Well my illness is going away. Im feeling much better but stress is coming I guess...I know cause I've been scratching alot lately...*meep* Opened more wounds on myself...I gotta stop.

I was going through alot of the notes I have had in my files yesterday that I had since my early high school days...and god I sounded SO stupid...I cant believe I was like that when I was younger...

I can seriously tell that I grew up by looking at them...lol. Though I dont like it...cause I dont want people to think Im still like that...Im not...I've matured more than what it really appears to be. I had to be crazy back then...lol. I was in a diverse universe that nobody was a part of and I felt like I was from a different planet so I wanted to leave the earth...sounds stupid to me but I guess it awakened more of my artistic self inside since I was drawn in to myself and focused mainly on the left side (brain).

*shakes head*

I dont like to think of myself back then, the future is me right now and this is how I truly am...I have still things to learn about but personality wise...this is me.

Im looking forward to tomorrow...cause Im going down to see my boyfriend! :D YAY! :3

By tonight...I'll have my boyfriend's art portfolio finished. It would be just for him. By me...heh. It's exciting...and plus I want to give him something before I leave...besides my art. I so miss him but I will see him again. Im not looking forward to being home most of the time...cause Im usually in my room just day dreaming about my life when I move in with Chris. I just cant get my mind off of that. :3

So yeah...homework homework homework. Its so insane...but you know...you cant proceed through life without taking these obsticles...lol...I like taking things all the time! *dirty pun* lol. So yeah! :D [only from my boyfriend though]

Just for your information though.

But yeah...being silly as usual. Im going to head to class...

I dont know whatcha all thinkin...

Just because I met somebody new doesnt mean anything...he's just a friend...not goin to take my boyfriend's place...lol...I was just talkin about how relatively he is to me...UKE's ya know...he's not a SEME!

God. lol...there is only one guy for me and that is Chris...him and only him. Im only going to hang out with this new guy in class...Chris is like...more totally important..he's my treasure in the world.

But yeah...yesterday felt really weird...Im like...kind of odd feeling inside...kind of...emotional time yesterday cause my brother Greg left for the Marines yesterday...I dont know why but I guess it was the way my mother was acting...all crying and stuff...lol...she has to curb her emotions cause I get emotional quickly. lol.

But yeah...now my brother is in a bootcamp I guess for a couple of months...he'll be around December when Im gone...lol...and yeah...hehe.

Bow down to me my people...for I am the Angel of Mercy. lol. I took this test in for my class and it said that I was a person who loves to give himself to serve people. lol. I do that with my boyfriend! :D

Yesterday night I had this weird dream...it was an Aladdin one...more likely Disney. lol...but it was horror ya know...Jafar was going crazy and chased after Jasmine and he slashed her legs and she was bleeding and me and her started to run up the tower...it was dark and stormy...and when we got to the top everything was underwater exept the tower we were on. We got to the edge and looked back and before Jafar came out we jumped into the water and Aladdin showed up and held us down in the water...Iago came to check and find us and Al grabbed him and pulled him into the water and began to snicker as Genie turned him into a tiny fish.

After that I cant remember much...I think I passed out and I was with my boyfriend Chris and it was weird to turn into a Horror film into an XXX film...lol...but it was just me and Chris doing stuff...lol. *blushes* But the place that we were mainly at was in Kokiriko Forest from Dark Cloud (PS2). It sure was odd. *meep* But yeah...I love the last part of the dream...I was droolin and everything when I woke up...lol. God...I had to clean myself off...the drool I mean! :3

Oh god, I feel so happy ya know!

Okay...today in class I met another gay guy in class...and he's really fun to talk to...he's taken like me and its like...we're like...interested in the same stuff ya know? Its like...heh. Fun to talk to another person who is like...the same as in sexual things as I am. I dont know. lol. I showed him alot of my art and he was like...interested in it. :D

So yeah...hehe...I made a new friend today...and I think we would hang out in the future. :3

I figured out what movie I wanted to see with my boyfriend! :D The new Resident Evil movie that is coming out the 21 of this month. So yeah...though I would have to wait for the weekend to see it with him and when he's off from work. God...only 8 to 9 weekends left to spend with my boyfriend...that doesnt seem like much...but as soon as Im done with my externship...I can truly live...

My boyfriend said to me...'the luckiest day is the day you'll be living with me.' He's so sweet! :D Its always left an impression in my mind. :3

So yeah...I cant wait until school tomorrow so I can hang out with my new friend tomorrow...I got to ask his name...lol.

Im so introverted though...but yeah...my getting out there. Heh.

Woo...its kind of weird...Im super tired...

