Meh... that is all

Gotta ask this and I hope someone repleys to this with a positive answer that I want but is there any other way to pay someone like PayPal other than having to use PayFuckingPal?

Quit my job thank god, dont really care if I do or dont find another job just thank god Im out of that fucking shop urgh.. god damn managers.

Sorry about that stressful day that was hope everyone gotten all there Chritmas goodies and going to get majorly pissed tommorrow for New Year or at least have a good time with family or friends or both.

My New Year Resolution is gonna be this year

1> Get Driving Licence
2> Get a Car
3> Go to Gym to get six pack or roughly somewhere near it (not sure if women prefer major muscles or slight muscles) XS
Pretty much it there is a forth but thats a secret XP

either way Happy New Year to all for when it comes for you.

Ok seriously I gotta pay 5p now for each bag I use now at any store wtf???
Wow take 20% of our money of tax lets just take more 'Mother fucking titty sucking two ball bitch' -.- life is fucking shit might be small if you add it up in a year probably around £20 less or more unless you got a big ass family then your fucked.. £40 down the drain XP know im bing silly abit but still what the hell

urgh I dunno felt bored thought Id post something.. still havnt bothered with Paypal might as well go to a different bank and get a new card at this rate -.-

Feel like im going nowhere in life and I feel like what my father is saying is pretty much right I leave my job I go to college for a pointless reason even if im there for 2 years get better grrades than anyone im still fucked as the UK has not many jobs for one people who are in university and even if I got into uni then id have to have more promblems with younger students.. so im fucked and I know pretty much same as everyone else guess im just thinking out loud.. -.- wish my father would give me more encouragment in this than in my pool games.. urgh.. but I feel like he is putting me down.. I dunno if he gets it.. or I dont.. I just feel like my life is slowly comeing to an end at this rate I seriously need to vent myself.. fucking jump out of a plane or something or fly one >.< by saying jumping I mean.. erm parachuteing forgot the proper word.. get my adreneline going I guess...

Wont be able to get anymore commissions untill I can sort out PayPal

Thanks for watching me mostly goes out to the latest watchers and others that I havnt thanked yet for it so thanks again.

As it says on the Subject >.>

(Did this to pretty much get rid of the other Journal for now)

Ok Im gonna start this off by saying that in work there is this one guy who annoys me so much to a certain point I want to kick the mother fucking shit out of him so I choose to ignore him completely being anything now work related or him trying to apologise to me for annoying me. (which is fake either way I should know -.-)

As Ive said that here's the start.

I come into work as usual wanting to just get the job done and go home no stressful arguments no childish piss takeing and I can understand the little amount but the kind that goes on for nearly 9 fucking hours is just to much.
At the start of work I was working with one of my so called friends Shawn who goes off telling me I owe Tesco hours back I dont owe my shop fuck all I took an hour with asking my manager can I go home unpaid he agreed thats that I didnt get paid that hour no one needs to complain and its no one else fucking buisness or place to complain.

He goes off and tells 'Luke' the guy I am ignoreing about 30 minute down the line of starting work he comes up to me complaining about me oweing Tesco hours still not acknowledge him.

I eventually go back and one of my other work mates called Tony to me we keep acting like brothers but he acts childish so god damn much its really unbearable chucking trays over the floor, walking off talking to other workers (which I dont get how he gets away with that he does that for like 30 minutes with the manager noticeing -.- I do it for 1 minute and I get a bitching off a manager), etc. Tony has basically done a few things piss takeing at me like me takeing a picture of him on my Iphone to show this cool photo shoot he bitchs at me later about commission rights I said I would delete it but the camera took like 50 shots so I will delete it at home on my computrer he wined pretty much all day that day telling me to delete it then he bitched at everyone else to tell me to delete it and everyone fucking did, WHY its none of their fucking buisness in the first place.

Urgh going off track here sorry, so I go in the back getting another cage to work and Tony see's me and he could tell I was annoyed he asked even I said yes I am but im fine, he allways asks soon after that is it me I just shook my head and told him no because he allways assumes its him and really he is a center of attention seeker seriously.

