For the past few years, a lot of things have weighed heavily on my mind, but I've not had the courage to open up about them. Holding in these secrets has not been good for me, so in this journal I'm going to say everything I've been afraid to, whatever the consequences might be. So here goes.

Confession One: The My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic fandom is where I experienced my sexual awakening.

We're all likely familiar with the pony show that was popular in the mid 2010s, to a rather concerning degree. I was a little over 18 at the time, and I enjoyed watching pirated reuploads on YouTube, which led me to explore the greater brony community... including the /mlp/ board on 4chan.

From what I saw on greentext compilation videos, /mlp/ was a place full of funny people having wacky conversations, and I wanted to see it for myself. Suffice to say I ended up seeing more than that. In particular, the board's Ass Worship threads awakened something new inside me, and when the mods cracked down on them I jumped ship... to 8chan, where the content was even more extreme.

Being a brony at this time was a creative renaissance for me, as I explored my favourite kinks through gmod pony compositions. Many of my works are still on Derpibooru if you're curious. But it was also a social low point, as the hardcore brony community dragged me into a cesspit of alt-right GamerGate groupthink.

I distinctly remember exiting the fandom around the time Season 4 was announced. I was enjoying the actual show less and less- I couldn't finish watching Season 3 at all- and I didn't want my entire sexual identity to be built on a mediocre children's cartoon. So I bailed. I left the -chan boards for the last time, I chewed out my DeviantArt friends with spiteful DMs so they wouldn't follow me, and I entrenched myself in the general furry community where I have remained ever since.

I definitely recovered socially: I've become much more tolerant of the alternative lifestyles that were so despised by the bigoted movements I used to inhabit. But my attempts to escape MLP as a sexual turn-on have not been as successful.

These ponies continue to present themselves wherever furry pornography can be found, and they always catch my eye a little better than the rest of the stuff. Despite MLP having moved on to a new generation, the Friendship is Magic cast specifically have stuck around, serving as an inescapable reminder of how deeply cringe I used to be, and how pathetic I still am at the core.

I'm still tempted to get back into ponies- re-download their models and play around with them on gmod or sfm to cater to my personal fetishes. But I worry about how regressive that would be, how damaging it would be to relive the time of my life where my thinking was at its most insular and prejudiced. It's a worry that flares up every time I see a horse penis flash my screen as I browse furry sites.

Confession Two: I still have feelings for certain cubs.

This is a rather complicated confession which doesn't really fit in a single sentence. It's not 100% accurate to say I'm attracted to cubs. It's probably not even 50% accurate. But it's also not 100% inaccurate either.

Consider the following: A man posts a collage of all the women he's jerked off to on some pornography subreddit. There's well over a hundred adults in the picture- typical coomer degeneracy, nothing to get mad over- but there are also two girls in the crowd who are clearly preteens. What do you think the commenters are going to focus on?

Obviously they're gonna call him out for jerking off to little girls. Mods are gonna delete his post and ban him for the illegal content. That user might try to appeal- they're less than 2% of the group, he wasn't personally involved in making them do porn, their age is actually irrelevant to him, he actually really hates child porn when it involves literally anyone else- but those arguments are meaningless. He jerks off to kids, so he's a pedophile. End of story.

I too would consider that man a pedophile... but if you replaced that collage of human women with all the characters I've been attracted to, it would have the same proportion of underage characters.

Here's a nearly comprehensive list of all the R34 characters I'm at least slightly attracted to whose sexual immaturity is either confirmed or left ambiguous in their original canon:
Sonic, Tails, Knuckles and other Sonic characters in a similar age bracket. Spyro and Cynder, and Bartholomew the yeti. Jake Long, exclusively in his dragon form. The Ninja Turtles. Spike the dragon, and the teen dragons from the same show. Asriel Dreemurr, Ralsei and the other high-school monsters from Deltarune. Bowser Jr and the Koopalings.

