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October 25, 2007 / Thursday
Posted 18 years agoOh god its getting so close...my big test, the Black Box.
And no not the black woman's vagina if you watch Drawn Together! XD
But yeah...Im getting really nervous about the BB. I have to take it this next Monday and Im like...I just have to stay positive. I can do this. Im excited about going to Cali though...and Im pretty much going to be leaving in 2 and a half weeks. So yeah. :]
Things are going fine...I just wish I had somebody to spend some time with but eh, I woke up tired as hell this morning...woke up at 4 am thinkin...omg...its already like, 30 minutes until I usually wake up...god no! XP
I enjoy my sleep...if I dont get enough of it...then I feel like I dont wanna do things...but Im going to.
Gosh...I wanna hang with my friends before I leave...but school...and all this other stuff...I want to do it so bad. lol. But yeah...my mind has ran blank...
And no not the black woman's vagina if you watch Drawn Together! XD
But yeah...Im getting really nervous about the BB. I have to take it this next Monday and Im like...I just have to stay positive. I can do this. Im excited about going to Cali though...and Im pretty much going to be leaving in 2 and a half weeks. So yeah. :]
Things are going fine...I just wish I had somebody to spend some time with but eh, I woke up tired as hell this morning...woke up at 4 am thinkin...omg...its already like, 30 minutes until I usually wake up...god no! XP
I enjoy my sleep...if I dont get enough of it...then I feel like I dont wanna do things...but Im going to.
Gosh...I wanna hang with my friends before I leave...but school...and all this other stuff...I want to do it so bad. lol. But yeah...my mind has ran blank...
October 24, 2007 / Wednesday
Posted 18 years agoI had a wonderful dream...or at least I thought it was...
I might have had a vision I guess...I was with a guy and it was like so wonderful...it was like my dream guy...he was really well toned...had big biceps...and god...he was so sweet...he was very handsome and he got my attention by calling me baby...lol. I was walking on the sidewalk in the dark by a swimming pool and I hear, 'hey baby, come join me'. He was with his friends'. I asked, are you sure? He said, yes, come on in. It was really sweet...he hugged me and I hugged him back...he liked me holding onto him while he was talking to his friends...he would occassionally look at me and smile...making me feel warm all over...I smile back and just relax by his side...holding his hand. Gosh...it was like...a dream come true...Im thinking...will I ever meet a guy like this? I hope so. He treated me with so much respect...it was really nice. I would love to be in a relationship like that...100%.
Dad wasnt home yesterday...I met my mom at the Fred Meyers store near my house...she called me to meet her there...so I went there and my mom was shopping. :P I like shopping...we had burritos for dinner...my mom gave Trip a bath...lol...for some weird reason...I accidently call Trip...Toot...from Drawn Together...lol...its so funny.
Im like basically day dreaming about meeting that man in my dream...he was right around my age...maybe a tiny bit older...and I cant stop thinking about getting my ear peirced. So Im really happy! :D I cant wait!
Been playing Breath of Fire III more often...my main character Ryu is like...lvl 34 now! :D
I might have had a vision I guess...I was with a guy and it was like so wonderful...it was like my dream guy...he was really well toned...had big biceps...and god...he was so sweet...he was very handsome and he got my attention by calling me baby...lol. I was walking on the sidewalk in the dark by a swimming pool and I hear, 'hey baby, come join me'. He was with his friends'. I asked, are you sure? He said, yes, come on in. It was really sweet...he hugged me and I hugged him back...he liked me holding onto him while he was talking to his friends...he would occassionally look at me and smile...making me feel warm all over...I smile back and just relax by his side...holding his hand. Gosh...it was like...a dream come true...Im thinking...will I ever meet a guy like this? I hope so. He treated me with so much respect...it was really nice. I would love to be in a relationship like that...100%.
Dad wasnt home yesterday...I met my mom at the Fred Meyers store near my house...she called me to meet her there...so I went there and my mom was shopping. :P I like shopping...we had burritos for dinner...my mom gave Trip a bath...lol...for some weird reason...I accidently call Trip...Toot...from Drawn Together...lol...its so funny.
Im like basically day dreaming about meeting that man in my dream...he was right around my age...maybe a tiny bit older...and I cant stop thinking about getting my ear peirced. So Im really happy! :D I cant wait!
Been playing Breath of Fire III more often...my main character Ryu is like...lvl 34 now! :D
October 23, 2007 / Tuesday
Posted 18 years agoGosh, my dad was still arguing today about when he found out that I was going to get my ear peirced. He's like...no son of mine is going to wear earrings...basically disrespecting me and saying that me being gay is like a disease or something...and that my mom is only provoking me to do it. God.
But anyway...Im excited...and nervous...only 3 weeks left until I leave for California...hopefully we get the carpet this week or something so that I can scan in some of my pictures. Yep yep. I've been totally bored...my computer is like broken cause of no sound and the mouse sucks and yeah...lol...I need to up grade it...bad.
I love my earrings...I wont get my ear peirced until the 3rd Friday of the last day of my schooling at the WCI. YAY! :D
Almost done. I've also been getting alot of guys chasing me down. I dont know what to do...now that Im available...they are going crazy for me and I dont know how to handle things. Sheesh.
But anyway...Im excited...and nervous...only 3 weeks left until I leave for California...hopefully we get the carpet this week or something so that I can scan in some of my pictures. Yep yep. I've been totally bored...my computer is like broken cause of no sound and the mouse sucks and yeah...lol...I need to up grade it...bad.
I love my earrings...I wont get my ear peirced until the 3rd Friday of the last day of my schooling at the WCI. YAY! :D
Almost done. I've also been getting alot of guys chasing me down. I dont know what to do...now that Im available...they are going crazy for me and I dont know how to handle things. Sheesh.
October 19, 2007 / Friday
Posted 18 years ago"Come to me, my einherjar, battle awaits us."
The weekend...at least I got some free time...I can clean my room again! :D
I found something out about myself yesterday, Im hypoglicemic...which means my blood is very thin, meaning that it takes longer for my blood to clot. Thats the reason why I bleed so much when I do. My wound has sort of healed...it might open again today in class! :3
Gosh...now I only have 3 weeks left...really nerve wrecking...its scary to even think about it ya know? But I'll survive...it'll be cool to do this...I might even meet somebody there...maybe...lol. But Im just going to have some fun with it and see how this goes.
I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend! :D
The weekend...at least I got some free time...I can clean my room again! :D
I found something out about myself yesterday, Im hypoglicemic...which means my blood is very thin, meaning that it takes longer for my blood to clot. Thats the reason why I bleed so much when I do. My wound has sort of healed...it might open again today in class! :3
Gosh...now I only have 3 weeks left...really nerve wrecking...its scary to even think about it ya know? But I'll survive...it'll be cool to do this...I might even meet somebody there...maybe...lol. But Im just going to have some fun with it and see how this goes.
I hope you guys have a wonderful weekend! :D
October 18, 2007 / Thursday
Posted 18 years agoI still havent gotten a reply from Chris.
Its okay. I feel much better...I havent cried yet. I dont know if I will but yeah. I mean...he didnt give me that much attention...and he didnt give me a chance to reveal myself to him...lol...not that way...I mean how I really am...my true self. He's only seen a glimpse of what I do. Its just that we were always around people...never got time to do anything alone like speaking more about each other or you know just personal together time...thats important in relationships you know.
Tomorrow is going to be tough.
New menu for the restaurant...gosh...a lot of work. Im getting pretty far on that Valkyrie Profile Lenneth game since I understand what to do now! :D
But aside from that...I am lonely...I mean...when I had a boyfriend...I didnt feel alone...even if I was away from him. Im okay...heh...I just have to wait until the perfect guy asks me to be his. :3 Yeah...hehe. I just hope Chris finds somebody that makes him happy...even if he doesnt want me around anymore.