Two other things he did I asked one guy a friend of his and mine (so I thought) if he has been doing drugs before comeing to work I know it was wrong to ask but I only asked one guy I didnt want to be a dick and ask everyone (and to add Tony does do drugs as he keeps telling me what he does with his mates out of work hell ive seen him with them when I went out with him and some work mates)

So the guy I asked, his name is Chris (who also does drugs -.- I dont mind people who do them just if they make you edgy when comeing itno work dont do them then do them after work when you get home) so he goes off and tells Tony and Tony goes up to people saying 'hey hey Im on drugs look look *shakes parecetmol box about.* Im on drugss wooo and he *points to me* been telling everyone about it...' ok now does anyone see a point in that? He did the same when a manager told me to go to a different department and I left abit like 10 boxs of stuff for him to do which I was told he would do as he was being silly while working with me for abit dropping the boxs and like danceing around it for some weird reason which he didnt work I did so I left him those 10 boxs and he goes off whineing to everyone else and everyone esle comes upto me saying 'hey Ste seems been hearing you havnt finished your job over there' I tell them its Tony job not mine but they act like TOny is more in the right than I am -.-

I came off again sorry either way I told him it wasnt him so we both go on our way and out of nowhere Tony comes up to me with a sheet of paper telling me that the team leader asked him to check on hours that people owe to Tesco, I felt like popping at that point I just looked to him askeing him as calm as possible (no joke on that) sorry but has someone told you something just to get you to wind me up? he said no he was being serious and that the Team leader asked him to do this I told him no I dont owe anything he goes off walking abit saying well the team leader thinks you do owe it, I asked the Team Leader if he asked OTny to do that he told me No...

So that points out that Luke said something to Tony and Tony felt like being a dick comeing up to me like that only to piss me off for no good reason, that was about 2 weeks ago now and its still continueing like a fucking infection as other guys that work with Tony, Shawn and Luke seem to be joinging them and takeing the piss out of me its gotten to the point where im just ignoreing everyone who just takes the piss out of me.

I hate people who call themselves friends but really they are just being dick heads for no good fucking reason.

I wont deny ive hurt myself out of stress from all this and I feel like im soon gonna do it again to keep my head in check I know I shouldnt but still, sorry if this annoys anyone I know there are much more worse things happening out there to others but I just felt like typeing this out.

Ok im curious about this whole group thing about certain things and where people are curious is there a group for UK furs?

Damn game dosnt want to work properly for me Ive searched up on things on how to get my Nat on COD:BO to stay Open but cant get it too.. it ruins my gameing cant join my mates on his sessions or hear his mates or anyone else except him as he is on my friends list he says its the Family setting but I put it to all like Allowed and !8+,etc,etc hell turned it off still frigging does it.. and its the damn NEW XBOX I just bought last week.. SOMEONE HELP MEEEE please DX

Also to add.. screw Halo Jumps on COD:BO people can not do that irl >.< while running side ways if they can they need to be fucking tested for drugs not that I mind people who do them but still XP

Just today about an hour ago ive just had to put my cat down sadly to say because she was suffering from some Kidney Infection, I did get her checked but was told there was nothing that could be done and if I left it any longer than 24 hours she would of passed away in more pain than what she was in already, the cat might be more my sisters as she took her and the two other male brother cats away but still dosnt mean I love each one of them.

I just cant believe I had to have her put down so soon after only haveing her a few years, she was still a kitten to me.

Love you Lulu.

Awake and playing Alan Wake...

Alan Wake a man who mysteriously disapeared >.>

What happened to him?

Is he Alive or is he Dead?

Did he go to a peaceful town that looks like Brightfalls in the game?

Dunno.. but meh gonna possibly buy one of his books just putting those questions in for fun XP dunno why just got bored and just did the last downloaded chapter of Alan Wake Game.

If he is alive though he will probably get quite abit of money from that game if he is ever discovered.

Yay my life is back to normal.. promises broken.. friends I dont see.. money I lose.. love that I will never find.. and you know what???

