I was seriously about to drool |3 nice gut, cute face, just the right amount of facial hair - g'ahh! *giggles* He immediately reminded me of  MrLabrador (who is totally hot btw >.>) and it was great <3

Has that ever happened to you? :3 You're in a public place, and damn! a cutie just happens to be right in view? And he/she is just...PERFECT <3

[EDIT] I updated my profile info a bit - lemme know whatcha think x3

First off, I want to say a true and honest sorry to everyone who's been trying to keep in touch with me - I haven't been very responsive (partly because I've been isolating myself a bit), and for me to disappear after making such a serious journal wasn't fair to you guys, or to myself.

Truth is - I've been having really hard times with my ex-boyfriend, as you guys might know him, Alexandre here on FA. I still really like him, and would love nothing more than to let him know how I feel and to have him back in my life...but he's been giving me really mixed signals about how he feels, and it's just been super frustrating for me lately, enough that I've lost some sleep over it.

But rather that simply cool down, I carelessly vented some of my frustrations here on FA, leaving a few of you hurt, confused, and concerned. And then, to top that off, I disappear from contact just when I should have been seeking help. And the worst part is, a lot of you were offering to help. I want to say sorry for how I acted.

However, despite how much I messed up, I still think my last journal had an ounce of truth to it.

The thing is, I like being a big guy (and a big wolf, for that matter). And part of that was that I enjoyed the occasional playful teasing, but all in good fun, of course. The problem was, occasional became constant, and eventually playful became serious. It was just getting a bit overwhelming, not having anything to say unless it was about my weight.

Despite all that, though - I still want to gain weight, IRL and as my wolf Simmy. That being said, you can still give me the playful tease now and then.

But...

Do try to mix it up now and then, okay? ^^ I'm a real person, and I love to talk about lots of things you'd be surprised if ya give me the chance ^^

Thanks, most of all, for understanding - you all are the best, and I'm lucky to have you

I was thinking to myself last night, about a lot of things going on for me, but the main thing was that I'm sorta tired of the whole gainer lifestyle, to be honest. No, I don't have anything against other big guys, I just feel like it's getting old for me.

One of the main reasons why is this community. When I first sorta emerged on the scene here, I was writing things, making songs, and making quality friends, and I really had a good self-esteem about being a furry. But now, it's totally different. I feel like my whole purpose in this community is just for people to tease me about my weight. And frankly, all that teasing has sorta left me in the dumps, self-esteem wise. That's partly why I haven't posted any stories or poems or songs lately, or spoken with half of my friends on here - I feel so useless to the community unless people call me fatass, or whatever. When you guys talk to me, it's never "Hey, how's school going?" or "Have you been working on any good stories?" or "How're things with your ex?" But it's always, "Hey, lardass >:3" or "You fatass," or "What's up, tubby?" I feel like a vapid joke rather than a useful person whenever I talk to you guys.

So, am I going to lose weight? I'm honestly still deciding, but I'll most likely stop trying to gain weight for the foreseeable future. And don't be surprised if I stop talking to some of you for a while. It's just too depressing sometimes.

Hehe, okay, lemme clarify the title a bit X3

I keep noticing in general that, whenever I'm chatting or IMing or whatever with folks, they don't ever wanna talk about little kinks they have when they talk with me, perhaps feeling that I'd find them weird. Not true! Not true at all, in fact! X3 Truth is, I don't mind getting to know the little kinks (or the big ones either, I suppose, hehe). To me, that's just part of getting to know someone - getting to know the things that they like ;3

So, next time you feel sheepish talking about vore, don't be! If you feel like getting smooshed, let's get the smooshing on! If ya even feel the need to be a bit slobbish, let it loose then! If you wanna throw on some sexy undies, so to say, don't let me stop ya!

Because chances are, you I just might like the same things |3

Hey guys, story coming soon...I hope XD lol - so keep an eye out for it

Also, I think I might start posting some poems here, too, that I've written over the summer =3

*obligatory OM NOM NOMS*

Welp, this blubbery fatwuff is headed to bed <3 laterz

...

IT'S SOOOO CUTE!!! X3


...that is all >.>;

Give me a word, any word. One word. I will do my best to give you a fact about me that incorporates that word in some way.

