just lonely fuck who is a sore loser.

Seems like the handful of art pieces failed to do any attention whatsoever.

well...
I AM NOTHING.

Always were and am nothing.

It made links to my mods unusable.
now it says I need to give my ID to have permission to use external links in description.

only workaround is removing https www to make URL be viewed as plain text.

I heard people had it worse and got their channels removed because AI moderator went full retard on them, nuking their channels.

I wonder if I get nuked...

I consider uploading videos on other platforms. maybe Vidlii? although Vidlii lacks proper moderation and you can see shock videos plenty of times. At least Vidlii gives me feels of old 2007 youtube.

Each time I draw art for someone, hoping to be friends with them, I receive silence in exchange.

I get nothing out of it.

Hope you enjoy art posts more than I do.

I know that nobody cares. Whatever desire to talk to is gone. Because I know, nobody wants me here.
Maybe it's the learned helplessness speaking, but it sure does look like it.

Don't worry, I'll eventually draw the stuff you like I don't like a lot.

Another comes and so she goes...
I wish you stayed with me for longer, but life sometimes cuts short so suddenly.
Goodbye.

should include most friends and most watchers.

I like many of you, and I sadly forget about hundreds of people, then I suddenly remember I forgot about you, as I was pre-occupied with life.

So I'm thinking of making quick made drawings, dedicated to each person.

I'll have to consider the sources of them, be it here on FurAffinity, or various other sites.

Seeing how many watch me, I can assume my que log will be enormous.

I just want to learn to make fast art projects and long projects, cuz when I do long projects, there's nothing posted for days and months, so I need to plan out my scales of arts.

Hopefully that doesn't burn me out.

https://youtu.be/bFx38QFBqzM

forgot to post journal reminder

Another marvel rivals stream

https://youtu.be/NF2L3a4_aeo

Hope it will be greater year!

I wish we had wholesome chat...


Thank you for Fur Affinity.

well... guess I see no reason to make more model mods...

I see no reward doing art
I kept doing, thinking it would make a difference, but no.
nothing is getting better with any art.
it gets worse and worse
well, my shitty ass mspaint stuff is low garbage tier, so I shouldn't have expect anything.

I overestimated my worth...
I overhyped myself...
I am wrong...
I am alone...

most days are wasted being alone. im about to go crazy. everything failed

I am greatly disappointed that I once again had no group to play with. almost nobody cared.

My hindered learning gets worse with each month.
I no longer have mental capacity to learn new things
Anyone who dares to teach me, I reject incoming knowledge.
I cannot even play games I never played before, without wasting time on simple decisions.

I feel no satisfaction making art. it's suffering. I hate it.

it will get worse.

save your Bowser copies locally

https://steamcommunity.com/app/4000/eventcomments/4352242083121060015?snr=1_2108_9__2107&ctp=102

https://twitter.com/Wario64/status/.....47737150198206

Inspire me please, guys. I want to make myself and you happy with art. Please.

Each Time I make anything trying to draw attention - it always fails, never making a desired attention.

https://youtu.be/xMm9cd7ebOI

https://youtu.be/RUnlfiJ_DnY
https://youtu.be/NlpYigjfxMk
https://youtu.be/luOp8J_Nz3U
https://youtu.be/LQIVu-lGqas
https://youtu.be/NvvlZyR1FQg

Sharing some OST from videogame. also added some video background taken from the game

I thank everyone who gave their precious time to me. You helped me a lot in tough times.
But I don't want to beg you again and again, as you are busy with your tough times.


So... I will be going alone now... It was good while it lasted.

I'm sorry for wasting your time.

Today I had to bury my kitten.
We didn't spot her when she jumped into washing machine.
She wasn't even 4 months old...

Tell me what you want me to draw? Any ideas?