Figured it was time to update this.

Entry - Start - 2042

-- OFFICIAL--

Dear all,

Nothing to worry about, however, I am removing myself from FA. Personal reasons have caused this decision. This is official.

This is not a case of "rage quitting", depression, or a bitch fit. This is a matter of personal life and the preservation, thereof.

Its been fun, the fandom has been an outlet and a great way to de-stress. And I met a great guy whom I call my boyfriend and future husband WHO IS A GRAMMAR GUY @_@ I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, he is a beacon of hope in this dark damp world. AND NONE OF YOU CAN HAVE HIM!!!! SO DON'T EVEN TRY!!!! EVER!! >:D

So I call an end.

Thank you all.

--OFFICIAL--

Entry - End - 2108

 grune-daddy is talking about car stuff. Things that I know but kinda don't. :P I like it.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! Gotcha again!!!!

 grune-daddy is a stud muffin goober butt. :P

 grune-daddy IS HOTTER THAN 12/10 OF THE WORLD. :P MY OPINON.

I LOVE YOU!!!  grune-daddy

HE'S ALSO A GOOBER BUTT!!

THAT IS ALL!!

HHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!! JK!! THIS IS A JOURNAL ABOUT  grune-daddy

MY BOYFRIEND IS THE BEST!

HE'S LIKE AWESOMER THAN SOUL EATER!

HE'S FREAKIN AWESOME!

I'll keep my smile and say I'm okay but I feel like shit. Nothing seems to be going right and when things do go right it all falls down. Certain times its like someone or something is telling me what I already know but I'll keep my smile on and pretend to be okay long as I have to be. Long as it keeps everyone else happy, I guess. But hey! Isn't that what life is. Not saying life sucks, no where near there but I will say at this moment. I'm in my own corner and the chains are out and locked. This is temporary and will be gone by tomorrow hopefully. Right now, I could really go work out. Just turn in music and go lift. Express my anger and sadness and frustration on the bag or ons bar or dumbbell. And play music. Block the world out for hours. Just to away for a moment. This is one of those times where I don't want to talk to anyone but I can't say that without there being se kind of reprimand... So to sleep I go, ready to tackle tomorrow with the same face I had this morning. Hopefully I'll be able to keep it. Really want to workout make the world to away for a few/ a lot of hours.

Wish I could see my boyfran more often and do silly/ romantic things with him. Grr. Stupid distance.

“I’m so lonely!”

“Nobody loves me!”

“Oh life sucks!”

“I’m socially awkward.”

Shut it! I’m sick and tired of reading about people saying how bad life is! “Oh I have no friends!” Get off your lazy ASS and go be social. If people don’t want to talk then force yourself into the conversation dammit!

People aren’t always gonna want to talk to you. We all have cliques, a social group. We as people always go into our social groups. Our little circles. Don’t be stupid and pretend you don’t know what I mean.

So to prevent my rants, to everyone that reads this, to the people that go on these sad rants that look for sympathy. I am an asshole and if I read those, I will tell you what you need to do in hopes you’ll get off your lazy ass and be social. Lazy People. Get off WoW or whatever y’all play.

I’m done.

Don’t cry yourself to sleep. Go be happy.

On second thought, do whatcha feel.

Ninja'd from  Jay_Wolfe

1. Are you single or taken?
Happily taken

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Chocolate. But Flowers are equally awesome, this is hard.

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Sadly...no. I wish I could I could.

4. Do you like anyone?
I'm sociable.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
Yeah. Same Person.

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
Boyfran,  grune-daddy

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Yes. Why Yes I do. I show the love.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Yeah. I found out who it was, it wasn't very surprising.

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Yeah. Done it before.

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
No thing, will EVER shoot me with an arrow and expect to get away with all his/her limbs.

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Nope.

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
I'm a big kid.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Yes! I love reading them in that special someone's voice. Then eating them. The sweet things.

14. What is something you got last Valentines?
A boyfran.

15. Is Valentines depressing?
Hell no! Even if I were single, its a day of love. I would still make a heart.

16. How is your love life?
Take the good and the bad. There are times I feel that I can't do it, that I can't go on whether it be one thing or another. But then I think, I love him, and he loves me. Plus, I really don't want to date other people anymore. At this point I think this is it. That's my love life.

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope.

18. How many roses would you want to receive?
One. Why? I have only One Love.

19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
Yes. A Boyfran.

20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
I forget days easy, so right now, Yes. Later, beats me.

21. Who was your last Valentine from?
Boyfran

22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
Four letter word, starting with an L.

23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
Boyfran

24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
One.

25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
Yeah. For a few years then suddenly I received more.