That's the biggest list I can make right now. I'll update this journal if I can think of any more, but I doubt I will. This isn't a big list at all, and most of these examples I prefer to imagine as being of age anyway. Every character you see in a sexual situation in this gallery is intended to be above the age of consent, even if they appeared on the above list.

But I also have to admit I've occasionally enjoyed imagining a few characters as actually being underage. I'm going to keep specific examples contained within this paragraph, so you've been warned. I like to fantasise about Bowser grooming his son for incest pedophilia, I've considered commissioning art of Asriel in his kid form, I once actually commissioned a pic of Bartholomew secretly investigating his brother's dick, and I genuinely prefer Spike the dragon as a short guy with a big butt over any redesign that ages him up.

And yet I have an intense negative reaction to even the tamest cub art that doesn't involve one of my personal exceptions. How is it fair that I would sincerely condemn an artist for drawing porn of Winston from Bluey, when a corner of my brain lights up with glee when Spike the dragon is drawn with a big booty?

It could be that I at least know where my limits are. None of my original characters are underage, nor are they in any way attracted to underage people, not even the serial killer. And even when I do fantasise about underage characters, it never involves myself nor a stand in for myself.

I am strongly opposed to actual pedophilia. I only "enjoy" cub art in the same way one might "enjoy" guro or hyperviolence- as something to observe in the safely contained environment of fiction, never to be experienced in reality. I know plenty of users who openly create and consume artwork involving fictional underage characters, but if I found out they were grooming and abusing actual children I would report and block them without hesitation.

But that's also part of the reason why I've been hesitant to admit this truth about myself. If I accept the part of myself that likes certain cubs and start making and commissioning more of that stuff (which, incidentally I wouldn't post to FurAffinity- my altered stance on fake kid smut wouldn't affect my respect for the site's acceptable content policy) would I be satisfied? What if my urges only grow in severity, needing more extreme examples to satisfy? What if I become the thing that I hate so much? After all, my fetishes have only grown more extreme in the years I've been openly furry.

Confession Three: I have some extremely disgusting kinks

In much the same way that saying "I like some cubs" doesn't capture the full nuances of my situation, I can't just say "I love x kink" because I don't really love x kink in the same way as everyone else.

For instance, the humble fart fetish. If you can stomach looking that stuff up here or on e6, you'll see lots of the same thing: noxious brown-green clouds, abrasive onomatopoeia with lots of F's, B's and P's, and a general focus on a displeasurable stench. I hate all of those things, yet I can also relate to the feeling of relief that comes after releasing an immense buildup of pressure.

That's why I particularly enjoy underwater fart fetish stuff- bubbles are prettier than gas clouds and don't need to be discoloured, the water muffles the sound of farting into a more pleasant reverberation, and the smell is irrelevant because breathing in air isn't a thing in that environment. It's all of the positives with none of the bad things that actual fart fetishists are so worked up about.

I feel a similar way with other bathroom kinks, scat and WS. Most of the stuff I can't get behind because the relief of expelling waste is vastly offset by concerns of hygiene and other olfactory offenses. But then I get rather intrigued by hyperscat and excessive WS. When the subject is able to make enough waste to practically drown themselves in one prolonged movement, realism no longer applies, and concerns about cleanliness evaporate in the face of overwhelming relief.

There's plenty of other stuff I'm morbidly fascinated by. A decade of regular exposure to e621 does things to a person. You'll just have to ask me about it if you want to know the specifics.

Confession Four: I have a debilitating addiction to furry porn

This confession is the one I've wanted to get off my chest for the longest time, but I've always been afraid to, because it throws my entire identity into question. And that's kind of the problem right there: Furry porn is my entire identity.

I transitioned to the furry community around 2015. In that time, I've sunk tens of thousands of dollars into commissioned artwork, met dozens of individuals with similar interests, exposed myself to more tolerant ways of thinking... and developed zero skills useful for independent living.

I can barely manage to sustain myself or my environment. I'm living off a disability pension, struggling to save money, almost incapable of even feeding myself. The only reason I'm not starving to death on the sidewalk is because of support from my mother, a university lecturer with an unfathomable workload who nonetheless takes the time to look after me.

