Alruic and I got sick somehow.... WHICH SUCKS CAUSE WE NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT MASKS. Or rather leave the house at all LOL

His cold was way worse then mine and mine just seems to be a chest cold while his was congestion and a cough.
We've pretty much been doing nothing but sleeping which is why I'm doing so many adopts cause it's all I can force myself to do.

I have a page of sergals coming because we need groceries as we're down to our last roll of toilet paper LOL

I think what didn't help us was we're still mourning and the stress is too much right now. I keep expecting to hear our old man kitty's warbles as he got the post poop zoomies, but it's just been...so quiet.

My husband's birthday is also on the 26th so I'm tryna raise funds so I can get him a cake and maybe take him to dinner ;3;

Ima leave my goblin funds link below if anyone would be up for helping two lads get ass wipe LOL

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Goblin funds:

I'm sick of the universe hating on us...

We pick up our kitty's ashes tomorrow, and we found out yesterday that someone took 600 bucks from our bank account which means we don't have rent anymore.

We had everything we needed for rent and even paid our bills and now we have to panic make the rest back.

We are both still mourning deeply and I'm grateful Jackie didn't suffer but his sudden loss has hit us so hard, we keep expecting him to greet us and give cuddles, I miss his little face and we feel like failures because we trying to get art done.

Alruic has some YCHS and adopts up for sale if you'd like to give them a look see!

We also have a kofi on his and my front page if you'd like to help!

I'm going to take a small nap. My head hurts from crying.

Please... we're going to need some time to mourn... Jackie was our baby.
He was 13 years old and tonight we had to have him put down.

We were just relaxing and I was cuddling with him then he jumped down to go do his own thing only to hear him start throwing up. There was blood in one of them and then all of a sudden he couldn't use his back legs.

We rushed him to a 24 hour vet a half an hour away and got the devastating news that he had advanced heart disease and the clot moved to his legs.

The only thing was euthanasia, if they tried to do surgery chances were the clot would come back and he would be in constant pain and also given his age...it was just the right decision.

Alruic and I are beyond heartbroken he was our baby boy I miss him so much.
We can't stop crying.

He will be cremated and we will have him back home in a week or so...

Thank you all for your patience, we really appreciate it ♡♡♡

First off! Check out my profile, journal and header.
I made it nice and sparkly LOL

Second, things are going smoothly! I haven't worked this hard on artwork in awhile cause my laptop doesn't shut down on me all the time LOL

Things are comin! I'm excite! :D

Third, Turkey day is this weekend (Canadian) so we will be at mums ranch doing all the fun things!

Art to resume on Monday! <3

Today was a busy as fuck day!!
Tomorrow I will hopefully be picking up my new laptop.

What does that mean???
I can finally get shit done and send out adopt files!

I can barely open this one without it overheating and shutting down.
I've had it for some years and it was my husbands before I got it.

Things are looking up.
Thank you to our guardian angel bestie, without you, this wouldnt be possible. We would be struggling even more then we are. We lub ya♡♡♡

Thank you everyone for your patience, now I will get to draw without lag and losing progress....

I havent had a new computer in years.... I dont buy new things for myself...i always feel guilty but that's PTSD from family trauma haha. ;;;;

Anyway!!! I'm not ignoring anyone I absolutely promise!!! ♡♡♡ Shits just been awful.

Well! It would seem that my worst medication side effects have tapered off minus the sleeping.
I had the worst hand trembles ever which affected my inking and such so I had to work at a slow pace. So far they only get bad if I haven't eaten in a few hours so I've been drawing as much as I can in between noms haha.

My birthday was on the 11th, it was nice, had an amazing surprise which I was going to put towards a laptop but our AC had just kicked the bucket right before a huge heatwave so it helped a lot!

I've been taking it slow and just trying not to burn myself out, but things are comin!

So I've been on my meds about to be 3 weeks now.... I think. And besides the insomnia, It's been pretty good. I do sleep eventually but not when I want XD So I'm on and off almost all night cause I can't hit REM. Melatonin is only helping so much too.

BUT I've had so much energy lately, my anxiety is almost all gone, I get little pangs here and there, but it's never as bad as it used to be.

I've had more motivation to work too and I'm powering through my queue!

Right now though I really need to sell a few things so that we will have enough money to put towards rent, We have a bunch of collab YCH's open and even an art slave collab. (If it's bought it'll be done next month).

If anyone is interested please let me know, I'd be very grateful <3333

Anyway, figured I'd post a small update, things are being worked on!!! :D

ILYSM!

So, after almost a month of constant anxiety and panic attacks, my husband got me in to see his doctor a few days ago and after some testing I've been diagnosed with both severe depression and severe anxiety, so I am on a trial run for medication and I have to see the doc again in two weeks.

Just the few days I've been on these meds have made me so tired, but I'm trying to work through it to get some stuff done. I also have to see a counselor.

Please have a bit of patience, I'm really trying and I'm hoping this stuff works and I get my motivation back.

For the past year I've been so depressed, having suicidal thoughts ontop of ptsd. Usually I was able to deal with it but after an ex narcissistic stalker friend mentally abused me and continues to to this day, I've been trying to cope. And now I have the help I need as well as a few loving friends who have been nothing but amazing and supportive.

I could go on and on, you'll find the full incident on my twitter but right now, I'm happy and healing.

Commissions are still being worked on! Don't worry! I didnt forget about anyone!

Well, it's been 10 days since my last post and idk what's going on, I wake up with this uncontrollable anxiety, and I'm always hungry with no appetite.


My husband is trying to get me into the doctor to see what's going on, I think my body may be burnt out from fighting a cold then food poisoning so now I'm paranoid about everything.

