3 problems rearing their head up again now that i'm back in school, but this time school is important- I'm in college now.

Speech problem: Although it was slight at first, it's seeming to get worse. In casual conversation I'm slurring my words often, stuttering and stumbling over sentences despite knowing what I want to say. I just can't physically get it OUT and it's really bothering me. ;.; I have to orally present a research paper later this semester, and then next semester I've got a speech class to take... I've had this since...god, I don't know when it started. Years ago. I don't know if I had it as a kid, I don't remember. I had it all through high school, maybe middle school?

Is there any kind of help available that I could find through school? I'm in a community college, vs a uni..


ADD: Big time. So far with math it isn't so bad. But it's bad with English...Bobkitty saw just how bad it was for me when I was trying to write an essay. I was getting distracted with everything everywhere, and even if there wasn't anything to distract me I still stopped working on it and laid back and whined about it, losing focus and then having to go back to it over and over..

Handwriting/motor: Specifically in my right-wrist. I might be dysgraphic, I show all the signs of it but I lack the official diagnosis. Overall though, I get really bad cramps from writing even just a little bit, my handwriting is very messy and despite having a tight grip my words come out "loose". Typing fixes that, but what about class work where I can't print something out?

I want help for these, but I don't know where to go for it. My grade is actually suffering because of the speech problem specifically : I get self concious about it so I don't speak up in class anymore...and then my participation grade goes downhill. :/

I want serious suggestions please guys... I'm desperate for some solutions.

me thinking computer power plug was loose, only for bobkitty to find out it was the wall outlet not my computer.

dog whining and fussing all night in her crate, so bob goes to lay down next to her on the floor. i threw a tantrum a bit because the dog stole my kitty from me..and i thought that the lack of sleep would make him not want to come back over again...so i threw my pillows against the wall, pouted and cried a lil until he came back up and snuggled me again.

then mom found a pic of my padded on my camera...yay awkward moments..

him dropping me off at school. <3 coming out of class and seeing him sittin there waiting for me...made me really feel special and loved. i wish i could have that every day :/

*sigh* i can't wait til i can have him here with me for good..every weekend gets harder and harder to deal with as he has to go home. T-T

Just one of the many many reasons why. XD

So, I thought my computer cord was loose again. I got upset, frustrated, cried almost, and worked to back everything up on bobkitty's external.
Earlier he jumped on my bed and i saw the power light flicker on and off as i was backing stuff up.

just now he decided to try and plug it into a different outlet..

and guess what? it works. Dx

bobkitty is having trouble coming down to see me/bring me to him.
having trouble having him move in.

school is giving me hell. crazy ass teacher who is sarcastic and annoying, MLA style citations...

new puppy not sleeping at night which keeps me awake.
new puppy chewed the keys off my laptop keyboard the other night...

then today my power cord comes loose for good, just 6 months after i replaced the damn thing for the same problem... thankfully bobkitty is coming over tomorrow so i can back up all my stuff to his external and we can head out to best buy...for the 10th time for the same computer..

on top of it all i feel empty because i can't draw while i don't have a cord for my tablet.
i don't know where my wallet is.
i only have $20
mom owes me 20.

i owe her 30 for a new laptop keyboard...

then i need another 40 for a month long bus pass so i can actually get to school.

sigh. T_T i need a job so i can pay everything and get a new computer that won't break down on me 6-7 times in 2 years costing me about 100$ and a month of wasted time, each time. :/

commission me, people? i'll get to work on it when i can...
full body, full colored, simple bg for $20. please? .-. this is getting to be too much to handle...and i hate asking for help..

Alright, I'm gunna do this. I need the money to take care of this puppy and to get her a crate and a nice professional haircut.

EDIT: Got a crate now, but still need shots, getting spayed, etc. Dx

I'm going to open up 3 slots at a time so I don't over load myself. Each slot will be $2 each, and will contain a doodle sketch like this http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4337541 . Half or full body is at my discretion. Tips would be very welcomed but not necessary.

All funds are going to go to this little baby I rescued today, one day short of being put down for overcrowding reasons!

http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d.....n/DSCI0003.jpg
http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d.....n/DSCI0007.jpg

She needs a proper, professional grooming, a crate, toys, and other things that a dog shouldn't have to live without! I also need to get her fixed and her shots up to date, and pay my mom back for it all.

Donations for the puppy are welcomed, but not needed, and can be sent to my paypal:
silagaia[at]yahoo.com


With that said, here goes! Each sketch will be randomly assigned a theme, using random.org and a list of themes I have sitting on my computer. None will be adult or mature, though.

Please send me a note or comment here if you would like a slot! Link to ref and send the payment, I'll start as soon as I get it. :3

Iron artist sketch challenge: 0/100
1) Moggy - Sketching- paid
2)Moggy - Thinking- Paid
3)Moggy - Thinking - Paid
4) Elliot - Thinking, waiting payment
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6)


Physically and mentally.

Physically it feels like my bones are all sore and popping easily. Maybe it's because it's been raining nonstop lately.

Mentally... I dunno.


I've wanted a puppy of my own for a while. I finally got a puppy of my own... but something is nagging me. I feel like I'm kind of ditching my first dog by bringing the puppy in... but I'm also unsure of the puppy itself. I'm happy that I've got a puppy, I'm happy that she loves me so much. I'm happy that I was able to rescue her from being put down the next day.

