Hey kids, I am posting my work in several places.
Subscribestar is here: https://subscribestar.adult/snickersjaguar (I will love you forever if you subscribe)
Telegram channel is here: https://t.me/shinysnickers
Bluesky is here: https://bsky.app/profile/snickersja.....ar.bsky.social

When I started posting my art, e621 removed it because it didn't meet quality standards or some bullshit. Needless to say, I don't post art with them anymore. Posting it here was the outlet that gave me the inspiration to keep drawing furry porn and realizing it's a viable hobby. I had the pleasure of speaking with neer several times. He didn't deserve the criticism people heaped on him, as he was an incredibly sweet person burnt out by a labor of love to the fandom. The bandwidth he devoted to furries was admirable and beyond my abilities.

There's already a million journals about this already but I liked him as a person and FA was part of the reason I become involved in the fandom 15 years ago and met my ex. Dragoneer had a very profound impact on my life any way you slice it.

It's 2024. Life is short and beautiful, spring is nigh with mountains and forests reawakened all garbed in verdant hues. Smell flowers instead of letting the internet make you angry or afraid. Focus on what you can control and don't worry about what you can't. In paraphrasing Bertrand Russell:

Self-worth isn't measured against others and the opinions of strangers are meaningless.
Seeking acclaim is normal but be selective of whom you seek admiration from.
Name your fears. Pessimism offers no benefits, so be optimistic and realistic.
Don't feel guilty when good things happen, enjoy them.
Injustice is inevitable, but reject victimhood and grievance.

Bluesky is ~here~ as birdsite implodes. I might shift Patreon to Subscribestar later this year since I'm not keen on the +18 artist policy; privacy is a luxury.
I'll attempt to finish another fursuit in upcoming months, working with vinyl is hard.
When I wrap up this phase of my life I'll see about attending more cons like ANE, FWA, and BLFC.
Hope you're all doing well :) if there's anything you want to see more of lmk in the comments.

Hi everyone,

I haven't been able to keep up with commission requests put in on the Google Form and I'm sorry if I haven't responded to you about it. If you've put in a request before feel free to message me on here or telegram, but I'll also try to be more diligent about checking the Google Form.

Hey everyone!~
Opening up a patreon with some of my work here: https://www.patreon.com/snickersjaguar
Subscribing gets you early access to work before it's published anywhere, voting on art themes, access to art bundles, priority commission queue.
Kicking around ideas for making a video game or maybe publishing hypnosis files in the near-to-mid range future. With enough subscribers I'll also have patron exclusive art-streams too!

Definitely surprised by how many people signed up off the bat. Even getting up to $500/mo would help solve bills that free me up to do art more regularly, anything is appreciated!

I'm going to try to set aside some 3 to 4 hour time blocks to stream every Sunday at 15:00.
https://www.picarto.tv/Snickersthecat

It's been a year since I wrote a journal.

Life is good, and I am happy with my art for the first time in a long time.
Love your future self by not dwelling on the past, and don't worry about the parts of life you can't change.
It can be challenging out there I and I wish you all the best.

I've been tracking the number of watchers/favorites since I started drawing. I've crossed the 10k mark in number of favorites and 1k number of followers since I have starting doing kink art ( vvfin is the 1000th!), thanks for taking interest in my weird art!

I feel I've progressed quite a bit over the past ~2.5 years. It was a bit of a leap of faith to draw kink art as there's always the pernicious question of "what will people IRL think of me?", but I have grown a bit more comfortable not giving a fuck and this has helped the transition. Also, taking commissions is a great source of beer(*cough*kinkgear*cough*) money.

This has been written down because I have gone over this a lot lately. Deprived of our tribal evolutionary habitat, we're stuck in the anomie, a quandary of existential isolation. This isn't necessarily drawback though. Freedom from a form of intrinsic value also severs the chains that bind us to contrived ideals used to survive in tribal groups for hundreds of thousands of years. This is Positive Nihilism, the complement and counterweight to the futility of staring off into sky with the possibility we're the only (temporarily) sentient organisms in the universe.

The old-school psychoanalysts like Jung said that internal conflict arises when we are not self-actualized, i.e. our ideals that we imagine ourselves to be are not aligned with reality (It's not a perfect idea, but bear with me). By achieving our needs (food, water, shelter, belonging etc.) we move up Maslow's Hierarchy until we become "self-actualized" and no longer have to worry about pure survival. In the modern world, we super-impose what our needs are and fixate on them until they become unhealthy obsessions (In Buddhism, the "Taṇhā"). Too often these are shaped by dysfunctional relationships with peers, family early on in life, which we then carry forward as a fixed, a priori behavior.