26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
Excluding Grade School, and at one time... 3.

27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
Yes. It sucked.

28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
Nope.

29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
Hell Naw.

30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
Chocolates!

31. What was the worst?
Its the thought that counts.

32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
Nah. In the month of February, yeah just one, Boyfran.

One year!! OMG!!!!!!!!

He's Wow.

Packing. For home. I don't wanna go. Don't wanna go but gotta do what I gots to do 5 more years then its over. One last ride to home (here), tie the knot, then live the good life of a civilian. I like it.

Happy Holidays to everyone! And omg! Seeing Boyfrand today!! Happy as a tornado in a trailer park.

 grune-daddy poke with me a stick but I'm still nervous to see you. It's like asking your friend to prom kinda nervous. Sweaty hands, butterflies in the stomach and all that stuff. I'm seeing you. Omg! Pinch me!!!

I love you Baby. Can't wait to see you! In less than 12 hours!

HERPA DERP!!!

I see him in a few days. :) I can't wait. I love you  grune-daddy

I won an Award. For Lowest Individual Score in Bowling!! Yay! I think

Rules

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!

Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? - Yes
Been arrested? - No
Kissed someone you didn't like? - Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? - Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? - Yes
Ran a red light? - Yes
Been suspended from school? - No
Experienced love at first sight? - Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? - No
Been fired from a job? - No
Fired somebody? - No
Skydived? - No
Sang karaoke? - Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? - Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? - Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? - Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - No
Kissed in the rain? - No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? - Yes
Seen someone die? - No
Played spin-the-bottle? - No
Sang in the shower? - Yes
Smoked a cigar? - No
Sat on a rooftop? - No
Taken pictures of yourself naked? - Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? - Yes
Skipped school? - Yes
Eaten a bug? - Yes
Sleepwalked? - No
Walked a moonlit beach? - No
Ridden a motorcycle? - No
Forgotten your anniversary? - No
Lied to avoid a ticket? - No
Ridden on a helicopter? - No
Shaved your head? - Yes
Blacked out from drinking? - No
Played a prank on someone? - Yes
Hit a home run? - No
Felt like killing someone? - Yes
Cross-dressed? - Yes
Been falling-down drunk? - No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? - Yes
Eaten snake? - No
Marched/Protested? - Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? - No
Puked on an amusement ride? - No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? - No
Been in a band? - No
Knitted? - No
Been on TV? - No
Shot a gun? - Yes
Skinny-dipped? - No
Caused someone to need stitches? - No
Ridden a surfboard? - No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? - No
Had surgery? - Yes
Taken by ambulance to hospital? - Yes
Passed out when not drinking? - Yes
Peed on a bush? - Yes
Donated Blood? - No
Grabbed electric fence? - No
Eaten alligator meat? - No
Eaten cheesecake? - Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? - Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? - Yes
Peed your pants in public? - Yes
Written graffiti? - No
Still love someone you shouldn't? - Yes
Think about the future? - Yes
Been in handcuffs? - Yes
Believe in love? - Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? - No
Been to a furry convention? - No
Own a fursuit? - No
Bungee-Jumped? - No
Stolen something? - Yes
Kissed someone, same gender? - Yes
Kissed someone, different gender? - Yes
Had sex in public? - Yes
Skipped a night? - Yes
Lied? - Yes
Created a Meme? - No
Been to another continent? - Yes
Been in a country without knowing the language? - Yes
Have seen a parent naked? - Ugh, yes.

Any questions feel free to ask.

You amaze me beyond comprehension, making my days brighter with every word. Surprising me with every word and making me love you more with everyday that passes.


There is nothing about you that doesn't amaze me. Your jaw dropping, flattering. There aren't too many other words I can use to show my amazement for you.

Everyday that passes is another day I wish I could be with you. Being there with you and and spending the rest of my life with you. Its truly amazing how lucky of am guy I am to have you as a boyfriend, a lover, a mate. Someday, hope to push this further. I know it'll be there soon.

I love you , you captivate me more and more with every passing day.

I'm playing a song with no lyrics. And its upbeat and happy but I feel like... moping. 10 months with mate. 10. I got to Skype him. But I miss him. Can't wait to see him. 21 days but my god, I feel like a bad boyfriend for not being able to be there with him... D:

I love you  grune-daddy

1. What does your FurAffinity name mean and why?
Beats me.

2. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
Good question.