I was planning to bring flowers to him this weekend before he broke up with me...but...that plan just blew up in my face! :D Heh. Love does hurt but I need to move on. There is a guy out there waiting to find somebody that is exactly like me...that would take care of me and protect me and actually want to spend time with me and do stuff with me like going out to eat, go to parks or really nice beautiful places...or the movies...things like that.
You cannot truly know somebody after a couple of months...it takes years...sometimes you just have to stay with the person and see what happens...sometimes people get scared and dont want the responsiblity so soon. Im ready...Im mature...not completely, people have different levels of immaturity...but when it comes to certain things...I know what Im doing. Im just looking for that strong butch man. :D
Looking is the fun part I guess...but I want restrictions in my relationship...I like it closed...so we can just focus on each other.
Its okay. I feel much better...I havent cried yet. I dont know if I will but yeah. I mean...he didnt give me that much attention...and he didnt give me a chance to reveal myself to him...lol...not that way...I mean how I really am...my true self. He's only seen a glimpse of what I do. Its just that we were always around people...never got time to do anything alone like speaking more about each other or you know just personal together time...thats important in relationships you know.
Tomorrow is going to be tough.
New menu for the restaurant...gosh...a lot of work. Im getting pretty far on that Valkyrie Profile Lenneth game since I understand what to do now! :D
But aside from that...I am lonely...I mean...when I had a boyfriend...I didnt feel alone...even if I was away from him. Im okay...heh...I just have to wait until the perfect guy asks me to be his. :3 Yeah...hehe. I just hope Chris finds somebody that makes him happy...even if he doesnt want me around anymore.
I was planning to bring flowers to him this weekend before he broke up with me...but...that plan just blew up in my face! :D Heh. Love does hurt but I need to move on. There is a guy out there waiting to find somebody that is exactly like me...that would take care of me and protect me and actually want to spend time with me and do stuff with me like going out to eat, go to parks or really nice beautiful places...or the movies...things like that.
You cannot truly know somebody after a couple of months...it takes years...sometimes you just have to stay with the person and see what happens...sometimes people get scared and dont want the responsiblity so soon. Im ready...Im mature...not completely, people have different levels of immaturity...but when it comes to certain things...I know what Im doing. Im just looking for that strong butch man. :D
Looking is the fun part I guess...but I want restrictions in my relationship...I like it closed...so we can just focus on each other.
October 17, 2007 / Wednesday
Posted 18 years agoIm very sad, I got an e-mail from Chris, my boyfriend this morning. As I read the contents I grew from happy...to sad. I have been dumped.
I dont know what to think...Im shocked. I mean...I love Chris so much, he just said we didnt have that many things in common. I grew ill as I heard this...Im very sorrowful right now for myself. Im sick and Im alone again. I love Chris, I dont know what to do. I really dont feel like going to class now...Chris was my first boyfriend...I didnt want anybody else.
*sighs* He asked me to be his...and my heart set out for him...I went over every weekend I could to see him and spend time with him. But my life, its empty now. I have a souless void inside me now and Im so...dead.
I've lost everything in my heart. I want to make things better with him and me. I seriously do. I dont know if I did anything wrong...me and him...he was just so busy all of the time. I didn think that I wouldnt make him happy...Im all about making people happy...seriously.
Im trying to hold back the tears...the impure thoughts inside me. But with such beautiful blossoming love...it devoured the soul within me making me so...shrouded in darkness.
I dont blame Chris. No...its so hard to find gay love. And Im just wanting to make somebody happy that I love and that can love me in return.
I want to make things work out...but I dont know what he thinks...
I dont know what to think...Im shocked. I mean...I love Chris so much, he just said we didnt have that many things in common. I grew ill as I heard this...Im very sorrowful right now for myself. Im sick and Im alone again. I love Chris, I dont know what to do. I really dont feel like going to class now...Chris was my first boyfriend...I didnt want anybody else.
*sighs* He asked me to be his...and my heart set out for him...I went over every weekend I could to see him and spend time with him. But my life, its empty now. I have a souless void inside me now and Im so...dead.
I've lost everything in my heart. I want to make things better with him and me. I seriously do. I dont know if I did anything wrong...me and him...he was just so busy all of the time. I didn think that I wouldnt make him happy...Im all about making people happy...seriously.
Im trying to hold back the tears...the impure thoughts inside me. But with such beautiful blossoming love...it devoured the soul within me making me so...shrouded in darkness.
I dont blame Chris. No...its so hard to find gay love. And Im just wanting to make somebody happy that I love and that can love me in return.
I want to make things work out...but I dont know what he thinks...
October 16, 2007 / Tuesday
Posted 18 years agoI got to see my boyfriend this weekend! :D YAY! :3 Im happy, I only got to spend a little time with him but he was still busy...Im going to have to set up another date and see if that works...I wanna try to come over to his place this next weekend as well. I heard that the Nightmare Before Christmas is going into the theaters too so Im probably going to see that with him...my boyfriend loves that movie I heard so yeah! :3
Last night my dad was talking to me about the externship and I was like getting all weird, I mean. Lesse, I felt weird about all the things he was saying. I just wanted my externship to go well, only 4 weeks left for me. He's worried that it might go to waste and that I wont be able to pay it off and earn minimum wage. He's angry at the school cause they wont help me travel to California to my extern. I mean...I pay so much money to go to the school but they wont help me with my extern is what he's saying. I dont know why they do that...they just do.
I drew an awesome love picture last night. Im afraid that I wont be able to put it up though cause the scanner is unhooked...we are getting new carpet in the house so the house is all messed up...except for the kitchen and my living room and bedroom...though its alot more crowded.
Im thankful for my boyfriend...Im very happy that he's mine, Im subservaint and submissive...a good combination! :D
Oh and I only got like...4 hours and 30 minutes sleep.
Last night my dad was talking to me about the externship and I was like getting all weird, I mean. Lesse, I felt weird about all the things he was saying. I just wanted my externship to go well, only 4 weeks left for me. He's worried that it might go to waste and that I wont be able to pay it off and earn minimum wage. He's angry at the school cause they wont help me travel to California to my extern. I mean...I pay so much money to go to the school but they wont help me with my extern is what he's saying. I dont know why they do that...they just do.
I drew an awesome love picture last night. Im afraid that I wont be able to put it up though cause the scanner is unhooked...we are getting new carpet in the house so the house is all messed up...except for the kitchen and my living room and bedroom...though its alot more crowded.
Im thankful for my boyfriend...Im very happy that he's mine, Im subservaint and submissive...a good combination! :D
Oh and I only got like...4 hours and 30 minutes sleep.
October 12, 2006 / Friday
Posted 18 years agoWOO! My day has come! Im happy that its Friday...Im going to head over to my boyfriend's right away...I want to embrace my boyfriend forever when I get there...its been SO long.
My dad is sick...and I've been coughing a little...but I just need to make sure I stay healthy and stuff...lol...yep yep. Oh and I weigh 200 lbs...yay...but I still want to be light enough so that my boyfriend can carry me. Chris isnt into girly guys...and I think my figure isnt girly...I mean...I've seen alot of gay guys that are SUPER skinny and its SO gross...and plus I dont like girly guys for some reason...they scare me. Im only into butch guys.
A while ago...probably around my Junior year in High School there was this black girly gay guy and I knew he was interested in me...but I wasnt interested in him cause he was African American and girly. I dont do anything with other races...I only go for white guys...butch too. *nods*
EEEE! Im so excited about seeing Chris that Im sick! :D I hope I dont throw up. *nod nod* Im sweating already too. Heh. Im pretty scared though....I mean...I havent seen him in a long while...I just dont want to go there and him not show up...but thats just a worry of not seeing him for so long...Im positive that he'll show up...I mean...hey...he's my boyfriend and he cares about me.
