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Posted 12 years agoLet me just say, photographing suiters is actually amazing practice for photographing animals. To be able to get a crisp focus on fur is really difficult, even with autofocus. So having someone who's ohmygod fluffy to take photos of is such help!
- i of course reference
aboxofdeth's new fursuit, Smiley
:D
- i of course reference
aboxofdeth's new fursuit, Smiley:D
Thanks guys
Posted 12 years ago<3 for all of you. Im doing better now. The situation has been set in motion, its unfortunate but for the best.
Just a rant. Ignore me.
Posted 12 years agoIt just gets to me badly when i see someone who needs to get out of a bad situation and they acknowledge that the situation is awful and they want out as well. But they keep delaying the inevitable, then shit happens, and it gets more and more delayed. Guilt sets in, rational thoughts become irrational, and the bad situation continues. Its just so hard to help someone when theyre a nice person but are blindsided by their no-reason-for-it guilt. I just want to see someone happy again, and they havent been happy for a really long time. And the longer this situation continues the more and more sad i grow because it pains me in my heart to see them upset, stressed and confused.
It's just like logic mingles with irrationality and creates more problems than it's worth. And im stuck here just all "i dont know what to do anymore" - do i keep trying to push/persuade them into the legitimately right direction, or do i sulk into the shadows and just *hope* it will resolve itself despite i know it wont.
Depressed, worried cat.
It's just like logic mingles with irrationality and creates more problems than it's worth. And im stuck here just all "i dont know what to do anymore" - do i keep trying to push/persuade them into the legitimately right direction, or do i sulk into the shadows and just *hope* it will resolve itself despite i know it wont.
Depressed, worried cat.
Gasp. Who wants to see sibe naked?
Posted 12 years agoOf course y'all do. It's far overdue that he doesnt have cock floating around, and it's far overdue that he's not being pounded by another sexy lion - 
lyin
Commission in the works. Stay tuned for this naughty kitty >:3
oh and i guess ill be taken by
yoshiherder too! ... this cat is gettin around finally with all the sexy ass fuzz balls out there!
lyinCommission in the works. Stay tuned for this naughty kitty >:3
oh and i guess ill be taken by
yoshiherder too! ... this cat is gettin around finally with all the sexy ass fuzz balls out there!1000 FAVORITES!!
Posted 12 years ago#1000 goes to 
poprockgrey ... Thanks! I will get that coloring piece done for you finally my friend.
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You guys rock, thanks so much! Never thought my character or my photography would spark enough interest for people to favorite, so it means a lot to me! <3 all of you ^_^
poprockgrey ... Thanks! I will get that coloring piece done for you finally my friend.----
You guys rock, thanks so much! Never thought my character or my photography would spark enough interest for people to favorite, so it means a lot to me! <3 all of you ^_^
AHH ONE MORE FAVORITE!!
Posted 12 years agoCOME IPON JUST ONE MORE FAVORITE AND I'VE HIT 1000!!!
- honestly something that I've never even considered a possibility! You all rock. Hugs for every beast!
- honestly something that I've never even considered a possibility! You all rock. Hugs for every beast!
Pre Meditated Tree Revenge!
Posted 12 years agoOur ten foot Christmas tree decided to randomly fall on my dad sitting in a chair reading the paper. It was very very funny. He's fine, otherwise we wouldn't be laughing about it xD
I gotta stop reading Tigs Journals
Posted 12 years agoBecause i feel compelled by dating her to repost them and write them lol.
BEGIN USELESSLY USEFUL INFORMATION
• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •
- Name: Matt / Sibe / Siberia / SibesyFluffs or SibesyPoofs / Hey You
- Single or taken: Quite Taken
- Gender: Male
- Birthday: The 24th Day of the Fourth Month of any Given Year
- Sign: Taurus
- Hair color: Copper and Light Brown (seriously)
- Eye color: Hazel Brown with a Olive Green outter Ring (seriously)
- Height: 5' 11 3/4"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Bisexual
• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: Areo or anywhere i can get stylish stuff
- Favorite designer?: Architectural, I M Pei
- What is your sexiest outfit?: Camo Undies XD
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Wearing Nothing
- What do you usually wear? Kakhi/Jeans/Grey Pants with a Graphic Tee or Graphic Sweater
• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
- What kind of shampoo do you use? Garnier Fructis - gotta keep that mane in order!
- What are you listening to right now? A Bathroom Fan >.> - Nah, pandora IIO Radio
- Who is the last person that called you? Best friend from home.
- How many buddies are online right now? too many.
• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
- Food: Popcorn
- Girls' names: Asha, Kelly, Kiara, Katara
- Boys' names: Sibe, Seth, Copper
- Subjects in school: Photography
- Animals: Lions and Tigers (and all kitties oh my!)
• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
- Given anyone a bath?: Not that i am aware of.
- Smoked?: never.
- Bungee jumped?: Not yet.
- Made yourself throw up?: why would i want to?
- Skinny dipped?: Yes
- Ever been in love?: Hell yes
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Often
- Pictured your crush naked?: Oh very much so
- Actually seen your crush naked? Not yet, she is a shy thing.
- Cried when someone died?: Absolutely
- Lied: Duh
- Fallen for your best friend?: Almost
- Used someone?: Never
- Done something you regret?: Does speaking count?
• × • C U R R E N T • × •
- Clothes: Jeans, Graphic tee
- Desktop picture: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9565403/
- CD in player: Pfft, who uses CD's anymore.