Didnt get much sleep either. I went down to see my boyfriend this last weekend but I didnt see him...oh Im not upset or anything...Im quite normal...Im happy cause I know where he's at...he's just very busy. So yeah...Im kind of happy I didnt see him cause I didnt want to get him sick...cause I have a cold and yeah...lol. I need some soup or something...my nose is dry...and it sort of hurts. *meep*

I uploaded more photos as you guys saw. lol.

I want to go out to the movies with my boyfriend soon...I mean...I only have like 8 to 9 weekends left to spend with him and I dont want to miss any chances to be with him until I leave for 3 months...by the time I come back I can move in with him and his friends and get a permanent job and help out.

This morning really sucked though. I woke up normally but I went to catch the bus and I got their early ya know...then I realized I left my phone in my room so I ran back home and ran back to the place to catch the bus, I live real close so yeah...and I had a few minutes before the bus comes. It took me 2 minutes total to get my phone and come back. I waited and its like...20 minutes later Im like...that ass-hole came early and now Im late...that damn fat ass...lol. And when I got on the bus 20 minutes later...when I got to Oregon City...I missed my 33 bus so I had to wait another 20 minutes to get to school...god damn...just because of that fat bastard. Gesus Christ.

Im trying to eat more but Im like...almost hungry all the time but Im starving most of the time too...lol...like now Im starving...but Im going to eat like crazy when Im home.

I have like 2 meals a day or something...one in the morning if I have time...and then at night when I get home. So yeah...I dont like starving...its not healthy I know...but I have to deal with it cause I dont have time to eat and I dont have the money to eat out. So yeah...it sucks...but when I live with my boyfriend and stuff and get a job I wouldnt have to worry about it...

God my dad, he's cool and then he's not. I dont know...he has mood swings like a girl sometimes...but yeah.

I decided that for a class project that Im going to do a powerpoint on how to play WoW (World of Warcraft) with actual game-play screenshots...hehe...I'll even put in clips of South Park's Make Love Not Warcraft. WOO! :D

That episode got me hooked on WoW. And yeah...I was being funny in class by sounding like Jimmy. What are you guys ninjas? Or are you guys p-p-p-p-p-pussies!?

lol

Jimmy is my favorite character in South Park...lol. I love the way he stutters! :3

But yeah...recently things have gotten weird...(not in my relationship), but I dont know...I've been having guys hit on me...its crazy...and I can feel it too...total strangers coming up to me and asking my name and see how Im doing...and it like...okay...your kind of attractive but Im taken. lol...I dont say that but still. I dont cheat, I think its totally wrong...but I do give my opinion about how I feel...and Im always truthful, Im obedient to my lover and I dont do anything irrational towards him. Im honest and I dont give bullcrap. Im emotional sometimes but to a level.

Im totally sweet and everything but I have to know somebody first off or I will seem cold and bitter. I dont take kindly to people who judge me or my boyfriend negatively, especially my boyfriend. I stand up for my friends too but my personal life comes first ya know?

Sometimes I just feel so uncomfortable with how people treat me...I mean...I could be treated better by the people I know...but everybody is different...like yeah...lol...I love being teased and stuff...I dont know its weird...and I like to be um...lol...yeah...lol...picked on a little...I dont know why I like it...but its to an extent that its positive...not negative cause Im very sensitive and cry.

Doesnt mean Im not strong its just that I've gone through alot of stuff from what my father did in the past beating me and people always saying negative stuff to me that brought me down...my boyfriend made that clear to me when I was crying over there. Im glad he's there for me. He's a very busy guy and he wants the best out of me and him...he wants us to work out and its sweet.

Hopefully Chris has Friday off...we can probably see a comedy or a horror film...though I still dont know what to see...

Gosh, today is my 2 month anniversary with my boyfriend.

Im going to head over today after school and all that...brought some clothes as usual cause Im stayin the night...and for our anniversary I got 2 tickets to see any movie in the movie theater.

*claps hands* It doesnt expire and I get to see any movie with my boyfriend...I'll ask him what movie he wants to see...me myself...I dont know what movies are out in the theater or anything. So yeah...hehe.

It's gotten colder...*meep* But yeah...my melon carving is coming along greatly...Im excited for the finished results today! ;3 Im carving the melon on my character Selion...its really cool...my character loves wearing scarfs and colars...its cute...I think its the whole slave / master thing for him...he loves bein' the slave for his wolf man! ;3

But the thing Im not looking forward to, is the finals test today...*meep* Im not really good at tests...I suck at them...and I suck at remembering things...*meep* thats why they should label products...lol...for my sake! ;3

Im going to pay back my boyfriend's best friend for lending me money last time I was there...it was only $2 cause I needed to get home....so it will be fine.

My mom gave me money to get food for the family yesterday...I got some pizza, I think I love thin crust pizza now...with sausage...I dont know why but I just love sausage...but I love seafood much more.