*yawn* But yeah...I woke up this morning and got completely ready for school and I got clothes packed for until Monday. Yeah. Heh. I sure do miss my hunny. Im sure he misses me too...we havent seen each other for 21 days or so...THATS A LONG TIME! :3
I can be away from Chris for 3 months...I can...but I dont want to be. I want to be there for him. Not away...but once Im done I can be with my handsome man as long I want! :D
I hope you all have a good one! :D
My dad is sick...and I've been coughing a little...but I just need to make sure I stay healthy and stuff...lol...yep yep. Oh and I weigh 200 lbs...yay...but I still want to be light enough so that my boyfriend can carry me. Chris isnt into girly guys...and I think my figure isnt girly...I mean...I've seen alot of gay guys that are SUPER skinny and its SO gross...and plus I dont like girly guys for some reason...they scare me. Im only into butch guys.
A while ago...probably around my Junior year in High School there was this black girly gay guy and I knew he was interested in me...but I wasnt interested in him cause he was African American and girly. I dont do anything with other races...I only go for white guys...butch too. *nods*
EEEE! Im so excited about seeing Chris that Im sick! :D I hope I dont throw up. *nod nod* Im sweating already too. Heh. Im pretty scared though....I mean...I havent seen him in a long while...I just dont want to go there and him not show up...but thats just a worry of not seeing him for so long...Im positive that he'll show up...I mean...hey...he's my boyfriend and he cares about me.
*yawn* But yeah...I woke up this morning and got completely ready for school and I got clothes packed for until Monday. Yeah. Heh. I sure do miss my hunny. Im sure he misses me too...we havent seen each other for 21 days or so...THATS A LONG TIME! :3
I can be away from Chris for 3 months...I can...but I dont want to be. I want to be there for him. Not away...but once Im done I can be with my handsome man as long I want! :D
I hope you all have a good one! :D
October 11, 2007 / Thursday
Posted 18 years agoOkay, now Im like...super stoked! :D Tomorrow is Friday. And Im going to try to see my boyfriend...I got like...Friday through Monday to spend with him cause I have no school on Mondays now.
I really want to see him again...today after school when I get home Im going to have to do a stupid project...god I hate homework...and math...lol.
But yeah...lesse...Im really excited and pumped up to see my handsome hunny again real soon. I love the sound of his masculine voice and I think he's the hottest guy ever! : D
My mom was being mean yesterday...making fun of me like Im some kind of whiny bitch...I mean...she was being too overly dramatic with what I tell her...like...I said I cut myself a few times by accident this week...she would go...OMG I cut my finger...it hurts it hurts...god...just thinking about the way she was making fun of me makes me PISSED...I mean...I dont care if I get picked on but this was WAY over the line...I felt so uncomfortable with how she did it...but god...*deep sigh*
Im bored...I really do want to see my boyfriend right now...3 weeks...3 weeks...I want to see him so badly...argh. I dont want to wait anymore...I mean...I can...its just that me myself...I want to see him. Thats all I think about...I would rather spend time by his side than anything else. So tired...*bleh*
I sprained my right leg yesterday, I was waiting 12 people at 1 table...that was hard work but it was SO fun! :D I was in alot of pain for the crap my leg drug me through. But 12 old ladies...lol...so fun! They loved how I attended their needs...they said that I would make the girl Im with very happy...lol...well...sorry...lol...Im like...gay and Im with a man that I would do ANYTHING for...lol...I didnt say that I was gay or anything but still...I wasnt insulted...I just rather spend my life with my hunny. *nods* Well Im heading downstairs to the restaurant.
I really want to see him again...today after school when I get home Im going to have to do a stupid project...god I hate homework...and math...lol.
But yeah...lesse...Im really excited and pumped up to see my handsome hunny again real soon. I love the sound of his masculine voice and I think he's the hottest guy ever! : D
My mom was being mean yesterday...making fun of me like Im some kind of whiny bitch...I mean...she was being too overly dramatic with what I tell her...like...I said I cut myself a few times by accident this week...she would go...OMG I cut my finger...it hurts it hurts...god...just thinking about the way she was making fun of me makes me PISSED...I mean...I dont care if I get picked on but this was WAY over the line...I felt so uncomfortable with how she did it...but god...*deep sigh*
Im bored...I really do want to see my boyfriend right now...3 weeks...3 weeks...I want to see him so badly...argh. I dont want to wait anymore...I mean...I can...its just that me myself...I want to see him. Thats all I think about...I would rather spend time by his side than anything else. So tired...*bleh*
I sprained my right leg yesterday, I was waiting 12 people at 1 table...that was hard work but it was SO fun! :D I was in alot of pain for the crap my leg drug me through. But 12 old ladies...lol...so fun! They loved how I attended their needs...they said that I would make the girl Im with very happy...lol...well...sorry...lol...Im like...gay and Im with a man that I would do ANYTHING for...lol...I didnt say that I was gay or anything but still...I wasnt insulted...I just rather spend my life with my hunny. *nods* Well Im heading downstairs to the restaurant.
October 10, 2007 / Wednesday
Posted 18 years agoThank god its Wednesday. lol. So yeah its really odd cause yesterday was my first day in waitering...I was nervous but yeah...I think I did good....lol...the people at my table were very nice...but they broke a glass so I had them move cause water and all that was all over the place. *meep* And so it took a while for their orders cause other people were taking them...gosh darn it...wait yer turn! :D
:3
I got home yesterday and I was SO worn out...I mean...I couldnt walk without feeling pain in my legs...I mean...I love the pain you know...but not that way...the other sexual fantasy way...lol. :D So yeah...now I feel a little better but yeah...I'd perfer to serve only my boyfriend and I really miss him. I got a project to do but Im not really looking forward to doing it and its due next week. As for my Black Box...I have NO clue on when I have to do that.
But really...Im just looking forward to seeing my darling boyfriend! :D To hear his sexy manly voice and being held in his masculine big arms! *faints* lol. I love butch men! :D But I just love my boyfriend...he's the only treasure in the world that I want...and he's all MINE! :3
But I cannot get this one thing that keeps on bugging me in my head. Jacob Vanbeek thinks that Im spoiled and the other day I asked my mom if I was spoiled and she said no cause I mean...she said that she tries to get me stuff whenever she can but most of the stuff is from my money and from gifts from the holidays...and Im not the type of person to annoy somebody until they get it for me...I dont know what Jacob is thinking...
But yeah...oh well...I just want to know his answer. But yeah...I just go through the day knowing that each day is another day closer to being with my boyfriend! :D
Plus this morning I woke up and I was so tired...god...I didnt want to get up and I went to bed earlier yesterday...or I think I did...I lost track when my mom made me do the dishes with her...lol...silly mom.
:3
I got home yesterday and I was SO worn out...I mean...I couldnt walk without feeling pain in my legs...I mean...I love the pain you know...but not that way...the other sexual fantasy way...lol. :D So yeah...now I feel a little better but yeah...I'd perfer to serve only my boyfriend and I really miss him. I got a project to do but Im not really looking forward to doing it and its due next week. As for my Black Box...I have NO clue on when I have to do that.
But really...Im just looking forward to seeing my darling boyfriend! :D To hear his sexy manly voice and being held in his masculine big arms! *faints* lol. I love butch men! :D But I just love my boyfriend...he's the only treasure in the world that I want...and he's all MINE! :3
But I cannot get this one thing that keeps on bugging me in my head. Jacob Vanbeek thinks that Im spoiled and the other day I asked my mom if I was spoiled and she said no cause I mean...she said that she tries to get me stuff whenever she can but most of the stuff is from my money and from gifts from the holidays...and Im not the type of person to annoy somebody until they get it for me...I dont know what Jacob is thinking...