- DVD in player: Pfffffft, who uses DVD's anymore... wait i do. Lion King
• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
- You touched: Um non-sexually, A dragon i know. - semi sexually Aboxofdeth
- Hugged: Best friend at home.
- You kissed:
TwitchyTigs
- You IMed: Lyin
- Talk to online: aboxofdeth
• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
- Understanding?: Extremely.
- Open-minded?: Highly.
- Arrogant?: Depends on what - yes.
- Insecure?: Not much anymore.
- Random?: Give me coffee or a drink and i spew garbage
- Hungry?: All the effin time.
- Smart?: Highly, dont try to confound me with a plethoirc vocabulary. You will only bolster my ego.
- Moody?: Often
- Organized?: Photography only.
- Shy?: Not really anymore.
- Difficult?: I am stubborn and picky
- Bored easily?: Yes
- Obsessed?: Um, slightly with three things.
- Angry?: Not always.
- Happy?: Most days.
- Hyper?: All the time.
- Trusting?: If i have no reason to not trust you then i am trusting always.
• × • R A N D O M • × •
- In the morning I: disable my alarm clock and ignore things.
- Love is: The most amazing feeling in the world.
- I dream about: Sibe actually xD
- Sexual preference: Guys or Girls. What does it matter.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Tattoos or piercings.
• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×
- Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
- Flowers or candy: Chocolate
- Tall or short: My height range.
• × • W H O • × •
- Makes you laugh the most: aboxofdeth and his random nonsense
- Makes you smile: Everyone, especially the one i love most, Twitchytigs
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Twitchytigs
• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: yes
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Not. at. all.
- Problem?: wait, how is this a question?
- Wish you were younger?: 21 and not looking back.
- Cry because someone said something to you?: definitely.
• × • N U M B E R • × •
- Of times I have had my heart broken?: 6
- Of guys I've kissed: 0
- Of girls I've kissed: 8
- Of Cd's I own: See earlier statement.
- Of scars on my body: 7
BEGIN USELESSLY USEFUL INFORMATION
• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •
- Name: Matt / Sibe / Siberia / SibesyFluffs or SibesyPoofs / Hey You
- Single or taken: Quite Taken
- Gender: Male
- Birthday: The 24th Day of the Fourth Month of any Given Year
- Sign: Taurus
- Hair color: Copper and Light Brown (seriously)
- Eye color: Hazel Brown with a Olive Green outter Ring (seriously)
- Height: 5' 11 3/4"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Bisexual
• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: Areo or anywhere i can get stylish stuff
- Favorite designer?: Architectural, I M Pei
- What is your sexiest outfit?: Camo Undies XD
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Wearing Nothing
- What do you usually wear? Kakhi/Jeans/Grey Pants with a Graphic Tee or Graphic Sweater
• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
- What kind of shampoo do you use? Garnier Fructis - gotta keep that mane in order!
- What are you listening to right now? A Bathroom Fan >.> - Nah, pandora IIO Radio
- Who is the last person that called you? Best friend from home.
- How many buddies are online right now? too many.
• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
- Food: Popcorn
- Girls' names: Asha, Kelly, Kiara, Katara
- Boys' names: Sibe, Seth, Copper
- Subjects in school: Photography
- Animals: Lions and Tigers (and all kitties oh my!)
• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
- Given anyone a bath?: Not that i am aware of.
- Smoked?: never.
- Bungee jumped?: Not yet.
- Made yourself throw up?: why would i want to?
- Skinny dipped?: Yes
- Ever been in love?: Hell yes
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Often
- Pictured your crush naked?: Oh very much so
- Actually seen your crush naked? Not yet, she is a shy thing.
- Cried when someone died?: Absolutely
- Lied: Duh
- Fallen for your best friend?: Almost
- Used someone?: Never
- Done something you regret?: Does speaking count?
• × • C U R R E N T • × •
- Clothes: Jeans, Graphic tee
- Desktop picture: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9565403/
- CD in player: Pfft, who uses CD's anymore.
- DVD in player: Pfffffft, who uses DVD's anymore... wait i do. Lion King
• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
- You touched: Um non-sexually, A dragon i know. - semi sexually
Aboxofdeth- Hugged: Best friend at home.
- You kissed:
TwitchyTigs- You IMed:
Lyin- Talk to online:
aboxofdeth• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
- Understanding?: Extremely.
- Open-minded?: Highly.
- Arrogant?: Depends on what - yes.
- Insecure?: Not much anymore.
- Random?: Give me coffee or a drink and i spew garbage
- Hungry?: All the effin time.
- Smart?: Highly, dont try to confound me with a plethoirc vocabulary. You will only bolster my ego.
- Moody?: Often
- Organized?: Photography only.
- Shy?: Not really anymore.
- Difficult?: I am stubborn and picky
- Bored easily?: Yes
- Obsessed?: Um, slightly with three things.
- Angry?: Not always.
- Happy?: Most days.
- Hyper?: All the time.
- Trusting?: If i have no reason to not trust you then i am trusting always.
• × • R A N D O M • × •
- In the morning I: disable my alarm clock and ignore things.
- Love is: The most amazing feeling in the world.
- I dream about: Sibe actually xD
- Sexual preference: Guys or Girls. What does it matter.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Tattoos or piercings.
• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×
- Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
- Flowers or candy: Chocolate
- Tall or short: My height range.
• × • W H O • × •
- Makes you laugh the most:
aboxofdeth and his random nonsense- Makes you smile: Everyone, especially the one i love most,
Twitchytigs- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her:
Twitchytigs• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: yes
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Not. at. all.
- Problem?: wait, how is this a question?
