an image with the notice, too! So new people can see I won't be posting art here anymore!
Slowing going to move accounts
Posted 6 years ago"27" is a cursed number for me at this point.
I turned 27 February 3rd, and I wanted this to be the best year for me.
But lo' and behold it ends up being my worst year.
Here's a list of what happened: https://www.deviantart.com/shortyba.....tive-808250878 + house was struck by lightning a few days after I posted that.
And currently without internet until maybe Sunday. lol
BUT because of this I've decided I need to be rid of the 27 in my username, even if it's all just coincidence. I hate this number now. It's STAINED.
If you want my new account now, it's here: shortybat, but just know I'll be posting a lot of art to it (though not all at once. I don't wanna spam people!)
Then when I update the new account with enough stuff, I'll link it here in an image!
I will not delete any art from here, however!! and I won't be re-posting all art. Just my faves!
Even though I have 5k watchers, I don't get many people interacting with me on here anyways, so I'm fine with losing the number. XD
I turned 27 February 3rd, and I wanted this to be the best year for me.
But lo' and behold it ends up being my worst year.
Here's a list of what happened: https://www.deviantart.com/shortyba.....tive-808250878 + house was struck by lightning a few days after I posted that.
And currently without internet until maybe Sunday. lol
BUT because of this I've decided I need to be rid of the 27 in my username, even if it's all just coincidence. I hate this number now. It's STAINED.
If you want my new account now, it's here:
shortybat, but just know I'll be posting a lot of art to it (though not all at once. I don't wanna spam people!)Then when I update the new account with enough stuff, I'll link it here in an image!
I will not delete any art from here, however!! and I won't be re-posting all art. Just my faves!
Even though I have 5k watchers, I don't get many people interacting with me on here anyways, so I'm fine with losing the number. XD
Chibi, Sketch, Trust Me Commissions open!
Posted 6 years agoIt will be better to view the commission stuff on my DA journal where formatting is better: https://www.deviantart.com/shorty-a.....open-807096613
Just know I don't do commissions through FA notes because of how quickly the notes delete past messages!
email or on DA will be best!
shortyantics27commissions[at]gmail.com
Just know I don't do commissions through FA notes because of how quickly the notes delete past messages!
email or on DA will be best!
shortyantics27commissions[at]gmail.com
Learning to be more open with my interests
Posted 6 years agoI've been talking a bunch again in this new discord server I'm in... and gosh I feel so accepted and validated. ;-; I didn't know this was what I needed.
The people in the server are all for taboo subjects in art, like I am. If you don't know much about me, I'm someone who LOVES exploring taboo subjects (ones I feel comfortable in), and there was a time for several years I posted whatever I wanted, which included noncon, gore, very emotional stress and more.
As time went on, I saw more and more people attacking those who draw/write about taboo subjects, whatever they may be, and it made me more and more afraid to share my own work. I would go through these rollercoaster emotions from "oh no don't post anything people would be angry at, I don't need that stress ;~; " to "I will draw what I want if it's allowed on that website. SUCK IT."
And flip flopping so much on that was getting more and more stressful.
Problem was, I didn't really have people I could truly talk about it with. Most of my friends may feel uncomfortable with it, while with other friends I don't know, really. And that's all good, too! Everyone has their preferences. But I didn't know that was hindering me to not have like-minded people for certain subjects... or more than one person to have like-minded thoughts, anyways.
But in this server... my gosh I've felt far more open. Even socially I've bloomed up. I feel like I'm a part of this community even though I've only been in for THREE DAYS. It makes me want to interact with people in there (when I can) as well as talk about my own stuff and share my own things.
I even felt the want to go into a voice chat. AHH. But I'm at the hospital with my mom right now so I can't. xD;
A little tangent there, but the point is I found a place where I can share my taboo interests with and have people be EXCITED about it.
I know there's people on here and other places I'm in as well that are also excited about the stuff I draw in that regard and want to encourage me, but it's having a little "private" community that's helping me far more since I know everyone in this place at least has similar thoughts or are rational about it!
And it's because of them I feel I'll be able to be "me" more and feel more comfortable with letting people go who really can't stand what I do.
I easily get upset, so when I saw favorite artists unwatch me when I mentioned the incest thing, or seeing friends talk bad against it, implying artists who draw it are horrible people, I wanted to hide away.
But, really, I need to let these people go if they can't handle it.
I know it will still be a hard thing to overcome for me because of my personality, but I now have people I can directly talk to about it to make me feel better. Having several people talk at once helps more than a single person.
I've been so scared of backlash, but having people who can back me up if any of that happens feels so nice.
Other people will try to force their viewpoint onto me, thinking I am a certain way because I draw certain things, but that says more about them than me.
I separate reality from fantasy. If other people can't, that's their issue. :/ Just because I DRAW something that's a "taboo" doesn't mean I condone it irl. Don't project that onto me.
I want to gain people who will back me up and/or like what I do, and understand where I'm coming from. I don't want to worry about those who'd hate me for it.
I hope with this being said, I can draw and show more on what I like to do, like how I used to be. I was happiest back then.
I am of the mindset of "draw what you want" with no limits.
I think the only art I'd really look down on is hate art... but in that case I'll ignore it. People can still draw what they want.
And if people draw things of my characters I wouldn't want to see, that just makes them as a jackass. And don't respect me. I still heavily believe in being respectful towards other artists/people and their wishes, but if it's your own story and world? Do what you want!
There are of course subject matter I wouldn't want to see/find gross, but that's on me to simply avoid it. If I see something I don't like, I can x out and go away. That's what I wish others would do, too.
WITH THAT SAID I do feel sites could do better with filter systems... or people did better tagging their own work. Make it easier for people to avoid the content they don't want to see! I wanna do better with that, too. I still wanna be a bit sensitive to those who may not like what I draw! Make it easier for them to avoid, but still being able to draw what I want!
I wanna be true to myself. <3 Others should be, too, as long as they aren't harming people irl without consent!
I'll be putting warnings on all my pages on what I do so people know straight away!
The people in the server are all for taboo subjects in art, like I am. If you don't know much about me, I'm someone who LOVES exploring taboo subjects (ones I feel comfortable in), and there was a time for several years I posted whatever I wanted, which included noncon, gore, very emotional stress and more.
As time went on, I saw more and more people attacking those who draw/write about taboo subjects, whatever they may be, and it made me more and more afraid to share my own work. I would go through these rollercoaster emotions from "oh no don't post anything people would be angry at, I don't need that stress ;~; " to "I will draw what I want if it's allowed on that website. SUCK IT."
And flip flopping so much on that was getting more and more stressful.