And what have I done to repay this kindness? Holed up in my room, blowing my savings on custom pornography while my body atrophies away. If I wasn't me, I would hate how entitled and selfish I am and would want nothing more than to see me die and rid the world of my burden. But I am me, and honestly I do feel that way about myself.

I can't put all the blame on porn as a concept- I know enough people here to understand that it's perfectly possible to balance a healthy lifestyle with a place in the furry community. But I do not have a healthy lifestyle, and my balance is totally fucked. I'm always sad, always tired, always in bed and always jerking off, and I don't give a shit about anything. All of those traits are a direct cause of all those other traits, trapping me in a vicious entanglement of failure.

And yet, I don't think it would help me to simply quit being a furry altogether. If I deleted my art site accounts and wiped all the porn off my phone and computer, I wouldn't know what to do. I can't hold down a job, I can't pick up any new hobbies, I can't do anything to improve myself. All I can do is sit around and be broken, because I will never find it within me to be anything better.

What now?

I've made my confessions. What you do with the information is up to you. Me, I don't see anything changing for me. Not without a major intervention.

In the event that anything happens to my FA account as a consequence of this journal (you never know), here is a link to my personal Discord channel:

https://discord.com/invite/g896ErY9

I've been pretty frustrated with my lack of ability to buy commissions for most of the year. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's had to tighten their budget. So I've had a thought. If I can't buy commissions on my own, maybe I can work together with other commissioners to make bigger commissions more affordable?

I'd like to announce my new Discord server for commissioners and artists looking to serve commissioners. Right now I want to keep it small, so moderation will be subjective and minimal. I trust you'll behave yourselves and not do anything you wouldn't do in other NSFW servers.

https://discord.gg/hrczn8wk

It has been two weeks since I made the decision to cancel my commission plans. I did not think I would be reconsidering my decision so quickly, but the last week has been mental torture.

I don't know if it's the pain and fatigue of my physical degradation, the pressure of imminent poverty, or the resurfacing trauma of my awful experiences in learning environments, but the fact is that I can't so much as think about opening Blender, or even SFM, without experiencing a crippling level of despair.

I've tried pushing through this level of despair before, and it's only ever made things worse. There is no accomplishment, no finish line that would compensate for having to deal with so much fear and sadness every day and every night.

So I'm giving up. I'm giving up like I always do. If I don't, if I waste what little fight I have trying to learn just a fraction of what I need to fulfil my ambitions, I won't have anything left to do what's important.

I don't want to be an artist. I don't want to be talented. I don't want to be challenged. I just want the bad feelings to go away.

I am no longer on a commission hiatus.

I'm not going to sugarcoat it. I've been feeling awful over the past couple of years, and I believe I can point the blame at the habits I've built up as a commissioner and general consumer of furry pornography.

That's not to say I regret my purchases. Most of my conmissions I genuinely believe were worth the money, but they haven't done enough to compensate for the social disconnection, physical exhaustion and general anxiety that I've been afflicted with since the decade began. I need to do something different. I need to change something about myself.

I don't intend to quit being a furry altogether - I don't think that's even possible. I can't change the fact that I'm a furry, but I want to control the kind of furry that I am. With that in mind, here are a few of my goals for the rest of the year:

Clean up my gallery.

There may be some older pics in my gallery that I'm not really comfortable with. Many of them were purged in response to the policy scare earlier this year, but I want to do a double check and make sure that the gallery represents who I am. Later on, I would like to overhaul my folder system, reducing clutter and sorting my commissions more efficiently.

Refocus on my original characters

I haven't commissioned a new and entirely original character design for almost two years. In that time, virtually all of my commissions have involved corporate-owned characters and other people's OCs, and my truly original characters have been almost completely absent. Even though I gave my main sona a major overhaul, I've barely done anything with him. From now on, I want my commissions to be an outlet of my own expression, and that means highlighting my own characters whenever I can.
I will make an exception for Dyllex, because I still want to do more with his Homebrew abilities, but all my other fan characters may be considered de facto retired.

