I tried to make peace. I tried to make someone see reason. I tried to show I wasn't coming back. So now that being Mr. Nice Guy isn't panning out, I'm whipping out my trump card. And it is as follows.

I'm gone. I will no longer operate on FA or any other site where I have the slightest chance of being contacted by my stalker. This is for his own good. I'm closing this chapter in my life and will put FA behind me as I move onto something different. Something where I'm not constantly being pursued hopelessly by someone who can't take a hint or see passed his ego enough to realize that his shit does indeed stink like the rest of ours.

Farewell everyone. Have a nice life without me and I wish almost all of you a successful life.

I'm putting my foot down right here and now. Specifically because of a certain feline who despite all my efforts will not simply let me go and move on. No names will be used, you know who the hell you are. I've said what's needed to be said and made my peace, now respect my wishes and please...LEAVE. ME. THE HELL. ALONE!!!

I'm getting sick to death of you pestering others to send me messages. I'm tired of seeing hateful comments left on said friends works in the hopes that I'll see it. I have an ace in my sleeve that will be played if you keep this up ye-who-will-not-be-named. I promise it's a doozy, and if you incur it I highly doubt you'll enjoy it one bit.

So this is my message. Leave Jeremy alone. Leave Soline alone. Leave Wolf-9 alone. Leave Grey alone. But most importantly: leave me alone. I'm done just sitting back and watching this happen. Stop it. Stop all of it. I will not deny that we had some good times, but you've hurt me one too many times and I'm not going to get involved with it anymore. I have a life. I'm attending college, trying to find a job with a dumbshit governor who's 48th in job creation in the country, and I have family issues currently going on. I don't need you adding to this pile of crap on my desk.

And to what you said before, I have never said nor do I believe myself to be perfect. I openly admit my flaws, anybody who knows me would say that. So don't go shoving words in my mouth. Now please, stop pestering me and everyone around me. We're done. Just move on without me in your life and try and make the most of it. I'm not trying to burn a bridge so much as I am closing my end down. And to those not involved please don't throw any logs onto this fire, I'm already trying my best to handle it.

 bjkgreywolf has asked me very nicely to do this, and I feel it is my duty to help advertise for  badwing and  sukanar, especially the latter. From what I've read, something has happened to her husband that requires surgery, and thus far she hasn't even hit 1/10th of what she needs. Her prices are cheap, and even if you can't purchase anything from her, then please do what I'm doing and advertise for her in a journal if possible. So please, do what you can to help. Also Grey I apologize for copy and pasting what you wrote, but it was the simplest way and I thought all the info you provided was good on its own.

Male and female calendars by Badwing:

Please! Please go to her journal and check this out! It's an amazing idea that seems to be getting over looked by so many!

She is going to be doing tasteful pin-up style nude calendars, one all male characters and one all female characters.
Slots will be $20 for a month of your choice with a predetermined theme. For those who buy a slot to be in the calendar, you will get $5 off the price of the calendar itself. Calendars will be $25

Please read here for more details: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3608197/
There are some rules to this so please be sure to read carefully!!!

This idea needs people to sign up and buy slots in order for it to go through! So take some time to read it over and maybe even tell a friend or two, as every bit of help counts!

Arctic fox adoptable by Badwing:

If by chance you might be interested in adoptables, Badwing has an Arctic fox that has been over looked by so many! It is still up for grabs for only $15 and can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8128077/

Even if you aren't interested, tell a friend who might be! I know there are plenty of you out there who buy adoptables, some by the dozens so at least give her a look and tell a friend!

Commissions, Adoptables, MLP and contest by Sukanar:

Sukanar has a lot available so here are a few links to what she has to offer. she is trying to earn money to help cover her husbands surgery bill so please, every bit counts!

Commissions:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3586368/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3565488/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3583407/

Adoptables/MLP:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3580880/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3610141/

Contest:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3613906/

I know this is throwing a lot of information at you but if you are interested, have questions, or anything else, feel free to note her and ask! She wont bite, I swear!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3449023/

My wonderful friend iconsoline: is holding an art/story contest, so feel free to enter, check it out, or even advertise on your own page if you see fit

...is an island in a sea of crap. That's what describes my birthday this year, which is tomorrow. Yesterday I had my wound looked at, which is from a surgery that took place in March...of 2011...Then after that I had a cavity filled. Now I just got back from the orthodontist and had my upper wisdom teeth removed. And all next week, every single final project, save for one, is due for every class...I don't know what force made this happen, but whoever it is it isn't funny in the slightest.