But on the off hand... She isn't really my dream dog. :s I've always wanted something like a yorkie, or another maltipoo like my old dog that passed away was... While this lil girl is adorable and loves me, I'm afraid that my mom's dislike for her will make this not be the best home for her.

See, the problem is that she has an under bite and the "smooshed pug" face. She's a pug-poodle. Her fur is kinda wire-y, although soft, and she sheds. All are negatives to my mom. She's not house broken, and she growled at my mom earlier. And I think she's going to get bigger than what my mom wants in a dog.. (we want under 15 lbs, she looks like she's going to reach 20-30)

I don't know what to do, or what to think. I love the puppy...but I dont think this would be the best home for her, if my mom continues to dislike her like this. She said she had a "gorilla face" and she was ugly and stupid. She's adamant about wanting a yorkie still. :/

I don't want to feel bad about having a dog here. but I also want a dog of my own, one that will sleep in bed with me at night, one that will love me. I guess I miss my first two dogs, Sissy and Angel... Sissy wouldn't sleep with me much, but Angel was my dog. She slept in my room, on my bed, etc. She cuddled with me and I took care of her. I was proud of her. But she passed away when she was 2 months old...

I need a crate, despite if I'm going to keep this puppy or get a different one. :/ London takes precedence... and she doesn't like the puppy. At all. I brought them together earlier and london ran under the couch. I tried to walk up to her later on my own without the puppy and she took off too. That just made my heart sink, because I do love London...she just isn't my dog, y'know? She doesn't ever cuddle me or anything.


Sigh. What to do? >.< Mom is on the edge of getting rid of her as is..

After taking one more look at this cutie and holding her in my arms... I'm realizing, she's here to stay. I'm going to need help funding some one time charges, such as a crate and shots and stuff, so I'm opening up commissions. Take a look at my newest journal. <3 Thanks for your support everyone.

<3 Hopefully getting a puppy tonight/tomorrow! It's gunna be hell driving there and picking it up, because my mom doesn't want to drive the whole distance so we have to ask the owners to drive half way... But hopefully it'll all work out and I'll have a new puppy to cuddle with. <3

*excited*

Bald can be beautiful, let's help show this truth to the little 3 year old girl who needs it.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1645191/



Whether or not you can draw "well", is besides the point. To a child, a doodle is a masterpiece. Include butterflies, flowers, anything happy and pretty, and they'll love it. :heart:

Random meme to pass the time.

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.

3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!


Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- No
Been arrested? ---No
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---No
Slept in until 5 PM? --- Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---Yes
Ran a red light? ---No
Been suspended from school? ---No
Experienced love at first sight? --- No
Totalled your car in an accident? ---No
Been fired from a job? --- No
Fired somebody? ---No
Sang karaoke? ---Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? ---No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ---Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ---No
Kissed in the rain? ---Yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- Yes
Seen someone die? ---No
Played spin-the-bottle? ---No
Sang in the shower? --- Yes
Smoked a cigar? ---No
Sat on a rooftop? ---Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---Yes
Skipped school? ---No
Eaten a bug? --- No
Sleepwalked? --Yes
Walked a moonlit beach? --- Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? --- No
Dumped someone? ---Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? ---No
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? ---Yes
Hit a home run? ---No
Felt like killing someone? --- No
Cross-dressed? ---Yes
Been falling-down drunk? --- No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes
Eaten snake? --- No
Marched/Protested? ---No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? ---No
Puked on amusement ride? ---No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---No
Been in a band? --- No
Knitted? --- No
Been on TV? ---No
Shot a gun? --- Yes
Skinny-dipped? --- Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? ---No
Ridden a surfboard? --- Yes
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---No
Had surgery? --- No
Streaked? ---No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---No
Passed out when not drinking? --- No
Peed on a bush? ---Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? --- No
Eaten alligator meat? --- Yes
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- No
Peed your pants in public? ---Yes
Written graffiti? ---No
Still love someone you shouldn't? ---No
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---No
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes

Ask any questions you want about it, I'll do my best to answer o.o

what happens when you take justin bieber and slow him down 800%? amazing ambient music. <3 http://soundcloud.com/shamantis/j-b.....-slower?page=1

http://www.mediafire.com/?aenvebe86u0d7ha download link there. <3

Driving down the road, one hand on the wheel one hand in my own hand. I had played this song earlier for Bobkitty just as a "I love this song and it popped into my head". As we were driving down...It played, and of course I burst out singing with this huge grin on my face.

This song rings very true with how the relationship me and Bob have together. I'm a huge mess, his "beautiful mess" as he calls me. My life is nuts, my way of living is crazy. I'm easy going, out to please everyone. Loyal to whoever shows me love in any form, much like a real puppy is. I'd be the one to kick the washing machine for not working. Twisting the cap on of sour milk and tossing it back into the fridge..

and I'd be the one who gets upset over failing plans, but turn around and be perfectly happy with a much easier and silly improvisation, such as Domino's pizza in the candlelight.

Our lives can be totally chaotic, and yet we love it. We love every little chaotic thing about it, and never could ask for anything better.

