So... Long time no see, huh? Heyo there. I'm still alive and back.
How are you? How have you been?
Whoa... 4 years. It feels like it was a lifetime ago... Ehh.
I want to say I'm back and stay after being gone for so long. A lot of things have happened and changed. Life has changed.

I thought I'll keep this journal short and just write few words I'm back... but I guess not anymore.

It may sound stupid but when I think back 4-5 years back to how things where and who I were back then... I can't almost remember. Feels like it was in another lifetime and I was almost another person.
I'd love to say I'm finally doing better and I have my shit together and all is perfect. But I can't. Heh.
Past few years have been tough for me. I've been dealing with anxiety and depressive episodes, having it really hard to deal with. Tough.
So tough that I've stopped painting - which always helped me through, was therapeutic for me and I always loved it. I've been trying to get back to it many times, but just couldn't. Weird, huh?
I kinda escaped into cosplaying and prop making. I made a Commander Sarah Palmer cosplay from Halo. Never thought I'd ever manage to do a cosplay. But I know it was an escape. Me trying to deal with stuff I couldn't do.

Last year... Well. Last year has been a beautiful roller coaster. My life changed. I changed. So much changed... It felt like I was alive again. Beautiful moments. Beautiful memories. Felt like I was getting whole again. And break into then fall apart. Bittersweet.
Silly how a single person can change you.
But I've started to paint. Not every day like back then. But paint - it's better than nothing, right? Babysteps are still progress. I've even went into traditional art! Something I've never done before... Did the Inktober for the first time in my life - never painted with ink before.

I live in Warsaw now. Moved in this year. And trying to get my shit together. And back to what I've always wanted - be an artist and do what I love for a living - painting. I'll try to do that now.
I'm trying to get back on track. With everything.
And I can see that not only I changed but my art did, after all these years. My approach. Dunno. Something changed... Ehh. It seriously feels like I'm a completely different person. I've changed so much.

I'm bit rusty. But I'm not worse. And I plan on getting better. Improving. I'm always learning.

I plan on painting every day. Getting back to doing commissions. And in the meantime some personal art for my portfolio. Also, I want to livestream, I already did lately on twitch - I always notify and you're always welcome to join.
I want to finish uploading the Inktober pieces and then I'll have some other traidional art to post. And some digital art.
I want to paint again. It feels nice. It feels so nice. I want it that way.
I think I'm finally back.

- Mara

Hi there fellas,

I really apologize for being offline all these last months.
I kind of strayed, because of some or many reasons and I struggled to come back.
I don't really want to publicly talk about it here in this journal.. But, I'm alive and back.

I'll try to be active from now on, but please, give me some time to catch up.

So... How have you been?

Also, to all who are awaiting my response... If I didn't reply - can you please be a dear and re-send your note/e-mail? FA sometimes has problems but also my internet used to be shaggy sometimes and I used to have some problems while sending notes/e-mails and people not receiving them and also the other way around.

I hope you're well.

~UglyDuckling

Greetings and hello again,
You may not have noticed but I was pretty inactive through whole January... til now.
The reason behind that is that I was actually sick since December. I was fighting off the fewer, cold and such... rather miserably that it took me 2 months to get healthier. I'm still not fully recovered as I cough a bit, but it's minor... I'm healthy again. \ o /
I'll be posting some artworks I haven't shown you yet (unless you follow my website you may have seen them).
I hope you're alright and you're enjoying the 2015. : )
Did I miss anything? : D

PS. If you sent me a note and you didn't receive any reply - please contact me again, I may have not received it at all. (I have noted that FA's PM system as been faulty sometimes)

Merry Christmas everyone!
Enjoy it and happy holidays

I'm back.

Feeling better now, getting healthy again... still encountering some issues, however I'm back.
How are you? Did I miss something?

Thank you for all the feedback and all the comments, I appreciate these.
I'll try to answer all notes and comments asap.

