So, this has been a hell of a year now, hasn't it? Eleven months since my accident and, well, I'm out of work again. At least I managed to recover enough around October 18 last year to start getting back into my job. Of course, I got out of the neck brace, stopped taking blood thinners and other meds, just taking aspirin daily, and I can walk and do things again. Not perfectly, I'm still working on that bit. But I've been getting better. So, work was gradually getting me back to my normal routine and hours. Took some months, but I was basically back to what I was doing before shit happened. And then...shit happened again. You all know it. World stopped moving, I've been at home since the middle of March with basically nothing to do. Unemployment and the stimulus checks have helped tremendously- frankly, I'm making more now, sitting on my ass, than I was working my ass off at my job. Of course, that won't last forever. Whenever this pandemic actually rolls over and things do get back to normal, if ever (and if another spike doesn't happen from opening things up too early), then we'll be back to the usual. But at least I've managed to get a LOT of things fixed and much of my life set straight with this income. A lot of stuff I've needed for YEARS, I'm finally getting. And occasionally, giving some to people who weren't lucky enough to get it. Only thing that hasn't worked is getting the exercise I need to actually get my body working to full. I can't run due to my leg still being weak, and my wrist needs a lot more work. But it'll get there...sooner or later. We'll see what comes of all this. Mostly now, I'm dealing with depression in isolation. Talking with people helps, but there's only so much that can take care of. I've been quickly realizing how bad staying inside basically all the time is, and how much going outside and to work was actually necessary to just...not go insane. So I've taken whatever chance I can to ride my new electric bike around and just...see things. Get some air. Despite most places being closed, I can at least breathe a little bit. Other than that, I've taken to working on my series, little by little. I've actually made sort of a reset to pull it away from Pokemon so that I can make something original I can actually publish. My own world, my own creatures, my own story from scratch. Well, not entirely... Most things that have happened still happen, just in a new world without the ties to Pokemon lore. It's a lot of work, but it's coming around, slowly but surely. And the entire series will most likely be in the form of video games. So, we'll see how that goes. If you want to know more of that, I'm open to telling.

But all that aside, how has everyone else been doing? Has isolation treated you less harshly? Are your necessary jobs taking it easy on you any? Are you surviving? That's the goal, after all. "Survive 2020." We'll get through this, one way or another. Keep in touch, we all need it now.

Wow, I like, never come here much anymore. But at least, these past few months, I have a reason. So I guess I'll get to the downer news.

July 31, I was hit by a car while riding my electric scooter to my parents' home to go to a concert with my mom. Don't ask how, because I don't know. All I remember is getting on the bike trail and then waking up in the hospital a few hours later. I lost all memory of the incident and still haven't gotten it back. That aside, I wound up having my leg broken in half, with a rod now put in permanently to support it. My arm, wrist, and hand were lacerated deep. My neck was fractured and the vertebral artery was damaged from it. And I have a big scar on my face where I lost a good amount of blood.

All the woozy stuff over now, I spent a month in the hospital and a rehab center. Went through a bunch of physical therapy to relearn to walk and get use back in my hand. And I came home in early September, where I've been working on my own to continue recovery and getting my strength back since. I'm also in an annoying neck brace I absolutely hate and want out of. Luckily, my work manager and my landlord are so understanding, and don't want to lose me. I still have my job until I can work again, I still have my home. And they're willing to work with me and help me to keep things stable until I can get to supporting myself again.

The doctor will call me this Friday to schedule for x-rays in my neck, so hopefully I'll be able to get this collar off. Then I just need to start walking fully independently, no cane, and also get a new bike so I can start going to work again. I estimate it might be another week or two before I can get to even doing light duty work. But it's better than no work at all, and could be good for getting myself back in order. But I will be on blood thinners until December because of the risk of a clot in my neck, which could go to my brain and cause a stroke. And then they're saying I'll probably be taking aspirin for the rest of my life after that. So...yay me, life changed just like that without me knowing why. It's like someone ripped a page out of my life and taped in a poorly written chapter for it without my proofreading and now I have to deal with the backlash. (You have no idea how much this enrages me.)