Problem was, I didn't really have people I could truly talk about it with. Most of my friends may feel uncomfortable with it, while with other friends I don't know, really. And that's all good, too! Everyone has their preferences. But I didn't know that was hindering me to not have like-minded people for certain subjects... or more than one person to have like-minded thoughts, anyways.
But in this server... my gosh I've felt far more open. Even socially I've bloomed up. I feel like I'm a part of this community even though I've only been in for THREE DAYS. It makes me want to interact with people in there (when I can) as well as talk about my own stuff and share my own things.
I even felt the want to go into a voice chat. AHH. But I'm at the hospital with my mom right now so I can't. xD;
A little tangent there, but the point is I found a place where I can share my taboo interests with and have people be EXCITED about it.
I know there's people on here and other places I'm in as well that are also excited about the stuff I draw in that regard and want to encourage me, but it's having a little "private" community that's helping me far more since I know everyone in this place at least has similar thoughts or are rational about it!
And it's because of them I feel I'll be able to be "me" more and feel more comfortable with letting people go who really can't stand what I do.
I easily get upset, so when I saw favorite artists unwatch me when I mentioned the incest thing, or seeing friends talk bad against it, implying artists who draw it are horrible people, I wanted to hide away.
But, really, I need to let these people go if they can't handle it.
I know it will still be a hard thing to overcome for me because of my personality, but I now have people I can directly talk to about it to make me feel better. Having several people talk at once helps more than a single person.
I've been so scared of backlash, but having people who can back me up if any of that happens feels so nice.
Other people will try to force their viewpoint onto me, thinking I am a certain way because I draw certain things, but that says more about them than me.
I separate reality from fantasy. If other people can't, that's their issue. :/ Just because I DRAW something that's a "taboo" doesn't mean I condone it irl. Don't project that onto me.
I want to gain people who will back me up and/or like what I do, and understand where I'm coming from. I don't want to worry about those who'd hate me for it.
I hope with this being said, I can draw and show more on what I like to do, like how I used to be. I was happiest back then.
I am of the mindset of "draw what you want" with no limits.
I think the only art I'd really look down on is hate art... but in that case I'll ignore it. People can still draw what they want.
And if people draw things of my characters I wouldn't want to see, that just makes them as a jackass. And don't respect me. I still heavily believe in being respectful towards other artists/people and their wishes, but if it's your own story and world? Do what you want!
There are of course subject matter I wouldn't want to see/find gross, but that's on me to simply avoid it. If I see something I don't like, I can x out and go away. That's what I wish others would do, too.
WITH THAT SAID I do feel sites could do better with filter systems... or people did better tagging their own work. Make it easier for people to avoid the content they don't want to see! I wanna do better with that, too. I still wanna be a bit sensitive to those who may not like what I draw! Make it easier for them to avoid, but still being able to draw what I want!
I wanna be true to myself. <3 Others should be, too, as long as they aren't harming people irl without consent!
I'll be putting warnings on all my pages on what I do so people know straight away!
I have a curiouscat now!
Posted 6 years agoMusings about my species (your thoughts?)
Posted 6 years agoDon't mind me, I just need somewhere to let out my thoughts that deal with my species, Venekai.
Venekai are a closed species, or an "exclusive" species to my closest of friends, and I still intend to keep them that way because they are very important to me. I've also been more and more attached to them the more I figure out about them.
I do love my Volatikai species as well. A lot, really! But with Venekai I've been having a lot more fun figuring out their cultures, history, how they generally behave and everything that deals with them. They really are very special to me.
And because they are so special, I keep wanting to share stuff about them. I DO want to have a place to have all their info, to share things about them and see if others would also be even bigger fans of them like I am.
I just have a few things that worry me from time to time, but I feel like I shouldn't really worry.
First, I feel like I'd be heavily disappointing people with them learning ALL about them, but then not being able to make their own. So I had limited the info I shared. And yet, I still share info, and I share my characters, and I would gladly talk all about them with those who would wanna know.
I also do have the false-Venekai, but they are extremely different... and in truth I'd feel uncomfortable with people making their false-Venekai act like or live like a real one.
But I also can't control that.
And why does it have to bother me so much? That I honestly don't understand. People aren't "stealing" my work or anything like that. They just like the ideas!
And then I do have this fear of "if I have all the info in one place, people could just steal it as well. I've worked so hard on it. Or, people will make their own Venekai anyways. They won't understand how they are as a species, and I'd hate to see them abused even if the person has good intentions."
With Volatikai I've loosened up by a lot. They are an open species after all, so I've been far more lax and have also enjoyed seeing what other people do.
And with my art in general, people will take and post where they want, and for the most part I just shrug. I'll just ask for credit if they seem reasonable enough!
I really, really want to loosen up more with Venekai. I want to not be scared of what I MIGHT see, and instead have fun with sharing new info, even though they'll stay as a closed species. I've been watching closely to the stuff White-Mantis shares, since she is also similar where hers are an exclusive species to her friends. I might even message her about it, who knows. I'll think!
I know there are simply those who would love to learn all they can about their favorite species (be it mine or other people's) and they have no actual desire to make their own. That's how I feel about Ama's species too, after all!
So I'm trying to channel that want and feeling and loosen up more. I want to share!! I need to not care what those who wouldn't respect me (or simply don't know/don't mean harm from it) do.
Why must it be so hard... ;3; I can only think it's because I do love my species so dang much (and may be a little stung from the past reactions from people, too, so it has scared me). Ahhh!!
I just wanna share everything!! And make it easier on people! ;;3;; It's fun to share and see how fans react. I love it.
Venekai are a closed species, or an "exclusive" species to my closest of friends, and I still intend to keep them that way because they are very important to me. I've also been more and more attached to them the more I figure out about them.
I do love my Volatikai species as well. A lot, really! But with Venekai I've been having a lot more fun figuring out their cultures, history, how they generally behave and everything that deals with them. They really are very special to me.
And because they are so special, I keep wanting to share stuff about them. I DO want to have a place to have all their info, to share things about them and see if others would also be even bigger fans of them like I am.
I just have a few things that worry me from time to time, but I feel like I shouldn't really worry.
First, I feel like I'd be heavily disappointing people with them learning ALL about them, but then not being able to make their own. So I had limited the info I shared. And yet, I still share info, and I share my characters, and I would gladly talk all about them with those who would wanna know.
I also do have the false-Venekai, but they are extremely different... and in truth I'd feel uncomfortable with people making their false-Venekai act like or live like a real one.
But I also can't control that.
And why does it have to bother me so much? That I honestly don't understand. People aren't "stealing" my work or anything like that. They just like the ideas!
