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Posted 4 years agoAlright then, here we go, let us spin this circus up ONE MORE TIME!
Everything with my dad got resolved, he's doing well, and recovering. He's having a bit of a rough time managing his new leg, but he is happy with it and he's not in near so much pain, so that's good.
In February, I was *officially - finally on paper -* diagnosed with an Autoimmune disorder, and Polyarthralgia. Polyarthralgia is like arthritis in several joints all at once. Pain, swelling, enflamed nerves, all the fun stuff.
In March, I dealt with a massive Kidney infection that almost drove me insane, but it got handled over the next few weeks, and saw to me recovering well.
In May, my landlords told me they were selling the house I live in. I'm upset, but I can't blame them, they don't want to deal with a property so far away anymore. And it isn't a bad thing for them. I'm upset, but it's not them being malicious.
That said - the first lady who looked at the house wanted to buy it. For herself to live in. What that means is that I have to move.
The stress of being so afraid of losing not only my house, but having to rehome my animals ( which I will probably have to do ) put me in the hospital last week. I've gotten out, and recovered, but fuck it all man -- it's exhausting. The situation has put me in a vicious downward spiral, and I had to make an emergency appointment with my therapist because it's bad to contemplate jumping off bridges.
On top of all of this, I'm having to seriously consider having my eldest doggo put down sometime soon. He's become incontinent to the point that he'll make a mess while he's asleep, and just sleep in it - and through it - and be covered in mess when morning comes. His mind is willing and playful as ever, but his body - he has cancer - is failing him. And I just don't want to make him suffer, or make him have to continue living out days where he sleeps in his own mess even if he gets a bath every day because of it.
If you guys wanna donate, or help out, or anything ... here is my Ko-fi. Give it a boost, or repost my tweets when I go live for streaming.
https://ko-fi.com/shouyousei
Everything with my dad got resolved, he's doing well, and recovering. He's having a bit of a rough time managing his new leg, but he is happy with it and he's not in near so much pain, so that's good.
In February, I was *officially - finally on paper -* diagnosed with an Autoimmune disorder, and Polyarthralgia. Polyarthralgia is like arthritis in several joints all at once. Pain, swelling, enflamed nerves, all the fun stuff.
In March, I dealt with a massive Kidney infection that almost drove me insane, but it got handled over the next few weeks, and saw to me recovering well.
In May, my landlords told me they were selling the house I live in. I'm upset, but I can't blame them, they don't want to deal with a property so far away anymore. And it isn't a bad thing for them. I'm upset, but it's not them being malicious.
That said - the first lady who looked at the house wanted to buy it. For herself to live in. What that means is that I have to move.
The stress of being so afraid of losing not only my house, but having to rehome my animals ( which I will probably have to do ) put me in the hospital last week. I've gotten out, and recovered, but fuck it all man -- it's exhausting. The situation has put me in a vicious downward spiral, and I had to make an emergency appointment with my therapist because it's bad to contemplate jumping off bridges.
On top of all of this, I'm having to seriously consider having my eldest doggo put down sometime soon. He's become incontinent to the point that he'll make a mess while he's asleep, and just sleep in it - and through it - and be covered in mess when morning comes. His mind is willing and playful as ever, but his body - he has cancer - is failing him. And I just don't want to make him suffer, or make him have to continue living out days where he sleeps in his own mess even if he gets a bath every day because of it.
If you guys wanna donate, or help out, or anything ... here is my Ko-fi. Give it a boost, or repost my tweets when I go live for streaming.
https://ko-fi.com/shouyousei
Absolute Insanity
Posted 5 years agoHi guys, Shou here.
So ... my life took a fucking wild ass turn these last two months. Let me give y'all a timeline.
A little Background info; My dad has been having leg, and feet problems for almost two years at this point. A few years ago he had stints put in the femoral arteries in his legs, he has heart problems, yanno? So he goes to the doc and is like - "Yo, my feet hurt bad, and my legs are sore, what's up with this shit doc?" And the doctor tells him it's arthritis in his foot. And sends him to a podiatrist.
He goes to see the foot doctor, and the doctor tells him - "Sorry, this is a vascular issue, not your feet."
He goes back to the heart doctor and gets told - "Nope, definitely your feet, sorry man. Go back to the podiatrist."
He goes to the foot doctor who examines his feet, and says - "You have an infection in your toes, on both feet, here are some antibiotics. But you have blockages in your legs, it's pretty clear. Get the vascular issue treated."
August 3 - The vascular surgeon who I'll call Dr. Heart examines him and is like, "Oh shit, yeah bro, your legs are all blocked, lets set you up for surgery."
August 11 - Dad goes in for a Femoral Arterial Bypass on his LEFT leg.
September 13 - Dad goes in for a Femoral Arterial Bypass on his RIGHT leg. But things don't get any better. I begin talking to his doctors.
October 16 - Dad gets signed into a rehabilitation center to start working on building his strength. The doctors at the rehab hospital are like - "Whoa, dude, your foot is majorly discolored, we don't think you're getting any bloodflow."
Dr. Heart is like, "Nah, you have bloodflow, you're fine."
October 26 - Dad gets sent home on Dr. Heart's suggestion, being told - "You started rehabilitation too early, relax at home a while longer."
October 27 - Dad bumps his RIGHT foot on the table in his kitchen and his big toe falls off.
THAT'S RIGHT FOLKS! MY DAD'S TOE FALLS THE FUCK OFF!
He goes to the ER, and get's told - "OH SHIT! Your foot is dead, it has to come off!"
October 30 - Dad has his RIGHT leg amputated above the knee.
So that is where I am. I've been tracking what I could from NY, while he's in GA, which is hard AF. But I've been in talks with his doctors since September. I've been trying to get them to take my father's case more seriously. I'm upset. I'm *LIVID*. I'm going to be traveling down to visit him in about 3 weeks to help with everything that I can. But... I'm at a loss here people. I... I don't even know where to start with things. It's been - it's been rough.
So ... my life took a fucking wild ass turn these last two months. Let me give y'all a timeline.
