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General | Posted 16 years agoI remember the first time I was tagged for a meme... by SkyShadow... and I was all shy about it. My friends have been slowly working on this dragon to make him less shy. And it seems to be working. Here's another meme...
Sexual orientation: Bisexual. Very bisexual. I need my boy fix and my girl fix.
How often do you think about sex: All the time. It's far from the only thing I think about, but it's ever present.
How often do you HAVE sex: Most every day. Once or twice.
Worst sexual experience: Being seduced and led on even all the way to bed and then turned down to intentionally leave me blue balled. It turned out to be some sort of sick mind game for someone just to see if they could befriend me, manipulate me, and lead me on that far. It further damaged my ability to trust anyone to get close.
Cybersex? Phone sex?: I love VR sex as much as I love RL sex. I don't consider either to be a replacement for the other. For me they both feed eachother, actually. Phone sex? A little here and there, but I tend to find it awkward. It happens sometimes, but I don't seek it.
Casual sex: I love the idea of casual sex. But it's dangerous, so I stick to only a very few close friends I trust in RL, and fuck them a lot. In VR, however, I'm all over that.
What is your favorite masturbation euphemism: Choking your chicken. Just because it invokes amusing imagery with wide eyed fowl and scattered feathers fluttering about.
Sex toys and related fetish accessories: I actually have very little interest in sex toys. People playing with dildos and the like really doesn't turn me on at all. Now leather gear, erotic jewelry, and restraints... _that_ can be very sexy.
Least sexiest body part: Human feet. I have a huge foot fetish for dragon paws, and to a somewhat lesser extent other critters feet. But humans have ugly feet that are just icky. And I don't like touching or being touched by them.
Favorite body type: In humans, I'm not very particular. Pink monkeys are pink monkeys. They're still pink monkeys no matter how they're shaped. Chubby or petite is fine by me, and only becomes a distraction when it's to the degree of being unhealthy. By and large I am not turned on by the human form anyway. I draw my interest from imagining the form of the spirit inside.
Body hair: I think pubic hair is disgusting.
Monogamy or polygamy?: I'm very poly. I don't trust people who show monogamous tendencies. I have observed that monogamy doesn't mean loving only one person, but rather loving one person at a time. I have a hard time trusting anyone to be close as it is, much less someone who will only love me until something better comes along.
Underwear: Tidy whiteys are a big turn off. It's underwear. It should be sexy. Our outer clothes may have to be puritan friendly because of this world we live in, but what's underneath should show how you really feel.
Pornographic or erotic: I really don't get the notion that these are in any way opposed to eachother. A picture is only really hot to me if it succeeds in both elements.
How large is your porn collection?: Enormous. I hoard porn. And I've been amassing furry porn since the fandom began. I have lots of rare stuff in my collection. And early stuff that predates most collections. I wonder how many other people even know what a PCX file is? That's right. I have furry porn that predates GIF and JPG.
Favorite hair color: I'm a dragon. Dragons don't have hair. I'm not really into hair. Except my gryphoness has this awesome curly hair I seem to really like running my claws through. It's weird.
Kissing or cuddling?: I'm all about cuddling. I'm a very cuddly dragon. Kissing... krrr.. I've tried. But it just doesn't seem to do anything for me at all. I feel that I let my lovers down for that. But to me kissing is something you do and keep on doing until their tail tip is the last part that slides past your gullet.
Most attractive nationality/ethnicity: Lighter skinned or darker skinned pink monkeys? Umm. I really don't care. I've fucked both black and white in both genders.
Most attractive anthro/furry creature: Assuming my own species doesn't count for this question, gryphons are the hottest other critters around. Avians turn me on something aweful.
Most interesting fetishes you've heard of: I can't think of a fetish I'm interested in but have only heard of. When I become interested in a new fetish, I try it. My friends are kinky and usually I can try these things on them. :)
Sexual orientation: Bisexual. Very bisexual. I need my boy fix and my girl fix.
How often do you think about sex: All the time. It's far from the only thing I think about, but it's ever present.
How often do you HAVE sex: Most every day. Once or twice.
Worst sexual experience: Being seduced and led on even all the way to bed and then turned down to intentionally leave me blue balled. It turned out to be some sort of sick mind game for someone just to see if they could befriend me, manipulate me, and lead me on that far. It further damaged my ability to trust anyone to get close.
Cybersex? Phone sex?: I love VR sex as much as I love RL sex. I don't consider either to be a replacement for the other. For me they both feed eachother, actually. Phone sex? A little here and there, but I tend to find it awkward. It happens sometimes, but I don't seek it.
Casual sex: I love the idea of casual sex. But it's dangerous, so I stick to only a very few close friends I trust in RL, and fuck them a lot. In VR, however, I'm all over that.
What is your favorite masturbation euphemism: Choking your chicken. Just because it invokes amusing imagery with wide eyed fowl and scattered feathers fluttering about.
Sex toys and related fetish accessories: I actually have very little interest in sex toys. People playing with dildos and the like really doesn't turn me on at all. Now leather gear, erotic jewelry, and restraints... _that_ can be very sexy.
Least sexiest body part: Human feet. I have a huge foot fetish for dragon paws, and to a somewhat lesser extent other critters feet. But humans have ugly feet that are just icky. And I don't like touching or being touched by them.
Favorite body type: In humans, I'm not very particular. Pink monkeys are pink monkeys. They're still pink monkeys no matter how they're shaped. Chubby or petite is fine by me, and only becomes a distraction when it's to the degree of being unhealthy. By and large I am not turned on by the human form anyway. I draw my interest from imagining the form of the spirit inside.
Body hair: I think pubic hair is disgusting.
Monogamy or polygamy?: I'm very poly. I don't trust people who show monogamous tendencies. I have observed that monogamy doesn't mean loving only one person, but rather loving one person at a time. I have a hard time trusting anyone to be close as it is, much less someone who will only love me until something better comes along.
Underwear: Tidy whiteys are a big turn off. It's underwear. It should be sexy. Our outer clothes may have to be puritan friendly because of this world we live in, but what's underneath should show how you really feel.
Pornographic or erotic: I really don't get the notion that these are in any way opposed to eachother. A picture is only really hot to me if it succeeds in both elements.
How large is your porn collection?: Enormous. I hoard porn. And I've been amassing furry porn since the fandom began. I have lots of rare stuff in my collection. And early stuff that predates most collections. I wonder how many other people even know what a PCX file is? That's right. I have furry porn that predates GIF and JPG.
Favorite hair color: I'm a dragon. Dragons don't have hair. I'm not really into hair. Except my gryphoness has this awesome curly hair I seem to really like running my claws through. It's weird.
Kissing or cuddling?: I'm all about cuddling. I'm a very cuddly dragon. Kissing... krrr.. I've tried. But it just doesn't seem to do anything for me at all. I feel that I let my lovers down for that. But to me kissing is something you do and keep on doing until their tail tip is the last part that slides past your gullet.
Most attractive nationality/ethnicity: Lighter skinned or darker skinned pink monkeys? Umm. I really don't care. I've fucked both black and white in both genders.
Most attractive anthro/furry creature: Assuming my own species doesn't count for this question, gryphons are the hottest other critters around. Avians turn me on something aweful.
Most interesting fetishes you've heard of: I can't think of a fetish I'm interested in but have only heard of. When I become interested in a new fetish, I try it. My friends are kinky and usually I can try these things on them. :)
My shiny new pet gryphoness
General | Posted 16 years agoRemember how in my Valentine journal post I was talking about how I've wanted to find a girl pet to add to my hoard?
Well, guess what!
Jaelyn has officially become my pet. We're painting the guest room purple. It's my pet purple gryphon's room now. Right next to my pet hyena's room.
I own a male pet hyena and a female pet gryphoness.
jace and 
jaelynkitten
I am a very happy dragon indeed.
I use the term pet, but they are both actually favorites. Favorites are those who voluntarily serve dragons, and generally spend their time polishing scales and serving their dragon's whims. It is in many ways similar to master/pet relationships, but not actually the same.
I tend to use the master/pet terminology anyway. As a dragon, I'm pretty used to these various human terms not quite matching up for me. And it generally works well enough for those who don't understand dragons to think of it as master/pet.
In any case... krrr... wow. My life has been full of big changes over the last year or two. It has certainly been a rough ride at times, but it looks like it's all turning out to be worth it. Thanks so much to everyone who has been there for me.
Well, guess what!
Jaelyn has officially become my pet. We're painting the guest room purple. It's my pet purple gryphon's room now. Right next to my pet hyena's room.
I own a male pet hyena and a female pet gryphoness.
jace and 
jaelynkittenI am a very happy dragon indeed.
I use the term pet, but they are both actually favorites. Favorites are those who voluntarily serve dragons, and generally spend their time polishing scales and serving their dragon's whims. It is in many ways similar to master/pet relationships, but not actually the same.
I tend to use the master/pet terminology anyway. As a dragon, I'm pretty used to these various human terms not quite matching up for me. And it generally works well enough for those who don't understand dragons to think of it as master/pet.