Nihilism tells us these worries don't matter. If we're worried about the results or potential negative outcomes, we can simply accept that they exist. Action or inaction based on those outcomes is optional. For example, one clinically-established means of addressing certain types of social anxiety is engaging in socially odd or awkward behavior, like walking up to an attractive stranger in a bar and complimenting them or asking them on a date. If we're rebuffed, that's okay because it doesn't matter, if one succeeds then one goes on a date with an attractive stranger. There's no reason to be concerned or anxious over either of the possible outcomes.

Those worries and fears can become quite corrosive to one's psyche. In Buddhism it's called the Three Poisons (the number of "poisons" varies based on tradition), these:
Fears and delusions (moha) ->
give rise to attachment to that delusion (rāga) ->
and lead to outward expressions of anger and frustration (dveṣa).
By releasing oneself of the inner fears, it prevents suffering (dukkha).
Positive nihilism, in-fact, opens the door to end the cycle of self-delusions, attachment, and anger.

These cravings and desires for social acceptance or can be extrapolated to reward too. For example, you might be worried about your career, finances, whether or not you leave a legacy or a mark on the world. Who cares? Do artificial social hierarchies matter that much outside the context of building a career? Almost no one alive today will be remembered a millennia from now, not everyone can be Alexander the Great who conquers the known world at age 23. As long as you have a shelter over your head and food on your plate, is your rate of acquiring wealth about spending it more to impress others or meet your own needs? If you lost your job tomorrow, or you were kicked out of school, or your bank account was empty, would you die or merely have fewer luxuries in life? That's a question you'd have to answer for yourself. More often than not, these are fake delusions we become attached to and cause problems down the line.

To build on another tradition, the teachings of Daoism introduce the idea of "wu wei", or action through inaction as part of a natural order to the world. Oftentimes, the push and pull of external forces make it evident we're just small units operating in an ecosystem of 7 billion other people. Whether or not we choose to act is just a part of that larger system. I don't think this is exclusively just backed by Eastern Philosophy either. In modern mathematics and philosophy, there is a parallel in the idea of "emergence" from theorists like Fredrich Hayek, where systems subject to applications of energy naturally order themselves. Think of shaking up sand in a jar and watching as the larger grains stratify toward the top as an easy analogy of emergence, we're just like those grains of sand, whether or not we choose to act is part of a much larger system organizing itself. Some of the best ways we have of modeling complex systems like populations within ecosystems, the human brain, or economics come in the form of differential equations. There isn't necessarily a "right" answer when solving a differential equation because variables are changing relative to one another. It's always fun to have a nice black-and-white, right-or-wrong answer to a dilemma, but that's not usually the case. Whether or not we choose action or inaction depends on so many other variables outside of our control, it doesn't matter.

These desires are biological too, and every person in the world has to confront them at some point. You've probably heard of the neurotransmitter dopamine before, it signals "reward" and also plays a few other roles (in regulating attention and fine motor movement for example). Some neuroscientists think of it as a "surprise regulator". For example, if I give Bill Gates and a random homeless guy $10,000, who will appreciate it more? The random homeless guy will probably get more "reward" and higher levels of dopamine signaling from the surprise of such a large gift rather than a billionaire who would be unfazed by such a small amount of money. This can be applied to money, food, sex, drug addicts seeking more of a psychoactive high etc., thus our biology drives us on the "hedonistic treadmill" where we continually pursue these rewarding features of our surroundings until they become mundane, after which we still continue seeking that level of reward or salient "surprise" at greater scale. So it's not where we are (the first derivative, the rate of accrual over time) that defines how much reward we experience, it's the change in the rate of that salient reward over time (the second derivative) through which we experience reward. Unfettered, this leads to disaster as we can't just experience exponentially more rewarding experiences and this simple biological limit leads to its own form of negative nihilism. Thus the only solution to solving this craving and delusion is forcing ourselves to go into withdrawal and severing our attachment to these rewards.

