Ok! As I promised! Lengthy journal! Here it goes!

Today is my b-day! I won't get anything except for a card so RL gifts may suck, but thankful for my family and stuff. I have soccer practice as well from 9 A.M. to 11 A.M. and will be out with friends at 12 P.M. to however long I get back. It is a day about me today individually. I hate to make it sound selfish, but a b-day is a special day. I am so hyped about today! Friends outing and stuff and just awesomeness!

I got 2 art pieces for my b-day as of now. One is finished by and the other is by a special friend on Telegram! I will post both today later on when I wake up! I really love you guys for taking your time to draw my characters on your own accord.

Aside from that, here are the news, updates, and stuff.

NEWS: So...the news is that I won't be here for a big chunk of the day so if you have gift art/happy B-day saying/anything for me. I most likely will see later. Also, I'm gonna be less active since school starts in two weeks from today. Not majorly inactive, but just online for 6 hours or less a day.

UPDATES: The updates are that I'm officially making Ty and Pyrocelios my mains again. Kazma will be a side and also Kenta. I feel that Ty has a connection and Pyrocelios being my older brother makes it even more special. I love Kazma....but you gotta know when to calm down on him, right?

STUFF: This is gonna be lengthy...and stuff covers a lot of stuff. I want to thank everyone who's watching me. And bless those who decided to unwatch me. I know I may be annoying at times, and even just too random, but it's nice to know who my real friends are. I get a lot of messages on Skype, Telegram, and sometimes Kik, but it's greatly appreciated. I may "ignore" you at times, but I'm just busy, at soccer, or just not in the mood to do anything. I like talking and knowing others, and I've grown to realize who my friends are. Some people have told me, I matured so much since when I 1st joined. How though? I don't realize it too much, but thanks for saying and making me feel more independent.

I also had a goal on how many warcers before my b-day. It was 300. Then when I realized it was building up so fast, I had to make it 350 and finally got there! I feel so privileged to have supporters. It's rare for me to have them since people don't like my characters and my personality. I'm hyper, but being myself is what matters!

Made some new allies throughout the year too. Can't name them all, but you know who you are! I wanna thank all the ones who stuck with me and continue to bear with me. I'm quite zealous and stuff. How does it bother some anyway? I don't know, but I feel great to be around you all.

Some don't like me but I continue to be nice to them. Some blocked me for no reason, but I still continue to be myself. Some are just rude, but I want to be on my best behavior/support level.

I feel like there's more to add...not sure. Will add next journal that may come tomorrow.

As for all my watchers, you're invited to the Kazakado B-day party! My house is big enough for big black Slavic Bagpiping dragons, giant orange sumo dragons, and a big red Guardian dragon. No big deal. It's a party, have fun! There's plenty if cake, ice cream, soda, whatever! And also! *Goes to my job and gets 1,000 Pizza Pup XXL pizzas* I may need more, but enjoy yourselves and stay cool!

Thanks everyone....it means a lot to whoever even cares to say happy B-day to me...

~Ty Kazakado

You heard it. needs money and will draw HIGH CLASS ART like this! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20822646/

All you gotta do is see his journal and check out the stuff!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7753313/ He is back open again and NEEDS dis money! Help him out!!!!!!

Books aren't cheap you know!

So, my b-day is August 15th and I'm trying to hand out with my friend and stuff. I don't know how I will feel because IRL I am nit getting ANYTHING.

I'm not in trouble kr anything, just because I wanted my tablet early, but still sucks though. This b-day is gonna suck gift wish because nothing special is gonna happen....

I would like gift art perhaps, of course not obligated to do so, but it would be nice. I'm not the greatest person ever, but I have my embarrassing moments. I really hope I at least get something~

Other than that, I'm happy to be alive and turn 18 Monday. I hope I survive til then.

If you wanna talk to me and stuff, add my skype. It's in my profile info near my profile ID.

Yup.prepare for a super long updated,

And lots of cookies and Pizza Pup brand pizza from work!

So, I've gotten a lot of hate over my time on FA and recently, not really just because Kazma exists. Aside from him, what am I taking about? I'm talking about people who say and do stuff to me then just never speak to me again. So here it goes.