In any case... krrr... wow. My life has been full of big changes over the last year or two. It has certainly been a rough ride at times, but it looks like it's all turning out to be worth it. Thanks so much to everyone who has been there for me.
Valentine Meme
General | Posted 17 years ago1. Are you single or taken?
Are those the only choices? This dragon is neither. I have a boy pet. I won't be complete until I have a girl pet, too. I need both.
2. Chocolate or flowers?
Meat.
If you hate me, give me white chocolate. For some reason, I can't not eat it, and it will make me sick.
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Probably give my pet a particularly hard pounding, and then spend the rest of the day cuddled up laying over him watching Blu-rays.
4.Do you like anyone?
I'm a lustful dragon. So yes. There are a number of friends I really like.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
I've been with my pet jace for nearly 17 years. I love him very much.
6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
Spending all day fucking my pets repeatedly while they bring me delicious food to eat.
Hey. I'm a dragon.
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Not really. As you might have noticed, I'm not a very romantic dragon. I often feel that I fall short of what Jace wants because of that. But he seems to stay with me anyway.
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Apparently. I have at times discovered people who were terribly interested in me, but believed that I was taken, and so said nothing. And I wish they wouldn't do that.
I am open and poly. The only thing that restrains me is safety. If it wasn't dangerous to do so, I would be promiscuous as hell. As it is, I'm very very careful. But that doesn't mean I'm unavailable.
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
I'm covered in armor scales and spines. I unfortunately have no romantic ability.
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Eh?
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
There are parents that do that? I've never even heard of that.
12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
I'm not a greeting cards type.
13. Do you like candy hearts?
What is this concept of wuv? It confuses and angers me!
15. Is Valentines depressing?
I tend to lament my generally poor luck with girls on Valentines. Someday, I hope to find a girl who can be my pet. A room in my house waits for her.
On the other claw, Valentines does give me an excuse to draw in my boy pet and caress him under my wing. So it's a mixed bag.
16. How do you feel about PDA?
Secretly rubbing a girl's pussy under her skirt in public is a lot of fun.
17. How is your love life?
With guys, pretty good. With girls, I got nothin at the moment (well, except some teasing).
18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
No.
19. How many roses would you want?
What would I do with roses?
20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
Hopefully, I'll still have my lovely boy pet. And I can only hope for a girl pet, too. Or at least a local girl who wants to play.
Are those the only choices? This dragon is neither. I have a boy pet. I won't be complete until I have a girl pet, too. I need both.
2. Chocolate or flowers?
Meat.
If you hate me, give me white chocolate. For some reason, I can't not eat it, and it will make me sick.
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Probably give my pet a particularly hard pounding, and then spend the rest of the day cuddled up laying over him watching Blu-rays.
4.Do you like anyone?
I'm a lustful dragon. So yes. There are a number of friends I really like.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
I've been with my pet
jace for nearly 17 years. I love him very much.6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
Spending all day fucking my pets repeatedly while they bring me delicious food to eat.
Hey. I'm a dragon.
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Not really. As you might have noticed, I'm not a very romantic dragon. I often feel that I fall short of what Jace wants because of that. But he seems to stay with me anyway.
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Apparently. I have at times discovered people who were terribly interested in me, but believed that I was taken, and so said nothing. And I wish they wouldn't do that.
I am open and poly. The only thing that restrains me is safety. If it wasn't dangerous to do so, I would be promiscuous as hell. As it is, I'm very very careful. But that doesn't mean I'm unavailable.
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
I'm covered in armor scales and spines. I unfortunately have no romantic ability.
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Eh?
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
There are parents that do that? I've never even heard of that.
12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
I'm not a greeting cards type.
13. Do you like candy hearts?
What is this concept of wuv? It confuses and angers me!
15. Is Valentines depressing?
I tend to lament my generally poor luck with girls on Valentines. Someday, I hope to find a girl who can be my pet. A room in my house waits for her.
On the other claw, Valentines does give me an excuse to draw in my boy pet and caress him under my wing. So it's a mixed bag.
16. How do you feel about PDA?
Secretly rubbing a girl's pussy under her skirt in public is a lot of fun.
17. How is your love life?
With guys, pretty good. With girls, I got nothin at the moment (well, except some teasing).
18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
No.
19. How many roses would you want?
What would I do with roses?
20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
Hopefully, I'll still have my lovely boy pet. And I can only hope for a girl pet, too. Or at least a local girl who wants to play.
FC2009
General | Posted 17 years agoWell, not everything went my way. Since I recently bought my house, I didn't have much money to buy swag. And I ended up mostly just being teased a lot by people I wanted to play with and was a very pent up dragon by the end of the con.
But...
Overall, I really had a good time. This con was very important for me. I've been through a lot of emotional turmoil over the last year, and I finally healed enough to start coming out from under my rock more recently... but still, while I'd emptied out a lot of that negative crap, I didn't have much positive to replace it with. And at FC, I just soaked up all of that positive stuff like a sponge.
The Adult Dragon Panel was really good for me in particular. Having so many dragons in one place just... charges me up. It's like having a little pocket of where I come from... a place where I can be something other than a stranger in a strange land, if only for a couple of hours.
And that, I think, is why the ADP is so popular. I mean, pretty much everything that is shown there will be dumped onto FA anyway. Everyone could just look up the images in the privacy of their own homes where they can fap to it on the spot. But the real power of it is dragons getting to actually be themselves for once... without censoring themselves... without holding back... engaging in one of their most treasured pasttimes openly which they aren't normally allowed to. In a room full of nothing but dragons and dragon lovers, you can actually be a dragon without someone throwing a rock at you.
To me, it's just magical. I just soak all that energy up, and it's like a gasp of air after holding your breath longer than you can really stand.
One thing I will say though... I think it's dandy to save up dragon art to debut at the panel. But I don't like the idea of ADP exclusives... stuff that's shown only at the panel that won't be posted. There was some of that this year, and I think it needs to be nipped in the bud. That direction will change the ADP into something else quickly. The ADP does not need exclusives to be popular.
Anyway, the rest of the con was really great, too. I got to hang out with a lot of cool people. I won't try to name them because that always leads to anyone you forget off the list feeling neglected.
I will say I was excited to finally meet Athus and Narse in person. Athus in particular I'd known for a long time online, and we'd fallen out of touch. So it was really great to rekindle that. And Narse, well... who wouldn't want to meet Jesus?
Actually, I'm afraid that Thorndraco of some years ago looked more like Jesus than Narse does.
Anyway, Narse is ultra cool. And I really hope to hang out with him more.
There are others I got to spend time with who are very special to me. But yeah, I'm avoiding naming names.
Lessee... In other news, I drew in some sketchbooks... for Summer Jackson, Palshife, Mandarax, Xaxoqual, and Jaelyn. I'm hoping to get scans back of those so I can post them here. Mandarax did his already. Thanks! :)
I expect to be posting sketchbook stuff and my paintings from the ADP slowly over the next while here. A bunch of people were clammoring for me to post more stories, too. So I'm considering that. So stay tuned.
But...
Overall, I really had a good time. This con was very important for me. I've been through a lot of emotional turmoil over the last year, and I finally healed enough to start coming out from under my rock more recently... but still, while I'd emptied out a lot of that negative crap, I didn't have much positive to replace it with. And at FC, I just soaked up all of that positive stuff like a sponge.
The Adult Dragon Panel was really good for me in particular. Having so many dragons in one place just... charges me up. It's like having a little pocket of where I come from... a place where I can be something other than a stranger in a strange land, if only for a couple of hours.
And that, I think, is why the ADP is so popular. I mean, pretty much everything that is shown there will be dumped onto FA anyway. Everyone could just look up the images in the privacy of their own homes where they can fap to it on the spot. But the real power of it is dragons getting to actually be themselves for once... without censoring themselves... without holding back... engaging in one of their most treasured pasttimes openly which they aren't normally allowed to. In a room full of nothing but dragons and dragon lovers, you can actually be a dragon without someone throwing a rock at you.
To me, it's just magical. I just soak all that energy up, and it's like a gasp of air after holding your breath longer than you can really stand.
One thing I will say though... I think it's dandy to save up dragon art to debut at the panel. But I don't like the idea of ADP exclusives... stuff that's shown only at the panel that won't be posted. There was some of that this year, and I think it needs to be nipped in the bud. That direction will change the ADP into something else quickly. The ADP does not need exclusives to be popular.
Anyway, the rest of the con was really great, too. I got to hang out with a lot of cool people. I won't try to name them because that always leads to anyone you forget off the list feeling neglected.
I will say I was excited to finally meet Athus and Narse in person. Athus in particular I'd known for a long time online, and we'd fallen out of touch. So it was really great to rekindle that. And Narse, well... who wouldn't want to meet Jesus?
Actually, I'm afraid that Thorndraco of some years ago looked more like Jesus than Narse does.
Anyway, Narse is ultra cool. And I really hope to hang out with him more.
There are others I got to spend time with who are very special to me. But yeah, I'm avoiding naming names.
Lessee... In other news, I drew in some sketchbooks... for Summer Jackson, Palshife, Mandarax, Xaxoqual, and Jaelyn. I'm hoping to get scans back of those so I can post them here. Mandarax did his already. Thanks! :)
I expect to be posting sketchbook stuff and my paintings from the ADP slowly over the next while here. A bunch of people were clammoring for me to post more stories, too. So I'm considering that. So stay tuned.