- Wish you were younger?: 21 and not looking back.
- Cry because someone said something to you?: definitely.
• × • N U M B E R • × •
- Of times I have had my heart broken?: 6
- Of guys I've kissed: 0
- Of girls I've kissed: 8
- Of Cd's I own: See earlier statement.
- Of scars on my body: 7
Art Decisions
Posted 12 years agoIt's not worth it to me, honestly, to charge people for things they want colored. So I am getting rid of commissions for the time being and will gladly accept many coloring requests instead.
Once I further my drawing skills I may open up for cheap commissions, but for now requests it is :)
Once I further my drawing skills I may open up for cheap commissions, but for now requests it is :)
Best winter in forever.
Posted 12 years agoIf you follow me on twitter, user Sibe_Lion, you can see the pics of the epic snow storm we had here in buffalo last night. Started at 4pm and ended at 230am... 16 inches of dense wet Lake Effect snow. Oh my god I want to run around like a child, or stewie from family guy and giggle with enormous glee.
SO FUCKING AWESOME
SO FUCKING AWESOME
Fantastic Photo Montage Artist
Posted 12 years agoHey. Hey you watchers of mine! This guy, 
loboraptorlo, is a really high quality photo montage artist who loves gifting art to people who appreciate his work.
I have to say, it is damn good stuff! He gave my character like 5 different scenarios and backgrounds that are absolutely amazing.
Seriously, go watch him and say hello. You won't regret it!!
loboraptorlo, is a really high quality photo montage artist who loves gifting art to people who appreciate his work. I have to say, it is damn good stuff! He gave my character like 5 different scenarios and backgrounds that are absolutely amazing.
Seriously, go watch him and say hello. You won't regret it!!
*heart*
Posted 12 years agoMy deep passion for animal conservation efforts was met today by perhaps one of the most thoughtful sentimental gifts I've yet been given...
twitchytigs adopted a lion from the WorldWildlife Fund in my name :')
Thanks babe, you're so special.
twitchytigs adopted a lion from the WorldWildlife Fund in my name :')Thanks babe, you're so special.
Happy Holidays my Friends
Posted 12 years agoI would just like to extend my warm wishes and a Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it with me, and to those who do not, a joyful week otherwise.
I love you guys <3 you're all like family to me :3
I love you guys <3 you're all like family to me :3
Get To Know Me - Detailed.
Posted 12 years agoBlame TwitchyTigs... wouldnt have done it otherwise, but i am bored lol.
1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Matt
2. How tall are you?
5'11 3/4"
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Dark brown that fades to light brown at the tip (seriously)
3. What about eye color?
Brown and Hazel striations with a Olive Green Ring
4. What orientation are you?
Completely in the middle. Bisexual
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Stolen by TwitchyTigs and i wouldnt want it any other way
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Hike, Bike, Swim - oh wait thats in the summer. Hope something happens on the internet all day lol
7. What's your job?
Photographic Research Assistant and Architecture Intern
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I tell everyone everything about me and have no mental shame
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
My Butt.
10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Outgoing, caring, gentle and loving personality
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
I believe in nothing at heart but show a Catholic Facade for my family only.
12. Do you drink?
Of course matey
13. Do you smoke?
Never have, never will.
14. What are your fears?
Clowns. Omg why do they exist?!
15. What are your dreams/goals?
World Renowned nature photographer and to cuddle a male lion or tiger - full grown one.
16. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Yup. I can name all 8.
17. Who's your best bud?
Aboxofdeth
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
milk chocolate sponge candy
19. Favorite drink?
Moscato Wine
20. Favorite color?
Copper
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Transfiguration
22. Favorite movie?
The Lion King followed very closely by the Life of Pi and Avatar
23. Least favorite food?
Anything not considered average american normal. and tomatoes.
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Fuck this, i am invincible! Steak.
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Hyundai Elantra 2012
26. Most disliked bug?
Ants
27. Most hated pet peeves?
Arrogant assholes who think they know everything and automatically assume theyre better than you.
28. Dislike in life?
People who are their own hypocrisies.
29. Most annoying?
Screaming. Fucking. Babies. On. Public. Transit. *Bitch slaps the parents*
30. Most disliked TV show?
Anything that has "Jersey" "Shore" "Reality" "Dumb" etc in it.
TwitchyTigs... wouldnt have done it otherwise, but i am bored lol.1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Matt
2. How tall are you?
5'11 3/4"
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Dark brown that fades to light brown at the tip (seriously)
3. What about eye color?
Brown and Hazel striations with a Olive Green Ring
4. What orientation are you?
Completely in the middle. Bisexual
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Stolen by
TwitchyTigs and i wouldnt want it any other way6. What do you do in your spare time?
Hike, Bike, Swim - oh wait thats in the summer. Hope something happens on the internet all day lol
7. What's your job?
Photographic Research Assistant and Architecture Intern
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I tell everyone everything about me and have no mental shame
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
My Butt.
10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Outgoing, caring, gentle and loving personality
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
I believe in nothing at heart but show a Catholic Facade for my family only.
12. Do you drink?
Of course matey
13. Do you smoke?
Never have, never will.
14. What are your fears?
Clowns. Omg why do they exist?!
15. What are your dreams/goals?
World Renowned nature photographer and to cuddle a male lion or tiger - full grown one.
16. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Yup. I can name all 8.
17. Who's your best bud?
Aboxofdeth18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
milk chocolate sponge candy
19. Favorite drink?
Moscato Wine
20. Favorite color?
Copper
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Transfiguration
22. Favorite movie?
The Lion King followed very closely by the Life of Pi and Avatar
23. Least favorite food?
Anything not considered average american normal. and tomatoes.