1) The "criticizer." This person will go on your page or even talk to you in private and say your sonas aren't cool enough, they are bland, and they just aren't appealing. They have no purpose of being in your business and I actually like my non fetish characters more than the wines who are fetish!

2) The "constant fav but no watch because you don't deserve it." Yeah, I was told I don't deserve a watch from some people and they fav my stuff every time I make a new submission. They watch Kazma's account, but not mine....how does that make sense. When Kazma left, they left their watch on his account and only fav on my main account. I guess a whole lot of people are picky, ya know? Even though Kazma and I re the same user....

3) the "overreacter." This user just blows up on you because (and these are real circumstances), I beat them in Smash Bros or a video game, we have nothing in common, and I get requests easier and said I won't be telling anyone anymore. These people unwatched me, said I never went to speak to you again, and blocked me. Nit sure why it happened but it's their fault for being overreacted.

4) the "User." This person will strictly use you for art. I have been asked do I do free art requests and strictly made a journal I don't draw and won't tell anyone where to find it. And others wait til I talk to an artist to get art. I won't start on it again. Tht journal sailed a long time ago.

5) me finally what I can think of as of now. The "unwatcher for no reason" I dislike this one. You both watch each other, and suddenly out of nowhere, he or she unwatched you and will never answer. I won't even go further...total people who unwatched so far is 83.

Not sure what to do this year because my mom got me a tablet and I asked for it early. So no b-day gift except a card.... XP

Haha! Its ok! I just think this hear will be the most plain birthday ever. The only exciting thing I that me and my friends plan to go out. Hopefully the whole day. Maybe!

Anyway! I just wanna say my b-day is August 15th and prepare for a long journal on that day!

This whole summer and towards the end of my Junior year (since mid May), I've been getting a lot of watches, skype requests, and a few people willing to do things for me. Draw my characters, be my friend, and actually taking time to talk to me.

Did I do something to get all this? Lately, I've been feeling upbeat about everything lately. I'm nit sad when I work anymore, I'm not getting sad easily. Self-esteem went up the roof during the whole summer, going out with my friends, and other stuff. This freedom feels great and I can't describe it. It feels so good! I have no idea what to do.

Since I hit two requests, some people really like my stuff and I like to just post whatever.

Thanks guys and girls, is there anything to answer this question? I seriously have no answer~

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/pepito34226/

He has a few pics, but I do think he deserves some support and stuff. I just met him now amd wanna help him out and want others to notice his art.

I personally like it and he needs more attention.

I just wanna know.

My characters, one individual character, me s a person, or whatever.

I would like to know so I can see what you want more of.

I know I've been a little worrisome and dramatic lately, but imma pretend I never posted those journals.

Kazma is fine as is. I'm ok now. But I do wanna redo my profile page. Had it for a long time and need to update characters of mine and stuff.

So don't worry about me. I'll be ok!

I was just thinking of how quiet or non social I have been lately. I know I'm nit always on the mind/my mind, but it wouldn't hurt to talk as a collective group. I like you guys, I think hall are cool, and thanks fir supporting me and continuing to support me.

So, how's everyone doing? Well, I hope.

My birthday is August 15th,wanted to add that in.

Ok... I officially turn 18 on August 15th. I literally wont get anything for my birthday because my mom gave me my tabket in March because I wanted it then. So I don't know what or how to celebrate. I literally wont receive anything except a happy birthday. Kinda boring b-day it will be.

It's be nice to get something, never have, but won't force anyone to. It's just getting something for my b-day will be exciting at least.

Ok.... was my 300th watcher. Thanks so much. It means a lot. (Once I announce, somebody has to unwatch with no warning or notice and no reason just to make things difficult....). This means the raffle can start and one winner will be chosen. I choose one because the reason is coming later in the journal. I have never done a raffle before so I don know what to expect. All I know is that I will screenshoot the number and post on FA. I'm really sorry for only having one winner, but this is the reason.....

