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The truth about me (my confession to all)
Posted 8 years agoI used a percentage poses, bases, references, music samples, photos, Magazines, artworks but I forgot to give credit to the people that I got it from online, offline. (30%)
I do have a percentage of original works, original creations. (50%)
update my new posts, old posts, some original posts from the original art may be confusing or that put them in a type of some up, try to promote the people who done my characters, even those I messed up time.(20%)
You can look into my scraps, gallery.
This is why I am too fast or too slow on my artworks.
I even lied about on when the artworks were created in, I feel guilty. I did trace over some poses back then, but I stop doing that in 2015.
At least I confessed my sins to all.
***I even changed some dates on my drawings, artworks because I wanted to get back at Japanese entertainment like videogames, anime, music, model action figures companies back in 2011-2013 back when I was in high school, I even changed old posts by updating them.***
Overtime I will create better, update drawings from their original first date but it may be hard to do so I will have to redraw them in the year I am in right now.
I do have a percentage of original works, original creations. (50%)
update my new posts, old posts, some original posts from the original art may be confusing or that put them in a type of some up, try to promote the people who done my characters, even those I messed up time.(20%)
You can look into my scraps, gallery.
This is why I am too fast or too slow on my artworks.
I even lied about on when the artworks were created in, I feel guilty. I did trace over some poses back then, but I stop doing that in 2015.
At least I confessed my sins to all.
***I even changed some dates on my drawings, artworks because I wanted to get back at Japanese entertainment like videogames, anime, music, model action figures companies back in 2011-2013 back when I was in high school, I even changed old posts by updating them.***
Overtime I will create better, update drawings from their original first date but it may be hard to do so I will have to redraw them in the year I am in right now.
News!!!
Posted 8 years agoI have now been told I have Autism and Schizophrenia which is true with I might add in from the other journal I did types in before.
I have mental Illnesses
Posted 8 years agoI have
*ADHD or "Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder" (late 90s-now) (When I was 5 years old in 1999, my mother told me 2017.)
*Major Schizophrenia (2007-now)
Anxiety disorder (2013-now)
*Major depression (2007-now)
paranoia (2014-now)
Bipolar disorder (2017-now)
panic attacks (2013-now)
psychosis (2007-now)
*I can hear voices in my head (2007-now)
Suicidal thoughts (2017-now)
Autism (2017)
I will admit that I have problems.
I do have meds for it but I refuse to take them due to the fact that any meds I may take will make my illness worse than it is already is. The voices get stronger and stronger if I take the medications. They may fade over time in my life or not. Please understand that I have problems. But now... I have to take meds again but this time I have to take them, I have no other choice but their is shots but still... I want to live a good life, not a bad one but my health... I have panic attacks.
I even Overdosed on April 3, 2017 but I survived in the hospital by people giving me a solid black liquid, they called it Charcoal for me to drink so it can eat away the pills that was in the stomach. To this day I still don't want any meds anymore. It effected me too much. But I may get my meds handle by my mother which she will give me by hand which means I will need to still takes my meds no matter what.
I am a mentally ill person.
I did in fact with to the mental Hospital 3 times this years in February 2017, March 2017, April 2017, even before many times.
I don't want to go to any mental hospitals anymore. It costs money, time, resources, most of the time it doesn't even work out for me. All I can do is live my life since I have now told you all the truth about me. The missing puzzle piece of who I truly am.
I did some research on Voices, other things: http://mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/0.....es-treatments/
http://news.nationalpost.com/health.....study-suggests
http://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/al.....rticle/483380/
https://www.alzinfo.org/articles/pi.....to-alzheimers/
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....on-treatment#1
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....on-treatment#2
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....on-treatment#3
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#1
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#2
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#3
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#4
http://www.alzheimers.net/2014-05-1.....or-alzheimers/
http://www.everydayhealth.com/depre.....e-effects.aspx
https://www.cchrint.org/psychiatric.....ntsideeffects/
http://health.usnews.com/health-new.....ntidepressants
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/ar.....es/PMC3353604/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antid.....d_suicide_risk
https://www.madinamerica.com/2016/1.....violence-ages/
Off topic subject:
Fun Facts about Painkillers: http://drugabuse.com/library/the-ef.....ainkiller-use/
http://www.narconon.org/drug-abuse/.....dy-damage.html
http://www.narconon.org/blog/heroin.....rns-to-heroin/
https://www.nytimes.com/2014/02/11/.....to-heroin.html
http://www.cnn.com/2014/08/29/healt.....-consequences/
*ADHD or "Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder" (late 90s-now) (When I was 5 years old in 1999, my mother told me 2017.)
