Basically just the title of this...

looking at my art just makes me depressed right now. I want to draw, but honestly lack any and all motivations to do so..

I'm still looking for any kind of work, which has been a constant struggle in it's own right. Kind of have something at a seasonal store, but that's only lasting maybe a week and a half.

I'd still love to take a few commissions and start both drawing and earning again, though clearly I suck at self promotion, self motivation, or even being consistent with anything, so I remain stuck here in perpetuity...

I don't know what to do anymore, and the days and months going by all feel the same... constantly busy but feeling like I'm getting no where or not really doing anything even though I am running around doing chores and errands incessently.

I have no social life outside of my family and roommates, and even then I'm most constantly by myself. This has let me explore inward and outward quite a bit mentally and even perhaps spiritually, though I still feel like I'm stuck going in circles with not much to show for it...



~ ventilation completed?

Not really sure if there's a point to posting this beyond venting, but whatever.

Still looking for work

Trying to draw more again, will also try to actually upload some of the stuff I've sketched up...eventually...
lacking motivation for practically anything lately, so its been a struggle.

Also been working on 3d model stuff, more game assets mostly... haven't even scratched the surface of everything that'll be needed, realistically.

Been sick over the last week... relatively mild at least, but hasn't helped with motivational issues.

Don't have a lot of people I talk to anymore... if you're one of those I used to talk to with any regularity, I apologize for my terrible social skills and lack of keeping in touch. (well I apologize in general really, even if the regularity was never there)

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I Am looking to open commissions for both digital art and 3d Models/characters. If you know anyone looking or would be interested in getting something from me yourself, feel free to reach out!

Well I'm back up in Washington State now, this time moved back up and will likely stick around a while...
Looking for work still... been working on 3d modeling stuff... have drawn a few things, though not a lot. Might upload images and such.... feeling kinda all over though. I swear i've been more busy even though I feel like i have nothing to do x.x

Too much to do perhaps...

If anyone reads this, shoot me a message if you'd be interested in a commission - Art or 3D Model. Trying to branch out a bit.

Well as I said in my previous Journal, I was waiting to hear back from a job I'd applied for.

Ended up getting the job and have now settled in well enough, though it's made making any kind of updates on that project kind of hard to keep up. The new job along with various stresses and the like over the past several months... I do still plan on working towards it, but getting motivation to do much of anything has been a challenge.

I may give my paw at writing again to at least try and fluff up any story that could be plot-relevant, but it's a gamble if I'll be able to, at least at the present state of everything.



All that aside, I hope whoever's around to read this has been or will soon be doing better.



Indirectly,

Aryisiek

Hey all,

So I'm between jobs at the moment.. Feels a bit weird being out of work after 2 and a half years, but it was a choice, so...can't complain too much.

While I'm waiting to hear back on something I applied for (it's been several months but they seem to like taking their time when it's inconvenient... go figure), I'm intending on working on a project I had been putting off, and if enough people are interested in it and I get enough support going, then I may just take to it full time instead and tell this other job to go jump in a lake or something.

~ I'd love to do that, so please help! ~

This project means plenty more art and working a lot more on 3D models/assets and environments and such, so this means I intend on posting more again / finally.

This project will eventually evolve into a game, and I've got plenty of ideas for how I want it to work; I guess we'll see if I can implement all of it (probably not, but i'm gunna try!) - I just need to learn a few new skillsets that I've only tentatively touched on until now.

Anyway, just thought I'd say something about it. If you'd like to know more, feel free to visit my Patreon page, and or ask questions here. I'm more than happy to talk!

Tis been a couple years since my last...well, anything really. Not sure if anyone's noticed, not sure if anyone will see this even (not trying to be dramatic or anything, but it has been a couple years), but I figure I might as well post an update.

I dont really have any particular reason as to why I haven't been posting art or otherwise, I just haven't felt up to it I guess? I would say I've been busy with work and moving and all that - which would be true, kind of - but I have time and the ability to draw while I'm working, and since I work from home full time now... I'm just easily distracted honestly. Art has been hard to focus on for various reasons... not to say I haven't been drawing at all, but not nearly as much as I - or others - might like.

I've a few things I could probably upload (should probably upload?) to get things started again. I think I'm feeling in a more artistic mood again, so that might be good.

Anyway... hello again, fellow furs. I wonder if anything's changed (or what hasn't) while I've been... inattentive.