I'm in so much fatigue after work. I guess because my position requires me to go outside and get karts. It's burning up out there, I drink 2 bottles of water every 20-30 mins. My throat gets dry, but in the end, I get paid for it. The reason I am only doing one is because the trades I do last a while. Work puts me to sleep when I get home. I literally collapse at times because it's so tedious. It really isnt all that hard, but the heat drains me so much. I worked Saturday, Sunday, and I work this Wednesday and Saturday. I can't go out with my friend because if this. I am glad I can only work weekends once August hits since I have soccer practice and school starts at the end of August (I attend a Christian school so we start kinda early).

I am really sorry to disappoint. I know you expected more from me, but my body juet can't do it. I barely have time to do things I want because I'm so tired. Today, imma try to type a brand new story (with my characters and the whole storyline) and finish it this time. I need some "Kazakado time" to do things myself. I'm really sorry my fatigue caused this, but at least the raffle is still on, ok?

I will write the numbers in a journal. First, I'll write in my notebook full of story ideas and rip that page out.

I know you all like Kazma just because he's fat and pretty much a lot of you only kmow me because of the random creation of Kazma. I mean, some people knew me for a year but never knew Ty. When Kazma came, then they suddenly knew me and wanted to talk to me.

Well, that's not the case! I'm making Kazma fit for ME! I don't want to listen to everyone about making him my main character. So imma cut it short! Some things will change, something's will stay.

1) Though, Kazma is a fetish character, I don't want him to strictly be 100% fetish. I know, I like him too. I told people I dislike him, but now I'm growing to like Kazma a lot more. What I would like, is that this is Kazma's standard size. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20043900/

2) I don't think anyone sees the connection between Ty and Kazma as long as Kazma is alone. When they were both in a picture, it made me happier because I'm nit singling them out. The negative part was that when they are both together, only one person said something about Ty, and the other 20 something people only commented about Kazma.

3) I thought Kazma having his own account would be fun. I really only did it to get popularity and so that I could RP freely with a character others enjoy. Now that I see it, it was wrong. Because of this, I am highly considering about closing Kazma's account in general. Not because its him, but also I don't feel like logging in and out at times due to tiredness.

4) Lastly, sorry all you fat fur enthusiasts, but Kazma will NOT be a main sona. Ty will forever be my main, and Kazma will have fewer art posted. I plan to make Ty,Kenta, and the Guardians my main pics now. Just because Kazma isn't a main, doesn't mean I'm getting rid of him. Someone all ready tried to steal Kazma from me and take everything mental, physical, and emotional feature. It isn't cool bro, so don't get that idea guys. I'm just showing what I want of Kazma since he is mine.

NOTE: New art of Kazma is only going to happen if people draw him on their own accord or if I find a fat fur artist who does trades/requests. Other than that, he won't be here as much, and I most likely won't do a trade about Kazma. Sorry guys, but I think it's about time I do things my way.

Tell me what you think! Respect the decisions, hate the decisions, or even just neutral? Be honest and harsh guys. Thanks!

He and I were talking on and it's getting worse! has a tip jar! He is in Brazil and having a really bad time. Please help him out! It makes me feel bad I can't do anything but talk to him. He needs food to survive and his job is used for bills, and other stuff,but he has no money to buy food. Can y'all please help him out. I am comforting him, but its hard to talk to him when I know he's dying and feeling dizzy/miserable.

He has a rip jar. Go on his page and click the tip jar link!

I know I have been complaining/ranting/"venting" and stuff, but understand that a lot of stress has built in.

Since I hung out with my friend (no, she and I are not eating) last Tuesday,ibe been feeling better and wanting to be more active.

I think being with friends makes my morale go up. I'm sorry if I haven't been responding as much on Skype/telegram/or Kik. I just wasn't into online activity this whole summer vacation.

I promise to never be this way again. I know a few were worried about me. Surprised that even I came into people's minds without me asking if saying anything to you. I am a lot better than this and I can do better. I will do better.

Activity will most likely maintain to being here everyday but not commenting immediately like I use to.

I gotta catch up on some stuff. See y'all when you comment!

Rules!!!!!!!!!!

1) I will start once I hit 300 watchers!
2) The winners will be determined at random on a random number generator!
3) A journal will get you another spot/number
4) IF you win, one sona of mine has to be in it (I do that so the winner and myself gets more publicity)
5) YOU MUST BE WATCHING TO ENTER!!!!!!!! IF YOU UNWATCH, I WILL CALL YOU OUT IN PUBLIC!!!!!!!

