That likes to be crushed...keep that in mind ^~^

But will I? Probably not! Mwahahahahaha!

Something is pulled everything in the galaxy and universe towards itself and we cant see it because so much is being pulled towards it its cluttering up out sight...

*looks at every macro fur out there that likes eating universes*


Which one of you fackers is it? -w-

So... here it goes....

Oh my god fuck that, that fucked sucked! Got a free 1tb HDD and i thought 'how hard could plugging that in and formatting it go?' *takes in deep breath* LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING I WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER FUCKING TOUCH THE WIRES IN MY PC AGAIN! Me: goes to turn of PC to install 'new' HDD, Pc crashes after i took side panels off to look inside while still on (because im smrt) Is confused, turns pc off and on, wont boot, goes to bios now cant find perfectly fine as of 10 seconds ago SSD tries to trouble shoot, cant is confused, plugs a cable into back of SSD that was basically impossible to plug in but made the SSD work again. Is now confused how i pulled that bitch out on accident, shrugs and continues, puts HDD in HDD holder, plugs HDD in with same cable that SSD has, confused when it doesnt show up in bios, looks around, looks at SSD, notices SATA cable ( OwO ) takes that out of disk drive because i dont use that anymore plugs it into HDD. HDD takes priority change that so SSD takes priority boots down. Thinks "Finally i can do this" Turns PC on, fails to boot "Error CPU Fan speed" "Wha? I-I didnt even touch the fans..." Looks at PC, front Chasis fan off. "Why is that a cpu fan?" Follows now unhooked fan wire. "Where did this come from?" Looks around. "Oh that connector looks like it'll fit" Doesnt go on smoothly so gives up not wanting it to break finds three more connections on the mother board exactly like it labeled "CHASFAN" Plugs in fine, fan works fine, shows up working fine in bios. "Okay lets try that" Boots up pc, same error code. "Fu- alright, it didnt pull this CPU fan speed crap before i plugged inthe HDD so thats probably it" turns of PC Unplugs HDD turns pc back on, same issue. "Great" Begins to change Front fan of PC around to the 9 different chassis fan plug placements only for it to keep running into "CPU Fan speed Error" Finally remembers connection that looked the same on the back of the PC follows wires connects into water cooled CPU fan, notices connection ( OwO ) Plugs that in boots up PC finally works normally. "Finally" turns PC off, plugs in HDD, forgets to change priority HDD takes priority, now mother board has to set up HDD. Ten minutes later. Boots up from HDD with nothing on it but an OS "fu-" Proceeds to turn pc off SIX fucking times because now the HDD is so slow to register new fancy RGB keyboard cant get into BIOS, Needs to find old keyboard plugs old keyboard back in finally changes boot priority gets everything all situated FINALLY BOOTS UP AND RUNS NORMALLY AGAIN can finally format old HDD and finally continue normal PC ops...looks at clock 40 minutes has passed "Just...kill me now please"

Seriously, why is it a 5 minute job turns into HOURS? I hate that shit... -w- Got a free TB so cant complain to to much

But in all seriousness turns out my mothers radiologist found something they heavily believe is breast cancer and spreading fast, as in last year she was clean and now shes not and its certainly noticeable they say, so...yeah, 2020...i hate you.

So what is your guy's opinions on commissions mainly for writing? Because i always held the belief that one should work for the minimumwage of where they live, so for me 12 an hour So the longest it took me to write a story was 8 hours, the standard work day, and the shortest it takes me to write is about an hour an a half depending on the story or idea, so for the shortest it'd be like $18 which isnt bad but if it takes me any longer that number very quickly gets up into the holy shit thats expensive range like that 8 hour story thats 96 now thats probably a 20+ish page story 10K words in the format i write in. My longest story ever was 24 pages and almost 12k words and took just over 6 hours to write I had full "Artistic" Freedom for that piece and was able to just make shit up as i go along. And here is where i run into the issue, i truly believe you shouldnt work under the minimum wage of where you live but lets say it takes me (god forbid) 24 hours to finish a work piece thats fuckin $200 smackaroo's for what could end up being a stupidly short story, and im including edits, fixes, etc as if i was being paid i'd want that piece to not be an utter pile of trash dumpster fire shit like my stories usually are and the longer it takes me to write the more i get paid. I've seen some writers charger per word usually in cents so like 2-3 cents, thing is, thats flat rate ish, and a 1500 word story or so is $45 and i can write that in like half an hour...my usual 6000 word stories would be $180 for about 2 1/2 hours of work... where if i was hourly that'd only be like $30 so do you see the massive difference this can cause? Im veyr confused because i feel $30 is a bit to cheap but 180 is way to fucking much, where is the middle ground? Where the numbers say $90-100 this would also include editing/word check etc which i feel could be fair, but also is my shitty writing worth that much? Like people will fave my works and view them. But not all that many in all honesty, like most of my recent stories havent even breached the 500 view mark, now each story gets about 10 faves and i just dont feel thats enough to charge so much, but if i spend idk 3 hours writing a 6,000 word story an hour to edit an hour to fix spelling/grammer thats 4 hours of work that'd be $48 at minimum but again at 90 that'd be almost double so $24 an hour something that would be amazing if i needed quick cash.