No more commissions until December, or until I achieve employment.

I've been sitting on this big change for a while, but recent financial pressures have motivated me to take action. I've been trialling a relatively strict commission budget for the past couple of months, and it's been mostly effective, but it hasn't done enough to offset a sudden influx of expenses. So I need to be even tighter. Apologies to all the artists I've inquired about commissioning; i need more time to save up.
I've also been taking small steps toward employment. Nothing much has happened there yet, but if by some miracle I can find and hold down a job long enough to bank a few paychecks, I might have cause to celebrate with a commission or two. We'll just have to see.

Learn the basics of Blender

This might be the toughest part of my plans, but I don't think it's unrealistic. I used to enjoy making scenes in Garry's Mod, and I'm hoping to learn Blender so my old knowledge of scene composition might carry over to this newer, more professional medium. I'm very nervous about learning to use this program - honestly, I'm deathly nervous of education in general, had some very bad experiences there - but I hope to learn enough that I can play around with pre-fab models and sets.

I want to do more with my life than lie in bed and wait for my body to fail me. I'm not the kind of person who changes easily, but I hope these steps will be the beginning of something better for me.

Today I was reminiscing on some of my earliest kink explorations. More than ten years ago, long before I became a part of this community, I liked to compose scenes of pixel art in Paint using sprite sheets.

My favourite subjects for these scenes were Bowser Junior and the Koopalings. I liked to put them in mud and slime, sinking pixel by pixel, often passing through submerged tunnels. Sometimes Bowser, Yoshies and Koopa Troops would join them, but never Wendy.

I usually edited the sprites to have no shell. I imagined it was more liberating and comfortable for them to go without such a hard, heavy, spiky burden on their backs. It definitely felt like I was making something very intimate and unclean, especially when I experimented with giving them buttocks.

I haven't done anything like that in a long time, and I unfortunately don't have any surviving examples of the art to show off. Nonetheless, the subject of these Koopa boys and their assorted dips has been stuck in my mind for a while, and with my current economic situation I've considered getting back into making digital art of my own.

I even found the sprite sheet of the Koopalings I used for my old art:

https://www.spriters-resource.com/c.....s/sheet/35564/

I wonder what No Body is doing now? I have to wonder how he would feel about his creations being modified for what turned out to be fetish fuel. Whatever the case may be, the past decade of context has made it tough for me to simply resume the process as I did it all that time ago.

I want art of the seven Koopa boys getting muddy and blubby very badly, but I can't spare the cash to commission it. I hope I can find the fortitude and the aptitude I need to make it myself, but I'm not confident that I will...

It took me long enough, but I finally made myself a banner for my FA profile. It features a selection of concepts I've come up with over the years.

Notice any characters that catch your eye? Perhaps there's an underutilised character you'd like to see more often?

Happy New Year, everyone! I hope that the next year is even better for you all. I wanted to make this journal to update you all on how things are going and what my plans are for the next year.

Things have gotten off to a good start so far: I'm typing this journal on my brand new desktop PC! It's a significant upgrade from my crusty old laptop, and I'm enjoying getting everything set up. I wish I could say I owe it to hard work and diligence, but I have to give credit where it is due: it was my mother who paid for the new hardware and arranged most of the furniture to make room for the setup. I am eternally grateful for what she has done for me, and I intend to make the most of this opportunity I've been given.

I want to be a better person by the end of 2022, someone who is more talented, more creative and more responsible. At the same time, I also want to stay in the furry community and keep buying and posting commissions. It's likely that I will be forced to spend less time and money on furry content in order to accomplish that goal, but I absolutely will not quit the fandom cold turkey. I know from experience that's not the right decision for me.

I'm also going to develop skills that I can use outside the fandom. I've made the decision to study graphic design this year. I want to get better at using image-editing software to make appealing designs. It's unlikely that I'll share my work here on FurAffinity, but there may be an opportunity to show off my skills to you in the future.