But yeah...oh well...I just want to know his answer. But yeah...I just go through the day knowing that each day is another day closer to being with my boyfriend! :D
Plus this morning I woke up and I was so tired...god...I didnt want to get up and I went to bed earlier yesterday...or I think I did...I lost track when my mom made me do the dishes with her...lol...silly mom.
October 9, 2007 / Tuesday
Posted 18 years agoThank god I start on Tuesdays'. Mondays' make the week seem longer...and Im already closer to seeing my boyfriend anyway. *nods*
Im really lonely not seeing him for so long. It sucks but its not a problem. I just really miss him. Yep yep. Now Im a waiter for a week...Im all dressed up nice and junk...though I dont like tucking my shirt in...heh. I look real nice and all that. *nods* I got a new game for the PSP, Valkyrie Profile Lenneth. Its pretty fun...though its really hard...made by Square-Enix...so yeah.
And last night I watched Knocked Up and the entire time I was watching it I was thinking about me and Chris...lol. Though its like...we dont argue at all but we are still new in the relationship and we havent dealt with any big problems with each other. Im not saying there arent any cause every relationship has to deal with them sometime...but yeah...Im pretty positive me and Chris can work things out. I mean...I dont like arguements and I try my best to stay as calm as I possibly can...lol...when Im angry Im all silent and stuff until I go over the edge...but only if Im pushed by lying and stuff. *nods* I dont like liers.
I havent been drawing anything really...Im in an art block...it sucks...and last Friday when I left school I accidently left my art portfolio on top of my locker so I called the school so that they would go and get it for me and hold onto it so when I come into school today I can retreive it. I havent gotten it yet but I will soon. Oh...and I won an Award too! Yeah...from the poem that I wrote for my boyfriend...the first one. Bonds of Two got me an award. *nods* Im planning on getting that poem proffessionally done so that I can hang it on the wall. Its going to be nice!
Im off for class...toodles!
Im really lonely not seeing him for so long. It sucks but its not a problem. I just really miss him. Yep yep. Now Im a waiter for a week...Im all dressed up nice and junk...though I dont like tucking my shirt in...heh. I look real nice and all that. *nods* I got a new game for the PSP, Valkyrie Profile Lenneth. Its pretty fun...though its really hard...made by Square-Enix...so yeah.
And last night I watched Knocked Up and the entire time I was watching it I was thinking about me and Chris...lol. Though its like...we dont argue at all but we are still new in the relationship and we havent dealt with any big problems with each other. Im not saying there arent any cause every relationship has to deal with them sometime...but yeah...Im pretty positive me and Chris can work things out. I mean...I dont like arguements and I try my best to stay as calm as I possibly can...lol...when Im angry Im all silent and stuff until I go over the edge...but only if Im pushed by lying and stuff. *nods* I dont like liers.
I havent been drawing anything really...Im in an art block...it sucks...and last Friday when I left school I accidently left my art portfolio on top of my locker so I called the school so that they would go and get it for me and hold onto it so when I come into school today I can retreive it. I havent gotten it yet but I will soon. Oh...and I won an Award too! Yeah...from the poem that I wrote for my boyfriend...the first one. Bonds of Two got me an award. *nods* Im planning on getting that poem proffessionally done so that I can hang it on the wall. Its going to be nice!
Im off for class...toodles!
October 5, 2007 / Friday
Posted 18 years agoShucks...lol...my boyfriend is busy this weekend...like always but yeah...Im fine with it...just a little dissapointed but thats how things work ya know?
I love him...its just normal for people to be busy so its not a big deal. I just miss him alot...I havent seen him in 2 weeks...I got to see him before I leave for California though...but I guess I can drop by my externship coordinator and see whats going on.
Plans change I guess so I might be doing something else this weekend. *blah* lol. But yeah...I still love my boyfriend Chris very very much! :D
Have a good weekend.
I love him...its just normal for people to be busy so its not a big deal. I just miss him alot...I havent seen him in 2 weeks...I got to see him before I leave for California though...but I guess I can drop by my externship coordinator and see whats going on.
Plans change I guess so I might be doing something else this weekend. *blah* lol. But yeah...I still love my boyfriend Chris very very much! :D
Have a good weekend.
October 4, 2007 / Thursday
Posted 18 years agoWell...tomorrow is Friday...the day I always look forward to cause I get to see my boyfriend and hang out with his friends! :D
But yeah...yesterday class wasnt that bad. I submitted more art today and Im all excited to see my boyfriend! :3
Gesus my kat Kahlua follows me around everywhere...she even slept on my bed for a tiny bit yesterday...gosh. And yesterday I hung out with my friends Brittany and Brandon. So we watched more Drawn Together...I think about 7 episodes...lol.
Im sort of tired...all from longer shifts at school and not that much sleep. I might go to bed early tonight so I can have more energy for my boyfriend this weekend! :D Im going to see his sexy self tomorrow! *blushes*
I cant stop thinking about him. Nope, not at all. And I dont want to stop...I think he is SO great! :3 I'll worship him like a god! :D
I was stuck in desserts yesterday...I was making caramel and the darn candy broke off and sliced right into my thumb...ever since I've been in this class...I've been getting cuts all over my hands...it sucks cause it hurts...Im going to have to get my boyfriend to kiss them! :]
So yeah...if your interested in checking out the stuff I uploaded...check out my pics.
But yeah...yesterday class wasnt that bad. I submitted more art today and Im all excited to see my boyfriend! :3
Gesus my kat Kahlua follows me around everywhere...she even slept on my bed for a tiny bit yesterday...gosh. And yesterday I hung out with my friends Brittany and Brandon. So we watched more Drawn Together...I think about 7 episodes...lol.
Im sort of tired...all from longer shifts at school and not that much sleep. I might go to bed early tonight so I can have more energy for my boyfriend this weekend! :D Im going to see his sexy self tomorrow! *blushes*
I cant stop thinking about him. Nope, not at all. And I dont want to stop...I think he is SO great! :3 I'll worship him like a god! :D
I was stuck in desserts yesterday...I was making caramel and the darn candy broke off and sliced right into my thumb...ever since I've been in this class...I've been getting cuts all over my hands...it sucks cause it hurts...Im going to have to get my boyfriend to kiss them! :]
So yeah...if your interested in checking out the stuff I uploaded...check out my pics.
October 3, 2007 / Wednesday
Posted 18 years agoClass yesterday was so LONG! Its like 3 hours longer than usual. Its so crazy. Im not looking forward to do this for 6 weeks. So crazy. lol....and plus afterwards I was SO worn out.
I got home around 5 pm. And I left right after I was done...so that was wild. I saw Justin and Ryan on the way home while they were walking from Fred Meyers and they were right when I got off. So it was pretty weird...I invited them over and we saw 2 episodes of Drawn Together, 'Captain Girl' & 'A Tale of Two Cows'. Hehe...those are pretty funny! :3
But yeah...they left afterwards and my mom wanted me to go with her to um...lesse...Wal-Mart I think. So yeah...so we went shopping until 8:50 pm so that was nuts but I got like a CUTE pair of pajama pants with Tony the Tiger on them! :D They are adorable! :3 So I asked my mom if I could have them! *nods* Yep yep...so cute! :D They are so comfy too...I also got new shoes and all that.
Im looking forward to being with Chris this weekend. I so wanna see him so much. My mom wants me to stay home and help pull up the carpet and I've been waiting a long time to see Chris...I only have 5 weekends left until I leave...I dont want to leave without spending some personal time with my hunny. So...Im still going to be going over there...
People are so rude nowadays...(not talking about my mom...just the students here in general.)