But there's some good news at least. I've been watching an old series that I loved as a kid and am falling in love with all over again. And that show has inspired yet another character, which is really just a different version of another I have, but she's her own character, as well as some stories. I've gotten done two already and am wrapping up the third. I should be posting them soon once I finish the fourth story where more of my usual subjects will flourish, since my conscious would kill me and dump me in the river if I went out of character with the subject matter.

Anyway, I'm trying my best to smile through the gauze in my cheeks, but I'll make it through this just fine. I'll probably post the first story in the series soon just to tease everyone, save for a certain wolf who I already showed it to. Have a nice day everyone and thanks for reading!

I hope everybody has a very Merry Christmas, and a Happy Holidays to all those who don't celebrate Christmas wherever you may be.

Yeah, this is just something to bump the last journal and to ensure I haven't been hit by a car or anything bad like that. I've been busy with my usual procrastination and other crap like that, but I'm going to be very busy working on holiday stories for the three major ones approaching (Major in America anyway): Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. I'm keeping the final two confidential unless you're a close friend, but the Halloween one I will let you know about.

Since Shane's got a massive family in his Pokemon, kids, etc., the massive home he lives in will be all spruced up for the occasion. However, a few...rather mischievous residents, have other plans for the house and everyone inside. Essentially this will be my attempt at a horror story, but you needn't worry, nobody's going to die, I'm not like that...or am I? *Laughs maniacally, then yelps*

June: Quit being a dumbass and finish the journal.

Ow! Ok ok!!...You could really use some anger management classes you know that? *Gets kicked in the groin and collapses* Owie...alright...another thing...I'm kind've hitting one of my artist droughts...my creative spark in that department has gone out for the time being and I'm not sure just when it'll be back, so please just bare with me in that aspect.

So yeah, that's pretty much it for now. Take care everyone and thank you for reading.

I know I've said before that I've calmed down, but now I just got riled up again by none other than my own father of all people. This life I have on here I keep the Great Wall of China between it and my real life, so when the recent feelings I got from news from  soline I had to shroud why I truly was upset. I put it up behind the fact that my best friend was leaving for college life. But he's not that far away and is going to come back every other weekend, so I didn't get that emotional over it. I have a lot of theories on what's wrong with me, mainly mentally and based off of just speculation. There are things I know I am, pessimistic, paranoia, and I'm sure, deep down, mildly depressed. Then there's other things I'm sure that I have, being separation anxiety, bi-polar, and split personality disorder. I know this just sounds me listing all of my woes and issues, but I've been letting all of this pile up for so long and I need to get them off my chest.

I usually just take all of the hits and roll with the punches, like my fursona does, but one of these days I just know I'm going to snap. I keep thinking about it and thinking about it. Just what I'm going to say and when I'm going to do it, but they all just get stored in the back and I never say them at all. I'm just scared of what's going to happen when and if I do, of what's going to happen if what I do here is discovered...I'm afraid of the world. I have horrible time management skills, I'm a lazy, procrastinating bastard, and my own worst enemy is my guilt. I beat myself up more than anyone else could in a life time, and yet my dad constantly goes on putting me through guilt trips and uses them to make me feel bad, all in the hopes that it'll make me a better person. Massive *Bleep*ing help that is. I do one little thing wrong and he's always on me for it.

What just fuels my fears that despite I'm a clone of my father look-wise, we share almost nothing in common other than our taste in music and sense of humor. He's a car guy, I don't know a damn thing about them; he enjoys the outdoors, I'm content to stay inside; he was social and tried to make friends, I'm an anti-social clam who just wants to be left alone. Yet my brother shares all of these traits with him, most of them anyway, but he's been getting to be an even bigger pain in the ass lately with his general attitude. Always arguing, always taking the other side of a conversation just to piss me off...I just want to get as far away from him as possible.

On top of all of this is my horrible luck. In video games and life, luck has always been a thorn in my side, a tormentor. My philosophy is that Fate is the one who sets up the course of your life, putting set obstacles in the way at set times in your life to test who you are and what you believe in. Then luck comes along and is a total a-hole who makes the obstacles nearly impossible to get around and seeks enjoyment out of suffering.

I'm tired of all of this, I want to change myself but I don't know where to start or how to go about doing it. All I know is that somewhere I need to change, whether it be on the inside or out. But just how many things I beat myself up for...it's too much. Every little flaw, every little mistake that I make. I mean, it makes me second-guess everything, including this very journal. My thought process was 'Oh don't write it, nobody's going to care or bother reading about your problems.' But I have to force myself to think otherwise, and believe in my friends that they care that much for me, enough to read several paragraphs of me complaining about my life and my problems, and so if you actually do read all of this than I can't thank you enough.