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Fuck this, i am invincible! Steak.
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Hyundai Elantra 2012
26. Most disliked bug?
Ants
27. Most hated pet peeves?
Arrogant assholes who think they know everything and automatically assume theyre better than you.
28. Dislike in life?
People who are their own hypocrisies.
29. Most annoying?
Screaming. Fucking. Babies. On. Public. Transit. *Bitch slaps the parents*
30. Most disliked TV show?
Anything that has "Jersey" "Shore" "Reality" "Dumb" etc in it.
I am very amused
Posted 12 years agoEvery artist puts my black ear dots in a different place. Some have made them gauges even XD
People, they go on my ears just above the part where the ear meets my head. <3
It is definitely something that makes me chuckle every time.
People, they go on my ears just above the part where the ear meets my head. <3
It is definitely something that makes me chuckle every time.
Image pack by Negger
Posted 12 years agoThis guy is an amazing artist. You should really go check out his latest image pack "Inkspots" - especially if you are a kitty fan!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9495990/
Negger
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9495990/
Negger1000 Page Views!
Posted 13 years agoWow big day for me XD
100 WATCHERS :D
Posted 13 years agoI have no idea how this happened but you guys are all awesome <3 <3 <3
To Anyone who Needs a Statement of Encouragement
Posted 13 years agoIf you are having a difficult time right now in any way, you may want to read this.
Life is full of hypocrites, assholes, ignorance and idiocy. Life is so unfair that my country suffered a devastating tragedy today because our health care system refuses to recognize people that have mental disability. Life is so unfair that i am afraid to walk outside everyday for the fear it will be my last. But you know why i do, and why i wake up in the morning? Because if i let the unfairness of reality affect me, it will corrupt me too. It has corrupted me severely in the past. And this week i broke free and no longer am my own hypocrisy. You need to learn to not allow these things get to you, and accept that the truth prevails in the end, and make yourself find the people who are truthful, and willing to call you their friend. Even if that means you only have one friend. One person who cares about you, and is willing to accept you for who you are, is better than a lifetime of being alone and miserable.
Life is full of hypocrites, assholes, ignorance and idiocy. Life is so unfair that my country suffered a devastating tragedy today because our health care system refuses to recognize people that have mental disability. Life is so unfair that i am afraid to walk outside everyday for the fear it will be my last. But you know why i do, and why i wake up in the morning? Because if i let the unfairness of reality affect me, it will corrupt me too. It has corrupted me severely in the past. And this week i broke free and no longer am my own hypocrisy. You need to learn to not allow these things get to you, and accept that the truth prevails in the end, and make yourself find the people who are truthful, and willing to call you their friend. Even if that means you only have one friend. One person who cares about you, and is willing to accept you for who you are, is better than a lifetime of being alone and miserable.
To Everyone
Posted 13 years agoThank you. Your kind words, your sympathy and efforts in response to my other journal were very much appreciated. I am glad i have influenced others, and am glad that people can connect with me and my situation. I would just like to follow up with all who responded and who intend to respond in the future, that because of that post here to all of you on FA, my relationship with my girlfriend has become extremely strong, my relationship with my guy friend has become very close, and his relationship with his potential girlfriend has become a likely reality. That journal has changed all of us in a very good way, and i am so thankful i wrote it.
However i have a serious backstory that is 25 pages long and explains everything about me and why i am how i am. If anyone is interested, truly interested, in reading it, please note me and i will be happy to share.
~sibe.
However i have a serious backstory that is 25 pages long and explains everything about me and why i am how i am. If anyone is interested, truly interested, in reading it, please note me and i will be happy to share.
~sibe.
Emotional Tirade on Love and Feelings and my Life.
Posted 13 years agoThis is something i feel needs to just simply be expressed to the world, because ive discussed it with like 4 people now, and its time i just put it out there.
I really want two certain people in particular to read this the most. But am fine with whoever decides to spend their time investing in my crazy inner thoughts and feelings. Out of respect i will not say names. But anyone should be able to guess who i am talking about if you know me.
I am completely bisexual. Ive never been able to express this before this past fall. ive never been able to accept it before either. Through living with my gay roommate, and my lesbian best childhood friend who is engaged to a man, and my supportive straight friends (furry or not) i have learned that who i am will not change. I do not want it to change. I like both sexes equally, and am perfectly comfortable being with a guy or a girl. I feel the exact same emotions for either, and can express myself the same way to either.
So this being said, i need to just say it already, and explain my life for the past 3 weeks, but moreso this past week.
I love two people at the same time, except one i love because i want to spend my life with her. The other i love because he is my closest friend in the world.
The girl i fell in love with this past late summer is a person whom ive liked for over a year. She compliments my personality in every way imaginable. She is adorable, cute, and mentally strong. She can take my nonsense and throw it in my face and make me laugh at myself happily. This girl accepts me for who i am, and over this past week i have really pushed our relationship boundaries over my bisexual curiosity. She still stuck with me and didnt leave me. I tell her everything from A-Z, i leave out no details, for i value honesty and integrity in my relationship. Lies create weak bases of support. If i lie to her, it will destroy us. I do not wish to ever hurt her physically or emotionally. I have sexual desire over her like you cannot imagine, but because i respect her so much i will not rush things. Other guys are all in it for the sex. Im in it for the true emotional companionship. This is not to say i havent tried things. Groping someone you like is just natural behavior. Tickling, and kissing. There is no shame in this.