I got home around 5 pm. And I left right after I was done...so that was wild. I saw Justin and Ryan on the way home while they were walking from Fred Meyers and they were right when I got off. So it was pretty weird...I invited them over and we saw 2 episodes of Drawn Together, 'Captain Girl' & 'A Tale of Two Cows'. Hehe...those are pretty funny! :3
But yeah...they left afterwards and my mom wanted me to go with her to um...lesse...Wal-Mart I think. So yeah...so we went shopping until 8:50 pm so that was nuts but I got like a CUTE pair of pajama pants with Tony the Tiger on them! :D They are adorable! :3 So I asked my mom if I could have them! *nods* Yep yep...so cute! :D They are so comfy too...I also got new shoes and all that.
Im looking forward to being with Chris this weekend. I so wanna see him so much. My mom wants me to stay home and help pull up the carpet and I've been waiting a long time to see Chris...I only have 5 weekends left until I leave...I dont want to leave without spending some personal time with my hunny. So...Im still going to be going over there...
People are so rude nowadays...(not talking about my mom...just the students here in general.)
October 2, 2007 / Tuesday
Posted 18 years agoYou know...everybody has problems right? Well, for me...my problems dont even mean much. Cause I get through them...and I look forward to the most important things in my life. Thinking of Chris makes me much stronger when Im dealing with problems. I just like to think that the more I do...the closer I get to seeing him. I miss him a bunch. But yeah...
I have no school on Mondays now...and my classes have been added 3 hours onto it...so I get to class @ 7 am and it ends at 3 pm. So I wont be able to get home until 4 or 5 pm or so...*shakes head*
Supposibly there was orientation on Friday for the class but I never heard about it...and they said it was all around the school...yet I never seen anything about it.
It so sucks but oh well. Im just looking forward to seeing my darling Chris again. I want to spend some time with him before I leave. Oh and yesterday I got approved to my extern...so Im happy. *nods*
I have no school on Mondays now...and my classes have been added 3 hours onto it...so I get to class @ 7 am and it ends at 3 pm. So I wont be able to get home until 4 or 5 pm or so...*shakes head*
Supposibly there was orientation on Friday for the class but I never heard about it...and they said it was all around the school...yet I never seen anything about it.
It so sucks but oh well. Im just looking forward to seeing my darling Chris again. I want to spend some time with him before I leave. Oh and yesterday I got approved to my extern...so Im happy. *nods*
October 1, 2007 / Monday
Posted 18 years agoWell, I had a good weekend trip to Spokane, WA.
I went to a baby shower and saw alot of my family there...lets see...well...my cousin Jordan is very rude and really young too...I think he might be in 5th grade or something and he hates gays cause he thinks that they are gross...and he says that, 'who would want to be your boyfriend?' I didnt tell him but yeah...geez what a brat.
But yeah...my other family members know Im gay...I know some that respect it but I dont really know who does and doesnt.
At the baby shower the guys were in the basement watching Undercover Brother on a big screen tv...it was HUGE!
The women were playing some weird game that they put chocolate candy in diapers and melt it and they called the game, 'name that poo'. SO yeah...it was really weird...some girl cousins were chasing Jordan around with it cause he actually thought it was crap then the girl ate it and he totally freaked out...and I started to laugh...lol...and then he dropped his shoe and the girl picked it up and put the diaper in it and he started to cry cause he actually thought it was crap. lol...it was so funny. Little children! :D
But yeah...mom and dad were fine...it was pretty fun after all though I wish Jordan wasnt so spoiled and rude...
Today I start my new and FINAL class cycle. So yeah...Im nervous...so I hope I pass this class. But I want to see my boyfriend...I miss him alot. But yeah...Im happy though. I always daydream about me and him together all the time! :D
I went to a baby shower and saw alot of my family there...lets see...well...my cousin Jordan is very rude and really young too...I think he might be in 5th grade or something and he hates gays cause he thinks that they are gross...and he says that, 'who would want to be your boyfriend?' I didnt tell him but yeah...geez what a brat.
But yeah...my other family members know Im gay...I know some that respect it but I dont really know who does and doesnt.
At the baby shower the guys were in the basement watching Undercover Brother on a big screen tv...it was HUGE!
The women were playing some weird game that they put chocolate candy in diapers and melt it and they called the game, 'name that poo'. SO yeah...it was really weird...some girl cousins were chasing Jordan around with it cause he actually thought it was crap then the girl ate it and he totally freaked out...and I started to laugh...lol...and then he dropped his shoe and the girl picked it up and put the diaper in it and he started to cry cause he actually thought it was crap. lol...it was so funny. Little children! :D
But yeah...mom and dad were fine...it was pretty fun after all though I wish Jordan wasnt so spoiled and rude...
Today I start my new and FINAL class cycle. So yeah...Im nervous...so I hope I pass this class. But I want to see my boyfriend...I miss him alot. But yeah...Im happy though. I always daydream about me and him together all the time! :D
September 27, 2007 / Thursday
Posted 18 years agoHehe...Im so happy...well...Im in a good mood.
Yesterday I decided I should work on a comic and my topic was Drawn Together...and the art is so GOOD! :D I actually cant beleive I can draw them so well...I got to 4 pages so far of it...but Im only in the beginning still...lol. But yeah...its really funny...so far Toot is the favorite one that I like to draw...she's so funny! :D
But yeah...yesterday I was walking home and I walked by some construction worker guys and one of them quietly said to the other as I walked by. 'thats one gorgeous guy'. I heard them...and I looked back at them and the guy winked at me and I turned completely red...the guy was attractive...you know for a butch guy but Im not interested. I wouldnt care less...I love compliments but yeah...lol. They are the best when I get them from my boyfriend! :3 So yeah...yesterday was really funny for that part. I feel really sexy now. :]
Tomorrow Im leaving for Spokane...and I got finals today and tomorrow...I showed a few people the comic Im working on of Drawn Together and they were like...it looks exactly like the show...its a great compliment! :D I like it! Well...I'm headin off for now.
Yesterday I decided I should work on a comic and my topic was Drawn Together...and the art is so GOOD! :D I actually cant beleive I can draw them so well...I got to 4 pages so far of it...but Im only in the beginning still...lol. But yeah...its really funny...so far Toot is the favorite one that I like to draw...she's so funny! :D
But yeah...yesterday I was walking home and I walked by some construction worker guys and one of them quietly said to the other as I walked by. 'thats one gorgeous guy'. I heard them...and I looked back at them and the guy winked at me and I turned completely red...the guy was attractive...you know for a butch guy but Im not interested. I wouldnt care less...I love compliments but yeah...lol. They are the best when I get them from my boyfriend! :3 So yeah...yesterday was really funny for that part. I feel really sexy now. :]
Tomorrow Im leaving for Spokane...and I got finals today and tomorrow...I showed a few people the comic Im working on of Drawn Together and they were like...it looks exactly like the show...its a great compliment! :D I like it! Well...I'm headin off for now.
September 26, 2007 / Wednesday
Posted 18 years agoIm so flipping tired. I stayed up until like...12:30 am. and I woke up at 4:50 am. My alarm didnt wake me up and Im surprised that I woke up in the first place. Im grateful. But yeah. Last night was SO crazy.
Yesterday I went to borders to return a book that I bought the other day cause it TOTALLY SUCKED! The book was called Underworld and it sucked so bad...I dont recomend it. Its a graphic novel. Something about a little boy and his teddy bear and all this crap and they go to this world under the boys bed and the teddy bear comes to life and they look for a sugar stone to cure his father and his father is dying and the boy cries alot and its really weird cause he meets furmen and its really scary...I mean so stupid its scary. God...I cant beleive it...thank god I got a refund.