And then I do have this fear of "if I have all the info in one place, people could just steal it as well. I've worked so hard on it. Or, people will make their own Venekai anyways. They won't understand how they are as a species, and I'd hate to see them abused even if the person has good intentions."
With Volatikai I've loosened up by a lot. They are an open species after all, so I've been far more lax and have also enjoyed seeing what other people do.
And with my art in general, people will take and post where they want, and for the most part I just shrug. I'll just ask for credit if they seem reasonable enough!
I really, really want to loosen up more with Venekai. I want to not be scared of what I MIGHT see, and instead have fun with sharing new info, even though they'll stay as a closed species. I've been watching closely to the stuff White-Mantis shares, since she is also similar where hers are an exclusive species to her friends. I might even message her about it, who knows. I'll think!
I know there are simply those who would love to learn all they can about their favorite species (be it mine or other people's) and they have no actual desire to make their own. That's how I feel about Ama's species too, after all!
So I'm trying to channel that want and feeling and loosen up more. I want to share!! I need to not care what those who wouldn't respect me (or simply don't know/don't mean harm from it) do.
Why must it be so hard... ;3; I can only think it's because I do love my species so dang much (and may be a little stung from the past reactions from people, too, so it has scared me). Ahhh!!
I just wanna share everything!! And make it easier on people! ;;3;; It's fun to share and see how fans react. I love it.
Upcoming contest! $180+ worth
Posted 6 years agoEdit: I'm taking off the start date, as I forgot I'll be gone for at least 10 days this month, and some other things need to be worked out first. So, I'll just make a start date once the needed things are finished, like finished info of Rika. I still plan to do a contest for sure though!
thelovelyechos and I will be holding a contest on August 1st! Or, at least, this is the planned date! If something comes up to where it has to shift, I'll let it be known!
But it will be a contest of Rika! :3 https://www.deviantart.com/shorty-a.....Love-787893622
I know the theme of them (being sibling lovers) isn't everyone's cup of tea, but the contest images won't have to be of them acting like lovers either! The basic prompt would be them simply interacting with each other in some way, though specifics and more with that will be said when the contest is live! Echo and I have to discuss it all first.
There's a few things her and I must finish before the contest, however!
I'll want to finish the "summary" of their lives together (so people can get a better idea of how they are)
and I need to raise more money for prizes! I have $100 saved so far (and I'll want at least $180), but I want to get as much as I can to give bigger prizes... and more prizes in general! I know they'll be hard to work with because their markings are very detailed.
I also feel there's something else I wanted to get done before then as well... can't quite remember, but I'm sure before the time comes!
We also plan to have the contest last 2 months! We know it will be the start of school season again, so wanna give people time!
You are also free to start planning an image if you'd like! I'd suggest not finishing anything or even posting anything until the contest is live, however! There could be some specifics that you'd really need to know!
thelovelyechos and I will be holding a contest on August 1st! Or, at least, this is the planned date! If something comes up to where it has to shift, I'll let it be known!But it will be a contest of Rika! :3 https://www.deviantart.com/shorty-a.....Love-787893622
I know the theme of them (being sibling lovers) isn't everyone's cup of tea, but the contest images won't have to be of them acting like lovers either! The basic prompt would be them simply interacting with each other in some way, though specifics and more with that will be said when the contest is live! Echo and I have to discuss it all first.
There's a few things her and I must finish before the contest, however!
I'll want to finish the "summary" of their lives together (so people can get a better idea of how they are)
and I need to raise more money for prizes! I have $100 saved so far (and I'll want at least $180), but I want to get as much as I can to give bigger prizes... and more prizes in general! I know they'll be hard to work with because their markings are very detailed.
I also feel there's something else I wanted to get done before then as well... can't quite remember, but I'm sure before the time comes!
We also plan to have the contest last 2 months! We know it will be the start of school season again, so wanna give people time!
You are also free to start planning an image if you'd like! I'd suggest not finishing anything or even posting anything until the contest is live, however! There could be some specifics that you'd really need to know!
Advice for you on tips! (when commissioning)
Posted 6 years agoI did this on DA a little while ago, but now with the shiny system here I thought this would fit well!
It may be best to only tip artists after they finished the commission for you (if you're commissioning them!)
I have seen several times on artist beware where a client would tip the artist before they began work, and then they have a bad experience with the artist.
Instead, it may be best to tip the artists after they are finished, because then you can decide how much they should get in tips based on communication, how long it took, quality, how nice they are, how much you like their work, and if you simply feel they deserve more and undercharged themselves!
I know I've tipped artists first, but I think it will be better after the fact so I can base it all on that! Especially if I feel they deserve it. Though, I could also not tip if I don't have enough money anyways. XD There's always that!
The shiny system makes it easier to give tips now. Though if the artist you got a commission from doesn't have shinies open, just go back to the paypal transaction, find their email, send money as "friends and family" and then send the tip!
I asked on artist beware if they felt this would be an okay way to give tips, since it's not paying for a service, and they believe it is fine!
It may be best to only tip artists after they finished the commission for you (if you're commissioning them!)
I have seen several times on artist beware where a client would tip the artist before they began work, and then they have a bad experience with the artist.
Instead, it may be best to tip the artists after they are finished, because then you can decide how much they should get in tips based on communication, how long it took, quality, how nice they are, how much you like their work, and if you simply feel they deserve more and undercharged themselves!
I know I've tipped artists first, but I think it will be better after the fact so I can base it all on that! Especially if I feel they deserve it. Though, I could also not tip if I don't have enough money anyways. XD There's always that!
The shiny system makes it easier to give tips now. Though if the artist you got a commission from doesn't have shinies open, just go back to the paypal transaction, find their email, send money as "friends and family" and then send the tip!
I asked on artist beware if they felt this would be an okay way to give tips, since it's not paying for a service, and they believe it is fine!
What sounds more interesting? (NSFW related)
Posted 6 years agoI am just curious. >3>
Would you rather see a longish sex comic that gives more panels to show most of the action (so several scenes of kissing, fondling/foreplay, all building up to the sex, and the sex itself showing many panels too). It would only be as a refined sketch with highlights.
Or would you rather see a sex scene with 2-3 frames (so a very mini animation, but you see it in motion)?
One of these things I'm for sure doing soonish, and the other I'd be doing later, but wanted to see with interest. :P
Would you rather see a longish sex comic that gives more panels to show most of the action (so several scenes of kissing, fondling/foreplay, all building up to the sex, and the sex itself showing many panels too). It would only be as a refined sketch with highlights.
Or would you rather see a sex scene with 2-3 frames (so a very mini animation, but you see it in motion)?