When it comes to me and my boyfriend's year mark of our anniversary...I want to take him to Todai. *meep* A sushi buffet...its really expensive. Its like...$16 or $17 a person. So yeah...hehe...*claps* Well...Im heading to class to work now. Have a good weekend y'all!

:>

WOO! :3 Today Im going to do my melon carving...

Though I never really carved before but Im sure I'll show you guys my progress! :>

Im happy for tomorrow too...Im going to see if I could hang with my boyfriend tomorrow...then Im going to have to come back home on Saturday. *meep*

And Im going to have to talk to my job cordinator.

I look around and I see alot of scary looking people who are in the school...this guy seriously looks like he has pubic hair on his face! XP lol. And the lot of them are fat or something. Am I the only pretty guy here? *meep*

Hahah...funny. But anyways...I've got somethings to do...I might look around Portland today...I might buy some chocolates for my boyfriend too! :3

I know its really odd...but I mean...tomorrow is going to be our 2 month anniversary. Im really happy cause he is my first relationship and I want him to be with my forever...and I want to be his that way as well. But I better get going and start working on my project! :3

Okay, I just typed a shit load and I pushed next and it deleted everything so now I dont have much time to type so Im just going to summarize my day.

Bought Gravitation EX 1

Got called for a job by my school yesterday, going to check it out after school.

Drew another picture for my boyfriend.

Doing ice sculpture today.

Doing a surprise creative project for myself at school tomorrow and friday.

Not sick feeling anymore.

Found out that I need to pay for the promise necklaces with debt card not cash.

Might take a new picture of myself, it has to look good.

Still wanting to have a picture of me and my boyfriend together in a picture.

Gonna talk to my externship coordinator.

And I began to play Final Fantasy III from the very beginning on the Nintendo DS.

*meep* Right now thats all I have to say...now Im going to quote Mrs. Garrison.

"WHO WANTS TO POUND MY VAG!?!"

Hello, its been a long weekend...I spent some time with my boyfriend! :3 I really enjoyed it...but he left on Saturday night to have some fun so yeah...I didnt mind.

Though I had a little bit of a tough time getting home...bus fare raise their prices by 5 cents. So it costs $2.05 for a bus trip home...*meep* Im so used to just showing my badge...but Im going to buy a new one today with the money my parents gave me...

I've been playing WoW on my boyfriend's account...*meep* I started a Troll Hunter and then I started a Troll Priest...I think the priest is working better for me...lol...though its harder to take on loads of monsters with him.

My boyfriend bought some ice cream and he didnt like it so he gave it to me...lol. *meep* It wasnt bad it just tasted a little weird...

But I feel odd somehow...ever since this morning...I've been feeling sick...I've been coughing and my stomach feels...weird somehow. My throat hurts a little and I've felt perfectly fine when I was over there with my boyfriend...but since I came back...*meep* So weird.

I have to say Im almost done with my boyfriend's birthday gift. Im happy about that...

But Im a little irratated...I was sitting on the bus and a lot of smelly guys were sitting next to me and their stink rubbed off on me so I smell like a hobo! :[

I dont like to stink...its gross...*gag* I took a shower this morning too...damn stinky hobo men... X(

And its September...Im going to be getting ready to be leaving this November...its getting really close...Im really nervous though! XP

(+++) This like whoa...
(++) Oh my! <3
(+) I like it
(~) Indifferent/undecided
(-) Not my thing
(--) Turn-off
(---) My mouse is on its way to Back button
(?) Never saw that before

Anal on Males (+++) <*meep* Im gay! But IM a bottom so yeah!>
Anal on Females (---) <YUCK!>
Breasts (+++) <Men's chests are the best ever!>
Breast Expansion (---) <no way>
Weight Gain (~) <It depends but I dont care...people gain and lose weight everyday...>
Bondage (+++) <Its hot.>
Clothing (+++) <I like riping the clothes off! >
Leather (+) <I like it but its something that Im not crazy about...>
Stockings (?)
Shoe/Boots (?)
Suit and Tie (?)
Muscle, Male (+++) <I love the muscle! Im into Muscle Worship!>
Muscle, Female (---) <Yucko>
Herm (---)
Cub (?)
Baby/Diaper (---)
Transformation (+) <Its okay...>
Macro/Micro (?)
Impregnation (?)
Pregnancy (~) <I wouldnt mind if it was me I guess...>
Lactation (---)
Vore (?)
Paw/Foot (+++) <I dont know why but I love feet! :3
Incest (?) <I dont know what that is...
Yuri (F/F) (---)
Yaoi (M/M) (+++) <GRAVITATION!!!>
Hetero (M/F) (---)
Bi (+) <They would want to have sex with women too...or they wouldnt mind it...it opens the door too much for me.>
Girly Boys (---)
Butch Girls (~) <I dont mind them...lol.>
Mind Control (?)
Rape (+) <Only but my boyfriend! ;3>
Uniform (++) <Kind of hawt!>
Orgy (+++) <Um...lol...>
Subbing/Domming (+++) <Im totally Submissive!>
Biting (++) <BITE ME!>
Cheesecake (~) <eh...>
Solo Masturbation (+) <*meep*>
Scat (---) <O.O>
Inflation (?)
Fat/Pudge (-) <Eh...>
Tech (?) <What?>
Watersports (++) <*meep* Um...lol.>
Glasses (~) <I dont care...>
Tentacles (~) <...>
Oviposition (?)
Masochism (+++) <Im totally a masochist...I guess...>
Sadism (?)
Multiple body parts (?) <What?>
Partial Nudity (+++) <its like...really tense!>
Gore/guro (?) <?>
Snuff (?)
Hyper (?)
Zoophilia (?)
Electricity/e-stim (?)
She-males (---) <Ew..>
Cross-dressing (---) <Hello?>
Skunk spray (---) <Nasty stinkyness.>
Oral (+++) <Im totally oral! :3>
Asphyxiation (?)
Mandy Moore (?)
Anthros (++) <They're really hawt!>

