Okies so, I need a room for Furfright and if I cannot get one I will get a room myself, but the question is, if I do that does anyone want to stay with me and go halfzies?

Hai guyssss! I was just wondering who is going to Furfright as I want to go and can go but need a room, anyone have a room for a little cottoncandy FenF? :D <3

[2:21:54 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: The reason I am a "Almighty troll prick" is because of my fault.
[2:21:59 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I am going to tell you a story,
[2:22:11 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Once upon a time, there was a kid, who made friends when the wrong people.
[2:22:24 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Well, that kid grew up, and stopped haning out with said people.
[2:22:50 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: After he got put into diapers he avoided them more then normal.
[2:22:55 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: They did not like that.
[2:23:20 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: They took it as, he was trying to get them arresting for doing illigal drugs.
[2:23:24 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Well.
[2:23:52 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Push came to shove, he was walking down the stairs at school one day, they kids there behind him.
[2:24:23 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: He looked around and before he knew it he was thrown down a flight of 30 stairs and kicked the living shit out of.
[2:24:47 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: He was going to say something, but one of the kids had a weapon.
[2:24:58 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: So he kept his mouth shut.
[2:25:20 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: days went by and he was threatened day in and day out by the same people.
[2:26:26 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Finally, he was walking to the bus at tech school and the kids shoved him into omcomming traffic, lucky he tripped and fell because they could puch him.
[2:26:34 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: He reazlied then and there, they wanted to kill him.
[2:27:03 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Why did they? He didn't know, what he did know is that if he told someone it would get worse.
[2:27:35 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: So for 5 years he endured the pain and suffering the kids could dish out.
[2:27:57 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I lied about a lot of things, and I am telling you the truth right now, because I cannot take it anymore.
[2:28:10 PM] Blade: lol 5 years try 10 years for me of being bullied
[2:28:28 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: My incontinence was going to heal, I would have been out of diapers by the time I was 15.
[2:28:30 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: But...
[2:28:46 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I was constantly kicked in the spine and thrown down the stairs.
[2:28:56 PM] Raven Welesa: right...so you being treated like shit gives you the right to do that to people that you don't even know?
[2:29:00 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Gradually, I got lower back tauma.
[2:29:03 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Listen.

[2:29:32 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Why do I!?!?!
[2:29:42 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Maybe because I am afraid it will happen again.
[2:29:49 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: So I want to appear to be an asshole...

[2:31:17 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: You know why I am permenantly incontinent?
[2:31:21 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: It is my fault...
[2:31:29 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I always blamed it on my parents.
[2:31:40 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Because I have anxiety, and they never took me seriously.
[2:31:53 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: So I never got it checked out, and by the time I did, it was to late.
[2:32:12 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: It is all true, I am trying not to cry.'
[2:33:02 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: You do not understand how hard it is... I have grown so used to being an asshole so I do not make friends with the wrong people again.
[2:33:28 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: When I was 11 I made friends with Hatboro gang members.
[2:33:34 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I had no idea of this at the time.
[2:33:43 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I though they just liked me because I was a good skater.
[2:33:54 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Until on night....
[2:35:03 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: When they asked me to meed them for a cerimony, it involved me getting a portion of the skin on the kunckle of my thumb cut by a razor so we were "Blood brothers". I saw movies and I thought it would be cool.
[2:35:20 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I didn;t realize it would turn out that way when I got older.
[2:35:27 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I feel like such an idiot.
[2:35:54 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Because this whole thing could have been avoided, if I didn't lie to my parents and told them I got cut skating.
[2:37:09 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: That is why I am the way I am.
[2:37:21 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: A "Internet badd ass" as you call them.
[2:37:26 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Because I am afraid.
[2:38:14 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I am sorry, I won't waste your time anymore.
[2:41:00 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I am not ever going to repeat any of that, as it is a flashback I do not want to relive.
[2:41:02 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Ever.
[2:41:16 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I would sooner blow my brains out that have it all play in my head again.
[2:42:03 PM] Blade: dub let me try to help you because you are affraid. Try to show your true colors if people dislike you because of it let them it the internet no sweat off your back but hiding isn't going to help. Hidding is what tutrles do when they are scared humans need people they can trusted. If you gain someone trusted and make a friend they will help you more then you can imagtion. They won't care what you do as long as you are loyal to them
[2:42:39 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Okay.
[2:45:42 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: But, that is the story of me.
fact i am a derp it there opion.
[2:46:04 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Just a normal fun loving kid until he fucked up one day, and years later turned into a nightmare.
[2:47:14 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: What I did can never be undone.
[2:47:49 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: People don't like me on the internet, in person they do, but not online.
[2:48:13 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I liked the fact that I could say waht I want and have no one trying to kill me at school.
[2:48:34 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: I liked feeing "Big" it made me feel like I was stronger.
[2:48:56 PM] ♥Jimmiboi"Dubcub"♥: Kind of like a school bully, but from doing that I turned into exactly what I was afraid of.