3. How many watchers do you have now?
Beats me.

4. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.
Grune-daddy
Rukis
Blotch

5. Do you comment, fav, or both?
Fav

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on FA?
Nope

7. What is your most popular submission?
Idk.

8. What are your favorite non-anime TV shows?
Cartoonetwork.
Law And Order: SVU
Skypin my boyfran. :P

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
I don't draw

10. Summer or winter?
Winter. Its so cute!

11. Rain or Sun?
Sun.

12. What's your favorite type of music?
Anything that has a beat.

13. PC or Mac?
PC.

14. Anime or Manga?
Both.

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Coke

16. Read or TV?
Read.

17. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?
Two or Three.

18. Name a hidden talent.
Hidden? Beats me. Uh.. Something you all don't know. Hmmm... Ima big kid.

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
Traditional.

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
Hmm... Red Robins.

21. What are your top 3 favorite books?
1. Boy Crazy.
2. College Boys.
3. Runner.

22. Wii or PlayStation?
Playstation.

23. Name 3 of your favorite bands/singers.
1. Ratatat
2. Chromeo
3. Teena Marie

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typist?
Fast.

25. Do you like Denny's?
Love it!

26. What is your favorite smiley?
:D

27. What is your favorite type of pie?
PEANUT BUTTER PIE!

28. Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
36 hours.

29. Do you go on YouTube a lot?
Yeah.

30. Are you a member on any other sites besides FA?
Facebook.

31. Do you cosplay?
No.

32. Fruits or sweets?
Sweets.

33. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
Salted.

34. Have you skipped school?
Yeah!

35. Have you been on a plane?
Too many times!

36. Have you swam in an ocean?
Nope.

37. Have you been ice skating?
Once.

38. Favorite vacation spot?
Mate's house.

39. Ever been on TV?
Nope.

40. Favorite salad and dressing?
Caesar. Ranch.

41. What do you do to relax?
Video games, sleep, talk to mate.

42. What is the last film you saw in the theater?
WRECK IT RALPH!

43. Favorite Sandwich?
Chicken Buffalo.

44. If you could go anywhere in the world...
Home with my mate.

45. Favorite time of the day?
Sunset Time.

46. What did you want to be when you were little?
Taller and stronger.

47. What do you want to be now?
Anything that's close to my mate.

48. If you could eat with one person, who would it be?
 grune-daddy

49. What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with?
Daffy Duck.

50. When is your birthday?
May 11.

51. Favorite type of ice cream?
Cookie Dough.

52. Last book you read?
Men I Might Have Known

53. Which store would you max out a credit card at?
...Hmmm... JCPenny!

54. Do you buy / sell / both on eBay?
None.

55. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
So what's her name? (in reference to who I'm dating)

56. Favorite all time movie?
Fast and Furious.

57. What was your favorite show when you were a kid?
Cartoonetwork

58. What are you listening to right now?
Mate.

59. What is the last thing you ate?
Frosted Flakes.

60. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Midnight Purple!

61. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
uh.... Its a girl?.. uhm.

62. Favorite sport to play?
Track.

63. Favorite Day of the Year?
Any day I'm with my mate.

64. Hugs or Kisses?
Both.

65. Vanilla or Chocolate?
Both.

66. Favorite Board Game?
Monopoly.

67. Favorite smells?
Cinnamon.

68. What inspires you?
My mate. He keeps me moving.

69. Do you have any piercings?
Not yet.

70. How many siblings do you have?
6.

71. Bacon Bits or croutons?
Bacon Bits.

72. Favorite Day of the Week?
Wednesday

73. Favorite phrase?
"You can only lose if your willing to accept losses."

74. Favorite Restaurant?
Red Lobster.

75. Favorite animal?
Lion

76. Favorite thing to do outside?
Imagine future things and my swings!!

77. Favorite thing to do when it's raining?
Watch it rain.

78. Favorite Disney character?
Simba.

79. Do you like coffee? If so, what is your favorite brand?
Yes! Starbucks!

We've all seen what you can do, now lets see what makes you tick :) Answer the following questions (honestly!) and share with the world who you really are. Ready? Go!

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
James, Jamesie, Mimms

2. How tall are you?
5"10

3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Black

3. What about eye color?
Brown

4. What orientation are you?
Queerosexual

5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Taken.

6. What do you do in your spare time?
Video Games, porn, Netflix, Tv, Talk to boyfran.

7. What's your job?
USAF

8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
Persistence.

9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
I'm lazy as a dog.

10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
For some, I'm gay. For others.... I'm buff!

Good! Hold on, yer coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?

11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
N/A.

12. Do you drink?
Nein!

13. Do you smoke?
Negative.

14. What are your fears?
Losing those I care for, if I can stop it.

15. What are your dreams/goals?
Get out of Air Force (6 years), tie knot with mate, get a sports car, have a mid-life crisis.

16. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Yeah. A few of em.

Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D

17. Who's your best bud?
Jazzy!!

18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Turtles, Turtle Pie, Hershey Pie, Pistachios, Zero bar!!!!

19. Favorite drink?
Code Red: Mtn Dew!!

20. Favorite color?
Midnight Purple!!!

21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Read dem minds!

22. Favorite movie?
Stuck between, Dear John, Gone in 60 seconds, and 2Fast 2Furious.

23. Least favorite food?
Cheese

24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Fried Shrimp! Or Steak. Or Chicken Wings dipped in bbq and ranch mix.

25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
2013 Ford Focus S
Wish I drove a 2000 Camaro SS. Or mate's Stang.

Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.

26. Most disliked bug?
Screw that! I see it I kill it!

27. Most hated pet peeves?
People driving slower than the speed limit in the fast lane.

28. Dislike in life?
Newton's Law of motion works 50% of time.

29. Most annoying?
Refer to question 27.

30. Most disliked TV show?
Annoying Orange!!

That feeling us get when you leave someone you love? You know you'll see em again but you can't help but be all "That'll take forever" and feel all sad. Sigh. 6 more years before I can take my last trip up there.

I'm gonna go see him!!! Whooooooooo!!!!!!

I was sitting behind my laptop, err... netbook, looking constantly on  grune-daddy's page. Being a stalker..Yeah. I was stalking his page like a ninja. And I would sit for minutes, hours. And just read his stuff and look at his picture. The picture was Amazing. Still is.

After awhile of procrastinating and a bunch of failed attempts of conversation (typing something then erasing it immediately), I gathered the balls to write something. It was comment on his Mustang. Despite my lack of knowledge on such tings I went it. If that was as far as I was gonna get then fine, it was good with me. But my attempt didn't end on deaf ears, it was taken. And I given back. We chatted for roughly a month. A good long one at that. Maybe longer, my mind is kinda hazy. But! We talked for at least a month. Then the conversation that made everything....everything.

It was a journal he had..or I had. It was about a co-worker that I liked. But I realized after about a day of pursuit of said co-worker, what I wanted from him, was lust. And what I wanted from  grune-daddy was love. And I gave up my pursuit and that night, made my motives for him clear. I explained to him that I wanted him and no one else. That he was it. After that, it went to messaging, I gotta say he wasn't easy to catch. It was like catching a fly with a paper cup, but eventually, I got to him. And the feelings were mutual. So we gave it a shot, figured, what could go wrong? As a famous singer said, "You are my sunshine in the mornings and the moon in the nights. Baby please, never burn out."

Then the day came. The GRAND DAY! I finished Tech School. And the day came to see him for the FIRST TIME! We saw each other and I have to say, seeing him for the first time...OMG! No words could describe the feeling. Being with him, seeing him. No picture could ever capture the full image of him. Its something else.

And now, 9 months down the road since that day. I'm sitting here typing, wearing his shirt, waiting for the next 10 days to go by so I can go back to see him. Its a dream come true I tell ya.

Also, doesn't help that I have a thing for his type. And his background is...Wow. Farmers are hawt... ://:

That is all.

Danke.

A - Age: 19
B - Bed size: Twin... I think.
C - Chore you hate: Doing the Trash at work.
D - Dog's name: Dun have one.
E - Essential start your day item: Call mate. :) Gotta hear his voice.
F - Favorite color: Midnight Purple.
G - Gold or Silver: Gold
H - Height: 5"10...5"11..idk.
I - Ireland or Italy: Italy
J - Job title: USAF
K - Kid(s): Someday... maybe.
L - Living arrangements: On base, Dorm.
M - Mom's name: Why ya wanna know?
N - Nicknames: Jamesie, James, Mimms, Airman, *insert new nickname*
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Dislocated Shoulder and was doped up on meds. Couldn't even walk.
P - Pet Peeve(s): People failing at easy tasks.
Q - Quote from a movie: It was from a song in a movie, "Ass up high!! Make a motherfucker cry! Its so good that I could die! Help me stay alive!"
R - Righty or Lefty: Righty
S - Siblings: Older sister, Younger Sister, Younger Sister, Younger brother.
T - Time you wake up: 0530.
U - Underwear: Claiborne, or boxer briefs, preferablly tight. Wink wink.
V - Vegetables you dislike: I LOVE VEGGIES!!
W - Water or land: Land
X - X-rated or PG: Both. But PG is always good. :3
Y - Yesterday's best moment: Skypin  grune-daddy. He's so frikkin cute!
Z - Zoo favorite: Last time I went to a zoo, I was....12 I think.