So I am going to be deleting both my Twitter accounts within the next week. I'm making note of artists I like and seeing where they are also available.

Twitter is no longer a safe place and has become nothing but an echo chamber for the intolerant.

If you want to follow me, I have a NSFW Bluesky available at
https://bsky.app/profile/siruseinzla.bsky.social

I'll probably make a more SFW and Casual Bluesky account at later date, but for now, damage control.

We lost one of our Huskamutes this morning. Lucian had been dealing with hookworms and then need surgery for a blockage. It turns out cancer had been the main cause and they couldn't do anything to help him...

It's that time of year again, time for my depression and anxiety to creep up on me like a bad itch that won't go away...

Some of you may have already noticed, and if you haven't, I'm sorry. I'm not one to openly tell people something is wrong. I am going to be absent for awhile, dunno when I'll be back.

We had to put down another one of our dogs today. Bernie wasn't doing well and we didn't want him to suffer anymore. He goes now to the Rainbow Bridge to be with Skye and Dakota...

Rest In Peace Bernie, Run Around Pain Free.
2011-2023

Figured I'd try typing this out just to explain why I was taking the break from earlier this month as well as have this on hand to show others instead of repeating myself.

1. May(and my birthday) for the past couple of years has always caused my anxiety and depression to go up for reasons I won't publicly go into. (If you know, you know.)
2. Something a friend(Or whom I thought was a friend) posted caught my attention, and when I asked them about the topic in question and my possible involvement, they left me on read and ghosted me everywhere. (Can just imagine the field day my anxiety was having at the time.)
3. There has been trouble at my job, I've had a daytime/closing assistant who has been hounding me and getting on my case ever since I corrected something he did that was wrong. Since then, he has been yelling at me whenever he see's me and does all he can to try and make my job harder. I HAVE tried to get upper management to take care of this, but the store manager and other coaches just keep telling me to stay out of his way, I am waiting for my specific management to get back from their vacation as well as a response from regional.
4. Last month I tried to get into D&D again in my local area. I managed to get into a group at my local library and things seem to go well for the first few sessions. However at the start of the 7th when I got to the library early, the DM and one other player confronted me outside and more or less forced me out of the game on grounds that I was making the only female player uncomfortable and even accused me of being a creep to her, despite me only having interacted with her a handful of times in game and that was mainly during group discussion, otherwise I never spoke to her at length before and after our games. ( I swear, I am doomed to never actually get to play any TTRPG fully no matter who I play with.)
5. And this is very recent, last night recent in fact. I was suppose to have part of next week off for my birthday, which was initially approved. However when I get into work last night, the store manager confronts me and tells me I can no longer have those days off, and goes on a spiel how I shouldn't have asked/had them approved anyways cause "It's memorial day week, too many people asked for it off, and you were the last person to ask for it." I don't know if the asshole from 3 was involved in some form, but this has already put an even bigger damper on my mood.

I'm technically back from my break, but I'm still not at 100%, so if you know me on telegram/discord, unless we are really close or my mood is in one of its better swings, don't expect much interaction from me for the time being.

I'm sorry for anyone I worried for my abrupt absence.

Going to be taking a break from being online for awhile. Depression and anxiety have been setting back in hard, as well as things happening irl and some things that people have brought up the past few days have made me feel like shit...

Don't know when I'll be back.

Our husky, Dakota, had to be put to rest this morning. Parents woke up to her having seizures and not responding to us. Doctors told us that part of her brain is dead possibly from her diabetes and there is no recovery.

Good bye baby girl... We all loved you...

So I may have contracted covid. I have a fever of 101, aches and pains all over my body as well as coughing and congestion. However I won't be able to find out till next Tuesday though cause that is the earliest I can get an appointment and no take home tests are available. Ordering on amazon just makes the delivery date the same as the appointment and the closest urgent care clinic would charge like 180 USD for a damn test. I'm going to try and hold onto hopes that I may have just caught the flu, but until I can get a test, I won't be sure. And knowing my workplace(walmart), they are more likely to fire me for calling out so much for being sick or make me work while sick.