The beginning of our weekend together, he mentioned that he wanted to get me a promise ring. I was shy about it of course...I guess I can't wrap my mind around someone wanting to buy me stuff, still. :p but today we went to 3 different stores, looked around and we found the perfect little ring. x3 It's a bit too big...One size too big, actually, but they don't carry size 6 since the standard lady size is 7. Bah. Whatever, I'll just get it re sized at a Jewelers :3

It means a lot to me...more than I can put into words. I've known this wasn't just a flinging relationship, and that we were serious. But this really sunk it in, and everytime I look over at my finger I just smile... x3 It's so nice, just another day in paradise...well there's no place that i'd rather be. It's two hearts, one dream, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I ask the lord, every night, for just another day in paradise. <3

I love you hun. <3 I really do.

I heard this once before and forgot about it til today. I like this mix up, and I love when two songs like that fit together perfectly.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSN8vWMrFSk

Note: I don't care if you don't like Oasis or if you don't like Green day. I like both songs and I love how they both mash up, so nyah. Keep your negative opinions to yourself please, I'm trying to get into happy moods =P

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4309920/

Done for me and Bobkitty from  tavimunk <333 I loves it~

Definitely gunna commission him more in the future ^^

Im gunna cry. ._. I can't sleep when I want to, time goes by and I lay there in bed tossing and turning and kicking because I can't get comfortable or tired enough to sleep...

Edit: Don't give me sympathy, that's not what i want. I want to sleep and get over this crazy ass schedule.

Just getting the sad journals off my page..

In case anyone is wondering, yes I will be fine. I've got a very good friend helping me through these problems. They're not anything that anyone specific in the current has done to me, they're all just past issues coming to the surface in a new painful way, but instead of burying them i'm facing them head on and working through them.

Please do not be...harsh, if I upload sad art. If i write sad journals, or express my feelings in ways like this. I am an artist at heart, art is how I get my feelings out. Sometimes sharing them with the world helps me feel better, especially when I find out that people care more than I thought they did.

Tears are a form of healing afterall. <3

My first ever "trance" that I was put into, willingly, by a friend. Just keeping this here...for future reference, to look back to. To remember.

This was the first time I got to take a good look at my subconscious... It's amazing what it can do for you.

Snipped some parts out.

Read if you want to. Warning...it's kinda emotionally heavy. I was crying through most of it.

