The dreams haven't stopped, but I notice that I don't dream every night. I had 2 dreams tonight, one about her. And another about being at a really huge EVO video game tournament. Is it really possible to fall in love with someone AFTER they leave you ? To be honest, I don't think I have ever been in love with anyone ever before.
But this time, and with this girl. Its all different, I never had continuing dreams about any girl before ever.

This is new to me, why is this happening? Is it because I don't want to forget about her ? * lowers head * My heart wants to move on, but my head wants to stay ? I think... i'll follow my head on this one, and let my heart take the fall. When I know the time is right, i'll finally move on. But until then, I want to wait. Drawing seems to be the only way I can express myself now, so i'll draw a picture of her to rest my mind.

u.u haunting dreams, are like made up memories. Events that never happened, are far off events that are to come, but why do they feel so real ? And why am I still dreaming about her ? I wonder, does she even think about ? Do I ever cross your mind ? Or is it just me ?Am I the only one ?

I'm okay during the day, and I don't think about her. But when ever I drift and fall a sleep my mind becomes vulnerable to my subconscious, and only then does her essence linger with me. I guess I deserve this, and now its my time to suffer.

Please just end it all, a heart void of emotions is worse than feeling pain. The day you tell you me you found another is the day my heart can completely disperse. But at least I'll be able to feel again, and I can start healing once more. Until then, each day is just a torment of my subconscious thoughts.