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Posted 10 years agoI'm more active on dA than I am here, I barely ever come on
Main dA - FrayedEntity
Adopts account - Tainted-Remorse
Main dA - FrayedEntity
Adopts account - Tainted-Remorse
Win a free commission
Posted 11 years agoI'm hosting a design contest, you can use bases, or even just sketch a design for your chance to win some free art by me
http://fav.me/d7y4ps8
Feel free to enter <3
http://fav.me/d7y4ps8
Feel free to enter <3
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Posted 11 years agoOkay so this is my last week in school, and I've only got one day left of my exams left, I've been using my hiatus to study, and so far I think I'm doing okay, though in some subjects.. Bleh. I just have to hope. But yeah, 2 more exams, then I leave school
I start college in September, I've already been accepted in my course because I got over 5 B's in year 10, so that's great, I can only find out what grades I got in one subject so far and that's because it's marked in school, that's for art. I got 3 Distinctions (the equivalent of A's) and one pass for these African clay masks we had to do, which I didn't really bother with because bleh, no I can't do clay unless it's something I want to do.. But yeah, that made me happy, considering I've only finished like 1 piece of work in the entire 3 years I've taken art.. lul, I'm not gonna say to people in school, they might get angry ;_;
ANYWAY, commissions and stuff, I'll be taking commissions all the way through the summer break, I need to save up money now because I don't currently have a job as of yet, and my mum wants me to move out next year, so I need all the help I can get before I get a job. If you're interested, please note me and we can negotiate on a price before I do my set prices next week, I'll also get my art trades done and a design custom I owe, sorry it's been so delayed, I've been extremely busy and I only get one shot at these, I'm taking them very seriously.
I have no plans for the Summer other than going to the job centre once a week, seeing my boyfriend, working part time at the shop I volunteer for, and I'm having a few days over my mum's boyfriend's house for a break, maybe a week, so yeah I'll be able to upload frequently, I'm not wanting to do much with this Summer, because it's the last Summer I'll be able to have of just lazing around, I'm so anti-social..
To get back into the swing of drawing I'm going to do some fanart for my favourite artists, so expect that, I aim to do one every two or three days next week <3
Limited time commissions! Please read
Posted 11 years agoSo I'm gonna start saving up for Mother's Day, and because I'm too young to get a proper paid job (I work voluntary for the time being, I'll be able to work after my birthday which is March 12th)
But yeah, I'm gonna try taking a few commissions to see if they go well!
These will be pretty cheap for what they are, because like I said, it's a tester. I'll be charging $20 for each picture, and that's not much considering I'll be converting everything to GBP.
If you're interested, your commission will be a simpleish cell shaded drawing with a SIMPLE or no background like this - http://fav.me/d76g76e
They don't take too long, it depends on the character complexity, the character I drew above didn't have a difficult design so it only took an hour and a half, maybe less actually, but you get the idea!
If you want a certain pose you'll have to mention, and if you want me to add a simple background and not just a white one with a bit of glow, then you'll also have to state what you want added in. It won't cost extra for more complicated characters, however if it's something I struggle drawing it might take longer to receive the commission! What I do is get you to send the payment before I draw it, but I won't accept it until the drawing's finished. Once the drawing's finished, I'll post the drawing and then accept your payment, simple!
I usually get my money by selling designs on my design account for the same amount, if not more, so I thought this'll be more fun to do
If you're interested, please note me with what you want me to draw <3
But yeah, I'm gonna try taking a few commissions to see if they go well!
These will be pretty cheap for what they are, because like I said, it's a tester. I'll be charging $20 for each picture, and that's not much considering I'll be converting everything to GBP.
If you're interested, your commission will be a simpleish cell shaded drawing with a SIMPLE or no background like this - http://fav.me/d76g76e
They don't take too long, it depends on the character complexity, the character I drew above didn't have a difficult design so it only took an hour and a half, maybe less actually, but you get the idea!