One of these things I'm for sure doing soonish, and the other I'd be doing later, but wanted to see with interest. :P
Friend is seeking an artist!
Posted 6 years agoWearing a splint/brace now
Posted 6 years agoThe other day I had a... severe melt down. One I'm actually scared of myself for. (PMDD really fricked with my mind).
What had caused the melt down was when I started to do art, my whole arm was going numb/felt tingly. It had been doing a bit of that off and on for a while now, but now it's almost constant.
My brain, for whatever reason, thought it was because of my weight gain. So I went into a massive depression, rather hating myself about it all, until PMDD finally subsided. I was then able to think clearly and realize that no, it's not my weight. It's my ganglion cyst on my wrist! It has been growing steadily for over 2 years now, and I think it has gotten to a point where it's pressing on a nerve so much it's causing my hand and arm to be numb-ish and tingly, being very uncomfortable.
So I did more research on it and heard stories from other people... and ultimately, it's not worth it to get surgery to get it out, cuz it can come back within a week to a few years. YA NEVER KNOW!
The best way is hoping it will go away on its own, in which to help with that I can limit the movement of my wrist. So, I went to Walgreens last night and got a splint/brace.
I think it's making a difference in a different way. xD; It's making me not notice the tingliness and numbness too much, and I think it will help me learn to use my whole arm to draw with instead of using my wrist! I THINK I can still do art! I can pick up a pencil and write/draw, so I think that should be okay. >3>
I was going to test it out today, but gotta go to work soonish so will have to hold that off. Well, maybe it will be okay... xD I have 2 hours until work. HMMM.
Just gotta eat first!!
I have no idea if this will actually help with making the cyst go away, but I'm hoping so! Some people said it went away OVER NIGHT, while google says it can take 12-16 months. It's different for everyone, pretty much!
Coworker suggested acupuncture, and others have said to try to have an over supply of vitamin D. I'll have to think about it. >3>;
What had caused the melt down was when I started to do art, my whole arm was going numb/felt tingly. It had been doing a bit of that off and on for a while now, but now it's almost constant.
My brain, for whatever reason, thought it was because of my weight gain. So I went into a massive depression, rather hating myself about it all, until PMDD finally subsided. I was then able to think clearly and realize that no, it's not my weight. It's my ganglion cyst on my wrist! It has been growing steadily for over 2 years now, and I think it has gotten to a point where it's pressing on a nerve so much it's causing my hand and arm to be numb-ish and tingly, being very uncomfortable.
So I did more research on it and heard stories from other people... and ultimately, it's not worth it to get surgery to get it out, cuz it can come back within a week to a few years. YA NEVER KNOW!
The best way is hoping it will go away on its own, in which to help with that I can limit the movement of my wrist. So, I went to Walgreens last night and got a splint/brace.
I think it's making a difference in a different way. xD; It's making me not notice the tingliness and numbness too much, and I think it will help me learn to use my whole arm to draw with instead of using my wrist! I THINK I can still do art! I can pick up a pencil and write/draw, so I think that should be okay. >3>
I was going to test it out today, but gotta go to work soonish so will have to hold that off. Well, maybe it will be okay... xD I have 2 hours until work. HMMM.
Just gotta eat first!!
I have no idea if this will actually help with making the cyst go away, but I'm hoping so! Some people said it went away OVER NIGHT, while google says it can take 12-16 months. It's different for everyone, pretty much!
Coworker suggested acupuncture, and others have said to try to have an over supply of vitamin D. I'll have to think about it. >3>;
How I will handle the warning!
Posted 6 years ago(just as a note, this isn't an April Fools post. I don't like making April Fools jokes. lol)
Thank you to everyone who gave their feedback on this journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9096165/
It gave me a lot of good insight!
I think what I'll do, is start having a little story blurb for any of my major characters (under the description!). That way it's not simply a warning, but can give a little briefing on what the story is about! So this also wouldn't just be on Aika and Ricin's images, but my other characters as well!
I've seen a few other character artists do this, too, and I feel that could be a great way to go about it! >3> I'll just have to figure out how to set it up and how to word the story blurbs! Once I figure those out I'll go in and edit every recent image with that info!
For older stories and pairings, like Pierce and Rose, I'll only add a story blurb whenever I actually draw them again... xD;;
The only downside to being more open about what Rika's story contains is that I can lose some mutual artists I look up to. It's already happened, and I feel a little sad about it. u3u But I understand, too, and I'll be okay with it. The only issue is then... I feel awkward to fave or comment on their stuff. xD;; Bwah! Oh well.
I don't want to shy away from the topics I'll explore just because it may get some people to unwatch me. I'll instead gain more watchers who are fine with those topics instead! Or simply like what I am doing/aren't super bothered by it.
Also a note: Echo, thelovelyechos, will go about it her own way (since we have 4 couples together)! She'll post whatever under her pictures in her own way, while I'll do my way with the blurbs!
Also have a cute of Rika that she did: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29874868/
And she has done a saucy image of them as well. Go look in her gallery to seee! >3>
Thank you to everyone who gave their feedback on this journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9096165/
It gave me a lot of good insight!
I think what I'll do, is start having a little story blurb for any of my major characters (under the description!). That way it's not simply a warning, but can give a little briefing on what the story is about! So this also wouldn't just be on Aika and Ricin's images, but my other characters as well!
I've seen a few other character artists do this, too, and I feel that could be a great way to go about it! >3> I'll just have to figure out how to set it up and how to word the story blurbs! Once I figure those out I'll go in and edit every recent image with that info!
For older stories and pairings, like Pierce and Rose, I'll only add a story blurb whenever I actually draw them again... xD;;
The only downside to being more open about what Rika's story contains is that I can lose some mutual artists I look up to. It's already happened, and I feel a little sad about it. u3u But I understand, too, and I'll be okay with it. The only issue is then... I feel awkward to fave or comment on their stuff. xD;; Bwah! Oh well.
I don't want to shy away from the topics I'll explore just because it may get some people to unwatch me. I'll instead gain more watchers who are fine with those topics instead! Or simply like what I am doing/aren't super bothered by it.
Also a note: Echo,
thelovelyechos, will go about it her own way (since we have 4 couples together)! She'll post whatever under her pictures in her own way, while I'll do my way with the blurbs!Also have a cute of Rika that she did: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29874868/
And she has done a saucy image of them as well. Go look in her gallery to seee! >3>
is it worth it to have the incest warning?
Posted 6 years agoUnder images of Ricin and Aika now I post this at the top:
"Notice:
Ricin and Aika are an incestuous couple. They are half siblings to each other, and have had a strong bond ever since Aika was born (as Ricin is a year older).