I might legit need to open for comms here soon if i didnt make enough money this pay cheque for rent and i seriously might need several hundred hooman monies and if i do the $90 for my usual stories that'd only be 3 ish stories and i could do that in a day if i so choose but if i did hourly that'd be literal days like 3-4 days of writing and editing etc in a time span that wouldnt allow it so im just...idk i guess im asking you peeps how much im worth or how much you'd think would be fair? Most writers charge around the 3cent/word area and people pay that weather you think my writing is worth that idk...

But i dont know which one to continue! There are so many i can build on or continue and i want to continue something i dont wanna do something new, so....


What do you my watches want to see continued?

If you ignore facts/statistics because they dont suit your beliefs and puts you in your place, you're part of the human condition that's causing problems...
Them: Look how horrible this is!
Me: Well the reality-
Them: *Intsa block* HA get fucked you racist bigoted silencing P.O.S *proceeds to share and have people white knight me*
Me: Notice how when the same thing happens to you, you go fucking ballistic?
xThem: Well they were trying to silence and oppress me!
Me: No they were trying to give you the right information and make it so you dont buy into the cherry picking garbage being fed to you. Actual learning, and self betterment and betterment as a whole comes from Viewing the bigger picture whats actually happening and tackle things based on its importance. So for example if you have X thing thats causing a few thousand deaths a year vs X thing thats causing millions which is more important to tackle first? Thats right the million deaths yearly over the thousands, and while im not denying what you're saying is happening im trying to get you to see the bigger picture, because right now millions are dying and youre worried about the thousands. We're not trying to change your beliefs or say you're wrong We're trying to get your attention on bigger more important things. "The needs of the many out weigh the needs of the few" And when we talking millions to thousands, the millions is more important. Its called LOGIC.
Them: Eventually that thousand will lead to a million!
Me:In a thousand years, like legit it would take a thousand years for that to reach the bigger issue's death toll.
Them: Lives are lives!
Me: Hate is hate
Them: No its not!
Me: Yes it is.
Them: Everyone is equal!
Me: no they arent...
Them: How could you say something like that?!
Me: A doctor is more valuable then a drug dealer, the doctor will save more lives then the drug dealer there for, to society the doctor is far more important then the drug dealer. A persons value isnt based on their skin colour, their beliefs, or even how much they are paid Its based on what they can do for society.
By the age of 40 there are so many differences in a person saying one is just as valid and equal to the other is...insane. For example, my friend and roommate is 22 he's a car mechanic and is about to go buy a house in a few months He helps people fix their cars, i on the other hand just bring him the cars to fix, or clean them, he is more important and more valuable to society then i am, he and i are not equals in this right. Hell i cant even afford a car payment haha X3 Im 24, being paid minimum wage and falling apart, i much like those in similar situations to me, have so many issues and challenges on the daily that when compared to someone that doesnt have these issues we arent equals, by any means, the person with out These issues will function, protect, and help society more then i will ever be able to, there for they are more valuable at the end of the day then i am. For another example an artist with even the slightest bit of practice is more valuable then me because their art Can and will make people smile, they will be the moral booster people need but me? Nah fam, i cant do that, there for even if they have the exact same issues i do they are more valuable to society then me. When you sit down and actually compare a person to another person The differences and inequalities that exist become very apparent very quickly. Hell even when compared to going through the same trauma people's reactions and copping are insanely different. Hell my 5th suicide attempt was just a couple months ago and a friend of mine thats been-Through worse then i have isnt even on that many if any at all, Hell there is a dude at work that car a car dropped on him that is more valuable to society then i am and hasnt even tried...Im pretty pathetic when compared to these people.