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<T> what is your interest in hypnosis?
<Sila> learning more about the deeper parts of the mind and how they work...learning more about myself as a whole
<T> very good
<T> what do you wish to learn about yourself?
<Sila> why i am so sensitive to hurt, why i always want to please someone
<T> do you think that you could be helped with those items if you were guided?
<Sila> i dont know
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<T> do you think that you could be helped with those items if you were guided?
<Sila> guided..how?
<T> guided in understanding what triggers you and gives you those desires to please... do you think that you could be helped with that?
<Sila> maybe.. but why was i unable to help it myself?
<T> i'm not certain that i possess the proficiency to help you examine that... however
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<T> what are your feelings regarding control?
<Sila> fear..uncertainty
<T> very good
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<T> feeling so good to tell me why you have fear and uncertainty regarding control
<Sila> cant trust people after my dad...dont want a repeat of the past
<T> was your trust broken in the past?
<Sila> yes
<Sila> many times..
<T> very good
<T> and you worry that you will be hurt like that again?
<Sila> yes
<T> is this the only source of fear and uncertainty regarding control
<Sila> no..i dont think so
<T> very good
<T> your mind wide open to my words
<T> unable to hide behind any filters
<T> knowing that you must be completely honest with me
<T> wide open to my words
<T> what are the other sources of fear?
<Sila> being unable to let go of the past...and school
<T> very good
<T> anything else?
<Sila> not being good enough...failing
<Sila> being punished.
<T> feeling so wonderful to answer my question fully
<T> what else?
<Sila> that's all..
<T> very good
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<T> now
<T> why is school a source of fear regarding control?
<Sila> controlled many times in school...only landed me in tears, frustrated, hurt
<T> very good
<T> now
<T> why is not being good enough... failing... being punished a source of fear regarding control?
<Sila> if i'm not good enough...if i fail, i'll be punished..either by myself or by the controller, or both..
<T> very good
<T> and is that always bad?>
<Sila> punishment has always been bad for me..
<Sila> it has alawys hurt
<T> has it taught you positive things?
<Sila> no..it never did
<T> very good
<T> what if it helped you to be a better person?
<Sila> i am a good person...i am just torn , patched like a doll
<T> i am not saying you are not a good person
<T> i am asking if it would help you to become a better person
<T> what if it would help you to become a better person?
<Sila> guidance...probably would..but control is different
<T> deeper
<T> explain
<Sila> control is giving everything...being guided is going off of suggestions...suggestions open my eyes and let me see that i wasn't aware of
<T> but sometimes you do not accept suggestions... isn't that so?
<Sila> when they are logical i accept them...not everyone is logical
<T> how are you certain that you are logical?
<Sila> because i think before i act..i analyze my options, my possible outcomes
<T> very good
<T> and you believe that you never make a mistake in that process?
<Sila> no..no one is perfect...mistakes help pave the way for betterment
<T> very good
<T> deeper
<T> so you exercise control for your own betterment... but fear the exercise of control over you for your own betterment?
<Sila> yes..i fear someone not me having control over me..my thoughts or actions, my body
<T> even if it is for your own betterment?
<Sila> if i make a mistake i am to blame if i get hurt...if another's control is to blame for the mistake then that hurts more
<Sila> i want to minimize hurt
<T> very good
<T> floating and drifting
<T> deeper
<T> why does a mistake that comes from the control of another hurt more?
<Sila> because i then listened to someone who i trusted...and got hurt in the process
<T> but what if they still manage to guide you and help you to make less mistakes on your own?
<Sila> but..guidance is not control. i like guidance
<T> why is guidance not control?
<Sila> guidance is..on the side. control is direct...not optional..
<Sila> i dont understand how one person can better another
<T> why do you not understand?
<Sila> because people have tried to help "better" me, and all it did was send me in the wrong direction.
<Sila> parents
<Sila> dad specifically..mom is different
<T> very good
<T> what if the control sent you in the right direction?
<Sila> but why could guidance not send me into the right direction? can i have an option...with explanations for the reasoning? i like options
<Sila> i like to discuss
<T> what makes you think that you wouldn't have options with explanations for the reasoning?
<Sila> because control is force..
<T> is force always bad?
<Sila> from my experience yes
<Sila> i have never seen force be good.
<T> what if i were to suggest that that is not always the case?
<Sila> i ask again though...why must i consider force, control, as an option? i don't think it's for me..i just want a little help
<Sila> not everything.
<T> and i ask you: why must you not consider force or control as an option?
<Sila> because i don't trust it...i don't feel it's right, it scares me too
<T> even though you see how Master has helped me?
<Sila> yes..but you are not me
<Sila> i like to be free and have options
<T> no i am not... i am constantly giving you suggestions, yet you refuse them because you fear the truth of them... isn't that right?
<Sila> you are suggesting what i am afraid of accepting
<T> what are you afraid of accepting?
<Sila> because i am afraid of people deep inside
<T> what do you mean that you are afraid of people deep inside?
<Sila> i am afraid of...people with bad intentions
<Sila> or
<Sila> people with good intentions who don't understand
<Sila> or who think they understand...but are wrong
<Sila> or turn out to be wrong
<T> do you feel a need to be controlled despite all of this?
<Sila> no
<T> very good
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<T> do you feel a need to be controlled despite all of this?
<Sila> no..i do not feel a need to be controlled. i may have a desire to get help with overcoming problems that resulted from past hurts..problems that i buried and ignored
<Sila> but not control
<Sila> i want to gain understanding of my mind
<Sila> understanding of what really happened and why it affected me
<T> very good
<T> when you say "what really happened" what are you referring to?
<Sila> when i was little, my dad betrayed the trust i gave him. i gave him unconditional trust and it was broken. i trusted my mom when i was little, to tell me the truth. she broke it
<Sila> i trusted my teachers in school to teach me things i needed to know, but in return all i got was confusion and no help
<Sila> i trusted my peers to be polite enough to leave me alone when i was hurt...but instead i got rididucled
<Sila> i trusted friends to be there for me..
<Sila> but they ditched me
<T> you know that me and mako are here for you, right?
<Sila> yes
<T> good
<Sila> i have found a small group of friends
<Sila> in late middle school
<T> Master wishes for me to focus my attention elsewhere, sila, so i'm going to awaken you shortly
<Sila> i no longer fear losing their trust
<Sila> alright
<T> but continue to speak of what you were discussing before
<T> tell me when finished
<Sila> i found a small group of friends in middle school. ashlee, linda, debbie, me
<Sila> at first i wasn't sure if i could trust them...after everything, after people leaving me. but years later, i have realized now that those people i can trust. i feel that i can trust some people better...but i don't know how to distinguish between those i feel i can and can't
<Sila> overall i am happy i have friends, but i am afraid to make new ones in fear of annoying them by being me
<Sila> i am done, thank you

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Besides bad dreams, I just feel the need to rant for a minute. :/

I'm tired of trying to filter my thoughts, of trying to tread lightly so I don't annoy people. I wish I didn't have to feel like this. :( Most people I talk to that I try to contact first, I feel like I'm annoying them and I'm not worth talking to. I feel like I might offend them, or scare them off. :/

i WISH i didn't feel like this. I really wish I didn't. I'm trying to make new friends, talk to people I met at the con, but I'm so afraid that I'm going to tread on someone's toes.

I'm going to "name drop" here, because this specifically is what's hurting me atm.

JD Puppy - You seem like a really cool dude. You and Skroy are an adorable couple. I wish I wasn't afraid to approach you, I wish I had something to talk about other than what's going on. I wish that I didn't have to feel like I have to be someone else to make friends.

Skroy: Haven't talked to you much, but once again I wish I could. I'm always afraid to approach you though. I feel like I'm annoying you, or just being an annoyance period by wanting to talk. I don't know why I feel like this.. I wish I could just become "comfortable" and just forget my worries, but the last thing I want to do is annoy and then lose a (chance at getting a) friend.

Vin/Skippy: ( I don't know which to call you o: ) You've already helped to quell some of my fears of being an annoyance, but I'm still careful I guess. I tread lightly and I'm afraid of what to say, to an extent, just because I don't want to lose you as a friend. You're sweet and you make me feel better when I'm worrying over pointless things. You understand me and I appreciate it. I just wish i wasn't so awkward around you still, and I dunno why I am. So that bugs me too. XD; I'm sorry.

Tavi: It's gotten a bit better with you, but sometimes I feel that , once again, I'm bothering you. Guys, show me a sign somehow...Tell me that I'm not bothering you, if I'm not? If I am, then gently let me know?