One last thing: I want to gather up all the art I've commissioned over the past six to seven years and save it to my new computer for safekeeping. However, not everything I've helped create has been posted to my galleries in its best quality. If anyone reading this knows the whereabouts of any high-quality commissions I've bought or requests I've been gifted that aren't available in my FurAffinity or InkBunny galleries, please send me a note with the details. You'd be helping me out a lot.

Thanks for reading this journal. I hope you all have an excellent year.

Man, either Striker is undervaluing his awesome work or you guys are just that excited to be in my picture! Either way, I look forward to sharing the finished product.

I'm sponsoring a YCH by StrikerSA that might be of interest to you if you enjoy getting muddy. Follow the link below:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44604238/

If you're interested in seeing some pics of Bowser's top minions, follow this link to the submission on InkBunny:

https://inkbunny.net/s/2529894

I won't post them to FurAffinity because I don't feel like going through the submission process for each picture, but here are the FA accounts of the artists who made these pictures:

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/fr.....uredlightning/
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/timidwithapen/
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/ha.....irlthehamster/

Now that two months of 2021 have passed, it seems like a good time to see how things have gone. I started the year with a pledge to avoid spending any more on commissions. Here's how I have been holding up this pledge:

I have not been holding up this pledge.

I couldn't last more than a few weeks without buying one last commission, and eventually one commission turned into a few. Now my commission habits are essentially the same as they were last year. I'm doing my best to avoid spending more than I can afford, but I can't help but spend more than I should.

Does this mean I will be uploading more often? Probably not. I still have a few commissions I need to post, but I haven't felt the motivation to do so lately. I want other people to enjoy my commissions, but I think I've grown numb to the interaction notifications.

Sometimes I wonder if it's worth maintaining my FA at all. It certainly doesn't help that the admin allegedly defends certain zoophiles, transphobes and other unwelcome individuals. But then I remember that I have hundreds of followers who enjoy the art I fund, and are in all likelihood respectable and well-adjusted. I don't think it's fair for me to cut them off over the owner's sins.

Therefore, I will continue to update this account with my commissions when I'm able. However, I encourage my followers to follow me on other platforms if possible.

Thank you for reading this journal, and I hope you have a safe March.

Fantasise about whatever you want, but zoophilia is inherently immoral. Don't do it in real life, and don't try and defend anyone who does.

The past year has been a bad one for me, but not for all the same reasons as everyone else.

My level of self-care and productivity has been very low for the past few years, but 2020 represented the nadir of my pitiful decline. Already I was living off disability payments, leaving the house sporadically at best. The introduction of an apocalyptically contagious diseaae only encouraged me to behave lazier and more reclusive. It's not been good for me... But I can't lay all the blame at the circumstances surrounding me.

I'll be blunt with you: I think that this fandom is a bad influence on me. I don't think the fandom is inherently bad: it's progressive, imaginative and mostly harmless. It's clearly possible to be involved with the fandom while remaining a productive, satisfied, well-adjusted individual. But if you aren't already such an individual, it only brings out the worst in you.

I have spent so much money on commissions only to end up wasting hours upon hours of my life wanking to completely unrelated material. I am adamant that almost all the artists I've commissioned were decent people, who deserved the price I've paid. But I live off a disability pension. I can't keep buying commissions at the rate I've been going, especially if something really bad happens to me or the people I'm depending on.

With that in mind, I'm phasing out my commission spending over the year.

Unless I have already promised to invest in a commission with you or from you in 2020, I will no longer seek out new commissions.
I plan on commissioning more entries in Spaca's Rears of the Dragons series, visiting the Beast Makers and Dream Weavers. It is unlikely that the series will continue to the Gnorc Gnexus.
I'm currently a $100 patron of Rhynobullraq, and my monthly commissions are a series of pictures in which my original characters are drawn with huge butts. Once all my OCs have such a picture, I'll drop my pledge to $50 for a few months before retracting my pledge entirely.