Who's going to FC?
General | Posted 17 years agoJust curious which of my watchers I might run into. I'd enjoy meeting you.
I should tell you that I'm really shy though. That may seem odd to some people, because I will often times (when I come out) seem to not be shy at all. And that's because I face my social anxieties and get out there and try to change. I _want_ to be comfortable around people.
But usually I'm in a state of worrying that I'm going to screw it all up. And I withdraw when I'm not feeling strong enough to pretend to be a likable person. I don't want to revert to behaving as a dragon and end up being hated again.
I'm feeling quite a lot of anxiety as we get close to FC this year, and I'm really worried I'm going to mess up royal.
Sometimes people end up thinking I don't like them whenever I withdraw because they don't realize how shy I really am. I really do like people though. I want to meet you and learn about you and be friends with you. I'm really glad for anyone who seems to like me or my works.
So if you see me at FC, please feel free to say hi. This mean nasty dragon is huggable. I need lots of those.
I should tell you that I'm really shy though. That may seem odd to some people, because I will often times (when I come out) seem to not be shy at all. And that's because I face my social anxieties and get out there and try to change. I _want_ to be comfortable around people.
But usually I'm in a state of worrying that I'm going to screw it all up. And I withdraw when I'm not feeling strong enough to pretend to be a likable person. I don't want to revert to behaving as a dragon and end up being hated again.
I'm feeling quite a lot of anxiety as we get close to FC this year, and I'm really worried I'm going to mess up royal.
Sometimes people end up thinking I don't like them whenever I withdraw because they don't realize how shy I really am. I really do like people though. I want to meet you and learn about you and be friends with you. I'm really glad for anyone who seems to like me or my works.
So if you see me at FC, please feel free to say hi. This mean nasty dragon is huggable. I need lots of those.
Skadjer needs a ride to FC
General | Posted 17 years agoMy good friend Skadjer... you know, that super dragon artist... is pretty strapped for cash, and may not be able to afford coming to FC this year.
He's hoping that he can hitch a ride to the con from Arizona. Otherwise, he probably can't make it.
Is anyone driving that way who might be able to help? He can chip in for a tank of gas or something.
If he does manage to make it here, we're going to be selling his dragon porn prints at Jace's table to help him out. And he's probably gonna be peddling sketchbook commissions, too. He really needs the help right now... and his artwork is amazing... so I'd encourage everyone to buy stuff from him.
He's hoping that he can hitch a ride to the con from Arizona. Otherwise, he probably can't make it.
Is anyone driving that way who might be able to help? He can chip in for a tank of gas or something.
If he does manage to make it here, we're going to be selling his dragon porn prints at Jace's table to help him out. And he's probably gonna be peddling sketchbook commissions, too. He really needs the help right now... and his artwork is amazing... so I'd encourage everyone to buy stuff from him.
FC meme
General | Posted 17 years agoWhere are you staying?
My lair, since it's only about 15 minutes away.
Where will you be most of the time during the days?
I'm usually hanging out in the lobby or artist lounge talking with people and/or drawing.
Who will you be with?
My pet hyena, Jace.
Do you do free art?
Yes, actually. I'll draw in your sketchbook if you want my chicken scratch. I won't draw on loose pieces of paper or cheap spiral bound books though. I only draw in real sketchbooks... something that has longevity and that you show around to your friends.
Please only ask me to draw for you if you really want something by me. Nothing sucks like being used as a 'filler' artist. But if you do really like my work and want me to draw something for you, I'd love to. I'm not the most popular artist out there, and few people ask, you know?
Do you do trades?
I'd love to. I love the heck out of porn, and I love getting sketches from other artists.
Seriously, you don't understand how much I love getting more porn in my sketchbooks.
Do you do commissions?
No. Art is a hobby for me.
Do you have prints/CDs ?
No. You can get my stuff for free on FA.
What suits will you have?
I'm not a fur suit type.
What is your gender?
Male
How old are you?
Don't ask.
How tall are you?
6'2".
Can I touch you?
I like being rubbed. A lot.
Can I talk to you?
Sure. Just be careful. If you bring up the topic of sports cars or racing, I can't be shut up. I'm really annoying.
Draconic genitalia is always a good ice breaker.
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
If they're Gatorades. I don't drink alcohol. I don't smoke. And I don't do drugs of any kind. I'm just a sex fiend is all.
Can I give you lots of money?
I make a lot more money than you do. Keep it.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yes, please. Careful though. I get dirty thoughts.
Often.
Are you nice?
I don't think I am. But others seem to claim that I am.
Can I pounce, glomp, tackle, or unf you?
Pounce, glomp, or tackle... yes.
Unf? You'd be the one under my belly, not the other way around. I'm a very toppish dragon. And I like to screw both girls and boys.
I'm very careful about who I actually play with though. Wish I didn't have to be. I'd be damned promiscuous if it wasn't dangerous.
My lair, since it's only about 15 minutes away.
Where will you be most of the time during the days?
I'm usually hanging out in the lobby or artist lounge talking with people and/or drawing.
Who will you be with?
My pet hyena, Jace.
Do you do free art?
Yes, actually. I'll draw in your sketchbook if you want my chicken scratch. I won't draw on loose pieces of paper or cheap spiral bound books though. I only draw in real sketchbooks... something that has longevity and that you show around to your friends.
Please only ask me to draw for you if you really want something by me. Nothing sucks like being used as a 'filler' artist. But if you do really like my work and want me to draw something for you, I'd love to. I'm not the most popular artist out there, and few people ask, you know?
Do you do trades?
I'd love to. I love the heck out of porn, and I love getting sketches from other artists.
Seriously, you don't understand how much I love getting more porn in my sketchbooks.
Do you do commissions?
No. Art is a hobby for me.
Do you have prints/CDs ?
No. You can get my stuff for free on FA.
What suits will you have?
I'm not a fur suit type.
What is your gender?
Male
How old are you?
Don't ask.
How tall are you?
6'2".
Can I touch you?
I like being rubbed. A lot.
Can I talk to you?
Sure. Just be careful. If you bring up the topic of sports cars or racing, I can't be shut up. I'm really annoying.
Draconic genitalia is always a good ice breaker.
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
If they're Gatorades. I don't drink alcohol. I don't smoke. And I don't do drugs of any kind. I'm just a sex fiend is all.
Can I give you lots of money?
I make a lot more money than you do. Keep it.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Yes, please. Careful though. I get dirty thoughts.
Often.
Are you nice?
I don't think I am. But others seem to claim that I am.
Can I pounce, glomp, tackle, or unf you?
Pounce, glomp, or tackle... yes.
Unf? You'd be the one under my belly, not the other way around. I'm a very toppish dragon. And I like to screw both girls and boys.
I'm very careful about who I actually play with though. Wish I didn't have to be. I'd be damned promiscuous if it wasn't dangerous.
Adult dragon panel at Further Confusion
General | Posted 17 years agoWell, it's coming around time for FC again. And I've realized... damn. I haven't made anything new since last year's panel. What the heck? I guess I really have been pretty messed up over this last year.
Last FC was a very traumatic time for me. The first time I've had a rotten time at an FC, I think. Not because there was anything wrong with the con, but because of certain people that really wrecked this dragon's heart.
Well, I'm hoping to have a much better time this year. I'm both excited and nervous. I've been facing my anxieties and becoming social again. It's been getting easier.
I've been drawing again. I've actually done some new pictures... black and whites so far. But I'm not posting them here yet. They'll make their debut at the adult dragon panel.
I'm not sure if I'll have any new colors. But I'm going to try, I think. I've lost all my art software since my PC was eaten by a virus, and I had to nuke and pave. So first I have to get that straightened out.
I'm looking forward to spending time with my friends at FC again. And I hope people will like what I show at the adult dragon panel. I always feel so outclassed by the other artists there. But... I'm gonna show my stuff anyway.
Last FC was a very traumatic time for me. The first time I've had a rotten time at an FC, I think. Not because there was anything wrong with the con, but because of certain people that really wrecked this dragon's heart.
Well, I'm hoping to have a much better time this year. I'm both excited and nervous. I've been facing my anxieties and becoming social again. It's been getting easier.
I've been drawing again. I've actually done some new pictures... black and whites so far. But I'm not posting them here yet. They'll make their debut at the adult dragon panel.
I'm not sure if I'll have any new colors. But I'm going to try, I think. I've lost all my art software since my PC was eaten by a virus, and I had to nuke and pave. So first I have to get that straightened out.
I'm looking forward to spending time with my friends at FC again. And I hope people will like what I show at the adult dragon panel. I always feel so outclassed by the other artists there. But... I'm gonna show my stuff anyway.
Warning about Etrade
General | Posted 17 years agoI've had a substantial amount of money at etrade for years. I've recently purchased my first house, and I've made financial decisions based on the notion that this money actually belongs to me.
Etrade claims that you can transfer funds from them to another bank account instantly and easily.
