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Protruding bone. HELP?
General | Posted 14 years agok so ive been in excruciating pain the last two days (wisdom teeth pulled i thought it was normal) until my friend pointed out tears dripping down my face. i was like HOLYSHIT im crying.
went to the boys room to just inspect my mouth see if things are otay..
everthing looked pretty decent. a bit pink/puffy but i mean COME ON that SHOULD be like that hahaha
then i saw it.
piercing white. all along the side of my mouth where the pain is radiating from. i thought i had pulled a few stitches yesterday when teh pain really kicked in.. i think it might be exposed jaw bone since its all along the back of my mouth not just a small portion. i believe its like a quarter to a half inch in length no more than 2 centimeters wide at the widest point.. fully exposed. pretty white, but thats where it hurts most.
do u think its jaw bone? fragmented bone? or a infection? i tried calling my doc today but he was unavailable. should be going tomorrow. my T3 pills arent doing shit for that. my entire mouth feels like pure awesome except that one spot where it literally feels like someone shot me with a 12 gauge.
input? or am i just totally freaking out over stitches? (plausible)
went to the boys room to just inspect my mouth see if things are otay..
everthing looked pretty decent. a bit pink/puffy but i mean COME ON that SHOULD be like that hahaha
then i saw it.
piercing white. all along the side of my mouth where the pain is radiating from. i thought i had pulled a few stitches yesterday when teh pain really kicked in.. i think it might be exposed jaw bone since its all along the back of my mouth not just a small portion. i believe its like a quarter to a half inch in length no more than 2 centimeters wide at the widest point.. fully exposed. pretty white, but thats where it hurts most.
do u think its jaw bone? fragmented bone? or a infection? i tried calling my doc today but he was unavailable. should be going tomorrow. my T3 pills arent doing shit for that. my entire mouth feels like pure awesome except that one spot where it literally feels like someone shot me with a 12 gauge.
input? or am i just totally freaking out over stitches? (plausible)
WHATS NEW PUSSY CAT?!? woah woahhh woaahh woah woah woah.
General | Posted 14 years agohey everyone sorry ive been MIA.
holidays took a toll on me and on the.. 28th? yup. 28th i got 3 wisdom teeth yanked out and about a half inch of jaw bone removed as well. needless to say im sitting on my bed popping T3 pills (not allowed to have vicodin) which sucks.. stitches wont stop bleeding and im a tad worried that i may have popped a stitch because theres this ungodly airpocket popping sound coming from one of my wounds. really grossing me out. and its the side that wont stop bleeding SOoooo.. fingers crossed it stops today.
havent really eaten in the last few days. lost 7 lbs since my surgery xD i should do this more often!
ugh so yeah. sorry ive been gone. working on some drawings/adoptable things.. stay tuned.
holidays took a toll on me and on the.. 28th? yup. 28th i got 3 wisdom teeth yanked out and about a half inch of jaw bone removed as well. needless to say im sitting on my bed popping T3 pills (not allowed to have vicodin) which sucks.. stitches wont stop bleeding and im a tad worried that i may have popped a stitch because theres this ungodly airpocket popping sound coming from one of my wounds. really grossing me out. and its the side that wont stop bleeding SOoooo.. fingers crossed it stops today.
havent really eaten in the last few days. lost 7 lbs since my surgery xD i should do this more often!
ugh so yeah. sorry ive been gone. working on some drawings/adoptable things.. stay tuned.
Oh christmas.. everyones lying.
General | Posted 14 years agoso sick of this bullshit.
I spend HUNDREDS of dollars on my family. about 50-150 on each person depending on how close i am with them. I put on my cheery face, smile, laughs, try to be the best person i can be. try to stray from anything controversial that might arise just so i can get through the night.
but of course..
someone brought up the fact that i do not partake in christianity, Catholicism, or any subcategory of the above. Comes up EVERY fucking year.
YES. I PARTAKE IN TEH CHURCH OF SATAN.
NO. I DONT WORSHIP SATAN.
if youre not familiar with the REAL church of satan i suggest you research it.
so fucking all night i was called satan worshiper. was isolated and left by myself all night once that sprouted. so of course i exploded. started screaming at people losing my cool. had a few drinks in me which didnt help. ended up just throwing everyones gifts at them and said that they were all brainwashed into believing that a baby JEW was the son of their CHRISTIAN god. that he was actually born in april or march not december and that christians used the date december 25th to overlap other religions holidays. amongst a few other things i remember screaming:
merry fucking christmas from the satan worshiper and left.
which sucks.
because for the first time in oh.. 12 years? i actually asked for something for christmas which i knw i wont recieve now. guess ill buy it for myself.
so yeah. having a terrible christmas. just because i look the way i do, and because im not fucking christian im outcast. sick of it. its disgusting.