Silky: I think I've already said this enough, but last night helped a bit too. Pic whoring was fun, and it was nice getting to know ya. I'd like to hang out a bit more (even if just talking over yahoo or irc XP ), and try to lose this awkward feeling. I didn't bug you then, right?

TB: I'm starting to lose said awkward feeling with you, since you reassured me that you liked talking with me. I appreciate it. <3

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I love you all, guys. I don't want to lose anyone as a friend. I want to gain new friends, but I don't want to annoy anyone. I'm clingy, that's part of who I am. I am a cub, yes. But if you're not comfortable with topics like it, I'm nice enough to avoid them. I like you guys not because you may be popular, but because you are nice. You're nice to others, you're nice to me.

Does anyone else ever feel like this? Is it part of being weird, socially? Or is that part of making new friends? :/ I never felt like this before really..

/sigh. Rant over.

Stuck with another song in my head. X3 'Marching on' by One republic.
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The next 10 people to comment in this journal will be featured (I will pick my favorite piece from your gallery) but then you have to do a feature as well, and feature me as first. This way we encourage exposure and share more art!

Every time an entry is updated, so will the journal just to remind others that there is still slots left.

1) CreatorWishes http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2301633/
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So I'm JUST about to go to bed, went out and walked the dog. Came back in, ready to lay down in bed...Feed my fish. Feel something odd on my arm. Looked over and there's a FKING SPIDER crawling on my arm! T___T I smacked it off and killed it instantly apparently. but Now i'm paranoid that he bit me. :c I dont think he did cuz there's no red spots anywhere and he was probably only there for half a minute or so...but still. T_____T

*cries* I hate this houuuse.Soo many creepy crawly bugs, I want out. T__T

Thanks to  Yoka_neko for the lineart, I edited it and colored it, and made it conjoined for me and Bobkitty. :3

meme!




1. Go to Google and type, "You know you're from (your city or state) when...." (hit "I'm feeling lucky")
2. Cut and paste the list.
3. Bold the items that apply to you

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You own at least five pairs of flip flops

You know someone who's been struck by lightning

You're more scared of the freaks who live down the street than gators

Your backyard is sometimes a swamp

You're officially sick of Disney

You shrug off hurricane warnings

You've been permanently blinded by fat men in speedos

There are only two seasons - hot and hotter

You've drank a flaming alligator.

"Down South" means Key West

"Panhandling" means going to Pensacola.

You think no-one over 70 should be allowed to drive. (Amen...sorry if you're that age, but drive in FL you'll be saying the same thing. They renew licenses there every 12 years...sight unseen...and that also means...NO SIGHT. People in their 80s don't have to see anyone at the DMV for 12 years...that puts them over 90)

You wait with anticipation for the beginning of crawfish season.

Flip-flops are everyday wear.

Shoes are for business meetings and church.

An alligator once walked through your neighborhood.

You smirk when a game show's "Grand Prize" is a trip or cruise to Florida.

You measure distance in minutes.

You have a drawer full of bathing suits, and one sweatshirt. (any sort of rubber rots in FL...so we change our suits A LOT)

You get annoyed at the tourists who feed seagulls. (AND there are signs telling them not to as well, but do they listen, NO)

All the local festivals are named after a fruit.

A mountain is any hill 100 feet above sea level.

You know the four seasons really are: almost summer, summer, not summer but really hot, and Christmas.

Anything under 95° is just warm.

You've hosted a hurricane party.

You go to a theme park for an afternoon, and know when to get on the best rides.

You pass on the right and honk at the elderly.

You understand the futility of exterminating cockroaches. (AMEN. Roaches there have their own tack shops)

You can pronounce Okeechobee, Kissimmee and Withlacoochee.

You understand why it's better to have a friend with a boat, than have a boat yourself.

You get angry when people say "Florida isn't really part of the SOUTH" (Only place further south is Havana, people)

You've worn shorts and used the A/C on Christmas. (Hanging Christmas lights is not waiting until the coldest day in the year like up north to stand out there WITHOUT your glives cussing up a storm!)

You know what the "stingray shuffle" is, and why it's important.

You have FEMA's number on your speed dialer.

You have more than 300 'C' and 'D' batteries in your kitchen drawer.

Your pantry contains more than 20 cans of Spaghetti O's.

You are thinking of repainting your house to match the plywood
covering your windows (or other way around)

When describing your gutted house to a prospective buyer, you say it has three bedrooms, two baths and an open air feel to it.

Your SSN isn't a secret, it's written in Sharpie on your arms.

You are on a first-name basis with the cashier at Home Depot.

You are delighted to pay $3 for a gallon of regular unleaded.

The road leading to your house has been declared a No-Wake Zone.

You decide that your patio furniture looks better on the bottom of the pool.

You own more than three large coolers.

You can wish that other people get hit by a hurricane and not feel the least bit guilty about it.

You rationalize helping a friend board up by thinking "It'll only take a gallon of gas to get there and back"

You have 2-liter coke bottles and milk jugs filled with water in your freezer Three months ago you couldn't hang a shower curtain; today you can assemble a portable generator by candlelight.

You catch a 13-pound red fish - in your house.

You can recite from memory whole portions of your homeowner's insurance policy.

You consider a "vacation" to stunning Tupelo, Mississippi.

At cocktail parties, women are attracted to the guy with the biggest chainsaw.