They are not human, though their own family is against their incestuous relationship. They go through a lot of pain and sorrow because of their choice to be together.
I separate fantasy from reality. Please keep their context in mind when commenting.
Troll comments will be deleted, but I’ll answer any curious questions.
Thank you."
Is it helpful that I give the context? I could just tag the image as "incest", but would that scare off more people rather than having a more "in your face" message at the top?
I just wonder, since whitemantis doesn't put any disclaimer and gives no fucks (which is very inspiring!)
I just can't decide if I want to "give no fucks" and not give context and post whatever, or have the context each time so people at least know? But if my message is actually helpful for people to not feel so weirded out or uncomfortable about it, I'll keep it!
That's my deciding factor! I wanna hear from those who may feel put off by the context, or are actually helped by the context!
Here's some images of Rika, too:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30881726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30671693/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29978801/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29935866/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28956869/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28727386/
"Notice:
Ricin and Aika are an incestuous couple. They are half siblings to each other, and have had a strong bond ever since Aika was born (as Ricin is a year older).
They are not human, though their own family is against their incestuous relationship. They go through a lot of pain and sorrow because of their choice to be together.
I separate fantasy from reality. Please keep their context in mind when commenting.
Troll comments will be deleted, but I’ll answer any curious questions.
Thank you."
Is it helpful that I give the context? I could just tag the image as "incest", but would that scare off more people rather than having a more "in your face" message at the top?
I just wonder, since whitemantis doesn't put any disclaimer and gives no fucks (which is very inspiring!)
I just can't decide if I want to "give no fucks" and not give context and post whatever, or have the context each time so people at least know? But if my message is actually helpful for people to not feel so weirded out or uncomfortable about it, I'll keep it!
That's my deciding factor! I wanna hear from those who may feel put off by the context, or are actually helped by the context!
Here's some images of Rika, too:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30881726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30671693/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29978801/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29935866/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28956869/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28727386/
Art Porn Pet Peeves!
Posted 6 years agoCuz WHY NOT. I wanna hear what your peeves are! Or just... things you don't like.
I don't... really have peeves with porn? There's stuff I'm not a fan of, but not quite as a peeve. lololol
Like, there's so many "knots" (like on a dog) that are drawn/made so they just are always big, and it gotta be shoved into the other character with a "pop". I do know why this happens, tho. xD For many I'm sure that's just more sexually appealing! I just prefer the realistic route. >3>
I also don't like when the sexual bits don't have any glistening look to them. I like me some SHINE. I also don't call this a peeve since... it's most likely realistic to not have a shine if the thing isn't wet. XD BUT I WANT ME SOME SHININESS. GIMME.
I'm not a fan of horse penises. They look ugly to me. So I guess a "peeve" could be that it looks REAAAALLY off and weird if the horse dong is on a non-horse? xD But people can draw what they want!! And I'll draw it too if I'm given the character to draw! No issues there!
I CAN'T THINK OF MORE.
I'll tell ya if I agree with ya or not. >3> cuz it be fun. lol
I don't... really have peeves with porn? There's stuff I'm not a fan of, but not quite as a peeve. lololol
Like, there's so many "knots" (like on a dog) that are drawn/made so they just are always big, and it gotta be shoved into the other character with a "pop". I do know why this happens, tho. xD For many I'm sure that's just more sexually appealing! I just prefer the realistic route. >3>
I also don't like when the sexual bits don't have any glistening look to them. I like me some SHINE. I also don't call this a peeve since... it's most likely realistic to not have a shine if the thing isn't wet. XD BUT I WANT ME SOME SHININESS. GIMME.
I'm not a fan of horse penises. They look ugly to me. So I guess a "peeve" could be that it looks REAAAALLY off and weird if the horse dong is on a non-horse? xD But people can draw what they want!! And I'll draw it too if I'm given the character to draw! No issues there!
I CAN'T THINK OF MORE.
I'll tell ya if I agree with ya or not. >3> cuz it be fun. lol
Artists who do comms, please read!
Posted 6 years agoI made this post on twitter, but would be good here as well!
I saw this: https://twitter.com/ThisBeSpitfire/.....54594936721408
And I could feel their anxiety high! And I feel this way as well, unless the artist says fixes are allowed.
SO PLEASE, if you show updates/the finished piece and you'd be okay with revisions, even if small (or big) please say so when you show!! It should help out those with anxiety a bit more, letting them know it's okay to ask for changes.
I've had horrible anxiety over commissions I've gotten, because they didn't show me wips (when in their ToS they'd show at least one for an approval) and then send it and say they hope I like it. There ends up being a lot of small mistakes that could have been fixed if they showed me a wip, or that could even be fixed on the final piece... but since they didn't say to me directly that I can ask for changes, my anxiety shoots up and I don't say anything at all. Some artists can get really angry, or be passive aggressive about it, and that scares me. I'm trying to do better with asking for changes (which is why I try to find people who WILL show wips and who WILL work with clients) but gosh it can be hard. :c
Because of my own anxiety, almost every time I show an update to a client, I let them know that I can fix anything or if I forgot anything to let me know. I want them to feel better with telling me I did something wrong! It will make the piece better in the end. ;3;
Because of this, I'm also thinking of allowing small fixes on "trust me" commissions. These types of commissions do give me anxiety from time to time since the point is they get no updates (because it's cheap and they are trusting me) but there are times I still forget tiny things. kjdfklsdjfblk
I heavily prefer working on commissions where I can show updates. xD;;
BUT YEAH!! Please keep these things in mind! ;w;
I saw this: https://twitter.com/ThisBeSpitfire/.....54594936721408
And I could feel their anxiety high! And I feel this way as well, unless the artist says fixes are allowed.
SO PLEASE, if you show updates/the finished piece and you'd be okay with revisions, even if small (or big) please say so when you show!! It should help out those with anxiety a bit more, letting them know it's okay to ask for changes.
I've had horrible anxiety over commissions I've gotten, because they didn't show me wips (when in their ToS they'd show at least one for an approval) and then send it and say they hope I like it. There ends up being a lot of small mistakes that could have been fixed if they showed me a wip, or that could even be fixed on the final piece... but since they didn't say to me directly that I can ask for changes, my anxiety shoots up and I don't say anything at all. Some artists can get really angry, or be passive aggressive about it, and that scares me. I'm trying to do better with asking for changes (which is why I try to find people who WILL show wips and who WILL work with clients) but gosh it can be hard. :c
Because of my own anxiety, almost every time I show an update to a client, I let them know that I can fix anything or if I forgot anything to let me know. I want them to feel better with telling me I did something wrong! It will make the piece better in the end. ;3;
Because of this, I'm also thinking of allowing small fixes on "trust me" commissions. These types of commissions do give me anxiety from time to time since the point is they get no updates (because it's cheap and they are trusting me) but there are times I still forget tiny things. kjdfklsdjfblk
I heavily prefer working on commissions where I can show updates. xD;;
BUT YEAH!! Please keep these things in mind! ;w;
Looking for artists who do these commissions!