I spend HUNDREDS of dollars on my family. about 50-150 on each person depending on how close i am with them. I put on my cheery face, smile, laughs, try to be the best person i can be. try to stray from anything controversial that might arise just so i can get through the night.
but of course..
someone brought up the fact that i do not partake in christianity, Catholicism, or any subcategory of the above. Comes up EVERY fucking year.
YES. I PARTAKE IN TEH CHURCH OF SATAN.
NO. I DONT WORSHIP SATAN.
if youre not familiar with the REAL church of satan i suggest you research it.
so fucking all night i was called satan worshiper. was isolated and left by myself all night once that sprouted. so of course i exploded. started screaming at people losing my cool. had a few drinks in me which didnt help. ended up just throwing everyones gifts at them and said that they were all brainwashed into believing that a baby JEW was the son of their CHRISTIAN god. that he was actually born in april or march not december and that christians used the date december 25th to overlap other religions holidays. amongst a few other things i remember screaming:
merry fucking christmas from the satan worshiper and left.
which sucks.
because for the first time in oh.. 12 years? i actually asked for something for christmas which i knw i wont recieve now. guess ill buy it for myself.
so yeah. having a terrible christmas. just because i look the way i do, and because im not fucking christian im outcast. sick of it. its disgusting.
ZOMG CHRIMMASS
General | Posted 14 years agomerry chrimmass eberyone.
cant wait!
what did ya'll ask for!?!?!?!?!?
i asked for ONE thing this year. a silver tabby kigirumi >~< want so bad. sweet lord. anyway.
what are all your plans for the holiday season???!?! tonight im getting drunker than a bum in vegas. which if u dont know, is pretty friggen drunk.
warning: if i have your number you will be texted hahaha just how i rolllllllll.
cant wait!
what did ya'll ask for!?!?!?!?!?
i asked for ONE thing this year. a silver tabby kigirumi >~< want so bad. sweet lord. anyway.
what are all your plans for the holiday season???!?! tonight im getting drunker than a bum in vegas. which if u dont know, is pretty friggen drunk.
warning: if i have your number you will be texted hahaha just how i rolllllllll.
IF YOU'RE GOING TO FC READ THS
General | Posted 14 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3025133/
go. now. and im serious. PROTESTORS might be there. but i'll leave you on that cliffhanger. GO READ NAO PLZ.
go. now. and im serious. PROTESTORS might be there. but i'll leave you on that cliffhanger. GO READ NAO PLZ.
HOLYFUCK GUYS
General | Posted 14 years agook sorry i havent been around as much as usual. been job hunting in LA/applications/phone interviews (i hate those.. because they like the way I sound but when they see me.. their always like WTF?!?!?!?! EMOFAG GTFO) so those suck. but... I found a nice apartment to live in. Rents not so bad.. only 1300. master bedroom guest room full kitchen master bath and a spare full bath. really big front room and HUGE windows. more like a flat than anything.. and.. get this.. I applied for a job.. two days ago.. just got a call like 10 minutes ago saying
Youre teh most qualified person we've seen. How about you come in January 3rd (the day i officially move) and we'll sign the papers make it official?
LOLOLOL SUCK IT BESTBUY/GEEKSQUAD. >:C boom.
25 bucks an hour as my starting salary. fuckyeah.
feeling like a champion.
ART WISE..
been playing with my new wacom.. these things are REALLY tricky. lol i cant seem to look at the screen and not at my hand drawing x.x so it turns into blobs... help?
Youre teh most qualified person we've seen. How about you come in January 3rd (the day i officially move) and we'll sign the papers make it official?
LOLOLOL SUCK IT BESTBUY/GEEKSQUAD. >:C boom.
25 bucks an hour as my starting salary. fuckyeah.
feeling like a champion.
ART WISE..
been playing with my new wacom.. these things are REALLY tricky. lol i cant seem to look at the screen and not at my hand drawing x.x so it turns into blobs... help?
Changed plans// MAKING YOUR OWN SPECIES?!?!?