You have had tuna fish more than 5 days in a row.

There is a roll of tar paper in your garage.

You can rattle off the names of three or more meteorologists who work at the Weather Channel.

Someone comes to your door to tell you they found your roof.

Ice is a valid topic of conversation.

Your "drive-thru" meal consists of MRE's and bottled water.

Relocating to South Dakota does not seem like such a crazy idea.

You spend more time on your roof then in your living room.

You've been laughed at over the phone by a roofer, fence builder or
a tree worker.

A battery powered TV is considered a home entertainment center.

You don't worry about relatives wanting to visit during the summer.

Your child's first words are "hunker down" and you didn't go to Ole Miss!

Having a tree in your living room does not necessarily mean it's Christmas.

Toilet Paper is elevated to coin of the realm at the shelters.

You know the difference between the"good side" of a storm and the "bad side."

Your kids start school in August and finish in July.

You go to work early and stay late just to enjoy the air conditioning.

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It's sad that 90% of these apply to me. XD

[Rant ahead...] I need help though.

So I'm trying to get into college...but I keep running into problems...

1) The original community college I wanted to go to is like a 40 minute drive there and back. I don't have a car, license, permit, or anything.
- Mom goes to work at 4-5 something in the morning, classes wouldn't start until afternoon. She can't pick me up and drop me off there at school, she loses too much time from work doing that.

2) Even if i DID go to that school, my schedule is spread out and complicated. I'm afraid I might get too stressed out and might not do well.

So we turned around and looked at a nearby tech school that a friend of ours suggested.

Here's the problem with that...

1) I don't know much about tech schools and I think this is a "too good to be true" offer.
2) Tuition is like $14k. ._.; I can't afford to take student loans because I have no job, and a low chance of getting a job even after college. Financial aid will only cover so much... I think the pell grant is giving me like $6k for a year or something.
-- That's enough for the community college, with money leftover. Tuition for that school is only $1k.

Problems overall?

1) Classes start for the community college August 30th.
2) I just dropped my classes for said community college because I thought we decided on this trade school, but
3) Now we're having second thoughts and doubts about the trade school, because of the loans. and because I don't know if that's really the education I need.


Possible solution?
1) Drop both community college and tech school until the spring semester, and sign up for spring classes at the community college. If I sign up early enough, I could get classes at the nearby campus instead of last minute classes at the far away one.

Problem?
I don't know what's going to happen to the pell grant money that is *supposedly* in the mail for me right now. Would I just keep it until spring? (That's actually January 18th) Would I have to find some way to return it? I don't want to spend it on anything, but I don't want to get in trouble for having it and not actually going to college right away.


I realllllllly need some help here, guys. Please please give me your input. DX

Important, side information: I'm going into the medical field, but no specific course just yet. ._.;
I'm 19, living dependent under my mom only.
Mom makes like $16k a year or somethin small like that.
I want to go back to school.
My high school grades aren't good enough for a University. I barely passed with a 2.0 something GPA.

With thanks to a couple friends sorting out my horrible train of thought, I've figured out that I can go half time and still be covered in full. So now I'm going to be going half time at the local campus that's nearby, monday thru friday but only two classes and one lab. My mom can drop me off in the morning and pick me up in the afternoon, no problem. We're heading to the campus tonight to get it all sorted out for good.

Thanks Phaded for your help, and major thanks to Shuii and h3g3l for dealing with me at 7 a.m. X3 <3

I'm not gunna give a review or spoilers here...cuz I wanna see it again just to have it fresh in my mind. But I will say this- It's epic XD Of course it has Nicholas Cage in it, so it's going to be epic..But It not only has an epic theme song 'One republic- Secrets', but it applies logic to magic...Which I love. So much. <3 The special effects look amazing, and were very well done. :3

I can't wait to see it again. <3 people i need you guys to commission me so I can go see the movie again and treat Bobkitty out to dinner too! He's done so much for me, I want to treat him to something special. <3

I'm doing traditional work lately too! :3

POSSIBLE SPOILER HERE!!! XD

Continuing from my other journal :3

Second day came around, I slept in past the fursuit parade but I managed to hang out with a bunch of the fursuiters after they came back in to dance around and just relax. I got a bunch of hugs and pics with them, and had fun watching everyone dance. I can't dance due to being too shy to, so I just kinda hung back and watched others.

I went in to watch the CARE presentation, and had fun with Happy monkey! I tried to take pics of that too, but I was too far for the majority of it. Til Bobkitty told me to go through the isle and scoot up to the front. So I did :3 Got there in time for the screechy bird who could imitate a truck backing up and liked to flip upside down. I hung around for a lil bit after the presentation and talked with Kae kiama and a couple other people for a lil bit. Oh , before that I ran down to get a personal pizza thingy from pizza hut. Mmm. Monster + cheese and mushroom pizza. <3 only $7 or so. not that bad! My feet enjoyed the sitting break. I was the first to steal a chair and sit in it, then the others followed me soon after. xD

After that...hm. I think we kinda wandered around the artists alley and the hotel itself for a while, until the rocky horror picture show started. Somehow I managed to miss the fursuit game show, beakman, and paul zaloom's puppet show. I think we were out eating or something. XD; Probably when we went out to cracker barrel. That was one fun adventure.. XD

Okay so, what do you get when you take 6 cubs, a small car, and trance music? Hamster mobile stuffed with 4 people in the backseat. XD I had to sit on Bobkitty's lap and try to not squish him as we flung ourselves around the curves of the parking lot, trying to avoid speed bumps. All of us cracking up and having a great time.