Fatty wuff has been eating like a big piggy lately X3

Eating whole pizzas all by himself, polishing off a big bowl of pasta, squeezing in a quesadilla or two here and there, guzzling down obscene amounts of Dr Pepper, ice cream ice cream ice cream, more soda, a nice big sandwich, a big fluffy pile of pancakes drizzled with syrup and whipped cream - ohh man, so full lately

Just need some nice long belly rubs ;3 *urrrrrrp!*

hehehe, fat wuffy is headin to bed now, y'all take care ^__^

http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=7361815

Yasuko is amazing :3 And the pizza really is delicious haha X3

and yeah, I look really stiff but hey, I was on TV at 6 in the morning :D

Okay, I don't want to offend anyone, but...Beck has a serious, serious problem. In a recent interview on his radio show, he flipped out a calller and started shrieking like a toddler (no exaggeration - I mean, holy shit, it's insane) while they were on the topic of health care, because Beck's labrynthian logic just makes him confuse himself and he explodes. His usual tactic of trying to use "ironic" rhetoric just backfires, he sounds like an idiot just raving about who knows what, and screams "GET OFF MY PHONE!!! GEEET AAAAWWFMAAAIPHAAAAAAAAAAHHH!" (roughly)

so, all in all, journal bump, meet political opinion, bam, here ya go

hope you're all holding up better than Beck :3

*sighs* I feel like I'm gonna regret posting this...oh well...

Some of you are probably aware of this already, but for the rest of you - for more than a month now, maybe even two, Alexandre and I have been broken up from being mates. I never really take break-ups well, especially not this time, because he really means a lot to me as a person. To this day I still don't know why he broke up with me, because he told me he didn't have a reason why, which not only was heart-breaking, but frustrating as hell. I don't blame him, though, but...I guess you could say I've been pretty bitter about it.

After deciding we'd just be friends, he then told me that he didn't want to even be around me anymore, that for two months he didn't want anything to do with me, just a week or so after we had just started working things out. It was just another incredibly hard blow to my heart, my sanity, my emotional well-being, and really did a number on my depression/anxiety complex. But I know it's my fault; I couldn't just leave well enough alone between us. I sorta couldn't convince myself that we weren't together anymore - and believe me, if I could have my way, I'd still be with him (hell, he's a wonderful guy) - and thus I couldn't handle not being with him. I felt so dead inside, and really rotten for putting both him and myself through it all.

But, then, what do I do? Apologize? For what? I feel utterly lost and confused about how it all started that just thinking about the what if's and the why's just depresses me even more. And I hate to say it, but the fact that he seems completely unphased by the whole thing pisses me the fuck off sometimes. In essense, I feel like our relationship, one that brought me genuine happiness for the first time in a long time in my life, was just a burden, a hassle, for him. I feel like a jerk for saying this, but...I sometimes wonder if he even loved me at all.

This short period during the year always gets me down and lonely sometimes, being AC time and all, hearing everyone's amazing times meeting and getting together, while you're stuck at a day-to-day job and nothing to do with your free time. And then a really bad breakup, which is my fault in a few ways, on top of it - it really just...sucks. It's to the point that my meds can only do so much, and then I still feel like shit.

So, all in all - yeah, my life kinda sucks right now. I lost my boyfriend and don't have a clue how it happened, my family is always off doing vacations and other stuff without me, I'm losing touch with my friends and myself...I feel overwhelmed.

okay, I'm done venting...just, I dunno...keep me in your prayers for now.

Stolen from  Hydramon

YES OR NO.

NO EXPLANATIONS UNLESS SOMEONE COMMENTS AND ASKS.

THESE ARE THE RULES.

Kissed any one of your Furaffinity friends? — Yes
Been arrested? — No
Kissed someone you didn't like? — Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes
Held a snake? — Yes
Ran a red light? — Yes
Been suspended from school? — No
Experienced love at first sight? — Kinda
Totaled your car in an accident? — No
Been fired from a job? — No
Fired somebody? — No
Sung karaoke? — Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? — Yes
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yes
Kissed in the rain? — No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — Yes
Saw someone die? — No
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — No
Smoked a cigar? — No
Sat on a rooftop? — Yes
Smuggled something into another country? — Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — Yes
Broken a bone? — No
Skipped school? — Yes
Eaten a bug? — Yes
Sleepwalked? — No
Walked on a moonlit beach? — Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? — Yes
Dumped someone? — No
Forgotten your anniversary? — No
Lied to avoid a ticket? — No
Ridden in a helicopter? — No
Shaved your head? — No
Blacked out from drinking? — No
Played a prank on someone? — Yes
Hit a home run? — Yes
Felt like killing someone? — Yes
Cross-dressed? — Yes
Been falling-down drunk? — Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — No
Eaten snake? — No
Marched/Protested? — Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — No
Puked on an amusement ride? — No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — Yes
Knitted? — Yes
Been on TV? — Yes
Shot a gun? — Yes
Skinny-dipped? — No
Given someone stitches? — No
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — No
Ridden a surfboard? — No
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — Yes
Had surgery? — Yes
Streaked? — Yes
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — Yes
Tripped on mushrooms? — Yes
Passed out when NOT drinking? — No
Peed on a bush? — Yes
Donated Blood? — Yes
Grabbed electric fence? — No
Eaten alligator meat? — No
Eaten cheesecake? — Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? — No
Peed your pants in public? — Yes
Snuck into a movie without paying? — Yes
Written graffiti? — Yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? — Yes
Think about the future? — Yes
Been in handcuffs? — No
Believe in love? — Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — No