Well today is Friday! WOO!!

Things are going fine...I spent all last night drawing. Yesterday after school I went into this art shoppe across the school to check it out and they have a shit load of stuff...*meep* I bought a new folder so I can hold pages for my rough draft of my graphic novel when I start working on it...and I bought a book, "Fantasy Cartooning" So yeah...I spent like altogether $15. *meep* Hey I still have alot of money...I just wanted to buy something for when I give my boyfriend this fold of my art that I was making for his birthday gift.

The computer shut off unexpectedly right when I was about to write a blog...turned completely off...when I touched the 'enter' button on the keyboard...so it was really weird...like...Freakazoid weird.

Im going to be staying down there with my boyfriend until Monday cause I have no school this Monday. *meep* And I had to take a drug test yesterday...I was so nervous...I didnt have to pee at all for a while...and I was like...I feel weird...lol...the 3rd try was the charm though...*meep* And I'll be getting the results in a few days I guess...hehe...this drug test is a part of being accepted into the Yosmeti National Park in California. So yeah...Im excited for it...and next week is my final week for Advanced Garde Manger.

Heh. So Im really happy though I still dont have my knife kit...my parents dont know cause they would get pissed at me...especially my dad...

I'd better get going...the faster Im done with today...the sooner I get to spend time with my darling Leo! :>

I did some cleaning yesterday and I got $10! :3

WOO!

Im getting closer to be getting that promise necklace for my boyfriend...and plus Im happy too cause tomorrow is Friday and Im going to be heading down there to see him! :3 *chuckles* MY MAN! :>

I had this weird dream that I was at this water park and I found $16 dollars in the water...lol...it was weird...some kid was trying to get it and he threw a fit cause I got to it first. But I left right after I got the money...lol...hey its not stealing when nobody is around the money or yeah...finders keepers! X3

I was so bored yesterday so I went to see Justin...and my friend Ryan...gosh...he sets a bad example for Brandon (Justin's tiny brother). I mean...he loud and he's doing tobacco in Justin's room. I cant believe it...its insane...*shakes head* I cant tell him what to do cause its his decision but I dont agree with what he's doing.

Good thing though last night I went to bed early. So yeah...Im a bit more um...energized. *blah* Heh. Im re-working on the comic strip from the other day...its really funny! :3

"ITS LIKE GUM!!!"

Hahah...omg...the condom...lol.

Woo...lol...still a little tired...I stayed up until 10:30 pm. *blah* Yeah...I was playing that new .HACK game and I played until 9:30 pm...I just relaxed in my bed thinking about Chris for an hour...*laughs*

Heh. I drew something funny in class yesterday since my friend was like...they look like condoms and I was like...I dont wear condoms...lol...so I based it off of that...and made a funny story out of it! XP

Its cute and silly.

I've been having these weird tastes...I mean...I've had this sweet tooth for like a week...and I ate like...10 candy bars and had like 8 sodas this week. OMG! XP Im totally gorging out. I dont like it...but Im not fat...I LOST 7 more lbs! So from 197 lbs...I now weigh 180 lbs now...god. Maybe its from me exercising...like sit ups and stuff...and doing that sword practice stuff?

I got to tell my mom that I need to do a drug test for the California extern. So I have to do it today or tomorrow...*meep*

Im excited to see Chris. I havent seen him for a while...*blinks and laughs* I cant really remember when the last time I saw him too...its been a while...like a week or so...lol. I saw him on a week day so I could give him food...but yeah! X3

This Friday Im going over though...I just have things to give and yeah...

:3 Im all lovey now...I want to be in my boyfriend's arms right now. I always feel like this when Im away. lol...I hug my pillow like crazy when I sleep! X3 I just pretend its Chris when I snuggle with it! :3

But yeah...Im working on forcemeat today in class...