A little Background info; My dad has been having leg, and feet problems for almost two years at this point. A few years ago he had stints put in the femoral arteries in his legs, he has heart problems, yanno? So he goes to the doc and is like - "Yo, my feet hurt bad, and my legs are sore, what's up with this shit doc?" And the doctor tells him it's arthritis in his foot. And sends him to a podiatrist.
He goes to see the foot doctor, and the doctor tells him - "Sorry, this is a vascular issue, not your feet."
He goes back to the heart doctor and gets told - "Nope, definitely your feet, sorry man. Go back to the podiatrist."
He goes to the foot doctor who examines his feet, and says - "You have an infection in your toes, on both feet, here are some antibiotics. But you have blockages in your legs, it's pretty clear. Get the vascular issue treated."
August 3 - The vascular surgeon who I'll call Dr. Heart examines him and is like, "Oh shit, yeah bro, your legs are all blocked, lets set you up for surgery."
August 11 - Dad goes in for a Femoral Arterial Bypass on his LEFT leg.
September 13 - Dad goes in for a Femoral Arterial Bypass on his RIGHT leg. But things don't get any better. I begin talking to his doctors.
October 16 - Dad gets signed into a rehabilitation center to start working on building his strength. The doctors at the rehab hospital are like - "Whoa, dude, your foot is majorly discolored, we don't think you're getting any bloodflow."
Dr. Heart is like, "Nah, you have bloodflow, you're fine."
October 26 - Dad gets sent home on Dr. Heart's suggestion, being told - "You started rehabilitation too early, relax at home a while longer."
October 27 - Dad bumps his RIGHT foot on the table in his kitchen and his big toe falls off.
THAT'S RIGHT FOLKS! MY DAD'S TOE FALLS THE FUCK OFF!
He goes to the ER, and get's told - "OH SHIT! Your foot is dead, it has to come off!"
October 30 - Dad has his RIGHT leg amputated above the knee.
So that is where I am. I've been tracking what I could from NY, while he's in GA, which is hard AF. But I've been in talks with his doctors since September. I've been trying to get them to take my father's case more seriously. I'm upset. I'm *LIVID*. I'm going to be traveling down to visit him in about 3 weeks to help with everything that I can. But... I'm at a loss here people. I... I don't even know where to start with things. It's been - it's been rough.
Shoupdate!
Posted 5 years agoHello everyone, Shou here.
So a lot of you have probably been wondering where the heck I’ve been the last two months. Well, it turns out – I’ve been really sick. I’ll give you guys a small breakdown, but most of this is just going to be general information since I wanna keep a lot of my medical stuff private. I have been suffering from pretty bad joint pain, and for a while there I couldn’t go up and down the stairs without crying because of how bad the joints in my hands, wrists, ankles, and knees were.
I went to the doctor when it got this bad and they ran me through a battery of tests and medications, and slowly discovered over the past weeks what worked and what didn’t. I was diagnosed with a few things; including a simple (but not so simple solution) autoimmune disorder with reactive arthritis. It explains why I get so sick so easily, and why my joints hurt so bad. The arthritis is new, but an expected development, and now we’re just figuring out medicine and treatments for me going in the future. Along with extra lab tests to treat more of the underlying causes.
What does this mean?? I’m still going to be working of course, now that I am on medicine and beginning to feel better. But I am a bit on the slower side as I try to minimize the damage to my joints. As the coming weeks go, however, I should be getting back up to speed due to the medications and looking forward to seeing all your wonderful faces in my streams again! I have missed you guys a lot, and I have especially missed working and just hanging out!
So in the coming days look for me to announce a Livestream and come hang out with me!
Your support means everything!
So a lot of you have probably been wondering where the heck I’ve been the last two months. Well, it turns out – I’ve been really sick. I’ll give you guys a small breakdown, but most of this is just going to be general information since I wanna keep a lot of my medical stuff private. I have been suffering from pretty bad joint pain, and for a while there I couldn’t go up and down the stairs without crying because of how bad the joints in my hands, wrists, ankles, and knees were.
I went to the doctor when it got this bad and they ran me through a battery of tests and medications, and slowly discovered over the past weeks what worked and what didn’t. I was diagnosed with a few things; including a simple (but not so simple solution) autoimmune disorder with reactive arthritis. It explains why I get so sick so easily, and why my joints hurt so bad. The arthritis is new, but an expected development, and now we’re just figuring out medicine and treatments for me going in the future. Along with extra lab tests to treat more of the underlying causes.
What does this mean?? I’m still going to be working of course, now that I am on medicine and beginning to feel better. But I am a bit on the slower side as I try to minimize the damage to my joints. As the coming weeks go, however, I should be getting back up to speed due to the medications and looking forward to seeing all your wonderful faces in my streams again! I have missed you guys a lot, and I have especially missed working and just hanging out!
So in the coming days look for me to announce a Livestream and come hang out with me!
Your support means everything!
Commission List
Posted 7 years agoCommission List
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Hello folks!
Posted 7 years agoHow ya doing folks? Well, I hope. I'm recovering from everything that I've dealt with these past two years. Those who follow me or see me live streaming end up missing a lot of the emotional difficulties I have. Hell, a lot of my good friends aren't aware of the struggles I go through because I make a huge effort to keep things quiet. But I'll tell you guys what's been happening and give you a bit up to date on my life.
Three years ago my grandmother - my guardian my whole life - passed away because of an advanced staph infection due to complications from a poorly healed injury from a car wreck eleven years previous. A month after I returned home, I discovered I was pregnant. Six weeks later I miscarried. Depression ate me up inside, and I struggled really hard to manage anything. It took me almost two years to get to a place where I was 'stable' again and I wasn't tortured by my friend's announcements of babies, or pregnancies.
I still really struggle when I see the announcements. Especially because I had another miscarriage not too long ago. It hurts - it's hard. And it's made my entire life twist upside down and right side up. I'm an introverted person and I managed to barely hold myself together.
On the plus side, I'm coping well and getting my life back in order. I've taken fresh commissions (for anyone who is waiting on one from during my troubled times in my life, I am *so* sorry, and I will get in touch with you to determine if you still want that, or if you want a refund. In moving computers and switching things around I lost a lot of files and access to things, but I'm going through older PayPal records to hunt everyone down.)