Bottom line is that this girl is the only person i have ever experienced the "you are the one" feeling. It is incredible. Years of dating, using online websites, and on my own i found the person i want to marry, the person i want grow old with, have kids with, love forever.
She is my everything, and if i ever lost her i would be devastated like no one can imagine. The type of devastation you get when a loved one dies.
Now i need to express something else. I love a guy at the same time. But i dont romantically love him, i have a very close bond with him. I met him a month or so ago over FA. I was quick to warm up to him. I was quick to befriend him - something that he said never happens. I dont know how it happened but my friendship with him is so strong. We are extremely identical in 99% of things and tastes and preferences. Its so strange. But as the weeks have passed feelings have changed. I have now idolized him, because he is the reason i am comfortable with who i am, and the reason i feel i can accomplish things artistically. He is the first person to invite awkward me to a party. i accepted. Then the next day i some how managed to set up a day where the two of us would hang out. Then the next day all of a sudden i am staying over night at his place. THEN THE NEXT DAY he posts on twitter about how he wants someone to cuddle him, and i jumped at chance.
I love cuddles. I have a huge memory-foam stuffed lion on my bed that i have cuddled for 6 years now.
He accepted the cuddles and i expressed to my girlfriend what would happen. I was not surprised to hear she was unhappy, but was shocked to hear she wasn't mad. Time had passed then it became the end of my semester. As a group the three of us were good internet friends. It was my last day of the semester. She was back at home, some hours away. He just returned from vacation that day.
I begged if i could hop on the next train at 11:55pm and come over and spend the night, because i wanted to be with someone before i left, and he said yes. That night we cuddled in his room on his bed, among the hundreds of pillows in our underwear. I tightly embraced him, and it felt so nice to hold on to something warm. I rubbed his fuzzy belly pretty much all night long, and groped him once. It was nice to be with a guy.
Everyone on the planet knows i am horny 24/7. I have no idea why. And yeah, i was horny that night, much to the same extent i am horny when i am always spending time with my girlfriend, in bed or otherwise.
She knows this happened, and was ok with it. I dont know how i managed to snag a girl like her who is ok with her boyfriend going off and spending a night with a guy, but i have expressed and now proven myself to her that she always comes first. She is my world, he is my friend-with-benefits. She makes me whole, he makes me feel safe in this fucked up world. I want to marry her and have thought of ways to propose after only a few months. i want him to be my best friend forever.
So what comes next? It gets more complicated than this i fear.
After proving myself to her, i have been given essentially permission to call him my cuddle buddy. I could not be more thankful for this. I will see my girlfriend as much as i can. I am going to her house for 5 days before next semester, she is coming to mine for the entirety of spring break, and we frequently spend the weekends together.
He and i have arranged to try to see eachother every wednesday after my last class at 10pm. The semester is going to be so hard because i have a professor for my core architecture class who hates me. Ive had him before for a different class. He doesnt care about my medical problems documented by specialists. He doesnt like how i am as a person. I am pretty sure he is anti LGBT. actually i would bet he is. So being able to spend time with this guy every wednesday after class for just a night may actually prevent me from wanting to kill myself this semester (figure of speech, i am not suicidal).
I have emotionally broke down in front of my friends before, but knowing i can be with him, and her, may finally keep me sane and happy all the time, because i feel safe and cared about in his arms, and loved and respected in hers.
But i need to express myself to her now. I know our boundaries, my soulmate, and i respect them. But every guy has his needs, and mine are rarely satisfied because school dictates otherwise. I just want to let you know that if things between he and i ever happened ((and i am not talking about sex, or that stuff. i am talking about groping and stroking or a minor bj for the sake it just needs to happen sometimes)) that they are nothing that show i have romantic interest in him. I romantically love you, and only you forever. I cannot promise you that things will always be G-Rated between he and I. they may get R - its just the nature of things. So like how ive been honest with you up to this point, i am continuing my honesty by writing this, not just to you in private, but as a public journal.
So whats the whole reason behind telling my love and sex life to people on FA? Because i want it to show that i am not ashamed of who i am. I want it to show the background and context of why things are happening the way they are. I want you, my girlfriend, to see that though i cannot change the fact that i am bisexual and like a guy, that you always come first, and i respect you so very very deeply. I want you to know me for who i am, and what ive done, and what i may end up doing. I want you to love me like i love you. You have loved me unconditionally, and i too love you unconditionally. But i like guys just as much as i like girls. Nothing will ever come between us, my soulmate, but minor things may happen with a guy. I just want you to understand the sincerity in my tone, the truth in my emotion, and the passion in my heart.
I am not scared of posting this for everyone to read. People will start questioning after a while. Might as well let them know.
There, you all know. If you judge me then you judge me. I felt this is something i needed to just finally say.
I really want two certain people in particular to read this the most. But am fine with whoever decides to spend their time investing in my crazy inner thoughts and feelings. Out of respect i will not say names. But anyone should be able to guess who i am talking about if you know me.
I am completely bisexual. Ive never been able to express this before this past fall. ive never been able to accept it before either. Through living with my gay roommate, and my lesbian best childhood friend who is engaged to a man, and my supportive straight friends (furry or not) i have learned that who i am will not change. I do not want it to change. I like both sexes equally, and am perfectly comfortable being with a guy or a girl. I feel the exact same emotions for either, and can express myself the same way to either.
So this being said, i need to just say it already, and explain my life for the past 3 weeks, but moreso this past week.
I love two people at the same time, except one i love because i want to spend my life with her. The other i love because he is my closest friend in the world.