Rule 4.5) You CANNOT have one sona be in more than one person's pics. Ty is only allowed in one, or none, you choose the sona of mine you want in.

What else......SPREAD IN JOURNALS! And post a ref of your character or whoever you want in it for a 3rd number~

Note: I don't care who you are, I'm not placing favorites, it isn't cool and I'll screen shoot these, don't worry!

Raffle!!!!! GO! And it will start when I hit 300 watchers! So you have time f your busy, but get a spot now!

I can't decide how many winners because it's kinda early, will add that later!

I was gonna do a 300 watcher raffle for the 1st time. I have 281 watchers right now, but I wanna get requests (art better than mine), and I have a few to spare!

So there would be 5 winners if 20 enter, 8 if 30 enter. 11 if 40 enter, and add 3 and 10 on over.

Send your refs if you are interested. I will explain detail if you guys are interested and get enough comments.

Its just exciting for some reason! I like toast.

I know this summer has been going bad for me so far. Family issues, and restrictions I'm betting during school for unknown reasons I'm unaware of, but I think it'll get better.

I know work is killing me, but it's my first job and stuff. All jobs can be stressful and confusing at times. I wanna thanks the people who commented and or helped GREATLY!

It's not like me to be moved so easily when I know everything isn't my fault. But those who helped so much, like the most!

My sister (IRL), Mom (we had a talk and she made me feel at ease, I over exaggerate a lot of things),

Oh my gosh, I can't thank y'all enough! You 5 are hardcore FAM to me!

Ok! At my house, we are literally at the peak of the worst. I love all my family, bt my oldest bro who lives in the house can do whatever he wants and tells mom what she wants to hear. My sister is now a vegan and my mom thinks she's crazy because now she suddenly plays video games too since her boyfriend does, my other brother who is younger than my Sis is never home and doesn't have anything to do with the house escort going to work and sleeping. My next brother who is next to me in age is just there and really has anger issues. And I'm the youngest and mom doesn't trust me for anything because I act hyper and immature at times. She never sees the good in me! And since I'm the youngest of the whole family if 7 brothers/sisters, I have to get punished for everything they do!

To start off, mom said I can't play sports this year because she thinks I hate sports. I don't think watching pros play helps me. It doesn't. She says I don't care because I don't watch it. And since everyone in the family loves basketball, and I like soccer/hockey more, she's now saying I use sports as a social event. I got the most improved in varsity basketball last year. Most spirited in 8th grade JV, most defensive in JV, and in soccer, I got, Most improved 7th and 8th grade, and most defensive in 10th grade.

She still says I hate sports or claims it. And now she says I can't do ANYTHING! at all this school yesr because she wants my grades to be straight A's cuz I'm a senior this year in high school. Sports made my grades better because it gave me a reason to study more. And encouraged me to study more!

So now, everyday my Sister takes me to work, I talk to her about what to do. My mom wants everyone out the house because of personal I can't say. She said she wants me to stay because I'm 17 and has to, but why am I being punished for stuff that involves my family!

And since I just got back from work, I have no idea anymore! My Manager told me to stock shelves, but as a Courtesy Clerk, that isn't my job. He didn't want to do it because he was gonna clock out. I was suppose to work til 11, but the schedule said 10. I got off at ten so I don't know whats gonna happen. I got in the car and my sister said I'm freezing too much to the point where I'm crying for no reason and thinking about Mom and my manager. I don't want to leave a job unfinished, but my mom said if it something you're not suppose to do, then say no, or don't do it. Now that it happened, I was really guilty on what to do or say. My co-worker, who was on break the same time I was, said the people here are taking advantage of me. Solely because I'm the youngest, and the lowest of all positions. She said don't let them get to you. I can't help it if I wanna do whatever my manager tells me, but I quit what he told me 2 mins after doing it. I hate thinking about it but Everytime i just start to cry and think of what I did. He told me to say til 11 which is worse. I have no idea what to do.

I need serious help and advice from ANYBODY right now. I don't care who, just need lots of help, advice, opinions on what I should do. Please spread the word because this is a the heaviest crisis I've ever been in ever. Please spread in journals or however you can.