If you want a certain pose you'll have to mention, and if you want me to add a simple background and not just a white one with a bit of glow, then you'll also have to state what you want added in. It won't cost extra for more complicated characters, however if it's something I struggle drawing it might take longer to receive the commission! What I do is get you to send the payment before I draw it, but I won't accept it until the drawing's finished. Once the drawing's finished, I'll post the drawing and then accept your payment, simple!
I usually get my money by selling designs on my design account for the same amount, if not more, so I thought this'll be more fun to do
If you're interested, please note me with what you want me to draw <3
Getting my name changed
Posted 11 years agoAt the moment, it's Amber Jade Rebecca Hughes
But I'm changing my surname to Lanverton due to the history behind my current given surname.
Lanverton is my uncle's surname, which is why I'm going for that one. But yeah anyway, while I'm at it, I'm unsure as to whether or not I should change my forename too? I mean, Amber totally doesn't suit me, and Amber Lanverton sounds weird as fuck, nothing goes right with Amber. But I have 2 names I wouldn't mind changing it too which are; Victoria, and Alexandra, maybe Ebony, I dunno, I just like pretty sounding, old fashioned names. There's so many sluts called Amber around here, even one who shares my current name, Amber Hughes, who's actually a 'professional' stripper.
But I dunno, what do you guys think? I'm open to name suggestions, my mother's letting me change what ever I want about my name, so I'm gonna go with it, however, if people think I should keep Amber, then I might do so, I mean even though I hate it, being addressed as something else will be sorta weird ya'know
But I'm changing my surname to Lanverton due to the history behind my current given surname.
Lanverton is my uncle's surname, which is why I'm going for that one. But yeah anyway, while I'm at it, I'm unsure as to whether or not I should change my forename too? I mean, Amber totally doesn't suit me, and Amber Lanverton sounds weird as fuck, nothing goes right with Amber. But I have 2 names I wouldn't mind changing it too which are; Victoria, and Alexandra, maybe Ebony, I dunno, I just like pretty sounding, old fashioned names. There's so many sluts called Amber around here, even one who shares my current name, Amber Hughes, who's actually a 'professional' stripper.
But I dunno, what do you guys think? I'm open to name suggestions, my mother's letting me change what ever I want about my name, so I'm gonna go with it, however, if people think I should keep Amber, then I might do so, I mean even though I hate it, being addressed as something else will be sorta weird ya'know
guys it's not even 5Pm and I'm already pissed
Posted 11 years agofuckong lol
what has my life come to
what has my life come to
Taking one chibi commission, mum's birthday tomorrow D:
Posted 11 years agoCanine only though please, I have severe art block //cry
Just post what you're willing to pay, and a link to your character reference sheet <3
It'll be a cell shaded full bodied chibi drawing with a drop shadow from the character, but no background, so sort of like a sticker
Thank you ;n; I just wanna make enough to buy her some pretty flowers and such :3
I have presents for her, but I just want to get something sentimental too
Thank you, it'll really help me out right now
Just post what you're willing to pay, and a link to your character reference sheet <3
It'll be a cell shaded full bodied chibi drawing with a drop shadow from the character, but no background, so sort of like a sticker
Thank you ;n; I just wanna make enough to buy her some pretty flowers and such :3
I have presents for her, but I just want to get something sentimental too
Thank you, it'll really help me out right now
I need practice, and I need to save up, so..
Posted 12 years agoI'm taking 1 pound sketch commissions, 1 pound is like $1.66
If you want colour it'll be 2 pounds
I need to save up for christmas presents, and also I need some money fast for something really personal.
Yes I will use this spare time I have right now to finish some commissions, but sketches only take a few minutes, so they'll be done pretty fast
Comment the style
cartoon
realism
anime
styleised
chibi
etc
And comment with the character
Seriously guys, it'll mean a lot to me
I only have a few hours free time today, this is the first I've had in a while ;__;
But yeah.
Sorry this is so sudden
I'm gonna get on with my owed art now <3
If you want colour it'll be 2 pounds
I need to save up for christmas presents, and also I need some money fast for something really personal.
