When I get my surgery I won't be mobile for months. It will take a long time to recover from it. I am getting the surgery because I need it and don't want to be in pain anymore. The bonespurs and back pains are getting too much for me to handle without anxiety and I can't stand the pain.

Everything was peaceful and everyone got to be at the service. We then had a nice party at the clubhouse to celebrate my dad. So many refreshments and so many family members. I slept very good last night. ^^ I miss you all. My dad had a wonderful service.

I will let you all how it goes. Gonna have a family reunion and celebrate my daddy's freedom. He has been suffering for 12 years and now he is finally free. My phone is near death so I won't be able to chat for a while.

My dad has been in pain for all these 12 long years. All the pain he had was so stressful that he could not handle it on his own. He suffered like Prometheus (the liver thing) and there was no hope of curing the liver disease. Now that my dad is freed from his human bonds, he won't be in pain anymore. His funeral is about to be hosted this Saturday. A couple of men from the military will be there because he IS a veteran. He was in the U. S. Army long ago and had an honorable discharge. He was also a good scout master who taught us how to build a campfire in a conservationist way. It helped all of us. There are so many good things others remember about him. I will let you all know how the funeral goes.

Love you all,

Jacob D. Cleary

Low budget
About to lose house
Things around the world get expensive
Sore body which will need to be fixed
Don't have a fursuit yet (I should save up for a fursuit)
So much packing up to do and not much time to do it.
Gonna be at my dad's funeral

My dad finally passed on. He suffered for 12 years and after all the long agonizing pain and suffering, it has finally come to an end. My dad is now at peace and freed from his human bonds. My family and I will be having a funeral for my dad. He is with his daddy now.

Tribute to all furries who had a rough past:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yw4vSbwmP1Q

I can't keep assuming things about everyone. I just feel alone and cold inside (but it is no excuse for assuming anything about other characters). It hurts other people's feelings and therefore it is wrong. I don't ever want to assume the worst ever again. I just wanna be drama free for life. My dad is finally passing on and I am finally ready to let the past go. There is no need for me to panic anymore because Prometheus is finally being freed from his torment. All that remains is to save us and our prized possessions. But, for now, we need to get everything packed up in boxes and put in the storage unit until we have a new home and then we can take our prized possessions out of storage along with the stuff that is still in the house and transfer it all over to our proper homes and setup neatly and safely. Safety first.

Love you all,

Itachi Prower

P. S. I miss being with you all at the furry cons.

Gonna play some Wolfenstein (2009) and may need to build my skills if I am not able to do "I am Death Incarnate" and 100% the game and get all of the following achievements in one night:

Slumming
Man About Town
Monitor Tan
Single Quarter
Blitzkrige
Super Soldier

and when I finally get to the final level,

Conservationist

Here it is: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4493613/

It's so beautiful. ^^ and soothing

It's called Speed of Doom. I found out about it in this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8tL0oKE3oU It's a VERY hard game mod but the challenge is worth all the fun. I rely too heavily on cheats so I won't be doing the mod for a while.

Months ago when I was at work, I kept pushing more carts at once than my body could handle which is why I have been having bone spurs. I will need surgery to get the bone spurs out because as long as they're in my body, the pain will never stop. I will let you all know when I go to get surgery so you won't need to worry. I want to go back to work so I can make money for the fur cons and a fursuit because it's worth it. My mom is doing all she can to find someone who will help with the spurs and the pain the nerve damage caused me. Hopefully, my body will stop hurting and I will need to stick to light duties where it is safer than the carts. I will let you all know when I get the appointment.

Love you all,

Itachi Prower

I am listening to "Throat Full of Glass" by Combichrist (which is part of a soundtrack for a video game called DmC: Devil May Cry) and the song is awesome. It is the song I will start dancing to when I get a fursuit:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAOjPsvE8mc

My body is not ready because I will need surgery to get the bone spurs out of my body so they won't hurt me anymore because as long as I have spurs in my body I won't even be able to do the slightest task because of the pain I keep having and it will never stop as long my body has bone spurs. I hope to get well soon before Furpocalypse because I miss you all. I miss the fursuiters and I miss hugging each and every one of them. They are worth more to me than any kind of merchandise. The only merchandise I ever bought were goods my family would love because I knew I would one day make a successful effort to make my way to furry conventions because they are for charity and they are willing to help stop animal cruelty and protect animals. feed them. cherish them. care for them

Made it through the mall and took a look at GameStop. All I did was browse at there. But, I have a new phone to enjoy and will be home. The upgrade went perfectly. Gonna need to take care of Prometheus until my Rhea comes home.

Love you all,

Itachi Prower

I will be going to the mall in Bridgewater and heading to Verizon store. I will need to make sure to browse. I will let you know if I get a new phone through THAT phone and, hopefully, it will work well without any discord. My current one keeps backing out. I am proud of my laptop because it allows me to commune with all of you (and,most importantly, our beloved Queen). I also need to look at some games at Gamestop (though I am already happy with my collection of games) and see what new ones there are. I will let you all know how it goes. Love you all.

