Anyone know of anyone that can take my friend in for a bit in the Sacramento, CA area? He's down on his luck and needs somewhere to stay until he can get another job and back on his feet. Trying to keep him out of the streets and doing as much as I can from Texas. Please message me ASAP if you hear of anything!

Since it's easier to just post it here instead of updating EVERYONE.

1. I am going to TFF

2. I've been sick for a few months now. Like, REALLY sick. First it started with general nausea for certain foods, but it escalated into sharp pain and being unable to eat ANYTHING without discomfort. Even plain water. I'm not even breaking 500 calories a day and we're looking at the possibility of a gallbladder removal. I have an endoscopy scheduled for Monday. So if the surgery does happen, it might be right before TFF. So be careful if you hug me.

3. Second semester of school has started. Going well so far.

4. My job is awesome and I've just passed the 3 month mark of being there. My co-workers are like family and I'm so thankful they've been supportive of my inability to do many things as of now. (I cant stay upright long without having dizzy spells, nor do I have enough energy to function more than 4 hours at a time without a nap).

So that's pretty much iiiittttt. Hope to see some of you fuzzies in a few weeks!

I need to cut them up and cover the corners of the furniture to childproof my apartment. No, I'm not pregnant. I'm needing to childproof the house cause I keep breaking myself on the furniture.

Mostly the futon. Round one with the futon and I drop it on my foot while moving furniture. Fractured my big toe.
Round two: this morning. The legs extend out the backside of the futon about 7 inches and they blend with the carpet when lights are off. So i smashed my foot into it this morning. I took stubbing my toe to a whole new level and managed to detach the ligament in my second to last toe.

I've done this before on the same foot, but with all toes.

So anyways, anyone who wants to donate pool noodles or nerf foam? Hit me up. Before I kill myself on the chair or something.

I need to cut them up and cover the corners of the furniture to childproof my apartment. No, I'm not pregnant. I'm needing to childproof the house cause I keep breaking myself on the furniture.

Mostly the futon. Round one with the futon and I drop it on my foot while moving furniture. Fractured my big toe.
Round two: this morning. The legs extend out the backside of the futon about 7 inches and they blend with the carpet when lights are off. So i smashed my foot into it this morning. I took stubbing my toe to a whole new level and managed to detach the ligament in my second to last toe.

I've done this before on the same foot, but with all toes.

So anyways, anyone who wants to donate pool noodles or nerf foam? Hit me up. Before I kill myself on the chair or something.

Yep, starting my first ever semester of college. It's been a long time coming, and now i'm finally here. :3 woohoo

Well of course you do, you're in this fandom! Well, I have two things for you.

1. As most of you know, elephants are an endangered species. They are being poached for their ivory tusks, and 96 deaths occur daily because of this. There is a petition going to put an end to this! It needs 1 million signatures before it can be taken to the court level, so, go over to www.96elephants.org and sign your name! It takes less than a minute and doesn't add you to a mailing list or require money. Sign it and spread the word! If we dont take action, elephants will be gone by 2020. I am currently going to school to become an elephant zookeeper, so i need there to be elephants left when I get there!

2. I am trying to find motivation in my photography again, so if you like cute animals check out my deviantart: http://teh-pandacoon.deviantart.com OR my photog page on facebook: www.facebook.com/contagiousfantasiesphotography

There are other things, but I have lots of animal photos from my zookeeping career thus far...and there is more to come! But I need your support!

<3/Shy

You may be asking yourself, "Shyloh, what does this mean? Sure I love to see the cute ellies play at the zoo, but how do we celebrate National Elephant day?".

Excellent question! And lucky for you, there are LOTS of ways to celebrate! First things first, we need to celebrate elephants EVERY DAY. Studies have shown that without conservation efforts gaining more steam, elephants will be extinct by 2020. That means our children, grandchildren, nieces, nephews, and little cousins wont ever get to see a live elephant. How is this possible? Well you see, due to the illegal ivory trade, 96 elephants are killed DAILY in Africa. I will spare you the graphic images.