But whatever. All that nonsense aside... I'm okay. At least, I will be okay when I start working again and have no more appointments to go to. Right now, I'm mostly depressed. Little appetite, sleep schedule's even more screwed up than it normally is. But at least I have people to talk to. Friends, family, whatnot. I'll get by this. Just need some time. Then I can maybe get back to properly working on my series, cause that's totally the most important thing. Least it'll be written better than this mess. Anyways, I'm done rambling. Just wanted to give an update, so I'll leave this here and go back to getting better. My parents want to take me to a hedge maze in a few hours, so we'll spend a while there. And then my mom and I have a Sabaton concert tonight, where I won't be hit by a car again before getting to see (the other one was Combichrist, an electronic band). So that'll be nice.

Things'll be looking up. Let's hope they stay that way. See you all later. Any comments, I'll be looking at when I can.

For all those wondering where I've been, after relocating to Portland I've admittedly been lacking the drive to really post any chapters. I felt I needed to do something more in hopes of getting my motivation up again. So I sincerely apologize for the long delays over the past couple years in writing. This was not my intention and hopefully in time, I'll be able to find the drive to make real progress. I reach out to those still reading to say anything they can, to me and to others, and spread the word if they can. After ten years, I don't want this series, my life's work, to die. I've invested too much time and I want to be able to show all of that.

I've developed a page on my site telling the history of the series' development from back in 2006 up to today, and another page telling current events, what I'm currently working on and plans I have for the future. I intend to update this page regularly if I can so that people don't think I've dropped off the face of the Earth, but I do need some moral support if I'm to move ahead with this. So I apologize for the lower note in this posting and I hope we can turn it around for the better.

Thanks for reading.

I'm considering starting to post chapters to my stories on FA. Even though the first story isn't really a "furry" story (or really the series overall, since there are plenty of hyoomanz present). I don't know. What does everyone else think? Should I do it?

Okay, so yeah... Figured I might as well post here as well. See if anyone does bother to look at my posts. And if not, welp. Guess that's that.

So I've hit a bit of a large bump. At least some of my watchers should know by now that I've been writing a series called The Legacy of Sylver, and that it is... rather a long series of numerous stories. For those who DON'T know, they can find it on its main site at http://thelegacyofsylver.webs.com/
Now, the bump I've ran into, is the fact that it's been taking me months, to upwards of a year each to post new chapters to my stories. Those who've known about Darkness of Dimension would know that it's been somewhere around two or even three years since I posted a chapter there. Mainly due to lack of roleplays with my friend, but that also comes from us both being blocked in that area. It's also been taking me closer to three months to post chapters in the rewritten version of The Messanger of Time in the various sites that I've had it on since I started it. I get the feeling that a big reason for this, is the fact that I don't have an audience. I've noticed that my chapters have been getting less and less views with each one posted over the years since I started the series, and I've lost practically all the main readers I had when I first began writing, and really, it's quite set me back. I've grown less motivated to write now, and this is probably the main thing that's causing it.
If anyone does still read my stories, and if anyone is reading this journal now, I'd like to ask. What is YOUR opinion on the series? What is it lacking? And if you don't believe it lacks anything, what other reasons could there be? Is it the general community being less inclined to reading fanfiction? Is the specific story not in your interests? The genre, the style. What do you think?
I'd just like to come to a conclusion to these problems. Why people have lost interest and why I can't seem to bring myself to keep doing it. So for those who do read this, what do you say?

So yeah, it's been exactly one year since I posted that last journal. Time to make a new one. Hello from Oregon! How has everyone been? *Dances to this happy day*

It's my birthday! Nineteen now~!

So now I broke my phone. I can't come on until I can replace it. Hopefully soon...

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Getting a Motorella Citrus hopefully by Friday. I may be back sooner than I thought.

Guess it's time to be rid of that depressing journal with a new one. I may soon have a job, in which I may be able to get the things I've wanted at long last... Let's hope I can get this. It'll put an end to everything that's plagued me all this time...