When I tried it, it took multiple days to setup the linkage to my personal bank account. And then when I tried to actually make the transfer, they presented me with a list of unreasonable security questions including questions like how old is my sister and what are all the addresses I've ever been associated with (not just lived at, but the street address of any place I've ever worked, banked with, etc). When I was unable to answer these questions quickly enough, they locked my account.
The web site gave me a number to call. I called it. I answered another set of security questions. And then was told a note on the account requires me to call a different number. And that section is not available today. So I had to wait some more days.
I called up the new number when they told me to. Another protracted series of security questions later, they told me I had to photocopy my drivers license and write down the answers to yet another series of security questions including questions like what was my employee number at a job from over half a decade ago. Oh, and btw... the fax has to be received within 60 minutes after the call, or it will be considered to have failed.
It took me most of that time contacting that old company trying to determine what that old employee number was and the rest to drive 10 miles to the only Mailbox Etc I knew. I was then fortunate that the other customers there allowed me to cut in line and get my fax through under the deadline with approximately 90 seconds to spare.
I'll find out in another 2 or 3 days whether I've successfully gained access to my own funds.
A bit of googling finds news reports about rumors that Etrade has been purposefully blocking withdrawls from their institution. When you try to withdraw funds, your account gets locked.
What I went through here did not leave me feeling like they were just trying to protect from identity theft. The hoops I've gone through so far seem more designed to prevent or delay legitimate customers from withdrawing their own funds under the guise of security. They make the process intentionally difficult, confusing, frustrating, and long to the point that the customer will hopefully just give up.
I also found lots of complaints listed with consumer advocate agencies describing very similar situations to mine from many Etrade customers who have been cut off for months from funds they tried to withdraw... some who have even lost their life savings in the process.
I'll tell you what... Etrade was very friendly, professional, and easy to use as long as I was giving them money and trading in the stock market. I made back triple my investment, theoretically. Seemed like a great service, and I felt confident in them. But when I tried to actually withdraw those funds again, suddenly the story got very different. It's like the trap was sprung.
Ye be warned.
With my monies annexed, I don't know whether I'll be able to have a Christmas this year. Or even pay my bills, for that matter. I've been used and ripped off to the tune of tens of thousands of dollars in the last year or so. Not just by them.
Apparently, I am a sucker.
*sigh*
Etrade claims that you can transfer funds from them to another bank account instantly and easily.
When I tried it, it took multiple days to setup the linkage to my personal bank account. And then when I tried to actually make the transfer, they presented me with a list of unreasonable security questions including questions like how old is my sister and what are all the addresses I've ever been associated with (not just lived at, but the street address of any place I've ever worked, banked with, etc). When I was unable to answer these questions quickly enough, they locked my account.
The web site gave me a number to call. I called it. I answered another set of security questions. And then was told a note on the account requires me to call a different number. And that section is not available today. So I had to wait some more days.
I called up the new number when they told me to. Another protracted series of security questions later, they told me I had to photocopy my drivers license and write down the answers to yet another series of security questions including questions like what was my employee number at a job from over half a decade ago. Oh, and btw... the fax has to be received within 60 minutes after the call, or it will be considered to have failed.
It took me most of that time contacting that old company trying to determine what that old employee number was and the rest to drive 10 miles to the only Mailbox Etc I knew. I was then fortunate that the other customers there allowed me to cut in line and get my fax through under the deadline with approximately 90 seconds to spare.
I'll find out in another 2 or 3 days whether I've successfully gained access to my own funds.
A bit of googling finds news reports about rumors that Etrade has been purposefully blocking withdrawls from their institution. When you try to withdraw funds, your account gets locked.
What I went through here did not leave me feeling like they were just trying to protect from identity theft. The hoops I've gone through so far seem more designed to prevent or delay legitimate customers from withdrawing their own funds under the guise of security. They make the process intentionally difficult, confusing, frustrating, and long to the point that the customer will hopefully just give up.
I also found lots of complaints listed with consumer advocate agencies describing very similar situations to mine from many Etrade customers who have been cut off for months from funds they tried to withdraw... some who have even lost their life savings in the process.
I'll tell you what... Etrade was very friendly, professional, and easy to use as long as I was giving them money and trading in the stock market. I made back triple my investment, theoretically. Seemed like a great service, and I felt confident in them. But when I tried to actually withdraw those funds again, suddenly the story got very different. It's like the trap was sprung.
Ye be warned.
With my monies annexed, I don't know whether I'll be able to have a Christmas this year. Or even pay my bills, for that matter. I've been used and ripped off to the tune of tens of thousands of dollars in the last year or so. Not just by them.
Apparently, I am a sucker.
*sigh*
ZOMG LittleBigPlanet!
General | Posted 17 years agoYeah, so I'm more than a little addicted to this game.
It's all mad crazy physics engine. And it really gets you into building your own levels and such. There's so much you can do with it. I love building crazy contraptions.
The game itself is a very advanced platformer. But it sets a new mark in almost every aspect. Even people who aren't typically into platformer titles get sucked into LBP.
The professionally made story levels that come with the game are top notch platforming. The community made levels are a rather different experience. They're rather like FA where if you just bring up a completely random submission, chances are it's a poorly done one. Buuuut... just a little searching starts revealing the gems. And, much like FA, you can favorite creators you like and find other levels by them... as well as find the good stuff by looking at what other's have favorited... etc etc.
You never know what to expect when you load up a community level. People come up with wicked crazy stuff that utilizes the physics engine to do things entirely out of the ordinary. Like having big robots fight controlled by levers and buttons jumped on by sackboys. Or one we played today where the entire level is slowly spinning on a bolt. Or heck, one level isn't any sort of game at all... someone made a working multidigit calculator using a huge series of pistons and sensor switches... an enormous contraption built out of the physics engine.
This is definately a game to play with friends. If you just play alone, you're missing out. Those friends can be local or remote or combinations thereof.
I just published my first level today. I put a lot of time into it. It's called 'Hot Foot Challenge', and it does have some unique features. I'm hoping it will become popular.
Anyone that wants to be friends on the Playstation Network... I'm 'Skant' there, too. Send me an invite! Please do introduce yourself as being from FA, though. I don't accept random friend invites which are blank.
It's all mad crazy physics engine. And it really gets you into building your own levels and such. There's so much you can do with it. I love building crazy contraptions.
The game itself is a very advanced platformer. But it sets a new mark in almost every aspect. Even people who aren't typically into platformer titles get sucked into LBP.
The professionally made story levels that come with the game are top notch platforming. The community made levels are a rather different experience. They're rather like FA where if you just bring up a completely random submission, chances are it's a poorly done one. Buuuut... just a little searching starts revealing the gems. And, much like FA, you can favorite creators you like and find other levels by them... as well as find the good stuff by looking at what other's have favorited... etc etc.
You never know what to expect when you load up a community level. People come up with wicked crazy stuff that utilizes the physics engine to do things entirely out of the ordinary. Like having big robots fight controlled by levers and buttons jumped on by sackboys. Or one we played today where the entire level is slowly spinning on a bolt. Or heck, one level isn't any sort of game at all... someone made a working multidigit calculator using a huge series of pistons and sensor switches... an enormous contraption built out of the physics engine.
This is definately a game to play with friends. If you just play alone, you're missing out. Those friends can be local or remote or combinations thereof.
I just published my first level today. I put a lot of time into it. It's called 'Hot Foot Challenge', and it does have some unique features. I'm hoping it will become popular.
Anyone that wants to be friends on the Playstation Network... I'm 'Skant' there, too. Send me an invite! Please do introduce yourself as being from FA, though. I don't accept random friend invites which are blank.
Dragon Spire has moved to Dystopia sim
General | Posted 17 years agoDragon Spire is my dance club on Second Life for reptiles and avians. Being largely a dragon club, it's a place where sexuality is fully allowed and even encouraged.
Please come enjoy the club at its new location in Dystopia sim.
I'm back. And there's going to be a lot of improvements coming soon. Including various face lifts for the club and more events and stuff.
http://slurl.com/secondlife/Dystopia/196/196/24
Please come enjoy the club at its new location in Dystopia sim.
I'm back. And there's going to be a lot of improvements coming soon. Including various face lifts for the club and more events and stuff.
http://slurl.com/secondlife/Dystopia/196/196/24
Supersonic Acrobatic Rocket-Powered Battle-Cars
General | Posted 17 years agoThis game rocks!
My first impression of it was kinda meh... it's not the kind of game that grabs you from moment one. But give it a chance and learn how to play, and it's a freaking blast.
It's a weird little concept for a game. You control a little RC car and play socker with other RC cars by hurling yourself at the ball to knock it around. The game uses the Unreal engine and it's all physics simulation.
IGN hates it. But when don't they down play any game exclusive to the PS3? Heh. They gave it a 6.5, and their readers gave it an 8.9. Oops. Frankly, the IGN review reads like the author barely even tried the game, which seems all too common in reviews these days.
Gone are the days when reviewers could be relied upon for honest and diligent opinions. Now they just seem to spend all their time pissing and moaning about any game that has any level of actual challenge to it or which is on a platform they don't want to support.
Heck, IGN gave PAIN a similar score. Those biased fuckers.