The girl i fell in love with this past late summer is a person whom ive liked for over a year. She compliments my personality in every way imaginable. She is adorable, cute, and mentally strong. She can take my nonsense and throw it in my face and make me laugh at myself happily. This girl accepts me for who i am, and over this past week i have really pushed our relationship boundaries over my bisexual curiosity. She still stuck with me and didnt leave me. I tell her everything from A-Z, i leave out no details, for i value honesty and integrity in my relationship. Lies create weak bases of support. If i lie to her, it will destroy us. I do not wish to ever hurt her physically or emotionally. I have sexual desire over her like you cannot imagine, but because i respect her so much i will not rush things. Other guys are all in it for the sex. Im in it for the true emotional companionship. This is not to say i havent tried things. Groping someone you like is just natural behavior. Tickling, and kissing. There is no shame in this.
Bottom line is that this girl is the only person i have ever experienced the "you are the one" feeling. It is incredible. Years of dating, using online websites, and on my own i found the person i want to marry, the person i want grow old with, have kids with, love forever.
She is my everything, and if i ever lost her i would be devastated like no one can imagine. The type of devastation you get when a loved one dies.
Now i need to express something else. I love a guy at the same time. But i dont romantically love him, i have a very close bond with him. I met him a month or so ago over FA. I was quick to warm up to him. I was quick to befriend him - something that he said never happens. I dont know how it happened but my friendship with him is so strong. We are extremely identical in 99% of things and tastes and preferences. Its so strange. But as the weeks have passed feelings have changed. I have now idolized him, because he is the reason i am comfortable with who i am, and the reason i feel i can accomplish things artistically. He is the first person to invite awkward me to a party. i accepted. Then the next day i some how managed to set up a day where the two of us would hang out. Then the next day all of a sudden i am staying over night at his place. THEN THE NEXT DAY he posts on twitter about how he wants someone to cuddle him, and i jumped at chance.
I love cuddles. I have a huge memory-foam stuffed lion on my bed that i have cuddled for 6 years now.
He accepted the cuddles and i expressed to my girlfriend what would happen. I was not surprised to hear she was unhappy, but was shocked to hear she wasn't mad. Time had passed then it became the end of my semester. As a group the three of us were good internet friends. It was my last day of the semester. She was back at home, some hours away. He just returned from vacation that day.
I begged if i could hop on the next train at 11:55pm and come over and spend the night, because i wanted to be with someone before i left, and he said yes. That night we cuddled in his room on his bed, among the hundreds of pillows in our underwear. I tightly embraced him, and it felt so nice to hold on to something warm. I rubbed his fuzzy belly pretty much all night long, and groped him once. It was nice to be with a guy.
Everyone on the planet knows i am horny 24/7. I have no idea why. And yeah, i was horny that night, much to the same extent i am horny when i am always spending time with my girlfriend, in bed or otherwise.
She knows this happened, and was ok with it. I dont know how i managed to snag a girl like her who is ok with her boyfriend going off and spending a night with a guy, but i have expressed and now proven myself to her that she always comes first. She is my world, he is my friend-with-benefits. She makes me whole, he makes me feel safe in this fucked up world. I want to marry her and have thought of ways to propose after only a few months. i want him to be my best friend forever.
So what comes next? It gets more complicated than this i fear.
After proving myself to her, i have been given essentially permission to call him my cuddle buddy. I could not be more thankful for this. I will see my girlfriend as much as i can. I am going to her house for 5 days before next semester, she is coming to mine for the entirety of spring break, and we frequently spend the weekends together.
He and i have arranged to try to see eachother every wednesday after my last class at 10pm. The semester is going to be so hard because i have a professor for my core architecture class who hates me. Ive had him before for a different class. He doesnt care about my medical problems documented by specialists. He doesnt like how i am as a person. I am pretty sure he is anti LGBT. actually i would bet he is. So being able to spend time with this guy every wednesday after class for just a night may actually prevent me from wanting to kill myself this semester (figure of speech, i am not suicidal).
I have emotionally broke down in front of my friends before, but knowing i can be with him, and her, may finally keep me sane and happy all the time, because i feel safe and cared about in his arms, and loved and respected in hers.
But i need to express myself to her now. I know our boundaries, my soulmate, and i respect them. But every guy has his needs, and mine are rarely satisfied because school dictates otherwise. I just want to let you know that if things between he and i ever happened ((and i am not talking about sex, or that stuff. i am talking about groping and stroking or a minor bj for the sake it just needs to happen sometimes)) that they are nothing that show i have romantic interest in him. I romantically love you, and only you forever. I cannot promise you that things will always be G-Rated between he and I. they may get R - its just the nature of things. So like how ive been honest with you up to this point, i am continuing my honesty by writing this, not just to you in private, but as a public journal.
So whats the whole reason behind telling my love and sex life to people on FA? Because i want it to show that i am not ashamed of who i am. I want it to show the background and context of why things are happening the way they are. I want you, my girlfriend, to see that though i cannot change the fact that i am bisexual and like a guy, that you always come first, and i respect you so very very deeply. I want you to know me for who i am, and what ive done, and what i may end up doing. I want you to love me like i love you. You have loved me unconditionally, and i too love you unconditionally. But i like guys just as much as i like girls. Nothing will ever come between us, my soulmate, but minor things may happen with a guy. I just want you to understand the sincerity in my tone, the truth in my emotion, and the passion in my heart.
I am not scared of posting this for everyone to read. People will start questioning after a while. Might as well let them know.
