If something makes you miserable, eventually you have to stop doing it.

When I first joined as a teenager, I was taken in by the interesting people and characters. (And of course, the porn.) However, over the years I began to see the true nature of the fandom: the sexual deviancy, the never-ending popularity contests, the culture of "call-outs" and all of the fake friendships. Over time, I became a jaded and bitter shell of my former self.

All of this culminated in my visit to FWA 2022. People who I trusted, who I thought loved and cared about me, who I wanted to spend time with... they ghosted me. While it's true that I had some nice experiences there, the betrayals that I experienced there have deeply wounded me. I began to have suicidal thoughts, and mostly stayed in my hotel room.

Now that I have returned home, I realize that the fandom has become a source of toxicity for me. And so, it is with a heavy heart that I must take my leave.

I will leave my FA account active for posterity. (And besides, most of you only care about the art anyway.) I will be deleting my Twitter, and will only allow a select few people to message me on Telegram or Discord. I will, however, be leaving all of my group chats and deleting my own groups.

I regret that I will be living Kintama behind. He was the first truly original character that I ever created, and I was very proud of him. I would also like to apologize to anyone that I have hurt. I know I'm not exactly a good person, but I will soon begin seeing a therapist and improve myself.

Maybe someday, we can meet again. Farewell.

The end of a dream
I leave behind everything
To begin anew.

- HIM Kintama Ryo

BREAKING NEWS!

For the first time ever, I’m attending #fwa2022 ! I’m so fucking ecstatic right now!

Who all will I see there!?

Today’s my 26th birthday, everyone give me attention and gifts! (and sexytimes~?)

I have to work today sadly but I’m going out to sushi for dinner so I’m happy <3

Now get over here and huff this bulge. >:3

Sorry I haven’t been very active lately, been busy with work and saving up money for something big! It’s a secret though~

But yeah, tomorrow’s my birthday! Greetings/hugs/kisses/gifts/bday sex are all appreciated. <3

Let’s hope this one doesn’t suck as much ass.

But I’m not holding my breath.

*sits my fat nuki ass on ya’lls faces*

Feeling a little *cheeky* today~ ;3

But yeah, happy holidays to everyone!

Would anybody wanna join my Discord server on Saturday night and play some games? We have all of the Jackbox packs, including the new one! If you’d be interested, comment below and I’ll send you a link to the server!

Please?

I’m genuinely curious, ‘cause I’d like to be able to not hate myself. Any ideas?

All my life

I have been abused

Family, friends, everyone

I’ve just been used

But now I have

The greatest power

It is called hatred

When I hate, things feel better

It makes me strong

Makes me safe

It is my sword and my shield

Against the outside world

My hatred is strong enough

To blot out the sun

To plunge the world into everlasting darkness

KILL

MAIM

DESTROY

Until, finally

I am all alone

And completely safe

A little vent poem, don’t take it too seriously <3

Tonight, as I lie here

Drunk and restless

I think of him

We were friends once

But we fell out of favor

He had a rough life

Ace, aro

Parents were mean

Wanted to escape, no way out

Always thinking of death

And I wonder

Is he okay?

I want to ask him

But he won’t speak to me

How sad

I pray for his happiness

As I lay drunk and restless

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41559710/ Check out this raffle!

Hey guys, April is Autism Acceptance Month! Please be sure to not support Autism Speaks as they are a hate group that wants to cure autism! And don’t use the puzzle piece symbol or the “light it up blue” slogan. Instead, use the rainbow infinity symbol! And please remember to be kind to autistic people! They’re people too!

Also, support the hashtag #AutismAcceptanceMonth on Twitter!

Today marks my 25th trip around the sun! It’s been a pretty wild ride. Lots of smiles, lots of tears, lots of accomplishments and lots more to come! I’m gonna keep working hard till I can finally say, “I’m happy!”

So... cake and presents plz? :D

The name's TanTanTanuki. :3

I've been making a decent amount of money lately, so let's do something I haven't done in forever: a raffle! This one will be held on Twitter! Click the link below to see how to enter!

https://twitter.com/ryo_kintama/sta.....632866305?s=20

Good luck everyone!

So now that it’s V Day, anybody wanna admit they have a crush on me? OwO

Comment down below!

Quick update ya’ll: I’m saving up for a new computer soon, so don’t expect any new art for a while.

Some good news: I graduated from college and got a job at Walgreens! :D

Bad news: I’m still living with my parents, who are quite annoying.

Worse news: I didn’t get accepted for the JET Programme, which was a job I was really looking forward to.

Even worse news: It’s Valentine’s Day, my least-favorite holiday. It only serves to remind me that I’m always going to be alone.

Welp. Only one thing to do: get drunk, binge on junk food, and watch lots of porn and anime.

My heart is as bitter as the sake I drink.

But don’t let that stop ya’ll from having fun! And if you’re lucky enough to have a mate, take the time to appreciate them and let them know they’re loved.

Have a good one.

I never thought this day would come. But it has.

Trump is gone. Hopefully he’ll face punishment for his crimes. Hopefully Biden will right some of his wrongs.

-GENERAL ALERT FOR US-BASED FOLLOWERS-

There is currently a coup attempt in progress in the American capitol of Washington DC. If you are in the area and do not plan on counterprotesting, please escape or shelter in place as soon as possible. If you do plan to counterprotest, then fight for your country! Fight for your rights! Never give up! Do not let these terrorists win!

My dearest citizens! We have officially exited the dark year of 2020 and are now entering the bright new year of 2021! Let’s greet the new year with renewed hope for the future!

So, what are your resolutions? Mine are to work harder, study harder, get back into piano, learn to code, and to work out more!

Happy Holidays from your favorite emperor! I know this year’s been a bad one, but it’s almost over! Just hang in there! Hope Santa brings everyone some good stuff!

https://www.twitch.tv/tantantanuki777 Streaming at 9 CST

Well, I went home to visit my parents this weekend and discovered that my dad has Covid-19, so now I have to quarantine with them for fourteen days, so I’m going to miss my graduation ceremony and receiving any awards I got, and I’m stuck here without most of my clothes and stuff, including my computer which I need to work.

Also I just found out a guy that I like is already dating someone.

Should I go ask my dad to cough on me? I honestly don’t care if I catch it and die at this point.

The evil one has been defeated! Time to celebrate!

But remember, there’s still a lot of work to be done. Police are still abusive, LGBT and POC rights are still in danger, America’s still pretty much an empire, people are homeless and jobless and without healthcare. So remember, never give up the fight!

Fight, furry fandom, for everlasting peace!