Itachi Prower

My fursona Itachi-Prower is the best mascot for the M-Rated games and Id Software's FPS games from Doom to Wolfenstein and so on along with DmC Devil May Cry and others. I have a collection of games and movies. It has been so long since I last did a let's play on youtube. I will need to use the cam as I used to but I will need to make sure everyone can see. I may as well save up for two things after Furpocalypse. One of them is a fursuit and the other is Anthrocon. True Love is ABSOLUTELY worth it. For now, I will need to get my body fixed because I am powerless to do even the simplest things when the pain takes over. I sometimes do work but I need to get better. I need to exercise my body and get my strength back up so I can go to work again and make funds for the furry cons. The animals need all the help they can get.

I have so many obsessions with doing everything at once and I have to get them all out of my head but I can't get all of them out at once. If you are going to be a parent/spouse then please overcome all obsessions. I will need to nuke all my shouts because i wanna be able to move on to a better future to enjoy with everyone instead of letting the pain and/or the past hold me back. I miss you all and missing out on the furry cons took its toll on me in the worst way possible. The pain is too great for me to talk about it online. I prefer to keep it private so I would rather talk to a furry in person about it instead of posting on the internet where people can call it playing hooky. That's what I'm afraid of.

Missing out on the furry cons has taken its toll on me. I miss all our furry sweethearts. Next year (2016), I wanna go to Anthrocon again just to be with our beloved cupcake queen because if it weren't for her I would never have made it through 2014. I still feel pain in my right hip and I have been having my mind run wild (except while I was with the reindeer) for a while and all that but I am on a new medication now. I am taking it with my other meds. I will still be available online. I won't always be on the net because I am a VERY forgetful person and I am sorry I haven't been talking to anyone. I just want to make Furpocalypse so I can take photos to post here and show everyone.

Miss you all

I'm just getting packed and ready for my trip to hang out with a friend in CT. I will be there for the weekend and he'll hopefully have some wifi so that hopefully we can keep in touch. I will let you know when I am at his house.

Love you all

This manipulative devil https://www.facebook.com/people/Zoe.....00008920111803 has been manipulating me just to find reasons to block me. I just hate that manipulative little devil who would rather be disappointed in me than appreciate my honesty. I never lied to the person. That lady used to be a boy but I didn't know that I was in a relationship. I was role-playing with her(him) and because I was broken-minded, the little cheat took advantage. I want revenge so badly but karma is gonna do a sneak attack on me if I take revenge. I just hope someone puts the cheater down and on punishment for setting expectations high and not caring how hard it is on me.

Furpocalypse is drama free. All who want to be drama free are most welcome to go to Furpocalypse (which is on Halloween weekend and starts on mischief night) and relax. Feel free to vent before and/or after the con. If you need to vent during the con, find a private place to vent you you can vent without anyone getting upset or complaining about it. I care for all of you. Please be G-Rated because the little kids and the children wanna have fun too. For best results, don't touch alcohol. If you wanna go to the bar, have non-alcoholic beverages and stay sober because we all care for you all. Have all the fun you want at the con because the fun is unlimited ^^ and please be safe.

Love you all,

Itachi Prower

https://furpocalypse.org/

got the sleep gas in it did more to help that doctors to give me the shot I needed to help me with the pain than all else. This is the second time I had the shot. The first one I had was a day after I has a seizure which gave me psychosis and I had some coffee despite the advice to not eat or drink before the procedure. This time I didn't eat or drink and I did a LOT better than last time because (apparently) it works better on people with an empty stomach than it does on those who ate/drank. My loving mom is making sure I have my seizure meds to keep my psychosis at bay (which is a good thing) because my psychosis was so bad that it made me infight against my sister-in-law on facebook and the madness was so bad that it scared the living daylights out of her (and my mother and brothers) which was unpleasant and frightening. I will never forget how bad my psychosis was due to how much of a revenant I have become. I will need to stay on my seizure meds for a while because I never know when the nightmares will rule me and I don't EVER wanna assume ANYTHING bad about ANYONE, ANYWHERE, ANYTIME in ANY way, shape, and/or form. I will continue to keep in touch.

Love you all,

Itachi Prower

My body has been having the bone spur pinching my nerves for so long and it is hurting like hell upon heaven. I will have an epidural injection on the 31st this month. After that, I will want a whole month of peace and quiet. I haven't been able to sleep well with the pain keeping me up all the time and I can't even concentrate on the video games. Sooner or later I will need surgery and (after that) need lots of sleep and then some rehabilitation so I will be able to work again. I miss being able to make money for the animals because I wanna get back to it so badly. That's why I need to start taking naps and having ice water. I miss you all.

Love you all,

Itachi Prower

My mom and I found a special something called group therapy. I have the ABSOLUTE feeling that it actually WILL help us. ^^ We all could us it. It will welcome all who want to join in as it will help EVERYONE. ^^

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Group_psychotherapy

My mom and I both want and need someone who will help autistic adults because I myself am an autistic adult. Everyone we found that was into autism would only handle children and the only adults who could get help were non-autistic. There hasn't been a single psychiatrist who will assist an autistic adult anywhere. I live in Bound Brook, NJ so please let me know if there is anyone who can help us find a psychiatrist who loves furry and will help autistic adults, please let me know.

Love you all