On the bright side, I plan on remaining an active part of the furry community. While I will be spending a lot less on commissions, I will continue to enjoy everything this culture has to offer. Perhaps I might finally get a workstation set up so I can make some stuff for myself. 2D, 3D, design, music, maybe even writing. Don't expect much at this stage.

Finally, I want to thank you for supporting my commission with likes, shares, comments and other positive feedback. The investments I've made into my commissions does sting from time to time, but knowing how many people have enjoyed the results helps justify the expense.

I hope everyone reading has a good year.

Looks like my friend Alfa just dropped my big end-of-year commission way ahead of schedule! I can't blame him for being excited, though-- it's quite the sight to behold! Follow the link below to visit our museum.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39483121/

I accidentally gave my most recent upload incorrect information, and have since replaced the picture with the one that matches the info. You can blame the mobile upload page for not previewing the image in the info fill out section, combined with myself getting distracted shortly after uploading the image.
I would recommend hitting F5 on the submission.

Today I received a note from an artist I wanted to commission, who was declining my commission on the grounds of my galleries containing "high volumes of pedophiliac content." I wrote up a reply in response to this accusation- explaining myself for the presence of said content and how it was irrelevant to the commission I wanted- but I was already blocked.

That got me to thinking about how my galleries may look to an outside observer, who only sees the thumbnails and lacks the context behind them. I must not have made it obvious enough that some of the pictures in my scraps are there for a reason: because they are both too objectionable to stay on my main gallery and too benign to be worth deleting.

I have decided to change the titles of these pictures to simply read "[regret]." This way, users who like a picture I regret producing will still be able to enjoy it, while everyone else should be able to tell that I don't approve of such pictures anymore.

I hope this clears up any confusion next time someone thinks about making slanderous implications.

A couple of months back, I commissioned Spaca to draw the first batch of a picture series dedicated to showing off all the dragons Spyro rescued in his first game. More specifically, the series would show off their asses, and nothing else.

I've dug my heels for some time instead of immediately commissioning the next world, perhaps because I didn't really have a good grasp of the circumstances surrounding myself, the artist and my followers. Ultimately, I ran a twitter poll asking my followers if they would prefer to see the next world in that series or something Smash-related instead.

The latter won by a significant majority.

But Spaca wasn't able to take the commission straight away, and in the time since, I have reached a point where I could potentially commission the Smash-themed picture and the Peace Keepers collection at the same time. Before I do, I want to take the time to make sure that people actually want to see this series fulfilled.

So I've set up yet another Twitter poll:
https://twitter.com/stone_sinking/s.....729099266?s=19

I have two options regarding the Rears of the Dragons:

Option 1: Commission Spaca to draw the Peace Keepers in similar situations to the Artisans, and in doing so commit to purchasing similar commissions for every world in the first game
OR
Option 2: Cancel my plans to finish the series, renaming it to "Rears of the Artisans" and putting the money towards other projects.

If it were up to me, I would like to continue the series, but if my followers feel strongly enough, I will refrain from doing so. Follow the link and cast a vote if you want to let me know your opinion. Alternatively, leave a comment on this journal and I'll consider it an informal vote.

Thank you for your attention.

Due to the coronavirus pandemic, the Australian dollar has reached an eighteen-year low. For me, this means that I have to pay more than usual to artists who use the US dollar, especially when it comes to very expensive commissions.

So I've decided not to purchase any commissions from such artists until the pandemic dies down and the Aussie dollar stabilises.

However, if you are an artist who already takes payment in Australian dollars, I might be interested in commissioning something from you. Send me a note if you would be willing to work with me.

Due to various circumstances, I have decided to close Shinies and fund my Rears of the Dragons commissions out of pocket.

Thank you for showing your interest with faves and watches, and I hope you enjoy the rest of the journey.

I'm happy to see that so many of you enjoyed seeing the dragons of the Artisans world present themselves so candidly. I'd like to thank the artist, Spaca, for making our tour both successful and affordable. Very soon I'll be able to show you Nevin from Toasty's domain, and I plan on continuing this journey through the Peace Keepers world and beyond. In the meantime, I would like to ask for your financial assistance.