Not looking forward to that...oh and some big news...somebody stole my knife kit and stuff so I have like...nothing left for me to work with...it really sucks! I have to borrow the teachers extra stuff for me to actually work in class...damn the students who steal things just to make a profit...

But yeah...thats all whats going on...right now anyway...

Blah...still kind of tired...did my interview yesterday so they'll call me if they find a position open for me.

Gosh...yesterday I was so lazy...and plus my mom made a big ol mess in the kitchen...she doesnt clean as she goes so it looks like a mess! XP

I tried to do Blogger yesterday but it was all messed up...and I cant log into it! XP It sucks...I dont know why though.

Hmm...well anyway...I've been pretty busy and I had an odd dream last night...I liked it though...I had a dream that I was on an adventure with Lara Croft...in some kind of jungle...it was spooky and fun. But she was like all demanding and stuff...she would say stuff like...hold on...or somethings not right. Alot of booby traps went off in this temple in this tree...its was all wobbly and stuff...I almost got hit by a boulder...I jumped back to dodge it...*meep* And then I saw Peter Pan after our adventure was done and me and Lara flew by his side...its like...weird...lol...I was like...I dont need pixie dust...love makes me glide! :3 And I turned upside down...lol...I guess I was trying to float on my back or something but it turned out wrong! XP

Then some kind of battle started and we started to run back to the town in the mountain and people were mainly shooting at Lara...I took out some odd gun and started to take people out...(they didnt see me) then they looked at me and then I started to run toward town as I shot at them...*meep* It was pretty actiony I guess...a great battle...so exciting...*sighs* Yeah yeah! :3

Peter Pan got depressed though afterwards...I dont know why though.

I got a black box to do today...so I might have some trouble...wish my luck I guess! X3

Whew...Im sort of tired...I didnt go to my boyfriend's this weekend cause he was really busy! Xp

Im fine about it though...he had to open up a bank account and was looking for an appartment with his friends. So his weekend was really busy...I made him pizza...but I froze it so that I could bring it to him this next Friday.

*meep*

So yeah...I dont know why but I've been watching Sailor Moon...I like that show alot I guess...I perfer it over Inu-yasha! Xp Its cool...I got up to episode 6! X3 But the next one I need to watch is 7.

I cleaned my room up and I sort of got inspired to do a graphic novel...going through all my old art...lol...gave me some ideas. And the stuff I kept throughout my life...I have to say I look pretty cute as a middle schooler! Xp

Oh and I found my Spongebob Squarepants watch...(patrick) lol. From 2004. Im wearing it now...it still looks and works like it was new. I like it! :3 So yeah...hehe...been pretty busy doing some chores at home so I can get some extra cash for the promise necklace I want to get for Chris. Almost halfway there...lol.

Im so tired though...maybe I should try to go to bed earlier or something...its hard to do so cause my room is so hot...no windows or any place where cold air can come in...so yeah...it sucks...its also hard to sleep in there cause I have a window in my door and I dont sleep well with lights on unless Im up too late...and I dont want to stay up until I pass out...its not good for me.

I have some things to do but I just have to do this interview here at the school to see if I can get a work/study thing going on to earn cash that way. *meep* I really need to earn money before I go to California for 3 months. Then Im going to come back for Chris and live with him! :3 *excited* But yeah...Im just happy that I got to hear his voice last Friday! X3

1) How old are you?

19

2) Height?

6'4"

3) You got any bad habits?

Im very...um...hehe...clingy I guess...oh...and I love to show off my moves.

4) You a virgin?

Um...no! *blushes*

5) Who's your mate/spouse?

He is a black wolf! :3

6) Have any kids?

No way...Im gay...if I did I would be the one who bares them! XP

7) Favorite food?

SEAFOOD! :3

8) Favorite ice cream flavour?

Um...*blinks* pina colata! :3

9) Killed anyone?

Well...in my travels I do have some things that get in my way...Im the oracle who is supposed to save the world...what am I to do?

10) Hate anyone?

Im not a hateful person...

11) Any secrets?

Well...everybody has secrets...but I cant tell mine...

12) Love anyone?

I love my wolf! ;3 *glomps him*

13) TACOS?

Hehe...I like them...but its really easy to make!

14) Ever slept in all day?

Yes...being bed ridden sucks...damn pneumonia and the flu...

15) Favorite show?

Well...we have tv but Im too busy out adventuring...

17) Favorite band?

Um...their's the Rainbow Paws...I met them a few times but Im too busy traveling...and I do occassionally have a little time for a tiny concert.

18) Eye Colours?

Steel Purple

19) Skin?

I would say that its somewhat rough and soft.

20) Fat/Average/Slim?

Im a bit over average...and I have a bit of a build! Xp

21) Rain, sunshine?