After that I went to Fred Meyers and bought Drawn Togther Season 2. I asked them how many they got and they said that they only recieved 3 so I reserved it this morning when they recieved it and I picked it up after I got out of school. I was so excited I got it! :D Right when I got home I started to watch it but my mom wanted me to go with her so I did. We went to Fred Meyers again and I saw Ryan Densley my friend so we talked a bit since I didnt see him for a while and then took him home with us and then my mom's friend Shirley came over with her children Brittany and Brandon. Brittany, Ryan and I watched Drawn Together for like...forever...lol. I didnt end until 12 am. I watched all of the episodes...and I loved it all...my tummy was all sick from laughing too much...lol.
Ryan and Brittany left and I went to bed. But god yesterday was CRAZY! :D But now Im sooo tired...I think I might go to bed early. And plus I might have to do some extra stuff...hopefully I do good in my class for the rest of this week. *nods*
Yesterday I went to borders to return a book that I bought the other day cause it TOTALLY SUCKED! The book was called Underworld and it sucked so bad...I dont recomend it. Its a graphic novel. Something about a little boy and his teddy bear and all this crap and they go to this world under the boys bed and the teddy bear comes to life and they look for a sugar stone to cure his father and his father is dying and the boy cries alot and its really weird cause he meets furmen and its really scary...I mean so stupid its scary. God...I cant beleive it...thank god I got a refund.
After that I went to Fred Meyers and bought Drawn Togther Season 2. I asked them how many they got and they said that they only recieved 3 so I reserved it this morning when they recieved it and I picked it up after I got out of school. I was so excited I got it! :D Right when I got home I started to watch it but my mom wanted me to go with her so I did. We went to Fred Meyers again and I saw Ryan Densley my friend so we talked a bit since I didnt see him for a while and then took him home with us and then my mom's friend Shirley came over with her children Brittany and Brandon. Brittany, Ryan and I watched Drawn Together for like...forever...lol. I didnt end until 12 am. I watched all of the episodes...and I loved it all...my tummy was all sick from laughing too much...lol.
Ryan and Brittany left and I went to bed. But god yesterday was CRAZY! :D But now Im sooo tired...I think I might go to bed early. And plus I might have to do some extra stuff...hopefully I do good in my class for the rest of this week. *nods*
September 25, 2007 / Tuesday
Posted 18 years agoWell this weekend Im going to Spokane, WA. Its going to be odd cause Im going to my cousin Shawn's baby shower. His wife is having a baby so yeah...and plus I get to see the family. Well my mom's family anyway.
But yeah...Drawn Together comes out today and Im going to reserve one for me. And its going to be so AWESOME! :D Season 2! YAY! :3
But yeah...as for the weekend. My plans with him havent worked out this weekend either. Its no big deal, I mean. Chris is busy with work and all that and his family takes him every now and then. But yeah. Its crazy. I got to see him a few times. Im just grateful I got to hug and kiss him! :D
I heard rumors that we have a day off this week...maybe Friday...but Im not so sure if there is one. It sucks cause I thought there would be one. But I guess not. Maybe.
But Im going to check on my externship coordinator and see how my Yosmeti thing is going on. I went to a job fair yesterday and introduced myself to 10 companies...and gave out 10 resumes...so yeah...I feel good about that. So yeah...hehe. Local stuff is good for when I come back and move in with my hunny! :D
I have plans for him this next weekend after this one...I wrote him that he needs to have a day just for me and him. *nods* I havent had a day just to ourselves due to his schedual. I just want to spend some quality time with him before I head off for my extern. So yeah. I love him loads! :] Yep Yep!
But yeah...Drawn Together comes out today and Im going to reserve one for me. And its going to be so AWESOME! :D Season 2! YAY! :3
But yeah...as for the weekend. My plans with him havent worked out this weekend either. Its no big deal, I mean. Chris is busy with work and all that and his family takes him every now and then. But yeah. Its crazy. I got to see him a few times. Im just grateful I got to hug and kiss him! :D
I heard rumors that we have a day off this week...maybe Friday...but Im not so sure if there is one. It sucks cause I thought there would be one. But I guess not. Maybe.
But Im going to check on my externship coordinator and see how my Yosmeti thing is going on. I went to a job fair yesterday and introduced myself to 10 companies...and gave out 10 resumes...so yeah...I feel good about that. So yeah...hehe. Local stuff is good for when I come back and move in with my hunny! :D
I have plans for him this next weekend after this one...I wrote him that he needs to have a day just for me and him. *nods* I havent had a day just to ourselves due to his schedual. I just want to spend some quality time with him before I head off for my extern. So yeah. I love him loads! :] Yep Yep!
September 21, 2007 / Friday
Posted 18 years agoWoo! Its friday...Im happy...Im going to check up on my extern coordinator and see what she says and then Im going to get dressed and leave to see my boyfriend and see if he is busy or not...cause if he isnt then he can come with me and hang out with Jacob and David and we all can hang out. Its going to be fun.
I got some extra money too so that I can pay for my boyfriend as well. *merk*
This morning I was getting ready and I was wanting some cereal...well I went in the fridge and looked at the milk and it just expired today...I looked at it after I poured the milk...lol. I just opened it too...and I looked in my cereal and there was a milk curd in there...ew...so I just threw it away...but I feel a little achy in my tummy. So it really sucks.
Blah! lol. So yeah...today is a happy day. Im nervous though...when I do go out to meet them...they are probably going to pick on me like crazy...they always do...but I dont mind it...lol...
Im pretty sure David is going to say 'Bury me bury me' in front of me...lol. That gets me all embarassed...gosh darn it...heh.
And I read that Jacob thinks Im spoiled...lol. Im not that spoiled...and Im not like the 'Material Girl' by Madonna or anything...lol.
So yeah...Im going to head to class...the sooner I get done with this...the sooner I can go see my boyfriend and all that! :D
I got some extra money too so that I can pay for my boyfriend as well. *merk*
This morning I was getting ready and I was wanting some cereal...well I went in the fridge and looked at the milk and it just expired today...I looked at it after I poured the milk...lol. I just opened it too...and I looked in my cereal and there was a milk curd in there...ew...so I just threw it away...but I feel a little achy in my tummy. So it really sucks.
Blah! lol. So yeah...today is a happy day. Im nervous though...when I do go out to meet them...they are probably going to pick on me like crazy...they always do...but I dont mind it...lol...
Im pretty sure David is going to say 'Bury me bury me' in front of me...lol. That gets me all embarassed...gosh darn it...heh.
And I read that Jacob thinks Im spoiled...lol. Im not that spoiled...and Im not like the 'Material Girl' by Madonna or anything...lol.
So yeah...Im going to head to class...the sooner I get done with this...the sooner I can go see my boyfriend and all that! :D
September 20, 2007 / Thursday
Posted 18 years agoWell I went to bed early yesterday...lol...I went to bed around 6 pm. Heh. Its really funny. I woke up like an hour early and then I tried to go back to sleep and the extra sleep messed with my mind...it sure was crazy.
Im still missing my knife kit so it really sucks. Yeah...*blech*
And I have to use my knives today and it really sucks...I dont have any...damn the person who stole them.
So yeah...Im at a loss right now. lol. But yeah...Im just looking forward to tomorrow so I can see my boyfriend...and I guess I should call my friend Jacob and see what we can work out or something...but I still have to see if my boyfriend is free...cause if he's working he usually leaves in the afternoon and doesnt come home until 9 pm. So that sucks if he is...but I wont know until I get there.
Gosh...lol. Well I better head to class and tell this instructor that my knife kit has been stolen a while back.
Im still missing my knife kit so it really sucks. Yeah...*blech*
And I have to use my knives today and it really sucks...I dont have any...damn the person who stole them.