I don't care what they say about instant gratification and how you'll never fully appreciate it. If I were to wake up and find my dream had come true I would cherish every moment of it and live it to the fullest. I have so many things that I want to do...I doubt myself that I'll be able to accomplish them all, but I want to try. I know I said that I was getting better...but right now and for a very long time I've had the mindset of a 50's housewife in America. I hide my dispositions and just put them aside in the hopes that I can make every one of my friends happy, and even now that I address the problem and say it flat out I know that aspect of me won't change a bit. Now I should probably get some sleep before I pass out and get some sleep. Have a nice day/afternoon/evening everyone.

Well, sorry to tell everyone but I'm dead, my new friend Grim here is letting me type this up so everyone knows what happened to me.

June: *Kicks Shane in the crotch and washes the flour off of him* Shane shut the hell up! That's just Nova in his Halloween costume! *Tears off the hood as the Gallade gulps*

Nova: I'm...going to leave now. *Dashes off*

June: *Angrily pulls Shane to his feet and growls.* Now, get your head out of your ass and do a real journal or Bethany's going to tear you to shreds!!

*Gulps and whimpers* A-alright alright!!...I-I was just trying to have a little fun...Umm...s-sorry about that, but I'm really just fine, there's nothing happening at all right now and in an hour I'm guessing we'll get hit with the tail rain of the hurricane. I'm unharmed...save for my privates...but looks like I'm in the clear. 0835 Eastern time (8:35 a.m.) at time of journal.

Ok, I'm still doing good. The rain's been fluctuating as well as the wind, but I'm fine. I do feel bad however for the news reporters being sent out into this crap, pisses me off that they're putting them in harms way, no matter how mild the storm seems. 2317 Eastern time (11:17 p.m.) at time of journal

Still alright here, but the rain's still coming strong. Though, now there's a tornado forming in Atlantic City and has a possibility of coming here, so that's got me scared. I'll update if things get more urgent or another hour passed. 2134 Eastern time (9:34 p.m.) at time of posting

Ok, rain's gotten harder and it's gotten darker than usual here, but regardless there's been no lightning or anything else threatening, so I'm still ok. 1923 Eastern time (7:23 p.m.) at time of update

Ok, it's been raining for roughly an hour now, but everyone in my house is alright. There's been hardly any winds, no storms, just rain. It is 1700 Eastern Standard time at this report, so far so good. Let's hope I don't lose power. Take care everyone.

Well, I've tried to put on a brave face, but even with everyone's reassurance I'm scared crapless from this hurricane. Other than the small aftershock that struck me this is one of the first natural disasters that I've been through. I'm watching the news now and it says that it'll be just a category one, thank God, but it's still got me worried. What I'm going to attempt to do is release periodic updates through the storm to let everyone know I'm ok, so don't be mad if you get 5 journals from me in a day. I hope to see you all come Monday when the storm's passed. And to all my fellow furs on the East coast I wish you all the best of luck and hope nothing bad happens. This is Shane Simmons, signing off...hopefully not permanently...*whimpers*

I'm well....that is all....
















*Gets slapped by June* YEEOWCH!! Ok I'm just kidding!! Anyways, just thought that I should inform everyone that I'm currently getting back into the swing of my coloring, I've got a picture in the works that a certain panthress I know of will like, then after that comes something for my twin, and possibly something special for my pack. Also in the list of things to come...an ID. I could probably use one, so I'm going to attempt to draw all forms of my fursona Shane, which is a whopping 16 in total. They include regular Shane, Shanette, Mightyena, Poochyena, Avian, Robotic, Teenage, Baby, Pegasus, Fish, Feral, Micro, and then there are new ones that I'm making official, including a Macro form, a recently added bunny form, and two surprise forms that are top secret. One of them is inspired by a movie, not naming it but it's family orientated, and the final one is something I've only joked about, but it's stuck with me so I've decided to keep it, and I'm sure it'll get some people giggling, calling me a twit, or licking their lips.

In addition to that, which will be on the bottom of my list due to A) How big it'll be and B) I have priorities, I'm doing a few MLP works. One is fully sketched, another halfway, and one that's not even started yet unfortunately. Then there's a birthday present I thought of and just have to draw...so yeah, me working myself like a slave driver as usual. And what makes matters worse is that I go to College in 26 days, which also sucks, but in a way it's good because usually I'd have 6 hrs 25 mins for a school day, but at most I think I'll only have 4 hrs. And on top of all of that, I have stories I'm going to work on, combine all of this with a lazy habit that would make even Leonardo DaVinci turn up his nose...and I'll be done all of this by this time next year...Ok I'm not THAT bad, but I still can be pretty bad.

