Please guys.... I need just a little help....

I hate begging, and it's gonna be all traditional until I can get home.

Please....

Right now I am jobless (I am looking for one)

So I'm opening up 5 dollar sketch traditional commissions.

If anyone could help me out with this by either commissioning me or putting the word out,that would be great.

And now
Now I feel like shit. My uncle says I was an idiot. And even though my heart wasn't in it. I should if stuck it out.... I don't wanna go home now

Yes, I will be inactive for two months starting Sunday.

I'm off to correction officer boot camp.
I'm nervous as fuck.....

Wish me luck?

Just figured it was time to just post a hi.

While yes I am feeling really shitty, but I wanna just say hi.

Sorry for my last few journals.

I seriously need to do something about my own personal being before I just snap.

My god.

It's not like anyone is doing anything wrong

For some reason I just can't handle it.

What's wrong with me?

I just.... I don't know. I guess I feel useless.

I feel so alone in this world. And I just feel like those who are mind friend doing care enough (yet I know that's not true)

I'm trying to stop feeling like this. But everytime i do, I end up taking three steps back or more.

Don't know what to do to fix that... i really don't.

I'm sorry...I know I've posted some pretty shitty journals lately

Yes, you heard right. I feel like a true fuck up.

I feel I can't do anything right.

I just wanna curl up and never get up.

That's right no more need for one.

I was a fool

As the title says, I'm looking for a horse or shark adopt.

Mostly a shark adopt, male.

I'm looking for my partner so I can draw cute pictures.
Show me what you got?

Or if you make customs, please?

Another year older. The best gift I've gotten so far is from my best friend, and that's the new icons

I am not looking forward to tomorrow... I just wanna curl up and just hide from the world.. I hate being reminded that I'm alone with no one who wants to spend their life wit me

She keeps messaging me. She keeps messaging me even after I don't respond. Like seriously, stop messaging me if I don't reapond. YOU told ME to break up with YOU. You told me that if you were dating yourself that you would leave yourself too! You told ME that I deserved better than YOU. But now you are going to sit there and tell me that I never let you explain why you are the way you are. You should of explained that before hand! You got jealous over your ex boyfriend (THAT YOU LEFT FOR ME). Would walk into the store you work in and flirt with your coworkers. Who the fuck does that? Yes sometimes I get upset if I see my ex being happy, but I don't let it affect my new relationship.

I just don't fucking get it, I really don't get it.

I know when I was trying to talk to my one ex and she stopped responding to me. I got a little needy. But then I got through message (hey, I don't wanna talk to you). So I stopped. I just... don't get this...

I'm really bad at relationships...

I seriously need someone to talk to I think? Like fuck....

I just don't know anymore. My mind has made me feel like my girlfriend doesn't care about me. Because she refuses to talk to me when she has a bad day. So I haven't talked to her in a couple days.

And now I'm going through the thought process that I did something to make her not want to trust me

Why is it everyone I end up falling for just ignore me?

Like really, I'm someone that kinda hates to be ignored by someone I'm suppose to be with someone. I understand if the person is having a bad day...that shit happens. But at least tell me? Don't let me send messages and not respond at all until I ask if things are okay.

I just... i guess I'm not good enough.

I made a trello for commissions and things so I know what needs to get done.

https://trello.com/b/LY9rYasp/commissions


woop.

First Christmas in a couple years that I've been truly alone....

Got shit from my mom's side of the family, and I gotta work..... and I just.... I give up... I really do.

I'm just a fuck up. That's all I am, I mean really. No one wants to love me like how I want to give someone love.

That's all I'll ever be, I'll be just a huge ass fuck up that won't get love.

Someone please take my emotions away, I've just been so god damn depressed because of this.

I've realized that maybe I've more on the side of loving women more than men.

I tried to date a guy a while ago. And it just was so awkward and I couldn't bring myself to ever talk to him again.

But ask me to date a woman, and I was more than happy to jump in and ask where?

But yeah.... way more into women than men

..... I miss her more than anything. But u doubt she'll ever talk to me again. I deserve it though for how things happened...

Like you all to welcome my new fursona Alys. I just adopted her from

She is a purple Sabertooth liger. And I love her deeply

Post the symbol, let me know what you think about me! Put as many as you want.

SINGLE OR NOT put this as your journal & see what you get

♥ = I want a relationship with you

C: = I'm falling for you

:3 = I miss you

;] = i really like you

:* = I want to kiss you

:< = I hate you

: X = I like you

O: = I like you but im in a relationship

:/ = I like you but your in a relationship

:] = You're cute

</3 = I regret leaving you

:b = We should get to know each other

;^) = We should hang out

<3 = I love you.. \o/

<:^ = i want to know you

@FT@=*stalk*

eue= You're hot

<:3 = You're a great friend

^_^ = We're friends

^.^ = We're best friends

>;3 = I want you on top

>:3 = I want on top

So I'm not really connecting with Eject anymore

So I'm gonna a hold a contest to see if people wanna help me redesign her, or make up a whole new character for my fursona.

Here is her old reference Ref sheet

She is a red panda, but I do also like wolves, house cats, pit bulls, Shiba inus, and foxes. So you can change the species completely

I like WWE, Sami Zayn, hockey, Boston Bruins, natural colors with funky hair colors. Short hair, Jimmy jacobs, coke, pepsi, pizza, pasta, horror movies, game of thrones, Harley quinn, Kevin owens, assassins creed, video games, red and black. I also like collars so if you could add that

Design I pick gets an avatar, full body pic, and a chibi, and a feature on my page

2nd place design gets an avatar, chibi, feature on my page

3rd place design gets an avatar, and a feature on my page


Contest ends October 31st

Really not connecting with eject anymore.... dunno what to do