Commissions that I've taken will be done in no particular order but will be posted here soon. If you've applied for a commission but haven't been invoiced, I just haven't gotten to you yet. Please be patient with me! I'll be away at MEPACon this weekend playing tabletop games and getting some much-needed support from my friends in real life. Look for the journal after this one to mention who is on my commission list.
Three years ago my grandmother - my guardian my whole life - passed away because of an advanced staph infection due to complications from a poorly healed injury from a car wreck eleven years previous. A month after I returned home, I discovered I was pregnant. Six weeks later I miscarried. Depression ate me up inside, and I struggled really hard to manage anything. It took me almost two years to get to a place where I was 'stable' again and I wasn't tortured by my friend's announcements of babies, or pregnancies.
I still really struggle when I see the announcements. Especially because I had another miscarriage not too long ago. It hurts - it's hard. And it's made my entire life twist upside down and right side up. I'm an introverted person and I managed to barely hold myself together.
On the plus side, I'm coping well and getting my life back in order. I've taken fresh commissions (for anyone who is waiting on one from during my troubled times in my life, I am *so* sorry, and I will get in touch with you to determine if you still want that, or if you want a refund. In moving computers and switching things around I lost a lot of files and access to things, but I'm going through older PayPal records to hunt everyone down.)
Commissions that I've taken will be done in no particular order but will be posted here soon. If you've applied for a commission but haven't been invoiced, I just haven't gotten to you yet. Please be patient with me! I'll be away at MEPACon this weekend playing tabletop games and getting some much-needed support from my friends in real life. Look for the journal after this one to mention who is on my commission list.
A year later - FWA arrives again!
Posted 7 years agoWell well well! Here we are again, a year later!
Hello everyone, Shoupup here. Fen did his final Furry Weekend Atlanta announcement the other day, and here I am with the final (and only) one from my end! We’re having a Panel again this year, but no merch booth. (I enjoy getting to walk around too much, and Fen also wants a chance to better explore without rushing back to the table!)
Making Adult Adventure Games (Trials in Tainted Space) + Meet & Greet
Are you interested in producing your own erotic visual novel or adventure game? Do you enjoy games like Corruption of Champions (CoC) or Trials in Tainted Space (TiTS)? Then this is the panel for you! Fenoxo (of CoC & TiTS fame) along with the lovely, talented Shou (a staff artist) will put on a presentation of what all goes into making such highly erotic, customization-laden games, followed by trivia, Q/A, and generally hanging out. Much like our games, this panel will be 18+ only! This is your chance to chill out with the developers of one of the biggest projects on Patreon and maybe win some free swag in the process. See you there!
So there we have it, I look forward to seeing you all around!
Hello everyone, Shoupup here. Fen did his final Furry Weekend Atlanta announcement the other day, and here I am with the final (and only) one from my end! We’re having a Panel again this year, but no merch booth. (I enjoy getting to walk around too much, and Fen also wants a chance to better explore without rushing back to the table!)
Our panel is Friday, April 6th at 10:30 PM at “Panels Dock 6.”
Making Adult Adventure Games (Trials in Tainted Space) + Meet & Greet
Are you interested in producing your own erotic visual novel or adventure game? Do you enjoy games like Corruption of Champions (CoC) or Trials in Tainted Space (TiTS)? Then this is the panel for you! Fenoxo (of CoC & TiTS fame) along with the lovely, talented Shou (a staff artist) will put on a presentation of what all goes into making such highly erotic, customization-laden games, followed by trivia, Q/A, and generally hanging out. Much like our games, this panel will be 18+ only! This is your chance to chill out with the developers of one of the biggest projects on Patreon and maybe win some free swag in the process. See you there!
So there we have it, I look forward to seeing you all around!
Thanks so much for the favorites!
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone!
I wanted to thank everyone for the favorites, but it's a long -long, long- long list!
So thanks a bunch ;
Bao_Shun_Yuan, Moonlight_Fox, louiseleon, Austin4u269, the gravekeeper, DragonTeufel, Blackmai, Nyrrim, TheGabester, n666, Kaizer_Ryu83, LucyNek0, SonicNo1Fanatic, Westy92, Vercursar, Kiba89, spacemarine1989, TamwellAndCo, Linway501st, MysFurry99, Dudertron, g4mer, jumping0wolf, moonsw, dax1, Blitscreet, Halodude283, Texxx, ariedren, JuroNovak, Creepy_the_Creeper, ousire, AllyCorramana, Sarahvixen, xvious, allegan2, enigma-II, InuDemon19, Nightwing, Inachi, LeoTen, K13-ZAR, Nerdytigerfox, nomadbunny, iyronrain, Mr.Under, rwbyfan, HopefulTech, Fawkes1, Nova_the_bat, tobias2287, lonewolfe23, hermisz, lucario515, Nanbu, blasen, Marcus_Trinnias, Furrery, Ryodramon, f22raptor, azureroseac, dinonickp, Naumwolf, EraDragon, The_Kazbat, Lunarmage, Crimsondragonblade, BooRat, 13withinfinity, AlbelWolf, SolarDelton, toreg12, Xoil, jyoumon, rexnano, Lucidum,schoolofKes, WeylinTheBunlin, FinWolfsky, metastable, ambelurm, Jamesgargoyle, QwertyCody, nalkoreayma, Volskar, Nightshade_W0LF, Coon, Cholf, Roxxas, demon16, DrCuddlebug, Flamespitter, Group17, Veladynee, Xolarinf, Friskybunbun, Ramin, JinseFhang, Cross-Fox, lenn333, Anubis_Cruger, johnnyd2, furrydan21, ichigo88, ruathan, Nurrr, sonicgamer, FluffyBastion, renti, Downloader, bigben28, Nakuuro, youarecrazedlol, Zed80, Sammi_Roja
Thanks so much to all of you! <3
I wanted to thank everyone for the favorites, but it's a long -long, long- long list!