Talk to me on Skype or wherever if you wanna know how I really feel. I just don't see me ever being how I was before now that I work at Farm Fresh.

The past few months, I've been noticing a huge Domino effect.

People I talked to sometimes, now just completely cut me off, but still talk to others who they talk to. I am not sure why literally more than half the people I to cut me off, and to top it off, they all stopped at the same time. Did I do something wrong of some sort? Am I not aware of something. I can't talk all the time during the school year because I almost failed chemistry (ended with a 77 C-). And I just dont get why thisnis happening. My whole summer so far sucked because of family issues and stuff going on, but tons of people cutting me off? What did I do to deserve this? Some of those people, I got gifts for so we can talk more and knkw each other better. I'm so confused on how this is happening. If there is a reason, just say it, be honest and brutal as possible. Say it! If it's too personal or brutal, Skype message me (fat_feraligator), but if it's not, just tell me! Seriously! If I am doing something wrong, I want to stop and do what I can to help to be your friend.

I am asking because it seems you guys have an interest of both characters. Though the newer pics of Ty have been less favorable I noticed. Anyway, I see that Kazma is getting more love and stuff.

I obviously know that Kazma is fat, but at the same time, Ty has a WAY better and more interesting back story. Kazma just came out my head and BOOM! He is a favorite now. That's why most people have been watching me lately is because of Kazma. I like Kazma too, but I just don't want Kazma to get as many watchers of here.

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Tell me who is more favorable in your opinion, and IF you can, please tell why.

I know requests, people can get greedy and stuff, but just learn to calm down. I was really explosive because I care the artists themselves. Just don't be rude and mean and stuff.

I know the people who do, but I know they don't realize it. I really care for those two especially because they're nice to me. So, don't take offense to last journal if you know who you were.

Seriously!

Sorry to be explosive, but lemme explain!

Ever since these two pics: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19203805/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19628253/ I noticed a HUGE Domino effect!

No one has EVER heard of those artists before until I post something that they drew. Sis--> , only know me before the request I wanted. Then! Literally! 3 to 5 of my watchers suddenly go to her once they fav my post, and get art from her 1 day later. It's just bouncing off me. We all do it time to time, maybe some are just desperate, and some I can understand and have pity for them because they have no pics, but these people who did it are people who fav everything of mine and or comment on everything actually have art and stuff. What kills me, is that Snow and I talk daily, and some asked her for more than one request! And then asked for 6 pages of requests, so 6 different requests at once! It's so rude! I asked for one! And did a trsde for all the others. One of them she said no big deal and just did it as a request instead.

And the one with Ty in the Pizza Pup uniform, everyone swarmed her and no one asked how she was doing. It kills me to see how cold and heartless some of you guys are because she just finished my request (and I was talking to her other than the request itself, like are you doing ok?), and 10 people got pieces from her.

What kills me in the end, is that I actually go out my way to talk to people and befriend them because they are nice people. If they say no to a request, then so be it! I don't push on! Just quit asking! If I cant have a request, then I talk and be nice to them! Even thought I can't get one, I want to show my kindness and being fine with no request. A request isn't everything!

I feel somewhat taken advantage of, cuz one person went up to me and said MORE THAN 10 PEOPLE SAID THAT "Ty knows how to get requests. Ask him. He gets a lot." Not verbatim!, But more than 10 told k e person to get me and tell them. First of all, I het art because I'm nice and gibe a good approach. Sometimes the person is just bored and wants to do it. And some of them are trades....not requests.

I just hate how everyone looks at me to give them answers and the low down of where to find requests. A lot of them are friends who I ask and I talk to most of them daily.

Sorry to throw people under the bus, but you know who y'all are.

So when I get art, don't just fav my part, and or see it and not fav it, and then immediately go to the artist and beg for a request. Cuz it's rude and wrong. And messed up because I basically did the talking for you. I am not telling anybody anymore where to find requests anymore cuz some of you use me for that and that only! Talk to me on Skype if you wanna know more. I'm just so sick of being advantage taken!

P.S. Thanks for the talk on Skype last night about this.