I'm committed to investing as much as I can spare into this expedition, but I alone can't afford to buy commissions from Spaca as quickly as he can produce them, even with their competitive rates. With your help, however, Spaca can create dragon butts at a much more enjoyable pace, and I may even be able to afford other commissions in the meantime.

FUND-RAISING STRUCTURE

We will be visiting each world of the Dragon Realms in the same order as the original game. Our first stop in each world will be the hub level, and our last stop will be the boss level. The three main levels in between can be visited in any order, depending on which ones get funded first.

Spaca and I will be accepting donations for one world at a time. Once we have fully funded the current world, and Spaca has completed 3 out of 5 pictures for that world, we'll unlock funding for the next world.

If you want to see how much has been raised so far, click here to see the progress tracker.

HOW TO CONTRIBUTE

You may have noticed that I recently enabled Shinies on my account. The proceeds I earn from Shinies will be put exclusively towards commissioned artwork, starting with this series. You may choose a level you want to put your pledges towards, otherwise it will be put towards the earliest level that still requires funding.

Alternatively, you can send your pledge directly to me or Spaca. Contact either of us on FurAffinity or Twitter for payment information.

My Twitter
Spaca's Twitter
Spaca's FurAffinity

MY CONTRIBUTIONS

Every two weeks, I will pledge a minimum of $10 towards every level that still requires funding. I'm kicking things off with a $100 pledge, or $20 per level, as I have been saving up during Spaca's work on the Artisans.

I'll be sending pledged funding to Spaca when they're ready to accept my commissions, but only if I have enough to pay for at least one level in full.

BENEFITS OF CONTRIBUTING

Once you have made your donation, I'll provide a link to my plans for the world you helped fund. You can take a look if you choose, or wait for the surprise.

Unless you choose to make an anonymous pledge, your username will also be featured in the description when I upload the picture you helped fund.

And, as I've already mentioned, with enough pledges, this series can be completed without having to go on a lengthy hiatus, and I will be more capable of buying other commissions while Spaca is working on this series.

WHAT IF I CHANGE MY MIND?

If, after you send me Shinies, you regret your decision and want your money back, let me know before I send your money to Spaca. I'll remove your pledge from the tracker as soon as I can, and I'll do my best to send you a refund.

Unfortunately, once money is sent to Spaca, he will be unable to provide any refunds whatsoever due to the nature of PayPal in his country. You may be able to reassign your pledge to your own commission from Spaca if you truly wish, but this won't be an option once they start work on the commission your pledge funded.

THE STRETCH GOAL

Our quest to see every elder dragon's butt will be complete once we finish exploring the Dream Weavers world, as Gnorc Gnexus features no new dragons to rescue.

However, we will still take a bonus trip to the levels of the Gnorc Gnexus. This world will be cheaper than the main worlds, and genitalia will be involved. Further information will be available some time in the future.

I believe that covers all the major details for this ongoing series. Leave a comment if you have any further questions. I hope you'll consider lending your assistance.

I've decided to delete the Folder of Regret. Part of my reasoning is from philosophical apathy, but the major reason is less dignified.
I was hoping to take a few submissions out of the Folder, most notably the Reignited Booty series, but the new update to FA seems to have lost the ability to do anything useful in the submission management screen. Rather than go through each picture's properties and take them out one by one, I have decided to axe the Folder and leave my regrets ambiguous from here on out.

Hope everyone is enjoying the new year so far.

I would like to explain my reasoning for moving a substantial amount of my past commissions to scraps.

A majority of them involve characters who could reasonably be perceived as underage, although I would have assumed otherwise at the time. I don't see the need to position myself so close to the boundary of what can be considered unethical, especially when I am attracted to multiple characters who are objectively mature.