Anyway, I'm really hoping others will get this game so I can play with them. It's only $15 bux. This should be a really good party game I think. It can be played online, spit screen, and online splitscreen (like Warhawk... so you can have combinations of local and remote players together at once).
Gah. Between this and Wipeout HD, I'm particularly addicted to my PS3 lately.
Edit: For anyone that wants to add me, I'm Skant on the PSN. Just mention you're from FA in the add request (I don't add total strangers).
My first impression of it was kinda meh... it's not the kind of game that grabs you from moment one. But give it a chance and learn how to play, and it's a freaking blast.
It's a weird little concept for a game. You control a little RC car and play socker with other RC cars by hurling yourself at the ball to knock it around. The game uses the Unreal engine and it's all physics simulation.
IGN hates it. But when don't they down play any game exclusive to the PS3? Heh. They gave it a 6.5, and their readers gave it an 8.9. Oops. Frankly, the IGN review reads like the author barely even tried the game, which seems all too common in reviews these days.
Gone are the days when reviewers could be relied upon for honest and diligent opinions. Now they just seem to spend all their time pissing and moaning about any game that has any level of actual challenge to it or which is on a platform they don't want to support.
Heck, IGN gave PAIN a similar score. Those biased fuckers.
Anyway, I'm really hoping others will get this game so I can play with them. It's only $15 bux. This should be a really good party game I think. It can be played online, spit screen, and online splitscreen (like Warhawk... so you can have combinations of local and remote players together at once).
Gah. Between this and Wipeout HD, I'm particularly addicted to my PS3 lately.
Edit: For anyone that wants to add me, I'm Skant on the PSN. Just mention you're from FA in the add request (I don't add total strangers).
Stories
General | Posted 17 years agoLately there seems to be a conspiracy of people asking about my written works.
While I do consider myself more capable at writing than art and music, I haven't much considered posting my stories.
Writing doesn't seem to be well supported on FA. Indeed, compared to artists, writers tend to be treated as red haired step children most anywhere. But it doesn't really seem like a target for FA at all. I'm not sure if there's really an audience for stories here.
But probably more than that... I feel nervous that my writing is a little too much of a raw look into myself. More than the artist or musician, the author is naked before the audience. And I'm a little too accustomed to being shunned once a little too much is known about me. I'm not sure how much I dare show.
I have quite a few stories that sit on my hard drive. And I don't really show them to anyone.
Some of them delve into subjects that would frankly get me skewered if I posted them... far too much information about what a sicko I really am. But perhaps some of my more tame works might be postable.
I will consider the matter if there is interest.
While I do consider myself more capable at writing than art and music, I haven't much considered posting my stories.
Writing doesn't seem to be well supported on FA. Indeed, compared to artists, writers tend to be treated as red haired step children most anywhere. But it doesn't really seem like a target for FA at all. I'm not sure if there's really an audience for stories here.
But probably more than that... I feel nervous that my writing is a little too much of a raw look into myself. More than the artist or musician, the author is naked before the audience. And I'm a little too accustomed to being shunned once a little too much is known about me. I'm not sure how much I dare show.
I have quite a few stories that sit on my hard drive. And I don't really show them to anyone.
Some of them delve into subjects that would frankly get me skewered if I posted them... far too much information about what a sicko I really am. But perhaps some of my more tame works might be postable.
I will consider the matter if there is interest.
Sketches
General | Posted 17 years agoI'm slowly healing and returning to being myself rather than this broken thing I've been for a while. I'm not ready for much yet, but I seem to be getting a bit better.
I'm starting to draw again. Just sketches so far.
In fact, I feel like I need to force myself to just sketch. I had been in the habit of completing everything I drew into a full finished and colored piece, and I think that's actually bad for me. It makes drawing a monumental task, and any piece I choose to draw needs to be enough to keep me motivated through that entire process.
I end up stalling because I have trouble feeling motivated enough to do all that. I don't want to start if I can't see it through.
And what is my motivation anyway? I've been thinking about that. It seems to have eroded as time has gone on. Why is that?
I've never considered myself to be much good as an artist. My belief has long been that others appreciate my artwork mostly for the rare subject matter. When I started, there was virtually no one drawing subjects like nonanthro dragon sex. And so I had a unique nitch. And filling that nitch gave me a sense of purpose.
But now there are quite a few dragon artists and most of them markedly better than me. Syrinoth, Athus, Narse, Skadjer, Slash0x, Blackberry, Wind Dragon... just to name a few examples. All either started our better than me or surpassed me.
So what value is there to my labors? There's no vacuum I fill anymore. And anything I might draw would be drawn better by any number of other artists.
I guess that's what set me on doing only full finished pieces. Because I felt that even my best finished work only begins to compete, and anything less than that is just junk nobody will care about at all.
Heck, at one point I even took my gallery down (for other reasons), and it took like a month before anyone even noticed.
My dirth of motivation has stalled my progress, so I haven't gotten better at the rate other artists have. If I draw more, I'll get better at it, and maybe better enough for my labors to become meaningful. And so I've been doodling and sketching. Just things which take little motivation. And things I aught to have been doing more anyway. Sketching is more free and open to experiment.
But should I bother posting any of it? I mean... it's things like studies of dragon hind paws. A dragon sucking on another dragon's tongue. Sketches of trees. Pieces of castles.
You know, I actually have a fear that if I post my sketchy junk, I'll lose my watchers because I'm spamming them with garbage that's not worth sifting through.
I just... need to get back on track somehow. I could get good at it if I kept up on it.
I'm starting to draw again. Just sketches so far.
In fact, I feel like I need to force myself to just sketch. I had been in the habit of completing everything I drew into a full finished and colored piece, and I think that's actually bad for me. It makes drawing a monumental task, and any piece I choose to draw needs to be enough to keep me motivated through that entire process.
I end up stalling because I have trouble feeling motivated enough to do all that. I don't want to start if I can't see it through.
And what is my motivation anyway? I've been thinking about that. It seems to have eroded as time has gone on. Why is that?
I've never considered myself to be much good as an artist. My belief has long been that others appreciate my artwork mostly for the rare subject matter. When I started, there was virtually no one drawing subjects like nonanthro dragon sex. And so I had a unique nitch. And filling that nitch gave me a sense of purpose.
But now there are quite a few dragon artists and most of them markedly better than me. Syrinoth, Athus, Narse, Skadjer, Slash0x, Blackberry, Wind Dragon... just to name a few examples. All either started our better than me or surpassed me.
So what value is there to my labors? There's no vacuum I fill anymore. And anything I might draw would be drawn better by any number of other artists.
I guess that's what set me on doing only full finished pieces. Because I felt that even my best finished work only begins to compete, and anything less than that is just junk nobody will care about at all.
Heck, at one point I even took my gallery down (for other reasons), and it took like a month before anyone even noticed.
My dirth of motivation has stalled my progress, so I haven't gotten better at the rate other artists have. If I draw more, I'll get better at it, and maybe better enough for my labors to become meaningful. And so I've been doodling and sketching. Just things which take little motivation. And things I aught to have been doing more anyway. Sketching is more free and open to experiment.
But should I bother posting any of it? I mean... it's things like studies of dragon hind paws. A dragon sucking on another dragon's tongue. Sketches of trees. Pieces of castles.
You know, I actually have a fear that if I post my sketchy junk, I'll lose my watchers because I'm spamming them with garbage that's not worth sifting through.
I just... need to get back on track somehow. I could get good at it if I kept up on it.
Hiatus
General | Posted 17 years agoI'm trying to get my life to slow down right now. Put on the brakes. My life has been extremely complicated and stressful for months. And so far, I just can't find the chance to heal.
I know it may seem to some like I've been on hiatus for a long time, but it's not the case. I've been busy and under stress in the extreme all this time. I just haven't been online is all. It's only been in the last couple of weeks that the load started to relent.
I have little strength left at this point. I've been heavily emotionally wounded and stressed over these months. Several times I've skirted the edge with the beginnings of symptoms of a nervous breakdown.
At this point, I'm just trying to crawl into my cave and heal. I need time. But I can't seem to get it. Every time I'm just starting to relax and recover, something will happen. The phone will ring again. Something always happens.
At this point, I'm just turning everyone down. Yes, I know you really need me to do something for you. Yes, I know I have responsibilities. Yes, I know it's just one little thing. Yes, I know you can't do it without me. Yes, I.. KNOW...
And then I can't rest because I feel so guilty. I want to help. I don't want to let anyone down.
Social situations have always been stressful for me. I'm a big spikey dragon. I'm not very good at it. And so even those kinds of things are a stress I can't handle right now.
So please everyone... just... let me have some time, okay? I promise I'll do everything you want me to when I feel better.
But right now, I just need to hide in the back of my cave somewhere and let my multitude of wounds heal.
I'm so afraid I'll lose my friends in the meantime. You don't know how hard it is for me to say no to anyone. But it's what I have to do. I'm hoping I'll still have a couple of friends left after this.
I know it may seem to some like I've been on hiatus for a long time, but it's not the case. I've been busy and under stress in the extreme all this time. I just haven't been online is all. It's only been in the last couple of weeks that the load started to relent.