General | Posted 14 years agokso guess i wont be moving in until mid january. soo ill be here all day every day hahaha (until SWToR comes out that is)
plan to do a lot of drawing ive gotten a lot of tips from people. thanks so much. PLEASE!! if you would share some ideas/tips/style things.. idk i just.. want to better my art. so if youd be so kind as to give me some crit/comments?
SPECIES..
so ive had this creature appear in a few dreams of mine. Its called a Kriiper. or a Kriip. freaky little buggers. So how does one go about making the species? just draw it and be like.. MINE MINE MINE!??!?!
plan to do a lot of drawing ive gotten a lot of tips from people. thanks so much. PLEASE!! if you would share some ideas/tips/style things.. idk i just.. want to better my art. so if youd be so kind as to give me some crit/comments?
SPECIES..
so ive had this creature appear in a few dreams of mine. Its called a Kriiper. or a Kriip. freaky little buggers. So how does one go about making the species? just draw it and be like.. MINE MINE MINE!??!?!
Care to play a game with me?
General | Posted 14 years agommmmplaying pokemon Nuzlocke rules. Anyone want to try? Im playing with Soul Silver and Heart Gold.
rules include:
MUST NICKNAME EVERY POKEMON (forms a stronger bond therefore making it harder to continue the game with nuzlocke rules)
You can only catch the FIRST pokemon in every zone (zones include routes, buildings, bodies of water, etc.) if you fail to catch the first pokemon you encounter you MAY NOT try for a second (if pokemon flees you may not go for a second either).
If you encounter a pokemon you've already caught you may re-encounter another pokemon.
If your pokemon feints you MUST release it.
If you black or white out GAME OVER.
Items other than berries MAY NOT be used on pokemon.
The only healing you can do is at a pokemon center.
MASTER BALL can NOT be used.
Up for a challenge?
rules include:
MUST NICKNAME EVERY POKEMON (forms a stronger bond therefore making it harder to continue the game with nuzlocke rules)
You can only catch the FIRST pokemon in every zone (zones include routes, buildings, bodies of water, etc.) if you fail to catch the first pokemon you encounter you MAY NOT try for a second (if pokemon flees you may not go for a second either).
If you encounter a pokemon you've already caught you may re-encounter another pokemon.
If your pokemon feints you MUST release it.
If you black or white out GAME OVER.
Items other than berries MAY NOT be used on pokemon.
The only healing you can do is at a pokemon center.
MASTER BALL can NOT be used.
Up for a challenge?
Wacom Tablet
General | Posted 14 years agoi just got one? o.o i got the Wacom Intuos 3 6x8 :D
so ima try my hand at freehand digital art now!! (ive been sketching on paper then transferring to photoship/illustrator to line) sooo.. yeah!!
i need tips/help xD whats up with these things?
so ima try my hand at freehand digital art now!! (ive been sketching on paper then transferring to photoship/illustrator to line) sooo.. yeah!!
i need tips/help xD whats up with these things?
Answering questions about commissions
General | Posted 14 years agoare open?? got a few notes/skype messages.
YES!!
i do take commissions!!
things I WONT draw are:
any pr0n for the most part. Unless its like artistic nudity i am still a little uncomfortable with the idea. fetishes like deification and urination are a definite no. (unless its like a character pissing on a wall in an alley being all ANARCHY MAAAAAN) but as a fetish i am definitely not drawing scat/golden showers. But seriously.. i mean it.. feel free to note me about that. there is always room for discussion on ANY idea that you might have and i can always find a way to create something that both you and I will thoroughly enjoy!
but really anything else im completely down for.
I do require payment first. Ive had a few mishaps where Ive taken a commission, finished, and the commissionee took the art and ran. if youre really uncomfortable with the idea, we can work out a 50% for an initial sketch then 50% for final product. but its really up to you.
Pricing!!! (with examples/soon to have examples)
::::::::::::Digital art::::::::::::
PLEASE NOTE!! if you want a double sided badge just add $2(does not include printing/laminating) to the price. Add $5 if you want your badge to be printed/laminated with BOTH sides
Chibis: $5each character with a simple background included
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6886262
Headshot badges: $8 these are neck up (if your character wears neck attire thats also included such as scarves bandanas, collars, necklaces, etc.)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6446460/
Bust badges: $10 these are more than just bust, they can be as low as hips/tail but thats the farthest down ill go xD
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6995618/
Full Body badges: $15 these include EVERYTHINNNGGUUHHHH on your character. can be chibi or more realistic (will add a more realistic example once i have one lol)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6424804/
::::::Reference/Character sheets::::::
Just one side: $15
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6992447/
Two sides(front/side or left and right.. front back.. you get the point!) $20
Full turn around: $30 includes 2 facial expressions/all accessories
::::::::::Traditional art::::::::::
Open but since i have 0 examples ill leave this blank until i have something to show!!!