So yeah...Im at a loss right now. lol. But yeah...Im just looking forward to tomorrow so I can see my boyfriend...and I guess I should call my friend Jacob and see what we can work out or something...but I still have to see if my boyfriend is free...cause if he's working he usually leaves in the afternoon and doesnt come home until 9 pm. So that sucks if he is...but I wont know until I get there.
Gosh...lol. Well I better head to class and tell this instructor that my knife kit has been stolen a while back.
September 19, 2007 / Wednesday
Posted 18 years agoI didnt feel like getting up this morning at all...I rarely feel like that at all. I mean...unless I dont get much sleep at all then that would be different but yeah. I felt so lazy this morning...I was too comfortable to get up...lol...I always turn lights on when the alarm goes off so I dont fall asleep! XD
But yeah...yesterday I DID write a blog...but stupid MySpace deleted it in the next link and I went back and it was gone...I typed ALOT and I was like...fuck it. Im far too busy to re-write my blog...you know...school and everything.
But yeah...to summarize. I might be doing something this weekend with my boyfriend with some friends of mine, like a double date...but it depends entirely on Chris and them. So yeah. But mainly Chris.
Im so tired...lol. But yeah...I dont like homeless people, people who ask for money and people who try to get you to give them money for these so called helping others in need. I mean...they are strangers...Im not interested in such crap. Plus...I dont have money...nope nope. Not for any smelly bastard.
But yeah. Im getting too anxious to play Final Fantasy XI again...god...I finished a homework assignment yesterday and I did the topic on Final Fantasy II On-Line. So yeah...lol...
I dont know why but its SO cold. I cant stand shivering. I love summer for its warmth and comfort. I love winter for the togetherness it brings...so yeah...lol. Im a winter and my boyfriend is a summer. Heh.
I get cold too fast...my body just loves being cold...but I dont...lol...I like to be warm...so I usually cuddle with Chris or something...he keeps me warm. He's always hot...I mean literally...lol. It so cute though...my boyfriend...heh. *daydreams* Well Im heading to class...
But yeah...yesterday I DID write a blog...but stupid MySpace deleted it in the next link and I went back and it was gone...I typed ALOT and I was like...fuck it. Im far too busy to re-write my blog...you know...school and everything.
But yeah...to summarize. I might be doing something this weekend with my boyfriend with some friends of mine, like a double date...but it depends entirely on Chris and them. So yeah. But mainly Chris.
Im so tired...lol. But yeah...I dont like homeless people, people who ask for money and people who try to get you to give them money for these so called helping others in need. I mean...they are strangers...Im not interested in such crap. Plus...I dont have money...nope nope. Not for any smelly bastard.
But yeah. Im getting too anxious to play Final Fantasy XI again...god...I finished a homework assignment yesterday and I did the topic on Final Fantasy II On-Line. So yeah...lol...
I dont know why but its SO cold. I cant stand shivering. I love summer for its warmth and comfort. I love winter for the togetherness it brings...so yeah...lol. Im a winter and my boyfriend is a summer. Heh.
I get cold too fast...my body just loves being cold...but I dont...lol...I like to be warm...so I usually cuddle with Chris or something...he keeps me warm. He's always hot...I mean literally...lol. It so cute though...my boyfriend...heh. *daydreams* Well Im heading to class...
Gay Q & A
Posted 18 years agoI stole this! :D
1. When did you realize you liked boys?
Well...I think it was around middle school...I liked this guy that was like a year or two...older than I was...and he...yeah...got me into oral. lol.
2. When did you first kiss another boy?
Um...18...I think.
3. when was your first time?
Hehe...18...summer of 2006.
4. top/bottom/switch?
Well...naturally Im a bottom! :D
5. is your fursona gay?
Its just a character...but since it resembles me...yes.
6. Do you have a preferred body type?
Well...I love muscular guys and some tubbiness is really cute...so yeah! :D Hehe...but I love strength out of anything.
7. Have you ever had a crush on a straight guy?
Well...yeah...it was Ryan...
8. Celebrity crushes?
Well...I liked Owen Wilson...but I liked that one guy um...from American Pie...Stiffler I guess...hehe.
9. Furry crushes?
???
10. Dick, butt, balls or other?
I love it all! :D
11. Shaved or not?
*blushes* I perfer not.
12. Any particular kinks?
Dirty talking...um...muscles...and dominance! :D
13. Fav Porn Comics?
??? I dont read porn comics...lol.
14. Would you consider doing it with a girl?
No way...Im submissive...I cant do it with a girl! XP Im only into men.
15. Have you done it with a girl?
No...thank god.
16. Do you ever do anything stereotypically flaming?
*blushes* Well I guess I do...like when I say OMG! :D But thats not as bad as others. lol. But Im pretty mellow...I'm around the middle I say! :D But leaning more feminine...lol.
17. Do you try to act 'straight' around non-gays?
Nah...I just act normal...alot of the time I get straight guys that think Im straight...but yeah...lol...it doesnt work with everybody I guess...Im too open and I dont care who knows...I guess that is my downfall...Im not ashamed of who I am and who I love.
18. Are you 'out' to your family/close friends?
Well...I want to be completely out...but my father...but yeah...I dont know how he would accept me fully...and I'd hate to see him at my wedding with me and my boyfriend...*meep* But Im just normal around my friends...nothing to hide.
19. Who was the first gay fur artist you encountered?
Um...I'm not quite sure...
20. What is a 'must have' in your porn?
lol...thats kind of personal...but I'll just give ya a hint...bigger is better...lol...and muscles are great! :D *drools*
21. Do you ever daydream/have personal fantasies?
All the time...its pretty normal...lol...all I think about is Chris! :3
22. Do you have a fur species besides your own character that really gets you hot under the collar?
??? Well the werewolf character that I made for my boyfriend...though its not as hawt as him personally though...Chris is the most hawtest I can get! :D lol.
23. Do you know any gay manga/anime you could recommend to folks?
Gravitation
Gravitation EX
Jazz
La Esperanga
So yeah...those are my favorites! :D So far.
24. How many gay friends do you have?
Well...theres my boyfriend Chris...
Jacob...
David...
Colin...
Douglas...
Tora...
theres alot but my best ones are the top 3 but my number one is Chris! :D
25. Do you own any sex toys?
Um...Im not answering that one! XD
26. Are you circumcized? Do you prefer cut or uncut cocks?
Um...yeah...but I perfer cut...*embarrassed*
27. Rough or Romantic?
Im really romantic...but I love a guy who is rough...
31. Anal/Oral/Jackoff/Frottage/Other ?
I like alot of stuff...but I guess...Im open unless Im not discusted by it...
1. When did you realize you liked boys?
Well...I think it was around middle school...I liked this guy that was like a year or two...older than I was...and he...yeah...got me into oral. lol.
2. When did you first kiss another boy?
Um...18...I think.
3. when was your first time?
Hehe...18...summer of 2006.
4. top/bottom/switch?
Well...naturally Im a bottom! :D
5. is your fursona gay?
Its just a character...but since it resembles me...yes.
6. Do you have a preferred body type?
Well...I love muscular guys and some tubbiness is really cute...so yeah! :D Hehe...but I love strength out of anything.
7. Have you ever had a crush on a straight guy?
Well...yeah...it was Ryan...
8. Celebrity crushes?
Well...I liked Owen Wilson...but I liked that one guy um...from American Pie...Stiffler I guess...hehe.
9. Furry crushes?
???
10. Dick, butt, balls or other?
I love it all! :D
11. Shaved or not?
*blushes* I perfer not.
12. Any particular kinks?
Dirty talking...um...muscles...and dominance! :D
13. Fav Porn Comics?
??? I dont read porn comics...lol.
14. Would you consider doing it with a girl?
No way...Im submissive...I cant do it with a girl! XP Im only into men.
15. Have you done it with a girl?
No...thank god.