So thanks a bunch ;
Bao_Shun_Yuan, Moonlight_Fox, louiseleon, Austin4u269, the gravekeeper, DragonTeufel, Blackmai, Nyrrim, TheGabester, n666, Kaizer_Ryu83, LucyNek0, SonicNo1Fanatic, Westy92, Vercursar, Kiba89, spacemarine1989, TamwellAndCo, Linway501st, MysFurry99, Dudertron, g4mer, jumping0wolf, moonsw, dax1, Blitscreet, Halodude283, Texxx, ariedren, JuroNovak, Creepy_the_Creeper, ousire, AllyCorramana, Sarahvixen, xvious, allegan2, enigma-II, InuDemon19, Nightwing, Inachi, LeoTen, K13-ZAR, Nerdytigerfox, nomadbunny, iyronrain, Mr.Under, rwbyfan, HopefulTech, Fawkes1, Nova_the_bat, tobias2287, lonewolfe23, hermisz, lucario515, Nanbu, blasen, Marcus_Trinnias, Furrery, Ryodramon, f22raptor, azureroseac, dinonickp, Naumwolf, EraDragon, The_Kazbat, Lunarmage, Crimsondragonblade, BooRat, 13withinfinity, AlbelWolf, SolarDelton, toreg12, Xoil, jyoumon, rexnano, Lucidum,schoolofKes, WeylinTheBunlin, FinWolfsky, metastable, ambelurm, Jamesgargoyle, QwertyCody, nalkoreayma, Volskar, Nightshade_W0LF, Coon, Cholf, Roxxas, demon16, DrCuddlebug, Flamespitter, Group17, Veladynee, Xolarinf, Friskybunbun, Ramin, JinseFhang, Cross-Fox, lenn333, Anubis_Cruger, johnnyd2, furrydan21, ichigo88, ruathan, Nurrr, sonicgamer, FluffyBastion, renti, Downloader, bigben28, Nakuuro, youarecrazedlol, Zed80, Sammi_Roja
Thanks so much to all of you! <3
Illness and Updates
Posted 8 years agoHey, guys!
Well now, it's been a hot minute. Why for? Simple enough, I've been hella fuckin' busy, but I've also been sick. Granted the sickness has been recent, still - it's kept me bed bound for the last two weeks, and still, has a hold on me for another four days at least.
I'm hoping by Monday I'll be able to go back to my normal drawing/work schedule. To those who are curious, it's an infection that sank its nasty claws into me. I've been on antibiotics and nausea medicine that has kept me sleeping these last two weeks, it's *sucked*.
But, that's all for my update. I'll be posting shittons of art when I get back into it. See you guys soon!
Well now, it's been a hot minute. Why for? Simple enough, I've been hella fuckin' busy, but I've also been sick. Granted the sickness has been recent, still - it's kept me bed bound for the last two weeks, and still, has a hold on me for another four days at least.
I'm hoping by Monday I'll be able to go back to my normal drawing/work schedule. To those who are curious, it's an infection that sank its nasty claws into me. I've been on antibiotics and nausea medicine that has kept me sleeping these last two weeks, it's *sucked*.
But, that's all for my update. I'll be posting shittons of art when I get back into it. See you guys soon!
Hey guys! News + FWA
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone!
First off, thank you so much for all the faves on the recent art, everyone. I'd love to have thanked you all individually, but there were a lot and quickly. xD So I'm afraid I'll just have to thank you here!
On to other news -
Well, well, well – What have we here? News! That’s what.
You folks ever heard of Furry Weekend Atlanta? Yes? No? Well buckle up sweet cheeks, cause I’ma tell you all about it! As you can guess, it’s a convention that’s being held in Atlanta during April 6-9th this year. The theme? Game on.
“Shou? What’s that mean for us? What’re you telling us this useless information for?” EASY PEASY!
FenCo is going to be there as a Dealer, and doing a Panel! Or at least, Fenoxo and I (the every lovely Shouyousei) will be there this year.
We’ll have merchandise for you guys to purchase; Buttons, Bookmarks, Flash drives loaded with art and stories, stickers and game codes! (And maybe if you guys are super interested, badges). So if you live in Atlanta, or are going to be in the area, come stop by! When I have our Dealer Den map position, I’ll be sure to post that up for you guys. You can download the FWA app and see our profile, and info there.
http://i.imgur.com/TAvMttO.png
Our panel will be an After Dark Meet and Greet panel. I look forward to getting to see people, and to actually talk to some fans!
AD Panel I (M103/4/5) Saturday
10 pm Shou and Fenoxo Meet & Greet
http://www.furryweekend.com/
Addendum : Since people are curious about the merchandise… Yes, there might be a chance to purchase left over merchandise after the convention. We’ll see what we have left, and it’ll be put up on offer to buy. So do keep an eye out!
First off, thank you so much for all the faves on the recent art, everyone. I'd love to have thanked you all individually, but there were a lot and quickly. xD So I'm afraid I'll just have to thank you here!
On to other news -
Well, well, well – What have we here? News! That’s what.
You folks ever heard of Furry Weekend Atlanta? Yes? No? Well buckle up sweet cheeks, cause I’ma tell you all about it! As you can guess, it’s a convention that’s being held in Atlanta during April 6-9th this year. The theme? Game on.
“Shou? What’s that mean for us? What’re you telling us this useless information for?” EASY PEASY!
FenCo is going to be there as a Dealer, and doing a Panel! Or at least, Fenoxo and I (the every lovely Shouyousei) will be there this year.
We’ll have merchandise for you guys to purchase; Buttons, Bookmarks, Flash drives loaded with art and stories, stickers and game codes! (And maybe if you guys are super interested, badges). So if you live in Atlanta, or are going to be in the area, come stop by! When I have our Dealer Den map position, I’ll be sure to post that up for you guys. You can download the FWA app and see our profile, and info there.
http://i.imgur.com/TAvMttO.png
Our panel will be an After Dark Meet and Greet panel. I look forward to getting to see people, and to actually talk to some fans!
AD Panel I (M103/4/5) Saturday
10 pm Shou and Fenoxo Meet & Greet
http://www.furryweekend.com/
Addendum : Since people are curious about the merchandise… Yes, there might be a chance to purchase left over merchandise after the convention. We’ll see what we have left, and it’ll be put up on offer to buy. So do keep an eye out!