Sometime around 4-4:30 local time I got home from the surgery, all fine, in a little bit of pain, but less so than before :3 They got my gallbladder out, as well as taking care of my omentum as well, which had, apparently, had gotten twisted along my abdominal wall, inflamed, and part of it died (which may explain where a lot of my pain had been coming from). But, no fear, all is well, they took care of everything, the nurses (well, most of them lol) where sweet and amazing, and a wonderful friend of mine was able to drive me there and pick me up afterwards...despite the fact that she's getting married in three days X3

I want to thank everyone who's been here for me, including the sweetest Panda evah,  Dayken, for texting me to reassure me I'd be okay. Also, I'm glad you guys are doing well yourselves, and I hope that each one of you knows that I love ya and I'll be ever grateful for you for your kind words, thoughts, prayers, etc, and I hope that I can get back to normal within a week or so ^^

*the big round wolf rounds all you up and hugs you tight* <3

Simmy~

The last few days I've been having unbearably sharp, stabby pains in my stomach. I was originally thinking that it was from an ulcer (stress coming from family, ex's, work, money, etc), but, to be sure, I went to the doctor to find out what it really was. And, it turns out, it was even worse:

Gallstones

My stomach wasn't getting enough bile to help breakdown digestion, which hurt, but on top of that, the feeling of stones in your gallbladder is, quite frankly, fucking painful, constant, restless, crippling pain. I've been constantly taking Lortab (Vicoden) for the past couple of days, writhing in pain in my bed, and doing it again the next day.

However, the good news! I AM going to get surgery done on me this Wednesday, to remove my gallbladder completely. The surgeon said it was a fairly safe procedure, but...I'm still anxious about it, mostly because, outside of wisdom teeth, I've never had a real surgery before. :<

If you guys read this, all a wuff can ask for is that you keep him in your thoughs, prayers, and wish him some luck - I think I'm gonna need it ^^

Hopefully, I'll be back to normal soon - until then, stay out of trouble, and know that I'm grateful for everyone I can call 'friend' on here

-Simmy

Okay, so, I stole this from  Tachi and it pretty much goes a little something like this:

"First three people with decent song suggestions in the comments, preferrably something I would already know, I will record myself sing it and post it. And, in turn, I dare you to do the same!" (I know  alexandre would kick my butt at this ^_~)

So, comments plz :3

I opened up my inbox today, and found this little gem:

HOT BELLY, MAN!!!!..I REALLY love the under-the-belly shot!!!.....i'd LOVE it if you bulged your stomach in my face, spread your navel open WIDELY, make me moisten your belly button with my tongue deeeeeply into it,...then pushed on the back of my head and forcing my nose to enter, glide slowly in, allllll the way to the pit of your navel...get it STUCK in there!!!

if your'e hungry after that, you could always do what one guy did as pretend...he hog-tied me, put me on a platter, put an apple in my mouth, and licked his lips while rubbing his belly...i was eyeball to his belly button - which he stretched open as he bulged his belly in my face, telling me it was my new home and described in detail how he was going to swallow me for dinner, starting with my head...GUUUUUUULLLPPP!...then more of me.....GUUUUULLLPP...until my legs were dangling out his mouth - he just lauged as he heard me cry for help inside of his bulging belly...and then, flipping his head back, he...GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPED!!!...and then....BUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRPPPP!!!!....and, finally, AHHHHHHHHHH!!! - (with toothpick in his mouth and rubbing and patting his belly)..."Mmmmmmmmmmm!!! He was DELICIOUS!!!"

if you're not into the eating thing (vore) - i'd still love to explore your navel!!



ahh, I hate getting these things <3

Noccy and I were RPing, when he whipped out this wonderful character Beau - aahhhh, gonna have good dreams tonight, wooof! <3


X3 anyway, if any of y'all are wondering, I'm doing okay ^_^ just working and living these days, nothin new :P

Dude, I love these new Pepsi's X3 The ones with sugar rather than syrup <3

Okay, off to bed X3

So, good news: I don't have to do my final paper for my class!