This seems fatalistic (as in, determined by unchangeable fate), and in the strictest sense maybe it is. It still isn't inevitable that events happen because systems outside of our control still remain extremely complicated. By the same token, I'm not laying on my couch staring at the ceiling because everything from this point forward is predetermined, but instead I'm sitting here writing this blog post. We have freewill with boundaries in our environment and within our biological limits (the idea comes from Dr. Daniel Dennett). There are still problems of suffering that need to be addressed, there are still sub-problems of suffering and attachment that motivate us to solve them. Disease, war, climate change, etc. one should still be motivated to address these, the degree to which you do is the self-correcting product of your environment. You can do nothing more than live in the moment and accept that you can only accomplish, but it doesn't matter.

Thus, there is no "correct" action one can take.

So we choose nihilism and the freedom that our actions will guide themselves regardless. It shouldn't be a source of consternation whether or not they are fulfilled to our liking and to our attachments we have to the world. The meaningless of our actions should be embraced as a means of overcoming ridiculous attachments unfulfilling objectives.

So anyhow, if you want commissions I won't get to them for about a month as I'll be taking an extended vacation. You can still send me a note and I will respond, just not immediately, it doesn't mean I hate you. Telegram is SnickersJaguar if you want to contact me on there instead (I might be more responsive).

Also, it's that time of year again to do your civic duty American animal people, get out there and heckin' vote on November 6th. Registration deadlines are approaching in a bunch of states: https://www.usa.gov/register-to-vote Even if you're registered you should still check to make sure that's the case.

Also, holy shit, Letterkenny is a phenomenal show, Canadians are comical folks.

Also, Jesus Christ I'm almost 27 years old, I need to get off my ass and go to grad school at some point but making money, traveling, and drawing porn, and playing Europa Universalis 4 is more fun.

So I have almost 10k page views, most of that from the past year or two.
If you screencap it I'll draw whatever the heck you want.

I appreciate you all for putting up with my odd and occasionally cryptic journals otherwise.

Do you guys prefer human or anthro TF subjects?

Also, I've settled on my art style, after fiddling around for a few months I've settled on some heuristics I'm happy with. I'll draw up something like this for $25 per colored panel (might vary a bit depending on what's involved): http://www.furaffinity.net/full/24683996/

My fursona is a shapeshifter that spends most of it's time as a jaguar.
I might even land on you and make you a shapeshifter too! :3

Take a long drive with me on California 1.
Come join the youth and beauty brigade.

The New Yorker called Bon Iver's new album 'weird', I personally think it's phenomenal. Like abstract art, it gives a great deal of leeway in it's interpretation. A folk singer with autotune sounds surprisingly good. It's neat to see such experimental stuff coming from the music scene in my home state of Wisconsin too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNy7VtSsmu8

^^^

*TFs into a bottle of gin*

Please, no no no no no.
https://www.facebook.com/myiannopou.....=3&theater

If you're so inclined I'm elsewhere too:
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/snickersjaguar/
I like the format of tumblr but it never took off, also I'm less keen on sharing adult or downright furry stuff on there.
http://snickersjagjag.tumblr.com/

https://twitter.com/snickersjagjag

dallas salad

Partied too hardy.

Should I make a separate TF art/NSFW account, perhaps featuring my alt coyote fursona? I feel like I'd wig out most of my current watchers with tons of weird art I'd be dumping on this account suddenly. Maybe not everyone wants to see that. Not entirely sure, give me feedback.

Life has gone far better than planned in the recent months, I have a great job in my field, a new apartment and I get to share it with someone I love. The cogs continue their rote advances.

Ergo, I bought a bottle of Hendrick's to celebrate.

I miss everyone back home, don't be a stranger.

“Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a deep ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair."

-Bertrand Russell

http://amiquote.tumblr.com/post/102.....d-russell-love

Seeing as I lack grant funding here and I haven't been able to procure any more, I have no real obligations and plan to travel with some of the money I've saved.

I'll be back in the Upper Midwest over the holidays, so make plans if you want to spend some time with me. Coming early January (provided no opportunities have reared their head) my significant other and I plan on attempting to carve a new life out for ourselves in Seattle/Pacific Northwest.

On the way there, we're going on a grand tour of the western United States through:
Atlanta, New Orleans, Austin, Denver, Pike's Peak, Garden of the Gods, Bryce Canyon, Monument Valley, Grand Canyon, Tijuana, Los Angeles, Big Sur, San Francisco (maybe Shasta and Yosemite?), Kings Canyon/Sequoia, Portland, Mount Hood and Mount Rainier.
So, I'm looking forward to some good pictures.

Meeting jaguar god.
brb

Had some job interviews.
Turned them down, I have what I need in life.