YES!!
i do take commissions!!
things I WONT draw are:
any pr0n for the most part. Unless its like artistic nudity i am still a little uncomfortable with the idea. fetishes like deification and urination are a definite no. (unless its like a character pissing on a wall in an alley being all ANARCHY MAAAAAN) but as a fetish i am definitely not drawing scat/golden showers. But seriously.. i mean it.. feel free to note me about that. there is always room for discussion on ANY idea that you might have and i can always find a way to create something that both you and I will thoroughly enjoy!
but really anything else im completely down for.
I do require payment first. Ive had a few mishaps where Ive taken a commission, finished, and the commissionee took the art and ran. if youre really uncomfortable with the idea, we can work out a 50% for an initial sketch then 50% for final product. but its really up to you.
Pricing!!! (with examples/soon to have examples)
::::::::::::Digital art::::::::::::
PLEASE NOTE!! if you want a double sided badge just add $2(does not include printing/laminating) to the price. Add $5 if you want your badge to be printed/laminated with BOTH sides
Chibis: $5each character with a simple background included
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6886262
Headshot badges: $8 these are neck up (if your character wears neck attire thats also included such as scarves bandanas, collars, necklaces, etc.)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6446460/
Bust badges: $10 these are more than just bust, they can be as low as hips/tail but thats the farthest down ill go xD
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6995618/
Full Body badges: $15 these include EVERYTHINNNGGUUHHHH on your character. can be chibi or more realistic (will add a more realistic example once i have one lol)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6424804/
::::::Reference/Character sheets::::::
Just one side: $15
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6992447/
Two sides(front/side or left and right.. front back.. you get the point!) $20
Full turn around: $30 includes 2 facial expressions/all accessories
::::::::::Traditional art::::::::::
Open but since i have 0 examples ill leave this blank until i have something to show!!!
LED TAG BADGES?!?!?
General | Posted 14 years agoyeah. they exist.
jencen makes them. SO GO WATCH NAO.
jencen
:3 also if youd observe what number watcher you are. because their holding a little competition thingie.. and id really love to gift teh prize to a friend of mine. <3 because shes been there for me like no other<3
so yeah.. go check out jencen's work and give em a watch. if you would be so kind to say you were referred by myself i may throw in a little prezzent for you as well :3
jencen makes them. SO GO WATCH NAO.
jencen:3 also if youd observe what number watcher you are. because their holding a little competition thingie.. and id really love to gift teh prize to a friend of mine. <3 because shes been there for me like no other<3
so yeah.. go check out jencen's work and give em a watch. if you would be so kind to say you were referred by myself i may throw in a little prezzent for you as well :3
I FUCKING QUIT
General | Posted 14 years agomy job.
:D
packing all my shit up. moving to california NEXT weekend (if i can pack that fast)
sick of my supervisors bullshit. Sick of getting nasty sex messages from a superior (which i may sue my employer for sexual harassment as the messages were clearly unwanted and yes i have proof of both sides of the conversations)
so just before our truck came into our shipping dock (all the stores goods/new stock) i said
and ill quote
to my DICKHEAD manager (WARNING!!! language is profain. i am not a homophobe nor a homo hater. its just what came out. sorry if i offended any!! im a friend to all people of all creeds genders and desires. except duke."
"duke only a fucking self loving circlejerking faggot changes his eye color from brown to blue in the workplace. Youre a fucking indian. You have brown eyes. Its genetically impossible for you to have blue. and your a douchebag. i fucking QUIT."
to my manager scott who is THE SHIT.
"bro im out. duke is a fuckhead" scott replied "god you have balls. i would have quit months ago if i could. gonna miss you pal."
>:C FUCKYEAH SCOTT. we had a brohug. gonna miss that man.
i
:D
packing all my shit up. moving to california NEXT weekend (if i can pack that fast)
sick of my supervisors bullshit. Sick of getting nasty sex messages from a superior (which i may sue my employer for sexual harassment as the messages were clearly unwanted and yes i have proof of both sides of the conversations)
so just before our truck came into our shipping dock (all the stores goods/new stock) i said
and ill quote
to my DICKHEAD manager (WARNING!!! language is profain. i am not a homophobe nor a homo hater. its just what came out. sorry if i offended any!! im a friend to all people of all creeds genders and desires. except duke."