Bad News: it's because, regardless on what I get on it, I'm going to fail the class anyway

Good news: At least I'm done with finals!

Bad News: Can someone tell my why I'm still stressed out? X.x

Okay, so my phone has the capability to do mobile IM, which I only use on rare occasions to chat when I'm stuck bored somewhere with only my phone in tow. And, when I'm done, I sign out of my mobile IM, expecting that everyone sees that I'm no longer online, and that I'm not going to reply to any messages.

However, after I sign out, supposedly, I keep getting these offline messages like "are you there?" and "why aren't you answering?" etc etc, which logically leads me to think that it must seem that I'm still 'signed in,' when I'm not at all D: You can see how frustrating this can get, when I'm in no position to start up an entire chat with someone and yet keep getting these messages, asking why I'm ignoring them x.x

Who's to blame? My phone, is my first answer. But also, I guess it wouldn't help for folks to take some disgression when it comes to seeing someone as "mobile" as their status...if you think about it, a phone is a phone, and it's always gonna be on, though the person using it won't always be ready to chat...so what I'm trying to say is, if someone doesn't respond to you when their status says "mobile," try not to have a heart attack. You'll save yourself, and the other person, a lot of grief.

And just as a rule of thumb, if someone comes on as "mobile," let them hit you up first; it's a good sign that they want to chat with you if they do ;3 otherwise, you might be sending messages to someone who isn't really there/paying attention/ready to chat.

Be safe, have fun, don't get into trouble, and laugh all you like :3

This message brought to you by Simmy <3

Haha, in other words...got my PayPal set up...anybody want money for commissions? :3 Wuff would also be up for doing trades (story for either art/story), and is busy writin some of his own stuff X3

Hey, Day of Silence was pretty cool =3 It ended nicely as well, too X3 Me and Foxy became what is known locally as "True Aggies," that is, kiss in front of a crowd at midnight on campus. It was exciting, hilarious, and fun! I'm sure someone took pictures out there somewhere >.>


Anywho, it's almost 3 am, why the hell am I still awake, ahh :D

ALSO: STUFF
laterz

http://www.dayofsilence.org/index.cfm

if you can, please participate! If only for a small amount of time (say, from 9 am to 2 pm), you'll be doing your part to end the silence =3

and it's okay if you text, IM, etc, you won't be talking X3

"Your result for The Kink Spectrum Analysis Test ...
Green (530 nm)

You scored 38% self-confidence and 40% bandwidth!

Not bad! You're probably not willing to try everything, but you have quite a few kinks. Or you strongly prefer one side of the fence. Look for another Green, or a Blue if you feel adventurous. Reds may be okay as well if they share one or two of your likings (see below). But stay away from Ultraviolets unless you want to radically spice up your sex life. You've been warned.

But I promised you a more detailed analysis, so here it is. Note that most scales are twofold: There are separate values for giving (active) and receiving (passive). If you scored high on one of them, you should look for a partner who scored high on the other. If you scored high on both of them, go for someone who is similar (or for multiple partners if you're into that). If you scored low on both, this probably is not your kind of kink.

You scored 56% giving and 54% receiving on oral.

You scored 44% giving and 50% receiving on anal.

You scored 54% giving and 71% receiving on bondage.

You scored 30% giving and 24% receiving on humiliation.

You scored 22% giving and 20% receiving on pain.

You scored 39% dominance and 33% submission.

You scored 29% voyeurism and 24% exhibitionism.

Besides that, you're 44% into fetishism and 16% polysexual (i.e. interested in sex with multiple partners, whether at the same time or not). You'll probably want a partner who is similar, whether you scored high or low in these categories.

Finally, you scored 35% on autoerotic - a scale that measures your ability and/or willingness to have kinky fun without a partner. It's not exactly a matching criterion, but it's good for you if your score is high. Keep it up!"

Mwahaha :3

Hey, I know I'm friends with a few of y'all on Chubspot, but who else is on Chubspot? I must find you! :3 We must be friends lol, and if you aren't already on Chubspot, and that stuff is up your alley, you should join! :3!

lol anyway, I'm ready for Spring! :D