Well... back to the Shou!
Posted 9 years agoHey everyone!
I know I've been MiA the last two weeks, and the reasons why well - they're pretty good.
1) I went to the Hospital (Monday) for pain in my lower right abdomen, and right flank. Turns out? Kidney stones. Not surprising, I've had them before. It was agony all the same. Tuesday I had minor surgery, blasted those stones and went home that evening about 8 ish. I proceeded to sleep for the next three days.
2) Friday - August 12, my birthday. BACK IN THE HOSPITAL for continuing 8-9 out of 10 agony. Hurting so bad I'm vomiting. Turns out? Pneumonia. Been on antibiotics and pain meds for that since combined with my surgery left me damn near impossible to move around.
The result? I've been out of commission for two weeks because of illness, and sleeping. I lost 20 pounds because I couldn't manage to eat for nearly six days straight and I finally seem awake enough and well enough to exist again. Today is my last day of antibiotic medication for the pneumonia, and then I should hopefully be good to go!
I'll be starting up streams, and getting back to work swift as can be.
In other news!
I'm planning to go to both Furry Weekend Atlanta (2017), and Anthro Con (2017). Why? Hopefully I'll be there representing FenCo with a booth of merch for Trials in Tainted Space. We'll see! Keep an eye out for updates and more concerning that as time moves on! :3
I know I've been MiA the last two weeks, and the reasons why well - they're pretty good.
1) I went to the Hospital (Monday) for pain in my lower right abdomen, and right flank. Turns out? Kidney stones. Not surprising, I've had them before. It was agony all the same. Tuesday I had minor surgery, blasted those stones and went home that evening about 8 ish. I proceeded to sleep for the next three days.
2) Friday - August 12, my birthday. BACK IN THE HOSPITAL for continuing 8-9 out of 10 agony. Hurting so bad I'm vomiting. Turns out? Pneumonia. Been on antibiotics and pain meds for that since combined with my surgery left me damn near impossible to move around.
The result? I've been out of commission for two weeks because of illness, and sleeping. I lost 20 pounds because I couldn't manage to eat for nearly six days straight and I finally seem awake enough and well enough to exist again. Today is my last day of antibiotic medication for the pneumonia, and then I should hopefully be good to go!
I'll be starting up streams, and getting back to work swift as can be.
In other news!
I'm planning to go to both Furry Weekend Atlanta (2017), and Anthro Con (2017). Why? Hopefully I'll be there representing FenCo with a booth of merch for Trials in Tainted Space. We'll see! Keep an eye out for updates and more concerning that as time moves on! :3
I return! & Other News
Posted 9 years agoHey guys!
I've returned from my trip to Virginia, which was awesome. I got to spend three days with my hubby, and we did a few fun things. Namely go down to Virginia beach and walk around the local mall. Being together was the best part of it. :3
That being said, time to get back to work! I've got loads of stuff and I'm crazy behind!
I also made a GoFundMe - why? Because I desperately need to upgrade my office, and all my money has to be dedicated elsewhere. If I manage to make enough from it, I'll be upgrading my desk, chair and whatever else I can think of to help with my work. I might even get a new tablet (Huion, I'm looking at you). We'll just have to see!
Thanks guys!
GoFundMe
I've returned from my trip to Virginia, which was awesome. I got to spend three days with my hubby, and we did a few fun things. Namely go down to Virginia beach and walk around the local mall. Being together was the best part of it. :3
That being said, time to get back to work! I've got loads of stuff and I'm crazy behind!
I also made a GoFundMe - why? Because I desperately need to upgrade my office, and all my money has to be dedicated elsewhere. If I manage to make enough from it, I'll be upgrading my desk, chair and whatever else I can think of to help with my work. I might even get a new tablet (Huion, I'm looking at you). We'll just have to see!
Thanks guys!
GoFundMe
To my Recent Watchers!
Posted 9 years agoHello everyone!
I'm so pleased that so many of you have stepped up and started to watch me! Nothing would make me happier than getting to thank all of you individually, but unfortunately, fA has that pesky posting limit, and yells at me after I get through about 10-15 shouts. So to circumvent that I want to thank all of you here. <3
Thank you all so very much!
Wow! I wish I could name you all individually, but fA apparently has a posting limit for that. xD
I'm so pleased that so many of you have stepped up and started to watch me! Nothing would make me happier than getting to thank all of you individually, but unfortunately, fA has that pesky posting limit, and yells at me after I get through about 10-15 shouts. So to circumvent that I want to thank all of you here. <3
Thank you all so very much!
Wow! I wish I could name you all individually, but fA apparently has a posting limit for that. xD
Where to find Shou...
Posted 9 years agoSo!
The next time fA decides to shit itself, you guys can find me...
The next time fA decides to shit itself, you guys can find me...
https://shouyousei.sofurry.com/ < -So Furry
https://www.weasyl.com/~shouyousei <-Weasyl
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/shouyousei/ <- Furry Network
http://shouyousei.tumblr.com/ <-My Tumblr
http://shouart.weebly.com/ <-My Website
https://twitter.com/Shoyousei <-TwitterRant
Posted 9 years agoYou know - it'd be nice to get a break once in a while. A month - two weeks - HELL A WEEK! - where there is no drama in my life. No vicious upsets, no illness, no discord or problem that I've got to fucking deal with.
But no. Fate likes fucking with me too much.
It's too much fun.
...
My dad is sick. Skin cancer. Likely just a remove it, and life goes on. The doctor is 98% certain that's what it is, but he sent off for biopsies anyways.
My aunt is in jail. For the third time in three months. Except this time she has no bail. No getting out. Just has to sit and wait for the judge. Which leaves my 2nd brother (age 21) looking over the 3rd (age 16) and 4th (age 13).
He's as responsible as a two dollar hooker.
*Frustrated, furious noises.* I did not need this today.
But no. Fate likes fucking with me too much.
It's too much fun.
...
My dad is sick. Skin cancer. Likely just a remove it, and life goes on. The doctor is 98% certain that's what it is, but he sent off for biopsies anyways.