After a yummy dinner of chicken and dumplings, we came back and I hung around a few friends while others watched JR's stand up comedy. I'm not a big fan of standup comedy so I didn't go. During this time I thought I lost my rings (mom's old wedding band and my school ring...) so i panicked and ran back to the hotel, where I found them safely inside my dirty pants that I changed out of earlier. I borrowed some duct tape to fix the tapes that ripped off of my padding earlier (I pulled too hard T-T ).

More walking around and just having fun with everyone. I like to walk. XD Then the rocky horror picture show came on, and I decided to go and watch it too. Oh boy was that fun. XDD I hadn't seen the original , but I had heard of it (and the time warp) so I wasn't sure what to expect. Phaded told us to prepare for the time warp, and I started giggling because I knew what that was and Bobkitty didn't. When it started and we all stood up to do it, Bob was looking around with the funniest expression on his face X3 Then Matthew Ebel came out in a corset and thong and was playing Frank n Furter...and god I gotta admit that was hot. XD and hilarious, but still. (I wonder how many furries had a boner during this whole thing. XD)

I'll skip the details of the rest of the show but it was soo funny and well worth the time spent. X3 I peeked in at the Karaoke after the RHPS, but continued to wander around and just have fun with everyone like always.

One of the highlights of the day, I think it was on saturday: I was walking along and I saw 3 of the same brown puppy costume, all running around each other! Skroy the folfsky had his clone gun out and was pointing it at the puppies. At one point one of the clones was taken down, which then had the others trying to get him back up! This little skit was adorable. One of them even tried to do "CPR" on one of the puppies, which invoked a bunch of squeaks. I got some of this on video. X3

I also met Vin (  skippyfoxcub ) during this day, and he squeaked my name when I asked if I could take a picture with him and give him a hug. X3 I kept running into him a few times during the day, but being as shy as I am I didnt say hi too much. I wish I had, he's a sweetie!

Sometime between friday and saturday I met some dude in the elevator who I nicknamed 'Elevator bunny'. :P A few times we bumped into each other and said hey and stuff, and I got his fA. :3 First friend whee.

Cutting to the chase a bit... Saturday was packed with things even though I missed some events. There was a "cub hub" that night I believe, which mostly just turned out to be buzzed/drunk babyfurs (and sober ones too XD ) hanging around and cuddling and talking. At one point someone mentioned bringing out a laser pointer to tease Bobkitty with, and I missed the recording of it. Dx He chased the laser pointer all around just like a kitty and it was soooo cute. <3 I ended up getting close to falling asleep in his arms...I was padded, in my sleeper, and I had my blankie and paci...I was sleeeepy. We stumbled up to the room and I shoved things off the bed, snuggled up to Bobkitty and fell asleep. X3;

I woke up a bit earlier than him cuz I had a lil bit of a tummy ache, and I think room service came in too. Idk. I got up and walked around a lil, seeing who was awake. I was too shy to ask Drakenbyte how my badge was coming along, so I just kinda wandered around the artist alley for a while until she showed me on her own accord. :3 For not really being a cub badge, it was still pretty cute X3 I asked her to add in the pacifier and she did a great job with it. ^^ Sunday was a saddening day, but still very very fun. I woke up a bit late once again, but I hung out with everyone and we went out for breakfast at Shoney's. Not bad for $10, not bad at all. Came back and hung out more, went to check up on fA and saw the adorable picture that  strawberryneko did for me. <33 I immediately yanked Bob out of the bathroom to come see it XD and I showed a bunch of people while I looked for a printer...which I found! I printed it, folded it in half so the elbows + was showing (as well as her signature :3 ) .  Spotteh got it laminated for me, and I proudly wore it as well as my other badges around for the rest of the day. :D I got to watch the Funday Pawpet Show, and I yelled out a couple suggestions for  Skroy to do on stage (I suggested breakdancing and doing the moonwalk. XD ) Someone else suggested him to squeak the national anthem. Despite killing our ears, he did it well and stuck through it! X3 I wanna talk to Skroy outside of suit toooo. He and Vin and JDPuppy are my favorite 3 suiters from the whole con, and I wanna meet them all. <3

The closing ceremonies were sad but still kinda funny. I suggested a couple things, such as blacklights for the dance floor , and moving the artists alley where the gameroom was. Walked outside and boom, dessert was starting! I didn't wanna wait in line for cheesecake (Though I wish I did...) so I grabbed some weird banana thing and headed up to the hotel to change clothes and give my feet a break. Came back down and started to dance a bit, til the end of the dances. They tried to kick us out...and poor Vin was like 'But I don't wanna go!'. I got another hug from Vin during this time, and I showed him my strawberry neko pic. He made me burst out in giggles because he squeaked something alone the lines of 'Aww it's so cute!'. I was now aware that he was a cub, which made me want to hug the cutie even more. X3 (It took me a bit of time to put together that Vin equaled Skippy which equaled cub. XD )

