So a new year, a new journal entry to show that I'm alive at least.

so many things have happened to me over just a short amount it time it seems. maybe it wasn't all that short it felt like forever; forgive me for sounding a bit like an insane black woman from time to time when I just type for the hell of it or think that somebody some where is actually reading my crap I call a journal, or even anything else trying my best to put my thoughts into better forms of words than just letter vomit.

but more or less I can't avoid the letter vomit, and pronouns and punctuation isn't my thing when I type I know the English languages is beautiful to most but to me its just a tool to communicate. if it's someone speaking from their own mind speak, stopping them to try and tell them how awful and terrible their English is isn't exactly my way of thinking. ( but for fuck whatever people are people )

Every year you grow a year older ( of course you do that's dumb to say that its common sense )

I'm 22 with not even close to a life crisis, more or less just a lazy human being just more or less living in this world without much of a thought for anything else, I suppose i keep trailing off and on my subjects again. What i'm trying to get at here is I question if people have more to them than just what I've always been told through out my life, that more or less just judgmental and nit-picky and actually sorta just think.. but I guess i'm blabbing about nothing. Its just how the world works isn't it like why post a journal to see if anyone cares about what i have to say, one human being in the world with self conscious issues they should work out themselves, about life just in general about anything. I think i have too many questions for myself and others to try and even finish this thing, and more or less i'm not making any sense at all, i'm not being like a person who's trying to say nobody loves me.

I'm trying to understand how this world works. and question if anyone is more or less just confused as i am or if i'm just another loser on the internet being stupid as all hell typing out journals because i'm desperate or fuck if i know ( I'm more confused then desperate ) and i suppose because i rather hear ( read ) something from another human being once in a while, because looking for acceptance or some shit or something.

(lets just go i want to see if anyone cares more or less some people don't some do)

I'll probably just delete my account sometime, not seeing the point now a days.


( be back next year )

If I started up commisions, would anyone even be interested..?

the more comments i have is more or less changing my mind about not doing any.

Yeah... I have a really bad virus on skype...

everything else is ok, just not skype.

so I can't really be on and things on skype anymore, if anyone has somethnig that they use other than skype im open to suggestions.


Oh and to those that wanted to add me or have added me sorry if you got it.
I just got really depressed after some people that i thought were my oldest friends got pissed when they got the virus so i sortta.. tryed to delete my account.


( cause i mean i shredded the skype file, viruse scanned de fraged and really everything.. but the virus is just stuck going strong.. or something.. >n<;; )

so yeah...

Weird, all of my journal headers carried over from deviant art, not gonna get used to it thought it was creepy for 4 mintues; over it now.

sooner or later i'm going to be less of a protaginist and more of a worker bee, eventually... before I die.

untill then enjoy my spam of random non sense while i try to stay sane living with my fiance's family till were ready to move on ith our lives :'>


might be a little later for that


Giggles

ignore me for i am getting used to FA again somuchfailotl

Haven't updated anything in a long while, so i figured i would do some of the things i do and don't do in a journal or something and maybe one day i'll have myself more organized to do commissions and such :)



Do's , DON'Ts and ThE MAYBEs



DOs

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I do do trades ( but with people i am actually close with )

random surprise pictures ( for peoples who's characters i like the most that or i just can't help doodle at times )

OC's ( all the time )

Dirty works :'D (  shadow_sheepz is back online and up cause i remembered the log in info finally )




DON'Ts

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Requests ( again have to be a close friend or someone i've known for a long time )

Porn with my two main fursonas ( cat and a sheep and i just wont the two sheep are ok )



MAYBEs

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Commissions ( just feel like i should work on my skills for now more of my organization )

Need to stop staying up till 9 AM drawing things DX

i hope my children don't have this curse one day..

not all that new :3

believe me..