I was trying to write this journal since about 2 days...
I'll be back (hopefully) in the first week of November.
I've been feeling so sick and exhausted in last 1-2 weeks and few days ago I almost passed out and almost landed in hospital - my father was very close from calling an ambulance I was in so much pain.
Right now I don't really have the strength to even check anything on my computer... So, hopefully, see you next week.
Also, to my commissioners - I'm very very sorry about the inconvenience but I can't really help it right now... : (

Those who followed me in last 1-2 months... I was just going through and sending thank yous and instead of deleting those who I just thanked... I nuked all. ;_;
I'm so sorry! I wanted to thank you personally and greet you and all and now I can't...
If I haven't gotten back to you - THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR +WATCH.

So, I'm working on a new YT channel where I'll be posting more or less often some process videos mostly.
I have some points what I'll be discussing in the first video, but I just wanted to ask you if you have any requests or suggestions what else should or could I say.

Alright - BACK. I'm healthy now (almost).
Back and running.

:)

Alright... Perhaps some of you noticed I stopped uploading new art and I've been quiet these days.
I wanted to post this journal earlier, but only now I'm more online.
The reason for the hiatus is that I've caught cold or other virus or something... I've spend last days being unproductive, lying around and doing pretty much nothing but sitting under a blanket.
I'll be on hiatus til the end of the week.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you, CLOSED.

Alright, thanks everyone. Closed.

Alright... Hi everyone. I'm back, finally.

Just wanted to tell you that my move has been successful. I've settled in, just some minor things to finish, unimportant.

As some of you have seen, my old pen has been murdered... I already have a new one.

Also... I invested in a brand new monitor. Almost 24" LED LG... Finally having HDMI! The second monitor I've been using has been too old. Now I have HD quality... I wanted to use this monitor for everything - second display, watching movies and playing games. I'm happy with my choice.

Also, catching up with the commissions now - I have some artworks that have to be uploaded here... I'll try to do it as soon as I can, still didn't have the time.

On the other side... I've started to take care of myself and my health. I've done some acidification lately and damn, I felt so bad these days... Also, did some fast, 3 days only detoxification of my body... It was only a start though. Soon will have to do 7 days.
I've never cared or tried to live and eat healthy, so it's time to clear and repair a little all the damage.

Also, as 'starting anew', I'll be starting to do my driver's license on Monday. I hope I'll pass.

How have you been, guys?

Thank you very much for your feedback, your comments, favourites and watched. I'm very happy you like my art. Thank you.
I will try to catch up soon.

PS. Tutaj dla ludzi mówiących po Polsku. Mieszkam teraz w Polsce, jeśli ktoś chciałby pogadać czy spotkać się, nie bójcie się pisać. Mieszkam w Opolu, jednak w dzisiejszych dniach odległość nie ma znaczenia. ;) Na jakieś spotkania live bardziej na jesień, bo jeszcze trochę zajęta będę w sierpniu. Jeśli ktoś by chciał, moje GG - 49684199

I'm sorry for writing it right now... I actually couldn't find any time earlier.
As you may have realized, I was quite busy and mostly offline lately.

I'm moving between countries... It's been pretty crazy and not happy about it, because it's keeping me behind with more than few things.

Now, I'll be offline for few days most likely. When I'll get back to new flat I'll check back.
I'm really sorry about all the delays with replying e-mails and notes, and then... even worse, all the comments I'm always grateful. I love reading your comments, really!

Commissions will proceed next week, again, apologize for the inconvenience.

Thank you and... I'll be back.

I realized I didn't tell you this... But if you want to see more of my art - sketches, WIPs and more, I have a FB page and a blog I update quite often, almost daily and you're very welcome to visit and like. ;)

FB Page - https://www.facebook.com/Spartan713
Blog - http://spartan713.blogspot.com/

Alright guys - I have to apologize for being quite inactive lately.
I had some things to deal with in my life. I also will be moving back to my homeland next month.
This wasn't however the very real issue - lately I've been having those constant headaches and migraines and this is what really kept me away and I couldn't really even focus on drawing. Even swallowing shittons of painkillers wouldn't really help.
Since yesterday it got bit better, at least I can focus on doing things which is very good thing as I fell back with work and stuff to finish.
Now, I apologize for writing so late but this was the main reason why there were constant delays in answering your notes and e-mails and why I couldn't get to reply your comment. I'm sorry and I hope you'll forgive me for that.
So yeah, I hope it won't worsen again and expect more art soon, as now I have submitted quite everything I had finished earlier.