Now, what can we do to help? First things first, you can go to www.96elephants.org and sign the petition to ban ivory trade and sales. No registration needed. Super easy! You can also wear grey and take an 'elfie' (elephant selfie, get creative!) to raise awareness for elephants tomorrow! Donate to your favorite conservation effort, donate to zoos (I know that Fort Worth Zoo is top in elephant conservation in America...just sayin), and at the very least, SHARE THIS PETITION AND RAISE YOUR VOICE.

I'm going to be a future Elephant Zookeeper, but, without help, there wont be elephants left for me to take care of once I am done with school. Now, go on and trumpet the message proudly!

If anyone has any groups on Skype or FA that they would like to suggest, that'd be nice.

Finding that my social circles are dwindling and I often spend nights starting at my computer screen doing nothing but hitting refresh on here or facebook.

So. If you wanna introduce me to some people, that'd be cool.

Skype name is teh-pandacoon

All I want is to get my flock of budgies a new house.

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0.....243&sr=8-1

That one there. I have four of them and the cage I have them in now is only meant for two. Dont get me wrong, they have plenty of room, but a flight cage would be ideal since I cant let them out with the cat in the apartment.

So...if anyone wants to chip in, here's my paypal email. Pandabug36@hotmail.com.


I normally dont do this, but, THINK OF THE BUDGIES D:

Seriously. Today was supposed to be my last appointment. I was supposed to be pain free. Nope. Now I get to be miserable for 9 days on my trip to Austria in a few weeks. I am so pissed off, upset, and in so much pain right now, I cant even function. The pharmacy flagged me for all the pain meds I have been prescribed lately, so I have to wait two extra hours for my pain meds.

I resent my previous dentist for not treating my thin enamel and knowingly let my teeth rot while withholding info from me. If I had the funds, I'd sue him for everything he's worth. I just want to curl up and be dead to the world. I screwed up badly at my job, so I am already walking a thin line. I cant function so I fail at everything. I dont want to get out of bed. I cant eat or drink anyway.

I just want to go home and have my mom take care of me. I dont want to be a big girl anymore.

I adopted a dog from work that was going to be euthanized by his previous owner because she couldnt handle him anymore. Things are not working out for us either, unfortunately, because he is male agressive.

http://www.rescueme.org/id?n=14-03-.....mp;b=Chihuahua

His details are here, spread the word, and let me know if you or anyone is interested in this little guy. I'm in the Denton, Texas area.

Thank you.

So yesterday began the first of many procedures I'm going to have done to fix my teeth. My previous dentist that I've seen my whole life failed to tell me that I have thin enamel and periodontal disease. Even when i asked him about it, I was told that I was just a failure at oral hygiene and that I'm in so much pain because of my laziness.

Over the years I've had root canals, a filling in every single tooth, 5 years of braces, jaw surgery to correct an overbite (which gave me a severe case of TMJ), tissue grafts and tendon replacement, abcesses, veneers, and chipped teeth.

After I moved away from home my teeth went on a chipping rampage and I couldnt figure out why. Finally, one of my teeth caved in after I bit down on an oreo cookie (in ICE CREAM) and I had to swallow my fear and find a dentist. Which is more difficult than I have words to describe. My old dentist was never gentle, got angry at me if I cried, and would tell me to just 'suck it up, you're an adult." He basically gave me PTSD.

So badly, in fact, that even just the consultation appointment at my new dentist's office turned into a full mental breakdown. (Which is why I chose a sedation dentist.) Well, upon seeing this new dentist, they were shocked at the state of my teeth. They were also shocked to find out that, no, I havent done anything for the demineralization of my teeth (they are crumbling out of my mouth), and no, I havent done anything for the periodontal disease. BECAUSE I HAVENT BEEN DIAGNOSED UNTIL NOW.