Posted 6 years agoOne thing I'd like to do in the future is commission artists to draw/sketch scenes for me that I'd like shown of my various character's stories. I have such little time lately, and I have so many things I want to do, I can't possibly show all that I want to myself. ;3;
Of course, this doesn't mean I'd be commissioning anyone right now! I wanna do some research on people and know they'd be the ones I wanna work with.
I'd primarily look for sketch artists, and showing wips and working with me is a MUST! I want to be able to see the wips and to ask for changes where needed, and of course I'd pay any fees for large changes and the like!
Too many artists these days don't allow wips. u_u Even if as a sketch, I'd at least like to see a thumbnail, ya know? (some people have very clean sketches)
Also people who have a quick turn around time (within a month) and who don't mind getting several commissions.
Also of course lookin for humanoid artists.
Do you have any artists you'd recommend? Those you have commissioned a bunch? Of course you can recommend yourself as well, but a little harder for me to trust based on your word alone!
[b]
So as a recap this is what I'm looking for:[/b]
-humanoid artists (anime-influenced style. Not a fan of very realistic for my characters)
-artists that can do (cleanish) sketches (colored or not)
-those who show wips and are willing to make changes
-those who can finish within a month or so (preferably 2 weeks)
-who will allow me to post the finished piece to my gallery (with credit given of course, and of course the artist can post to their own as well!)
I will make my own personal list of people to refer back to when I feel ready!
Also, even if certain artists aren't open for commissions currently, I'd still love to have more people to watch! >3>
Of course, this doesn't mean I'd be commissioning anyone right now! I wanna do some research on people and know they'd be the ones I wanna work with.
I'd primarily look for sketch artists, and showing wips and working with me is a MUST! I want to be able to see the wips and to ask for changes where needed, and of course I'd pay any fees for large changes and the like!
Too many artists these days don't allow wips. u_u Even if as a sketch, I'd at least like to see a thumbnail, ya know? (some people have very clean sketches)
Also people who have a quick turn around time (within a month) and who don't mind getting several commissions.
Also of course lookin for humanoid artists.
Do you have any artists you'd recommend? Those you have commissioned a bunch? Of course you can recommend yourself as well, but a little harder for me to trust based on your word alone!
[b]
So as a recap this is what I'm looking for:[/b]
-humanoid artists (anime-influenced style. Not a fan of very realistic for my characters)
-artists that can do (cleanish) sketches (colored or not)
-those who show wips and are willing to make changes
-those who can finish within a month or so (preferably 2 weeks)
-who will allow me to post the finished piece to my gallery (with credit given of course, and of course the artist can post to their own as well!)
I will make my own personal list of people to refer back to when I feel ready!
Also, even if certain artists aren't open for commissions currently, I'd still love to have more people to watch! >3>
Re-writing Ellwood and Primrose + Sola lore
Posted 6 years agoI had a lot of brainstorming last night, so I wanna talk about it! This also goes with Sola lore as well!
So for the vast majority of my characters they live in around the same years, though could be just a few years difference. Sola, the world, (for my character's timelines and the majority of the info I put on there) is roughly the 1990's. Very similar technology! Because of that, and to make it easier on my mind, I do say it IS the 1990's. (with this in mind I could go back into my character's info and say the exact date they were born. XD That will help me figure out how old certain characters are in relation to my other characters!)
With that said, Ellwood and Primrose' story would be set in the 1500's (or maybe 1600's, I gotta research some more for what I want), before electricity is discovered (so, yes, in Sola electricity will be discovered at the same time as it was for us!)
Ell and Prim: https://www.deviantart.com/shorty-a.....rsty-727427185
During this time there were far more Venekai (what Ellwood is), but they still didn't interact much with humans, since humans were heavily against them. Though, there were more cases of Venekai feeding on humans as well, so that doesn't help their case. >3> lol
But there's also far more humans that have never heard of Venekai, either, depending on the area. Like where Ell lives, the Venekai there avoid humans and just hunt other creatures, as they know humans could seek revenge. Because of this, Prim will have never seen a Venekai before. She'll only have heard of "vampires" (yes they have that folk lore as well! But this time it comes from an actual living thing! A thing that is technically a real vampire! xD But the vampires in folk lore are of course more fantasy in their world and not reality, but they believe it's reality!)
I still want Prim to be in an arranged marriage (with someone her parents picked out for her, but they made sure the man was someone who actually fit Prim well!) but I want to change up the setting a little bit.
Before, I had it where she lived in a village that was all Elven Humans. That... doesn't fit well since Elven Humans are far more friendly with Venekai than regular humans (in general, anyways). Prim is half Elven and normal human, so she can easily be in a normal human society! I'd still want her in a smaller town/village tho, and she is looked at differently by others because of her being a halfling ('title' may change to something else). So something she can connect with to Ell about. Though, her husband would be a full Elven human, so he also gets some slack.
I don't have the specifics yet to what will happen in their story, but these are some key points:
Ellwood will still find Primrose crying in the forest, so that will be their meeting! (she's crying because she can't get herself to consummate her marriage with her husband because of fear of the act itself.)
Prim will fall in love with Ellwood the more time they have together but feels extremely guilty for it... since she has a husband.
The husband will be a kind guy, though he can get annoyed easily, and I want to make a few other things that will make it so he and Prim aren't as compatible as the parents thought they would be.
At some point, in some way, the husband finds out about Ellwood. BUT! I don't think he'll be super angry. I'm sure he and Prim will have to have a talk about the situation, but I ultimately want the husband to actually be okay with Prim and Ell. He'll see she's far happier with Ell... but the problem becomes they are two different species in two different worlds, so how would that work out? I don't see Prim wanting to live out in the woods, and I dunno if Ell would want to live in the town. But it also may not matter. I'll get to that. lol
Prim confides in Ell about her fear of sex, and he tries to help her with it. Also, Ell is still in a harem, where he's the Nanny Venekai (male that helps the dominant/stallion Venekai) that helps out with 3 older females, a teenage female, his own young son (who he actually doesn't see as 'his' son but he still loves Dagwood all the same!!)... and I think that's it. xD But yeah, he's not at all monogamous.
They do end up making love after many attempts to make her feel safe and okay (and this is when she's in love with him, too)... and then she becomes accidentally pregnant. They didn't think it was possible for her to get pregnant since they aren't the same species, but it happens.