We arent dogs or 'lessor' animals that rely and solely go off instinct one red fox is the same and equal to another one human is not the same or equal to another they just arent and again the differences become aparent veyr very quickly. Even the most accepting groups of people are just as hateful and violent as those they wish to destory or rid themselves of. They in contrast are just as bad if not worse because of hypocrisy.

Lets look at another friend of mine, she streams, she does art (rarely but still does) and is over all just a good bean to be around, she makes more people smile on a daily then i do she brightens peoples days and genuinely controbutes to society, me? I dont, she is more valuable then i am. Im more likely to wind up dying in a gutter tomorrow then anyone i know and my entire life would have lead up to that point i would have done nothing for society or hell even my watchers on here, i write once in a red moon, or would ring of fire eclipse be more accurate? That gets maybe a few hundred to a thousand views and makes people horny for 30 seconds. So while im more valuable then a drug dealer its not by much because that drug dealer could have a change of heart and become a doctor, a firefighter, an EMT or some other form of not only life savor but help improve someone elses life, i can not and will not i just dont have the energy anymore.

everyone is born equal, not everyone ends being equal, hell i was born healthy, happy, and even up to 3 years old i was no different then your average three year old...Now not so much. Now i have two bad knees, a bad hip, bad heart, going blind, constant migraines, memory issues, ptsd, gender dysphoria, constant need/want to kill myself, diabetes, a twisted look and view on reality... and some other things i forget from time to time... now compare that to the average human that doesnt have those things, maybe a bit of anxiety or stress? How exactly are that person and i equal again? Oh right...we arent not even in the slightest...While we deserve the same rights. medical, marriage, laws, etc we arent equal in the slightest. Everyone i know with PTSD is handling it far better then i am, and moving on, trying to get better and even doing better and when i try i stumble and fall and even though im trying i just dont seem to make progress like they do and its draining, im trying to do better and get better and its not getting better...I barely slept all month until a few days ago, for weeks i was only able to get 1-2 hours of sleep a night before not being able to sleep or even try until the next night, its hard and while they struggle as well they dont seem at least outwardly to struggle as much as i am and its that outward appearance that makes it convincing.


Im tired of people being so invested and blinded by their beliefs that they dont see the damage and similarities they have with those they hate, to the point they are doing the exact same thing they claim to hate and be "better" than...They do the same things, cause just as much damage and shout the same rhetoric (in a sense) that those they hate do, they cherry pick and shove things down your throat just like those they hate and just like those they hate when you point this out they shame you, block you, attack you, get you white knighted to the point in some cases its actually worse.

"If you are not with me, then you are my enemy"

Sound familiar? Thats because every revolutionist/hate group/activist group uses this saying or a similar phased saying much like "Silence is violence" The funny thing is, is with that saying your just as guilty as we are because of other issues you're just glossing over and ignoring a.k.a being silent about. the best counter to this is "Only a sith deals in absolutes" because only true evil sees you as an enemy if you don't fight along side them and preach what they do you are the enemy and need to be destroyed just as equally as those they are fighting against. And that my friends is the human condition, thinking you're the right one and denying and attack anyone that thinks differently, adversity and discussion is what causes growth, not ignoring and not blocking, denying things you dont like is how you grow...But people get "offended" if they dont do this and while you cant control what you get offended by, you can control how you act and react to that offense. You cant choose what you hate, but you can choose on how you act on that hate, if you hate something/someone but dont act on that hate that is how you prove you are better then those that do.

I hate cats, with every fiber of my being, they attack me no matter what, i have more scars on my body to cats then any other living being on the planet in cluding my father, but just because i hate them and want them destroyed and wiped off the fave of the earth doesnt mean i need to mistreat them, i will never mistreat a living being based on my feelings and if i ever do i apologize and do my best to fix the wrong doings. If i get angry and snap on someone, i apologize, even if it takes me a few days or a week i will apoligze and try to make it better, i will lose and have lost sleep over being a douche to someone, being mean, snapping, i feel physically ill and if a cat attacks me while im tried or pissed off i'll slide them across the floor to get them away from me and then apologize profusely because that was wrong to do.