Yes I will use this spare time I have right now to finish some commissions, but sketches only take a few minutes, so they'll be done pretty fast
Comment the style
cartoon
realism
anime
styleised
chibi
etc
And comment with the character
Seriously guys, it'll mean a lot to me
I only have a few hours free time today, this is the first I've had in a while ;__;
But yeah.
Sorry this is so sudden
I'm gonna get on with my owed art now <3
I'm kinda worried.
Posted 12 years agoLately, I've been trying to find a reason as to why I get my "mood swings"
And I've done some research, watched programs on the illness, and I have every trait, and symptom of manic depression.
My extreme "highs" - where I can be happy, animated, and chaotic, somewhat disruptive, I do stupid things that I don't really take notice of the consequences, I can be extremely hyperactive and annoying to be fair.
Then, I get my extreme lows - Where I go from being happy one minute, second or hour, to being extremely depressed to the point of wanting to bring harm on myself for no reason, to the point where I think harming myself will actually make me feel emotion, pain, when I'm having an extreme low, I feel numb. I can take it out on others, which I do a lot. I hurt them, I push everyone away from me, I can be physically violent, and I don't even consider any of my actions and just put on a blank face, I don't realise what I'm doing, and I know that afterwards when I see what I've done, and how it affects people.
I often think about what life would be like if I were to end it, I had a nasty habit of cutting myself and painting in my own blood so I could feel like I had something in common with something else. I thought I'd create a bond with the painting because it's part of me. I haven't done one for a week now. and before that, I didn't for months.
I wake up in the morning, sometimes extremely happy, sometimes not wanting to ever leave my bed.
I look in the mirror, I hate what I see.
If something is wrong with the way I look, eg my hair; I'll hit myself, burn myself with my straighteners, rip it out, tell myself I'm an ugly, worthless, failure.
And I have to admit. Sometimes I cause arguments with my mother for attention. I never see her, and even arguing with her is still conversation in my opinion. Even though I end up being angry as fuck afterwards.
When I'm depressed, it feels like nothing will ever get better, I feel like shutting myself away for days, I feel like ending my life, but then feeling guilty. I feel guilty for living, because my mother went through so much, bringing me and my disabled brother up all by herself, no help from a father of my brother's or mine, nothing... And then I get suicidal thoughts, why. Why would I throw this gift away.
I hate myself more than anything.
I know it's normal to want to bring harm upon people you hate with your mind. But when I have a fall out with people I care about, when it's me who causes it over the stupidest reasons, I imagine the most horrible things. Crushing people's skulls with objects, giving them slow and painful tortures etc..
Eugh.
I worry myself.
Another thing, I suffer with extreme anxiety, I have panic attacks, sometimes they have no causes, and I have them atleast once a week.
It feels like when I have them, I'm going to die.
I get pulled out of class when I have them, and the class stare at me. They never say anything when I come back in once I've calmed myself down.. And that's worse to be honest. Because I feel like everyone's mocking me, judging me, staring at me, labeling me the freak..
Even though, they tell me no one judges me, and to be honest I don't get bullied, I still feel like an outcast.
I hate it. and I have that whole sleep issue, sometimes I get chronic insomnia, and then I get it where I can't stop sleeping, I'm always tired, no matter how much sleep I get. I get migraines all of the time too. I don't know what that means though :I
When I am happy though.. I'm reckless, I do the stupidest of things, I put my life in danger with the things I do. But
I dunno..
I don't know what to think.
I feel like I don't appreciate life as much as I should. I rarely feel any life to me, just no emotion what so ever. I have really lost interest in everything, it's like life's become bland, not even bitter.
I don't look forward to much either, I mean of course I'm excited for those 2 concerts on November the 22nd and 24th (thanks again for helping me raise the money)
but it really brings me down when I think I'm wasting my life, I want to be happy, more than anything. But I can't. Even when I have those "highs" I don't feel happy, I just feel extremely energetic
Do any of you guys know what I can do, because I can't talk to anyone in real life about it.
I get much too paranoid, which causes my fucking panic attacks.
And I've done some research, watched programs on the illness, and I have every trait, and symptom of manic depression.