My aunt is in jail. For the third time in three months. Except this time she has no bail. No getting out. Just has to sit and wait for the judge. Which leaves my 2nd brother (age 21) looking over the 3rd (age 16) and 4th (age 13).
He's as responsible as a two dollar hooker.
*Frustrated, furious noises.* I did not need this today.
Life Update
Posted 10 years agoHey everyone.
I know I haven't been around much, streaming, working, ect. And when I have been around everything seems to be well. But I decided that I needed to write a bit, because it's cathartic, and because I knew you guys would appreciate a bit of an explanation on where I've been and why.
For those who are aware, my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant, in August 2015 I got the news I was five weeks pregnant. I was thrilled, as was my husband. Two weeks later I was in the hospital from distress, tests were run and my hormones weren't rising as they should. By eight weeks it was confirmed that I had lost the pregnancy. Lucky for me, it was so early that there was very little risk to myself and the only difference in my every day life had been a rise in hormones. Or so I thought.
Six months later, I'm forced to admit that I'm still devastated. Shortly after it happened, my husband had to leave for Louisiana, so I've been on and off on my own for the last six months. When he has been home it's only been for two weeks at a time. In the first week of January he left until March. Which has left me on my own for two months. I've recognized in myself the ache of depression, and the complete listlessness that comes from that.
Luckily, I have very understanding friends, and an incredibly understanding boss. Beyond light teasing, Fenoxo has been great about letting me work at my own pace. It's really helped. I've been struggling to want to get up and work, and do anything remotely related to getting out there. In the face of others, and in social situations I can smile, laugh and everything is fine. But the moment I am alone, or the moment my distractions have faded I'm faced with this consuming sorrow once more.
The last few weeks I've been looking into finding someone to talk to, someone to help. But as of yet I've not found a therapist to my liking, so my search continues.
Beyond the terrible news above, I've actually been doing fairly okay. I've had a few hiccups where I got sick, but other than that the weather hasn't killed me yet and I've been slowly getting my life in order. I've recognized things in the coming year that I need to fix, need to sort out and things I need to increase my productivity and happiness as a person.
One of the things we got that has helped me with my every day happiness is a beautiful little cat named Kit. He's one year old this month, and we've had him since mid-December. He was an early Christmas present from my husband. I adore him. He's a long haired flame point Siamese, and he runs the house. *Chuckles.*
Well... That's all really. Thanks for reading if you've stuck it out so long. You guys are the reason I strive so hard!
I know I haven't been around much, streaming, working, ect. And when I have been around everything seems to be well. But I decided that I needed to write a bit, because it's cathartic, and because I knew you guys would appreciate a bit of an explanation on where I've been and why.
For those who are aware, my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant, in August 2015 I got the news I was five weeks pregnant. I was thrilled, as was my husband. Two weeks later I was in the hospital from distress, tests were run and my hormones weren't rising as they should. By eight weeks it was confirmed that I had lost the pregnancy. Lucky for me, it was so early that there was very little risk to myself and the only difference in my every day life had been a rise in hormones. Or so I thought.
Six months later, I'm forced to admit that I'm still devastated. Shortly after it happened, my husband had to leave for Louisiana, so I've been on and off on my own for the last six months. When he has been home it's only been for two weeks at a time. In the first week of January he left until March. Which has left me on my own for two months. I've recognized in myself the ache of depression, and the complete listlessness that comes from that.
Luckily, I have very understanding friends, and an incredibly understanding boss. Beyond light teasing, Fenoxo has been great about letting me work at my own pace. It's really helped. I've been struggling to want to get up and work, and do anything remotely related to getting out there. In the face of others, and in social situations I can smile, laugh and everything is fine. But the moment I am alone, or the moment my distractions have faded I'm faced with this consuming sorrow once more.
The last few weeks I've been looking into finding someone to talk to, someone to help. But as of yet I've not found a therapist to my liking, so my search continues.
Beyond the terrible news above, I've actually been doing fairly okay. I've had a few hiccups where I got sick, but other than that the weather hasn't killed me yet and I've been slowly getting my life in order. I've recognized things in the coming year that I need to fix, need to sort out and things I need to increase my productivity and happiness as a person.
One of the things we got that has helped me with my every day happiness is a beautiful little cat named Kit. He's one year old this month, and we've had him since mid-December. He was an early Christmas present from my husband. I adore him. He's a long haired flame point Siamese, and he runs the house. *Chuckles.*
Well... That's all really. Thanks for reading if you've stuck it out so long. You guys are the reason I strive so hard!
Considering commissioning people. Suggestions?
Posted 10 years agoHey all!
So I'm thinking of finally dragging my butt around to my darling friends and getting commissions from them. So far I have a little list of things that I want to get from people. And thoughts? Additions? Who do you guys think would be best for each?
B
Bad End / Beastie / Bimbo / Breeder / Busty
C
Centaur / Corrupted / Cthulu
D
Demon / Dominatrix / Dragon / Drider
E
Egged
F
Feral / Flapper / Futa
G
Gender Bent / Goo / Goth
H
Harpy / Hoodie / Hipster / Hypnotized
I
Idol
K
Kyo Cosplay
L
Lactating / Latex / Laying Eggs / Lolita
M
Mermaid / Metal Gear Solid : Quiet / Monster
N
Naga
P
Pin-Up / Pixie / Pony / Pregger's / Public Use / Puppy
R
Robotic
S
Sailor Scout / Shoe (Kuribo Boot) / Slave
T
Tattooed / Trap / Transformed / Treatment
V
Villain
W
Witch / Witch (Harry Potter Style)
So I'm thinking of finally dragging my butt around to my darling friends and getting commissions from them. So far I have a little list of things that I want to get from people. And thoughts? Additions? Who do you guys think would be best for each?
