well, the last couple weeks...have been defintly up and down x3
lots of drama last week, but thats over now! hopefully >.>
i have all the camp stories planned out! :D and working on chapter two!
plus, even better! ^^ i has my laptop! its all shiny and stuffs

so, the last couple weeks, were bad, but ended great!!!!
*hugs all*

well, im back from the freshman orientation thing for my college, hated it, but oh well.
i started work at my summer camp this week too! n.n was so much fun!
and im...starting the vore summer camp story series, fingers crossed on me not screwing up on it alright?!?
thanks <3

yeah, it doesn't seem bad. but i wont be online on msn or aim or anything like that...from mid saturday to mid monday
ima miss each and every one of you that reads this =(


also, i started works! ^^ i love working at my summer camp, its so much fun, though it can be quite exhuasting x3

it also gave me...an idea for a vore story series...i hope i do alright on it...and some friends of mine ive already talked too about it...lets hope everything goes well alright?


see you all! <3
*kisses and hugs all who read*

well, those of you that ive been talking to recently...
and to those i havent , id like to apologize for that...
ive been depressed, massively.
those ive talked with know why, and they have helped me so much
thank you, my friends
im getting better...the depression is leaving me...because ive taken steps to get rid of it.
but until then....please bear with me a little while longer
and to my friends that i havent spoken to...some in over a month
be warned.
when next i see you on, a micro bunneh shall pounce and hug

finally got some goods news heh...
finals = done
senior projects= done
summer job= ready to work!
stories= um....getting...better i guess ._.
cuts on arm= healed
High school= graduated ^^
and my parents are going to get me a laptop soons!
*hugs all that read*

ive been upset for a long time...most of my friends on msn and aim know that...ive tried to get it across to them so they weren't left out...and so that i would possibly have someone to draw a little support from when i need it...which now feels like its all the time...call me selfish...you wont be the first...

Anyway...on Wendesday it was really bad...was in a ton of pain...and my dad and i got into a fight about my chores...which ended in him removing the internet from the house for several hours...

Without my friends to talk with...i kinda lost it...grabbed one of the fishing knifes i had been given as a present several years ago...and sliced at my arm....ive got about 23 nicks on the bottom of my arm...there healing fast but they do still hurt

For those of you that read this and are thinking to tell me never to do it again...trust me...i dont plan to. Ive talked with my parents who threatened to take me to an insane aslyum if i did it again...and now i have to talk with my uncle whos a doctor...not psychologist but a doctor...to see if i should see one.

Oh...and ill keep trying to write stories...even though they all suck ._. its the only thing i have left unbeaten to death.

long journal is long.

lately...ive been getting upset and going off on several people that i really care about...i hurt them and drive them away for a while...i wish to apologize to them....ive been having a lot of things to deal with at the moment, such as.
My mom, who kicked me out of her home, talking shit and yelling at my father for letting me live with him. ive been hearing voices that keep me up at night. graduation from my high school is coming up and my teachers have decided now would be the best time to throw 5 projects at me. My twin brother is getting worried about me because he doesn't understand why i fought with my mom. my dad has gone to the hospital twice in the past two months...
anyway...im sorry to those that i go off on...i try my hardest to keep it from surfacing but...sometimes i cant help it...

so...for the past couple of nights...ive been kept awake due to voices that ive been hearing....
mostly there just whispers...but i did hear one...quite well yell out my name...and another sceam....
im starting to fear going to sleep...which is...something ive never had aproblem with...

yay....snow hit my area....a good 4 inches of it too!
nice day off from school....but not a day off from my stress
college, worrying about friends and loved ones, grades to get out of freaking highschool, and tons of other things....
plus...i want to try my hand at another story....but i doubt ill get time for that soon...
but ill be ok! heh

so...i got accepted to college finally....heh... they said my grades were impressive XD im C- student
and i got AIM along with MSN....not on AIM as much but feel free to add me to that ^_^

well....its been more interesting this week then last =3 ive nearly gotten over my shyness of commenting and such...as some of you may have saw lol. and ive discovered the fun of MSN ^_^ its fun and lets me bug people. :P so if you wanna chat with me then add me to your contact ^_^ ill always be happy to chat/annoy you
adress is silentandshy2009[at]hotmail.com

it took me months to work up the courage to finally start commenting, watching my favortie artists writers and several new people that i found via Furaffinity.
now after this first full week i have mixed feelings.
Mostly im happy that finally i can talk to people that share my interest in vore, and other such things.
but im also kinda sad....im trying to be friendly and im know that im new and that i need to start on pretty much at the bottem of the pile...but i still wish i could talk to people on here and make friends and such...

but dont mind this journal...just a little micro crying for attention and friendship

ill still comment and watch people at my choice :)