Well it seems another year as well as another decade has passed and I for one am not sorry to see it. A decade that has seen tragedy for this country and the loss of what I can only call our blind ignorance of just how much this country is truly despised. A decade that saw $4.50 a gallon gasoline which to someone who can remember gas as low as .60 some cents a gallon mind blowing. a decade that saw the near economic and financial collapse of the US...
As for this last year though, to me, it has been far more troublesome than the entire last decade. The year had barely begun before I lost the last member of my mother's family, her sister and my aunt. She was the last connection I had to my mother and will miss her as much as I still miss Mom. On top of this my father has been suffering on and off this year with severe arthritis. It has gotten so bad at times I have truly been afraid of loosing him also. He's 81 so the possibility is there but to see someone who's always been so strong to slowly deteriorate under the grip of this has cause me many a sleepless night and more fears and worries than I can even begin to mention.
Then in late August I started getting twinges of pain in my left hip which by mid November had evolved into full blown agonizing arthritis as well. For the better part of a month I was barely able to move without screaming out in pain. As I write this though mine has eased up to the point where I am almost back to normal, but my father is again suffering another severe bout of it and is almost incapacitated once more. On top of all this fun our water pump decided to let go three days ago and I've been running myself ragged between keeping an eye on him and trying to get another pump. As I said I am in no way sorry to see this last year and decade pass. I just hope 2010 and the next decade brings nothing but good for everything and everyone.

Well the night is upon us. All Hallows Eve, the night when the walls between the worlds grows thin and spirits walk the earth. A night of copious candy consumption for some, for others imbibing quantities of other "spirits". Either way a night of fun and revelry for all. For me it is my 42nd Halloween, and something I hope I never will get tired of for as long as I live. It is also special in respects to my furness. It was the Halloween of 1985 when I first found it, it was also the night I took on the name of Werewulf, a name I still hold with pride. It was also the night I was brought into my pack... Though the years have passed and I rarely hear or meet any of my old pack mates they are still with me and I with them in heart, in mind, and in spirit. As I've gotten older Halloween's come to mean something more somber too. In the days of the Celts it was the changing of the year, Halloween being New Year's Eve. With the bonfires and the dancing and the hope of a new year being fruitful and productive. It has begun to become to me the changing of the year too, with the scent of wood smoke and the scent of leaves dancing and wafting on the breeze like the smoke from the pyre where all the pains, problems, troubles, sorrows, and disappointments of the passing year are burnt and the negativity is released with the hope for a new and better year to come. So with that I would like to wish all you that might read this a fun, festive, and reflective night and the hope for betters things to come tomorrow.

(as usual I have no idea who will read this or if it even will be read, just something I wanted to say)

Earlier today I had reason to go to that quintesential part of country life, the local country fair. There is no doubt what season it is when you hear the carnival music and catch the whiff of corndogs, sausage, onion rings, and a meriad of other gastronomic delicacies on the breeze. Our local one is no different or so I thought until today. I have not been to it in almost 20 years so you can imagine the changes that have been made and how stunned/surprised I was when I went in. The last time I went there were still displays of tractors, plows, mowers, and other import farm equipment, farm made goods, demonstrations, etcetera. What I found this year was split between commercial food booths, and jewelery booths for the most part. Gone were the tractors, the equipment, the displays of home canned goods, jellies and the like. The fair lot was huge but I was still able to see everything in about 90 minutes, and that was taking my time. It use to take the better part of three hours.... Of all the non food/jewelery booths, I think there was like 10-15in all, there was one tool booth, got a set of security bits to take out those oddball screws factories love using to thwart us DIYers, and one fairly decent leather booth.... Other than that it was a complete waste of time and of the $10.00 admission. I guess a country fair has become a whole new animal that I don't even really recognize anymore, or really even want to know....

I hope you've all enjoyed this bunch, they are all I have at the moment I feel are good enough to post here. I am also going to be unable to post any further for a few weeks as that I am gonna be rather busy with other things. It's getting into the canning/pickling season here and we have a load of it to do this year. As soon as I can get the time I will try to resume posts of anything worthy enough for here. If I may I'd also like to take a moment to ask any who happen to read this if they have or know where I can find a good large sized image of a buck white tail looking straight on at the viewer I'd really appreciate it if you could give me a link or just e-mail me the image if you have it. I'm working on a white tail warrior and the face/head is driving me nuts to try and get right. Also if anyone knows of someone, another fur perhaps, who can recover data off a dead hard drive I could really use that info too. I have a dead one with a number of stories on it that would be perfect for here.... Anyhow thank you all for the comments, faves, and new watchers, gotta remember to keep the curtains pulled now...:D thank you all and I promise I will be back soon.

Never let it be said that I'm not one to take criticism, believe me I've gotten a lot of it over the years and try to use and lean from it. There is no harder critic though than myself and I know where all the short comings are in my work. My biggest problem/challenge is faces. I'm in no way consistent but do try my best. There are times when everything is clicking and I can come out with some pretty damned good stuff and there are others when about all I can say afterward is, "What the hell were you thinking?!" I've been into furry for a long, LONG time and have been drawing almost as long. I don't try to be a pro or use it as a source of income I do it because I like it and it is relaxing at times. I would love to be better but with my current situations drawing on a regular basis is almost impossible. I currently have the better part of a dozen pieces in the works, most a year or two old...I just don't have the time or the energy or the desire to sometimes... I am trying to do more on a more regular basis but it's a challenge in so many ways... Again I do appreciate all the comments and critiques I get from you and thanks.

The other day I was doing some cleaning and found a whole envelope of older works I had forgotten. I'll be posting the best I feel over the next few days 5 at a time. Most date from the late 90's with a few early 2000's mixed in. As always any comments are appreciated. Hope you like them.

Well summer's almost upon us and half a year is almost gone, where does it go... In regards to my last entry things have much improved with the individual I was referring to and we are once more on decent terms. This has also made me think a bit on a great many other things including FA here. First off thank you again to my watchers and to all that have favorited any of my submissions it is very much appreciated and am a bit humbled sometimes. I know my submissions are sporadic but I do try to post what I can when ever the opertunity arises. One main reason is because I have my hands full with home life and don't have the time to do anything submission worthy. The other is also due to my home life. With my current situation and things going on around me I get bouts of depression that are almost crippling where I have no interest or desire to do anything what so ever. Sparing you the details it's not the best of times for me. Now for anyone who knows me personally also knows I hardly ever complain or let on anything is wrong, I'm sure they would also all agree that I have emotional control that would make even a Vulcan turn green with envy. But sometimes the bottle just can't take any more pressure and the cork has to pop a bit... I'm gonna try to get some new stuff posed in the coming days as long as things will allow and pardon the bits of vented spleene all over the place, it's messy but it does feel good sometimes.

Something happened today that I knew would one day but hoped it'd never. Today I came to the unfortunate realization that people, no matter how long you may know them, even if they are your best of friends, may and probably will bite you in the end. I have known a certain individual for many, many years, the better part of 30 in fact and considered him one of my closest and dearest friends until now. The details aren't important but it now seems to me that his friendship was good for only as long as he got benefit from it... Be careful and wary of who you trust and call friends otherwise you might be learning the same hard, painful lesson that I am learning now.

Thank you all for the favs and to the two new watchers of mine, will try to keep you all happy. Not sure if or who actually reads these but to anyone who does thanks for taking a few moments to check me out, it's much appreciated.