I won't be taking these pictures down, partly because I don't want to lie about my past, but also because I recognise a need for these pictures to exist. Some people are only attracted to underage characters. I don't want to be one of those people or openly associate with them, but they still have a right to exist in peace so long as they don't interfere with the peaceful existence of others.

And just so I'm not accused of dodging the issue here is my stance on pedophilia:

Sex without consent is rape, and rape is unethical.
Children are too young to properly consent.
Therefore, sex with children is always unethical.

But pedophilia is, by the literal definition, sexual attraction to children, and not just the physical act itself.

If you're a pedophile who hunts, grooms and/or molests actual children, yeah, you totally deserve to get stabbed.

But if you're a pedophile who keeps to yourself, satisfying your urges with pornography produced without the involvement of actual children or other non-consenting individuals, then that's pretty much harmless. It's basically just indulging in a fantasy. It's a weird fantasy that I don't want any part of, but it's just a fantasy nonetheless.

Unless you're showing it to kids as evidence that sex with minors is in any way acceptable, which it's not, and fuck you for even implying it.

A lot of my watchers responded to my journal hoping to join Stone in a dip in the mud. If I could have my way, I'd have invited every single one of them, but alas, the mud bath I booked had a maximum occupancy limit, so I could only pick eight guests this time around. I'll have to make room for more guests next time I do something like this.

But anyway, here are the lucky eight users whose characters will join Stone in some overly deep mud.

 black-vulpine
 demonancer, owner of Rei In'huati
 dravix
 psychicone2, owner of Phaaze Elwolf
 r-a-s-p, owner of Razuul
 unfluffable, owner of Visk
 xanthus
 xylenqs

Congratulations to the above users. Mudwuff and I really liked your characters, and we hope they'll enjoy a near full body immersion in mud.

MudWuff and I will look over the entries we received. We will announce who we chose to invite very soon.

On behalf of Mason Stone, I have a special announcement.

 MudWuff has agreed to work on a special commission featuring Stone and eight guests unwinding in a deep mud bath in celebration of Stone's birthday. If you would like your character to be one of those guests, I'm offering up free invitations to my followers on FurAffinity and/or Twitter.

If your character receives an invitation, they will join Stone in wallowing within a forehead-deep spa bath of pure, smooth, rich mud, blowing as many bubbles as they please.

RULES AND ETIQUETTE

Being that this mud bath is a carefully maintained spa fixture, your character must agree to a few stipulations in order to join in.

- Only one character per watcher will be admitted. If you own multiple characters, you will have to choose between them.
- Your character's forehead, as well as any facial features located above the eyes, will be visible above the mud, but the rest of their body must remain submerged beneath the surface.
- Clothing and accessories are not allowed within the mud bath. A row of clothes hooks in the background will be provided to display such items if need be.
- Your character can blow as many or as few bubbles as they like. However, aside from sweat, the air exhaled from their lungs is the only thing that can leave their bodies.
- The mud is fully opaque, and a view of the characters' bodies below the surface will not be provided. What is happening within the mud, therefore, can be left to the imagination.
- No drowning.

HOW TO SUBMIT YOUR CHARACTER

If you would like to submit a character for a spot in the mud with Stone, make sure that you are watching my FurAffinity account or following my Twitter. If you are, your character will be eligible for an invite.

To claim a spot in the mud with Stone, simply post a comment or send a note with the following information:

- The name of your character (required)
- A link to a picture or ref sheet of the character OR a description of the character's head between 20 and 50 words (required)

- The items your character will leave on or below their clothes hook (optional)
- The intensity of your character's bubble blowing (optional)
- A compliment directed towards a character of mine other than Stone (optional, but strongly recommended)

I'll be leaving submissions open for a minimum of 24 hours. If I get more than eight valid submissions within that time, I will choose the eight submissions with the best compliments for my characters. Otherwise, the invitations will be available to claim up until the 7th of November, 168 hours after this journal is posted.

By the way, I would like to remind you again that the invitations are 100% free. I will handle all of the costs in setting up the gathering. All you need to provide is permission.

Submissions recorded: 15
No longer accepting submissions.