I love that rain! :3 Its fun!

22) Pool, beach?

The pool...Im too scared of deep water! XP

23) Camping, staying home?

Both...but camping is something I do time to time when Im not near any towns, villages or whatnot.

24) Dog, cat?

Im a feline...and my hunny is a canine.

25) Believe in aliens?

I have came across some occassionally...though they are pretty rare nowadays.

26) Natural born, or clone?

???

Im born from my father...the king and my mother the goddess.

27) Car or ship?

Car? Um...lol...we rely on airships...

29)Any unusual things about you?

I have the powers to summon the dieties and have untold power.

30) How much food/drink do you need a day?

Depends...sometimes I dont eat much.

31) Favourite place?

Any place that is beautiful...

Well...I decided to change the bracelet thing...Im going for a more...'special' matter...since he is my demon and Im his angel...Im going for this approach.

This will be my boyfriends necklace.

http://www.square-enix-shop.com/usa.....oduct/13_2.jpg

Reproduction of "FINAL FANTASY VII" Sephiroth's Black Materia "Meteor".

And this will be my necklace.

http://www.square-enix-shop.com/usa.....oduct/14_2.jpg

Reproduction of "FINAL FANTASY VII" Aerith's White Materia "Holy".

WOO! Im really happy. Okay...I have a poem site ya know? Well my poem that I wrote for my boyfriend has been selected to be published in a poetry book this September. Im so stoked about it...and plus...Im entered in a contest automatically and Im in the semi-finals! X3

What a surprise eh? I told my parents and my mom was happy though my father was not impressed he said it was a scam for my money and I was like...they arent scamming me...they are giving me a discount cause I have a poem in their book that they are going to publish it in. Its like originally $80 but I could get it for $50...and yeah...I might want to get it cause I never had anything published of mine yet. Im so excited...EEE! ;3

Oh and I stayed after yesterday and prepped for the thing i was going to make for my boyfriend Chris today after school...and I was going to go in today to see if I could do work/study. So that I could get a job without changing uniform or something cause yeah...they could help me with that. X3

*sighs*

So happy...my first poem to Chris is going to get published...I dont know what you guys are thinking but I think that this is a sign. I really do think Chris is the one...lol...EYA! Not from just the poem...but I've been getting alot of signs lately. I feel so enlightened...Im bonded to my leo. And my poem is called Bonds of Two. *meep* Gosh gosh gosh! X3 This is so killer! :3

Well I made some dessert for my boyfriend yesterday and I brought him some mozzerela cheese as well...I went over there and placed it in the fridge...I didnt think my boyfriend would be their...but he was...so I gave him kisses and stuff...

X3

Hehe...so yeah...I did some traveling yesterday and I was quite bored though...but it was worth it to see my Leo!

I got home and I got a letter in the mail, it was from Yosmeti parks...the place Im going to do my externship in November. They said that I have been accepted and now I need to do my drug screening test and stuff so Im probably going to do that after Im done with what Im doing after school today...Im just going to have to find a location to do it at.

My father wants me to stay down there in California when I graduate...its weird...I want to come back and live my life with Chris...not stay down in California...I already made plans for when Im done with it...god my dad always wants to mess with want I want to do in my life...its not his to rule over...its mine. Im going but after Im done Im leaving that place and coming to my boyfriend's arms.

I hung out with Jessica yesterday as well...we played games together and plus we drew together as well...we did a World of Warcraft theme...lol...she thought something was wrong with me cause the Tauren I drew was pretty morbid and punky! X3 She was like...you dont draw like that at all...and I was like...um...okay...lol.

I think its a good picture...and my boyfriend loves the Tauren so Im going to give it to him as a gift in the folder too! ;3 I dont really draw blood and stuff but its in that one picture...I dont think its depressing either...its cool looking...and HAWT! :3 Not as hot as my boyfriend though! ;3 *drools* lol. Well I got to head to class...Im dealing with curing, brines and rubs ! :3

Well, Ryan wanted to hang out yesterday...the dork...ate all of my Jelly Bellies...though I was like...fine you can have them...he's kind of a moocher now...yeah...and he snoops alot. I dont know why...and plus my mom told me that when I wasnt home he went in my room and grabed my new 'white' swimming trunks and was going to wear them to go swimming when I wasnt even home...I would say it was kind of rude. XP

But yeah...um...I had a test yesterday...it was okay..not that good at remembering names...lol...thats why you have to label stuff ya know! X3

Im going to do something nice for my boyfriend this week...Im staying after school one of these days...most likely tomorrow or friday. And Im going to make him his favorite food type...he's going to love it I know! X3 He doesnt get to eat much of my food cause other people eat it...so Im making him something great...I'm not saying what it is cause my boyfriend reads these! *laughs* But yeah...I want it to be a surprise! :3

Oh yeah...I was waiting for the bus yesterday in downtown Portland and I saw a homeless guy in a DRESS! O.O It was really scary...and I see people all the time looking in trash cans...I mean...why? Its insane. My father wasnt home yesterday...on his usual 1 day away per week trip. Its work related so yesterday was quiet and peaceful...I even got to hang out with my mom and told her more about me and my boyfriend...I guess Im getting more comfortable with her on that subject. Im still kind of shy about it though...but I think she has the right to know some stuff...