"duke only a fucking self loving circlejerking faggot changes his eye color from brown to blue in the workplace. Youre a fucking indian. You have brown eyes. Its genetically impossible for you to have blue. and your a douchebag. i fucking QUIT."
to my manager scott who is THE SHIT.
"bro im out. duke is a fuckhead" scott replied "god you have balls. i would have quit months ago if i could. gonna miss you pal."
>:C FUCKYEAH SCOTT. we had a brohug. gonna miss that man.
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OK learning experience time people. (piercings/gauges)
General | Posted 14 years agoso i dont know if anyone cares.. but if you are or plan to gauge your ears.. know this.
this actually works for ANY and ALL piercings.. but im being partial to gauges at the moment as i just sized up recently lol
DO NOT use hydrogen peroxide as a cleaner. you CAN however use it to TEST if you have infections.
how to use peroxide to TEST for infection.
DISCLAIMER: hydrogen peroxide DRIES the shit out of your skin. key to healthy gauging is moist skin. DO NOT USE TO CLEAN EARS!!! lol
so take a shot glass or a small cup that you have. fill it with WARM almost HOT water. use the half water half peroxide amount. dip a Q-tip in teh mixture and GENTLY swab over your lobe. if it STINGS you have an infection. if you see BUBBLES it means you have HEALTHY WHITE BLOOD CELLS in teh area. you want to see bubbles (and minor stinging) because it means your ear is repairing itself. minor stinging (with bubbles) is just the peroxide clearing dead cells from your ear. it literally "eats" the dead cells off your healthy skin hence the stinging.
for CLEAINING gauges/piercings in general really
hot water and SEA salt. not table. SEA. its softer and more gentle on teh skin with less chemicals as well. IF YOU CAN use filtered water vs. tap if not its fine.
use again a Q-tip and swab around teh new piercing/gauge area try not to twist/rotate the piercing as much as you can.
TATTOO PARLORS WHO TELL YOU THAT YOU MUST MOVE IT ARE IDIOTS. they claim that "if you dont twist it, your skin will fuse to it" ok.. whats your piercing made of? is it plastic? metal? or organic tissue.. NO it will NOT fuse with your piercing lol. truth is, if you keep rotating a fresh piercing/gauge youre actually BREAKING the scab off your skin causing the healing process to prolong. NO BUENO. just leave it. kk anyway.
after the swab soak your piercing in CLEAN saltwater combo for 3-5 minutes EACH. do NOT dry with a towel or rag. use a clean papertowel to do this.
SO yeah if you plan on/or/have a piercing gauge or tattoo question hit me up. Id love to help with any questions on care/maintenance that you might have also recommendations if you need them.
this actually works for ANY and ALL piercings.. but im being partial to gauges at the moment as i just sized up recently lol
DO NOT use hydrogen peroxide as a cleaner. you CAN however use it to TEST if you have infections.
how to use peroxide to TEST for infection.
DISCLAIMER: hydrogen peroxide DRIES the shit out of your skin. key to healthy gauging is moist skin. DO NOT USE TO CLEAN EARS!!! lol
so take a shot glass or a small cup that you have. fill it with WARM almost HOT water. use the half water half peroxide amount. dip a Q-tip in teh mixture and GENTLY swab over your lobe. if it STINGS you have an infection. if you see BUBBLES it means you have HEALTHY WHITE BLOOD CELLS in teh area. you want to see bubbles (and minor stinging) because it means your ear is repairing itself. minor stinging (with bubbles) is just the peroxide clearing dead cells from your ear. it literally "eats" the dead cells off your healthy skin hence the stinging.
for CLEAINING gauges/piercings in general really
hot water and SEA salt. not table. SEA. its softer and more gentle on teh skin with less chemicals as well. IF YOU CAN use filtered water vs. tap if not its fine.
use again a Q-tip and swab around teh new piercing/gauge area try not to twist/rotate the piercing as much as you can.
TATTOO PARLORS WHO TELL YOU THAT YOU MUST MOVE IT ARE IDIOTS. they claim that "if you dont twist it, your skin will fuse to it" ok.. whats your piercing made of? is it plastic? metal? or organic tissue.. NO it will NOT fuse with your piercing lol. truth is, if you keep rotating a fresh piercing/gauge youre actually BREAKING the scab off your skin causing the healing process to prolong. NO BUENO. just leave it. kk anyway.
after the swab soak your piercing in CLEAN saltwater combo for 3-5 minutes EACH. do NOT dry with a towel or rag. use a clean papertowel to do this.