My extreme "highs" - where I can be happy, animated, and chaotic, somewhat disruptive, I do stupid things that I don't really take notice of the consequences, I can be extremely hyperactive and annoying to be fair.
Then, I get my extreme lows - Where I go from being happy one minute, second or hour, to being extremely depressed to the point of wanting to bring harm on myself for no reason, to the point where I think harming myself will actually make me feel emotion, pain, when I'm having an extreme low, I feel numb. I can take it out on others, which I do a lot. I hurt them, I push everyone away from me, I can be physically violent, and I don't even consider any of my actions and just put on a blank face, I don't realise what I'm doing, and I know that afterwards when I see what I've done, and how it affects people.
I often think about what life would be like if I were to end it, I had a nasty habit of cutting myself and painting in my own blood so I could feel like I had something in common with something else. I thought I'd create a bond with the painting because it's part of me. I haven't done one for a week now. and before that, I didn't for months.
I wake up in the morning, sometimes extremely happy, sometimes not wanting to ever leave my bed.
I look in the mirror, I hate what I see.
If something is wrong with the way I look, eg my hair; I'll hit myself, burn myself with my straighteners, rip it out, tell myself I'm an ugly, worthless, failure.
And I have to admit. Sometimes I cause arguments with my mother for attention. I never see her, and even arguing with her is still conversation in my opinion. Even though I end up being angry as fuck afterwards.
When I'm depressed, it feels like nothing will ever get better, I feel like shutting myself away for days, I feel like ending my life, but then feeling guilty. I feel guilty for living, because my mother went through so much, bringing me and my disabled brother up all by herself, no help from a father of my brother's or mine, nothing... And then I get suicidal thoughts, why. Why would I throw this gift away.
I hate myself more than anything.
I know it's normal to want to bring harm upon people you hate with your mind. But when I have a fall out with people I care about, when it's me who causes it over the stupidest reasons, I imagine the most horrible things. Crushing people's skulls with objects, giving them slow and painful tortures etc..
Eugh.
I worry myself.
Another thing, I suffer with extreme anxiety, I have panic attacks, sometimes they have no causes, and I have them atleast once a week.
It feels like when I have them, I'm going to die.
I get pulled out of class when I have them, and the class stare at me. They never say anything when I come back in once I've calmed myself down.. And that's worse to be honest. Because I feel like everyone's mocking me, judging me, staring at me, labeling me the freak..
Even though, they tell me no one judges me, and to be honest I don't get bullied, I still feel like an outcast.
I hate it. and I have that whole sleep issue, sometimes I get chronic insomnia, and then I get it where I can't stop sleeping, I'm always tired, no matter how much sleep I get. I get migraines all of the time too. I don't know what that means though :I
When I am happy though.. I'm reckless, I do the stupidest of things, I put my life in danger with the things I do. But
I dunno..
I don't know what to think.
I feel like I don't appreciate life as much as I should. I rarely feel any life to me, just no emotion what so ever. I have really lost interest in everything, it's like life's become bland, not even bitter.
I don't look forward to much either, I mean of course I'm excited for those 2 concerts on November the 22nd and 24th (thanks again for helping me raise the money)
but it really brings me down when I think I'm wasting my life, I want to be happy, more than anything. But I can't. Even when I have those "highs" I don't feel happy, I just feel extremely energetic
Do any of you guys know what I can do, because I can't talk to anyone in real life about it.
I get much too paranoid, which causes my fucking panic attacks.
Win $100
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5101472/
Entering this because why not :3
Entering this because why not :3
Commissions
Posted 12 years agoAhh, I need to take some commissions, Thirty Seconds to Mars, and You Me At Six are performing in my town, and I really wanna go ;u; I need about 30 pounds in total for the ticket, but let's say I save up 60 pounds for a bit of merch and the bus, drinks and stuff,
I won't charge much, just tell me what you'd like and what you're willing to pay (If anyone's interested that is fff)
But yeah, I will do these cheaply
https://fbcdn-sphotos-d-a.akamaihd......07865510_n.jpg
There's the poster thing
