Sorry to say, but it's too small for my tastes. If I have a hand held I prefer to be able to see a bigger screen than that.

Nothing wrong with me. Just having 2 months being away from work has made me extremely relaxed and lazy. Personally the only thing I really want to do is play video games, stream movies and enjoy this part of my life care free. Not every day I get something like this so I'm just taking advantage. I'll be heading back to work unfortunately in late May. Not looking forward to wearing a mask or being close to people who could be carrying the virus.

I'm introverted, so I didn't really feel the need or feel stir crazy being locked up. Kinda enjoyed not being around people these last two months. The question is how long until the stress of being around people gets me back into that slump again.

And yes I'm concerned about the virus... just not so concerned because the only thing I going out for was grocery pick up. The only thing I miss is just going out to the movie theater to be honest.

Mentally I'm currently at peace, but that will change...

You could put me up at a remote base up in antarctic then give me a bunch of books, video games and movies and I'd be the happiest son of a bitch in the world.

Watched this a few weeks ago, kinda depressed me more than entertained me. I mean it had some cool sci-fi elements, but in the end it was depressing as hell... though I don't want to spoil the ending if people didn't watch it.

Was buying cart games. Opening up the box, smelling that new video game smell. NES, SNES and N64 were my systems growing up. Still have my games, took good care of them... sadly I'll probably have to change the battery out of the n64 games sometime in the future.

But yea, that new video game smell... of freshly molded plastic with chips and stuff inside of it. Was nice too when you put a game in it would load up instantaneously. Now I get a new game have to wait 10-20 minutes to install... then 2-3 hours to download a day 1 patch. Yea video games are complicated now-a-days, but at least the older games didn't have micro transactions and that my old video games were not trying to hook me into loot box gambling.

However Spider-man for ps4 was a superb game... and Half Life Alyx was spooky as fuck to play through.

Been at home enjoying my self isolation by watching shows, playing video games and day dreaming of some playful carnivores. I try not to read into the news so much, but it is scary. Wouldn't want to be in New York City right now. Hope everyone is doing okay and that the infection rate goes down, but with all the stupid people that might not be the case.

To those who responded to the last journal, thank you very much. Sorry I didn't respond to the comments, just was feeling really down and was overwhelmed that day. Getting another request for role play made me go into a dark mindset. I know people like my characters, but I'm not really much of a player these days. My other worry is if I start a scene my interest will wane rather quickly and I don't really want to disappoint anyone.

Keep in mind my life is hectic at the moment and what free time I do have I want to use to recharge. Essentially I'm at the point where all I want to do is listen to an audio book in a dark room with my eyes closed. While there are times when I'm talkative I'd rather keep it to that. Writing up role play poses feels like too much work. Playing video games feels that way too, I don't even want to press buttons on a game controller. I never thought I would see this day in my life when I don't even want to be playing video games. My guild in WoW probably has booted me by now, since it's been like 6 months since I've had the drive to mash buttons while staring at a computer screen.

Occasionally I may play a game for a few days, but the desire wanes at a point. I want to play some open world cooperatives, but what friends I do have are playing games I have no interest in... *Cough* like monster hunter *cough*

Keep in mind to those on discord, reason I don't respond is probably because I'm busy or I'm sleeping which is normal for felines I guess.

While I have a bunch of characters, I've never really role played as them. As I've posted new images it's nice to receive comments from people who really like them. The problem is when I can sense the disappointment in people when I say I really don't want to role play as said characters. Then comes the argument as to why I have these characters. When I first started years ago when Shorty, Malkin and Nero were my only characters was a time when my preferences didn't match up well with others. I know as time went on and more people seemed to share my preferences my desire to role play become non-existent. Perhaps due to real life just making me more tired then anything else.