I have little strength left at this point. I've been heavily emotionally wounded and stressed over these months. Several times I've skirted the edge with the beginnings of symptoms of a nervous breakdown.
At this point, I'm just trying to crawl into my cave and heal. I need time. But I can't seem to get it. Every time I'm just starting to relax and recover, something will happen. The phone will ring again. Something always happens.
At this point, I'm just turning everyone down. Yes, I know you really need me to do something for you. Yes, I know I have responsibilities. Yes, I know it's just one little thing. Yes, I know you can't do it without me. Yes, I.. KNOW...
And then I can't rest because I feel so guilty. I want to help. I don't want to let anyone down.
Social situations have always been stressful for me. I'm a big spikey dragon. I'm not very good at it. And so even those kinds of things are a stress I can't handle right now.
So please everyone... just... let me have some time, okay? I promise I'll do everything you want me to when I feel better.
But right now, I just need to hide in the back of my cave somewhere and let my multitude of wounds heal.
I'm so afraid I'll lose my friends in the meantime. You don't know how hard it is for me to say no to anyone. But it's what I have to do. I'm hoping I'll still have a couple of friends left after this.
No dragon left
General | Posted 17 years agoI'm sorry to everyone.
Every day I work late into the night until I pass out.
No matter how hard I try, I can't keep up with my commitments.
Every item I manage to cross off my todo list is replaced by two more.
Friends call. They each want me to make more commitments for them. They want me to host them at the new house for some days. Or they want me to do something for them. Or at least call them back at a particular time.
One more straw will break the camel's back.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night with my fingers and nose going numb. Skittering on the edge of a nervous breakdown.
I'm sorry. I really love my friends. I want to visit. I want to do whatever you want me to do. But I'm out of paper for my todo list. There's about three thousand items on it and impossible deadlines for it all. There is no dragon left. There's not enough of me to take on just one more tiny little teeny weenie commitment.
I can't even keep up with the critical commitments I have already. Like trying to find time to pay bills. I've got the money... just not the time to give people the money. They're getting upset.
I feel so bad about it. I imagine my beloved friends think I don't care about them anymore. Maybe they want to come visit to console me. But I still have to be a good host. I must make a commitment to that. Brush my other commitments aside and handle being a host instead.
I can't! I'm sorry! I can't!
They'll turn the lights off if I never find time to pay the electric bills for both houses.
I keep disappointing everyone.
I'm sorry.
There's just no dragon left.
Every day I work late into the night until I pass out.
No matter how hard I try, I can't keep up with my commitments.
Every item I manage to cross off my todo list is replaced by two more.
Friends call. They each want me to make more commitments for them. They want me to host them at the new house for some days. Or they want me to do something for them. Or at least call them back at a particular time.
One more straw will break the camel's back.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night with my fingers and nose going numb. Skittering on the edge of a nervous breakdown.
I'm sorry. I really love my friends. I want to visit. I want to do whatever you want me to do. But I'm out of paper for my todo list. There's about three thousand items on it and impossible deadlines for it all. There is no dragon left. There's not enough of me to take on just one more tiny little teeny weenie commitment.
I can't even keep up with the critical commitments I have already. Like trying to find time to pay bills. I've got the money... just not the time to give people the money. They're getting upset.
I feel so bad about it. I imagine my beloved friends think I don't care about them anymore. Maybe they want to come visit to console me. But I still have to be a good host. I must make a commitment to that. Brush my other commitments aside and handle being a host instead.
I can't! I'm sorry! I can't!
They'll turn the lights off if I never find time to pay the electric bills for both houses.
I keep disappointing everyone.
I'm sorry.
There's just no dragon left.
Rootkitted
General | Posted 17 years agoSince I don't have enough stress to deal with already, my home PC picked up a virus. It seems to be a rather advanced rootkit sort with downloader, key logger, backdoor, and such.
Norton is totally ineffective against it. So much so that it actually... get this... as Norton was running its scan, the virus animated the scan dialog window to show little insects eating Norton up.
Norton says the PC is clean.
Brilliant.
The machine has actually been infected for a few days. I'm so busy with other things, I can't even find the time to deal with it. I'm writing this from my work laptop. The infected machine is physically disconnected from the net.
So I pretty much can't do shit online.
I'm going to poke at it a bit to try to disinfect it. But I'll probably just have to nuke and pave. Maybe it's time to upgrade to Vista. Just so I can get experience with it.
I need to figure out what antivirus program to switch to. And which of the 100 versions of Vista to install if I'm gonna nuke and pave.
Norton is totally ineffective against it. So much so that it actually... get this... as Norton was running its scan, the virus animated the scan dialog window to show little insects eating Norton up.
Norton says the PC is clean.
Brilliant.
The machine has actually been infected for a few days. I'm so busy with other things, I can't even find the time to deal with it. I'm writing this from my work laptop. The infected machine is physically disconnected from the net.
So I pretty much can't do shit online.
I'm going to poke at it a bit to try to disinfect it. But I'll probably just have to nuke and pave. Maybe it's time to upgrade to Vista. Just so I can get experience with it.
I need to figure out what antivirus program to switch to. And which of the 100 versions of Vista to install if I'm gonna nuke and pave.
I'm still alive, just crazy...
General | Posted 17 years agoI'm sorry to everyone. I feel like I'm letting all my friends down. There's so much stuff I gotta do, and I can't keep up. Friends I really want to talk to and spend time with are probably thinking I'm not interested in them anymore or something.
To begin with, I asked my girl pet to move out. That was really hard, but living with her just wasn't working out... as much as I wanted it to. So now she's moved far away, and I'm pretty emotionally messed up and feeling awefully lonely on the girl side.
This is while I'm in the middle of buying a new house. It's a huge place with two living rooms, a studio, and two decks in the back, and would have been easily large enough for all three of us. But i guess I'll just have a guest room now. Maybe it will house a girl pet some day.
Buying your first house, of course, is considered the most stressful thing you can deal with in your life besides a death in the family. And it sure is consuming me. There's about a billion things that still have to be done in the next few weeks. Dealing with contractors for alterations to the floor plan, remodelling bathrooms, and we're doing painting and electrical ourselves. I happen to be trained as an electrical technician, and I am finding scary wiring in this house that's a serious safety and fire hazard... I'm ripping out and rewiring most everything to bring it up to code. There's a lot of work to do there.
Oh, and in case that wasn't enough...
Version 1.0 of our product at work is to be released at the end of the month. Oh yeah, and our hardware engineering only finally got me the first prototype to actually work with a couple of days ago. So that leaves me _two weeks_ in which to write all the code to work with the hardware, and have it fully functional and stable to install into real police cars on real duty. Seven digits worth of this product that doesn't exist has already been purchased, and the release date can not move. So basically, sleeping and eating have been cancelled for the foreseeable future.
And that's only the most major topics I have to deal with right now. There's really _REALLY_ important stuff that I'm letting rot because there's just not enough of me to handle it.
I'm a wreck.
And I apologize to everyone I've been letting down. I haven't decided I don't care anymore or I hate you or anything like that. I just can't keep up. I feel guilty any time I pause to take a break... like passing out the other night...
To begin with, I asked my girl pet to move out. That was really hard, but living with her just wasn't working out... as much as I wanted it to. So now she's moved far away, and I'm pretty emotionally messed up and feeling awefully lonely on the girl side.
This is while I'm in the middle of buying a new house. It's a huge place with two living rooms, a studio, and two decks in the back, and would have been easily large enough for all three of us. But i guess I'll just have a guest room now. Maybe it will house a girl pet some day.
Buying your first house, of course, is considered the most stressful thing you can deal with in your life besides a death in the family. And it sure is consuming me. There's about a billion things that still have to be done in the next few weeks. Dealing with contractors for alterations to the floor plan, remodelling bathrooms, and we're doing painting and electrical ourselves. I happen to be trained as an electrical technician, and I am finding scary wiring in this house that's a serious safety and fire hazard... I'm ripping out and rewiring most everything to bring it up to code. There's a lot of work to do there.
Oh, and in case that wasn't enough...
Version 1.0 of our product at work is to be released at the end of the month. Oh yeah, and our hardware engineering only finally got me the first prototype to actually work with a couple of days ago. So that leaves me _two weeks_ in which to write all the code to work with the hardware, and have it fully functional and stable to install into real police cars on real duty. Seven digits worth of this product that doesn't exist has already been purchased, and the release date can not move. So basically, sleeping and eating have been cancelled for the foreseeable future.
And that's only the most major topics I have to deal with right now. There's really _REALLY_ important stuff that I'm letting rot because there's just not enough of me to handle it.
I'm a wreck.
And I apologize to everyone I've been letting down. I haven't decided I don't care anymore or I hate you or anything like that. I just can't keep up. I feel guilty any time I pause to take a break... like passing out the other night...
Tagged by ColdFire
General | Posted 17 years agoAnd since ColdFire is so nice, I guess I'll do it. ;)
1.) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
'caught himself thinking that and felt his face heat up again in another blush' from That Old Time Religion by Will A. Sanborn. An adult novel I bought at FC with illustrations by Heather Bruton. I have a great affinity for erotic literature.