16. Do you ever do anything stereotypically flaming?
*blushes* Well I guess I do...like when I say OMG! :D But thats not as bad as others. lol. But Im pretty mellow...I'm around the middle I say! :D But leaning more feminine...lol.
17. Do you try to act 'straight' around non-gays?
Nah...I just act normal...alot of the time I get straight guys that think Im straight...but yeah...lol...it doesnt work with everybody I guess...Im too open and I dont care who knows...I guess that is my downfall...Im not ashamed of who I am and who I love.
18. Are you 'out' to your family/close friends?
Well...I want to be completely out...but my father...but yeah...I dont know how he would accept me fully...and I'd hate to see him at my wedding with me and my boyfriend...*meep* But Im just normal around my friends...nothing to hide.
19. Who was the first gay fur artist you encountered?
Um...I'm not quite sure...
20. What is a 'must have' in your porn?
lol...thats kind of personal...but I'll just give ya a hint...bigger is better...lol...and muscles are great! :D *drools*
21. Do you ever daydream/have personal fantasies?
All the time...its pretty normal...lol...all I think about is Chris! :3
22. Do you have a fur species besides your own character that really gets you hot under the collar?
??? Well the werewolf character that I made for my boyfriend...though its not as hawt as him personally though...Chris is the most hawtest I can get! :D lol.
23. Do you know any gay manga/anime you could recommend to folks?
Gravitation
Gravitation EX
Jazz
La Esperanga
So yeah...those are my favorites! :D So far.
24. How many gay friends do you have?
Well...theres my boyfriend Chris...
Jacob...
David...
Colin...
Douglas...
Tora...
theres alot but my best ones are the top 3 but my number one is Chris! :D
25. Do you own any sex toys?
Um...Im not answering that one! XD
26. Are you circumcized? Do you prefer cut or uncut cocks?
Um...yeah...but I perfer cut...*embarrassed*
27. Rough or Romantic?
Im really romantic...but I love a guy who is rough...
31. Anal/Oral/Jackoff/Frottage/Other ?
I like alot of stuff...but I guess...Im open unless Im not discusted by it...
September 17, 2007 / Monday
Posted 18 years agoI got to spend a day with my boyfriend! :D Im happy...EE! :3
I dont know why but I love it when I sleep with him...he's so comfy and warm and snuggly! :D *meepers*
lol. But yeah...the plan is still going to go on about going to see Resident Evil: Extinction this weekend...not sure if I have a 3 day weekend or not though. But still. Doing anything with my boyfriend, Chris means alot to me.
School is still the same...homework...lol.
Chris's sister was asking me if I had sex with her brother yet and I was like...no. And she was like...why not? And I was like...thats sort of personal. lol. Silly sister of his.
I know 3 Jessica's. My ol' friend Jessica K., Jessica (me and Chris's friend), and Jessica (Chris's sister). lol. So yeah...
I finished the art book like I said...and now its in his posession. So Im happy he has it...now he can look at it and he can think of me! *swoons* lol. But I know one thing is for sure...I'll always love him and he carved himself into my heart.
I dont know why but Im getting into those Fire Emblem games...how many are there out there?
So far I only know 2...one for the GBA...and one for the GC. I have the GC version but yeah...I liked the GBA...Im willing to buy it...but yeah...I have no money...I have to find it...*meep* lol. So yeah! :3
Life for me is going perfect...well...pretty close...theres too many ugly people around me...lol. But yeah...I do have attractive people every now and then but hey...the ugliness is like the dark side and the beaty is the light...so yeah...lol...my boyfriend is hawt so I dont care...lol. :3 He's all I need! WOO! So happy. I'll be his slave forever! :D
Oh yeah...his friends' were teasing me...saying that I need a butt plug or something and I was like...what the hell!? lol. It was weird. *meep* They threw a towel at me while I was on the floor, and I threw it over at them and I guess it landed on the light switch and turned the lights off...they were like...what are you trying to do? Trying to set the mood? lol. That was funny...I was like...for what?
SEXUAL FANTASY! :D
lol. Well I gotta get to class! :3
I dont know why but I love it when I sleep with him...he's so comfy and warm and snuggly! :D *meepers*
lol. But yeah...the plan is still going to go on about going to see Resident Evil: Extinction this weekend...not sure if I have a 3 day weekend or not though. But still. Doing anything with my boyfriend, Chris means alot to me.
School is still the same...homework...lol.
Chris's sister was asking me if I had sex with her brother yet and I was like...no. And she was like...why not? And I was like...thats sort of personal. lol. Silly sister of his.
I know 3 Jessica's. My ol' friend Jessica K., Jessica (me and Chris's friend), and Jessica (Chris's sister). lol. So yeah...
I finished the art book like I said...and now its in his posession. So Im happy he has it...now he can look at it and he can think of me! *swoons* lol. But I know one thing is for sure...I'll always love him and he carved himself into my heart.
I dont know why but Im getting into those Fire Emblem games...how many are there out there?
So far I only know 2...one for the GBA...and one for the GC. I have the GC version but yeah...I liked the GBA...Im willing to buy it...but yeah...I have no money...I have to find it...*meep* lol. So yeah! :3
Life for me is going perfect...well...pretty close...theres too many ugly people around me...lol. But yeah...I do have attractive people every now and then but hey...the ugliness is like the dark side and the beaty is the light...so yeah...lol...my boyfriend is hawt so I dont care...lol. :3 He's all I need! WOO! So happy. I'll be his slave forever! :D
Oh yeah...his friends' were teasing me...saying that I need a butt plug or something and I was like...what the hell!? lol. It was weird. *meep* They threw a towel at me while I was on the floor, and I threw it over at them and I guess it landed on the light switch and turned the lights off...they were like...what are you trying to do? Trying to set the mood? lol. That was funny...I was like...for what?
SEXUAL FANTASY! :D
lol. Well I gotta get to class! :3
September 14, 2007 / Friday
Posted 18 years agoWell I got my clothes and stuff for when Im done with school today...then Im heading over to see my boyfriend! :D
Its really exciting...WEE! :3 I got some warmer clothes so I dont get sick again. lol. But yeah...I watched the old movie Dawn of the Dead...it still scares me...even if its old and the graphics suck...its scary...the music mostly scares me...lol.
But yeah...I didnt have any nightmares or anything...
Good news is that I finished the art book that I was working for my boyfriend. And yeah...hehe...one of the last pictures I drew was me and him...and we had a child and the kid called me mama! :D lol...I dont know why but I think its cute and I wouldnt mind to have my child call me mama! :3 Hehe...Chris can be the papa! :D But yeah...I dont know why but I dont really like children...but when I think about having one and...yeah...it just kind of makes me want to have one...
I wonder if Chris feels that way too?
But yeah...its really cute...maybe one of these days I'll upload it so you guys can see it! :D So yeah...I'd better get ready for class and turn in my homework. See ya next week! :3
Its really exciting...WEE! :3 I got some warmer clothes so I dont get sick again. lol. But yeah...I watched the old movie Dawn of the Dead...it still scares me...even if its old and the graphics suck...its scary...the music mostly scares me...lol.
But yeah...I didnt have any nightmares or anything...
Good news is that I finished the art book that I was working for my boyfriend. And yeah...hehe...one of the last pictures I drew was me and him...and we had a child and the kid called me mama! :D lol...I dont know why but I think its cute and I wouldnt mind to have my child call me mama! :3 Hehe...Chris can be the papa! :D But yeah...I dont know why but I dont really like children...but when I think about having one and...yeah...it just kind of makes me want to have one...
I wonder if Chris feels that way too?
But yeah...its really cute...maybe one of these days I'll upload it so you guys can see it! :D So yeah...I'd better get ready for class and turn in my homework. See ya next week! :3