Back then there were characters I truly did love. Problem being is that well, the people who created them would give two shits I really liked them. The problem being, I loved the design but they were not a fit for me personality wise. To be honest when I really thought about things I decided I was just going to create my own characters to help counter my desire to be noticed by these people. Not their fault as I've come to understand they are probably already hammer by numerous others or who feel their friendship bus is now over full. So more characters were created, then I started commissioning them... which got me noticed. Part of me wanted to be noticed, because I felt I would perhaps meet people who felt the same way as me. Problem being though is that those people who want to interact with those characters I really didn't want to play as, but day dream about instead.

So yea, I'm a very big disappointment to people. No one really cares about Nero, the character I really want to play as. I want to be a human interacting with a non-human character. I don't want to be a big dragon or dinosaur, but a human interacting with a big friendly dragon/dinosaur. Just seeing people wanting to gobble up Nero or cuddling him, would probably make me feel so better. But it's them wanting to be interacting with my other characters mostly. I feel completely bad when I become nothing more than a disappointment to them when I tell them I'm not really into playing as the character they now fanboy/girl over.

Though now I'm just too personally tired to role play as a human anyways... since I'm mostly just a very very tired human in real life. The reason why I create characters or commission things is that seeing such artwork makes me feel better... gives me a morale boost when I really need one. Seeing others who love same things helps me feel not so weird. Nice to see more people into willing/endo stuff now-a-days. I just wish I could find the energy that my younger self used to have when the options of play were so limited for me.

Oh well. Sorry for being disappointing folks.

As you all know Nero has a dragon form, though funny enough some people didn't know this.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9019897/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20576659/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16514570/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27062206/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10627953/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22100189/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22938918/

Damn didn't realize I commissioned that much of him with that form, sadly no dragonesses or male dragons decided to kidnap him. Probably because he's a nerdy dragon and I'm sure nerdy dragons get the same kind of non-love the human kind get... as much as I know.

But considering he hangs out heavily with dinosaurs too, should he get a dinosaur form? I know a few people told me this in chat, just wonder what everyone else would think of this?

Next part would be finding an artist I can convey dinoification to. I already have some idea, as his dinosaur form would have traits from several different carnivore species.

Buy my cat a nice cat bed, soft and warm looking. Cat pees in bed and goes back to laying in a amazon box the cat bed came in that I had placed on the floor. Several weeks later, still lays in the box while soiled cat bed is thrown out.

Thank you to those who notified me. I just put in a ticket and hopefully things will soon be resolved.

Considering the last Journal had so many comments. Which one of my characters are your favorite? You can also list other peoples characters as well if you are just here for the vore/endo stuff. Hell even tell me about entertainment characters, might give me another movie or show to look into.

A little birdie told me Endo is more in style these days. Kinda surprised me since way way way back in the day, perma or digestion was a big thing. Remember being mocked for my preferences and frustrated with the lack of action because... well I was endo. This led me trying the other side of the spectrum and being traumatized a little. Then the few folks who I used to role play with who went to other side, "LoL sorry, preferences changed."

Kinda sucks because now I have a hard time keeping my attention on a role play since I have little free time to enjoy... that or I'm just too lazy to write up long paragraphs.

So who's a Endo bro?

n/t

Anyone else who has watched this... Was it just me or was it really hard to follow this series? I mean bad guys invade, witcher goes on his quests... same kingdom that was destroyed is visited by the witcher in later episode still in one piece. What happened to the possum guy? Oh and the Witcher was in the kingdom all along? even though he was having adventures while it's downfall happened? Apparently it was trying to be like game of thrones with the gore and sex factors, but given that it kept jumping from present to past until the Witcher catches up kinda killed it for me a little bit. How about those of you who watched it?

I mean growing up as a kid they were things to look forward to, but when I became an adult the joy of them waned... the only good thing is that I can get off from work, but that's about it.

I really do enjoy seeing maw shots with hands playing around inside. >.> Makes me day dream those are my hands feeling up that maw. *Cue the funky porn music*

I'm currently enjoying the Mandalorian, the only thing I've been watching on disney +.