HOWDY DOODLES!! :3

So I know this will sound weird, but I hit my lowerback really hard on the corner of a railing at my house while shuffling, and I regained some continence!!!?!?!?!?! I do not know how that worked or if it is even permanent but I am happy!!! I can now somewhat feel when I have to "Gross terms here" Pee and poop!!! Happy wuff is happy! :3

Yesh my BF3 video is finally done and on youtube, here is the link ----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-Zh.....-m51_ZIh5GnnTB

Title says it all, yes i am now 20.... god i feel old it seems like it was just yesterday that i was like idk 8.... and now i am 20 im not even a teen anymore and not yet an adult i dunno what the fuck i am.... but seriously 20..... i cant wrap my mind around it...

Sooo i just woke up to the WORST diaper i have had in 6 years it was enough to make my cats run in fear my mom enter my room and say "WHAT THE FUCK!" and run outside for fresh air and my dad to put atleast 10 scented oils in my room along with spray it with ferbreeze... granted this happens alot but what was different was i even felt sick at the smell of it when i woke up... no if youll excuse me i need to take an Advil extra strength... Ahh the joys of being incontinent.. pfft righttttt >_>

So i got word that 2 of my friends died yesterday, 1 being very close... i was just getting over losing Nick now Rob and Ed are dead... its just unreal and i know that i will never ever heal from this or be the same.... R.I.P. Robert and Edward i love you and you will truly be missed <3

Hewwo guys, okies so we renamed the guild to "Crinklewaggin n Swaggin" remember its on Whisperwind Horde so note me or add my real ID "Shattered321@verizon.net" and PM me, but we still have out 8 members but now its up to 9 maybe 10 buh we still need more! so pwease join <3

So im going to be drawing my most haunting memories with school and my friends death to bring closure to it, im sorry if it will make any of you sad with what im about to draw but i need to do it... im being eaten by my memories.

Ok so last weekend i met someone for the first time, i have known him for about a year but i just really got to know him over the weekend and god is he cute, amazing, funny and much much more. I want to be with him for the rest of my life but we can no be together right now as i dont have my own place. But when i do you can be damn sure he is moving in with me and we will live happily forever. He is my everything, i wait for him to txt me everyday and when he goes to sleep i cry because i cant talk to him until the morning. When hes on skype i practically melt over his sexy voice and wish for nothing more then for him to be here with me so we can cuddle. I fucking love you Devy and that will never ever change, i will be counting down the days until i get the place to myself and we can be together forever <3

Its been about 5 months since Nick died and it feels like it was just yesterday. There is so many things i wish i could have told him. The way i loved him as a friend, how we were like brothers and so much more. people might say "Get over it, it was 5 months ago" well see i wish i could but i cant. everyday in school i would talk to him, now that cant happen anymore. Its not the fact that hes gone its the fact that hes not coming back is what makes me sad. people come and people go but Nick was special. He was the kind of person that could turn something sad into something funny. Every time he was around someone would be laughing, sometimes it would be over something stupid he did or was going to do or just trying to cheer people up. He was always one of those kids that had a smile on his face at all times and a kind of person that you just couldnt dislike. I remember skating with him many many years ago, he was always a daredevil like myself but we always had a great time. He would do anything asked him to do, even if it seemed like it was suicidal Nick would do it just for the thrill. They say life is short but i dont think anyone really understands what that means until they lose someone close to them. I know i always knew what it meant but just never really paid it any attention. But now that hes gone my whole view on life has changed, i really know what "Life is short" means now. He came into this world a daredevil and left it a daredevil but also left it with many tears on peoples faces. I love you bro and i miss you everyday.



R.I.P. Nicholas Carr
You will be missed

So I got onto school today and to my surprise Nick is back!!!! Idk if anyone said a prayer for him or what but he's back and I can finally relax. Maybe my luck is finally starting to change "thanks LuCkY" But you really just don't know how happy I am, because I was seriously starting to think I had lost another friend.

Ok so a friend of mine "His name is Nick" dissapeared off the face of the earth on friday. The story is on tuesday he was cleaning his room and his mom came in a told him "He was doing it wrong" and then threw things at him. Well on Friday Nick was getting back from regionals and this girl i know drove him to his friends house. Well after he left his friends house that friday night was the last anyone has heard from him. He wont answer his phone, Facebook or tumblr and he is always on those. His mom is legally insane and i worry for him everyday but i think this time something went wrong. His mom called him out of school saying "Ohh hes in the hospital and will be back on Monday". well there are so many things wrong with that because Nick was completely fine on friday he was his normal "kind of annoying self xD". But this is the weird part, i called the hospitals in my area and i have connections with people there but they said they have never heard of Nick. I really hope the worst didnt happen because i cant take losing another friend... my heart just cant take it.

So i finally got X-Fire to livestream "YAY!". my X-Fire name is swaggalol i will be livestreaming at random times so if you want to watch keep an eye out or i will most likely tell you. Also its been a few days since i did an update on my life. Its actually going good for the most part, only thing that is stressing me is my song im working on for grad project. as most of you know im making a dubstep song and jesus god is it hard, i really didnt think it would be that difficult since i already have an idea of the song and how it sounds in my head. So far i have 50 seconds done on it and 15hours worked on it... i can only have 40 hours and they want 2 FUCKING SONGS!!! idk how in the hell im going to do that. I guess i need to just tell my teacher that i will only be able to have 1 song done with a maximum of 3mins in length done by May, if not i dont graduate and get held back AGAIN "FML"....

So over the period of this weekend i will be randomly streaming some WoW arena and world pvp/BGs. i will give the link when i start streaming :)