There, you all know. If you judge me then you judge me. I felt this is something i needed to just finally say.
Well how bout that.
Posted 13 years agoTag, you're it :P
-Holiday meme-
1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Fave Color:
4. Are you a virgin?
5. Are we friends?
6. Do you have a crush on me?
7. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
8. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
9. Would you walk on the beach with me?
10. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
11. Do you talk about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you change anything about me if you could?
14. If you could ask one question, what would it be?
15. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
16. Where do you live? if US what state?
17. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
-Holiday meme-
1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Fave Color:
4. Are you a virgin?
5. Are we friends?
6. Do you have a crush on me?
7. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
8. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
9. Would you walk on the beach with me?
10. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
11. Do you talk about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you change anything about me if you could?
14. If you could ask one question, what would it be?
15. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
16. Where do you live? if US what state?
17. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
Line Art Coloring and Custom Con Badges!
Posted 13 years agoThank you to 
Rrowdybeast + 
DazenCobalt + 
PhantomWolf for helping me to figure this commission stuff out. It is greatly appreciated.
Alright so I can draw some con badges in addition to rendering out existing line art. So if anyone would like a con badge drawn from scratch based off of an example pose reference then I'd be happy to draw you one! If you want line art colored but don't have lines, go see
uteki! She draws in a great playful style :)
Pricing
Just $7 USD for all con badges - fully colored, abstract Gel background.
Full painting just $15 USD for line art rendering of any existing drawings. Backgrounds included, and will most likely be water colored.
Notes:
1. I will color anything, but if it is Adult Work, please note me first so i may approve it.
1b. ABSOLUTELY NO fetishes. Note me if you are unsure.
2. Please send me an example pose reference for con badges and the name you want.
3. I need some sort of color ref, visual is preferable.
4. Turn-around time is estimated to be 1-2 weeks at this current time.
5. You are welcome to join in on a live stream to influence the coloring process!
6. Progress of your commission is always updated below.
7. I work out of order, depending on the mood of the moment and complexity. Don't feel bad if someone else's drawing is finished before yours and you asked me first! Itl get done!
Example of con badge: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9419800/
Example of how i shade: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/
Comment if you want to grab a slot! Thanks for helping me out! Trying to raise some funds to go to a few Cons myself! Please feel free to note me with any questions.
November Closed.
1.
LeoLion13 Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9326249/
2. Uteki Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9330580/
3. AboxofDeth Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/
4. TwitchyTigs Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/
5. poprockgrey Queued. Waiting for school to finish . Expected completion next week at the latest.
December
1.
JaggySheppy Finished - Custom Con Badge - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9424400/ UNPAID
2. OPEN
3. OPEN
4. OPEN
5. OPEN
Thank you all kindly for your support and interest!
~Sibe
Rrowdybeast + 
DazenCobalt + 
PhantomWolf for helping me to figure this commission stuff out. It is greatly appreciated. Alright so I can draw some con badges in addition to rendering out existing line art. So if anyone would like a con badge drawn from scratch based off of an example pose reference then I'd be happy to draw you one! If you want line art colored but don't have lines, go see
uteki! She draws in a great playful style :)Pricing
Just $7 USD for all con badges - fully colored, abstract Gel background.
Full painting just $15 USD for line art rendering of any existing drawings. Backgrounds included, and will most likely be water colored.
Notes:
1. I will color anything, but if it is Adult Work, please note me first so i may approve it.
1b. ABSOLUTELY NO fetishes. Note me if you are unsure.
2. Please send me an example pose reference for con badges and the name you want.
3. I need some sort of color ref, visual is preferable.
4. Turn-around time is estimated to be 1-2 weeks at this current time.
5. You are welcome to join in on a live stream to influence the coloring process!
6. Progress of your commission is always updated below.
7. I work out of order, depending on the mood of the moment and complexity. Don't feel bad if someone else's drawing is finished before yours and you asked me first! Itl get done!
Example of con badge: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9419800/
Example of how i shade: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/
Comment if you want to grab a slot! Thanks for helping me out! Trying to raise some funds to go to a few Cons myself! Please feel free to note me with any questions.
November Closed.
1.
LeoLion13 Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9326249/2.
Uteki Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9330580/3.
AboxofDeth Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/4.
TwitchyTigs Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/5.
poprockgrey Queued. Waiting for school to finish . Expected completion next week at the latest.December
1.
JaggySheppy Finished - Custom Con Badge - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9424400/ UNPAID 2. OPEN
3. OPEN
4. OPEN
5. OPEN
Thank you all kindly for your support and interest!
~Sibe
Cheap Coloring Spots Open!!
Posted 13 years agoThank you to Rrowdybeast + DazenCobalt + PhantomWolf for helping me to figure this commission stuff out. It is greatly appreciated.
Alright so the world knows i cant draw, but i am really good at full-shading (painting) of existing line art! Have anything existing you would like colored? If you dont have any line art go hit up Uteki and she would be happy to draw you something, and i'll color it!
Full-shading just $15 for anything!
Notes:
1. I will color anything, but if it is Adult Work, please note me first so i may approve it.
1b. ABSOLUTELY NO fetishes. Note me if you are unsure.
2. I need some sort of color ref, visual is preferable.
3. Turn-around time is estimated to be 1-2 weeks at this current time.
4. You are welcome to join in on a live stream to influence the coloring process!
5. Progress of your commission is always updated below.
Example of how i shade: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/
Comment if you want to grab a slot! Thanks for helping me out! Trying to raise some funds to go to a few Cons :)
November Closed.