B
Bad End / Beastie / Bimbo / Breeder / Busty
C
Centaur / Corrupted / Cthulu
D
Demon / Dominatrix / Dragon / Drider
E
Egged
F
Feral / Flapper / Futa
G
Gender Bent / Goo / Goth
H
Harpy / Hoodie / Hipster / Hypnotized
I
Idol
K
Kyo Cosplay
L
Lactating / Latex / Laying Eggs / Lolita
M
Mermaid / Metal Gear Solid : Quiet / Monster
N
Naga
P
Pin-Up / Pixie / Pony / Pregger's / Public Use / Puppy
R
Robotic
S
Sailor Scout / Shoe (Kuribo Boot) / Slave
T
Tattooed / Trap / Transformed / Treatment
V
Villain
W
Witch / Witch (Harry Potter Style)
The Definition of Peace
Posted 10 years ago It’s odd. Who would have thought that peace could be described as listening to the sound of a keyboard, or multiple keyboards, tapping away? The occasional curse, and frustration of something not working quite right. Or even the pleasant burn of irritation that you can’t get the line to go just the way you wanted it to? If someone had told me this would become my definition of peace, I’d have called them mental and went about my way. But it’s quickly become just that.
For me, peace involves a friend, or friends around me. It involves diligent and content working at something that seems never ending but you’re quite happy to chip away at piece by piece, day by day. Peace becomes the quiet moment in lulling work, or the absolute momentary fury of something stupid happening that you then have to fix. The companionship you grasp when people around you are as dedicated – in different ways – to working on the same thing you work on.
I never would have guessed when I started this project that working on the Busts for Trials in Tainted Space would become my slice of peace every day, but sure enough – there is the result. Peace in myself, in knowing what I am capable of. Peace in what I can offer, whether that is the silence of my own companionship or my meagre art skills. It is a sense of self, a sense of confidence that I didn’t have six months ago. Hell, it’s a sense of confidence I didn’t have a week ago.
I have grown, matured and learned a lot on this weird, twisting journey that my friends dragged me along. Sometimes kicking and screaming, and sometimes rushing ahead with all the enthusiasm of a small child. Needless to say, I learn a lot every day about working, my ethic and my companions. It isn’t something I’d change for the world. Certainly not something I would change going back even if I could.
I’m happy. More than that, I am peaceful.
For me, peace involves a friend, or friends around me. It involves diligent and content working at something that seems never ending but you’re quite happy to chip away at piece by piece, day by day. Peace becomes the quiet moment in lulling work, or the absolute momentary fury of something stupid happening that you then have to fix. The companionship you grasp when people around you are as dedicated – in different ways – to working on the same thing you work on.
I never would have guessed when I started this project that working on the Busts for Trials in Tainted Space would become my slice of peace every day, but sure enough – there is the result. Peace in myself, in knowing what I am capable of. Peace in what I can offer, whether that is the silence of my own companionship or my meagre art skills. It is a sense of self, a sense of confidence that I didn’t have six months ago. Hell, it’s a sense of confidence I didn’t have a week ago.
I have grown, matured and learned a lot on this weird, twisting journey that my friends dragged me along. Sometimes kicking and screaming, and sometimes rushing ahead with all the enthusiasm of a small child. Needless to say, I learn a lot every day about working, my ethic and my companions. It isn’t something I’d change for the world. Certainly not something I would change going back even if I could.
I’m happy. More than that, I am peaceful.
2014 - A Year In Review
Posted 11 years agoHello my friends!
This will be a bit longer than some of my other journals, but perhaps not as long as others. I figured it’s the last day of the year, so I might as well have a year-end review, and talk about shit that went on and happened.
First thing, I started out the year alone and miserable. My husband was in South Korea and I was without his company for months. It drove me to the edge of madness, but I happily welcomed him home in July. It was a great month, having him back and getting used to him being here with me again.
On top of that, I sketched a lot. I might not have always posted everything up, but I sketched and I was so very happy with what I was managing. I learned something new with every drawing I did and grew in my own estimation by leaps and bounds. I was so very happy with my skill from then to now. Seeing myself changing and growing? It’s more than I ever expected of myself really.
Looking at the work I did in review of the year, I must say I am in a better place than I was the last year. I’m doing better artistically and I’m enjoying the work I manage. Getting to talk to my friends, and getting to work with people I enjoy hanging out with and respect has been a great boost to my confidence.
I made a move to Fort Drum, New York in August and I absolutely love it here so far. The snow is a big change for me, but I’m getting used to it, and learning how much fun it is. It’s cold as fuck, but I’m delighting in every new thing I get to do. (Even shoveling is fun, except my nose gets wicked cold.)
Getting to play in Pathfinder D&D games with my friends has also been a huge uplifting moment as well. Learning how to make characters, and seeing them interacting in a digital space with people who are helping tell a story (however lewd or not it ends up being) is an accomplishment I’ve gotten so enamored in that I play in five games!
A year ago I met Fenoxo, Third, Savin, Sinarra, Kinathis, Hedrah… a whole boat load of people that I greatly respected in the community for what they had accomplished and what they were still accomplishing. It was overwhelming. I cried, and still nearly do cry when I realize I’ve made such good friends. If I’m gone for more than a few days, they make an effort to call or message me to find out if I’m alright. They talk to me and work with me, give me constructive criticism and tell me the truth without being cruel about it. It’s a boon I hope I never take advantage of.
I got to work on Trials in Tainted Space with Fen, Gedan and Savin doing the Busts for the game. I was thrilled to get the opportunity to work on it, and I cannot wait to pick back up in the New Year and start back on putting out Busts.
There will also be a Reveal of something I’ve been working on this coming Saturday (January 3rd). I look forward to the reactions I get!
I’ve read some good books, met good friends, drawn more than my wrist can handle some days, and I can’t wait for the highs and lows of the coming year. I hope for better art, better memories, maybe even a bit more working out than I have in the past year, and happiness for myself and everyone I know!
Have a great night, and please everyone if you’re going out, be safe!
This will be a bit longer than some of my other journals, but perhaps not as long as others. I figured it’s the last day of the year, so I might as well have a year-end review, and talk about shit that went on and happened.
First thing, I started out the year alone and miserable. My husband was in South Korea and I was without his company for months. It drove me to the edge of madness, but I happily welcomed him home in July. It was a great month, having him back and getting used to him being here with me again.