Its okay to hate, its not okay to act on that hate, because if you hate something or someone, but you treat them normally, why does it matter what you think? You arent hurting them with your thoughts, or your actions, so that hate, even if its justified (fucking cats) acting on this hate is the true wrong doing because you're hurting someone, you're hurting something and thats not right. Teach people to act out of kindness and love not hate, because right now in this world people are only acting on hate, and action on that hate leads to more hate, because see, even if you hate someone and they acted kind to you, and you acted kind to them, they and you would grow to not hate, and that non hate would spread. But instead, people act on this hate, on this anger, on these negative emotions and it spreads like a disease... What happens when a new disease comes out? We distance ourselves from it and eventually it goes away or we create a vaccine for it and even though it still exists and people get sick from it, they have less of a chance to die from it. So even though you hate someone or something, distance yourself from the hate, be the vaccine, treat people and living things properly so that the hate doesnt spread...Be the doctor not the dealer....


Please stay safe out there, please help people, dont riot, dont loot, dont hate...stop it before it gets worse, please...so many lives are on the line, so many people will die because of whats going on, but because you're so blinded by this hate you dont see whats going on...please...stop...

Assuming someones had a good life and is self righteous is a great way to make yourself look like an ass. "Sorry people fighting for their lives would inconveniences you." It'll do more then that fucker it'll get me fucking killed! While they "fight for their life" Which wasnt in danger a few months ago for the reason they are fighting they'll get my ass killed! You wanna fight someone be my fucking guest, dont drag my ass into this though! If someone starts shit in a public building they need to take that shit outside! "X company wont allow people to support our group!" "Yeah because that shit causes fucking fights!!" I was at the gas station the other day for my job, i go there a good ten times a day two of the coworkers had a discussion about current events they had a disagreement and the customers suffered for it! We all were treated like shit they were annoyed, cross and just short tempered all around rude! Im just here to do my fucking job or get a drink to prevent low blood sugar i dont need to be treated like shit because they had a shit day! Get that shit out of the work place i agree its a place you need to be profesional you wanna argue on your own time be my fucking guest not out in public to the point everyone else suffers.

So forget everything you know about George Floyd's death and who killed him (dont care enough about that murderer to learn his name or look him up)

They were co-workers at one point, meaning both wore cops what if, one day Floyd was venting to his buddy the cop that killed him.

Floyd: "Im just tired of watching my people get mistreated for their skin colour its not right and things need to change!"

Buddy: "what if there was a way to do that? What would you give for it?"

Floyd: "Id give my life, it would mean my people and children and my children's children would grow up in a fair just and equal society."

Buddy: "What if you leave the force then a few years later i end up killing you out in public for all to see in broad day light video's being recorded etc Then later when i wind up in jail i kill myself, it would be such a big controversy and spark the anger and hatred of cops enough to spark protests and freedom, it would expose all the bad cops and evil in our jobs.'


And thus on the day it was meant to happen his buddy turned up with a few cops he knew were racist and wouldnt stop him and arrested Mr Floyd and killed him in "cold blood" Starting protests and rage demanding change and thus his buddy now seen as a murderer soon to be put in jail hopefully and the world changes for the better!


Sadly this is just a conspiracy and i have no evidence to back any of this up its just something i came up with while cleaning a car at work in 111F (~44C) weather on 36 hours of being awake >~<

I've had close to if not more then 300 law enforcement interactions, one of which i was almost pulled out of my car window for, and only about 50 were the cops super douches and i've only had 1 moving violation later brought down to a parking ticket. 30 of which i was with my friends one Indian, one Mexican and one African. You wanna know how mnay times they were dragged off their bikes, out of their cars, misstreated in anyway? None, not once, we got a stern talking to but 98% of the time we were able to talk our way out of it and just shoot the shit with the cops and have a good time. Even with the stern talking to we ended up with hand shakes and smiles. thats over 80 encounters with cops on the road for me personally and not once were we tazzed mistreated or even come close to fearful of the cops, not once was a weapon pulled or were we told to get on the ground again we gave respect we were given respect. If all cops were as bad and as evil as people say they are, my friends would be dead, i'd be in jail right now and you people never would have gotten my stories or pictures. I should point out there are still about 200 unaccounted for police/law enforcement interactions all those others were for Domestic Voilence issues (thanks dad and bro really love you guys...not) And i'd personally like to not go into those publicly but lets just say i'd be dead with out the men, women and furry little friends dressed in blue.