*Major Schizophrenia (2007-now)
Anxiety disorder (2013-now)
*Major depression (2007-now)
paranoia (2014-now)
Bipolar disorder (2017-now)
panic attacks (2013-now)
psychosis (2007-now)
*I can hear voices in my head (2007-now)
Suicidal thoughts (2017-now)
Autism (2017)
I will admit that I have problems.
I do have meds for it but I refuse to take them due to the fact that any meds I may take will make my illness worse than it is already is. The voices get stronger and stronger if I take the medications. They may fade over time in my life or not. Please understand that I have problems. But now... I have to take meds again but this time I have to take them, I have no other choice but their is shots but still... I want to live a good life, not a bad one but my health... I have panic attacks.
I even Overdosed on April 3, 2017 but I survived in the hospital by people giving me a solid black liquid, they called it Charcoal for me to drink so it can eat away the pills that was in the stomach. To this day I still don't want any meds anymore. It effected me too much. But I may get my meds handle by my mother which she will give me by hand which means I will need to still takes my meds no matter what.
I am a mentally ill person.
I did in fact with to the mental Hospital 3 times this years in February 2017, March 2017, April 2017, even before many times.
I don't want to go to any mental hospitals anymore. It costs money, time, resources, most of the time it doesn't even work out for me. All I can do is live my life since I have now told you all the truth about me. The missing puzzle piece of who I truly am.
I did some research on Voices, other things: http://mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/0.....es-treatments/
http://news.nationalpost.com/health.....study-suggests
http://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/al.....rticle/483380/
https://www.alzinfo.org/articles/pi.....to-alzheimers/
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....on-treatment#1
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....on-treatment#2
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....on-treatment#3
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#1
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#2
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#3
http://www.webmd.com/depression/fea.....idepressants#4
http://www.alzheimers.net/2014-05-1.....or-alzheimers/
http://www.everydayhealth.com/depre.....e-effects.aspx
https://www.cchrint.org/psychiatric.....ntsideeffects/
http://health.usnews.com/health-new.....ntidepressants
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/ar.....es/PMC3353604/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antid.....d_suicide_risk
https://www.madinamerica.com/2016/1.....violence-ages/
Off topic subject:
Fun Facts about Painkillers: http://drugabuse.com/library/the-ef.....ainkiller-use/
http://www.narconon.org/drug-abuse/.....dy-damage.html
http://www.narconon.org/blog/heroin.....rns-to-heroin/
https://www.nytimes.com/2014/02/11/.....to-heroin.html
http://www.cnn.com/2014/08/29/healt.....-consequences/
Well I guess I should retire this account
Posted 8 years agoIt seems I shouldn't even be posting my works on Deviantart or anywhere. I will be only be drawing only in home.
My family was right... I should of listened to the before. I lie too much about years, dates, more. I will only draw in my home, never to post my works on the internet again. I already damaged reputation online. It may take 10 years for me to come back to normal or more. I may need to go now bye.
My family was right... I should of listened to the before. I lie too much about years, dates, more. I will only draw in my home, never to post my works on the internet again. I already damaged reputation online. It may take 10 years for me to come back to normal or more. I may need to go now bye.
I draw, post for free
Posted 8 years agoThat is all.
I am American
Posted 8 years agoThat is all.
All of my stuff is on Deviantart
Posted 8 years agoI have a Discord Account
Posted 9 years agoIt's been awhile...
Posted 9 years agoI haven't posted anything for such a long time since I am always on Deviantart: http://snowwolf10.deviantart.com/
I will only post to what I see fit. Since I am picky at times with what I can post due to what is improved in my style to show. So... Enjoy your days people.
I will only post to what I see fit. Since I am picky at times with what I can post due to what is improved in my style to show. So... Enjoy your days people.