And the ending note: commissions. I might open them up. $2-3 sketch commissions and $5-7 story commissions. Sketches are simple enough, but my dilemma is with stories, because if it's too short I don't think I should charge so much, but if it gets to be too long then I think I should be ok. Tell me what you think of that idea please, I'd like feedback on this to determine if I should or not. Thank you to those who read all of this, if you didn't due to length or my dumb joke I don't blame you. Have a nice day!

 solarfalcon Is doing them. I know you've probably seen it already, but still, feel free to check it out if you like.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2576543/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2532227/

 rikkusguardian is doing a contest for hyper males and herms, so since I was curious, I'm entering my Gallade Nova into it. Well, I hope to. So if you'd like to check it out then go ahead, or know someone that you think would want to and let them know.

Story commissions that is, I don't consider myself good enough for art commissions, unless some people think that, but with me not in the coloring swing of things at the moment it doesn't look like that'll happen soon. Anyway, what I planned on doing was $1-$1.50 for the first five pages, then $.25-$.50 for each page after that. I don't really have a PayPal at the moment, but I'll work on that. So if you're interested or think I should go ahead and do it then let me know. I might also work in a deal where if you buy one you get the second half off, just to entice people to come back for more and also show others my work. So, just let me know if I should or shouldn't open up story commissions, and if I do, please be patient though, I'm a lazy person but I'll devote priority to commissions over my own work. And if the prices sound unfair then please let me know, I'm not good with this sorta thing.

Stupid title, not caring. Point is I'm about ready to blow. I've taken just about all that I can from my family. This is supposed to be a relaxing vacation that I'm on, well it had been up until today. Something I never want to do is go on a boat. Why? I'm a paranoid pessimist, you do the math. I'm always afraid that SOMEthing will happen, just like when I was little I'd always be afraid someone would break into my house in the middle of the night and kill everyone. And today they tried bugging me to go on. My grandmother was the only one who actually honored my decision and left me be after asking once. My mother and father are the biggest offenders. My dad's always saying that if I don't want to go somewhere I don't have to, and yet he gives me his famous "Regrets" speech where he tells me I'll regret not doing it. Well I won't, I never intended to come to Tennessee and go on a boat, I came to relax and hang out with family among other things. The only things in life that I actually regret was not starting Basketball or Drama club earlier in my life, that's it. My mom's fine with it now, but my dad got pissed when he called and found out I'm by myself. I'm 18 and can make my own f***ing decisions now. I may look like him, but I'm not him, that's something he's failing to realize. Some people like to be adventurous and try new things, I'm not like that, I enjoy sticking to the norm and do what I like. The biggest risk in life that I've taken was when I raced someone and ran across the street without looking at all, that's it. My main problem is communication. I'm a horrible talker, both in conversation and talking about my feelings/issues. I always think that you should avoid negative things to talk about, very 50's of me, but it's just how I am.

I'm sorry if this seems like me ranting or if my negative attitude is rubbing off on some, but I'm trying not to bottle things up anymore and right now I don't have anyone to talk to. If you bothered reading thank you, if not I don't blame you.

...school's almost over, only three more weeks!! It'll free up a hell of a lot more time for me to do jack squat!.....Just kidding. But here's my issue, and that's I've lost my ability to color. Well, not so much my ability, but my want to color. I've got sketches piling up that are now somewhere in the thirties by my guess (some of which are private, but still). And none of them are getting colored anytime soon. I mean Christ, I still got sketches from about a year ago that haven't been touched! It's hair-pullingly frustrating! But I digress, this is mainly just another update to prove I've got a pulse.

I'm really getting pissed at my brain though. Have you ever known someone who just won't shut their flippin' mouth? Well that's what my brain is now. It keeps coming up with all of these story and picture ideas, when I'm already bogged down with only God knows how much work! Finals start the 12th, graduate 17th, need to study so I don't get a downhill for my final moments of this school, and my brain's telling me to start yet another freaking story. I've got one at 98% that will be up shortly, but we're talking about a jackass who attempts to put a whole buffet on one plate here.

I thank you for reading about my recent issues, and you'll be glad to know that my spirits are rising like an elevator. I'll try to get rid of this coloring hump soon, but other than that I'm pretty much problem free. Well, have a nice day!