You will never have a law enforcement/peace keeping/policing force with out hate and prejudice its impossible with the human factor being the issue every time. Now lets say we had robots doing the policing/law enforcement/peace keeping, here's the issue. 15mph over the limit is considered wreckless driving and is an arrestable offense...that means you'd be arrested if you needed to get somewhere fast or were just absentmindedly driving a bit to fast. instead of getting a warning for having a tail light out or not using your signal for a lane change or not fully stopping at a stop sign you'd get ticked for and there would be no ifs/ands/or butts about it. If a car was burning the robot would calculate who had the best chance of survival and get them out and leave the rest to die, the human wouldnt they'd just try and save them, i could point you to 100 or more videos showing officers helping people out of burning cars, saving children from choking black basket ball with kids of all shapes sizes and colours robots wouldnt do that, they'd calcuate if the baby would survive and if it didnt have a high enough chance it'd just drop it and let it die, they wouldnt play with kids or be nice they'd be a ruthless dictatorship when it came to the law.

"Cops as a system are bad!" This is false, cops who have a power complex, bad ego, and racist are bad. Labeling people/organizations as groups is part of our problem we're facing today, we're labeling all cops bad, racist Africans/Mexicans/Asians etc are labeling whites bad. My family never in our history had slaves yeah we had a few bad apples that mistreated Africans but we shunned them. I have never once been hateful or mean or a douche to someone else because of their skin colour yet i've had it happen to me because of my skin colour they didnt know me and i didnt know them and i was mistreated and berated because i was white and had this "Privilege" to do what ever i wanted and get away with it...not once have i experience this privilege not once has someone looked at me and gone "Oh shit shes white we cant touch her!" "Oh shit she white we cant ticket her!" "Oh shit shes white we HAVE to give her a job!" "Oh shit shes white we have to give her money!" Yet people think this is how it goes its not. The only privilege you have is money and if you dont have money you dont have privilege.

If for what ever reason the law or government states whites have to make up for the past slavery or mistreatment, whites that have never owned slaves or mistreated Africans now have to pay or make it up to them in some way? Really? Thats fucked and racist like it or not. If one side can claim "Thats racist/oppression/ its because of skin colour/anything" And side B can not or even say anything about it and has to take it in silence side B is more oppressed then side A, doesnt matter their skin colour/gender/sexuality thats simply fact if one side has more power then the other in any context the side that has less power is oppressed.

I agree things could and should be better. "Protect and Serve" is there motto That should be the only thing they are worried about, that should be the only thing they focus on. "Protect and Serve" Isnt based on laws its based on what the people think is right. If one cop beats or mistreats a African then there should be ten more that should be there to stop him and arrest him for his crimes. To protect and serve that man being beaten or mistreated. Cops/law enforcement/ peace keepers should only have to follow this motto that oath. Right now any good cop out there is resigning because of the bad cops and the saying ACAB. The bad cops are using "To punish and enslave" As their motto their oath and its wrong. (just to point out "To Punish and Enslave" Is written on the side of Barricade in Trasnformers movie in 2007) I feel this motto fits the current state of police right now, not before now. The more you push ACAB the less good cops there will be and the more Oppression they will get away with. Make "To Protect and Serve" The only thing they have to follow! Make that motto, slogan, OATH the only thing that matters dont just hate indiscriminately (got the first try bitches) Dont label people or organizations as groups! Treat them as individuals! If one person is being racist it doesnt matter what their skin colour is! Call them out on it! Stop them! Labeling people as groups and not individuals is segregation! Its what starts this shit! We're all humans lets just call us humans! Not Whites/Blacks/Mexicans/Asians/etc! We're all just human!

Anyway NEXT TIME ON ARTEMIS VIXENS JOURNAL WE HAVE CONSIRACY THEORIES SHE CAME UP WITH AT WORK AFTER NOT SLEEPING FOR 36 HOURS!! maybe...

I identify as a hermit crab, i like my shell and my privacy i seek knowledge, i will become the most powerful hermit crab on the planet just you watch me

Lets say there are 20 million protesters right now. (which there has never been that many in the history of the us btw for any protest) You dont even make up 1/15th of the population of the united states of america...Even the most populated protests in the history of the us didnt make up 1/30th of the population...Remember in a democracy to change things you need more then half thats ~170 million people at the US's population today...You barely make up a fraction of even that! and you're ruining the lives of everyone else because you want to protest and i guarantee you, more people hate you now then they did before because of this, not only are you hurting your cause, you're hurting you and everyone else associated with you for literal decades to come. When this is over weather nothings has changed or the world as we know it ends, you will be hated by more people then and now then ever before. Me along with any other sick persons in the USA that relies on our current system to survive will die if the USA as it stands now falls thanks to you people. People that i should point out, did nothing wrong, in fact they probably never even had a negative thought about someone else based on their skin colour will die because of you and you're movement. If i need to go to the hospital and its a true honest to god diabetic emergency after 8 or before 5am thanks to you people. I COULD DIE BECAUSE I'LL BE PULLED OVER BECAUSE OF YOU yeah...you want to make someone hate you? Threaten there life, no quicker way to make someone hate and want you gone then that.

