I DIDNT

I COULDNT T^T

Thirty minutes left...... Going to cry my last 30 minutes

If anyone can change my mind in the next 45 minutes I will consider not going through with it...............

But right now my mind is set....

..........

goodbye everyone............

Im....im just so confused and upset right now...........

I feel like I'm borthering everyone and making them miserable to but I don't want to be alone anymore. I had a severely bad day last week, resulting in a cloud of depression for a few days and then it comes back and Im just tired of it all.

What good am I to be alive to anyone and what is my purpose? Why should I live when people die everyday? Do I deserve to live?

to those i bothered today with my problems and sadness

i wont be around a lot for awhile....... sorry everyone

Should I put up my real self picture?

There just headshots and none are inappropriate but I'm scared to.....

Just want an opinion from everyone else

More and more journals come up like a plague, a pox of madness and horribleness of it all.

It tears at me......and eats me away to nothing

Tagged by  spyrothehedgehog

1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 8 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACKS

My Truths:
1) I can be extremely aggressive sometimes.
2) I have a major weakness for anything sweet >w<
3) In my entire life I have only been sick, 3-4 times. (I have an extremely good immune system)
4)I drink on occasion, mostly when I'm distraught or upset.
5) I love watching many different kinds of sports but my favorite team are the South Carolina Gamecocks (if ya don't know what a gamecock is, it is a fighting rooster XP )
6) I am very protective of someone I meet and get to know (so all my friends and artist I have met on here and elsewhere, I care about you so much even though I may never see you outside of here, but I like to know everything is ok ^^)
7) I do draw a lot but since my scanner broke and parents won't buy a new one, I'm not drawing much XD
8) If this one has to be my last truth then here it is,yes I am a sissy on occasion (so go ahead and laugh guys >.< )

I tag:
 anko_chan
 niku1987
 Benihime_Shido
 emeritus_terciel
 TaviMunk
 ozziekitskunk
 VaughnTalzer
 titanwolf34

I'm deeply sorry about my last jounal and I'm just so messed up in m head tight now and I'm soooo confused

I know leaving meant I wouldn't bother anyone with me moping but I wasn't sure if i could just leave without hurting so many of those who care for me.

V.V

I just want the right answer to it all

I feel that in everyone's best interest is that if I leave FA forever no one will ever have to here or listen to my moping or depression anymore so no one will be bothered.

Goodbye

I was at the park the other day and no incidents occured with my scaly friends to whom usually are a bit more active than they seemed to be yesterday.

If you are wondering what I'm rambling about it was my annual trip to Huntington Beach State Park to do my observations on the parks Alligator residents

I find them to be quite interesting :3

Pretty quiet lately, if im not on today to reply to messages I will be at the hospital having a limb reattached

How can we destroy so much and take without giving back......

It is sad to know that the beauty of today may be gone tomorrow

[ ] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish
[ ] You own a designer purse
[X] You own perfume that cost over $60
[ ] You had/have fake nails
[ ] You have more hair products and body products than you can use
[ Your pet is a Chihuahua/Pomeranian/Yorkshire Terrier(mix)/Siamese/Shih Tzu/mini anything
[ ] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[X] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp
[ ] You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper
[ ] A pink comforter, carpeting, walls or sheets
Total So Far: 2

Do you:
[ ] Spend more time at the mall than you do at homework
[ ] Have had a hair color that is not natural
[X] Have "blonde moments" at least once a day
[X] Buy stuff because it's awesome and then never wear/use it
[ ] Constantly keep your phone at your side (don't have a cell phone and what not)
[X] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home
[ ] Have a name for your car
[X] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[ ] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[ ] Prefer to be called "princess"
Total So Far: 6

Do you love:
[X] Makeup
[X] Glitter
[X] The color Pink
[X] Jewelry
[ ] Mirrors
[ ] Chick flicks
[ ] Shoes
[X] Rainbows
[ ] Unicorns
[X] Disney Movies
[X] Flowers
[X] Stuffed Animals
[ ] Purses
Total So Far: 14

Do you shop at:
[X] Coach
[ ] Forever 21
[X] Victoria's Secret
[ ] Guess
[ ] Claire's
[ ] Express
[ ] Delia's
[X] Hollister
[X] American Eagle
[X] Abercrombie Fitch
[X] Aeropostale
Total So Far: 20

Do you say:
[X] Whatever
[X] Oh my god
[ ] Hun
[X] Fugly
[X] That's hot
[ ] Dunzo
[ ] Darling
[X] Bff
[X] Cutie
[X] Hottie
[X] Skank
[X] Totally
[X] For Sure
[X] Fabulous
Total So Far: 31

Do you read:
[ ] Cosmopolitan
[ ] Glamour
[ ] Marie Claire
[ ] Elle Girl
[ ] Teen Vogue
[X] People
[ ] Us Weekly
[ ] Star
[ ] Self
[ ] PerezHilton.com
[ ] Dlisted.com
[ ] Seventeen
[ ] people.com
[X] usmagazine.com
[ ] popsugar.com
[ ] Pink Is The New Blog.com
Total So Far: 33

Do you love these:
[X] Legally Blonde
[ ] Elizabethtown
[ ] Mean Girls
[ ] Now & Then
[ ] The Notebook
[ ] A Walk to Remember
[X] Sweet Home Alabama
[ ] Where the Heart is
[ ] Just My luck
[ ] John Tucker Must Die
[ ] Center stage
[X] Bring it On
[ ] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[ ] Mona Lisa Smile
[X] My Girl
[ ] The Wedding Date
[X] 10 Things I Hate About You
Total So Far: 38