Past history of decisions lead to my depression
Posted 9 years agoIt's hard for me to explain it since since it's already it said in done. Make times I asked myself today, if I ever want back in time to warn myself that Japanese Corporations will take your ideas, so they can make a quick bucks. If I ever gave myself all this stuff from the future to the past. I will have corrected everything on all mistakes. I know it many choices I had. I should just stop drawing, Restore my way to health, rebuild my a new for this month, many years to come as I try to reach my high self for answers. I have no trust in telling my family since they love gossip, I hate to the point where I would rather not say anything until I die. I am quiet type of person that keeps a lot of secrets even to others just so I don't get them in trouble, even my sources, more people that I know, don't know. I shut my mouth as long as I remain safe, calm about the actions taken.
In reality my life was wasn't that great as it is from past journals of mines before. My works, that worlds I create is my escape from what reality is. Have to Realize that Japan copies, steal, even not give credit were it's due. I guess it's different in a business point, I understand if they are overworked, trying to cut corners with no creativity at all in many levels of types of Corporations. If only I just listen to my mother a long time ago. I wouldn't have meet you all in the first place or the Internet. Or having the fear that the Japanese that hated would hire hit men to take me down for exposing their plans.
To be honest... I don't care if anything happens to me, I don't care if Americans get abducted by Japanese for ideas, I don't care if they are stealing from out side of Japan can come with their own ideas without an outside source, I don't care about anything to what I create. I don't care about the world as we all know it. However... when I make characters, designs... They are my friends to talk to the most in real life or in my dreams, I don't have real friends around my area, in this day in age it's to make any friends. I just feel alone, even with my family- I am still alone. My family to be is just something in the way. I just want to make small then big in life.
I already gave up on my passion. Who knows... I will no longer use the internet for some time. I don't care anymore.
I do blame myself for all of my actions. If only I had the power to rewind time so I can stop what already happened.
I know more of you are tired of me talking about my problems, such... I am deeply sorry everyone. I just need to get off the web since maybe the Internet isn't a place for me to explain my ideas, such to others or any of my opinions.
It's a scar of my life, left hand that I will never forget, a lesson to always set things on your own terms before you answer to anything so everything can be set in straight for what's come in the end.
I need to go. I will come back in 10 years. I hope everyone is settled then... bye...
In reality my life was wasn't that great as it is from past journals of mines before. My works, that worlds I create is my escape from what reality is. Have to Realize that Japan copies, steal, even not give credit were it's due. I guess it's different in a business point, I understand if they are overworked, trying to cut corners with no creativity at all in many levels of types of Corporations. If only I just listen to my mother a long time ago. I wouldn't have meet you all in the first place or the Internet. Or having the fear that the Japanese that hated would hire hit men to take me down for exposing their plans.
To be honest... I don't care if anything happens to me, I don't care if Americans get abducted by Japanese for ideas, I don't care if they are stealing from out side of Japan can come with their own ideas without an outside source, I don't care about anything to what I create. I don't care about the world as we all know it. However... when I make characters, designs... They are my friends to talk to the most in real life or in my dreams, I don't have real friends around my area, in this day in age it's to make any friends. I just feel alone, even with my family- I am still alone. My family to be is just something in the way. I just want to make small then big in life.
I already gave up on my passion. Who knows... I will no longer use the internet for some time. I don't care anymore.
I do blame myself for all of my actions. If only I had the power to rewind time so I can stop what already happened.
I know more of you are tired of me talking about my problems, such... I am deeply sorry everyone. I just need to get off the web since maybe the Internet isn't a place for me to explain my ideas, such to others or any of my opinions.
It's a scar of my life, left hand that I will never forget, a lesson to always set things on your own terms before you answer to anything so everything can be set in straight for what's come in the end.
I need to go. I will come back in 10 years. I hope everyone is settled then... bye...
I will be honest with guys...
Posted 9 years agoI am nervous when I post my works on FA. Like I don't know what's the reactions to people looking at my works.
Please understand that I am a type of person that worked hours on my works, even energy in doing this.
Please understand that I am a type of person that worked hours on my works, even energy in doing this.
I am back now
Posted 9 years agoIt's been for sometime now.
I am more mature.
And more newer works will come soon.
I am more mature.