Tagged by  diamonddragon

The rules:
1)You must post these rules
2)Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on there journal.
3)You have to choose & tag 10 people & post there icons on the same journal.
4)Go to there pages & tell them you tagged them.

1. I'm probably the shyest, most quiet person you'd ever meet in real life
2. I'll do anything for a true friend
3. I've almost been hit by half a dozen cars in my life
4. I'm always paranoid about anything that could potentially go wrong. i.e. the bridge I'm driving on collapses or a plane I'm in goes down
5. I've never broken a bone in my life
6. I hate myself whenever I don't do something I set out to do...like freaking color some pictures! -_-
7. I make a big deal out of everything, mainly things I have no control over.
8. I have a really bad temper sometimes, which was the root that I used to make Enash
9. I can't stand bands who get rocketed to fame.
10. I've got a massive secret that only one other person knows and I intend to keep it that way

And I tag nobody, only those who want to actually do this.

I'm having a battle within myself, and there are so many things going on that I don't know who's winning, it all just mushes up and makes me feel weird. I'm fighting to get out of my titanium coccoon that is my nervous and shyness, and it's only getting cracks, I just don't know how to get out of it. Then there's my fight with my body, I want to get in shape, but with my surgery's aftermath ther I still can't do much, so that's bugging me. And finally, there's my final boss of problems, and that's the twins Laziness and Procrastination. These two are my biggest weaknesses, I want to do so much, I have so many thoughts and ideas and promises, but I just can't do them. It must be buried in my genes somewhere, because this is just one hill that I can't climb over for some reason. I hate it so much, and I want to change myself, but I'm making about as much progress as a turtle going uphill. And on top of all this, my parents keep bugging me about scholarships, to which my procrastination kicks in, I don't get sh** done, get yelled at, and even more stress is piled on. Right now I feel like a time bomb and I'm going to explode at any moment, it just sucks, I hate it, and everything I do doesn't seem to help. I beat myself up over every little mistake I make, and with all of this....I just don't know....I'm my own puching bag....I know you're not supposed to sweat the small stuff, but I do, and it all gets to me.

I thank you if you actually bothered reading all this, and if you have any advice for me I'd greatly appreciate it. Have a nice day.

Ok, first off, haven't been on in a while because of the fact that I've been having multiple computer issues ever since March started, and on top of that, I had some minor surgery Monday of this week. I'm perfectly alright, but the resulting pain has left me for the most part trapped in my own house. Which isn't to say I'm lazing aorund, I've sketched out a few things and started a couple of new stories while I'm stuck. I hope to scan and put them up soon, and also get those stories and the next part of a Wolf's Journey up. Now before I go, I hope that you're keeping the people of Japan in your prayers from all the catastrophes that have been occurring int he past few days, and wish all people who're living there and in the surrounding areas well. Take care everyone, and have a nice day.

Realized I should probably update more, so I'll start now. I had a lot of near wrecks today while my mother drove me to the doctor's. I counted at least a dozen jackass, dickheaded, or completely retarded moves some people did that could've caused an accident. The snow plows here are complete slackers, with ice and slush so bad you have to straddle an island of snow to drive. I like the snow, but this is getting out of hand with yet ANOTHER one on its way. We've gotten about a foot and a half of snow here in only a few weeks, and while I may have snow in my username, I still can't stand this. But, it has its advantages, such as shutting my school down for two days straight .

And now for the progress update:
-Stories -
A Wolf's Journey: Next ch. on hold (3/8)
Origin story for two new characters: Moving at a snail's pace (6/10)
Another kid story (The parents you'll have to wait and see): Working on it (4/10)
Yet another kid story: On hold (6/10)

-Art-
Requests(3): I apologize, I lost my USB that had my pictures and have only just found it, so I'll get on those asap.
Sketches(Not even going to bother counting): Still going strong, few new characters.
Pictures to color(I'm guessing a dozen, excluding requests): Will work on them in free time

I thank you for your time reading this, and hope that you all have a nice day.....and for my fellow snow storm sufferers I feel your pain.

Happy New Year to all! Now then, I only have one request of everyone, not an art or story one, more of a decency one. If you are to consume alcohol of any sorts then please behave responsibly, don't be an Enash.

Enash: Ah shut up ya jerk! *Swings and completely misses as he falls face flat on the ground.*.....I think I'll just lie here a minute.....let the beer settle.

Precisely my point. Oh, and if you drive I'm sending my girlfriend wolfess Kate out to squash you, bye!