Do you really enjoy:
[X] America's Next Top Model
[ ] Project Runway
[X] Desperate Housewives
[ ] The Simple Life
[ ] 8th & Ocean
[X] Sex & the City
[X] Grey's Anatomy
[ ] The O.C.
[ ] The City
[X] Nip/Tuck
[X] Gilmore Girls
[X] Degrassi

Total: 45, take your total and multiply it by 2

I am 90% girly

O.O

So Snowy is a sissy I guess

X3

Well ladies and gentlemen I would just like to tell anyone lookngi for me next week that I will not be as active as usual since I am taking a week off at the beach. If the Wifi at the condo works correctly then I will be on either late at night, early morning, or late afternoon to reply to messages and i may get on YIM once or twice. If there is an emergency of some sort or I am needed I will try to attend to it ASAP. Thank you all and TTYL

~~SNOWY <3

Centaur:

[x] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[x] You get drunk a lot.
[x] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[ ] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[ ] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[ ] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[ ] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[ ] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[ ] You are possessive and territorial.

Total: 3

Elf:

[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[x] You are very intelligent.
[x] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[x] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[ ] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[x] You look very young for your age.
[x] You rarely get sick.
[x] You are a very hard worker.
[ ] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.

Total: 6

Fairy

[ ] You are happy a lot of the time.
[ ] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[x] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[ ] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[x] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[ ] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[ ] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.

Total: 3

Gnome/Dwarf:

[ ] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[x] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[x] You are short for your age.
[x] You are an isolated person
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[ ] You look older than your age.
[ ] You love the woods and the mountains.
[x] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[x] You have a short temper.

Total: 5

Harpy/Siren:

[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[x] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[x] You often take things that aren't yours.
[x] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[ ] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[ ] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[x] You have a ravenous appetite.

Total: 6

Mermaid:

[x] You love the beach more so because of the water than the shore itself.
[x] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[ ] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater
[ ] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[x] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[x] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[ ] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps (if you haven't already), you will work to stop that.
[ ] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.

Total: 6

Vampire:

[ ] You're a night person.
[x] You have a fascination with blood.
[x] You are extremely pale.
[ ] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[x] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[ ] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[ ] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.
[ ] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[ ] You don't like sharp objects near you.

Total: 3

Werewolf:

[x] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[x] You have a lot of body hair.
[ ] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[ ] You lack self control.
[x] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[ ] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[ ] You like to be alone.
[x] If You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it.
[ ] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.

Total: 4

Wizard/Witch:

[x] You love chemistry.
[x] You are intuitive and good at analyzing people, to the point that people seriously or jokingly say you're psychic.
[ ] The most amazing supernatural power to you is controlling the elements.
[x] You are a nature lover.
[ ] You have a strong sense of responsibility.
[x] You spend a lot of time alone.
[ ] You usually hang around with a certain animal all the time when you feel lonely.
[ ] You are spiritual, but not necessarily religious.
[ ] Cooking is one of your favorite things to do.
[ ] You enjoy learning about Wicca and the occult.

Total: 4

Zombie:

[x] You are pale.
[x] You are hungry a lot.
[x] Many activities you do every day make you feel mindless, or like a drone.
[ ] Most of the time you or a part of you is cold.
[x] You love to eat meat
[x] You would resort to cannibalism if that was the only source of food.
[ ] You make grunts and moans a lot.
[ ] You usually walk slow.
[x] You are not afraid of seeing a lot of blood or getting a lot of blood on yourself.

Total: 6

Satyr/Faun:

[x] You are very passionate about the things you like.
[ ] You like to get drunk and dance.
[ ] You're very amorous.
[x] You like art and music.
[ ] You enjoy feasting with friends.
[x] You love nature but more for the animals then than the trees and plants.
[x] You like getting rowdy and having a good time.
[ ] You laugh a lot.
[x] You love the chase almost as much as the capture.
[ ] You wish you had horns.

Total: 5

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1477443/

My friend is in the process of making a new story and he needs characters if you want yours in there ^^

...I have begun to notice more people are taking pictures and showing there true human forms >w<

Interesting indeed...... Keep on posting them

So while I was gone, something seriously bad almost happened.

I was cleanning out the pool and the ladder and the vaccum the cleans the pool floor was running around the surface with its long tube that connects to a water pump to run it. Now while under the ladder scrubbing it, my lung started to cramp so I went up for air and got stuckin the ladder, unable to move. Flailing about I tried to reach the surface the vaccum tube got caught around my neck and choked me. If I hadnt pulled out after abbout 10 seconds, I don't think I would be here. ;-;

Today was a storm of bad luck over my head.

This morning: After finishing my morning run I puked my guts out on the sidewalk and fell down the stairs.

Noon: While making a sandwich I spilled an entirely new jar of mayo all over the floor -__- and of course and while hauling wood to the street I was biten by at least twenty ants on my feet (my luck of wearing flip-flops)

This Afternoon: Sprained my ankle while taking another run and breaking my pinky toe's toenail in half when I stubbed it against the door.

Then right before this journal I choked on a blueberry and thankfully was helped by my father who had just happened to get home from work.....


I feel like their is someone out to get me or kill me v.v

If anyone cares to boost on COD MW2 for Xbox I'm on and hosting a party, comment if ya wanna join.

I've recently been taking some online screen tests about my depression and I kept getting a possible early stage into {schizophrenia}

If you know anything about it I would love to know some more info please.