It seems things are far worse now than I imagined... Due to the many things that have happened today, which I will not name off because it pains me incredibly... I've been forced to the brink... I committed violence I never in my life wished to, and things have slipped down as low as they can get... This built up anger just got a glimpse of daylight, and I nearly went over the edge, not only with my own life, but others' as well... I'm sorry everyone, for bringing this out... This isn't me... But this is perhaps the most traumatic experience I've ever had...

As it stands, at the end of this all, I'm being forced to switch to the morning sessions in school now, which means I can no longer stay up as late as I used to, nor will I probably be able to get on half as much as before... I must surrender my phone everynight, and I can only receive it again after I return from school the next day... After school, I will have to do work for hours, and when I'm finally done and the laptop is no longer in use, THEN I can get on for as long as I have left... Which may be about four hours...

I believed so much I could come to trust again, as I had lost all trust in others in my life before... But now I can't even trust my own parents, nor do I feel comfortable being around them... I feel endangered... And I feel like I may not be happy again... for a very long time...

Again, I'm deeply sorry for bringing this out to everyone... I greatly wished it never happened...

As stated on dA. Will be stated here as well...

So I just got through all my basic training today, and I'm not going to be starting presentations. The presentations are in-house to show kitchen cutlery (knives), in which case when I get a call or I call someone to set one up, I will have to go to their own home to do it on the time we set it up. Therefore, I may be wandering around the city alot and thus, not be able to get online quite as much. But I will try to keep in touch with everyone in between presentations on MSN mobile, which I can be reached at kylricwyma[at]hotmail.com for. If I'm not on EonLove, I will more than likely be on MSN no matter what. Whether on my phone or the laptop. After saving enough to get my own laptop so I can cut the time limit of when I have to be off, I will then save to get out to Australia, as I mentioned before.

There is also another thing. The work allows some presentations (but not many) to be done over the phone and through webcam for people who are out of state and out of country, which are... 90% of the people I know. In which case, there may be times I will ask some of the Eons if they'd like to do a presentation. However, I can't do it with them directly. For those under 25 years old and who have no chance of affording anything, I would have to do it with their parents. But if I do a presentation, what I show does NOT have to be bought, because I get paid regardless, just for showing them. I can't stress that enough, because what drives people away is that they think they will be pressured to buy something when they won't. Most take about an hour to do. But I won't go into much detail about this unless I ask to do one with anyone.

Anyways, I just wanted to keep everyone up to date about the situation. On Monday at 1pm, Mountain Standard Time, I will be going to Advanced Training 1, so I won't be able to talk during that. Again, keep me in your hearts, and I will keep you in mine... Let's hope this goes well.

Well, look here, my first journal on FA.

Okay... So here's where things stand with me. Sunday, October 17, was my eighteenth birthday, as most of you already knew. You were also informed that on that day, I could've lost my home due to my parents not wanting to keep me with them. However, this obviously has not happened. They insisted that I look for work if I wished to stay with them. But due to money problems, such will be very difficult to maintain. We are on the brink of eviction, each month that passes by. We come very close to falling back so far on the rent that we lose our apartment. One month, we actually had to get help from a church, to pay for $800, so we could stay. This is an example of how bad our money is.

Saturday of last week, I was hired to work for vector marketing, doing sales interviews and making $16 per interview, plus a portion of the products sold, if they do sell, aside from the original guaranteed pay. However, these interviews will be hard to manage, due to schooling. Aside from that, I am in the dark as to how many interviews I will be able to do, assuming anyone actually calls to set them up. But I'm hoping for the best to come. Between Thursday and Saturday of this week, I will be going into work for training, then going off for the interviews shortly after.

I hope to be able to make enough to not only get a laptop of my own so I no longer have to use this broken and slow one, but also to eventually move to Australia, for reasons of my own. Though some already know this. These following days, weeks, months... years. However long they take, will be very hard for me, and I may become very different at times, either due to stress or my busy schedule. I may have just been hit with the hardest thing I've ever had to do... But I hope to keep in close contact with everyone. My worst fear is losing all of you... Many know that I could not have the will to keep going, if that happened. Everyone here is my life, and without them, I might not even be here...

So thank you all... And keep me in your hearts... I know I will keep you all close to me...