Im just excited to see my boyfriend again...its wednesday...I have to wait until Friday so that I can see him after school! X3 I need to start drawing again so I can finish that folder for him...its almost finished...so yeah...

X3

I dont know why but my father is being a yeller more often. He's just being super weird. *meep* Yelling at my mom saying that she is starting to be crappy towards him and I was like...okay...

Jeez. My dad...*sighs*.

But yeah...I went to bed early yesterday, around 5:30 pm and I woke up at 2 am cause I had a really bad dream...it was about huge spiders and stuff...*shivers* I wanted to call my boyfriend at 2 am...but I was like...I cant...even though he is usually up at that time...I couldnt disturb him cause I just wanted to go back to sleep.

Right now in class Im dealing with cheese and how to make it. Not that difficult to do...its really cool. And those people who love blue cheese...its basically mold that grows in the cheese that your eating...lol...Im serious...look it up! X3 The people who make it put holes in the cheese to let air in and allow mold to grow inside of the cheese!

Im just thinking about my boyfriend though...every time I look at the picture on my phone I just smile. *turns red* He just makes me happy. Ever since I've been together with him I havent been sick but I havent been sick for a while now anyways...but hey...hehe...

Did I say that I got a haircut as well? I dont remember...but yeah..I got one on Sunday...and then this morning...when I woke up I felt so soft to the touch...lol. But yeah...because of the nightmare I had earlier...the white in my eyes are gone and their like red now...gosh...it was horrific...I didnt like that dream one bit. Scary! XP

Well, gotta go!

My summer vacation went really well ( one week ) lol. I spent like 8 days over there with my boyfriend. Since August 10th to the 18th. I enjoyed being in his company...Im sure he was happy to be around me as well!

:3

Im just really happy Im with him. He just makes me happy. Though I do worry about him time to time when I dont know where he is though...but yeah, I know he can take very good care of himself. He's a strong man.

Though...I got home on Saturday my father got all angry and said that I didnt tell anyone where I was at and I was positive that I told my mother 1 week before my vacation that I was going to see my boyfriend for a while. But yeah...

I start my Advanced Garde Manger class today...for 3 weeks. I have 12 weeks lef on this stuff so yeah. XP

Pretty busy but still going to make some time to see my darling. Im quite happy with him. I cried...for such an idiotic thing though...but he sat to talk to me so that made me feel better! X3 He is so caring, we dont have many things in common but that doesnt mean that we dont like each other...it makes me more interested in him...opposites attract. He's my leo! :3 When Im done with my internship and my externship Im most likely going to move in with my boyfriend. Then I can truly live my life with him. He said himself that the day that I move in would be the luckiest day for him. He's so sweet! X3 Well...better be off for class! Gotta work hard for myself...and for my future (boyfriend).

I feel all weird right now...lol...I feel all excited and all that to see my boyfriend...Im just taking a chance like I usually do.

He might have work today...but Im willing to stay and wait for him...until he gets out of work like a good bitch! :3

Hehe...I think my boyfriend is great...though I want to take him home with me but I dont know what his schedual is like...I want to introduce him to my mom and stuff...my friends want to see him and plus I want to show him my room and all that.

Its so cold in here Im breaking out in a cold sweat!

I got clothes to wear for a couple of days...sheesh...I keep on thinking about the things that me and Chris do. Its so awesome! :3 He's my king...I'll treat him like royalty! :3

Today is my final day...I hope a teacher will come in early so I can finish it up completely...*meep* Im basically done though! XP

Its funny...some people dont know I am gay...heck on the bus ride home yesterday...I saw Ryan and he was like...you gay boy...and then his girl friend says, "your a pretty gay guy Sion."

I was like...pretty? Im pretty!? I start to blush and then some guy says that Im a sexy chef... XP I was wearing my school uniform...lol...god people are like complimenting me...and I feel a bit special...but Im like...I have a boyfriend you know...and they're like...you must be the bottom and I just turned completely red...OMG! X3

Gosh, today is the weirdest day, I woke up at 4:30 am and I was like, 'god I dont feel like getting up'. I didnt even take a shower. I dont stink so...lol.

But yeah...*meepers* I forgot to call my boyfriend last night...I was just too tired...all getting ready for my finals and all that. And plus my friend Justin came home yesterday, he was away for a while. Probably around a month or so.