The coffee cup will appear by Cersei when she is thirsty, she will take of drink of poison... then the coffee cup will sit on the Throne. Dany and Jon Snow will open up a Starbucks and Jaime and his wife Brienne will stroll into the establishment with captain Phasma's helmet under her arm with a smirk, "I convinced him to come back with the help of the Force." Then Yoda's ghost will pop out of no where and do a song and dance about how Fan's Suck with Mickey mouse playing at the drums. Then we cut back to Jon and Dany smiling as Drogon mounts Ghost so in the next GoT show we get wolf dragons.

Well at least End Game was superb.

As for the other two, will have to find other things to make my life feel less depressing.

This last one was probably inspired by Jurassic World.

Essentially standing out in some rain storm, big T-rex stomps up to me. You know the whole like it can't see me like in the first movie. Roars in my face, gives me a great view of everything inside than snaps his jaws shut. Takes one sniff before snorting, "Your one of those willing types... yuck." Then I hear some feminine voice scream, "Oh my god it's so big." The tyrano turns his head in some direction and utters, "Bingo..." before stomping away. I sigh heavily as if the creatures in my dreams have conflicting preferences before spotting a raptor looking at me. It tilts it's head in a inquisitive fashion before asking, "Wanna Fuck?" Then I wake up and wonder what I had that caused that to enter into my head.

Grabbing a person and just screaming your rage into their face, but you can't because of repercussions... or fear you will say something in which will cause a shitty turn of events. Each and every day I feel hollow and devoid of something. Right now you could completely isolate me away from the human race and I would be so happy.

It's been over a year since I last posted anything. Amazing is it not?

Who even bothers to read these things, since most journals I see is from people advertising for commissions open. Would be nicer if I could set things up so I only see friends journals.

Karlos has been posting quite a bit of new art recently, I would check his page out if I were you guys. Though some of you may be already doing so as he posts similar interests that both I and you share. ;)

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/Karlos/

Watch, comment and favorite the shit out of him, he deserves it.

Being held underground and milked for sea men doesn't sound too bad. Though I do member wookies and x-wings. You member wookies and x-wings? I member them.

Wished I had one so I could go back in time to make a bet in Los Vegas.

Though given that I'm lazy, a lotto ticket would have been easier and probably more lucrative.

Just looking at these reactions are pissing me off, people are showing their anger to the wrong people. If you are going to get mad at someone, get mad at Hillary Clinton and the DNC. Between her and Bernie, she was the least favorable and she had ALMOST ALL of those super delegates. You know, the bastards who's opinion matter more then the people voting on the future delegate of the democrat party. If Bernie got the nomination we would be having a different outlook today, but because Crooked Hillary as Donald Trump liked to call her and her 30 years of flip flopping excess baggage lost. So get pissed off at her, she lost it for you, not the people who didn't trust her and didn't vote for her because of it.

But you know the funny thing? She did win the popular vote, but what really screwed you this election was the electoral college. You know, that thing that makes the millions of votes for a candidate useless if the other candidate gets the majority in that state. The thing that makes certain areas of the USA not even have a voice towards our candidates. Maybe, just maybe stop being little brats and channel your energy into getting that changed so we don't get another president who doesn't win the majority of the popular vote.

You can disagree with me, you can get angry with me but I don't care. You know why I don't? Notice how I've been lacking in being social? or being around? Because I can't stand people anymore. Funny how people have turned me anti-social.

Also I voted for the independent candidate. I voted for him because I did not like the other two choices. If you are thinking I should not have the right to vote because of my decision, then you can get off of that high horse you rode on and ram your head up it's ass and breathe in deeply. I made my choice for my reasons and I will be damned if people are going to make me feel bad for a decision I felt was right.

The battle between Giant Douche and Turd Sandwich is over.

Was adorable... was in tears in certain parts of the movie. Sadly given that there were plenty of seats in the theater and annoying family had to park themselves right behind me and my friends. Their little twat of a kid mumble things and made noise throughout the movie. Would have been a more enjoyable experience if it weren't for that.