2.) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you reach?
Stacks of my guest sketchbooks. My bed. My statue of a white dragoness. Three CDs that Jace gave me from cleaning out his room.
3.) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Star Trek Voyager. Watched it last night at a friend of mine's place while we hung out. I'd forgotten how bad the writing for it was. I'm a big Star Trek fan, but I lost interest in Voyager pretty quick after its launch. I wish Enterprise hadn't been cancelled. It got taken off the air just as it was getting really good again. Guh.
4.) Without looking guess what time it is?
4:00PM
5.) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
4:32PM
6.) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Other computers in my room (I'm a nerd). And cars passing by outside... I live on a busy street.
7.) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
A couple of hours ago to go to Leather Masters to pick up some stuff for my pet hyena.
8.) Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Some news sites about the PS3 and Blu-ray I frequent. Lots of good stuff happening for both these days.
9.) What are you wearing?
Speedos. I'm generally wearing little or nothing when I'm at home. Company or not.
10.) What did you dream about last night?
Stress dreams about killing people I care about.
11.) When did you last laugh?
A while ago while playing COD4 on my PS3. I think I was laughing maniacally while doing a round with 22 kills and 4 deaths. My favorite and best weapon is the G3 with grenade launcher. Difficult to use for sure, but very powerful when I'm 'on'.
12.) What are on the walls of the room you are in?
My walls are lined with dragon and gryphon pornography by Jace. Large poster prints of his color works. They're pretty old now. I want to put up his newer works at some point.
13) Did you see anything weird lately?
Some rather strange looking three wheel vehicles Jace was showing me pictures of.
14.) What do you think of this quiz?
It's at least not as embarassingly personal as most of them. I tend to be a bit iffy about these because many of them are like playing truth or dare.. to the whole world. I'm not too keen on how many people would react to me if they knew a little too much about me. I've had to deal with severe negative reactions when I open up to people... even people I thought would appreciate my nature... on too many occassions. I can't imagine what it would be like to be outted to the general public.
15.) What was the last film you saw?
Jurassic Park with Riff Trax... same as ColdFire. Since we watched it together while he was here this last weekend.
16.) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A big house with secret rooms. And a collection of Corvettes and Lotuses. I'd be able to fund my racing habit properly. Right now, I just race against multi-millionaires who are driving exotic european supercars. My vette is poorly funded but otherwise up to the task. I do take home some trophies.
17.) Tell me something about you that I don't know?
I have a thing for kangaroos. Yeah, I dunno why. Mammals don't generally do much for me. I do not go for the upsidedown dick thing though. Either females or males with rightsideup penises (or herms for that matter. I like all genders)
18.) If you could change one thing about the world...
Dragons need to come, take over, and enslave humanity for their whims. Barring something like that, how about humans losing their hangups about sexuality.
19.) Do you like to dance?
I wish I could dance. I love to watch my avatar dance on SL. Of course, on SL I'm hot. In RL, not so much.
20.) George Bush...
got elected by hating gays even more than the other guy.
21.) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I never want children. Ever. I'm terrified of being forced into it by making a mistake. Especially since I'm so sexual and can get a little carried away.
22.) Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
See 21.
23.) Would you ever consider living abroad?
Not if I could help it. I was born and raised in San Jose, California. And I love it here. The only other place I've ever encountered that I thought I could live is Chico. Or... well... of course, if I could go live with dragons in... dragon world... or something... yeah, I'd totally do that in a heartbeat.
24.) What do you want God to say when you reach the Pearly Gates?
When I die, I hope whatever I'm on this world for has been accomplished, and I can go back to being a dragon again.
1.) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
'caught himself thinking that and felt his face heat up again in another blush' from That Old Time Religion by Will A. Sanborn. An adult novel I bought at FC with illustrations by Heather Bruton. I have a great affinity for erotic literature.
2.) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you reach?
Stacks of my guest sketchbooks. My bed. My statue of a white dragoness. Three CDs that Jace gave me from cleaning out his room.
3.) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Star Trek Voyager. Watched it last night at a friend of mine's place while we hung out. I'd forgotten how bad the writing for it was. I'm a big Star Trek fan, but I lost interest in Voyager pretty quick after its launch. I wish Enterprise hadn't been cancelled. It got taken off the air just as it was getting really good again. Guh.
4.) Without looking guess what time it is?
4:00PM
5.) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
4:32PM
6.) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Other computers in my room (I'm a nerd). And cars passing by outside... I live on a busy street.
7.) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
A couple of hours ago to go to Leather Masters to pick up some stuff for my pet hyena.
8.) Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Some news sites about the PS3 and Blu-ray I frequent. Lots of good stuff happening for both these days.
9.) What are you wearing?
Speedos. I'm generally wearing little or nothing when I'm at home. Company or not.
10.) What did you dream about last night?
Stress dreams about killing people I care about.
11.) When did you last laugh?
A while ago while playing COD4 on my PS3. I think I was laughing maniacally while doing a round with 22 kills and 4 deaths. My favorite and best weapon is the G3 with grenade launcher. Difficult to use for sure, but very powerful when I'm 'on'.
12.) What are on the walls of the room you are in?
My walls are lined with dragon and gryphon pornography by Jace. Large poster prints of his color works. They're pretty old now. I want to put up his newer works at some point.
13) Did you see anything weird lately?
Some rather strange looking three wheel vehicles Jace was showing me pictures of.
14.) What do you think of this quiz?
It's at least not as embarassingly personal as most of them. I tend to be a bit iffy about these because many of them are like playing truth or dare.. to the whole world. I'm not too keen on how many people would react to me if they knew a little too much about me. I've had to deal with severe negative reactions when I open up to people... even people I thought would appreciate my nature... on too many occassions. I can't imagine what it would be like to be outted to the general public.
15.) What was the last film you saw?
Jurassic Park with Riff Trax... same as ColdFire. Since we watched it together while he was here this last weekend.
16.) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A big house with secret rooms. And a collection of Corvettes and Lotuses. I'd be able to fund my racing habit properly. Right now, I just race against multi-millionaires who are driving exotic european supercars. My vette is poorly funded but otherwise up to the task. I do take home some trophies.
17.) Tell me something about you that I don't know?
I have a thing for kangaroos. Yeah, I dunno why. Mammals don't generally do much for me. I do not go for the upsidedown dick thing though. Either females or males with rightsideup penises (or herms for that matter. I like all genders)
18.) If you could change one thing about the world...
Dragons need to come, take over, and enslave humanity for their whims. Barring something like that, how about humans losing their hangups about sexuality.
19.) Do you like to dance?
I wish I could dance. I love to watch my avatar dance on SL. Of course, on SL I'm hot. In RL, not so much.
20.) George Bush...
got elected by hating gays even more than the other guy.
21.) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
I never want children. Ever. I'm terrified of being forced into it by making a mistake. Especially since I'm so sexual and can get a little carried away.
22.) Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
See 21.
23.) Would you ever consider living abroad?
Not if I could help it. I was born and raised in San Jose, California. And I love it here. The only other place I've ever encountered that I thought I could live is Chico. Or... well... of course, if I could go live with dragons in... dragon world... or something... yeah, I'd totally do that in a heartbeat.
24.) What do you want God to say when you reach the Pearly Gates?
When I die, I hope whatever I'm on this world for has been accomplished, and I can go back to being a dragon again.
What to do with black and whites?
General | Posted 18 years agoI'm trying to decide what to do now with black and white sketches. Do I post them or not?
On the one hand, I like to show a color piece that nobody has seen at all before. Posting the black and white version of it first kindof spoils the surprise. It also dilutes my gallery with yet more black and whites. I'm trying to transition to color fully.
But on the other hand, there are sketches that may never be colored. Maybe they're doodles or convention sketches in other people's sketchbooks. Maybe I shouldn't post them to avoid diluting the quality of my gallery. Or maybe just put them in scraps with the rest of my junk.
At the moment, I have a sketch that I did in Blackberry's sketchbook that I'm considering whether I'll color or not. I haven't really drawn in a long time, so it's not the greatest. I'm not sure if I'll color it. If I put it up as a black and white, I'll be less inclined to color it since everyone will have seen it already. But I may never color it anyway. I don't know.
I guess I'm kindof caught between the idea of just putting up any old thing on my gallery and churning out junk but more of it. Or trying to maintain a level of quality and concentrating on posting good stuff only (at least, as good as I can make it).
I feel embarassed to post something that isn't my best work, you know?
On the one hand, I like to show a color piece that nobody has seen at all before. Posting the black and white version of it first kindof spoils the surprise. It also dilutes my gallery with yet more black and whites. I'm trying to transition to color fully.
But on the other hand, there are sketches that may never be colored. Maybe they're doodles or convention sketches in other people's sketchbooks. Maybe I shouldn't post them to avoid diluting the quality of my gallery. Or maybe just put them in scraps with the rest of my junk.
At the moment, I have a sketch that I did in Blackberry's sketchbook that I'm considering whether I'll color or not. I haven't really drawn in a long time, so it's not the greatest. I'm not sure if I'll color it. If I put it up as a black and white, I'll be less inclined to color it since everyone will have seen it already. But I may never color it anyway. I don't know.