On my way out of the dance room and up to the hotel...hah. We had a lot of fun with some drunk furries. XD I met a (very drunk) Greifur there, in suit, and i just HAD to tease him a bit about Tavi's drawing for him. X3 He was like 'Yeah yeah I know he did that ya don't gotta rub it in". I asked him for a hug and a picture, and all the furries around us jumped in the pic too. It was hilariously funny and random. At the end Vin (literally) jumped in and kinda sat on my foot, when he tried to get in the pic too. XD God...Great times. <3

On the way up to the hotel room, we all crammed into the elevator (like 15 of us or somethin crazy) and Kae kiama decided 'Fuck this elevator is broken anyway, let's stop at ALL the floors!" and pressed all the elevator floor numbers. We just held the 'Close door' button shut and hoped that no one was hoping to get in. XD At the end I just had a bunch of people write on my arm with a red pen that I somehow found somewhere. One of those people was a very sweaty Buizel named  Tonetreble xD I saw him earlier dancing around half blindly, cuz apparently his glasses was fogging up inside :P
I got their fA names and then went to the room alone with Bob and zarrix, knowing the next morning would be a painfully quiet one.

Packing up was rather easy...but walking out and seeing the hotel empty of everyone except like two suiters was sad. But now I'm home, I took a 5 hour nap the first night I got home...and now I'm trying to see what cons I can go to next. :3 FWA is a must, after hearing there's a lot of cubs there. X3 I've already got two friends going who me and Bob could room with, so yays.

Thanks to everyone who made my first con such an enjoyable experience. <3 Special thanks to Vin, JD Puppy and Skroy for making fursuiting be such an amazing thing compared to what I first thought about it. X3 I'll be uploading more photos as the days go on.

Thanks all! <3 <3

Just gonna ramble on and on for a while as we drive home...

The first day was a little awkward for me. I've never been to a furry con, let alone seen another furry other than my own mate Bobkitty. As we were driving down some road we saw a hearse drive by us...and both of us looked at each other and said 'I wouldn't be surprised if that was a furry driving to the con'. XD Turns out I don't think it was a furry, since I didn't see the car at the hotel or convention center. Ah well.

Still driving, we came across a sign that said something about 'Gaylord Center' , and we both again laughed saying that we bet every furry would be laughing at that sign the minute they passed it.

After Bobkitty almost missed the turn for the hotel, we texted  zarrix and tried to find where we needed to be. After like 15 mins of walking around and stuff we grabbed a couple things and walked inside. The first furry we saw was someone with a blue fox tail. I pointed at it and immediately i was giggling. Walking inside we saw, of course, a bunch of fursuiters and people with tails/ears and partials, all running around wildly. Music was blasting, everyone was having fun already. And so were we.

After a bit of awkwardness on my part of trying to register (the dude wanted to shake my hand, but i couldn't hear him so I thought he wanted my money first... oops. ), we got our first official con badges and a free lanyard to wear it. I managed to hook up one badge on my necklace, one around the lanyard and another saftey-pinned to my shirt. Later I got another lanyard and 2 more badges and I kept messing with how to wear those.

We headed over to the hotel room and dropped our stuff off, and then I went running down to see the artist alley. How typical of me. =P The whole time of the first day I kept saying to my friends that I wanted to find  tailbiter and  arcticfoxcub , and heh I didn't shut up about 'em for a bit til Bobkitty saw TB's payday badge, and I yelled out "TB?''. Then the hugs came! :D

Sometime during all this i met  muirawolfpup ,  kbyoshikawa ,  phaded1 , Kuppy cake,  squeakybunny and OshKosh, phaded's daddyfur. Really sweet people :3

Everyone was padded and i was not...so I complained and complained and nagged at Bobkitty til he took me up to the room and padded me up. ^-^ I loves you <3

I ran around all day and just met people I didn't even know. I saw a bunch of fursuiters...A BUNCH. My first hug from a suiter was from  Jdpuppy ^^ He squeaked and it was adorable. I melted. XD I got tons of photos, some bad some good. I don't really remember everything that went on the first day, I was too hyper to pay attention. I ran around a lot, giggled a ton, met some fun people and got FA names of some of them. I know I was on a search for the one babyfur staff member that my friend  doodlewolfdude told me to find. I found the wrong one apparently. XD I found Skippyfoxcub instead of someone else. Whateverrrr. Skippy was adorable as hell and he was definitely my favorite fursuiter of all of them. X3 I'd love to meet the guy outside of the suit someday ^^

I also got to meet a really cute fursuiter who was a bluefur like me. :3 and a dog! Really soft suit, and I loved all the over exaggerated expressions that all of them did. A lot of people kept looking at my badges, saying they were cute or just trying to see what my name was, or what species. Everyone got at least half of it right, so yay!

I don't really remember much of the first day...Whatever I remember I'll edit in later :p

The second day I missed the fursuit parade because I slept too much. :< I woke up right as it ended. No fair.
But hey, I walked into the dance room and they were playing some fun music, and a bunch of people were just randomly dancing around. Some in fursuit some weren't. I got some video, some hugs, and went back upstairs to go wake up Bobkitty. A lot of the time was spent wandering around the hotel/con area just having fun. We met a lot of people at the elevators, since they were packed most of the time, and the middle one liked to crap out on us. It liked to stop at every single floor on the way up or down, open the door and then close like 20 seconds later. It also stalled a lot...but thankfully not in the middle of the floors.

- more to come in a bit, almost home now~-

Megaplex post-con ramblings come later. :D

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