SO yeah if you plan on/or/have a piercing gauge or tattoo question hit me up. Id love to help with any questions on care/maintenance that you might have also recommendations if you need them.
*flips table*
General | Posted 14 years agojust sized up my gauges like 10 minutes ago.
HURTS SO BAD.
but looks so good. hahahaha FFUUUUuuuuuuUUuuuuu its a bittersweet pain. more like BURN. but whatever.
funny story about them. Normally I use Vaseline to like ease the new size in. makes it smoother and faster.. WELL i get the new tapers come home and look for my jar. GONE. >:C fuck. so i head to the corner CVS where THEIR OUT OF IT. yeah. weird huh? so im like... jkds;jk;afjsdkl;ajtkle;jsaktle; sajkt;lejska FUCK NOW WHAT.. *idea*
WATER BASED LUBE.
so i pick up a tube like its no big deal. get to the counter the woman just STARES me down. im like ... whats your de-... *looks down at lube*... *blushes bright red* NONONO LISTEN LISTEN!! she just held up her hand and said "no judgment" x.x i didnt get to explain its for my gauges !___! so awkward!!
anyway. my ears are basically bleeding like amotherfucker. without the blood. so they just hurt. OK WHATEVER. <3
HURTS SO BAD.
but looks so good. hahahaha FFUUUUuuuuuuUUuuuuu its a bittersweet pain. more like BURN. but whatever.
funny story about them. Normally I use Vaseline to like ease the new size in. makes it smoother and faster.. WELL i get the new tapers come home and look for my jar. GONE. >:C fuck. so i head to the corner CVS where THEIR OUT OF IT. yeah. weird huh? so im like... jkds;jk;afjsdkl;ajtkle;jsaktle; sajkt;lejska FUCK NOW WHAT.. *idea*
WATER BASED LUBE.
so i pick up a tube like its no big deal. get to the counter the woman just STARES me down. im like ... whats your de-... *looks down at lube*... *blushes bright red* NONONO LISTEN LISTEN!! she just held up her hand and said "no judgment" x.x i didnt get to explain its for my gauges !___! so awkward!!
anyway. my ears are basically bleeding like amotherfucker. without the blood. so they just hurt. OK WHATEVER. <3
AWYEAH
General | Posted 14 years agoso 
mixedcandy will be making Slug, my black orange and white canine. Got an amazing price quote of $950 which is perfect for me seeing that i have $650 set aside in a paypal account for the downpayment. and i get to make monthly installments until completion. which, with work, i can actually pay off 2 months prior to the ETC. :D i cant wait.
Im also going to use a footer on journals now to just keep track of payments I owe/people owe me! so if ive forgotten you just note me!
mixedcandy will be making Slug, my black orange and white canine. Got an amazing price quote of $950 which is perfect for me seeing that i have $650 set aside in a paypal account for the downpayment. and i get to make monthly installments until completion. which, with work, i can actually pay off 2 months prior to the ETC. :D i cant wait.Im also going to use a footer on journals now to just keep track of payments I owe/people owe me! so if ive forgotten you just note me!
New Fursuit :D
General | Posted 14 years agoWELLLLLLlll
been saving for a few months to get m hands on a new PROFESSIONAL (whatever that means) fursuit.
Racked up 1,000 and really just looking for a head as i can make the body/paws/tail myself. thats the easy part.
I want a canine character of black with orange markings and some white highlight markings..
no design in mind yet.
Ive come down to these artists (in order)
MixedCandy
Qarrazel
Beetlecat
Monoyasha(flurrycat)
any other fursuit (RESIN) makers you guys know? please post/share!!
been saving for a few months to get m hands on a new PROFESSIONAL (whatever that means) fursuit.
Racked up 1,000 and really just looking for a head as i can make the body/paws/tail myself. thats the easy part.
I want a canine character of black with orange markings and some white highlight markings..
no design in mind yet.
Ive come down to these artists (in order)
MixedCandy
Qarrazel
Beetlecat
Monoyasha(flurrycat)
any other fursuit (RESIN) makers you guys know? please post/share!!