1. LeoLion13 Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9326249/
2. Uteki Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9330580/
3. AboxofDeth Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/
4. TwitchyTigs Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/
5. poprockgrey Queued. Waiting for school to finish . Expected completion next week at the latest.
December
1. JaggySheppy Queued - Custom Con Badge
2. OPEN
3. OPEN
4. OPEN
5. OPEN
Thank you all kindly for your support and interest!
~Sibe
Rrowdybeast + DazenCobalt + PhantomWolf for helping me to figure this commission stuff out. It is greatly appreciated. Alright so the world knows i cant draw, but i am really good at full-shading (painting) of existing line art! Have anything existing you would like colored? If you dont have any line art go hit up
Uteki and she would be happy to draw you something, and i'll color it!Full-shading just $15 for anything!
Notes:
1. I will color anything, but if it is Adult Work, please note me first so i may approve it.
1b. ABSOLUTELY NO fetishes. Note me if you are unsure.
2. I need some sort of color ref, visual is preferable.
3. Turn-around time is estimated to be 1-2 weeks at this current time.
4. You are welcome to join in on a live stream to influence the coloring process!
5. Progress of your commission is always updated below.
Example of how i shade: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/
Comment if you want to grab a slot! Thanks for helping me out! Trying to raise some funds to go to a few Cons :)
November Closed.
1.
LeoLion13 Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9326249/2.
Uteki Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9330580/3.
AboxofDeth Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9361173/4.
TwitchyTigs Finished. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9417734/5.
poprockgrey Queued. Waiting for school to finish . Expected completion next week at the latest.December
1.
JaggySheppy Queued - Custom Con Badge2. OPEN
3. OPEN
4. OPEN
5. OPEN
Thank you all kindly for your support and interest!
~Sibe
Im bored, might as well. Questionnaire Thingy
Posted 13 years agoSome random questionnaire thing floating around on FA. blame Uteki
1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? - Yes
Been arrested? - No
Kissed someone you didn't like? - Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? - Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? - Yes
Ran a red light? - No
Been suspended from school? - Yes
Experienced love at first sight? - Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? - No
Been fired from a job? - No
Fired somebody? - Yes
Sang karaoke? - No
Pointed a gun at someone? - No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? - Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? - Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - Yes
Kissed in the rain? - No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? - Yes
Seen someone die? - Yes
Played spin-the-bottle? - Yes
Sang in the shower? - Yes
Smoked a cigar? - No
Sat on a rooftop? - Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? - No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? - Yes
Skipped school? - Yes
Eaten a bug? - Yes
Sleepwalked? - Yes
Walked a moonlit beach? - Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? - No
Dumped someone? - Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? - No
Lied to avoid a ticket? - No
Ridden on a helicopter? - No
Shaved your head? - No
Blacked out from drinking? - No
Played a prank on someone? - Yes
Hit a home run? - No
Felt like killing someone? - Yes
Cross-dressed? - No
Been falling-down drunk? - No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? - Yes
Eaten snake? - No
Marched/Protested? - Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? - Yes
Puked on an amusement ride? - Yes
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? - No
Been in a band? - No
Knitted? - No
Been on TV? - Yes
Shot a gun? - No
Skinny-dipped? - Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? - No
Ridden a surfboard? - No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? - Yes
Had surgery? - Yes
Streaked? - No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? - Yes
Passed out when not drinking? - Yes
Peed on a bush? - Yes
Donated Blood? - No
Grabbed electric fence? - Yes
Eaten alligator meat? - No
Eaten cheesecake? - No
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? - Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? - No
Peed your pants in public? - Yes
Written graffiti? - No
Still love someone you shouldn't? - No
Think about the future? - Yes
Been in handcuffs? - No
Believe in love? - Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? - Yes
Any questions feel free to ask.
Uteki1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? - Yes
Been arrested? - No
Kissed someone you didn't like? - Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? - Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? - Yes
Ran a red light? - No
Been suspended from school? - Yes
Experienced love at first sight? - Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? - No
Been fired from a job? - No
Fired somebody? - Yes
Sang karaoke? - No
Pointed a gun at someone? - No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? - Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? - Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - Yes
Kissed in the rain? - No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? - Yes
Seen someone die? - Yes
Played spin-the-bottle? - Yes
Sang in the shower? - Yes
Smoked a cigar? - No
Sat on a rooftop? - Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? - No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? - Yes
Skipped school? - Yes
Eaten a bug? - Yes
Sleepwalked? - Yes
Walked a moonlit beach? - Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? - No
Dumped someone? - Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? - No
Lied to avoid a ticket? - No
Ridden on a helicopter? - No
Shaved your head? - No
Blacked out from drinking? - No
Played a prank on someone? - Yes
Hit a home run? - No
Felt like killing someone? - Yes
Cross-dressed? - No
Been falling-down drunk? - No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? - Yes
Eaten snake? - No
Marched/Protested? - Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? - Yes
Puked on an amusement ride? - Yes
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? - No
Been in a band? - No
Knitted? - No
Been on TV? - Yes
Shot a gun? - No
Skinny-dipped? - Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? - No
Ridden a surfboard? - No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? - Yes
Had surgery? - Yes
Streaked? - No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? - Yes
Passed out when not drinking? - Yes
Peed on a bush? - Yes
Donated Blood? - No
Grabbed electric fence? - Yes
Eaten alligator meat? - No
Eaten cheesecake? - No
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? - Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? - No
Peed your pants in public? - Yes
Written graffiti? - No
Still love someone you shouldn't? - No
Think about the future? - Yes
Been in handcuffs? - No
Believe in love? - Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? - Yes
Any questions feel free to ask.