But every day is getting better, I'm trying to work when I can but right now the doc isnt accepting new patients and we live in a small town.

I'm just tired of feeling like this, the random panic attacks that leave me a sobbing mess, and IDK what's wrong.

But I'm trying to force myself to eat, I stocked up on soups and I just pray that I can get on some anti anxiety meds.

I think someone put a curse on me or something and whoever that person is is an evil cunt. I have never been this sick before...

Just wanted to give yall a heads up;; I'm really trying....

For the past two weeks I've been sick. It fuckin sucks.

I got a cold from my SIL's kids, then as I was getting better, I got food poisoning from Tim Hortons.

ONTOP OF THAT SATANS WATERFALL HAS BLESSED ME.

Like Christ. Can't a guy get a break???

So between chills, fever, nausea, cramps, and stomach issues, I've been a blob in bed.

My poor husband Alruic was also blessed with getting a cold then an ear awful infection.

So we're a lively house right now.

Until we can manage to sit for long periods, work will be delayed a little bit, so I'm super sorry ;;;;

We have our Kofi (on my main page) for donations to help two sick artists get soup, gatorade and bananas to help us get better so we can draw more content uwu.

Thank you all for your understanding!
I've never been this sick before and to be blasted with all of this one after the other sucks.

I cant wait till I stop sweating and shaking.... oof.

A Baphomet is a demonic entity that regularly has goat like features, mine are based off Helluva Boss ;3

Examples:
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Price: $80+
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You're welcome to change the design to suit you but you may not alter the artwork in any way.

Auction rules:
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- If I catch you claiming/bidding and then backing out/hiding bids, you will be blacklisted and blocked from bidding on any further auctions held by me.
-I accept paypal only (NO ECHECKS)
-Payment must be made 3 hours after claim or I will repost.
-The winner can repost the finished piece
-You have full rights to the character which includes reselling. But you can only resell for the amount you paid for, unless it has extra art.

I really REALLY need to raise some rent!
I'm looking to draw some strange kinks!

Not quite strange but not really drawn often.

Price:
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Extra char is $100.
Complicated designs (Wings etc) are an extra $30

Any rating etc.
My only no no's are
(NO POO, VOMIT, or cub porn/underage)
A rush fee can be added for $30 if you want it done soon since I know some of ya'll are impatient ;3

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Price may go up for wings, character complexity etc.

Examples:
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Any rating etc.
My only no no's are
(NO POO, VOMIT, or cub porn/underage)
A rush fee can be added for $10 if you want it done soon since I know some of ya'll are impatient ;3

After you read my TOS:
(On my profile page)

Once everything above is read
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For a commission HAH

I keep seeing these super detailed pussy shots of OC's and I kinda want to do one myself, but I've sold off like a majority of my female OC's.

Does anyone want an experimental full color probably lineless if I can make it work full view cooter shot?
But yanno, not looking RIGHT down mainstreet?

I dunno let's do this at maybe like... $150? Since I'm going to be putting a lot of detail on it or at least trying to?

HMU!

Today I married the love of my life Alruic !!!!

I can't wait for forever!! I'm so in love and such a simp for this man aaaaaaaaa

LOVE YOU BABEY!!!

Yes our wedding is 2/22/22 on a tuesday hehhe

So given how shitty things have been the past few years, it's just crazy to think about how far I've come.
Like, I'm marrying the love of my life, I'm going to have my dream home with chickens, I have an amazing group of friends who I didn't think was possible given the toxic narcissistic abusive cunts I've dealt with the past 3 years. (Cunt is a word I barely use to describe ppl but this is the only word that works).

I am living right now, and I'm getting my queue done and actually have an interest in drawing again.
And I have to say, CBD and THC has been my savior in the form of gummies and chocolate. I have started to get a whole positive look on life again, sure things are rocky but with how deep this pit was, it'll take a bit to climb out of it, but I'm fuckin doin it!

My husband has been helping me sketch all my commissions out as my autism has gotten a little...... out of control lately, to the point where I cannot follow simple instructions without it being a jumbled mess, so he helps me since I'm more of a visual learner. '3'

And I think once these big projects are done, I'm only going to offer one at a time, and instead of full color commissions, I'm only going to offer shaded colored sketches.
AND SPEAKING OF COLORED SKETCHES, I'm going to work on making them a "little" more messier. So they're actual sketches, and not inked with a sketch brush LOL

ANYWAY, I'm in a very good mood, tomorrow we're going to moms if I can raise $150 for gas (Since it's an hour there and back and we need gas and road snacks) AND we might get to see our house!
SO YEAH!

Fuckin eh bros! I love you all! Thank you for supporting me and being so patient. Once my queue is finished I'm going to hold a big giveaway or something! Give back to y'all <33333333

I'm going to be working on a few set things.

Any drama will be ignored and you will be banned. <3

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Stream may have 18+ content!

RULES:
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-Don't be a dick. Simple as that.
-Whatever our mods say goes. OBEY THE MODSSSSS :D
-Don't be creepy.....For the love of all that is holy....
-No bitchin, whinin, blahing.
-DON'T BE A NEGATIVE NANCY. Don't come in and ask for sympathy, seriously.
-No furry murry purry talk, keep that shit on FA.
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Happy birthday to my loving husband alruic !!!!!! He is so fucking amazing and I love him so much!!!! Aaaaaa!!!!

Please go wish him a happy birthday!! Hehehe ♡♡♡

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If anyone is interested I have a full color commission open so I can get us something good for dinner to celebrate ;^;

Pls check my commissions tab and toss me a note hehe ♡♡♡♡♡