A night of laughs and tears<3
General | Posted 14 years agowell tonight was the last night my girlfriend and I could PHYSICALLY be together. and i have to say, it was one of the best. Simply because it wasnt just her and i, but her uncle who is the coolest guy ever, and her grandmother who is the sweetest woman ive ever met. all of us just hung around. of course my gf and i had alone time for most of the day/night but dinner was amazing. played guitar for everyone made her grandma laugh alot (in one of the songs you can hear her cracking up to the lyrics.
our night was filled with cuddles laughs lovin.. makin lovin.. lul.. and just holding eachother. Living dead aired and we snuggled up and watched that together. was one of the best moments of my life actually. why? because ive never felt so calm happy and in love all at the same time. like nothing in the world mattered except this beautiful creature in my arms.
we exchanged gifts as like little "goodbyes" i guess. I gave her my favorite t-shirt with Lord Zedd from power rangers on it as well as a purple (her favorite color) stuffed bear. she got me arkham city. *dies inside*
during some of our conversations i mentioned how ill be in las vegas a lot as my dad has a hotel room there (yeah my dad owns a hotel room... hes kind of a big mcgaff in Vegas.) and how itd only be.. get this.. 2 hours away from her house in LA.
I HAVE TO DRIVE 2 HOURS FROM MY HOUSE TO HERS IN OUR STATE lolol so its like OH HO HOOOOO?!??! 2 hours apart?? we can do that!!
so she promised to meet me there in november. from teh 19-22 we will be together again. i know were "breaking up" or whatever but she said shell still love me and wants to skype/text/call ever day. so maybe its like a long distance relationship minus like bg/gf status.. idk i just.. love the fact that i can still love her and she can still love me and we dont ahve to feel awkward about it. thats real love i think.
so as we walked to my car tonight for me to drive off for the last time we hugged outside... under the moon and stars for what felt like forever. i couldnt let go neither could she. now words between us just hugging and embracing eachother for quite possibly the last time in a very very long while. the sky started crying... (rain) and then.. i started crying. ahaha big "goth" boy crying. yep. i do it for her. she got up on her tip toes and kissed me. cutest thing ever... since im quite a tall guy (6'2 or 3 i forget) she has to reach up to get me ahaha ugh.. that kiss was.. the best kiss.. the best *touches my lower lip* the best.
well.. i thought id be a train wreck here. but ive been crying happy tears. because im in love. and nothing will stop me<3 and i understand now that if you really love someone, something as easy as them moving away wont stop you. so yeah i mean im a little sad shes moving, but too many happy feelings to even notice that.
goodnight all<3
our night was filled with cuddles laughs lovin.. makin lovin.. lul.. and just holding eachother. Living dead aired and we snuggled up and watched that together. was one of the best moments of my life actually. why? because ive never felt so calm happy and in love all at the same time. like nothing in the world mattered except this beautiful creature in my arms.
we exchanged gifts as like little "goodbyes" i guess. I gave her my favorite t-shirt with Lord Zedd from power rangers on it as well as a purple (her favorite color) stuffed bear. she got me arkham city. *dies inside*
during some of our conversations i mentioned how ill be in las vegas a lot as my dad has a hotel room there (yeah my dad owns a hotel room... hes kind of a big mcgaff in Vegas.) and how itd only be.. get this.. 2 hours away from her house in LA.
I HAVE TO DRIVE 2 HOURS FROM MY HOUSE TO HERS IN OUR STATE lolol so its like OH HO HOOOOO?!??! 2 hours apart?? we can do that!!
so she promised to meet me there in november. from teh 19-22 we will be together again. i know were "breaking up" or whatever but she said shell still love me and wants to skype/text/call ever day. so maybe its like a long distance relationship minus like bg/gf status.. idk i just.. love the fact that i can still love her and she can still love me and we dont ahve to feel awkward about it. thats real love i think.
so as we walked to my car tonight for me to drive off for the last time we hugged outside... under the moon and stars for what felt like forever. i couldnt let go neither could she. now words between us just hugging and embracing eachother for quite possibly the last time in a very very long while. the sky started crying... (rain) and then.. i started crying. ahaha big "goth" boy crying. yep. i do it for her. she got up on her tip toes and kissed me. cutest thing ever... since im quite a tall guy (6'2 or 3 i forget) she has to reach up to get me ahaha ugh.. that kiss was.. the best kiss.. the best *touches my lower lip* the best.
well.. i thought id be a train wreck here. but ive been crying happy tears. because im in love. and nothing will stop me<3 and i understand now that if you really love someone, something as easy as them moving away wont stop you. so yeah i mean im a little sad shes moving, but too many happy feelings to even notice that.