And more newer works will come soon.
I apologize to everyone that I hurt before over the decades
Posted 9 years agoI really mean it. I really sincerely apologize to everyone. Even the friends that I had which they wouldn't talk to me.
I am sorry for my childish behavior over many times. I will for now on watch in what I say, make sure that my actions will reflect upon that matter.
I lost so many great friends, people that I knew of wanted to know. I knew told no one secrets or cause any type of drama.
I am only reforming myself to my duties, I regret in my own words in what I said to many others after.
In my own mind. If only the people that I hurt can forgive me in I have done to them all.
I will do anything to earn back your respect in what it takes to having you all to have trust on me.
I am ashamed as human being in why I hurt people with my words. However... I can feel the emotions that are coming to others when they read this journal.
Please Understand that I accept my own errors. And I want to correct them now. I don't want to live in the shadows or having to hide my issues with some people. I choose what is right, not that is only giving another pain which I will not laugh at. I express this apology letter to all who couldn't forgive me or were not in the mood to talk to me anymore. I get it. You are mad. To be honest... I changed my values on how to social with people that are different from me. I adapt to their personalities, so fore.
I wish to all to forgive me, I made so many regrets. I know that it's past and done. I get it. I just want every to be over with it so I can remain in talking with the friends that I use to talk with before.
Thank you everyone for supporting me. I am sorry in my heart. *Tears* I made so many errors.
However I am a man about it. I will man up to accept my wrong doings. And change my lifely hood so many can see that I have the courage to stand up and say "I apologize to the ones that use to be my friends, I will never in my life ever do such inhumane actions that can jeopardize my image, trust, friendship among we humans, integrity etc... in my wake. "
If only I can say sorry to them people in real life. And have human handshake so I don't have to deal or repeat the same mistakes again.
That is all.
Hopefully... my old friends can forgive or if not then it's ok. That is all in my mind.
Thank you for reading.
I am sorry for my childish behavior over many times. I will for now on watch in what I say, make sure that my actions will reflect upon that matter.
I lost so many great friends, people that I knew of wanted to know. I knew told no one secrets or cause any type of drama.
I am only reforming myself to my duties, I regret in my own words in what I said to many others after.
In my own mind. If only the people that I hurt can forgive me in I have done to them all.
I will do anything to earn back your respect in what it takes to having you all to have trust on me.
I am ashamed as human being in why I hurt people with my words. However... I can feel the emotions that are coming to others when they read this journal.
Please Understand that I accept my own errors. And I want to correct them now. I don't want to live in the shadows or having to hide my issues with some people. I choose what is right, not that is only giving another pain which I will not laugh at. I express this apology letter to all who couldn't forgive me or were not in the mood to talk to me anymore. I get it. You are mad. To be honest... I changed my values on how to social with people that are different from me. I adapt to their personalities, so fore.
I wish to all to forgive me, I made so many regrets. I know that it's past and done. I get it. I just want every to be over with it so I can remain in talking with the friends that I use to talk with before.
Thank you everyone for supporting me. I am sorry in my heart. *Tears* I made so many errors.
However I am a man about it. I will man up to accept my wrong doings. And change my lifely hood so many can see that I have the courage to stand up and say "I apologize to the ones that use to be my friends, I will never in my life ever do such inhumane actions that can jeopardize my image, trust, friendship among we humans, integrity etc... in my wake. "
If only I can say sorry to them people in real life. And have human handshake so I don't have to deal or repeat the same mistakes again.
That is all.
Hopefully... my old friends can forgive or if not then it's ok. That is all in my mind.
Thank you for reading.
Question? Who wants me to make them a character?
Posted 9 years agoNo joke.
Give me a list of what the armor or clothing or a race should be, be creative, no fandom stuff oh right.
An original list of details so I can get it right.
List of slots:
1. open
2. open
3. open
4. open
5. open
6. open
7. open
8. open
Give me a list of what the armor or clothing or a race should be, be creative, no fandom stuff oh right.
An original list of details so I can get it right.
List of slots:
1. open
2. open
3. open
4. open
5. open
6. open
7. open
8. open
Sorry if I was inactive on FA
Posted 9 years agoI been in DA for sometime.