You have done more to hurt your cause then ever before because of "They started it" Like a child. When this is over again more will hate you for what you did then ever before and you are threatening more lives then you are trying to save even if all protests stop now, shit would still be fucked for a solid few weeks and yet you want more people to join in? Now because of the protest unlike before POC's are now being actively hunted down, pulled out of their cars and they arent even part of the protests! This isnt the 40's-70 anymore Shit has changed so much that protesting isnt gonna do shit! Rubber bullets, tear gas, riot gear was designed to be used in the situations its being used in! The cops were given military style gear because when they needed it for terrorist attacks they didnt have it! The military is able to roll out as fast as it can because when actual terrorism was happening and the police didn't have what they have now the military wasnt able to deploy in time to save lives. "How can they do this so fast!?" I see all over twitter. BECAUSE THEY WERENT ABLE TO DO SO IN THE PAST AND A LOT OF PEOPLE FUCKING DIED THAT'S WHY!

"Hate isnt genetic its taught!" Well you're doing a great job of teaching people to hate you

"They started it!" didnt work in 5th grade its not gonna work in the real world.


Sorry for ranting so much lately but right now shits fucked up, and the longer you people wait to stop the worse its gonna get, people will die because of you get that through youre dense skulls before they actually start dropping like flies and the world as we know it ends, its not the start of a new utopia its the end of something thats keeping more people alive then you realize, yeah its a shitty system it could be a hell of a lot better, BUT YOU ARENT HELPING

So recently i saw a twitter post about an artist thats "dependent" on caffeine and they drink a diet soda that has a whooping! 50mg...5-50...thats it...a cup of coffee has double that and same with a red bull SO i said "You;d probably be better off with coffee or redbull due to their caffeine content and it'd probably be less sugar as well" Well i did some fact checking on the sugar thing, of course i was wrong because i thought "They're probably more dependent on the sugar then the caffeine" Well diet shit doesnt have real sugar it has Aspartame...did a little digging, and yeah im still right most diet sodas have 180-200mg of this stuff in it per can, damn near 4 times the amount of sugar taste alike then caffeine mg wise you're getting almost to more then 100mg of caffeine per cup/can of coffee/redbull and has less real sugar then a can of of regular soda and again the 'sugar substitute' has basically the same amount of it in each can so you're just as addicted to this taste a like then you are caffeine



Idk its just a bit vexing when i hear "Ahahaha caffeine dependency am i right?" then they go and say some dumb shit like this when Myself, a friend and a coworker actually require caffeine to get through the day and not just a little bit like these douchers, i drank a pot of coffee and SIX redbulls today so i could not only think clearly but my migraine would go away. Both my coworker and i have chronic migraines, his are from a car being dropped on him and mine are from a motorcycle accident. For those of you who dont know!! Before a headache or migraine, blood vessels tend to enlarge, but caffeine has “vasoconstrictive” properties that cause the blood vessels to narrow and restrict blood flow, which can aid in head pain relief. Both my coworkers and my mirgaines with out coffee are literally blinding, dizzying, nauseating and in his case on really bad days loss of consciousness.


When i was able to lay around all day and do nothing i actually wanted to see if my headaches were because i wasnt drinking my caffeine for the day because its literally the first thing people say "You get headaches because you drink caffeine" shut your fucking mouth bitch (i wanna say worse but thats a bit to mean) Anyway so i went about a month and a half with out coffee guess what? They never went away! Big fucking surprise -w- Its almost like my headaches were the reason i started drinking coffee in the first place... BITCH


That turned into a rant so fast...holy cow... but yeah dont joke about a dependence on caffeine when you LITERALLY DRINK THE LEAST AMOUNT OF CAFFEINE YOU POSSIBLY CAN PER FUCKING ANYTHING YOU DUMB CUNTS ITS THE SUGAR/SUGAR LOOK A LIKE YOU NEED NOT THE CAFFEINE AT THAT POINT GAH FUCK....



Okay rant over. I hope you all have an amazing week!