So we went through and found everything that needs to be fixed. Which is basically a lot of crowns, a lot more fillings, several root canals, and god knows what else.

Yesterday I had two crowns done on the two worst teeth. One of which was on the borderline extraction range of awful. So in about a week I get to go in and have a double root canal done on those same teeth. They also had to do a butt ton of work on my gums around those teeth because the decay was so bad.

Thanks to my old dentist, I get to have $20,000 ripped from my college fund AGAIN. And with as much pain as I am in today, I'm really tempted to just tell the dentist to just remove all my teeth and put some shiny white implants in.

Bleh. I'm not looking for sympathy. Just needed to bitch for a minute.

Being in a relationship in the furry fandom tends to be a huge clusterfuck to begin with. My boyfriend and I are both in the fandom, we're both bi-sexual, and we're both sex fiends. You know, as most in the fandom are. I've been with him for 6.5 years now, and he is my everything in this world. Without him to come to every night for comfort, motivation, and reassurance...things would be a lot different right now.

Now, being bi-sexual, we obviously are attracted to the other sex. Roleplays will happen, flirting may happen, etc...but let me make it clear. We're in a closed relationship.

But for whatever fucking reason, people in this fandom cant fucking respect that. The flirting and the roleplay does bother me to an incredible extent. I let it happen though, because there are obviously things I cant give to my boyfriend based on my gender. It's when the other party starts the nude photo exchanges and webcam calls, etc that things start to get out of control. I feel like I am being cheated on, and this is not fucking okay by any means.

I dont come over there and mess with your significant other. This does not make it okay for you to do this to my relationship when you have been expressly told I am not okay with it.

The part where it gets really shitty and fucked up is my position in this fight. I am a female in the fandom. Already in the minority there. Females in the furry fandom do not have the upper hand in most arguments. My opinion gets pushed aside, I get told I'm adorable when I'm mad, and it all just gets laughed off. My voice drowns out, and then I continuously get hurt in the end because people are ignorant, selfish, and cant fucking understand boundaries. If I tell you no, I fucking mean it.

Yes, I'm an incredibly jealous person. But I climbed through hell and high water several times for this relationship. I gave up so many things, missed out on so much, fought through tears, death, and self harm to get my relationship to where it is today. Unless you have my express consent, stay the fuck out of my relationship.

If any of you want to talk about this, we can. Do not start anything in the comments. You can be an adult and message me privately if you have something to say.

Planning for this fricking convention is going to give me a stroke.

Seriously.

I'm obviously from Utah, cause I still say 'frick'.

Anyways, the boy and I are going to be rooming at the con hotel. I dunno that we have plans yet for much.

Seriously though, stroke imminent. I hate planning. *facerolls keyboard*

Maybe I'll just get a new plushie and just stress-hug the thing until it's ears fall off.

For all of you that were there, i FINALLY uploaded the video from the 50 Shades of Grey reading.

http://youtu.be/zGaons30VL0

Enjoy :3

Apparently I was the only one who filmed this. Had I known that, I'd have uploaded it sooner x3

ARRANGEMENTS:

Q: Where are you staying?
A: Matt and I are going to be staying at our apartment, but driving to the con for the first and second day.

Q: When will you be arriving and leaving?
A: We will be there for the first and second day, but not the last. Our apartment is only 45 minutes away though!

Q: Who will you be rooming with?
A: We have one friend staying with us for a few nights.

Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
A: Excellent question...I'm new to this, so if you see me wandering around lost, save me!

Q: What/where will you be eating?
A: Everywhere? Not sure. Still new to Texas!

Q: Will you be having a room party?
A: Nopenopenope!

Q: Will you be drinking and/or getting drunk?
A: *readies her ID and liver*

PERSONAL STUFF:

Q: What is your gender?
A: Female

Q: How tall are you?
A: 5'3"

Q: If I approach you, will you chat with me?
A: Of course! I'm rather social and i LOVE hugs. Just make sure you ask before you glomp!