Just to chill out, post a shit ton of works, of and old.
I express that I am renewed, up to date on my stuff.
Here is my Deviantart: http://snowwolf10.deviantart.com/
Note me if you want.
I am never mad.
I got over my past problems on FA with some users here.
So that is all.
I did act all childish before so now I am more mature, stable to talk to anyone.
My skype is snowwolf1000
If anyone wants to talk to me on some things.
Just to chill out, post a shit ton of works, of and old.
I express that I am renewed, up to date on my stuff.
Here is my Deviantart: http://snowwolf10.deviantart.com/
Note me if you want.
I am never mad.
I got over my past problems on FA with some users here.
So that is all.
I did act all childish before so now I am more mature, stable to talk to anyone.
My skype is snowwolf1000
If anyone wants to talk to me on some things.
Free art requests!
Posted 9 years agoJust tell me what you want, I will draw it!
Simple as that. *No fan requests but only Original characters!
Please comment or note me!
Simple as that. *No fan requests but only Original characters!
Please comment or note me!
I am going to be gone for a while
Posted 10 years agoI may no longer be active due to my own faults of before. It not my past but my troubles that people will try to bring up on me.
That is why this year I will need to change, not repeat my mistakes from before.
I will keep in touch guys much love SnowWolf1
P.S. You can unwatch me if you want too.
I don't mind at all. No new works will come soon. All works are in Scraps.
Bye
P.S.: I am leaving FA for good so watch me on Deviantart:
http://snowwolf10.deviantart.com/
That is why this year I will need to change, not repeat my mistakes from before.
I will keep in touch guys much love SnowWolf1
P.S. You can unwatch me if you want too.
I don't mind at all. No new works will come soon. All works are in Scraps.
Bye
P.S.: I am leaving FA for good so watch me on Deviantart:
http://snowwolf10.deviantart.com/
I will be taking a huge list of requests
Posted 10 years agoFor Celebrating 4 years on FA, also I am picky so if I did not pick you then please remain calm, relax so I may later do more.
*You don't have to advertise me those but it's only optionable.
Will Draw :
*Anime like characters that are original from you people that have been created, not fanmade.
*Furries
*Porn but not too extreme
*Doodles
*Demons
*Angels
*Sci-fi
Will not draw:
*Any fetishes unless it's appropriate for a general theme
*baby furries
***They all have to be Safe For Work
So I need to see first clothing on characters, full refs of them.
Or give me a challenge.***
*You don't have to advertise me those but it's only optionable.
Will Draw :
*Anime like characters that are original from you people that have been created, not fanmade.
*Furries
*Porn but not too extreme
*Doodles
*Demons
*Angels
*Sci-fi
Will not draw:
*Any fetishes unless it's appropriate for a general theme
*baby furries
***They all have to be Safe For Work
So I need to see first clothing on characters, full refs of them.
Or give me a challenge.***
I made another account
Posted 10 years ago1 free request (First comes first serve)
Posted 10 years agoCome and take it!!!
1.
1.
I'm back. I didn't leave FA
Posted 10 years agoI'm a live and well.
I'm starting over, most of my past is in the Scraps so see them or not.
But I guess... I will not do any requests. I have canelled all of them. But new ones I will do.
Not on this journal ok.
Next one.
I'm starting over, most of my past is in the Scraps so see them or not.
But I guess... I will not do any requests. I have canelled all of them. But new ones I will do.
Not on this journal ok.
Next one.
The United States just Declared war on Syria
Posted 10 years agoWorld War 3 has now officially begins
Anti-GMO labeling law passes House vote (USA only)
Posted 10 years agoI'm doing freebies on Deviantart!
Posted 10 years agoMy birthday is coming soon in July
Posted 10 years agoMy birthday is on the July 27, 2015.
I'm going to turn 21.
I know... I'm only going to drink some orange juice on my birthday.
I still treat myself like I was still in school in the 9th or the 7th grade.
But that's only in my own mindset.
I have lot to learn ahead of me so wish me luck.
I'm going to turn 21.
I know... I'm only going to drink some orange juice on my birthday.
I still treat myself like I was still in school in the 9th or the 7th grade.
But that's only in my own mindset.
I have lot to learn ahead of me so wish me luck.