It takes a lot and i mean a LOT to make me feel smol, im 5'11" with the shoes i wear im 6' im big, 180 on a bad day ('ive had a lot of bad days recently) But today...today i felt smol...So heres the situation, i got my coworker in the driver seat my GM in the passenger seat and two of the biggest salesmen we have im talking 6'5"+ 350+lbs sitting to my right, we are in a Hyundai Kona...the second smallest SUV we have!!! You dont know small until you're being pushed so hard against your door by these dudes you barely know that you almost cant breath, after being in the 40C weather for 3 hours at that point...IT PRESSED SO MANY BUTTONS!!!! I HAD TO JUST SHUT UP AND BLINK OUT THE WINDOW WHILE WE WERE IN THAT CAR THAT WAS THE LONGEST 1 MINUTE CAR RIDE OF MY LIFE DEAR GOD HELP ME!!!!! >////////<

So ive know this for a while and its a big reason i want it changed, when my legal name is said almost nothing good has followed in the past...ever im either in trouble or something serious has happened or needs to be talked about its never good and now even if someone just says hello to me now its anxiety like "whats going on?! What happened what did i do!?" The worst is when one of my best friend calls me by my name because he almost never uses it its always bro or fam or bud or bitch or the n word literally anything else but my name and so when he says my name its basically like your parents calling you by your full name you know shit happened and youre walking to your grave X3 but yeah when ever my name is said insant anxiety instant mood killer instant frown and sorrow instant regret....i hate it....i want it gone...

I start Wednesday! That means my story writing is gonna slow but not stop like before im more then ready for this a second time around! but that also means i need to super crunch for the apartment deposit i'll need by august and with the new discovry i made of Generic insulin which is dummy cheap compared to the name brand stuff and luckily it hasnt killed me yet so there i have it, gonna be saving quite a bit until my insurance kicks in and then i'll be able to guage how much i can actually spend and shiz but anyway got my job back, thigns are looking up again, so lets see if it works out for me!

The last journal broke my page

LIKE LIKE LIKE NORMALLY YOU HAVE A REASON TO BE ANGRY, YOU'RE MATE GETS ON YOUR NERVES, A PART ON A CAR ISNT BEHAVING, YOU GOT HIT WITH SOMETHING, THEIRS IS A NAIL IN YOUR TIRED BUT THIS TIME, THIS TIME...OHHOHOHOHOH FUCK FUCK FUCKING FUCK ITS BEEN TWO AND A HALF HOURS AND IM STILL FUCKING FUMMING OVER THIS, I WAS WRITING AND IT WAS GRAND MY DUDES! IT WAS SO GRAND IT WAS GONNA BE LONGER AND MORE IN DEPTH THEN MY LONGEST STORY EVER WRITTEN AND OUT OF FUCKING NO WHERE MY PC CRASHES BECAUSE THE WIFI ADAPTER DOESNT CONSENT TO BEING RESET AFTER IT FAILS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH




I am so filled with rage i cant even find a word for it, livid doesnt even come close to how angry i am im still shaking hours later thats how mad i am. Like i get when my pc crashes when im watching youtube playing EFT talking on a website browser chat and discord all at once THAT MAKES FUCKING SENSE, but when im listening to music already saved on my pc, and talking on the web browser chat THERE IS NO REASON YOU SHOULD BLUE SCREEN YOU MOTHER FUCKER! GAH i cant even throw anything ot hit anything! IT is literally against my moral code to scream vocally or rage in a normal way THANKS DAD FUCK YOU......I swear life has it out for me...

Specifically in the Phoenix/Peria/Chandler area of Arizona? I just learned my current roommates are upgrading to a house in august and i need to gtfo by then yeah its still four months away but i like ot have plans and options laid out before hand so i dont end up on the streets, now i've never lived with someone i dont know all that well or at all and im scared mostly because i've heard more horror stories then i can count on roommates being absolutely horrible people. I also want to keep it in the furry community because it is one of the more accepting communities out there. I like my privacy and solitary in fact you basically wont know im living with you, i keep to my self and im quiet. But yeah if you're looking for a roommate or know of someone who will need one soon, please let me know!

So ever sense posting "Its permanent" its been the leader in views out of all my stories and finally its been put into second place! "The party" now has more views! I gotta say im very surprised, "its permanent" was in such a big lead for so long very few stories could come close to it but for some reason "the party" has just demolished everything, yeah it took its time but after it gained some speed nothing could stop it!