She tries to keep this pregnancy secret, and maybe her husband helps her out and says the child is his own. Maybe.
But... during her pregnancy, later on, she is found out by other people. They believe she is carrying the devil's child because of her having had sex with a Venekai (vampire) and it becomes a witch hunt.
I am thinking they'll end up capturing her and Ellwood... and then end up killing them both. I don't know in what way yet, but I want them to have this kind of end.
That's the rough timeline. My goal is to have this as a story that can be told in one of my other character's stories, possibly. Maybe when I make even more characters and have another Venekai with a human. LOL
Like when you read about the Salem Witch Trials. Lol I bet there could be some artist depictions of what happened with Ellwood and Primrose as well! But in the modern day the actual story about them may be twisted slightly, so people don't know the full details and maybe lots of speculation and things they get wrong and don't know about. But I know everything. :3c Cuz I am their god. LOL
I'll have to design new clothes for Prim, or maybe just update the ones she does have. Ell won't have any clothes, maybe besides something to cover his crotch cuz Prim is a precious, innocent bean.
So for the vast majority of my characters they live in around the same years, though could be just a few years difference. Sola, the world, (for my character's timelines and the majority of the info I put on there) is roughly the 1990's. Very similar technology! Because of that, and to make it easier on my mind, I do say it IS the 1990's. (with this in mind I could go back into my character's info and say the exact date they were born. XD That will help me figure out how old certain characters are in relation to my other characters!)
With that said, Ellwood and Primrose' story would be set in the 1500's (or maybe 1600's, I gotta research some more for what I want), before electricity is discovered (so, yes, in Sola electricity will be discovered at the same time as it was for us!)
Ell and Prim: https://www.deviantart.com/shorty-a.....rsty-727427185
During this time there were far more Venekai (what Ellwood is), but they still didn't interact much with humans, since humans were heavily against them. Though, there were more cases of Venekai feeding on humans as well, so that doesn't help their case. >3> lol
But there's also far more humans that have never heard of Venekai, either, depending on the area. Like where Ell lives, the Venekai there avoid humans and just hunt other creatures, as they know humans could seek revenge. Because of this, Prim will have never seen a Venekai before. She'll only have heard of "vampires" (yes they have that folk lore as well! But this time it comes from an actual living thing! A thing that is technically a real vampire! xD But the vampires in folk lore are of course more fantasy in their world and not reality, but they believe it's reality!)
I still want Prim to be in an arranged marriage (with someone her parents picked out for her, but they made sure the man was someone who actually fit Prim well!) but I want to change up the setting a little bit.
Before, I had it where she lived in a village that was all Elven Humans. That... doesn't fit well since Elven Humans are far more friendly with Venekai than regular humans (in general, anyways). Prim is half Elven and normal human, so she can easily be in a normal human society! I'd still want her in a smaller town/village tho, and she is looked at differently by others because of her being a halfling ('title' may change to something else). So something she can connect with to Ell about. Though, her husband would be a full Elven human, so he also gets some slack.
I don't have the specifics yet to what will happen in their story, but these are some key points:
Ellwood will still find Primrose crying in the forest, so that will be their meeting! (she's crying because she can't get herself to consummate her marriage with her husband because of fear of the act itself.)
Prim will fall in love with Ellwood the more time they have together but feels extremely guilty for it... since she has a husband.
The husband will be a kind guy, though he can get annoyed easily, and I want to make a few other things that will make it so he and Prim aren't as compatible as the parents thought they would be.
At some point, in some way, the husband finds out about Ellwood. BUT! I don't think he'll be super angry. I'm sure he and Prim will have to have a talk about the situation, but I ultimately want the husband to actually be okay with Prim and Ell. He'll see she's far happier with Ell... but the problem becomes they are two different species in two different worlds, so how would that work out? I don't see Prim wanting to live out in the woods, and I dunno if Ell would want to live in the town. But it also may not matter. I'll get to that. lol
Prim confides in Ell about her fear of sex, and he tries to help her with it. Also, Ell is still in a harem, where he's the Nanny Venekai (male that helps the dominant/stallion Venekai) that helps out with 3 older females, a teenage female, his own young son (who he actually doesn't see as 'his' son but he still loves Dagwood all the same!!)... and I think that's it. xD But yeah, he's not at all monogamous.
They do end up making love after many attempts to make her feel safe and okay (and this is when she's in love with him, too)... and then she becomes accidentally pregnant. They didn't think it was possible for her to get pregnant since they aren't the same species, but it happens.
She tries to keep this pregnancy secret, and maybe her husband helps her out and says the child is his own. Maybe.
But... during her pregnancy, later on, she is found out by other people. They believe she is carrying the devil's child because of her having had sex with a Venekai (vampire) and it becomes a witch hunt.
I am thinking they'll end up capturing her and Ellwood... and then end up killing them both. I don't know in what way yet, but I want them to have this kind of end.
That's the rough timeline. My goal is to have this as a story that can be told in one of my other character's stories, possibly. Maybe when I make even more characters and have another Venekai with a human. LOL
Like when you read about the Salem Witch Trials. Lol I bet there could be some artist depictions of what happened with Ellwood and Primrose as well! But in the modern day the actual story about them may be twisted slightly, so people don't know the full details and maybe lots of speculation and things they get wrong and don't know about. But I know everything. :3c Cuz I am their god. LOL
I'll have to design new clothes for Prim, or maybe just update the ones she does have. Ell won't have any clothes, maybe besides something to cover his crotch cuz Prim is a precious, innocent bean.
NSFW commissions will be rare for a while
Posted 6 years agoI rarely am commissioned for NSFW stuff anyways, but I feel like I should say this.
I felt uncomfortable with the fee I added onto NSFW. It didn't sound fair to make people pay MORE more something that may take even longer to finish. Luckily I don't think I actually had anyone pay the fee...? Cuz I forgot or just felt uncomfortable to say it. Maybe it happened once? I don't remember, honestly.
BUT, with that said, I will only be taking NSFW commissions if it's a YCH or I specifically open for them. This is until I move out.
Cuz... I can't draw it freely when I am around family and I for sure can't draw it on my iPad while at work. Yeah, I do draw NSFW of personal stuff from time to time, but that's personal. xD I can go quickly on those or wait a long time with no worry.
Nudity, however, for me, is not considered NSFW. I can easily draw the character(s) with the "NSFW" parts not drawn until the very end. So no issue there!
Fetishy things are considered NSFW however, even if no nudity or suggestive themes are present (like vore). Certain ones can have a pass, but it's case-by-case!