WHO GIVES A FUCK >XD

Heh just feeling kinda MEH!!! if you know what that means.. well to me it kinda makes me think of WHO GIVES A FUCK.. just moved back to my small room ever since my sis moved back with her bf soooo the whole house is a shit tip.. just like my room so I cant fuicking sort it out till she sorts out her shit.. dammit.. god if I could get away with murder just for one day im sure she would be the first person i would kill.. she bitchs at me and I agree with her and apologise but when I bitch at her for something right Im in the wrong.. like this whole duck thing.. buying two ducks to live in the house.. ducks... Ducks.. DUCKS WHAT THE FUCK.. and seriously she need to buy a farm cos she just keeps buying more and more Animals.. god if this keeps up in this house im gonna hate animals eventually >.< which I dont want.. urgh.. but.. like I said....

Who gives a fuck...

CANT WAIT CANT WAIT CANT WAIT

Hope I get it this morning or evening I want i soon

So gonna play that all day unti I gotta go to work at night urgh >.<

But im sure me and my sis bf who my mate Mike are gonna play together and Kick ass.

[x] = You have blue/green eyes.
[x] = You blush a lot. (Only when around Women >.<)
[] = You giggle.
[x] = You're quiet.
[x] = You say random silly things.
[x] = You have a baby face. (Im 23 yet im told I look 18 .. I gotta have one.. I think >.>)
[x] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[x] = You don't wear halter tops or anything too showy. (I wear tank tops but not to go out if I do I wear a shirt so not much showy)
[] = You're under 5 feet 6 inches tall.

Total: 7

Innocence:
[x] = You're a virgin.
[x] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush.
[x] = Your idea of a date is really romantic.
[x] = You sleep with a stuffed animal.
[x] = You like to cuddle.
[x] = You've never played the Nervous game. (WTF is that o.o)
[x] = You don't even know what the nervous game is. (WELL DUH O.O)

Total: 14

Colors:
[x] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[x] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors.

Total: 16


Personality:
[x] = You can be ignorant/oblivious.
[x] = You'd consider yourself shy.
[x] = You like happy upbeat music.
[x] = You like "Cutesy" music. (I like all music <.< that has a good beat)

Total: 20

What YOU think is cute:
[x] = You like small animals
[ ] = You like babies a lot.
[x] = Small/mini versions of things make you go "Awww <3"

Total: 22

Now multiply that by 4

22 x 4 = 88%

End.

For some weird damn reason I get the feeling this is more for girls *Rolls up this sheet and throw it in the bin.*

Ok someone give me the Handsome Test I'm sure to Lose at that at least o.o

Alright as I keep getting people saying "I don’t get what you mean" or "your punctuation isn’t really good" or "will you just make fucking sense", etc.

Well that is the way I am sorry I have a disability called Afasic, no it's not some disease or cause of problem like just mumbling not understanding what I’m saying, its a disability it means like hard to explain like when I was young my mind couldn’t sponge in what I was told I had to see images of it or be taught more harder than others which really got me to avoid other stay silent, which basically they thought I was weird and beat me up but you know what good because I am the man I am today kind, caring and nice which I’m glad because I don’t wont to be like them picking on people for no fucking reason which I still get at work.. banter my ass.

But basically I’ve always had in the past while in school a teacher telling me the answers like 90% of the time so basically didn’t learn much as you can guess but luckily I pushed myself into college and did 3 years of ICT only not use it for fuck sakes so yay for me ^^

Oh it also causes me to be extreme negative like emo cut wrist XP no joke or goth whatever if your going to complain about it don’t care but over the past few weeks I really haven’t been giving a flying fuck as all my so called RL mates call themselves mates should just fuck off and or just leave me alone because all they do is take the piss out of me for no good reason. I need a new job to get away from them but getting £1050 a month doing nights.. urgh damn good money but stressful as hell.

So I basically mean Ive been erm neutral these past few weeks haven’t been feeling negative or positive so no suicide thoughts ^^ yay for me

It makes me say things other's think I wouldn’t ask or say like either something extremely random or I don’t know how to explain it, also makes me speak the truth like 95% of the time 5% being I keep my mouth shut or do not wish to say it ever in my life. If anyone asks yes I have said things that could even make you embarrassed but to me it doesn’t bother me but it does if my mates take the piss out of it and go on and on about it.

I’m probably not explaining at all properly ^^; errr just look up 'Afasic' if you don't you don't your choice just trying to help you to understand why you would get confused by me, heh weird only my family understands me.