On top of that, I sketched a lot. I might not have always posted everything up, but I sketched and I was so very happy with what I was managing. I learned something new with every drawing I did and grew in my own estimation by leaps and bounds. I was so very happy with my skill from then to now. Seeing myself changing and growing? It’s more than I ever expected of myself really.
Looking at the work I did in review of the year, I must say I am in a better place than I was the last year. I’m doing better artistically and I’m enjoying the work I manage. Getting to talk to my friends, and getting to work with people I enjoy hanging out with and respect has been a great boost to my confidence.
I made a move to Fort Drum, New York in August and I absolutely love it here so far. The snow is a big change for me, but I’m getting used to it, and learning how much fun it is. It’s cold as fuck, but I’m delighting in every new thing I get to do. (Even shoveling is fun, except my nose gets wicked cold.)
Getting to play in Pathfinder D&D games with my friends has also been a huge uplifting moment as well. Learning how to make characters, and seeing them interacting in a digital space with people who are helping tell a story (however lewd or not it ends up being) is an accomplishment I’ve gotten so enamored in that I play in five games!
A year ago I met Fenoxo, Third, Savin, Sinarra, Kinathis, Hedrah… a whole boat load of people that I greatly respected in the community for what they had accomplished and what they were still accomplishing. It was overwhelming. I cried, and still nearly do cry when I realize I’ve made such good friends. If I’m gone for more than a few days, they make an effort to call or message me to find out if I’m alright. They talk to me and work with me, give me constructive criticism and tell me the truth without being cruel about it. It’s a boon I hope I never take advantage of.
I got to work on Trials in Tainted Space with Fen, Gedan and Savin doing the Busts for the game. I was thrilled to get the opportunity to work on it, and I cannot wait to pick back up in the New Year and start back on putting out Busts.
There will also be a Reveal of something I’ve been working on this coming Saturday (January 3rd). I look forward to the reactions I get!
I’ve read some good books, met good friends, drawn more than my wrist can handle some days, and I can’t wait for the highs and lows of the coming year. I hope for better art, better memories, maybe even a bit more working out than I have in the past year, and happiness for myself and everyone I know!
Have a great night, and please everyone if you’re going out, be safe!
The Fault In Our Stars
Posted 12 years agoSo, okay, like...
I spent all night sitting up and reading this book, and it's... amazing. It's exactly what I thought it would be. Tragic, touching and life. It's about people, and side effects, and symptoms, and what happens when you're there. And then it ends, and there aren't any answers, and it's perfect. Because that is how life is, there aren't any answers, and yet - there are answers everywhere. They're right there in the lines, and the words, and the company, and the why and how and what doesn't matter. But that you cared enough for it did.
And I'm crying, and it's amazing, I think everyone should read it, because John Green is a writer that shocks me. In a way that I love, and it's wonderful, and I want to see the movie that is being produced so badly I think I'm going to end up sick.
That's all.
I spent all night sitting up and reading this book, and it's... amazing. It's exactly what I thought it would be. Tragic, touching and life. It's about people, and side effects, and symptoms, and what happens when you're there. And then it ends, and there aren't any answers, and it's perfect. Because that is how life is, there aren't any answers, and yet - there are answers everywhere. They're right there in the lines, and the words, and the company, and the why and how and what doesn't matter. But that you cared enough for it did.
And I'm crying, and it's amazing, I think everyone should read it, because John Green is a writer that shocks me. In a way that I love, and it's wonderful, and I want to see the movie that is being produced so badly I think I'm going to end up sick.
That's all.
Dreaming...
Posted 12 years agoNever settle,
Always dream.
And when dreaming is no longer enough...
Reach out for your fate with both hands and make that dream reality.Terms of Service
Posted 12 years agoTerms Of Service
If you chose to commission me I will assume you have read this, it isn’t my responsibility if you fail to do so.Content
I will draw
(g-XXX)Male, Female, Herm, Cunt boi, Dick girl/ (g-XXX) Straight, Gay, Lesbian/ Porn/ (soft-extreme) Vore / (soft-extreme)Gore/ BDSM/ Toys/ Most fetishes/ Size play / Cub, Shota, Lilota / Most body sizes /Anthro / Feral/ Human/ Monsters/ Tentacles/ Most species/ Macro-Micro/ Transformations/ (soft-extreme) Forced
I won’t draw
Scat/Watersports / Diaper, adult baby
(If it isn’t listed please ask, I can't cover everything.)
Contact
Please note me here on FA if you are interested in a commission, after which I will give you my Paypal address. I may also give you my Skype* for further information and contact.
*Note, don't share my Skype, I like talking to people, but I don't like having that information handed out, 'kay? Okay.
Payment/ Pricing
Payment is to be sent when commission is ordered and processed. I don't require it all upfront, but I do require at least half.
DO NOT SEND PAYMENT AS A GIFT.
Approval sketches
I will send you an approval sketch once commission is started.
I will only change the Sketch twice after the first sketch is sent, and offer one complete redraw, after that I will charge you a fee.
Once picture is at the coloring stage, no edits will be made to the line art. Color edits can be made once. A complete recolor will be offered once.
Rights
You are allowed to use your commission how you want and resubmit it as long as credit is where it is due. Do not crop out my name. Doing so and resubmitting elsewhere will get you banned from future commissions.
Artwork
I will mail out traditional artwork as long as you are happy to provide me with an address. If you would rather, I can also create a file with your name, and mail your commissions to you in bulk! Once you have accumulated 5-10 commissions.
Questions or comments?
Please comment on this journal if you have a question. Questions via notes will not be answered.Edit
Because I'm an idiot, and wasn't reading over what I posted, I should mention that this is a mashup of things I found from other artists that outline my ideas of a ToS accordingly. Among them are Aviu, Nan, and old artists who either are no longer on this site, or are from dA, and I can't link to because dA explodes my computer.
To work!
Posted 12 years agoTo Work, to work,
To toil away...
To work, to work,
To pass the day.
The hours drag,
The sky dims,
The fun lags,
The high swims.
Down and down,
Beneath the waves,
Forced to toil away,
Another day.A poem by me, about work, and how much it sucks.
Now I have to go to work. Damn it all.