Right now I dunno when I'll move out. :c Things at work aren't going so well...
I felt uncomfortable with the fee I added onto NSFW. It didn't sound fair to make people pay MORE more something that may take even longer to finish. Luckily I don't think I actually had anyone pay the fee...? Cuz I forgot or just felt uncomfortable to say it. Maybe it happened once? I don't remember, honestly.
BUT, with that said, I will only be taking NSFW commissions if it's a YCH or I specifically open for them. This is until I move out.
Cuz... I can't draw it freely when I am around family and I for sure can't draw it on my iPad while at work. Yeah, I do draw NSFW of personal stuff from time to time, but that's personal. xD I can go quickly on those or wait a long time with no worry.
Nudity, however, for me, is not considered NSFW. I can easily draw the character(s) with the "NSFW" parts not drawn until the very end. So no issue there!
Fetishy things are considered NSFW however, even if no nudity or suggestive themes are present (like vore). Certain ones can have a pass, but it's case-by-case!
Right now I dunno when I'll move out. :c Things at work aren't going so well...
Anyone else have PMDD?
Posted 7 years agopremenstrual dysphoric disorder
This is what I go through:
Lasting irritability or anger that may affect other people
Feelings of sadness or despair, or even thoughts of suicide
Feelings of tension or anxiety
Panic attacks
Mood swings or crying often
Lack of interest in daily activities and relationships
Trouble thinking or focusing
Tiredness or low energy
Food cravings or binge eating
Trouble sleeping (I think this is the only thing on the symptom list I don't go through...)
Feeling out of control
Physical symptoms, such as cramps, bloating, breast tenderness, headaches, and joint or muscle pain
A couple of years ago I stopped taking the birth control shot (took it specifically for PMDD) because I was told long-time use can make my bones brittle.
But... I'm feeling miserable.
Yesterday I noticed my mood dropped with the slightest thing that upset me, and at first I didn't think it was that long since my last period, but I got my period on January 1st... so this falls in line when my serotonin drops again, as it always seems to drop my mood 3-11 days before my period starts again.
I became worse and worse last night to the point I kept crying on my way home from work, and then went to bed feeling mentally destroyed, as if someone I loved died. My mind clings to everything negative about things happening around me and magnifies them 10-fold. It's extremely hard to talk to friends, but then I become even more depressed if I /can't/ talk to them, so it's this vicious cycle of "what do I do?? what's worse??"
And right now I'm at my mom's house, and I already told her what's happening to me, but most things she says is causing me lots of frustration, and so is her dog (who is a 8 month old puppy) and I'm having a very hard time thinking about the things I'm saying, and as the list says above I've lost interest in a lot of my usual things I love to do.
It's so effing crazy as well, cuz after a few days of this madhouse, after a good sleep and waking up the next day I do a 180, not being able to fathom how I even felt that way before.
So... I've just been wondering if I should put myself back on the shot ;_; and shrug at the risks.
I won't do the pill, as I am HORRIBLE with remembering, and my coworker showed me what she had being under her skin on her forearm, and that would make me hate that feeling (she had me tough it!! nonononononono!!) and then the other options.... ;____; can't do those either for personal reasons.
I want to know if any of you have to deal with PMDD, and what you do... like if you don't take birth control, how do you handle the few days each month where it's living through hell? It has been close to ruining friendships for me, but luckily the vast majority of things on my mind STAY in my mind. I avoid talking about things because I know it will pass. But then the same stupid thoughts happen again and again each time I go through this.
I hate this so damn much...
So I'm sure I disappointed some thieves last night.
Posted 7 years agoI was at work, slowly cleaning up the store from inventory, and it was around 5pm (we close at 6pm). I see 5 kids (4-6 people actually, I don't remember the exact number) walk to the back of the store (also know my store is long instead of wide, the back door is at the back of the store, too. My register is in the middle of the store, but to the right side).
The kids look between 11-15, and maybe one of them was an adult?? They were all very short, and one looked older but didn't get a good look at his face.
Anyways, they go to the back of the store rather quickly, and that already seems suspicious to me, so I turn my body and have my face in their general direction, though I'm not looking at them directly.
Also, the back door is open. It's fine though because I had all my personal belongings on me, and the back room is a mess. There's a bunch of garbage back there, pretty much, and the only thing they may want to steal are some cookies and donuts from the night prior. (it would be way easier to simply steal product from the front and leave).
So like 3 of them keep glancing my way, and I SWEAR I heard one of them say "she's looking". So I keep looking in that direction since they are just standing around, kind of looking at things but clearly not anything in particular. Then a different customer asked the price of something, so I turn to her for a moment and say "I can tell you, just one sec" and then I walked to the back of the store, past the kids, and close the door (even though I was curious if they'd actually go in. lol)
I then go back to the front of the store and tell the customer the price of the cards she's looking to buy. Sure enough the 4-6 kids (and maybe one adult, still don't know) walk back past me and out the door.
If they were really trying to get into the back room... lol they failed.
It amused me though.
I've been a lot more careful now since I HAD been stolen from before. I now have a phone wallet, so it's always connected to my phone, and I keep my backpack at the registers with me, put into one of the "cubby" areas. I have chains and things on it, too, that I can hear.
Soooo I wanna believe I disappointed some thieves. lol.
The kids look between 11-15, and maybe one of them was an adult?? They were all very short, and one looked older but didn't get a good look at his face.
Anyways, they go to the back of the store rather quickly, and that already seems suspicious to me, so I turn my body and have my face in their general direction, though I'm not looking at them directly.
Also, the back door is open. It's fine though because I had all my personal belongings on me, and the back room is a mess. There's a bunch of garbage back there, pretty much, and the only thing they may want to steal are some cookies and donuts from the night prior. (it would be way easier to simply steal product from the front and leave).
So like 3 of them keep glancing my way, and I SWEAR I heard one of them say "she's looking". So I keep looking in that direction since they are just standing around, kind of looking at things but clearly not anything in particular. Then a different customer asked the price of something, so I turn to her for a moment and say "I can tell you, just one sec" and then I walked to the back of the store, past the kids, and close the door (even though I was curious if they'd actually go in. lol)
I then go back to the front of the store and tell the customer the price of the cards she's looking to buy. Sure enough the 4-6 kids (and maybe one adult, still don't know) walk back past me and out the door.
If they were really trying to get into the back room... lol they failed.
It amused me though.
I've been a lot more careful now since I HAD been stolen from before. I now have a phone wallet, so it's always connected to my phone, and I keep my backpack at the registers with me, put into one of the "cubby" areas. I have chains and things on it, too, that I can hear.
Soooo I wanna believe I disappointed some thieves. lol.