I feel like ive been watching sports hahaha i was like no way no way no way!! In utter disbelief! Nothing i posted that recently has done all that well and suddenly poof here comes this story out of nowhere! The excitement!

O-okay maybe i have a very very boring dull life that this is what entertains me but still! I enjoyed the fight they put up, now...can the new champ get toppled? Only time will tell!

I thought this page and its contents got erases when FA did the whole account recovery thing....JESUS FUCK the cringe....6 years....its been SIX YEARS! HOLY SHIT if any of you want to see just how bad i wrote back then....here have this monstrosity of a page and how just totally fucking confused as to who and what i was and how things worked and jjjjeeeeeeezzzzzzz this is embarrassing....



 sovereingtyfox

Well you read the title anyone willing to wing up? We'll be hunting pirates and shiz!

No sleep 4 cups of coffee three energy drinks mint gum and my jaw feels like ive been suckin dick all weekend! Im ready for work all day!!

Its one of the kinks im into and i absolutely fucking hate at the same time, a super powerful goddess brought down to size and taken advantage of as a one time deal? AWESOME fuck yeah! But having this super awesome supreme being turning into nothing but a play thing for the rest of time, someone thats supposed to be so strong not even the armies of hell can tame them? No fuck you its so annoying to see this happen to so many characters. Again in these characters back stories they are this unstoppable force of nature that just get turned into the damsel in distress because...no reason...its so annoying. I come across it all the fuckin time i personally dont even consider it role-reversal anymore in that case, because they are constantly losing, constantly on the powerless side constantly oh i dont know, not in a position that constitutes it being role reversal because they are always in that situation?

Lets say for example i had a goddess top of the food chain, she's ruler of all not afraid of anything get brought down to size and messed with for a day...and then that be all shes good for...Why would she be considered top of the food chain if she was never on top anymore? Thats right, she wouldnt be so how can it be role-reversal if shes never in a role of power to lose? And dont "Its not technically cannon" Me thats fucking horse shit and you know it...Its just bad writing, you want her to be a damsel? Make her a damsel fucker! Erase the back story and just have her as that a damsel nothing more...I've recently seen a lot of this suddenly these big unstoppable characters in an artists history that never had a rival suddenly becoming nothing more then a damsel or toy or food or what have you and its like "I thought this wasnt possible in cannon" "Oh its not cannon is just a fun idea to mess around with" In be for the next 30 stories/pics with these characters being nothing more then the damsel. "Thought this wasnt possible with this characters cannon material." "Oh its not cannon." "So, why is this all she is now?" "Its not these are just fun idaes!" "NO THEY CLEARLY ARENT YOU'VE DONE NOTHING BUT SHOW THIS SENSE THE FIRST ONE!" Gets blocked for point out the obvious.

If you want to make the super awesome bad ass female a damsel, do it, make it cannon, and get someone else to take the super awesome bad ass character place. Because there is nothing more annoying then seeing a super awesome Goddess, female hero (i hate the word heroine) female CEO or what have you turned into nothing more then well nothing they arent cool/inspiring/or well worth looking into anymore, or continuing to watch for more stories or info/lore! You've completely ruined what you had and its annoying/depressing, and honesty? It really ruins my thoughts of you as a person im sorry im only human...It really does make me go "Oh...you're that type of asshole, i should unwatch you."

Take my sona "Artemis Inqu Fox" For example, i wanted a powerful character that when she wants to can make her life easier at the snap of her fingers, someones bothering her? Poof they be gone, she wants a car or computer? Poof there it is, but at the end of the day, she just likes to have fun and indulge in herself. The only character i have thats actually cannon in all my stories is Artemis, She's a goddess for fuck sake, body snatching, shrinking and getting killed is what she loves, she can respawn why the fuck wouldnt she indulge in all of the things she loves that she couldnt if she wasnt a goddess? Again even though shes a goddess she's constantly bottom tier of the food chain, dying, getting crushed, eaten, torn apart etc and i make absolutely sure she is portrayed in a way that isnt "She is a goddess there for has no rival and cant be beaten!" Because well thats no true, she can be beaten, and well no-one knows she exists simply because she's basically always tiny and getting shit on (sometimes literally <.< >.>) ANYWAY.

TL;DR

My point is, when it comes to role-reversal, its only role-reversal if it happens once. again one and done...nothing more, no constantly being the bottom of the barrel, Or hell constantly being top of the food chain when they're arent supposed to be...please. people. stop. THIS. BULLSHIT