goodnight all<3
Todays the day (</3)
General | Posted 14 years agotodays the last day i get to spend with my girlfriend before she leaves for cali. needless to say im ecstatic to be with her today/tonight but i know by the end of the night ill be crying. aha *sigh* i cant believe this is the last day i get to see her. 6 days she leaves but i have school and work so i wont be able to see her off :/ (i dont think but im working on that ><)
bringing my favorite hoodie as it is also the last day i will own/wear it *snuggles it tight* UGH i love this sweatshirt >< of course she picked this one!!! hahaha purple with black foofy goodness in teh inside UGH delicious.
well anyway, kinda should get going as its a 2 hour drive to get to her place >_< so farr awwaaayyy but so close compared to where shes going.
le sigh~</3
feel free to hit up my cell should be fairly responsive the whole day minus.. a few ... hour long sessions.. here and there... lululul >3< *hides bright red face* TA TA for now my lovelies.
~Sixx
bringing my favorite hoodie as it is also the last day i will own/wear it *snuggles it tight* UGH i love this sweatshirt >< of course she picked this one!!! hahaha purple with black foofy goodness in teh inside UGH delicious.
well anyway, kinda should get going as its a 2 hour drive to get to her place >_< so farr awwaaayyy but so close compared to where shes going.
le sigh~</3
feel free to hit up my cell should be fairly responsive the whole day minus.. a few ... hour long sessions.. here and there... lululul >3< *hides bright red face* TA TA for now my lovelies.
~Sixx
CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT TO DO THIS SORRY!!!
General | Posted 14 years agoOH MY GOD i totally forgot to do this!!!!!!!!
a while back i asked if any of you had questions for me!! i got QUITE a few!! (shocked) so here are the answers for all of ya'll!! in no particular order
1: favorite color: this is a tough one since my favorite colors are black purple red and white! couldnt chose between the four!!
2: how many piercings do you have and where!!? I HAAAVEE 7 piercings and their all on my face/head. my ears are gauged to "1 i have snakebite lip piercings, a monroe, my septum, and my bridge all done :D
3: tattoos? you has yes? That i do! i have a purple and red rose on my wrist and a diamond on my hand. both have significant meaning to me but id prefer to keep that private!
4: How old are you!?!?! You look so young! (lulul) im 24 ahahaha gettin old over here.
5:favorite food? if i met you at a con would you go to dinner with me? Sushi would be my absolute favorite food. love it. as for dinner, im a bit tentative about going out with people im not too familiar with, but if its in a group and i have at least 1 person ive known for a bit sure. :3 its a possibility.
6: Top 5 favorite songs (please link!!) or 5 songs that best describe who you are and your life!
(my favorite question i got!)
so ill choose to do both 5 favorite songs and 5 that describe me because their one and the same!! ahaha
Songs:
1: Club Love by the cataracs. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c079sTE5sak :3 kinda describes my personality once you actually get to know me/get past my shyness!!
2: Ulduar by Madcowsummer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hgcy6bsg4g ahaha its world of warcraft.. its my life ><
3: Sexy back by my boy JT. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gOHvDP_vCs this song was written about me. lulul
4: Creatures by Motionless in White http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wscLSHj2-LA (one of my BEST friends band and i MIGHT<notice me saying MIGHT< be their new bassist for the next tour?!?!?) creatures is just a song to lose my mind with. just play it and day dream. its lovely.
5: All for you by goodnight nurse. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NtuUgf7AEyY the song i sing to my girlfriend every time we fall asleep together. we harmonize quite well during parts of the song and its magical. <3 love falling asleep with that song on because all i can think of is my girlfranndd<3
I have a weird taste in music yes i know Q _ Q lulul but.. CARRYING on!!!
7: How long is your hair? ... O_O uh its like a tad past my shoulders? its a lions mane RAWR!~<3
8: what color are your eyes?? cant tell!! >_< They are green or blue depending on A: the lighting and B:(weirdly enough) my mood? idk they change up a bit.
9: fav movieee? TOUGH decision!! so many great ones out there. I adore V for Vendetta, the hills have eyes, Clockwork Orange, the Shining, Harold and Maude, and Moulin Rouge!!! (of course LoTR harry potter and lion king durdurrdurr but those are obvious favorites!)
10: where do you live! IN TEH USA BABY YEAHH :3 im a mysterious guy and prefer to keep it a secret :P
I think thats all of them? i might have missed a few if i did just post a comment and ill answer!! :D so yeah!! get to know me?? ahahaha
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