Q: If I see you, how should I get your attention?
A: Say hey, grab my arm, tap my shoulder, etc. I tend to fall over and injure easy with random glomps.

Q: How many furry conventions have you attended?
A: This is my first!!

Q: Do you own a fursuit?
A: No, but I will be debuting my first set of ears and tail!

PERMISSIONS:

Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: If you ask, and double check with my man :P

Q: How can I find you?
A: Look down! Most of you tower over me! I should have a badge, and my black and white ears/tail. If all goes well, I'll be wearing a hoodie with the rest of my markings. Or just start yelling out my name.

Q: Can I buy you drinks?
A:Yus :3

Q: Can I look in your sketchbook?
A: I dont carry mine around!

Q: Can I draw in your sketchbook?
A: If you wanna draw me some things, sure, but I wont have any paper with me x3

Q: Can I take your picture?
A: Yus! Just link it to me after! I can give you my twitter after! The bf doesnt want to be tagged in ANYTHING if it's going on facebook, so ASK. FIRST.

MISCELLANEOUS:

Q: Do you do do free art, trades, commissions, badges?
A: I do not art.

Q: Do you have a table in the Artist Alley / Dealer's Den or a panel in the Art Show? If so, what are you selling?
A: None of the above.

Q: Do you plan to volunteer?
A: Probably not.

Q: What's your goal for the con this year?
A: Hug ALL the fuzzies! I'm getting to meet a TON of my friends for the first time face to face, and I'm hoping to make new friends as well! :3

gogogoggogo :3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3910257/

I dont want to be one of those wet blankets that sits on twitter all week griping about how I couldn't go to AC. But, it seems like I've already accomplished that x.x It's not that I'm resenting everyone that got to go, it's more of I'm so desperate to get out of Utah and go somewhere else, to get away from everything that keeps happening here.

Lately it's been like this. Trying to build a new life and a future for myself. Taking some huge steps forward and swallowing my fear to do so. I'm going to be moving to Texas in late August to finally live with my boyfriend (whom I've dated long-distance for 5 years). As excited as I am for this, I am scared. Really really scared. I kinda just wanna take a small road trip somewhere to just unwind and get my thoughts together before I keep going. It just feels like every support beam I put up falls down after I move on to start putting up the next. Or moreso, someone kicks it down.

But back to the AC thing. Everyone I talk to that usually helps me keep my sanity together, (Thank you guys so much...especially with the events that have happened over this last week) are going to be at AC.....and it just eats me up that I cant go and have buckets of fun with them :c Internet relationships suck worse than a cheap whore.

There has been more going on, but I dont want to leave a fat drama llama in an FA journal. Sketchy creatures, those llamas.

Like, why I cant remember which mirror I broke to get this string of bad luck.
Why people in person hate me so much for just being myself.
Why everyone I try to get close to decides that death is better than the love there is to have in life.
...Or why even I try turning to the shadows when everything hurts so badly I collapse.

I don't understand why the love I get is less than that of which I give,
or why it even hurts to much to give the love that I do.

I want to shut that part of me down, but I physically cant make myself say no to someone who needs me. It's shredding me up inside that I hurt, but I go into work or out in the world and just smile like I don't have a care in the world.

While writing the story of my life, I feel like I got the crappy pencil with the lead that smears and the eraser that was too old to be able to erase anything. All the good things I've done got smeared away with the back of my hand while moving onto the next line. All the bad things; the broken sentences, the misspellings, the letters that weren't neat enough....The eraser never did it's job. It just laughed as the blackness of a smudge stands prominent on the page while the big wigs look over my shoulder and scoff, telling me that I cant even do so much as fail properly. Even after the rough draft has been tossed away and the story typed neatly with ink and crisp parchment, the only grade I get is the one suggesting I get a new pencil.