So today, Im going to finish up everything for my finals tomorrow and then I'll be completely done with both of my classes for this 3 week period. Too bad I wasnt in any cooking classes...or something cause then I would've made something for my hunny.

Its getting colder and colder each day...it seems summer is beginning to end...and fast.

From my thoughts...it seems my boyfriend has started his job by now. So Im really happy for him. As for me I have figured out my problem. Im about to start my externship real soon and it starts in November...and I need to be able to stay in one place longer than 6 months. Or something...well I'll get paid on my Externship...but I really wanted to get my boyfriend that promise bracelet before I left...well if I get some work some how...I'll be able to get it...but I dunno. Maybe I should just focus on my boyfriend's art folder so that he'll have that when Im gone. Its going to be his anyways when Im done...I'm like more than halfway done. Im stoked on it! :3

Im a little 'worn out' from yesterday. Gosh...lol...actually I should say I worn myself out! Xp But yeah...I feel better today no doubt. All that stress and stuff...and seriously...I dont get stressed that easily. Im really easy going ya know.

Oh yeah...I forgot to talk about this subject. X3

Okay...when I was over at my boyfriend's parents house my brother called me, and he asked me if I was at my boyfriend's, I just said, 'yeah?!' and supposibly my father heard about that...and told him not to talk like that. My mother told him something...I dont really know what...but I think my father knows that I have a boyfriend now. He hasnt said anything to me yet...but if he is going to tell me to stop acting so stupid and dump him Im going to say NO.

Just because Im scared of my dad doesnt mean Im going to let him push me around...I love Chris alot and he means alot to my life. I'll protect Chris...and plus...Im old enough to make my decisions...and Chris isnt a mistake in my life. When I said yes to become Chris's boyfriend...I wasnt lying. I meant it.

Im not going to be pushed around...well...only playfully by my boyfriend but thats different! X3

So yeah...*meep* Still drawing...hehe...

I've been drawing lately...I mean...things have been swirling in my mind...I cannot stop thinking about Chris.

Once I graduate this college Im going to have to pay it off as much as I can a month...so when I start living with my boyfriend...and when I get a job...I'll have to pay to a minimum of $100 or more a month. so yeah.

This guy here is talking about the payment back on financial aid....I dont know why but for some reason its making me pissed...*shrugs* I dont know why its weird. Maybe he's just annoying or something. But yeah...he's not very clear on what he is saying...maybe Im having an anxiety attack or something...I feel so weird.

I just have to get a job is all...I dont have to worry about it for a long while but still. God now I cannot stop stressing about it...shut up you idiotic man thats only here to make money on taking money from others! XP

Some people just have an easy life by taking the money of others. Its just so idiotic.

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Aquarius and Leo:

This can be a very challenging and exciting relationship. Leo and Aquarius are an interesting combination of passion, friendship and sexuality. There will never be dull moments with these two. Social groups and events will keep the relationship stimulating. Both need independence and share similar creative abilities.

Leo and Aquarius will share an interesting love affair and sex life. Over time, one of them could fall in love quickly. Aquarius needs to give Leo applause for effort and laughter. Aquarius could bring spirituality to Leo's life. A big bonus for Leo! These two should get a room.

Compatibility rating: 3 of 4

Aquarius is the experimenter and wants to enjoy a relationship without losing his freedom or individuality over it. He may be kinky in bed.

Leo is the performer and wants to be adored and respected. This sign will shower you with love and playful sex.

Yeah...so this is me and my boyfriend's zodiac...Im Aquarius and he's the Leo.

Its like they say...opposites attract! X3

Well, things are going fine, I got home safely yesterday.

I got off the bus around Fred Meyers and I saw Ryan so I hung out with him as I was walking home and I checked in with Denny's and the pizza joint as well.

Ryan sure is silly but yeah...he left to go home as I did. And I ate some food and I played the PSP as I layed on my bed. 3 pm came around and I started getting tired due to lack of sleep from the weekend due to worry and being around my boyfriend. But it was okay. I slept from 3:30 pm to 8:30 pm and I ate around half and hour...9 pm came and I called my boyfriend and afterwards I went to bed and got up around 4:30 am...so I had alot of sleep...a little drowsy though.

So I have the rest of this week for the finals and Im going to stay after a little today so that I can get my english project done...and then finish up some stuff for my restaurant management class.

Yeah in class was pretty weird though...this girl Martha was in a cuddly mood and I was like...ew...everybody laughed and I was like...I only cuddle with my boyfriend! X3 So yeah...*meep* I dont know what to really say cause this guy just dissed me and I was like...hey...I love him so you better back off.

Gosh people can be so retarded! Better get ready for class and homework!

Oh and today is me and my boyfriend's 1 month anniversary! :3 So yeah...Im happy! :3