I guess I'm kindof caught between the idea of just putting up any old thing on my gallery and churning out junk but more of it. Or trying to maintain a level of quality and concentrating on posting good stuff only (at least, as good as I can make it).
I feel embarassed to post something that isn't my best work, you know?
ArtRage vs Painter
General | Posted 18 years agoI'm once again feeling uncertain about the paint program I'm using. I love ArtRage. I seem to get the best results from it. Yet I continue to worry that I need to 'grow up' and graduate to a big boy's art program.
It doesn't help that when you read reviews on ArtRage, you often find comments like 'If you can't afford Painter, this is the program for you'. Or 'If you're not a serious professional, try out ArtRage. It's fun for the whole family!'. And 'A great art program for adults and children alike'.
Makes me feel like a fool riding a tiny little childrens' bicycle with training wheels and thinking I'm one of the big kids.
I dunno. I've been over this before and concluded that artists should just use whatever art tools gets results for them.
And I get the results from ArtRage. I've experimented with Painter, but it just falls flat for me. It costs 10 times as much, yet feels inferior in my claws. I've customized the interface a bunch, which helped a lot. But still, I find myself just trying to make it emulate ArtRage. As far as I can tell, Painter just doesn't have a single tool which matches the ability and dynamics of ArtRage's brush. It's more like a jack of all trades by comparison.
On the other hand, ArtRage doesn't do everything that Painter does. What ArtRage does, it does very well. But it doesn't have an answer to everything you might ever want to do. In particular, it lacks Photoshop-like abilities like adjusting brightness of the whole picture. Nor does it do anything 'digital style' like flat color brushes, area fills, or manipulating individual pixels.
ArtRage is dedicated to simulating real media, and it doesn't target abilities that can't be done with real media. Heck, if you want to draw a straight line, you place a virtual ruler on the virtual canvas and paint against it.
The effect of all that forces you to approach the artwork in a real media sort of way. It's a different way of thinking than a pure digital approach. And it seems to really work for me.
And yet I still hold this fear that I'm stunting my growth somehow and using a toy program.
Who else even uses ArtRage? I gather Adam Wan does. And Moonstalker. But I'm not sure how much they even use it. And I don't know that anybody else does?
Maybe I'd feel better if there were more furry artists using it or something. Just because if I feel like I'm about the only one, it sure makes me wonder if I'm missing the boat.
It doesn't help that when you read reviews on ArtRage, you often find comments like 'If you can't afford Painter, this is the program for you'. Or 'If you're not a serious professional, try out ArtRage. It's fun for the whole family!'. And 'A great art program for adults and children alike'.
Makes me feel like a fool riding a tiny little childrens' bicycle with training wheels and thinking I'm one of the big kids.
I dunno. I've been over this before and concluded that artists should just use whatever art tools gets results for them.
And I get the results from ArtRage. I've experimented with Painter, but it just falls flat for me. It costs 10 times as much, yet feels inferior in my claws. I've customized the interface a bunch, which helped a lot. But still, I find myself just trying to make it emulate ArtRage. As far as I can tell, Painter just doesn't have a single tool which matches the ability and dynamics of ArtRage's brush. It's more like a jack of all trades by comparison.
On the other hand, ArtRage doesn't do everything that Painter does. What ArtRage does, it does very well. But it doesn't have an answer to everything you might ever want to do. In particular, it lacks Photoshop-like abilities like adjusting brightness of the whole picture. Nor does it do anything 'digital style' like flat color brushes, area fills, or manipulating individual pixels.
ArtRage is dedicated to simulating real media, and it doesn't target abilities that can't be done with real media. Heck, if you want to draw a straight line, you place a virtual ruler on the virtual canvas and paint against it.
The effect of all that forces you to approach the artwork in a real media sort of way. It's a different way of thinking than a pure digital approach. And it seems to really work for me.
And yet I still hold this fear that I'm stunting my growth somehow and using a toy program.
Who else even uses ArtRage? I gather Adam Wan does. And Moonstalker. But I'm not sure how much they even use it. And I don't know that anybody else does?
Maybe I'd feel better if there were more furry artists using it or something. Just because if I feel like I'm about the only one, it sure makes me wonder if I'm missing the boat.
Color old pictures or all new?
General | Posted 18 years agoSomeone asked me this at the adult dragon panel. And I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do myself.
Do I go on coloring my existing black and whites? Or do I work on making new pictures from scratch?
The Sprawling picture I did because my fans expressed a lot of interest in having it colored. Are there any others you folks are burning to see colored?
Coloring that particular one did pose some difficulties because it was six years old, and so is not as tight as my more recent works. While it wasn't a bad piece, working with it again did remind me how much I've improved. The piece hides a lot of mistakes or things I struggled with more at the time.
My previous works were never actually meant to be colored. I had no idea at the time I made them that they even could be colored. So they generally do require a little surgery to make them colorable.
I have yet to create a new piece entirely from scratch that was designed to be colored from the start.
I don't know. I might be afraid to try it or something. I'm having fun coloring previous pieces, but it may be a bit of a cop out.
Hmm.. maybe what I need to do is some mixture between brand new pieces and coloring old ones. There's only a few of my black and white pictures left that I would really think of coloring though, mostly my most recent stuff.
What do you folks want to see?
(Note, btw, that my black and white pictures ended up not being posted in chronological order. The newest of that is actually further back in the order on FA)
Do I go on coloring my existing black and whites? Or do I work on making new pictures from scratch?
The Sprawling picture I did because my fans expressed a lot of interest in having it colored. Are there any others you folks are burning to see colored?
Coloring that particular one did pose some difficulties because it was six years old, and so is not as tight as my more recent works. While it wasn't a bad piece, working with it again did remind me how much I've improved. The piece hides a lot of mistakes or things I struggled with more at the time.
My previous works were never actually meant to be colored. I had no idea at the time I made them that they even could be colored. So they generally do require a little surgery to make them colorable.
I have yet to create a new piece entirely from scratch that was designed to be colored from the start.
I don't know. I might be afraid to try it or something. I'm having fun coloring previous pieces, but it may be a bit of a cop out.
Hmm.. maybe what I need to do is some mixture between brand new pieces and coloring old ones. There's only a few of my black and white pictures left that I would really think of coloring though, mostly my most recent stuff.
What do you folks want to see?
(Note, btw, that my black and white pictures ended up not being posted in chronological order. The newest of that is actually further back in the order on FA)
Looking for PS3 friends
General | Posted 18 years agoI play on my PS3 a ton. Love the system to death. But I have just about no one on my friend list yet. And who better to play with than dragon fans?
I have:
- Call of Duty 4
- Warhawk
- Uncharted: Drakes Fortune
- Assassin's Creed
- Pain
- Ratchet & Clank Future
- Rainbow Six Vegas
- Skate
- DiRT
- Heavenly Sword
- F1 Championship Edition
- The Darkness
- Stuntman Ignition
- Motorstorm
- Restance: Fall of Man
- Lair
- Virtually every PSN game available
I am 'Skant' on the PSN network. I will not accept friend invites with no information. Just tell me you love dragons or something so I know you're from FA. Oh! And tell me who you are on FA!
PS: Please, no comments concerning the XBOX or Wii. PS3 owners only.
I have:
- Call of Duty 4
- Warhawk
- Uncharted: Drakes Fortune
- Assassin's Creed
- Pain
- Ratchet & Clank Future
- Rainbow Six Vegas
- Skate
- DiRT
- Heavenly Sword
- F1 Championship Edition
- The Darkness
- Stuntman Ignition
- Motorstorm
- Restance: Fall of Man
- Lair
- Virtually every PSN game available
I am 'Skant' on the PSN network. I will not accept friend invites with no information. Just tell me you love dragons or something so I know you're from FA. Oh! And tell me who you are on FA!
PS: Please, no comments concerning the XBOX or Wii. PS3 owners only.
New piece to debut at Adult Dragon Panel
General | Posted 18 years agoI've been very busy today creating a new painting to show at the Adult Dragon Panel at FC. It's done except for finishing touches. So it will be ready for Friday.
I wanted to have a new piece to show that hasn't just been on my FA site already.
It will be scary showing my artwork in front of a couple hundred people. But the support I've received really helps. Thank you.
As to what this new piece is? I'll just hint that it contains a good bit of spooge.
I wanted to have a new piece to show that hasn't just been on my FA site already.
It will be scary showing my artwork in front of a couple hundred people. But the support I've received really helps. Thank you.
As to what this new piece is? I'll just hint that it contains a good bit of spooge.
I'll be showing at the Adult Dragon Panel
General | Posted 18 years agoI was asked to speak at the adult dragon panel. Get up in front of a couple hundred people and talk about the weird smut I draw? Not sure why I accepted. I must be crazy.
I guess because Kiteless is a good friend of mine. And because his first adult dragon panel is what got me to show myself in the first place.
I just hope nobody will throw tomatoes at me.
I guess because Kiteless is a good friend of mine. And because his first adult dragon panel is what got me to show myself in the first place.
I just hope nobody will throw tomatoes at me.