Also, again - thank you very much for feedback! You're the best!

Now - I have a lot to catch up...

Yeah, so I got actually quite interested - if you were going to want an artwork from me, how much would you like to pay for it?

I'm just curious about your opinion. ^^

My current prices - http://spartan713.com/m/price-guide

Anyway, how have you been? Sorry, I've been doing much lately and almost no streams... I'll try to change it. ^^

May the Force be with you.

^^

Like in the title... What is it all about Patreon lately?
I seen more than few artists lately joining Patreon and talking about it...

Well, I'm back. I really enjoyed my (very short) trip.
My stay at my family's house has been great and I've really enjoyed the time.
It has passed so quickly! We had amazing Easter, having 12 family guests. I'm slowly getting used to such big family meetings, haha.
I really can't wait til summer.
Now I'm back and ready for work again, haha. I can't be such lazyass. Actually, I planned if I'd have some free time I'll be working and painting - I didn't find such free time. I tried to do as much as I could but it wasn't really any progress.
Tomorrow I'll be back at drawing again, as today I'll have to run for some groceries (my fridge is empty and it's already over 8pm so I'll have to be fast) and unpack my suitcase.
I also really hope you guys also enjoyed the Easter and those short holidays.
I've been doing fine, especially relaxing in our garden - it's like sitting in a paradise.
How have you been?

Also, I'd like to thank you for all your feedback lately. You're amazing! I'll try to respond asap.

~Spartan713

So... Thank you for those who entered the raffle and I already plan the next raffle, same raffle when I'll hit 1k watchers (or 5k pageviews? thinking about it).
Also, during Easter I'll be on semi-hiatus. I'll be visiting my family during for a week and during this time there might be a slight delay as I won't have much time to draw. Otherwise I'll be online so if you have any questions or requests, feel free to contact me.
I plan also to open few commission slots soon, I think shortly after Easter (21th or 22th?).

In case I won't write another journal I wish you all Happy Easter!

~Spartan713

Ok, as promised I just hit 500 watchers and here I bring you a raffle.

To enter the raffle just provide a small description and/or references to your wished character, brief info about it's personality and/or also your wish about the icon (expression, portrait/eye, etc.). Only requirement is that you're +watching me.

I'll keep this for next 24 hours.

Kind regards,
Spartan713

(everyone will get a number according to in which order one has posted - 1st one to post will get the number 1, and so on, so I'd ask you to post *ONE* comment only, so replies, nothing else)

Hi guys,

I'm sorry for being bit inactive lately... I've been somewhat quite exhausted and there were few days where I came home and I didn't really have energy to do anything at all. Lately I was able to draw again, even if not as much as earlier. Luckily they almost already and soon my energy shall be fully recharged, I hope.

Also, soon there will be 500 people watching me and I thought about doing a raffle. Hitting 500 watchers is going to be sooner than for example 5000 pageviews, haha. The raffle wouldn't be anything huge, more of a smaller project like an icon or a pose or something. What would you think about it? I was thinking the only requirement would be that the said person would have to +watch me and post in the proper journal (providing already a reference or description of a wished character and what they wish) as I'd like to surprise someone with the finished gift already.

I'll be leaving for a week during Easter - I'm gonna visit my family, however I'll still be online and alive. I'm just not sure if I'll be bringing my graphic tablet with me.
That said I won't be officially opening any commissions til the end of the month (if you however are interested, feel free to contact me with your request - just please mind that there might be a delay during my leave).

I hope you're doing fine!

Kind regards,
Spartan713